#i hate how ive been like- abjectly lonely the last few weeks

[hollyhomburg]

My biggest pet peeve is officially people who make me make all the decisions about planning things. I am literally the most go with the flow person, but I cannot be the person deciding things or elce I will spend the whole time wondering if the other person is having fun and then I won’t have fun at all. and I’ll just sit through whatever we’re doing while going into an anxious spiral about makeing sure they’re happy spending time with me and be convinced they had the worst time ever by the time it’s done. And I just end up exhausted from my anxiety and not recharged at all.