#i havent actually eaten since yesterday afternoon

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Haha we used heating so we're fucked again

[wh6res]

127 SQUAD AND ROMANTIC BF TINGS

tw a lil bit of suggestive on jae's but nothing explicit

✰ — TAEIL would sing lullabies over the phone or video call. you and him would just be doing your own thing, not talking but enjoying being each other's presence. he'll probably pull out his guitar and start singing random songs until he eventually notices you fell asleep on him. will not end the call and when you wake up in the morning, his snores and his cute sleeping face is the first thing you see. "love? you still there? ... taeil?" then laugh out loud when you hear his snores instead. "okay yeah lets sleep more" the call will only end probably because his phone died. he kinda strikes me as a guy who's phone is always < 50% battery lmao

✰ — JOHNNY is your everything. literally. as long as he has the power of youtube, google, and instruction manuals on his side, he can fix anything and everything for you. we've all seen him do crafty things on jcc lmao so it'll probably apply to relationships as well. will 100% say you now owe him cuddles for fixing something for you. you kinda dont like the fact that he's doing all these things for you so you try doing them on your own without him knowing only to fail big time. "what did we learn today?" "never touch the pipes under the sink" "and?" "and always ask johnny for help" "nuh-uh thats not how i said it" you sigh exasperatedly "always let my smokin hot amazing handsome boyfriend johnny suh get the job done"

✰ — TAEYONG doesn't care whether you take the time shopping or not. in fact, he loves seeing you all excited and giddy for pampering yourself as you should. totally the type to hold the paper bags even if you complain and say you can manage on your own. is a complete angel and will wait patiently outside changing rooms and will give you genuine insight he has of the clothes you picked. "that looks nice. you should get that. the length is just right and the sleeves help accentuate your waist" "really yongie?" "yes love. i mean you look pretty in everything anyway" miss ma'am my heart just fucking melted ?¿?

✰ — YUTA doesn't look like it but will exert real effort into things. would be the type to have a note or a google doc about your favorite orders from restaurants because he just loves how your eyes light up appreciatively and you look so smitten by him. its like a cheat sheet. eventually he memorizes the list with how much time he spends with you and he wont even need it. the type to always bring you food before meeting you (if its just hanging out inside the house). "no way! i was just craving for these!" he smiles before kissing your forehead, volunteering to put the food out its container for you. "i figured. you'd been working since this afternoon. lets eat first then you can tell me about what you've been working on so i can help you, okay?"

✰ — DOYOUNG loves cooking for you. i highkey feel like its his love language? like cooking for you and seeing your eyes light up as it darts back to him after you take your first bite from whatever he cooked just gives him so much happiness. its disgustingly sappy and he doesn't like talking about it. now he understood fully what it meant to see your loved ones eating and being full yourself or some shit. idk how the actual quote goes okay dont come 4 me but u probably get it. anyway the type to always pack you lunch and will get hella mad if you skip meals. "what do you mean you havent eaten yet?" "yeah but i will after i--" "you mean you're going to eat Now?" "what? no maybe later--" "thats it im coming over"

✰ — JAEHYUN would be the type to make you playlists. its really random sometimes he'll send them to you in the early morning for the heck of it bc he cant sleep. most of the time its him being horny lmao the frat boy in him awakening and sending you a playlist called imma blow your back out or something extremely cringey and thirsty pls dont block his sorry ass maybe he'd spell out the words using song titles too! idk jae just rlly strikes me as a guy who's love language is music. "hey babe did you check the playlist i sent you?" "wtf its 4am???" "oh so you havent listened to it yet?" "fuck off" but at the end of the day he'll come over and will use the playlist to,,, you know,,, do the sexy thing ;)

✰ — JUNGWOO always makes sure you walk on the inside of the road. you know when you're walking in the street and he softly nudges your waist? yes. will probably even scold you playfully because with how long its been since you both are together, "babe you always walk on the inside of the road how many times do i have to tell you?" is also the type to remind you to wear your seatbelt immediately after hopping onto his car. would ask you Again while in the middle of the car ride because he forgot that he already asked you earlier. please don't mind him he's just looking out for you bb. "seatbelt?" "yes, babe. already done" "are you sure? i dont think i heard it click--" "babe eyes on the road please" "oh right sorry"

✰ — MARK sends you tiktoks, vines, or memes. this is his love language fite me im calling it. he just wants to see you laugh too okay? thats why he does it. i mean it made him laugh, so maybe it will you laugh too. also because he hopes to make inside jokes with u cuz he believes thats how people really get close and stuff. would definitely love it if you do the same thing with him. you'd be chilling in the sofa while khalid plays on the bluetooth speaker and he'll suddenly go "babe babe babe check this out!" then you both proceed to laugh at a vine for the next thirty minutes <3 #living.the.yn.life

✰ — HAECHAN will do your skincare for you when you're drunk or super tired that you just passed out cold on the bed. would probably come into the room to see you snoring and tutting bc now he has to do it for you again but meh deep down he loves it because he enjoys admiring your sleeping face. its sorta like a healing thing for him? yeah it just washes away all the stress he's feeling and bb is just excited about the idea that this becomes "your thing" with him if u get what im saying? altho the next day he'll probably use it as a leverage to get out of chores :) "no way im not folding our clothes" "and why is that?" "i took your make up off yesterday u know how hard that is? im still tired" "but its literally the next day--" "awww thank you for doing my chores, baby! u the best!" ._.

[mother-snake]

its only logical

(loceit angst? More likely than you think! Anyways hello and enjoy this piece of garbage that I call my writing. I might tun this into a mini au… so you might get a second part later)

started this yesterday afternoon and havent slept since :P

 word count:5461

warnings: angst and remus being remus.(tell me if yall need more)

-Logan has had enough of the light sides not listening to him. And after being silenced… well, Janus knows how it feels and offers him a place at his side as a fellow dark. He takes the offer. –

Come along with me And the butterflies and bees

 Logan stared at the computer screen in front of himself. He knew that this would be worthless… he knew that they wouldn’t stick to his schedule. They hadn’t last time or the several times before then. A wish upon a star…

He looked at the computer before closing it over and rubbing his neck. The bruise that spanned over the back had gone down to a light pale green, but that didn’t mean it didn’t hurt.

Janus had immediately apologized when he had hooked his neck instead of his shoulder.

After the video he had actually came to check up on him. He had been doing so for a while thinking about it. Every other day at least. For two weeks now.

He had been meaning to ask the other something. The date on the wall showed that today would be a visiting one. A small smile came on his face and was just as quickly gone.

He couldn’t feel emotion. He was the brain. He didn’t have any.

 “lying to yourself again about that?” the familiar voice rang through his room. “its not a lie, it’s the truth,” “and my job is dealing with Thomas’s creativity,” he sighed, “so, what’s wrong?”

“why is everything I do ignored, why do I try so hard to be seen when I never do in the end,” Logan muttered, “am I just doing things that will inevitably be ignored.”

 Logan turned his eyes to see Janus sitting on the edge of his bed. Looking like he was processing what to say next before his eyes lit up slightly. “then come join me!” he cheered, “join me in the dark side.”

Logan hadn’t been expecting that of all things. He had to process for a couple seconds… joining the dark sides?

That actually that didn’t sound so bad when he thought about it. “think about it, were both not listened to, we could use the company and if we work together, they might listen!” Janus sounded almost like a child on Christmas.

Logan let a small smile appear, “how would we do it?”

Janus smiled back, “I can move your room but ill be out like a light as soon as it’s done,”

Logan pondered a little longer before nodding.

 As said Janus snapped his fingers and collapsed but was caught by the logical side who moved him onto his bed.

Was that really it? Was that all it took?

We can wander through the forest And do so as we please

 Once he got the other in a comfier position he cautiously walked over to his door. He gave it a small nudge and it creaked open. The first thing he noticed was the amount of plants in the hall. The walls were black and the floor a sleek wood.

It felt homely compared to the plain empty white one of the lights.

 He closed the door as he re entered his room. He sighed and sat down in the spinney chair. He twisted it back to the computer that lay closed over. He opened the laptop and began to type.

--

He wasn’t sure when he had fallen asleep. But he had awoken on his bed where Janus should have been.

Wait… oh, yes that was something he had forgotten about quickly. But a smile formed as he made his way to the door and down the hall. There was space between a few plants that were able to fit doors. The only ones there being a bright yellow and dark navy door.

 He wondered how long he’d been asleep for. He heard footsteps coming down the hall, ones he could easily pinpoint as Janus.

He had been surprised when he realized the smile on his face had yet to disappear.

When Janus turned the corner and into Logan’s view, he could feel the blush forming.

The deceitful side was in black shorts and a plain short sleeved yellow shirt. His long hair in a messy bun. He still looked half asleep.

He was holding two cups. He guessed that’s where the coffee smell was coming from.

 “good morning Logan,” he said as he caught sight of the other standing at the door. “good morning to you too Janus.” “coffee, black three sugars,” he was handed a black mug.

He opened his door and reentered the smallish room, the other close behind.

 He looked over to his desk and the computer. Last night he managed to get over half of a weeks forth of work done. One or two more hours and it might be done on time.

A small part of him began to wonder if the others had noticed if he had left to join the scaley side.

 He looked over to the other who had wrapped himself with the several blankets that had occupied his bed.

“I have an idea id like to try,” logic said, catching the attention of the other. “and what would that be?” he could tell the other was curious. “I think an outfit change is in order.”

--

 Janus sleepily smiled at the other as he began to open the wardrobe and pull out different artifacts of clothing. most were different shades of blue. But the ones that had caught Janus’s eyes were the couple pieces of coral colored clothing.

It wasn’t much but they seemed to be the few pieces to stand out in his mind.

 Once the coffee kicked in, he unraveled himself and made his way over to the pile.

A plain white long-sleeved shirt, dark grey knee shorts and a coral moth-eaten hoodie. Black combat boots also had caught his attention.

he grabbed the pieces and shoved them in the arm of the other. He looked at Logan with a grin as he made his way to the small bathroom connected to the room.

 A small blush appeared on the scaled side. He was happy to see the other shedding his skin for something new. He chuckled at the unintentional pun that had slipped through his thoughts.

It was another five minutes before the other stepped out in the new outfit.

It took Janus a while to process what he was seeing. Snapping out of his thoughts as the other shifted in his spot for a couple seconds. “that’s the one,” Janus grinned.

Logan blushed for a couple seconds as he looked at his new friend.

Come along with me To a cliff under a tree

 It was another four hours of them cuddling when he felt it

That familiar tug on the stomach. He was being summoned by one of the others or Thomas. And apparently it wasn’t just him. Janus had shifted to look at the other in confusion.

 “should we go?” Janus asked the other. “I think we should. They are going to find out sooner or later,” he groaned.

 The tug came back for the two of them. they quickly stood up and grabbed the tugging sensation and followed it into Thomas’s living room.

 When they rose up the first thing, they had seen was the confused looks of the others. Most likely because they weren’t waring what they usually wearing.

 “I didn’t catch you at a bad time, did I?” Thomas asked guiltily. “no, you didn’t, now what seems to be the problem Thomas,” Logan said.

“actually, can I just ask why we needed deceit of all people here for this,” Virgil growled.

“we need Janus’s input too Virge,” Patton said calmly.

 The conversation went on from there. Several times the logical side and deceitful side had been interrupted or ignored.

They looked at each other before Janus pulled everyone’s hand’s over their mouths other than Logan.

 They looked over to Janus who stood with an icy glare. Logan’s eyes holding the same look.

It was at that moment the lights looked at Logan waiting for him to explain. “I’ve had enough. I’ve told you before you don’t listen to me, and this is your consequence.”

“we’re tired of being ignored. If you want us, we will be ignoring you,” Janus gave a sickly smile as he sunk out.

Logan stayed as the others finally had the ability to speak. “Logan” Thomas muttered. “if you don’t want to listen, then don’t. but we will make you listen.”

He sunk out.

 He arrived next to Janus who was rubbing his temples. He didn’t blame the other, the others were always difficult to deal with.

He gingerly walked over to the other and pulled him into a loose hug. He felt the other hug back, head resting on his own due to the height difference.

 They stood like that for a small while longer. Both not wanting to let go but knowing they would have to in the end.

 Where we can gaze upon the water As an everlasting dream

 Two weeks since the incident and things had slowly begun to change between the two of them quickly. Logan could feel himself showing emotion. He could finish work quicker knowing that Janus wouldn’t get angry at him if he didn’t get it done on time. He also spent more time in the others room.

Janus had always been closed off. Mainly in fear that if he got too close people it would just hurt if they left. But now he was spending most of his time stroking Logan’s hair as they cuddled on the couch in the dark communal area.

 Logan had been asleep for around half an hour. Head resting on his chest as he cuddled the other like a koala. the shift in the air was enough for Janus to look around. Standing by the entrance were two people he wishes weren’t there.

Patton and Thomas.

 They looked over in his direction and looked almost startled upon seeing him. I moved my hand and put a finger up to my lips, they better be quiet.

Seeming to take the hint they slowly made their way forwards.

They seemed to understand upon seeing Logan cuddled up on top of me. A smile etched on their faces and Patton trying not to squeal. “what do you want now?” I whispered. “we came to apologies, I know its late but we were trying to get the other to come as well,” Patton whispered back.

 He couldn’t taste a lie. So that was a start.

“I can take forgive you, but my trust won’t be so easily won by an apology. As said before, there is only so many apologies one can take.”

Logan shifted slightly, nuzzling further into my side.

 A small smile plastered on my face as looked down at him. “you two are good for each other,” Thomas muttered but was caught by my ear causing me to blush. “id suggest coming around later to apologies to Logan, he can sleep like a log some times,” I whispered.

 They gave a quick nod before disappearing. Well… he hoped they would at least. They had a lot to say sorry for to Logan and he would get them to apologies for everything if needed.

 He stayed there for another hour before the other had slowly began to wake up. he knew that it would be another couple hours before the others came back.

 Janus moved slightly so the other could sit up as he rubbed the sleepiness from his eyes. Janus handed him his glasses that were on top of his head.

“thanks.” “come on I think we should have lunch,” Janus said as he ruffled the others hair, “you want noodles?”

--

 Logan hadn’t been expecting much to happen that day so he thought he could spend a bit more time napping after lunch. But when he entered his room, the last thing he was expecting was Virgil of all people.

 His eyeshadow was darker than the norm, but other than that nothing had really changed. “salutations Virgil.”

 Virgil stared at the other almost like he didn’t know what to say. But his nervous fidgeting made it clear he would need to wait a couple minuets for the other to gather some courage.

 “I’m sorry, I’m sorry I keep ignoring you,” he exclaimed as he looked away from the other. “whilst I can accept your apology I won’t be able to forgive you, not until I know it won’t happen again,” he looked at the anxious side with a look that could only be described as cold.

 Virgil sighed and stood up, “then I will try my best teach.” “do understand that its not only me you need to apologies to.”

He saw the other wince at his declaration. But he also saw knowingness in his eyes. No words were spoken. Virgil only nodded before sinking out.

 All of my collections I'll share them all with you

 Logan had been working for a while when he decided to go check on the other. he would need to ask someone soon why he kept getting a weird feeling in his stomach whilst around the other. Also, why his cheeks kept going warm… maybe he was allergic to something.

 He made his way to the communal area and mentally noted to water all the plants later if Janus had forgotten to do so.

Logan sighed as he placed his hands inside his hoodie’s pockets. He really had changed over the course of two weeks. Well that would make sense.

Without people putting him down an telling him what he should and shouldn’t be doing all the time, he was… re discovering himself he supposed.

--

The kitchen had been where he found the other. He had a plate with some abomination. Cupcake frosting and a packet of corn chips.

He had seen the other eating them a couple days ago and had been slightly mortified.

Well… he didn’t really say anything. He was the one who ate jam straight from the jar after all.

 “how are you this evening?” Logan asked looking at the other. “tired, gay and stressed. Also waiting.” “waiting for who?”

“Thomas and Patton. They came over earlier whilst you were napping. They came to apologies to us both. You being asleep I said they could come by later. I should have given them a time,” he groaned and banged his head of the table.

 Logan laughed at the others dramatics.

“Virgil came to apologies earlier,” Logan said as he reached for a jar of jam. “wait. He did?”

“yup, I told him I couldn’t forgive him, but I might one day,” he paused to open the jar, “I think the same applies to everyone else honestly,”

 It was then that the feeling in the room shifted. They had come back.

Nodding, they put their respective foods down and made their way back into the main area.

 Thomas, Patton and Virgil this time. Each one shifting nervously upon seeing the two standing there holding hands.

Logan and Janus slowly etched their way forwards before gesturing for the three sides to take a seat on the sofa.

They sat not talking for a couple minuets. No one really knowing what to say in case they scared each other off or say anything that could cause another argument.

 “I know you want to apologies, and what I said to Virgil applies to both of you, I can’t forgive any one of you. Yet. And my trust will have to be earned back. If I’m ignored, I won’t be silent anymore,”

 Patton weakly smiled, “I think that’s fair kiddo. And if you want to stay here whilst we try and re build what we’ve broken,” he gestured to the other two in the room, “then that fine by me at least. Its clear that you two need each other. And I won’t take that away.”

 The two sat there stunned. Processing what was being said.

“well, I suppose I should say sorry to you too Janus,” Virgil mumbled, hiding his head in his hood.

Janus looked at the other with weary eyes, “no, in this case it should be I,” he stated, “I was the one to drive you away.”

“but it was me who always caused the arguments, you just wanted me to be safe, but I kept resisting any of your attempts to help,” Virgil’s voice broke at the end, “and because I felt a rift between you and Remus formed. And then he left. God knows how long you’ve been here alone.”

 Everyone in the room seemed to go quiet. “then maybe we should both say we suck at apologies and try to rebuild what remains,” Janus said causing Virgil to give a small laugh. “yeah, and I don’t expect you to trust me either,”

 They stayed a little longer. Deciding to play a couple episodes of Voltron before they left. It was a peaceful atmosphere from the one that had previously been tense.

 It was when Patton looked over to see Janus and Logan both fast asleep curled up tight to one another did he quickly nudge the others and point. they quickly realized what he was meaning. Virgil turned the tv off and Patton summoned a blanket and covered them both before the two sunk out.

Thomas looked or a couple seconds at the dark and new dark side and smiled. If they were happy here together, he wasn’t stopping them.

And he sunk out to try and get a couple things done on the planner Logan had set up.

Maybe by next summer We won't have changed our tune

 Janus stood in the kitchen talking to Patton and Logan when he felt that bizarre pull. “ill be back in a while, Thomas appears to need my assistance,” he placed his mug on the counter before he gave a quick smile and sunk out.

 He appeared in Logan’s place and froze as he was met with two people he wasn’t really expecting to see. The twins. Both looked easily confused and turned to Thomas. “why is he here, I thought you were summoning specs,” roman complained.

“I knew you wouldn’t be happy if I said I was calling on Janus. And anyway, the reason he is here is because you three need to talk, like it or not. You need to at least tolerate each other at most.”

“do understand that I don’t want to be here, but he has a point,” Janus mumbled as he looked over to the two others.

 The two stared at the other side, expecting for him to put up more of a fight. Remus knew something had to have happened for two reasons. On being he wouldn’t wear something that showed most of his scales, they had always been a sensitive subject; and two, well… he wouldn’t give in so easily.

Roman as far as he knew the other, only knew the face he was good at manipulating people to get them on his side, tare them down and have almost everyone turn on you. So, he didn’t know what was happening right now. Weather he was being sincere or manipulating everyone once again.

 One stared in worry for the other, the second stared worried for everyone else.

“I know I’ve done some fairly… crappy things in the past. And I can admit up to it.  But I was frustrated okay. I didn’t know any other way I could get you to trust me in that moment after everything id done. And the first thing you do after I say my name is laugh,” he gave a small weak chuckle, “I lashed out in frustration and resentment.”

 He stood still. He didn’t look up at anyone, finding the floor more amusing.

” specs has really chipped away at your walls hasn’t he anus?”

“yeah, I think he has,” he let out a slightly amused chuckle.

 “why are you trusting him?” roman asked frustrated at what was happening. “because dear brother as much as I hate him, I can’t sense any malice intention dripping of him like blood in an open wound,” he patted his brothers back. “you can trust him, but I won’t. Him and his snake face won’t be getting an apology from me.”

Roman sunk out sending his icy glare towards Janus.

 He would be lying to himself if he said that his words didn’t hurt. That would easily be seen through due to the tears slowly coming from his eyes.

He was barely aware of his once friend stepping forwards before he too sunk out to go find Logan. He needed the other right now. He needed him now.

 When he rose, he found himself in the kitchen that smelled like fresh cookies.

He rubbed his eyes trying to stop the tears. A tight feeling was beginning to encompass his chest. Tightening the further he began to walk.

“Logan,” he whispered lightly as he scanned the room to find no one there.

He checked the communal space to find no one there either.

Then he found himself beginning to walk over to the navy door that lay opposite his own. Knocking three times and muttering the other sides name once more.

He could hear movement on the other side. The door creaked open. Logan looked at the other with wide eyes before the door swung open and was immediately wrapped in a hug from the other.

He broke down. The tears that had been slowly falling were flowing out now. His silent crying turned into sobbing.

 Why couldn’t he do anything right?

 We'll still want to be With the butterflies and bees

 Logan lead the other into his room. Several thoughts began swirling around his head. Mainly wondering what had happened for Janus to break down like this.

In the entire time he had known the other this was the first time he had seen the other let out so much at once.

He grabbed a couple blankets and pillows from a very much so growing pile and wrapped them around the other and himself. He found himself humming a tune. One he was familiar with. It had been a while since he had used this particular one.

The other side seemed to calm down as he repeated the melody. The other calming down, tired and weak from using so much energy, but he joined in the song as he finished the final couple notes.

 “Adventure time?” the sleepy side murmured as he snuggled into the warmth of the other, a few stray tears here and there.

“I’m surprised you remember it.” “I like fern. Of course, I would remember it.”

 Janus was the first to fall asleep. Logan moved him so that he was lying down in a comfier position and lay down next to him. Between Janus and the fluffy thick blanket, he could feel himself dosing of.   “m’love you” he heard Janus almost inaudibly. But still caught it. “m’love you too,” and he was soon asleep curled up next to the other.

--

 The only reason Logan woke up was due to the ungodly loud knock on his door. He waved his hand and unlocked the door and let it creak open slowly.

 Remus made his way into the room with roman in his grasp who was looking both guilty and annoyed. Remus was smiling chaotically.

Logan only glared at them both.

 They became quiet as they saw the sleeping snake that had a tight grip on the logical sides arm, using it as a makeshift pillow filled with warmth.

A small pool of guilt rose in roman. When Remus had came into his room, he had yelled at him for a good half an hour about not exploiting someone’s weakness when they were clearly vulnerable themselves.

That lead him to find out about Janus’s problems with his scales.

 Twice. Twice he had made fun of one of his extreme venerability’s. he hated the other. If he had known. He doubts he would have said a thing…

 “how is he?” Remus asked concern laced in his voice. “exhausted. He pretty much cried himself to sleep. May I ask what happened. He was fine when he sunk out.”

“my brother happened. We came to do some apologizing but apparently he is sleeping like a corpse.”

“you know, before he left the only thing on his mind was that he needed to find you,” that seemed to catch Logan off guard slightly.

 “you hurt Janus and I swear it will be the last thing you do” Remus growled, “welp, I’m off we shall return later to apologize to double dee,” and with that they left.

  Making up new numbers And living so merrily

Logan looked over to Janus. Was he really that obvious? He wouldn’t deny he had feelings for the other. Well… if talk with Patton meant something at least.

Maybe he would tell the other soon… waiting a while might also be a logical option as well… he truly needed to work out his emotions one day. After so long of pretending he didn’t have any, it was getting

difficult to differentiate between several.

 He snuggled back up against Janus deciding he would wait a bit longer since the other was fast asleep as of right now.

He let out a content sigh and closed his eyes. The smell of cinnamon and vanilla lulling him back to sleep.

--

 They did come back. And Janus almost immediately left the room. If it weren’t for Logan’s confirmation on why they were there, he was sure his door would be locked by now.

So, he did the next best thing and stood behind the other as he listened to Logan apologize for his words.

Janus only looked at the other. Waiting to taste a single lie. But he couldn’t. so, when roman finished he let out a tiny breath and looked at roman.

 For the first time in a while he felt as if several weights had been lifted all at once.

 All of my collections I'll share them all with you

 It had been two months and Logan had enough. he needed to tell the other and soon, before his confidence became null.

Using the things, he had remembered from the conversations he had remembered that Janus’s favorite flowers were red carnations and his favorite sweets in hand.

 He had been sitting by the others door, waiting for him to come back from filming. They had been at it for over half an hour now.

When the other and popped up by his side suddenly he had almost figuratively jumped out of his own skin.

 A smile formed on his face as he heard the other laugh at his reaction. He stood up from his position on the floor, the carnations and sweets being held out to the other.

 Janus looked at them for a couple seconds before taking them and smiling wide.

“I’ve been meaning to speak to you and… well as you know I’m not very good at the whole emotions thing, but… I’ve been speaking to Patton and he assures me that this is the one thing I know,” he paused looking at the other before turning his gaze away. “I um… like you, as in id like to maybe date you, I’m not very good with this am I-“

He was cut off by Janus’s hand cupping his cheek and gently turning his head to face the other before he felt a soft pair of lips on his own. He immediately melted into the gentile kiss. It was all he needed to know.

 The only reason they had to part was because of air. They stared at one another before they both began to giggle.

I'll be here for you always And always be with you

 It was a week later that they felt that now familiar tug. Both appearing in Thomas’s living room. Janus was behind Logan, draping himself over the other.

 When everyone saw them together the only thing they could do was grin. “please tell me we don’t have to watch you two eyes fucking one another anymore” Remus stated.

A couple people laughed at the bluntness of the statement. Others just rolled their eyes. “if you mean that we are dating, we are indeed,” Janus grinned and pecked Logan’s cheek before he turned a cherry red in blush.

“well its nice to see you two finally together. Honestly, I thought you would have gotten together sooner being the only two functioning braincells of all of us,” Virgil let a loose smile appear.

 “I want to be insulted, but I know you’re right about that,” Thomas muttered.

 The conversation went on from there. Janus and Logan both inputting. When spoken over they made it clear they weren’t happy and they were given a quick sorry.

Another thing was that it was only twice that it had happened. Once because Patton got over emotional and Virgil because he just wanted them to get to the main issue instead of skirting around the edges.

 Come along with me And the butterflies and bees

 It was another month when they had woken up. but something had clearly changed because this was one of the very few nights that they had slept separately in their own rooms.

So, when Janus woke next to the other on a much larger bed than normal, to say he was confused was an understatement.

Logan was yet to start clinging to him so it was clear that whatever happened. It happened recently.

 He snapped his fingers to turn on a lamp or two.

The walls were a deep grey, but everything else had been either navy or a bright sunflower yellow.

 He slipped out of the bed and made his way over to the door. Or doors. One yellow and another navy. But both… connected. He opened the door to find nothing on the other wall. Where his door should have been was a blank space void of any sign it had been there in the first place.

 Had their doors connected? Was that even possible. Sure, they had gotten extremely close as of recently. But close enough for their rooms to connect as one? That was something he would need to discuss with Logan. Or weather something else was at play.

 But for right now, the comfort of his lover and bed sounded more appealing than whatever was happening right now.

We can wander through the forest And do so as we please

 It had taken approximately two hours of talking that morning to get a steady idea on what had happened.

Patton had woken that morning to come visit. Due to a small headache Logan wished the other would be silent for a little bit.

And then he had stopped talking. Logan looked up to the other to see his hand clamped to his mouth, looking at the logical side confused.

 His mind had begun to wonder to what just happened. The hand that clamped the others mouth shut going back down to Patton’s side. “was that Janus?” morality muttered. “no… oh great well that’s another thing for the list.” “what list?” “our doors connected last night. We think its because of our connection between one another. Janus’s logic had been boosted slightly and it appears I have now gained his attribute of well… that. Sorry about that though.”

He rubbed his temple. This would take some getting used to. “may I ask why that may have happened?” “I’ve got a small headache and you were beginning to get a bit loud for its liking.”

--

 Janus and Logan smiled at one another as they tried to sleep, hands holding and buzzing with energy. Today had been one of the best days in a while. And that was hard to top as of recently

 It had been six months after the argument that had led to both of them being listened to. The day had been the one where they had forgiven everyone but roman and Virgil. they still had a little more to work on but were close none the less.

 They shuffled closer to one another and kissed. They didn’t care about the future much at that moment. They were there holding one another. And that was all they needed.

Living so merrily

[shytiff]

Small Dec Wins

i cant believe its December already tf?!?!?!

1 - poli KIA today. saw a mother who cant feel the movement of their baby. the senior midwife tried to find the baby’s heart beat but not finding it. she said she hopes she were wrong. fell asleep at 3pm-ish, woke up super hungry. ate. i swear i feel like my weight when i measured it this morning was ~52, but after eating its close to 54 lol. eating banana and chocolate nextar is yummm. dalbang today is hella funny as always and suuper endearing. fell asleep after dalbang, didnt study hufttt

2 - today im at igd but joined azkia at vk for a bit to see partus. its not that im scared (maybe not consciously) but when the mom was being stitched i felt lightheaded, nausea, cold extremities, and i even had to squat multiple times because i couldnt stand. But i felt better after the partus so maybe seeing it was the cause. I did not feel scared at all honestly ._. and i’ve seen multiple partus before. i dont know why. i can literally feel my symphatetic tone giving out lmaoo. tried matcha latte with Cy matcha powder. it tasted more milky and grassy. mom thought it tasted like nori. i prever cocodeli alll the way (although Cy is cheaper). i think it also has a bit of caffeine that made me feel awake like a normal person should be. 

3 - today is vk but there’s no patient so thank god i saw sumn yesterday. did some cicil ukmppd in the morning accompanied by matcha latte. tried to order dufan tickets and i couldnt find my damn ktp...... fell asleep after worrying about said ktp

4 - matcha latte in the car, swab at lmk, went to dufan by tj with willy, had quite some funn with atikah nila willy amel pupuy. first time trying kereta misteri, quite fun. it rained after ashar so we didnt ride anything after that. turns out my ktp was at barel’s fotocopy lmaoo thankyou ara for picking it. went to solaria ancol afterwards, picked up by mom. i didnt tell her in the morning that i was going to dufan lmao. plenary @ zoom 19 pm. rapat nemo. fell asleep.

5 - went to lmk by tj to surprise clara. went back home and fell asleep. didnt rly do anything afterwards because this ragged body gets tired easily and i dont eat much recently. i can feel the difference before and after eating and there’s actual energy after eating. its not that im hungry though, but i feel less energized. felt annoyed terrible and just wanna lay in bed (this is unrelated with the less food in my system). even though i met up with friends

6 - after LOTS of sleeping i feel somehow better but not to a ‘normal’ amount. watched kimbab family videos. did power vinyasa by doogether with fianti. took a shower and ate indomie and i felt quite normal, except i slept again wtf. i thought i would have the second half of the day but nah. did self tryouts with fianti, 150 FDI questions. I got 96/150 right. huft. such a great reality check

7 - poli lansia with dokter isip, matcha latte in the afternoon rly helps me not sleeping the day away, packed up for depok

8 - poli umum with dr gita (helped doing phys exam), packed the rest of my stuff, ate some risol and matcha lattteee in the car, took swab results, picked up hazmats etc, zoom discussion with FT PKM Kalideres (dr gita) on the way, and i finally arrived at tamel. dinner is granola with vsoy. Taste like a slightly wet granola bar, nutty fiber-y vibe

9 - walked in ui with ara, managed to jog from the trees near st ui until kuburan bikun wow. i reached that point where my leg and heart were going in a steady unburdened pace and my willpower to keep going on was tested. tried the signature steak in Double U Steak by Chef Widi, while ara tried ribeye. the ribeye was more tender than the signature. but the seasoning in the signature is quite delish, salty and oily without being too much (like futago ya). read poppyland fast pass from ara’s phone omg season 1 is finally complete! went to coftof (omgggg i miss this place), it looks different now. ordered matcha latte and it tasted weirdly like a soy milk although ara doesnt feel that way. the matcha tasted weird. wont repurchase. read chainsaw man, its so entertaining, funny and deep at the same time. denji mess around and be too naive sometimes but hes lowkey hot lmaooo. aki is lovvvvve.

10 - first day at rsud budhi asih. had moesli combined with granola + vsoy for brekkie. went back to tamel at 3 pm. it rained when i got back. bought warteg lugina worth 32k. walked to sbux for tumbler day its been a while since i had their matcha latte. it tasted quite good, but not as good as i remembered (?) maybe bcs i asked for non fat milk. sbux closes at 8 pm for now hikss

11 - left tamel at about 7:10 and arrived on budhi asih at 08:54 yalll the traffic. Icu. Bought eatlah double and ate the salted egg part. Nap. ICU discussion with dr Dedi @8pm. I presented from my phone to save data hehe,,

12 - woke up at 8, eatlah brown butter for brekkie, symcard, saladstop's caesar salad for lunch (quite 'eneg' because i didnt eat the cheese evenly so the chicken and cheese were eaten last after the vegs are out. The vegetable's not that variative, and the non vegs make the salad taste delicious (albeit maybe not THAT healthy). Evening jog @UI and i realized i can get wifi sitting near the lake n library. Stared at the night sky from my room, i swear the sky seems super clear. Saw tiny fireworks in the distance

13 - ate muesli and saladstop’s banana walnut cake, symcard, bought moon chicken and saladpoint. lunch was egg salad and the wings. the original tasted so good like??? maybe i havent had msg for a while. also tried big bang, not too spicy which is nice. cicil ukmppd. put my laundry at buih barel lmaoo. try out with fianti. got 70/100

14 - breakfast was salad and leftover chicken. today was bangsal with angga armand. the geriatric patient has a loud murmur yall (and scoliosis, so much that the heart looks distorted). went to margo city to see sales, but when i think about it id rather just thrift stuff lmao. bought lugina. slept through kuliah guru besar. writing this in yellow truck coffee, that had 2 customers on the 1st floor including me. tried banana milk. yall after trying to drink less sugar the beverage tasted super sweet. my headache just goes away. sugar is magic but unhealthy whyyyyy.

15 - igd siang with indah. This body sure is frail. Did cbd with dr afifah AND rescheduled pleno. Rip mobile data i have to use for hotspot.

16 - ok today. Inserted goedel and did bagging. I bagged the patient the wrong way at first (too much). Thankfully the nurses were kind and taught us a lot :) watched some bts content. I feel like after reading househusband my tiktok page is now immensely funnier. Dalbang is also hilarious as always. Put on ginseng sheet mask (smells quite strong)

17 - bangsal. snacked on fried chicken. matcha latte starbucks (turns out its quite full here) and liqo about keeping our tongues in check

18 - arrived at icu. And then opened line. Turns out hadin's swab is positive, so agung kak iman and me have to isolate and swab. So i went back. Ordered kanayam chicken and fish and tempe. Nasi liwet tasted goood damn. Sleptt in the afternoon. Pleno at 4 pm (entered the room 4:30). Had no motivation to do anything. Azkia is getting married! Spent 20 mins formulating words to congratulate her lmaoo

19 - osce simulation, kak nanu was so kind and encouraging. Did try out solid. Lunch is fish bite pasta with melted cheese (cause i had to reach the minimum amount for promo). It got cold so its not that good (pairing it with self made mentai sauce, mixing the mayo and chili, is way much better). Jogged in ui (and searched for wifi). Approached by someone selling haraus coffee (25k), saying that some earnings will be for charity. Its basically sweet. Can barely taste the coffee.

20 - had kanayam for lunch (brekkie is almost always muesli lately). The nasi liwet tasted much better the first time. Walked to yellow truck coffee in the pouring rain. Got banana milk. Saw webinar ksk (electrolyte correction and dr nadhira talkshow). What i got from it is that, dr nadhira is a different person from the first place. Shes visionary, knows what she want and not afraid to reach it. The mindset is different. Even if i try as hard as her, her propensity to growth is different. Cicil ukmppd. Try out with fianti (got 72/100). Talked for an hour about love and marriage and engagements (there are so much of it lately)

21 - leftover kanayam for brekkie, also ate roti salman in cikini st. swab today (met kris, nessa and others). muesli for lunch. i thought my body felt a bit warm, so i decided to find sumn to eat. tried kedai abu bakar’s spaghetti brulee. its okay. maybe because its not too cheesy or meaty, mainly bechamel sauce. the one pupuy made is much tastier. finished the whole 10x20 portion in 2 eating sesh. cicil ukmppd @ bed in the evening (somehow felt refreshed enough to be able to concentrate in bed)

22 - went early to icu to put dops form. lugina for early lunch. i feel like my metabolism is faster? or my body is not so much in calorie deficit mode anymore and it got greedier lmao i used to just ignore hunger but not now, for health. starbiiies tumbler day. ordered black tea latte with non fat milk and vanilla syrup (because raspberry syrup is no more). did cbd geri ppt. 

23 - finally knew the swab result bcs kak iman asked kak farras. thankfully negative. igd with jordi. quite a few chances to do iv line, but i failed 2 times. managed to do iv injection to insert 2 drugs. saw the worst cpr ive ever seen in my life. its too slow, with maximal interruption. fish bite for lunch. wasted the rest of my day

24 - originally intended to run but i cant bring myself out of bed. packed up my stuff. picked up by mom. got the paper result of swab, got ksk from kelvyn @ capitol. can finally drink self-made matcha latte again, but it tasted horrible. i know cy matcha doesnt have that much going on, but even this is low even for them. previously i was starting to get used to the grassy smell.

25 - my lil bro remarked “maybe shes depressed because she doesnt have her chair”. fuck yall. this “depression” that im in is caused by this very place and the people. and im supposed to still muster the strength to study for ukmppd AND get my face together for solid book photoshoot. that shit is too much. this is why the money that goes to cafe, and the bike ride there is worth it for my sanity. after showering, things felt a bit better. had absolutely no will to study today. ate muesli with a bit of matcha latte.

26 - muesli for breakfast. matcha latte is lyfff ive probably said this before but it ~somehow~ makes me feel normal and not in a slump. like im a regular person. with normal moods. and not wanting to sleep all the time. i try to do ukmppd exercises but the pace is so fucking slow, bcs im distracted by get rich haha,,,. the latest potn update (64) is omgggg the mixed feelings? love? hate? anger? everything and nothing? the ~tension and passion~? im obsessed. watched a ton of bts content today and yesterday lmao.

27 - nasi kebuli for brekkie. went to flavola, im the first customer lmao. tried kopi susu coklat, tasted quite close enough to janjiw’s kopi soklat. had the same ~improved mood and concentration~ effect. tried to read ksk. bought milky banana 1L from puyo to give dajen (its his bday yesterday) (i feel prompted (?) to gift people when theyve given a present to me) (because my love lang is not gift giving at all so i barely think abt gifts lmao). talked with sum 33 ipa guys @ dajens house. yay appropriate amount of social battery charging. tryout with fianti, padi this time. got 67/100. 

28 - ate muesli with matcha latte after breakfast. cicil ukmppd. Listened to yoongi's vlive until i fell asleep lol. 2 burger and salad for dinner. omggg hansol revealed his gf. 

29 - spent half of my day tidying up the mess that is my room. figured out what to wear for solid book photoshoot with fianti, ara. matcha latte terosss. phd for dinner. 

30 - breakfast is muesli with cimory choco hazelnut. mom made matcha chocolate brownies. tryna study. slow pace terosss. read some padi materials. dalbang.

31 - bought vsoy low sugar and multigrain. moved my body a bit to youtube videos. showered. felt better. it also rained (which i love). the pleasant mood only lasted til the evening. did nothing from 7pm even though im not sleepy. cant tell when did i start to sleep

and just like that, 2020 kkeut. its sad to say i dont rly remember much remarkable things this year. other than the trip and memories with minor rotation friends. i just remember wasting my life away in my house. i guess that’s the danger of living a monotone life. sometimes you gotta invest some time to have fun, to have motivation to live on and do things. not doing this makes it difficult to live day by day. and friends. meeting friends, seeing new stuff. that helps me live. 

[acidwaste]

hey so it seems i’ve forgot to do a l o t of tag memes, and i’m lucky i drafted a big bunch of them! lots of questions overlapped so i did my best to answer in different ways, sorry for the lateness! also @ the people that tagged me here, i wouldn't hesitate to kill for you

@natcaptor / @gayspaced

name: leon or lionel!

nicknames: literally the only nickname I’ve been referred to is “big gay” and like. word!

gender: im pretty sure im a guy, i have been kinda 🤔🤔🤔 abt my gender identity since around november-ish though

star sign: sagittarius!

height: 6’1! i’m told that I’m tall but my uncle is 6’7 so...

time: 3:36pm rn! ive been watching video essays and binging music all afternoon

birthday: december 9th!

favourite bands: animal collective, beach house, camp cope, car seat headrest, death grips, fleet foxes, florence + the machine, gang of youths, glass animals, gorillaz, hop along, iceage, idles, kero kero bonito, mgmt, miike snow, modest mouse, run the jewels, superorganism, the avalanches, the cat empire, the go! team, the mountain goats, the wombats, xiu xiu

favourite solo artists: alex lahey, anderson .paak, ariana grande, billie eilish, bjork, cashmere cat, charli xcx, courtney barnett, cupcakke, d.r.a.m, eric taxxon, frank ocean, gfoty, hatchie, janelle monae, jeff rosenstock, joanna newsom, jorja smith, jpegmafia, kacey musgraves, kali uchis, kendrick lamar, khalid, kimbra, lorde, mac demarco, madeon, mick jenkins, mitski, oneohtrix point never, perfume genius, ravyn lenae, rina sawayama, serpentwithfeet, sophie, st. vincent, sza, vince staples

song stuck in my head: caramelo duro | miguel // kali uchis! its a bop, miguel is one of the few singers that can convincingly make sex jams

last movie i watched: deadpool 2! it was even better than the first, which is a feat in itself ngl

when did i create my blog: december 2016??? i only started using it properly in february last year tho

last thing i googled: “im in my mums car broom broom.” dont @ me

do i have any other blogs: yeah, plenty actually!! i have blogs for aesthetic (@moltenstar), general inspo (@wverns), flight rising (@szarising, kinda inactive?), and overwatch (@blackhardts) tbh the vast majority of my ‘sideblogs’ are just saved urls H

do i get asks: when i say stupid shit like “rung has the ass of a dilf but the dick of a cockroach”

why i chose my url: that one panel where kobd have a vacation at the acid wastes because fuck its finally canon babey!

following: 1,767, which is kinda horrifying!!

followers: 890?? somehow??? thats almost One Whole Thousand and i don't even make content

average hours of sleep: around 6 or 7!! n e v e r more though

lucky number: 43 and 64!!

instruments: i'm too poor to afford music lessons or instruments jsbddsjknfs

what am i wearing: a grey shirt and nothing on my bottom half so my [redacted] is hanging tf out, i should put on some damn clothes

dream job:  oooo uhhh, i’m studying to get an education degree rn because i’d love to teach children (around grade 3-4s preferably because i'm too jittery to handle anyone younger and older kids probs won't listen to me as much as i lack plenty of assertiveness), but!! i’d honestly love to be a musician, one of those underground ones that get lots of critical acclaim

dream trip: one day i wanna gather up some friends and just go on a road trip! idm where we go to, as long as we just have fun and just! adventure!

favourite foods: rare steak, mashed potatoes, eggs, and energy shakes made with like. fruit / cheese / yoghurt / oats / chia seeds ! protein is a large part of my diet

nationality: new zealand, but living in australia

favourite song right now: best part | daniel caesar // h.e.r - gosh i need to re-listen to daniel’s album again, i don’t remember this beautiful song being there and that’s a crime

@damndesi / @novarebel / @luciform-philogynist

APPEARANCE - I am 5'7 or taller - I wear glasses - I have at least one tattoo (but I am getting a tā moko in December, I believe) - I have at least one piercing (planning to get a nose ring, like a bull!) - I have blonde hair - I have brown eyes - I have short hair - My abs are at least somewhat defined (b a r e l y) - I have or had braces

PERSONALITY - I love meeting new people - People tell me I am funny - Helping others with their problems is a big priority of mine - I enjoy physical challenges - I enjoy mental challenges - I am playfully rude to people I know - I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it - There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY - I can sing well - I can play an instrument - I can do over 30 pushups without stopping (barely) - I am a fast runner - I can draw well - I have a good memory - I am good at doing math in my head - I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute - I have beaten at least 2 people arm wrestling - I can make at least 3 recipes from scratch - I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES - I enjoy sports - I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else - I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else - I have learned a new song in the past week - I exercise at least once a week - I have gone for runs at least once a week in warmer months - I have drawn something in the past month - I enjoy writing - Fandoms are my #1 priority - I do some form of Martial arts

EXPERIENCES - I have had my first kiss - I have had alcohol (tastes like shit) - I have scored a winning point in a sport - I have watched an entire TV series in one sitting - I have been at an overnight event - I have been in a taxi - I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year - I have beaten a video game in one day - I have visited another country - I have been to one of my favorite bands concerts

MY LIFE - I have one person that I consider to be my Best Friend - I live relatively close to my school/work - My parents are still together - I have at least one sibling - I live in the United States - There is snow where I live right now - I have hung out with a friend in the past month - I have a smart phone - I own at least 15 CDs - I share my room with someone

RELATIONSHIPS - I am in a Relationship - I have a crush on a celebrity - I have a crush on someone I know - I’ve been in at least 3 relationships - I have never been in a Relationship - I have admitted my feelings to a crush - I get crushes easily - I have had a crush for over a year - I have been in a relationship for over a year - I have had feelings for a friend

RANDOM - I have break-danced - I know a person named Jamie - I have had a teacher that has a name that is hard to pronounce - I have dyed my hair - I’m listening to a song on repeat right now - I have punched someone in the past week - I know someone who has gone to jail - I have broken a bone (do fractures count?) - I have eaten a waffle today - I know what I want to do in life - I speak at least two languages (not fluently) - I have made a new friend in the past year

@smstransformers

age: 16

birthplace: auckland, nz

current time: 4:19 pm rn!!!

drink you last had: i just skulled half a liter of water whoops

favourite song: jesus etc. | wilco if we're talking abt an all-time favourite

grossest memory: accidentally swallowing a bee when i was seven years old (somehow nothing bad happened?)

horror, yes or no: not unless it’s an incredibly tame horror t b h, my threshold for scariness is very low

in love: i believe so!

jealous of people: lots of times, over really dumb things

love by first sight or should I walk by again: i believe that infatuation can exist at first sight but true love not so much. wish that could happen tho :C

middle name: shane!

siblings: my sister is eight years old, and my brother is seven!

one wish: EZ, make my anxiety disappear, i’d have a much more productive life

song i last sang: jupiter | haiku hands

time i woke up: 7:13, woke up immediately because i usually like to wake at 6:30

underwear colour: blue + purble

vacation destination: auckland / kingston / sydney!

worst habit: not remembering to make my goddamn bed, it looks like garbage

favourite food: mashed potatoes….

zodiac sign: sagittarius !!!

@alyonian

relationship status:

at the moment i’m single! and while being in a relationship sounds brilliant, the last two relationships i was involved in? didn’t work out to say the least, lucky i’m still young

favourite colour:

it’s been emerald green for the longest time but orange seems to be dethroning it at a steady pace

lipstick or chapstick:

i haven’t used chapstick since i was six but i probably should use it again, water is my substitute rn fdghdgh - and i haven’t ever used lipstick in any capacity? so i’d have to go with the former

last song i listened to:

the space traveller’s lullaby | kamasi washington - i’m trying to get through his second album rn (i left off on the second disk yesterday) and while everything he makes is undeniably amazing, it’s? a three hour album? i don’t have the attention span for his spiritual jazz, as great as it is

last movie:

monsters inc is playing on the television right now, i’ll go with that! the animation aged kinda badly but it’s still such a fun movie! sidenote: james p. sullivan? a childhood crush, so this gives me memories

top 3 tv shows/podcasts/comics:

i rarely, if ever, venture into these forms of media but! if i had to answer, i’d say;

unbreakable kimmy schmidt / parks & recreation / luke cage

taz / mbmbam (i havent like. watched a full episode of either but they seem cool,)

tf idw / …………. yeah that’s it, i’ve never read anything else. probably should!

additional favs:

my friends, writing (in theory), listening to video essays, learning music theory + instruments and understanding audio production software

top 3 bands / artists:

HHH okay if i had to limit my choices to just three artists, uh. lorde, the mountain goats, and sophie. i couldnt even fit janelle in i hate th is

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@alyonian

color(s): light colors are always nice and pleasant, though anything peachy and sandy are the best! orange (specially pastel orange) is like. the best thing

last band t-shirt i bought: usually merchandising is very expensive and i dont have the money to accommodate that, but like. i do recall having a wiggles shirt when i was five. i wore it all the time, shjdjgsksd im sure that counts

last band i saw live: i almost went to splendor in the grass last year with family, which wasn't only cool since i’ve never been out of the state since i immigrated - the festival was in queensland, which is around a two hour flight from victoria - but the lineup was pretty fuckin lit too! the xx, haim, peking duk, tash sultana, future islands, vallis alps, a.b original,, i was p excited! unfortunately my uncle fell ill and so they had to give the tickets to extended family :( otherwise, i haven't been to a single concert in my life

last song i listened to: street fighter mas | kamasi washington - up to this song on the album and i really fuckin dig this! also the video is hypnotizing

last movie i watched: monsters inc is about to finish and up next is monsters university! which like…. honestly, this is an extremely unpopular opinion but, i like it just as much as the original? my opinion might be skewed because i’m a monster [hugger], but i like everything abt the movie! except for the finale of the scare games and the last five minutes of the movie, both were just. dreadful.

last three tv shows i watched: if aggretsuko counts that’s the last series i watched of my own volition, which is a miracle in itself considering that’s legit only the second anime i’ve watched to completion (the first being shirokuma cafe, which i probably need to re-watch). otherwise, the last two shows i had beared witness to were thirteen reasons why and queer eye bc my cousin put them on! that first show i could completely do without but queer eye is iconique

last 3 characters i identified with: grimlock (legit. all of them), urdnot grunt (mass effect) and vector the crocodile (sth), i’m not sure what this says about me other than Big

book(s) i’m currently reading: i’m reading ‘maus’ by art spiegelman at the moment, for the third time i believe? i believe my classmates are supposed to be writing an essay on this next term and shit, this novel is heartbreaking, i haven't been this emotional when reading a book than… ever, really. it’s a recommendation of the highest caliber

@victorion

name: leon / lionel, i picked up the second name because i was in a server with an admin that was also a Leon™

nickname: besides ‘Big Gay’ i also have the nickname ‘lemon lion’ which is! nice!!

zodiac sign: archer man

height: Tall™

language(s) spoken: english / some maori + italian

fav fruit: watermelons (only when in season)

fav scent: the smell of a freezer tbh? it just smells Nice i don’t know how to properly explain it

fav season: spring! the breezes are welcoming without being overbearingly freezing

fav color: ornge,,,,

fav animal: SHARKS + CROCS + FERRETS

coffee, tea or hot chocolate: tea! with some milk tho

average hrs of sleep: too little

fav fictional character: One character?????? uhhhhhhh……. like. biggest cc right now is either idw skids or oz from monster prom

no. of blankets you sleep with: depending on my mood but i’d say the average is like, 3??

fav songs: i quickly whipped up some songs i listen to

fav artists: i came to the realization that i like acts that are considered ‘bad’ like maroon 5/drake/lil yachty etc in specific doses… i wouldn't call them good yet, but! i have no beef and thats good

fav books: remember ‘where the wild things are’??? that shit was like. literal childhood, man.. :happytears: i really need to look for a copy again

@thonany-klieme

name: leon / lionel, interchangeable really

gender: male, im probs an nb guy

star sign: sagittarius!

height: 6’1

sexuality: gay??? im not sure, im mostly attracted to other guys but i have had very brief crushes on girls + nb people? sexuality’s confusing so im gonna just latch to the gaybel (gay label) for now

lock screen image: its the album cover of 1992 deluxe by princess nokia, tho it was “T Hanos” a few days ago since i change it often - my home screen is venom but his torso says ‘fuck machine’

ever had a crush on a teacher: no??

where do you see yourself in ten years: ideally i’m teaching kids math n english, realistically i’m probably going down with the political climate

if you could go anywhere, where would you go: new zealand!! or the netherlands

what was your favorite halloween costume: halloween is not big at all where i live, the only time i tried trick or treating was when i was like 7?? i threw a bedsheet on myself and pretended to be a ghost, though since there were no eyeholes + the sheet was blue, it looked more like i was just a moving lump

last kiss: never had one

have you ever been to las vegas: nah and i dont plan to?? how do you handle regular days of 40C wtf

favorite pair of shoes: i have this pair of jandals that ive worn for a fair bit longer than my other pair of shoes, tho i only wear them in summer + very warm nights

favorite book: ngl its. ‘the very hungry caterpillar’ by eric carle. i just, love it alot and i cant explain w h y

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Im just tired, angry, and sick. It's not a good combination and I want blood.