#i hope yall enjoy tho /gen

[luciferschair]

Glimpse of us.

a/n: I made this purely because I was bored lol, I’d probably start writing more in the future. Also, I would like to apologize in advance if there are any grammar mistakes. English isn’t my first language. Welp, that’s about it. I hope you enjoy the pain! 🤍

(reader’s gender isn’t specified)

  She'd take the world off my shoulders,

If it was ever hard to move

Lucifer sighed as he put away yet another paperwork that he’s been doing these past few days. He’s been so busy that he can barely get any sleep, let alone keep track of time. He closes his eyes and rubs the bridge of his nose with one of his gloved hands and inhaled deeply, only to open them again to see the messy desk that’s filled with mountains of paperwork. He was about to reach for another paper until he was interrupted by the gentle knock outside of his office door. 

“Come in.” He spoke in a gruff voice.

The door creaked as it opened slightly, a familiar demon popping up beside the door with a worried look decorating her face as she peeked inside. “Are you okay, Lucifer?” she asked calmly. She opened the door fully to see the state of her lover, and couldn’t help but frown at the sight. “You haven’t slept for days.” She remarks. She slowly walked towards him and gently pats his back. “It’s alright, you’ve worked hard enough, Lucifer. Let me handle the rest.” She spoke with a smile as he looks at her, confused. He knew she was more than capable of doing his paperwork. Hell, he even knew how reliable and trustworthy she is. But he just couldn’t handle the thought of somebody doing his work other than himself. “I’m fine, really. Everything is alright,” He said as he plastered a smile on his face. “You should really head off to bed, though. It’s getting late.” He continues as he sees the clock and realized how late it was getting. “Not without you, Lucy.” She says with a pout on her face. Lucy. 

The nickname made him bitterly chuckle to himself. “Alright. A few more and I’ll head off to sleep as well,” he promises. She shook her head and said “I’ll be helping you with some of these then, y’know, to help remove some of the weight off your shoulders.” He let out a small chuckle, knowing she really won’t go without helping him.

Her actions made him remember a certain someone, a feeling so different yet so similar. 

She'd turn the rain to a rainbow

When I was living in the blue 

Lucifer was sitting in the music room, listening to his favourite record as many thoughts filled up his mind while he stared into space, not realizing that his lover was watching him from a distance until she came closer and cleared her throat. His eyes widen in surprise for a moment, before blinking and returning to his normal self. “Ah, it’s you.” He tried to spoke enthusiastically, but failed. She gave him a small laugh and spoke, “Yeah, it’s me.” He scooted over and made some space so she could sit down. “Are you okay? I’ve noticed that you’ve been pretty preoccupied with whatever’s on your mind lately.” She said as she sat down beside him. “I’m fine. It’s just my brothers,” he said with a sigh as he tried to make up an excuse. “As you know, they’re very… complicated, to say the least.” He continues. She felt bad, but she knew what to do. “Hey, how about you take your mind off them for a day? Let’s go somewhere fun!” She said enthusiastically as she stood up while taking Lucifer’s hand in hers.  “I don’t wanna see you sad anymore, so let’s go have some fun!” she smiled brightly. He didn’t know if it was his imagination, but he swore he saw a rainbow right behind her.

All of the things she did were so different, yet so similar to someone he once knew. Someone he once loved. 

Why then, if she is so perfect Do I still wish that it was you? 

Anything-no everything she did was perfect. She knew exactly what to do in different situations. She’s quick, witty, clever, smart, reliable, trustworthy, confident, silly, gorgeous, she’s quite literally a mix of everything good that you can think of imaginable. Hell, even his brothers took a liking to her. She’s everything that anyone would have ever wanted in a lover. She’s perfect. So why? Why then if she’s so perfect, why does he still wishes that it was you? The thought haunts him until this day. 

Perfect don't mean that it's working

So what can I do?  

‘Why am I still thinking about you? Why couldn’t I just move on? Why couldn’t I just forget what happened to you years ago? Would she hate me if she knew that I was still thinking about you?’ his thoughts filled up his mind like a plague. Thoughts that he just couldn’t bear to tell her. He hated himself for it. He despised himself. How could he let a mere human control his emotions like this? It wasn’t anything shocking, really. He knew that a human’s lifespan is much shorter than those of a demon’s. So why? Why did he have to get emotionally attached? He knew what would happen in the end, after all. Fate hasn’t really been on his side for the past millennia.  

He shut his eyes tightly and tried to forget and just go to sleep. But he can’t. He couldn’t.

Because he still remembers.

When you're out of sight

In my mind.

He remembers everything as clear as day. The one moment he let his guard down, and lost you. Exactly like how he lost his dear sister. Except, he lost you right in front of his very eyes. Everything inside him shattered, and he just couldn’t believe it. He had to be the one to tell everyone exactly what happened and how it did. All of your friends across the three realms were shocked, nonetheless. Some still couldn’t believe it, denying the fact that you were no longer with them. Some were crying on the floor while pouring out whatever’s on their mind. It hurt to see everyone like this. Diavolo, Simeon, Barbatos, and him had to stay composed to let their friends mourn over your death, even if it means bottling up his emotions.

He wouldn’t let anyone know, not his brothers, not even Diavolo. He wouldn’t let them know how hard your death has affected him. He wouldn’t let them know how hard he tries so to forget, yet he still falls asleep crying about you each night. He started shutting everyone out more, opting to do his paperwork other than spending time with them. He has gone back to the Lucifer he once was. Harsh, cold, and merciless. That was, until he met you in a dream one night.

In his dreams, you were at peace. Picking flowers in what seems like the celestial realm. He looked around and noticed that his wings were white. And all six wings were fully attached to him. You saw him and you immediately smiled widely, then you ran to his arms. He was still shocked, processing whatever dream this was while holding onto you oh-so tightly. As if he’d lose you again.

“MC—How…Where are we..?” He tries his hardest to compose himself and speak coherently. You pulled away from the hug and giggles lightly, and suddenly, it’s as if he suddenly remembered what it felt like to love again. “We’re home, Lucy. So don’t keep acting like that, okay? It hurts me to see you like this.” You said with a frown, it broke him completely to see you again after some time, but it broke him even more to see the sadness in your face. He couldn’t contain the tears that fell out of his eyes as he pulled your body to his embrace and held onto you tighter. 

“Please… don’t leave me again.. I can’t—” He spoke through his sobs as he completely breaks his resolve. It wasn’t like him to act like this. But he’s desperate. He’s desperate to get you back in his life and make everything alright. Like how it always was, as long as there’s you.

“I’m sorry, Lucy.” Were some of the last words you could let out before you broke into tears as well. You weakly put your hands on his shoulder and pushed him gently. “Look at me, Lucy.” You said, and he complied. His ruby red eyes, now a bit puffy and red, stared into your own. “I want you to try and find your own happiness, with whatever or whoever it is,” you say while guiding his hand and holding it. “because I’m sure I’d find my happiness along with you.” you continued as you began to fade into the light. He knew what was coming, and he didn’t try to stop it. He just looked at you with his sad, soulless, desperate eyes, with a glint of regret. You cupped his right cheek gently and smiled widely with tears in your eyes.

“I love you.” He saw you mouthed those three words right before he awoke from his slumber with cold sweat. 

He chuckles in defeat, it’s true. Fate is one son of a bitch.

Said I'm fine and said I moved on.

I'm only here passing time in her arms.

Hoping I'll find,

A glimpse of us.

[veryxany]

so i went ahead and drew some of y'all's narrators

in order left to right, credits and notes

@indigo-art (i was struggling with how to draw him but i think I turned out well :])

@kennylikessalt (i was in love with the split down the middle colors on the suit but unfortunately i did not color these <:[)

@spudzsploof (I LOVE your narr design/gen he looks so soft and huggable i just wanna cuddle him)

@decomposten (look at the armless lad/pos he was rlly fun to draw ngl)

@braisedhoney (for some reason ibis paint x did NOT want me drawing your lad 😭 i tried and accomplished tho!!)

@blackkatdraws (you do not know how in love i am with black, it gave me serotonin drawing that lovely man)

i rlly enjoyed drawing all y'all's narrs and hope yall enjoy it too ^^

(EDIT guess who just realized they forgot details in some of them-- should be fixed to some extent now (also everyone now has a part of the drawing colored in yippee:D))

[sennaverstappendiary]

singapore grand prix ✩ 17.09.2023

so... this is where it ends 🥺🥺 this is where it allll ends... when i needed her (max win) most... she disappeared (KIDDING) 😭😭😭💔💔💔 nah for real i came into this weekend being hopeful but cautious, knowing max and rbr have already achieved everything i wanted them to achieve this year, except all podium finishes for max (and ofc the championships, but like, come on man) 🥺🥺🥺🥺 so like... i wasn't going to enjoy seeing max lose but it could've been worse‼️‼️‼️‼️ fun fact: this was the first race i watched while enrolled in my internship. sigh. after this my experiences will probably get shorter bc internship like blended my life and i genuinely don't remember much 😭😭😭

soo before getting into qualifying... lets talk about fp. yeah yeah every fucking weekend id say OUR PACE IS SHIT AHHH IM SO SCARED‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ but like... now i was for real scared. for good reason of course but SJGHDF 😭😭😭😭😭 anyway we got da lizard on da track... love that for us 🦎🦎🦎🦎🦎🦎 other than that no comment

qualifying!!! yeah what the actual living fuck did i just watch‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ what the fuck was that‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ U DONT UNDERSTAND OKAY i was watching w my dad and we were just... not sure if max would get pole but i joked and said lets see if max will even make q3 lol (spoiler. he didnt). ALSO MAX WHATTT THE FUCK WAS THAT TERRORISM???? TO YUKI??? jonathan i owe u my everything like im on my knees bc idk how u talked him out of 184877364 penalties 😭😭😭😭💥💥💥💥💥 like genuinely couldnt believe my eyes when i saw no grid penalty. 😁😁😁😁😁 what the hell man. ANYWAY. liam lawson q3 my fucking beloved COME BACK LIAM WE MISS U QUEEN 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

i almost didnt want to watch the race. also because ajax was on at the same time. lost twice in one weekend guys 💔💔💔💔💥💥💥💥💥 nah but i genuinely had hope was the awful part. race pace wasnt even bad genuinely it was fine. and then we just so happened to have the worst luck ever with sc. logan ily but i will not forgive u... 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 "they are sacrificing leclerc!" was gen hilarious tho like idc that he crashed george was the main character this weekend and no one will ever convince me otherwise. love him SO much my silly goober 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 the race itself was boring as fuck btw the best part was george absolutely smashing it that made it worth watching TO ME 🙏😁 and carlando was cute too,,,, ☀️☀️☀️ but i was too fucking mad at max breaking not only his win streak but also his PODIUM streak that i truly didnt care... sorry.

✩ song of the race: why are sundays so depressing - the strokes

no comment. yall can figure it out i think...

✩ extra: a small photodump

[nyxoholicwrites]

Random headcanons I have about Bloomic characters part 1 ( Peepaws)

we are listing the peepaws first, aka Quest and Salocin, bc God told me to, he said so himself /j

THESE PROB DON'T MAKE SENSE

I am very bored and this is for fun hope yall enjoy it!

Salocin

I know for a fact Salocin is that grandparent that finds funny videos from facebook and sends it to you,

yk those cat videos that have like a voiceover with the most absurd voice, yea that

he knows the joke (truth) that parents take the money kids are given and to combat this system he says " shhh don't tell ( insert parent name), this is our top secret, agent ( insert kid name)"

I imagine it looks like a drug trade from a stranger's perspective

I headcanon him as a fun grandpa who indulges in his grandchildren's imaginations and games, he also sneaks candies bc YES

(more below)

when his kids brought their partners home he prepared an album with the most embarrassing photos, like those photos when a baby makes a mess

think plastered in baby food type of mess, yes he does this purposefully but all in good fun

my personal fav scenario is him going out to a club with the rest of the server, he is that one tiktok where the dad goes clubbing

his " back in my day..." are fun things he did while traveling, dumb adventures and funny mishaps, its never those lectures, yk which ones...

It was canonically confirmed he had game, so I imagine he was either like a charismatic kid everyone liked and swooned over or he was like a greaser who turned into a wholesome peepaw

( he is so wholesome I stan, Salocin for president)

Quest

Young Quest gives me the same vibes Johnny from Dirty Dancing does but minus the dancing

he probably saw the movie and secretly wished he could dance that well, omg mc and quest try to replicate the cry to me scene and just laughing at their mistakes but enjoying nonetheless

I wheeze at quests lack of knowledge at what a discord kitten is, he gives me the vibe that if he were gen z he would either be the kid that is so behind on memes or is just genuinely confused

probably both... tho he would try to learn bc of his friends, I can visualize xyx and toasty making a slideshow showing all the memes from these two decades, blooming school is back in session

He would just sit there, take notes and nod, he would def raise his hand bc some memes genuinely confusing but those two refuse to elaborate

Quest is canonically a smooth mf even though he would probably deny it. he was probably more flirty in his past, tho he was always polite towards whoever he was pursuing

he gives me the same vibe that one meme of a giant teddy bear with a tiny head

He has most likely debated doing slam poetry at one point in his life, but he is too shy to share his thoughts, especially since it's like an outlet for his feelings so it would be too personal to share

he acts like a dad even if he doesn't become one, standing in front of the tv, having a dog be his best friend, a grill master, you name it

he would probably get a tattoo with mc, or something to commemorate them

I AM BRAINROTTING ABOUT QUEST HAVING A TATTOO SLEEVE FULL OF FLOWERS TO HONOUR MC BC OF BLOOMIC

AN: Thank you for reading this far, I promise I am alive, the well part is debatable, but I digress, I am most likely gonna upload a fic tmrw!

Have a wonderful day my lovelies!

[mazojo]

Winter 2021 Anime Opinions

As always its that time of the year I pretend to be an anime connoisseur and leave my review on this seasons anime so take it with a grain of salt asdfgh from the one I enjoyed the least to the most.

Wave!!: Surfing Yappe!! (TV)

You are seeing currently the only probably best thing about Wave asdfghj Tanaka bby I am SO sorry you got stuck here,,,,, Its bad because I had so many expectations for Wave but it just...... isn’t very good? The characters feel 2 dimensional, animation is veeeery average and the plot is all over the place? Dont even get me started on the Shou situation plot device that they just brushed over and went on with and,,,,,big sigh

Urasekai Picnic

To be honest is not very fair to compare this one to the rest as ive only watched the first 2 eps but ill catch up eventually asdfghj its not bad just that the plot didnt capture me as much as I hoped but the two main characters cutiess the plot just confuses me asdfgh but I don't have much to say about it

Yakusoku no Neverland 2nd Season

So uh anyways Chile I don't wanna talk about it the only reason this is not dead last is because RayEmma cute moments but yeah don't watch this clown show go read the manga for self care ✨

Jaku-Chara Tomozaki-kun

The only reason this is here is because she. The main girl I cant remember the name of sucks and main dude is very normal asdfgh the plot is basically “Want people to like you? change everything about yourself and become a normie robot!!!” ASDFGHJ Like its so over the top and cringe at times it becomes very confusing but hey I am not caught up either so I may change opinions (x doubt tho)

2.43: Seiin Koukou Danshi Volley-bu

From this point onwards I basically like everything. 2.43 Started suuuuper strong for me, definitely thought it would be one of my favs this season but as the eps went by I just.... kinda lost interest asdfgh? Like its not bad, but its a sort of mix between Stars Align and Haikyuu where I would have loved a more character based story with dark subplots like Stars Align but got the parts I always criticize about Haikyuu were there was a point I didn't really knew any of the characters? ASDFGH like the enemy team is super cool and Love their designs but if you ask me to tell you anything about them I already forgot rip. Its still cute and the animation is cool but yeah it kind of disappointed me in the end a bit ;w;

Shingeki no Kyojin: The Final Season

AOT Is so sexci because it keeps on hurting me and I come back every-time for it ASDFGHJ Not much to say that hasn't been said, characters are super interesting, plot is a bit confusing at times for me to follow but amazing and I just :))) could go on about certain characters :))))) but I wont :))))

Wonder Egg Priority

Wonder egg priority is very talked about right now so I wont get too much into it other than definitely give it a watch if you like the more philosophical and “makes you reflect on your life choices” sort of anime ASDFGHJ the visuals are stunning and the characters very well build, although I am very confused at times I am still enjoying it tons ^^ Trigger warning however for some heavy topics I recommend checking the warnings before watching it <3

Kemono Jihen

I LOVE THEM OKaY? asdfghjk Kemono Jihen gives me the found family topes and I eat them all right up, I love the characters , their designs, the plot, everything. To be fair tho, I did enjoy the manga more than the anime but maybe its a pacing thing? idk but I definitely recommend 100% taking on the manga and maybe after watch the anime but I am enjoying it tons!!

Kai Byoui Ramune

This one may come as a surprise lol?? Like I haven't seen a single soul talk about Ramune but like??? I am actually enjoying it a lot?? and look forward every week for the ep? asdfghj Like yes I will be the first to admit the animation isn't really the beeeeest out there but the plot is funny while also being serious, the characters are quirky and interesting to keep the flow going and I am liking the undertone heavy messages? the soundtrack also slaps imo and yeah I would definitely say to watch the first ep and if you like that sort of dynamic take it up on the rest!

I★Chu: Halfway Through the Idol

Okay I will be the first one to admit this is just me being trash for the idol shows but like?? its my list so I get to decide which found family I am screaming about next ASDFGHJ. As an avid A3 stan this gave me serious vibes of my boys (plus they were made form the same company so like not very surprised there loll) and like I think the characters are cute with adorable relationships and cute songs and its just a lighthearted show I sit down every Wednesday and smile through the 25 minutes so yes I Chu deserves a high spot and yes I recommend it even if it has like a 6.3 on myanimelist sksksks

Dr. Stone: Stone Wars

Look at Gen!!!! enough reasons to watch dr stone!!!! ASDFGH but in all seriousness I....... love them okAy? The plot is amazing and the characters are super entertaining (hiiii Ukyo Gen Senku and Chrome muak) and although it may seem a bit slower paced than first season the arc is gonna get better and better and the finale is gonna be great if they stick to the manga. Only sad that I dont get to see my pirate fuckboy but we better be getting a third season

Bungou Stray Dogs Wan!

when I say this is the happiness of all my Tuesdays I ain’t even exaggerating ASDFGHJ Does this have an important plot? no. Is it transcending to animation? not really. Is it BSD content I've been starving for? absolutely!!! Tbh I see my favorite anime characters in chibi version and I go feral, go watch BSD pogg!!

Horimiya

Me?? searching for that one gif of the side ship scene am obsessed over?? more likely than you think ASDFGH Horimiya holds a special place in my heart because it was the first manga I ever read and the nostalgia is stroNG,,,,,, The plot isn't anything really transcending but the way the characters are captured the feelings just,,,,,, stan!! Also Yuki x Tooru supremacy !

Skate-Leading☆Stars

Okaaaaay this is also me being a bitch for sports anime but like, again, are we surprised?? ASDFGHJ It may be my love for Hayato speaking but ive absolutely loves Skate Leading Stars, I love the group, the main characters, the ships, the routines and its so pretty and they are in love and like the competition and asdfgh its gOoD OKaY??? Watch it if anything for Hayato 👉🏻 👈🏻 My bastard bitch I love the gremlin.

Beastars 2nd Season

I think we are all sleeping on Beastars brushing it off as a furry show. I don’t speak enough about it and I am not one to go about poetic cinemaness on main but beastars is a very poetic cinema show and yall sleeping on it. Coming from someone who was uncomfortable at first with the whole animal relationships part at first, just know beastars is so much more than that, it has a complicated plot with critics about the society within the show with amazing characters, great soundtrack and animation plus banger plot. Pina, Jack, Juno and Legoshi best characters and every week I look forward for the next eps so I hope yall go give it some love.

SK8 The Infinity

If it wasnt clear from my spam every Saturday that I am absolutely in love with this show I dont know what to tell you ASDFGHJ. Sk8 has an amazing range of characters I find fascinating, specially Reki, very much so everything Reki asdfgh but yeah!! Its super entertaining with an interesting plot and its definetely becoming one of my favorite animes because the amount of times ive rewatched the episodes to cope is kind of embarrassing lmaooo, definetely give it a try although I understand its not for everyone but like,,,,, do it for Reki? 🤧👉🏻👈🏻

[julemmaes]

One of the kids and their first crush.

First Crush

A/N: Set in the same universe as this and this (I’m gonna make a masterlist soon I swear), Cal (18) finds himself in a weird situation and doesn’t know how to handle things. I introduced Elucien babies in this one, everyone else will come by later on and very slowly I’m gonna introduce every other child.

If you’re new, this is a next gen collection of one shots, for now only about Nessian kids specifically. In this one, Ezra is 22, Cal is 18 and even tho they don’t appear, Nora is 13, Celia is 12 and Andra is 10. Nate and Theo are 17.

Send prompts about whoever you’d like to read more about and also very slowly I’m gonna give yall every single one of those:)

Enjoy!

Word count: 3,432

Cal brought his hands to his hair, "Oh my god, what's wrong with me?"

Theo, leaning against the car next to him, chuckled, "In my opinion the correct question would be what isn't wrong with me- Ouch." the boy turned to his twin, "Why did you hit me?"

"Because you're being a dick," Nate replied, glaring at him, "Stop talking shit."

"Why did I agree to this?" asked Cal shocked, looking up from the road and shifting his gaze from one cousin to the other. Two pairs of brown eyes locked onto him and then, in a synchronized motion that never failed to make Cal cringe, the twins shrugged.

Theodore and Nathaniel Vanserra were two of the most handsome boys in all of VHS. They both had the natural grace of the Archeron sisters that all cousins in the family shared, but their father's beauty that they had acquired over the years was one that made it easy to hate them with just one look. It was humanly impossible that such beautiful people could exist.

"Because you like her and want to date her, maybe?" asked Nate sarcastically.

Theo threw him a look, "Who's being an asshole now?"

Nate huffed then turned back to Cal, "Listen to me," he took him by the shoulders, getting so close to his face that for a second he was afraid he was going to kiss him, "You've been drooling over Rania for months. Months, Cal. And she finally made the first move because you were too chicken to step up."

"Chicken?" laughed Theo beside them.

Nate closed his eyes taking a deep breath, deciding to ignore his brother, "She asked you out. You accepted. You're going on a date." he shook his head confused, leaning even more towards him, "What's wrong with that?"

Cal looked at him wide-eyed, imagining Rania's crystal eyes sparkling with excitement at the prospect of going to dinner with him, so different from the rust brown, almost red ones that were staring back at him. "Nothing, it all adds up," then he cleared his throat, "Shouldn't you be home by now?"

"What time is it?" asked Nate taking two steps back. Cal felt the air return to his lungs and he sagged against the door of his car. Well, his and Ezra's car.

Theo cursed checking the time on his phone, "Shit it's almost three."

Nate nearly broke his neck as he lunged to grab his backpack on the ground and then started running in the direction of their house, yelling a simple hello to Cal and for his brother to hurry up. Theo's eyes went wide, snorting with an amused grimace on his face.

Cal huffed out a laugh, "It's not three o'clock is it?"

Theo shook his head, with a lopsided smile too similar to his father's, "Not even close." then turned to his cousin and threw him a flying kiss, starting to walk after Nate. "Call me if you need any advice on what to wear."

Cal gave a thumbs up and then slipped into the car.

It didn't take him more than ten minutes before he arrived home, but once he parked his car next to his mom's, he sighed.

He needed to talk to his dad.

Cassian would certainly know how to handle this situation better than he was doing.

The front door burst open and a distraught Ezra, visibly in a hurry, opened the driver's door, grabbing his brother by the shoulder and pulling him out of the car.

"Ezra!" shrieked Cal with wide eyes, "What the fuck!"

"You're late." the eldest pointed out to him, then tossed him his backpack with a stern look, "Here."

"Sorry." Cal murmured, then pushed his hair out of his face, "I got stuck with Theo and Nate, I didn't notice the time."

Ezra stopped the frantic movements, looking at him worriedly all of a sudden, "Are you okay?"

Cal nodded, licking his lower lip, "Just Raina."

"Oh." murmured Ezra, "We can talk about her tonight when I get back if you want." he smiled at him, then seemed to remember that he was running late and Cal didn't have time to correct him and tell him that the problem was the exact opposite of what he thought that Ezra was already backing up.

The silence that greeted him in the house was unsettling.

"Hello?" he asked loudly enough for anyone to hear.

"In the kitchen!"

Cal smiled and kicked off his shoes before following the smell of lunch.

"Hi Mom."

Nesta was perched on one of the island stools as she munched on a cereal bar. "Hi dear." she looked up from her book to smile at her son, but turned serious, "What happened?"

Cal dropped his head back, huffing, "Am I a fucking open book?"

Nesta frowned, "No swearing."

"I don't see Andra here." he glanced around him opening his arms.

"I don't care, I don't want you to say them." and before he could retort, "And in this case you could have just as easily said I'm an open book without the need to shove fucking in it." she pointed out to him.

Cal nodded, knowing full well how pointless it was to engage in this conversation again. He pointed to the table set just for him, "You're not eating?" then arched an eyebrow, "Where is everyone?"

"I ate with Nora and Celia and then took them to practice. Andra is at school like she is every Wednesday." she got up too and sat down across from him at the table, closing her book and resting her chin on one hand, she asked, "So, what do you have?"

Cal took a bite, "Dad?" he asked with a full mouth, avoiding his mom's gaze.

"At work." then she huffed, "You failed a test?" guessed the woman.

Cal laughed, "Like that's even possible."

"Did you get in a fight with Theo and Nate?"

"I don't think that's possible either," he replied in a small voice.

"Cal," his mother's hand rested on his. He was forced to look at her and sighed, seeing the concern in Nesta's eyes, "Are you okay?"

He nodded. Evidently with not enough conviction because the woman in front of him bit her lip down thoughtfully.

"If you want I can call Dad and ask him to come home early," she offered, "If you want to talk to him, I mean," then continued, "You know he'd be here in three seconds."

Cal nodded again, knowing full well that his father would rush home even risking an accident if he knew one of his children was feeling down. Setting his fork down next to his plate he brought his hands to his face. He hated his mother when she did that.

He looked her straight in the eye as he told her so.

Nesta looked even more concerned, "I'm sorry," she told him, probably feeling guilty for pushing him too hard to talk, "if you want I'll leave."

"Nono," the boy replied promptly, then grimaced, closing his eyes. He grunted before muttering, "Raina asked me out."

He doubted his mother knew who he was talking about, but it didn't take a genius to figure out it was the girl he liked.

The room filled with an awkward silence.

"Ah." was Nesta's only response.

Cal resumed eating, his head down, "And I don't know what to do."

"What do you mean?"

"I've never really liked anyone before," he said, "and Raina is...she's special."

He smiled, thinking of the billions of braids she so proudly wore every day in a different hairstyle.

"Did you say no?" asked Nesta. Cal felt her curiosity even without the need to look at her.

He shook his head, "I said yes," he confessed, "but I need dad to tell me how to act. I don't have a clue what to do. Where to take her, how to dress, whether I should text her first. All that shit there- sorry." he smiled mischievously when Nesta bounced him again and hoped he'd taken her mind off the real problem.

"And how come," she began, "I can't be the one helping you?"

Cal looked at her at that point, "Because you're not a people person." he pointed out, "Dad managed to win your heart, it won't be that hard for him to give me advice on how to win Raina's." he took a sip of water, "When I think about it, dad and Raina have a very similar personality. " he shrugged, "So he can tell me what he likes and I can do it for her." he nodded as if he had discovered the Holy Grail, but that sly grimace disappeared from his face when he saw his mother's expression.

She sighed, her eyebrows so high they almost touched her hairline, "Dear, that's the dumbest thing you've ever said in your entire life." she told him in amazement.

Cal opened his mouth wide, offended, "Mom-"

Nesta raised a hand to stop him, "Let me talk."

He nodded once.

"First, answer these simple questions," she began, "What were you going to do about it this afternoon?"

"Ask her if she was okay with Friday night to go out." he said without hesitation.

"Good." she smiled at him for half a second, quickly becoming serious again, "And where would you like to take her?"

Cal tilted his head to the side, not understanding where this was going, "Why are you-"

"Just answer."

"I was thinking of taking her to the diner, to Ben's," he replied, unsure of his choice, as a faint blush made its way across his cheeks.

"Perfect." she gave him the thumbs up, "And since it's a diner, you'll just need to wear simple jeans and a t-shirt, or am I wrong? Nothing too fancy or flamboyant."

The boy huffed, irritated that his mother was giving him all logical answers to his senseless and fake concerns. "Okay, and your point?" he asked, scratching his forehead.

Nesta smiled at that, "My point is that these aren't your real problems and you're scared of all kinds of other stuff."

"I really don't like talking to you about this stuff." he muttered, folding his arms across his chest. They both knew that wasn't entirely true. They both knew that if either of them were really uncomfortable, they wouldn't be able to get a word in edgewise.

"Yeah I didn't either." scoffed his mother, "But I would have liked someone to tell me that it was normal for me to feel all those emotions the first time I met your father."

Cal frowned.

"You don't have a problem with setting up a fancy date," she told him, "I raised you teaching you what respect and kindness is and if I failed, then dad took care of it.  Because both you and your brother are golden boys and you'll never have to worry about not being offering enough." Nesta looked away, "But while your brother can... handle?" she asked no one in particular, searching for the right term, "His emotions relatively well, you're like me." then she giggled and Cal knew they were navigating waters his mother didn't particularly like to touch, "And I'm a mess when figuring out how I feel."

Cal knew what she meant, so he nodded.

She was right.

Talking to the twins about what was really bothering him had never even been an option. The idea of having to tell them how much he actually liked Raina had been more terrifying than the emotions themselves. He knew they wouldn't understand and would wait until it was socially acceptable for him to tell Raina directly how he felt without scaring her off.

"How about you finish eating and then we'll go for a walk along the river?" his mom suggested, "Or do you have to study?"

Cal shook his head, smiling shyly at her, "I'll finish eating and we'll go." then he took to gorging himself.

Nesta chuckled as she went to get ready to go out.

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"When Dad asked me out the second time, right after our first date, I said no," Nesta said, looking across the river to the other side, where a couple of older poeple were walking slowly arm in arm.

They had paced for a half hour, in which Cal had told her about how they had met in the coffee shop in front of the school almost four months earlier and how she had offered him hot chocolate. How they had spent a whole day talking about everything and nothing, and how they now had an ongoing obligation to meet at least once a week in the same cafeteria, even though they ate at the same table every day with all their other friends.

Nesta had asked to see a picture of her, and Cal had been surprised to find out that he wanted his mother to like Raina more than anything else at that moment. Luckily, Nesta had been speechless and commented on the girl's silvery eyes, blinking a couple of times before giving him the phone back and commenting with a simple, "She's beautiful."

Now, sitting on a bench along the bank of the Sidra, Nesta was telling him about the days when Cassian had had to struggle to make her his.

"How come?" he asked genuinely curious.

Nesta smiled, lowering her gaze to the wedding band around her ring finger, "Because I liked the first date too much."

Cal furrowed his brow, "Were you afraid the second one wouldn't measure up?"

"No," she murmured, casting him a glance, "I knew perfectly well it would be better than the first."

"So why did you say no?" the boy asked impatiently.

"I knew that the second one would be better than the first one and that the third one would be better than the second one and so on and I was already so overwhelmed with my feelings that I was afraid it might become too much." she explained, "Your father was the first one to get close after so many years of me having my bad friendships and relationships." she frowned.

"If you don't want to talk about it, you don't have to," he made a point of reminding her. He wanted to be helped and would have liked to know more about his parents' lives before them, but he didn't want his mother to feel compelled to share things with him that still bothered her.

Nesta squeezed his hand lovingly, "Don't worry, those things are in the past and I have nothing to be ashamed of." she smiled at him, "I was with someone else before your dad and that man kinda ruined my life. I thought I would never be able to trust anyone in the future again. That I would never again feel the love and affection I had felt for him." she huffed out a laugh. She brought both hands to her lap and Cal shoved them into his pocket. "Then your father came along and it was all so sudden and I fell in love right away, hard. Completely lost for a boy I barely knew. And it scared the hell out of me."

"Why?" Cal already knew the answer, it was what he felt every time he saw Raina walking down the halls of the school. Every time she bit into a piece of bread in the lunch room and then made a disgusted face at how awful the food tasted.

"Because I could only imagine how much it would hurt if it ended suddenly. If I felt everything so strong in the good, it would be just as strong in the bad, you know?" she turned to him, more serious than ever.

Cal just nodded.

"Your father was hurt by it," she confessed. She began to play with her wedding ring, "He was so hurt, god." she giggled, probably thinking about the night she had rejected him, "He stood in silence for minutes on the front porch of my house gasping, thinking about all the possible things he had done wrong during dinner and the aftermath and we looked at each other and looked at each other until he asked me why and I couldn't tell him. He wouldn't have understood. Or he would have thought I was crazy."

The boy chuckled as he stared out at the glistening water under Velaris' winter sun, imagining his parents as kids, dressed up for a date. "How come you finally agreed to it?" he asked, later specifying, "To go on a second date I mean."

Nesta seemed to ponder how to phrase it, "Because I loved him."

Cal gave her time to process the words. If it was even half as difficult for her as it was for him, he needed to let her speak for herself.

"Because I realized that such a strong emotion, even if it was sudden and all at once, could only be a good thing. That even if it ended badly, I would have the memory of those happy, carefree moments." she nodded thoughtlessly. "I realized that something like that had to be reciprocal. A connection with a person like I had never felt before, not even with Tomas - who I believed to be the love of my life for years."

"I'm glad he wasn't," Cal murmured, chuckling.

Nesta gave him a light shrug, "Me too." then continued. "I knew your father wouldn't give up on me as easily as I was giving up on him. So after the thousandth time he asked me why I couldn't go out with him, I agreed and every time, every damn time, my heart gave out a little more.

"And I got to a point where I had nothing left to give, because he had everything about me. And I was okay with that. I was risking losing myself in what could easily have been a summer fling, but I knew it was worth it.

"Thankfully, it wasn't. Thankfully I trusted my feelings and kept fighting for what I wanted and even though sometimes your dad and I hit bumps along the way, it's still worth it. Every day."

Cal was watching her carefully.

Nesta often told her children that she loved them. He had heard her say I love you to their father many times, but never, never had he heard her speak in that open way, that vulnerable. She must have realized it too, because she took a deep breath, as if she had forgotten to breathe until that moment. Then she turned to him and put a hand on his face. Cal leaned into that touch.

"I just want you to know that you're not alone. That I feel that way too, right away. And I can assure you that if Raina is the right person for you, then she'll understand that too. Maybe it won't be the same for her, maybe it will take her longer to get to where you think you are now, but that doesn't mean she doesn't love you the same way." her eyes grew watery. "And never, ever be afraid that you're giving too much. There's no such thing as too much when it comes to love. Not in these cases."

Cal nodded, not sure he would be able to speak if he tried, but he knew his mother could see the gratitude in his eyes.

He couldn't imagine how his father must have felt when Nesta had confessed his true feelings to him. Cal was sure that the love she reserved for her children was different from the love she reserved for her husband, but certainly not weaker, not in smaller amounts. Just different.

"I know it's scary dear, but trust me when I tell you that feeling emotions so hard will bring you the best memories you'll ever make," she finally whispered.

Cal cleared his throat, not quite sure whether to be calmer or more agitated than before, but he said anyway, "Thanks mom."

Nesta turned to the snow-capped mountains that were visible above the town, "No problem."

They stood watching the river sparkle for too many minutes, but when they got up, Cal hugged his mother so tightly that Nesta was stunned.

They were used to exchanging kisses and hugs in their family, but she felt this was different.

She wrapped her arms around her son, despite the fact that he was much taller than her, and they rocked each other as the boy tried to bring order to the mess that was his head.

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marvel authors to follow (a non-exhaustive list)

@oldboldsellsword replied to your post: im so tired of people calling the mcu fandom dead...

Thanks for the recommendations! Always love new people to follow.

hey!! i hope you don’t mind me jumping on this but if you’re looking for new people to follow:

@iam93percentstardust: alle writes basically every ship under the sun, tho she does focus on buckytony and stevetony, and she has new work out almost every single day. she’s also got so many AUs in the works like, yall rly don’t understand how blessed you are to have Alle in this fandom

@anthonyed: i personally enjoy their buckytony the most but they’re extremely good at writing both stevetony and buckytony - and actually just got done with a buckytony AU

@spiderrpcrker: tanya has a lot of reader inserts and she comes up with extremely creative desi aus if that’s something you’re interested in. she also dabbles in peter parker centric-fic

@starkrogerrs: possibly one of the best stevetony authors i know, Ash literally just got done with 4.5k worth of Eros/Psyche stevetony AU.

@firebrands: honestly nadine’s produced so much fic these past few weeks, and her non-linear stevetony beach fic is the stuff of dreams

@lovelyirony: jess singlehandedly writes so much fic for obscure ships and rarepairs, and is the only reason i have any interest in Sharon Carter as a character. 

@feedmecookiesnow: i want to say that ive read more of OP’s work but i haven’t had a chance; but they did write me this amazing fic so im going to err on the side of caution and say that they’re extremely talented anyway

@imposter-human: brooklyn writes so MUCH fic its honestly insane and she’s currently got a winterironwidow spy AU going on thats quite frankly amazing

@brucewaynery: sakshi is an extremely underrated stevetony author, and her current Oceans 11 AU is amazing

@ambivalentmarvel: im not usually one for gen fics, but OP has this amazing ironsoldier AU that i will be recommending until i die

@natasharxmanov: jordan writes for both stevetony and superbat (and if im not wrong arthureames but its not a fandom im a part of) and everything she writes is poetry

@riotfalling: QUEEN of buckytony. there is nothing that riot cannot do and i am constantly in awe of her

@therollingstonys: i don’t know the mods personally but the blog is a plethora of art and fic and its honestly quite amazing

@s-horne: OP has written so much content for stevetony honestly like i feel like they deserve some sort of prize

@omg-just-peachy: peaches is saving the world one fluffy stevetony fic at a time

@starklysteve: i’ll be honest, ive only recently started following OP but the couple of fics ive read from them are amazing

@deathsweetqueen: i dont think i can rec Simi enough she has the most intricate AUs and is honestly a godsend to the desi marvel fandom

@kimannhart: jo honestly has some of the best buckytony content out there, and is actually go set me onto the samtony ship in the first place

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these are just the authors that i know personally or interact with on a regular basis, but the point is - if you want fic; its out there. this fandom is far from dead but its honestly on its way given how hard it is for writers to get any interactions with their fic these days

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I GOT SO MUCH TO SAYYY!! gosh pls dont find me weird okay, and these are just my personal opinions and im not hating any groups!! but my unpopular opinion is: i think kpop has become very toxic after bts and bp got famous in America. And tbh if you ask me, i wouldnt want any other kpop groups to be famous in America... i only stan exo but i think i speak for all groups when i say they are safe as they are now... of course if exo ever get even more famous i will be happy and proud for their success. But look how fame and America has changed bts and bp... not tryna hate but look theyve changed, idk if anyone else noticed but after fame hits bts, i realised how theyve start to become very...white?? like they are so westernised and like example, they start focusing on America only, they even curse (not a lot but i’d still point out) casually like for example, jungkook singing a curse word in his cover song for jason derulo savage love i think (speaking of cursing, after nct127 got famous in usa mark started getting influenced by them too and he casually cursed like “oh fuck” and everyones like 😃😆) even i curse and im not saying cursing is BADD but yeah i am, and how they sing a whole song in english, not to even mention how toxic america is but in grammys they have sold tons of albums yet they didnt win anything but when they release an english song, they won.

Some half of them americans are very toxic, racist, and just theyre basically acid, like bruh, its evident that once bts got famous there are soooo much hate thrown towards bts too cuz theyre asians, or how some would say theyre gay or look like girls...if my favs (exo) ever get these kinds of treatments (not that they dint but veryy little cuz thank god they ain exposed to the western culture) i will B R E A K, i could never handle that so i would never want that to happen to them. Also noticed how, after bts got famous, most armys are equally as toxic, whether they are just stanning bts just cuz theyre famous there, or like how their fans dont even know anything abt bts and coming after so many groups and their fans. Most of them are fake and i think its cuz of the fame for bts lmao. One thing i’d like to say too tho, is how they are so overrated and their songs are played all the damn time, people would randomly talk abt them, like everywhere you go THEY ARE JUST THERE, like in my opinion if i am an army, i would just feel like they are so common and theres nothing special about them anymore and theres no excitement, like what even is the point anymore. idk if anyone gets me but thats just how i feel about my favs being “wOrLdWiDe fAmOuS”, i will love them and their music but its just something i think about tbh🤷🏻‍♀️ like let me listen to them on my own and vibe and love them, dont play it 24/7 just cuz they are famous and ure tryna get people’s attention, like imagine ure in the subway and u hear ur favs song cuz its EVERYWHERE and ure there like 😐😐 not that u dont love their music but its cuz horrible people dont deserves to listen to their songs, and like people arent going to appreciate them anyway so yeah i feel uncomfortable listening to my favs as others dont even bother, like imagine if that subway is filled with people who are in ur fandom, yall would just hv the best time in the world and VIBE, if not what even is the point. Idk if im explaining it properly, but its badically like, u feeling UNCOMFORTABLE or should i even say SELFISH cuz u do not want to be sharing ur favs with people who dont even deserve to KNOW about them. Basically like seeing how someone you HATE or bullied you back then talking and being all friendly fake with ur BESTEST FRIEND or even boyfriend/girlfriend, cuz u just want to protect them from EVIL (im so dramatic)

And well lastly, no Bts did not paved the way, or “bts is the best and only group” like no, so many amazing artists were breaking records way before bts was even a thing (no hate to bts) but they really need to get slap for having that mindset, they really make a bad image for bts...tbh kpop before was so peaceful (a little toxic but still, compared to now...BYE) and everything was just about idols and fans love, listening and supporting and loving their music and just so comforting... urgh anyway thats all i wanna say and here are some texts i saved relating to kpop groups going famous worldwide uwu

these are also examples, and honestly speaking here, i dont want to be specific as in “exo” cuz i think this happens for ALL the groups out there and the love and relationship between the idols and their fans (family) are just beautiful, but for bts and armys... tbh i feel bad because i just dont see or feel any love they hv for each other (sure we see bts saying i love you armys or armys supporting bts but with all the toxicity in their way, theres just no spark or chemistry or bond no more it’s basically like one direction and their fans and thats all they are, celebrity-fan, but for kpop its family), i can see other groups and their fans interacting or how idols would light up talking abt their fans, but for bts, theres just soooo much mess going on in their fandom its not special anymore, they lost the deep meaning of their group love and IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT but YEAH DJSHSKSJ OH and to add somethign else, they got famous in America, look at all the collabs🤡🤡 blackpink with cardi b, bts with nicki etc... not that collabs arent fun... im just saying these american artists... they dont exactly have a good reputation (americans singing about sex (not the good kind), money, girls and drugs) 🥴🥴 dont influenced my faves and let them be exposed to the toxic culture YALL GET ME?? KPOP HAS THE LETTER K FOR A REASON😭😭😭 let them be their own shining star, not everything has to be involved or a part of aMeRiCa to be amazing.... PHEW IVE SAID IT NOW BEFORE ANYONE GETS MAD AT ME, I DONT MEAN TO SOUND RUDE TO YOU, if youre an american and youre no where near being toxic, I LOVE YOU but im just saying, the western culture is toxic and im just saying what ive been observing and noticing🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️ ps: i still love exo till the max and everything about them is perfect and theyre just amazing people (everything i said that bts and armys dont really have anymore, i think thankfully, EXO (sorry im biased) most fandoms still have so much of the L O V E there and i find that extraordinary) and he fandom is so comforting and amazing and idk dkdjjdjss thats why i dont want them getting famous worldwide...sorry exols ANYWAY THATS ALL FOR MY RANT ITS 4AM AND I AM THINKING OF DELETING THIS💀💀💀 anywya sorry for taking up so much space but i just wanna say I FREKAING LOVE NO EXIT, NO LIMITS, basically all ur exo fics cuz why not🥺🥺 i think ur writing skills are amazing as well as the plots and all especially forsaken, and THANK YOU for two bbhxoc fics😭😭😭 i cant!!! also if u reached here idk i-🥲 i hope u didnt get mad or offended 👀

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Kpop has become extremely toxic with the growth of international fans and the rise of 3rd/4th gen. I wasn't around to experience the previous generations, but I know damn well they weren't a mess like these newer ones are.

Gaining fame in America does seem to change idols, and idk why. The group members change and the music changes also. While I do enjoy hearing idols swear (guilty pleasure) and I am an American so I get to enjoy their English songs, I can see how it makes all the other cultures/countries feel some type of way.

I will say this, though, the Grammys are shit and I dont get why people care so much about them. They've proven time and time again the awards don't go to the best artists. However, this doesn't mean that I think BTS deserved a Grammy imo.

Americans are a very toxic and hate filled bunch (again, I am one, so I get to see this shit every day). I 100% know that some of the hate directed towards Asians is because of racism (as seen by the insane uptick in crime against Asian Americans right now) and because some see kpop male idols as too feminine.

BTS is literally everywhere, which is one of the reasons I stopped listening to them tbh. They'd be in commercials, on talk shows, late night shows, in magazines, on the radio, just everywhere. It took the joy out of watching anything from them just because they were always in my face, so I can see what you mean.

I feel like the relationship between BTS and army has changed (from an outsiders perspective). Its no longer about loving and supporting your group and being happy for them. Now, its "so-so wants this? We MUST do everything in our power and spam every possible thing ever so they get what they want". Its almost frightening. They also no longer care about the quality of the music being put out. Doesn't matter what it is, they stream the ever loving shit out of it and make it break records when, honestly, it doesn't deserve to (again imo).

Lastly, I didnt get mad or offended haha. I understand a lot of these viewpoints, and thank you so much for liking my work!! I do wonder what would happen if I made a true BBH centric fic and not just spin offs or continuations of previous works where oc ends up with BBH 🤔🤔 I think that fic would have too much power haha.

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Im in love with your vision of Infinite and Rookie and i want to hear some of your sweet headcanons about their time together. If anyone asked something similar, refer me to this post, please. Thanks!

alskdjnsjklnljkls tysm!!!! yeah sure ill share some headcanons. i did a post on a similar topic about a month ago but that’s more their individual personalities/aesthetics than actual relationship material so ill go ahead and add on some stuff here.

i should note that portions of this are based heavily off of the idea that they grew up together so prepare for some au territory at this point. my backstory for them is becoming so intricate jfc;;;;;; i really hope ur not disappointed with this answer i have like an entire pre-forces narrative planned out in my head at this point OTL if u were hoping for more general stuff just lemme know i can give you some more hcs for that (there’s already some but there’s also Backstory stuff that i can’t really explore through oneshot format)

this is entirely self indulgent tbhhhh anyways click that mf Keep reading button

there’s a lot of like. casual touch. lotsa hugs and leaning on each other and resting their chin on the other’s shoulder (or top of head depending on who’s who bc height difference) while looking over them at what they’re doing and its really rooted in their learning early on how much Gadget loves that sweet sweet Physical Contact (if u scratch behind his ears he will melt, guaranteed, you’ll have yourself a Boneless Gadget with a two-liter coke)

if it’s raining out gadget will insist on doing something that’s not just sitting inside all day but snugglin w/ infinite ends up tempting him into doing Exactly That lol

there’s a lot of companionable silence between them when it’s just Them Alone in a Room. sure they talk and chat and joke but there are so many times where it’s just,,, being Together,,, and enjoying being in the other’s presence as they each do their own thing

sorta going into childhood/backstory stuff but uhhhh:

starting freshman year of highschool they started just bein each other’s dates to school dances even though they were “just friends” for like half of that timespan . i love cheesy stuff like that im sorry bro i had to include that tidbit i know it’s super specific and particular to my own backstory for them but just, they’re best buds and they gonna have a good time at homecoming lol

please imagine: those cute pre-dance pictures that parents take at the stairwell or front porch or somethin right before their kids leave, but with gadget and infinite. gadget’s got braces and they dont really fit in his mouth and his lenses reflect the light in the photo and oops infinite blinked and his shirt is too big and tbh their suits in gen just don’t really fit them right, gadget’s shirt is untucked and infinite’s tie is crooked but it’s okay, they’re both smilin reeeeaaaal big (and besides they figure out how to look Aesthetically Pleasing by junior year)

summers were hot in their hometown (note: i grew up in the north so i know nothing of True Heat, bear with me on this one.) most evenings were spent out on gadget’s fam’s back porch, cold towels resting on the backs of their necks, sweat in and under their fur, and they’re melting into the wood of the deck, fan plugged into that one weird outlet on the outside of the house that’s really more a fire hazard than anything else but the cool air is nice. they’re just lounging around reading comic books and listening to music on infinite’s old zune (lots of mid-2000s punk rock bands bc what else were u expecting) and in later years when they’re in that teen puppy love stage they’re trying to cuddle but it’s TOO DAMN HOT OUTSIDE so they resort to like, gentle hand holding, infinite reading some pretentious literary work or whatever and gadget spacing tf out next to him

when they graduate and are assigned a partner to walk down the aisle with they still end up w/ each other even though technically the partners are chosen according to alphabetical order and they’re on opposite ends of that list whOOPS how’d they do that? (hint: last minute shuffling in line)

when they move outta their small lil home town and into The Big City (im gonna say that would be Sunset Heights to tie in some canon plot relevance) they move in together and share a flat. a) its more financially manageable to just split housing costs like that and b) it’s been a dream their entire lives to live together when they’re older so oh!!! they’re older now!!!!! time to live together

(okay that’s all for backstory stuff back to reg hcs)

neither can cook but its ok

it may seem like they bicker a lot but it’s usually either the like, joke argue of “what do you mean craft mac n cheese is gross take that back” or reprimands like “it’s one a.m. time to sleep u Fool” (self-care is important, lads). they actually communicate really well so high-stakes arguments aren’t super common (and when they do happen they dont tend to explode. i wanted to have them be the type that argue for understanding and not to prove they’re right, so that greatly affects the outcomes of their disputes.)

infinite loves to hum while he’s doing things, or just in gen, and his voice is very low and smooth and gadget looooooves it, so much. they’ll be, i dunno, doing some mundane thing, like maybe they’re out getting groceries or doin dishes or something (i love me that domestic content) and he’ll start humming quietly and it just, it really grounds gadget in a way that sometimes he doesn’t even know he needs till infinite does it.

anyone here ever played bayonetta? any a yall remember those bits where there’s a woman in bayo’s memories singing and/or humming ‘fly me to the moon’ all quiet and low? think that but just,,,, pitched down,,,, yeah,,,

the tunes are usually very slow and while not so much melancholy theyre just? i dunno melodic in the same lax, smooth-tempo’d way a lot of melancholy songs are? i dunno i like quiet, introspective infinite and aesthetics that reflect that

here’s a long one: about a month before infinite “goes missing” and forces happens, infinite lands a job at a local news outlet as one of the column writers and even tho he’s more into prose than journalism he’s so fuckin pumped. it’s mostly just excitement over not doing cashier work and having a money-makin outlet he’s at least somewhat interested in lol …aaaaaand the way ship headcanon works into this bullet is that when he finds out that he landed the job he so excited that when gadget walks into the room (it’s morning and gadget literally was just gonna get some coffee, he’s still in his pajamas, he’s got bedhead) infinite sees him and whoops he tackle-hugs him and then whoops he knocked them both onto the floor but its cool gadget kinda let it happen and when infinite tells him what happened and apologizes he’s now also super excited and happy for him so now there’s two (2) people screaming inside (and out) about this awesome development

here’s a short one: they wear each other’s clothes a lot

gadget’s v cuddly in his sleep so he gets really clingy w/ infinite when a) it’s early morning and they’re just waking up b) it’s Late o’ clock at night and they’re chillin at home or c) he’s Actually asleep and within like three feet of infinite

i dont really know how to end this lol i dont really wanna just start repeating myself and i might think of other stuff later but for now pls consider the following: when they sleep whoever’s big spoon ends up resting one hand over the other’s heart and it’s super sweet

oh and they smooch a lot (i told you this response was self indulgent)

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What’cha kno bout me, What’cha What’cha kno bout me! I say new blog be poppin!My new blog be good!

Hey Y'all! (That title tho, I couldn’t help it lol) 

    So, to be quite honest, I am not sure what I was gonna write about with this first post. But I decided that I was gonna introduce myself to you guys so you would know who is this giving me some advice or whatever y’all want to call this writing. I am happy that you guys are with me for the beginning of this journey and hope you guys enjoy. If not, like I said, I am still gonna do me, boo-boo.

      Anyway, starting off, I’m Glenda aka Glencoco, a 20-year-old black woman living in St. Louis, Mo. For you guys that don’t know where St. Louis is (which I don’t know why you don’t because, honey, you have google maps) just think of Ferguson, Mo and you would be close enough. (if you still don’t get it, baby, Google is your friend.) I am a college student at Saint Louis University and no I am not a pre-med major (THANK GOD!) I am studying Psychology, focusing on the Industrial-Organizational sub-field. Yup, I live the experiences that most black students at PWI’s go through, but eventually, I found my special group of petty best friends that I am grateful for and eat $2 tacos with on Tuesdays.   I am the daughter of two Baptist preachers, so yeah, I grew up spiritual and it helps when me when I am at my worst. Now listen, I’m not forcing a belief on no one because that’s not how I roll. But there is nothing better than having some type of way of getting your inner you calm. (There’s a preview of my “self-help” tips.) I am a silky size 16 that loves fashion and makeup and will rock any style you throw at me, because BABY, I’m beautiful!! I am a fan of most of the nerdiest things yall can imagine, Harry Potter, some anime, some video games, Steven Universe, DC, and Marvel. Yup, I feel like I am the sexy little black nerd. HA!  

   I also love, love, love music, anything from Bach to Tupac, jazz to twerk music, gospel to some of today’s mumble rap (yup that’s what I’m calling this new gen rap music), If it has a good beat and/or message, I’m adding it to my Spotify playlist.  And, as you all will find out, I am a HUGE Stan of Mrs. Beyoncé Knowles-Carter. She is like top notch, the best of the best, no contest, won’t get no rest, yes, yes, yes! I love her, love her music, her message, her wigs, everything! I can go all day with this, but I am trying to write 1000 words (even though I can if I must).

      Well, that’s all for now. You’ll find out more about me when I make more posts and give guidance and rants and whatever I feel like giving throughout this journey. I would appreciate any feedback you all have for me and PLEASE, PLEASE. PLEASE feel free to send suggestions on what you guys would like for me to give my two cents. I grow more through you guys because you are helping get better. If you like this, share it, tag your friends, put it in your group chats or whatever. If you don’t, well it won’t hurt my feelings, honey, because I’m still gonna do me like always. So, that’s all for now! I will see you guys next week and of course follow me here on Tumblr!! Also, follow on IG and Twitter: @love_glencoco Snapchat: @glencoco2015