#i keep forgetting its an option

[str8upjorkinit]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PRINCESSSSSS

[wildtales1973]

Feyd Rautha & Baron Harkonnen- ME AND THE DEVIL

[seaofreverie]

When you return from vacation everything should become awesome and cool and manageable instatly due to the sheer awesomeness of the vacation, it should be enough to fix everything

[grad-writes]

oh sorry lmao i just followed back a bunch of people but because this is my side blog on the same tumblr account, it followed back from my main art blog 😅 (it's just me! you dont have to follow me on both haha)

[citrinitxs]

hiiiiiii i have. um. bad news lol.

this blog will be under renovations

ill explain why below but tldr: i am going to permanently distance myself from old fandoms (nothing personal to my moots, im just tired of everything with it), and also work on changing my blog theme. this counts for my muse lists, dossiers, and everything.

if u want the whole explanation, heres your cue to see it. warning for dissociation, drama (lmao), controversies with vas and fandom toxicity and the like. proceed with caution, i have zero filter and my thoughts are a mess (hadnt had decent sleep today, save me)

so, its not surprising when i say that i will be permanently leaving the hoyoverse space. roleplaying, writing, art, the works. im actually stopping on rping the games associated w/ them today onwards.

the reason/s behind it are simple, because it has been piling since day god knows when: drama, fandom being a cesspool of toxicity, general interests and college (wow, shocker!)

now, this blog just existed as an rp blog. thats its main purpose. ik its smth that shouldnt have drama or wtv, but i do see a lot of things abt hyv: most are positive depending on what game we're talking, but others were........ def smth i go "ah."

it actually caused me to distance from genshin, since the only thing tying me to this game were my friends. they're still into it + hsr, and i stuck around cause hey, thats what they like. and yes, i do love the game: i muse these bozos for a reason (/aff), but nowadays, i find myself hating it. i find myself regretting associating with it with how the fandom acts. any other time before it tanked, i would've said id stick by it till the end. now? im not sure if i can.

and whats worse is how ive seen the game treat its fans. the controversies it got into, the characters becoming more fanservice-y when it wasnt meant to be for some games, and even down to fans harassing each other and leaks. as much as i love the game before, its caused me to realize i just.. dont feel that spark.

the fomo is intense, people are yapping abt whatever tf the devs got into, what each game has that others didnt, and even the most tedious story segments (ahem. hsr. im looking at you for penacony and amphoreus.) drove me mental. and it was the sign i knew i needed to call it quits.

so im cutting the line here.

i love my muses. again. i love them so dearly, i wish to never let them go. i love my mutuals who talked to me w/ mine, who i still talk to when i got the chance (you know who you are) even outside it, but.... im tired. im tired, man.

so, this is my time to dip from the stage of hyv.

now, though, im not dipping from other fandoms. i am, however, going to introduce new ones i got obsessed with (tribe nine and path to nowhere being a few lmao). this is why i said the blog will be under renovations.

im also going to return to twisted wonderland, because i have sank to the rabbit hole and cant get out. if any of u wanna interact w/ them, feel free! it'll take a hot while till i can get it sorted, though.

i will say that, though im sad to leave the game that got me to my highest, i knew its time i gotta leave and pursue better avenues for myself. (im also keeping my replycons of these mfs, just gonna zip them in a dif. drive so i dont lose the amount of work i did before).

so. yeah. this is goodbye, hoyoverse.

thank you for the memories, for the friends you gave me, and for the characters i love.

but i think youve outstayed your welcome, and id like to find something that will make me happy again.

goodbye, and good luck.

[demifiendcruithne]

i am not sorry for making my personal helper program pull a demi-fiend if i try and leave its folder

i thought it was funny. now if only terminals supported orange text

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Had an ADHD assessment a few years ago and the fuckwit that assessed me said, as a direct quote, "You're too smart to have ADHD." Like that's not any type of paraphrasing, that stupid fucking statement is burned in my brain forever and has been since I heard it.

I talked to my psychiatrist about getting a referral to a different psychologist for assessment, and she agreed and sent it in.

Today I got a call that said they don't agree that I need reassessment, and I'm welcome to pursue it elsewhere, but they won't provide reassessment. Which is just.

I don't even know where to start with that one. I just needed to get it out. I'm so tired.

[kabutone]

after the years of people jumping on activism like its a trend and then leaving it behind after a few weeks i am so fucking tired. like not to be cynical but like i see SO many people talking about palestine and saving lives but like be so fucking real are you gonna forget all about this in a few months? like how ppl ditched BLM after it gained traction in 2020? like how so fucking MANY OF YOU have stopped wearing a mask despite the pandemic still happening? you could be saving lives right in your own town instead of posting tiktoks that might not even help

i'm not saying you need to dedicate your lives to activism forever and ever but you do need to at least change Something to make yourself and the world better. i will always be listening to black voices, jewish voices, disabled voices, any groups that need to be heard, and trying to change my behavior for the better. like idk after seeing this happen time and time again a LOT of this shit seems so so fake. like there's so many bad things in the world and i know you cannot dedicate your all to every single problem ever forever and i don't want people spreading themselves too thin or burning themselves out but like please don't just stop giving a shit when it's not "popular" or getting you views or pats on the back anymore.

[sleepgarden-archive]

Hello! I'll be opening my shop tomorrow, I had hoped for a new full illustration but I've been ill and busy with commission work. However, I did make something small, a bookplate design!

I actually wanted to ask for feedback as I prepare them for the shop, I have two options for the book sizes.. 1. I can make them on lustre paper and thus not adhesive (would have to be applied with glue, tape, etc) or 2. I can print them on label paper, which I found to be perfect since it's an actual sticker and thin/lightweight which is great for paperbacks. That said, the lustre paper looks so much nicer 😭

Here they are side by side, the label paper on the left and the lustre on the right (it's a 5x7 print, the book size prints will be in a pack of multiple sizes like the left)

I tested writing my name on the left one ^^; but otherwise I hope you can see! Neither of them are pasted in yet. I'm mostly worried about the quality of how it looks. (And I don't want to offer both to save myself trouble ><....)

Sorry if I've worded this confusingly, essentially what I'm asking is: if you were theoretically ordering these, would you prefer the easy to stick on and lightweight label paper at the expense of the quality of the print? Or would you prefer a better quality print on thicker paper, and have to glue it in yourself?

Regardless, 5x7 lustre paper prints will be available! I think it would be cute to decorate a bookshelf with ♡ I'm specifically talking about the functional bookplates!

[ifyourereadingthisblinktwice]

i need to stop forgetting things exist the fucking second they leave my field of vision. why is is impossible for two things to occupy my mind at once especially when im tired. like. i feel like a sim. i feel like actions are being canceled and i just. move on. and completely forget what i was doing moments before. i fucking hate it

[stxrmstained]

𝑇𝑌𝑃𝐸𝑆 𝑂𝐹 𝑃𝐸𝑂𝑃𝐿𝐸: 𝐷𝑈𝑁𝐺𝐸𝑂𝑁𝑆 𝐴𝑁𝐷 𝐷𝑅𝐴𝐺𝑂𝑁𝑆 𝐶𝐿𝐴𝑆𝑆𝐸𝑆 .

𝐵𝐴𝑅𝐵𝐴𝑅𝐼𝐴𝑁 ⚔ toothy grins, stories around the campfire, clothes covered in pet hair, hot temper, old jeans, heartbeat in head, potatoes and steak, beaded jewellery, bruises like galaxies, mementos, backpack stuffed full, craigslist furniture, spontaneous road trips, air ripped from lungs.

𝐵𝐴𝑅𝐷 ⚔ homemade bread, white lies, easily excited, trying on hats, band geek, pep talks, no impulse control, sunsets, vintage fashion, long showers, selfies, following dreams, rosy cheeks, song mash-ups, pink lemonade with tequila, loves easily, animated storyteller, full of comebacks.

𝐶𝐿𝐸𝑅𝐼𝐶 ⚔ list of wishes, biting their tongue, band-aids and neosporin, shoulder to cry on, morning sun, necklaces, trial and error, homemade quilts, formal clothing, astrology fan, messages in bottles, pleated braids, speaking up for friends, feathers, motivational quotes, vivid dreams.

𝐷𝑅𝑈𝐼𝐷 ⚔ bird watching, shy kid, wind chimes, trying to whistle, summer camp, apple orchards, lost in their head, glow-in-the-dark stars on the ceiling, hoodies, thrift shopping, saving worms off the sidewalk, pig latin, bare feet, thunderstorms, numb fingers, braided hair, naming potted plants.

𝐹𝐼𝐺𝐻𝑇𝐸𝑅 ⚔ goose bumps, leather jackets, adventure, chewing nails, cares deeply but can’t show it, bronze locks, no sleep, taste of iron, netflix binges, never forgets, combat boots, stories behind scars, table for one, official soundtracks, sore calves, trusts themselves the most.

𝑀𝑂𝑁𝐾 ⚔ always trying to be better, wanderlust, meditation, sweat pants, old photographs, yoga, sleeping in hammocks, nostalgia, minimalist design, breath of fresh air, baby animals, volunteering, perfectionist, doesn’t care about fashion, healthy snacks, noticing the little things.

𝑃𝐴𝐿𝐴𝐷𝐼𝑁 ⚔ school uniforms, thick jackets, sleeping with the windows open, logical advice, scrapbooking, compasses, i fight for my friends, sculpture gardens, cold morning air, big soul, likes routine, secret romantic, last to get jokes, sunflowers, practical presents, misty weather.

𝑅𝐴𝑁𝐺𝐸𝑅 ⚔ herbal tea, smell of rain, blinking away tears, camping trips, collecting bones, swiss army knives, first impressions, anxious thoughts, bobby pins, burnt marshmallows, too competitive, clothes lines, messenger bags, holding grudges, gets along better with animals than people.

𝑅𝑂𝐺𝑈𝐸 ⚔ flirtatious sarcasm, candid photos, lost phone chargers, adrenaline rush, picking dirt out from beneath their nails, social chameleon, clashing clothes, self-deprecating jokes, claw machines, sits in chairs wrong, smudged eyeliner, has too many sunglasses, eats nothing or everything.

𝑆𝑂𝑅𝐶𝐸𝑅𝐸𝑅 ⚔ infectious laugh, family trees, shivers down their spine, lipstick and roses, mood swings, clumsy, believing in destiny, high expectations, sleeping in darkness, collection of nail polish, passionate, good grades but never studies, poetry books, blowing kisses, not knowing their own strength.

𝑊𝐴𝑅𝐿𝑂𝐶𝐾 ⚔ knowing everyone’s secrets, backpack covered in pins, envy, being in walmart late at night, earl grey, selective memory, conspiracy theories and cryptids, keysmashing, need to know basis, can’t cook, bags under eyes, experimental art, flickering bulbs, black clothing all year long

𝑊𝐼𝑍𝐴𝑅𝐷 ⚔ piles of textbooks, cat in lap, keeping a diary, indecisions, scented candles, studying alone in a café, lingering touches, museum dates, unanswered questions, taking on too much responsibility, collections, chalk dust, comfy robes, unnecessary apologies, coming home after a long day.

[moonske]

sometimes i forget that i dont need to suffer with my headaches and that i can take chewable pills now,,

[nightingeal]

🍒 ooc. new s.amsung update just happened to me and i cannot find a way to make the notifcations on the cover screen show me the messages without having to open the phone, which is such a specific thing for me to know will make what is already a difficult task for my brain (keeping track of & replying to messages) more difficult.

[idunnowhattowriteheretbh]

Au got stuck in not posting phase again

Uhhhh if anyone wants feel free to drop an art request in asks or a random question

If my brain shows mercy and won't make me forget about it I'll reply sgjshddn

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I was going to go to sleep early tonight but then I had to Google my most painful ex and listen to the entirety of Five Seconds Flat by Lizzy McAlpine. I may have to listen to it again, so it's going to be a busy night.