#i like the idea that reapers cant die but u can put them through a face worse than death instead

[nonbinaryphantom]

ive been putting way too much lore into reaper au especially stuff like reaper biology/abilities and psuedo reaper abilities

[cringefailcabitha]

sorry i dont have tumblr (i only use it to stalk cabby art LOL) and idk if youll answer this but i am known as the cabby yapper by my friends so i wanted to bring this up to someone who thinks about her as deeply as me

do you ever like think about how terrifying mephones plan for a season 4 would have been to cabby specifically? out of all of the final 3 she has been hurt by the game the most (with no closure mind you unlike balloon), i think having to go through everything again would genuinely break her. even if shes less misunderstood the game still puts pressure onto her to be a facts machine, a strategist. when shes literally the kindest person ever, trying to comfort silver (despite his constant mistreatment of her), and sacrificing almost every post merge challenge for the sake of somebody else (i.e giving up her inani-mate for yinyang, sacrificing herself in episode 13 to put herself on the line with yinyang even if she was manipulating them out of obligation, AND EPISODE 15 SHE DEFINITELY WOULD HAVE WON IF SHE HAD USED HER FILES and completely foiling blueberrys plan, but she didnt because she cared about bot)

in the episode when shes reading the file, the screen actually starts shaking a little. implying she was absolutely horrified at what she was reading. and she had every single right, especially considering what shes gone through.

the other thing that’s absolutely insane to me is the fact that this information was conveyed to her via a file. aka her disability aid, something she relies on. that mustve been horrifying to see something so person to her used against her in such a way.

sorry i regurgitated a lot of this info from the shut i put on tiktok. im just genuinely crazy about cabby

ALSO UR A CABTUBE TRUTHER IM LITERALLY SO IN LOVE WITH CABTUBE i am lesbian cabbys number one truther and see her shipped with men far too much. but like i was so hoping test tube would at least apologize or something. it irritates me how they can make one sided silvercandle canon but they cant show us anymore one-sided cabtube. just make her blush or something. but tbh it made me emo when test tube (and pb bc they nodded) oraised cabby, it made me genuinely crazy.

also unshout out to everyone bullying cabby this episode genuinely why were half of them so mean please let silver Die slowly and painfully. also if lifering (i hc him and cabby as father and daughter, like u cannot convince me lifering and floory arent her dads) switched up on cabby i will personally take his soul like the grim reaper he will be seeing these hands.

sorry feel free to ignore this!

-🍭

😭 I was for real thinking about that earlier today like hasn’t she been through enough… Yes Cabby is a very competitive person but after everything that happened to her in this season and the fact that she’s Still in a vulnerable place right now I don’t think she would find it particularly enjoyable to not receive a prize and then immediately be thrust into a new season of competition— and as a team leader, no less.

Test Tube thanking her for apologising was,,, weird to me. I literally rolled my eyes. It gave me the impression that she (and Paintbrush) think Cabby *should* be apologising to everyone for making some of them uncomfortable? And I just don’t agree. As polite as it is, I think it’s way overstating her actions. Like… why is it “right” to apologise to the entire jury for her past behaviour making “some of them uncomfortable” pre episode 7 when she had never even worked with half of them when said behaviour was supposedly occurring? It’s so frustrating to me, like… how much smaller does she have to make herself for them to be satisfied? I don’t get it.

And of course, “making them uncomfortable” thing again comes back to her files. It’s basically impossible for her not to internalise the idea that keeping information is bad because she Might get things wrong (which. Is another thing. As far as we’ve seen, her writing is almost always correct, barring Bot which is an obvious outlier, and erroneously attributing Suitcase turning on her alliance in season 2 to Balloon’s manipulation.) In episode 15 too, aka the worst Test Tube episode to me, she says Cabby thinks everyone is just “what she happened to write down” as if Cabby is careless and doesn’t do her due diligence when writing her files. Which to me directly contradicts her calling Cabby’s Fan file “impeccable” and having “so many notes” back in episode 2?

And as for Test Tube’s assertion that Cabby would turn on her the moment she stopped being useful, and that she treated everyone like chess pieces on her little board, it really felt like her jumping to conclusions because of what happened with Fan. Because she has done that to no other member of the Pinkers. And there is way less manipulation on Cabby’s part in the show than Test Tube’s irritation would have it seem.

I’m not sure if the writers intentions were to make Cabby as manipulative as Silver from the beginning, but if it was and that’s why this is all going on, well. Mission status isn’t exactly a success to me— the only manipulation she does is in episode 2, when she tries to get Bot to vote out Fan (and presumably the rest of the team as well), and episode 7, where she makes a big show of approaching Silver about how it would be better for him to stack the ice cream because, knowing him to be lazy and careless, it would increase the odds of him screwing up the challenge and make it easier to vote him out.

I’m at least relieved that Test Tube seems to have been thinking about things whenever Cabby says something self-effacing or seems to be nice, because it gives me hope that she may finally realise she’s been taking it too far and maybe Cabby will get an apology, but the fact that she’s been just sitting on it for like 3 episodes by now is killing me,

[screamingchipmunk]

I finally finished vol 9!!!!!! YAY

I literally loved this volume so much, prolly one of my favs actually.

Anyway back to the point,

WARNING I CANT KEEP MY FUCKING MOUTH SHUT SO THERE WILL BE A LOT OF SPOILERS HERE LMAO ⚠️

Back to the point,

-THEO THEO THEO. Back after vol 8, I genuinely thought he was gonna get a prosthetic or smth to let him continue to fight but I had no idea he was switching to a different regiment?!? Or maybe not even fighting in the war at all?!? I had to put the book down when we saw him for the first time in the book, tho Theo and his “uncles” relationship is so nice I’m glad he finally found someone other than the squad that he considers family.

-Kurena my beloved!!! The book was 90% about Kurena so I got to see her a lot. Which I thought would annoy me, but I enjoyed it a lot. It was nice to see her finally move on from her strange attachment to Shin, and I finally got to look in her head a little about her opinions about the war. Also, so many ppl confessed to her?! LMAO. She definitely girlbossed her way through this volume.

-The theocracy, as I already mentioned I thought was a Theo cult for a bit. Was rly interesting. Though I didn’t like Hilna for quite awhile, when Kurena compared herself to her I was like ohhhhhhhh. By the end of the volume, I was kinda worried for how things would turn out for her cause the theocracy is batshit crazy, but I think she’ll be fine….? Honestly the federacy should do more about the use of VERY small children to fight, not just focusing on the republic. Hilna in general was a very fleshes out character and she reacted how a very stressed child would in any situation lmao. Though her trying to take the 86 down with her a trashing on Lena pissed me off, she’s still in the 11-13 and that could’ve been any of the 86 in her place actions wise.

-Shin’s whole god of death thing was so funny to me and I don’t know why 💀 Fr Shin’s getting so many titles like unbroken blade, reaper, Lena’s boyfriend and now GOD OF DEATH. Still waiting for more of Lena’s rep to grow tho, so they can be The Bloody Queen and her reaper or smth #couplegoals

-SPEAKING OF COUPLE GOALS, SHINLENA IN ALL THE SCENESSSSSSS. Lena finally fucking confessed to Shin, and it was beautiful *wipes away tear* Both Shin and Lena are so dramatic in their confessions and I love that for them. +Shin crying around Lena?!?! He hasn’t cried since volume one and it just so precious that he trusts her that much to cry around her. ++They’ve started to teases each other, and surprisingly Lena can hold her own which I find rly funny 😂

-The nobles in the federacy have to much to unpack tbh. Svenja was a little…prideful but yknow she has a reason for that so I’ll give it a pass ig. So proud of Frederica though, she didn’t hesitate to yell at anyone in the vol like the Queen she is ( in the figurative and literal sense ) Older nobles tho, hate them. They control the publicity and seem to have a rly large influence that just makes me worry for Shin if the war ends that he’ll have to deal with that crap.

-Also most of the 86 moved on from depression! Yay! Shin may have started the whole I don’t wanna be left behind thing, and it sent a domino affect with the rest of them cause Shin is great like that ( cept Raiden maybe but that’s a death flag I don’t wanna look at ) Seeing them finally want the war to end is great, but with the counteroffensive starting next vol, I’m worried a lot of them will die like raiden and I’m already emotionally damaged from Shana’s death and Shidennnnnn😭. Overall the 86 have all become normal with the exception of their borderline stalkery involvement in every one of ShinLena’s interactions. Which either says that they have nothing better to do, or are ignoring how desperately single they are ( looking at u Anju )+ everyone hates Dustin now and idk why lmao

It was overall a super amazing volume! And I’m not sure I’m ready for the possible depression that will come with volume 10, but I have the anime to keep me alive, so crossing my fingers!

[allofthisnonsenseplease]

firesonic152 - 08/25/2017 have we done reckless treasure hunter au yet it feels like something that needs to happen if it hasn't XD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/25/2017 We have NOT done reckless treasure hunter AU yet! =D

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 okay so reckless treasure hunter au a la uncharted/indiana jones/the mummy/etc who's the main treasure hunter, gabe? and if so how did jack get stuck on the adventure XD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 Jack isn't the idiot idealistic treasure hunter and Gabe is the experienced traveler/best friend along to keep him from getting himself killed? XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 OMG love jack is like I'M DOING THE THING and gabe is like You Will Die if i don't help so

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 and pining along the way! =D

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 lol gabe is like a rando in a tavern who just overhears jack talking to someone about his adventure plans and gabe is  like banging his head against the bar finally just gets up, slides into the free chair at jack's table, and says hey kid i'm coming bc you are an idiot

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 XD Gabe just inviting himself along That's how he's gotten to have all his awesome adventures! He meets tons of explorers and treasure hunters of varying levels of skill and just ends up playing advisor or tagging along for fun Jack's all: 'But how do I know you're as good at this as you say?' and Gabe's like: 'What the fuck do you want, a resume?' And he invites Jack back to his place, and Jack is all cool, guy's hot and I could do with a good fuck but Gabe's walls are covered with photos from his adventures and ones of him posing with people famous in the explorer circles Jack's aiming to join

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 OMGG LOL JACK GETS THE WRONG IDEA AND THINKS GABE IS LOOKING FOR A ONE NIGHT STAND ONLY TO DISCOVER HE ACTUALLY WANTS TO COME ON THE ADVENTUREE and by the time that's made clear jack's like "GODdammit now i really just wanna fuck him >>"

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 ^^ heehee yes. good. Jack spends the entire adventure trying to impress Gabe to get into his pants and fucking shit up bc he's not paying attention. But when things DO go south, and he's actually trying to keep them alive, he's kinda badass. Gabe cant figure out if he's an idiot, or someone who could be really good at this with a bit of experience.

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 AHAHAHA JACK QUIT SHOWBOATING AND FOCUS he does like dumb shit too like trip and totally miss the intended booby trap, instead accidentally crashing through the very old wall

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 JACK. Some respect for antiquities, please!

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 ahahahaha gabriel's always getting distracted by cool structures and wall carvings and telling long stories about history that jack didn't even know happened jack tends to zone out and just listen to gabe's voice without really hearing the words bc it's so soothing lol

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 oh lord. XD We gotta give him something tho, don't we? What if Jack actually has a background in linguistics and can decipher some of hte ancient languages they run across, but it's like that tumblr post that talks about how it really goes, and it's all full of unclear meanings and doesn't scan well in English and he gets so distracted puzzling over it that he forgets to run for his life when traps are sprung?

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 OMG gabe knows spanish but jack offhandedly seems to be at least a little fluent in everything????

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 He surprises Gabe towards the end by having understood Spanish the whole time, and Gabe is SO annoyed and indignant over it, 'cause not all he was saying was insults and curses, some of it was about how hot Jack is and what Gabe wants to do to him, and he's just I THOUGHT YOU WERE AN EXPERT ON DEAD LANGUAGES and Jack is just -'.'- that doesn't preclude me knowing a few commonly used ones. It could be that Jack understands Spanish and a few others, but doesn't speak them well. XD Like, he can manage to order food and ask directions, so Gabe thinks he just knows basic tourist phrases and that anything quick and/or complicated will go right over his blocky, blond head

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 i love that shit he has a terrible accent but he can understand almost everything and like some really random languages too lmao

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 Jack def knows klingon. XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 AHAHA

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 and possibly elvish XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 NERD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 that's where he got his start! =D

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 when gabe is like WHAT OTHER LANGUAGES DO YOU KNOW jack sheepishly lists those off and gabe is internally like holy shit i'm in love with a Nerd

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 and he just branched out from there, and went into ancient languages 'cause they felt closer to these made up ones bc there aren't native speakers he can learn from

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 >w<

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 okay, but...Gabe being like. Klingon? Seriously?? Wait. Wait wait wait. Hang on. And he produces a photo of himself in Klingon cosplay. XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 GAAAAABE THAT'S GAY

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 XD Dude. The Klingon guy was a fukkin' teddy bear (from the few eps I remember XD)

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 i'm dying what treasure are they going after a golden corn idol?? maybe a cool red and black orb thing like the reaper souls

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 hrmmm.... XD They get to the center of the massive temple filled with deadly traps and Jack is just THE REAL TREASURE WAS THE FRIENDS WE MADE ALONG THE WAY! :D

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 AHAHAHA JACK

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 Hell, maybe Jack just wants to find some lost manuscripts or something. And he's all gaga over this treasure, but he doesn't tell gabe exactly what it is, only that it's priceless.

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 omfg it's some nerdy linguistic rosetta stone shit

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 oh also in terms of skillsets jack is the one who can Actually Aim a pistol

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 BUT HE'S ALSO THE IDIOT WHO INSISTS OF HOLSTERING IT AND BRINGING A KNIFE TO A KNIFE FIGHT????

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 they're in a situation where they need to be accurate and jack is like "GABE SHOOT THE THING" and gabe looks down at his shotgun like uh well LOLLL gabe doesn't even know jack is a good shot until that moment bc jack always insists on Punch

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 X'''D Just picturing them trying to flee the temple as it crumbles aroun them, and Jack's pack and arms are filled to bursting with clay tablets, rendering him USELESS

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 AHAHA

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 Gabe: Just DROP THEM!! Jack: They're PRICELESS!! I can't just let them be LOST FOREVER!! Gabe: It's those damn tablets or US! Jack: WELL IF YOU HAD LET ME TAKE RUBBINGS OF THEM-- Gabe: THE ROOF WAS LITERALLY STARTING TO CAVE IN ON US

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 AKJCNAEKCJNASCKK later tho gabe decides it's worth it bc he's literally never seen jack so happy

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 Oooh! Ooh ooh ooh!!! Can this be another one where Gabe is good at drawing and Jack compliments him on the sketches he does of some of the temple rooms and engravings?? And, like, it's one of the few interactions where Jack's Thirst doesn't take center stage in his interest in Gabe???? ((i <3 artist!Gabe))

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 omg yes!!!! he does the nathan drake thing where he has a journal that he just draws everything in >w< and he draws jack!!!!

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 looking thru it later, Jack finds himself included in the sketches, and he actually blushes. He puts the journal back before Gabe catchins him peeking. XD <3<3<3

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 eeeeeeeheee one of them is him sleeping

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 he fell asleep after one of their big escapes and he was still covered in dirt and shit but gabe just had to capture it

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 there's one of him bent over a manuscript he's trying to interpret, brow a bit furrowed in concentration. Next to it is a rouch sketch of his face lit up with excitement from where he'd puzzled out a difficult piecec.

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 akciaskjcnasckasnjc jack does appreciate the sassy commentary gabe adds to some of his drawings and notes lol but ahhhh some of the pages are very clearly gabe just. practicing drawing jack's face like they're unfinished and rough and slowly improving

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 awww -^^- pfft. omg. okay, but, when Jack shows up on the morning they're supposed to start their trip, he's dressed like Indiana Jones, and Gabe just snorts and says that he looks like he's form the porno ripoff. XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 AHAHA the nathan drake look suits him better i think can u tell i'm in love w nathan drake

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 I've seen your posts from the game. ^^ ((i actually have not seen/played anything from your list, except i think i saw part of The Mummy a long time ago. Also, the heart-ripping-out scene from one of the IJ flicks))

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 WAIT SERIOUSLY YOU'VE NEVER SEEN.... INDIANA JONES LIKE. NOT EVEN THE FIRST ONE ??????????

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 Nope. I was v young when i accidentally saw the heart thing and it kinda freaked me out. ^^;;;;;;;;;

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 WELL LISTEN YOU GOTTA the second movie isn't even the seCOND MOVIE IS THE WORST ONE ANYWAY WATCH THE FIRST AND THE THIRD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 XD no scary ritualistic murders in those?

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 NO JUST A GOOD TIME AND LOTS OF PUNCHING NAZIS well there is a bit at the end of the first one where they melt a bunch of nazis with the power of god but

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 i feel like i might have seen a clip from that??

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 you almost certainly have oh my god i can't believe you've never seen indiana jones please fix this

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 XD my dude, there are HUGE FUCKING GAPS in my pop culture awareness

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 THE THIRD ONE HAS SEAN CONNERY IN IT I'M

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 I KNOW WHO HE IS!!! =D

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 WATCH!!!! THESE MOVIES OH MY GOD i don't know if i can continue to associate w you if you don't

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 W O W okay i see how it is XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 YES YOU DO WATCH INDIANA JONES

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 I'll add it to the list of stuff I need to watch =)

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 ADD IT TO THE TOP OF THE LIST I WILL LITERALLY BUY YOU A DVD OF IT OFF AMAZON AND SEND IT TO YOU IF THAT'S WHAT IT WILL TAKE

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 No, no. Don't do that. I'm sure I can find it on youtube or something.

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 skjcnskjscnskejcn anyway this got so off topic XDDD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 which one's the first one?

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 I WAS LITERALLY JUST ABOUT TO TALK ABOUT GABE DOING THE CLASSIC INDIANA JONES MOVE OF SLIDING THROUGH A CLOSING DOORWAY AND LOSING HIS HAT AND HAVING TO GRAB IT AT THE LAST SECOND BUT YOU'VE NEVER SEEN IT raiders of the lost ark

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 I've seen it referenced in, like, EVERYTHING I'm familiar with bits and pieces. Like, I know he fukking shoots some guy threatening him with a sword. XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 YES ALCJNAEFKJN AND SO MANY CLASSIC LINES "asps. very dangerous. you go first" "snakes... why'd it have to be snakes" "bad dates" SO MANY GOOD LINES

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 hahaha we had these felt critter hats when I worked at Michael's and one was a snake and i put it on and joked about making an asp of myself and no one at work got the pun ._.

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 ksjvnskjnaekucnaec that's a quality pun right there my dude .... ANYWAY WHAT WERE WE TALKING ABOUT

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 anyways. Gabe nearly losing his beanie while sliding under a closing trap door

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 XDDD jack: FORGET THE BEANIE GABE OH MY GOD gabe: I LET YOU KEEP YOUR TABLETS jack: YOU CAN BUY BEANIES IN A STORE GABE!!!

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 X'''''''''D Gabe: YOU CAN BUY PLAYDOH AND MAKE YOUR OWN FUCKNG TABLETS

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 AHAHAHA so when do we get to shoot jack >w>

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 Well, do you want a dramatic, one-time thing? Or do you want Jack to be a walking target? Kids running through a village square shoot him with water guns. They run across a reclusive village and he gets shot with blow darts. The bad guys graze his arm during a chase. Gabe finger guns his way out of small problems, leaving them for Jack to solve. XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 lolllll jack gets doped up by a blow dart and gets all sleepy and cuddly

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 d'awww X3 Gabe acts more bothered by it than he really is, and hopes that Jack won't remember much when he wakes up. -^^-

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 >w<

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 !!! okay, so what if Jack, in SUPER NERDY FASHION has a rosetta stone-shaped tattoo on his back filled up with, like, a personal motto or something written over and over in all the dead languages he's learned with room towards the bottom for him to add if he learns a few more. and Gabe teases the hell out of him for it, but the first time they sleep together, Jack's on his knees and Gabe's behind and when Gabe traces over some of the writing in response to Jack's demand for touch, Jack gasps out the words in whatever language Gabe is tracing.

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 OH MY GOD DUDE OH MY GOD????

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 ^^ the first two ar Klingon and Elvish. XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 lmao fuckin NERD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 OF COURSE

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 ooooo damn i wanna draw that tattoo and it's a dumb motto like one of the things he says in the game like "no guts no glory"

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 eat your yogurt

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 AHAHA

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 "i love the smell of charcoal in the morning"

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 X''''''''D Jack says it in horribly accented Spanish after Gabe goes through all the ones tattooed there, and that's when Gabe realizes that he knows more than he'd let on. He starts going much harder, murmuring all sorts of flithy things in Jack's ear which only gets Jack even more riled up.

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 iunuyghcrfyvkhbihbijni WHEN DO THEY GET TOGETHER THO do they find an ancient ring or something and jack jokingly puts it on gabe's ring finger

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 SURPRISE IT'S CURSED AND POISON-TIPPED PRONGS POP OUT WHEN IT HEATS UP TO BODY TEMPERATURE

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 LOLLL

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 ((i read a horror story like that once, only it was a bracelet and also not scary)) pretty jade ring? ^^ or Gabe finds something like that and tosses it to Jack who fumbles it, but manages to catch it and glares and then notices there's an inscription and it's something about a long and happy future and much fertility between the giver of the ring and the reciever i dunno maybe jack nearly gets his dumb ass killed 'cause he had to choose between saving the tablets or gabe's hat and he chose both and nearly fell into a pit

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 OMG

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 OR! What if, running through the traps, they think they make it out safe until Jack notices one of  the poisoned darts in his ankle and, like, passes out. When he comes too, Gabe just full on kisses him and is like I THOUGHT THE POISON HAD KILLED YOU but Jack is just 'What? No. It's a thousand years old it's lost all its potency. i just haven't slept since I started taking pics of all these new writings that need translating.'

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 OMGGG I LOVE THAT SO MUCH gabe stares at him and is like "WE'RE GOING TO TALK ABOUT YOUR TERRIBLE SLEEP HABITS LATER" and kisses him again

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/26/2017 Jack has no issues with this turn of events. XD

firesonic152 - 08/26/2017 >w<

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 jack tries to convince gabe to fuck him right there in the ancient temple gabe is sure that's a good way to get some kind of obscure disease

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 Gabe: Gross, Jack. Didn't they used to conduct virgin sacrifices on that altar? Jack: Well, I'm not a virgin, so Gabe: ENTIRELY not the point.

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 gabe, mumbling: also "virgin sacrifices" referred to virgin blood as in blood that hadn't been used in a ritual before, not someone who had never had sex before but jack: jack: fuck me now

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 okay. p sure in those campy ass movies with melting nazis, virgin sacrifices are EXACTLY what they sound like

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 XDDDD i want a scene where gabe is trying to read latin and pronounces it like italian and jack is disgusted

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 XD

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 jack: i can't believe it gabe: what jack: i'm actually Unattracted to you right now

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 Cue Jack scooting in so close to Gabe that he ends up with Gabe's arm around his shoulder as he points to teh line Gabe was mispronouncing and walks him through it.

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 eeeeeeeeeeeeee jack: all "c"s and "g"s are hard... gabe: lol jack, smacking him: FOCUS THIS IS SERIOUS

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 Ah!! That sort of thing continuing after they've gotten together, and Gabe can bait Jack in close by mucking up his pronounciation and then yank Jack into his lap to cuddle him and Jack actually won't object 'cause he's too busy lecturing! XD

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 EEEEEEEEE gabe starts kissing jack's neck and jack is like "I'M LITERALLY NOT EVEN IN THE MOOD FOR ONCE THIS MAKES ME TOO MAD"

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 Gabe, as his hands wander lower on Jack's body: Come on, mi sol...I just want to see how long you can keep up that perfect enunciation.

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 kjnskjcnksjnckjnd bc of course jack is the nerd that can Speak Latin he starts muttering angrily in latin as gabe gets more and more thorough gabe's goal is to get to the point where jack doesn't have the brain to do that anymore

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 X3 go go gabe!

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 it takes a surprisingly long time like gabe is already fucking him and has bowled him over onto his back

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 Jack has switched over from whatever he was reading to shouting encouragement and praise in Latin. Gabe is startled by how effectively that works on him.

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 HEEEEEEEEEE BEES!!!! gabe doesn't really know what he's saying at first until one of the phrases is really similar to spanish and he's like Oh

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 Gabe's a bit surprised at some of the stuff Jack translates for him later, but Jack just kinda smirks and asks if he really thinks people have changed so much over time.

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 >w> also in the reckless treasure hunter au when do we get to the part where gabe gets cursed by some artifact and becomes reaper lol

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 They've been together for a while, still traveling all around the world to check out beautiful or strange sites. At one location where getting almost all the way to the heart of the crypt was a total breeze, Gabe starts getting antsy while Jack is puzzing over an inscription outside the last door. Gabe: Let's just go on in. There's probably LOADS more interesting stuff inside. Jack: Give me a bit longer. I think this is a warning. Gabe: About what, dust? Jack, this place has been a cake walk. ... . . . Jack. Jaaaaaaaaaack. Jackie. Hey, Ja-- Jack: Gabe. Gabe: Yes, mi sol, mi luna, mi estrella brillante? Jack: See those pictograms? I'm about 90 percent sure they mean 'curse'. Gabe, laughing: Oh, come ON, Jackie! Don't tell me you believe that shit! Jack: I don't know what I believe because I haven't finished translating yet. But go ahead, go ahead. Touch the cursed door. Gabe: Well, I mean, if you're almost done-- Jack: No, no! You wanted SOOOO badly to rush on ahead. Be my guest. I dare you. Gabe: ...I really think you'd be safer with me around, so if you're almost finished... Jack: I double dog dare you. Gabe: . . . if i get cursed, it's YOUR fault. Gabe gets cursed. It's both their faults.

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 LOL GABE IDIOT MOVE the curse IS convenient for exploring though he can just walk through traps to trigger them and then jack can follow with no worry

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 oh, how sweet. -^^-

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 also now jack gets to give gabe bullshit forever about not listening to him and gabe is never allowed to complain about jack insisting on reading Everything without it getting thrown in his face

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 XD so...not running with Jack feeling HORRIBLY GUILTY about daring his boyfriend to get cursed? lol and then being so awfully conflicted when they figure out that Gabe has shadow tentacles now?

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 WELL OF COURSE THAT TOO jack just covers it up with snark and sass until it becomes a problem naturally aijcnaskjcn he starts losing sleep to study harder bc maybe if he could just have translated faster...

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 jack you don't have any sleep to lose

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 he like lies in bed with gabe until gabe falls asleep and then gets up again which... makes him extra clumsy when they're adventuring

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 oh dear oooh...what if Jack keeps talking about finding a way to break the curse and even tho Gabe's been pretty chill with it, they start getting into arguments until Gabe finally agrees and calls in some of his old adventuring buddies for suggestions and one of them is all 'oh, so this is that newbie you were complaining about? the one you said was going to be the death of you??' and jack is just well. great.

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 sekjnsakjncsd cue gabe's old adventuring buddies picking on jack a bunch? XD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 and jack feeling more and more like crap, so he pushes himself more when they're exploring while still losing sleep to study more.

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 why is he like this who are these asshole adventuring buddies anyway wth XD doomfist i guess?? and widow??

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 Rein & Ana

firesonic152 - 08/27/2017 awww but they're nice people gabe can't punch them out to defend jack's honor

SuspiciousPopsicle - 08/27/2017 Well, I mean, if they're ribbing on Jack for actual things he does/Gabe said, then whatever. Maybe they make fun of Gabe too for getting himself cursed, and that's what Jack actually snaps at them over.

[empyreanchimera]

hoo boy okay so this is a piece i started writing a few months ago during a really Rough Time that came about as a result of some very sensitive reading material i was forced to deal with in a class i was taking... i ended up in a really bad place and had to drop the class so i’m not proud of how it all went down, unfortunately

i was trying to come to terms with Things and shink was lovely enough to let me borrow owen for this drabble as a means of exploring a little about elijah’s past. it helped me vent out a lot of my bad feelings at the time but i never managed to finish it until now... i felt bad for leaving it hanging tho so i decided to come back to it and give it another shot.

owen belongs to @asianwashington (cant @ u for some reason?) / @devilishlyclever

tw: past mentions of rape/sexual abuse/physical abuse, attempted sex while intoxicated (not fulfilled)

It takes one drink for Elijah to feel brave enough to even willingly take a seat next to Owen. True to his nature their conversation isn’t exactly… amicable, but he’s not surprised when Owen expects it from him and responds in turn. It’s who Elijah is, and it’s who Owen is, and after three drinks Elijah decides he doesn’t really want to be Elijah anymore. But he can’t – and won’t – go back to being Addison, or Chimera, or anything other than what he is right now. Owen calls him Agent Buzzkill and he can’t help but laugh, because he figures that’s the only person he’s good at being.

It’s strange to realize that everyone in this room knows about what he did. He’d hidden it for so long, lying through his teeth and playing the part of the grieving survivor. When it had come out, it was almost as relieving as it was terrifying. He could finally stop pretending that he cared. He could stop crying over a grave he’d much rather spit on.

He knows it doesn’t matter anymore. The suicide mission is over. The galaxy is falling apart at the seams and Reapers are everywhere, burning entire worlds while Shepard struggles to pull together a resistance that is probably doomed to fail. Everyone here is existing on borrowed time, laughing and drinking and probably trying to convince themselves that they aren’t surrounded by death and destruction and sacrifice. Somehow he doubts that what he did ranks very high on the list of their concerns.

He wonders what Owen thinks. He wonders if he thinks about it all. They never really talked about it back then. Even the night they shared before the Normandy went through the Omega Relay – it was quiet, and he’d never asked. They’d shared a drink, and a kiss, but nothing else. No secrets. No lies. No explanations. No expectations.

It was simple. He’d liked it that way.

It takes five drinks for him to finally kiss him again. He grabs his wrist and pulls him and suddenly they’re in the guest bedroom and he’s got Owen against the wall, fingers tangling into his hair as he kisses him too hard. Maybe they’d take this slower if he were sober and the world wasn’t ending and he wasn’t so fucking scared that this could never happen again. Maybe tonight was the only thing he could have before he died. Maybe Owen felt the same way.

He drinks a sixth from the whiskey on the bedside table and Owen is sitting on the bed and he’s on top of Owen, straddling his lap and kissing him because it’s the only thing he knows how to do right now. His head is swimming and he feels warm and things seem a little less scary for the shortest, fleeting moment, and that’s all he needs to grab Owen’s hands and put them on his waist. He’s too drunk for his skin to crawl at the contact, and for once, it feels like it should and he feels normal. He doesn’t feel broken, for once in his miserable fucking life.

When Elijah pushes his hands down, encouraging him to grab at his ass instead, Owen breaks the kiss too suddenly and Elijah’s frustrated at the loss. He tries to kiss him again, but Owen’s hands suddenly pull out of his grasp and he’s got him by the shoulders, holding him back. That warmth is trickling away and he shudders.

“Elijah, you’re drunk,” he states almost matter-of-factly, voice lowered in the silence of the empty room. “We’re not doing this right now.”

Owen looks slightly unfocused, but his expression is serious, even if his words are a little slurred. He’s clearly not sober, but it’s obvious he’s nowhere near as drunk as Elijah is. Elijah wonders if he should be embarrassed, but he wants to ride the high as long as he can before everything comes crashing down on him again.

“Why not?” Elijah can’t help but sulk, swaying a bit but otherwise staying upright thanks to the grip Owen has on his shoulders. His skin is flushed beneath the freckles and his eyes are glazed over even as he tries to focus on Owen’s face and read his expression. “S’wrong? Don’t you wanna fuck me?”

“I’m not sleeping with you when you’re drunk.”

Elijah’s scowl deepens, and he shrugs Owen’s hands off of his shoulders, before scooting a little closer so he can straddle his lap properly.

“It’s now or never,” he says, sliding his hands up Owen’s arms, before slipping them around the back of his neck and burying them in his hair. He can’t maintain eye contact anymore, though, and he finds himself staring at a spot on his collarbone. “I won’t wanna do this when m’sober.”

“If you have to be drunk to want to have sex with me—”

“I don’t,” Elijah interrupts him, eyes snapping up. Fuck. Owen looks… he doesn’t know. He seems hurt, like he’s coming to the realization that Elijah can only stomach the thought of fucking him drunk. But it’s not Owen, it’s Elijah, and he doesn’t know how to explain that.

“I… I wanna do this. But it feels better when m’drunk,” he finally says. That doesn’t seem to alleviate whatever misgivings Owen has about his desires, though, and he continues, choosing his words carefully even as he slurs them. “It hurts when I’m sober.”

The look on Owen’s face quickly changes to alarm, and Elijah realizes too late that the words that left his mouth weren’t the right ones.

“Elijah, sex isn’t… it’s not supposed to hurt,” he says after a moment, hands going to close around Elijah’s wrists if only to maintain some sort of contact between them. Elijah’s fingers twitch in Owen’s hair and he resists the urge to yank his hands away.

“It does when I do it,” Elijah replies, forcing out a small huff of laughter to try and make his words sound a little less grim. “Don’t like how it feels. Figure that’s normal for some people. If m’sober then I get all twitchy an’ it’s embarrassing. Booze helps me loosen up, you know?”

Owen’s watching him too closely for his comfort, and he realizes that he’s reading his expression the same way he’s trying to read his in return. Elijah is drunk out of his mind and Owen is tipsy at best, and that’s enough to know that he’s not going to win this one.

“When was the last time you had sex?” Owen asks after a moment of silence, and Elijah feels his stomach sink.

“I… dunno. Less than a year ago, I guess? Time’s been a lil’ fuzzy since we went through the relay with Shepard.” He finally slips his wrists out of Owen’s loose grip, scooting back an inch so they’re not pressed as close together anymore. “We don’t gotta make a big deal about it, do we? I mean, s’just sex. We might die tomorrow and I wanna have a little fun. S’that a crime?”

“I told you, we’re not doing this when you’re drunk,” Owen replies in a voice that’s forceful but not unkind. It’s enough that Elijah can’t help flinching out of habit, though, and his tone softens after that. “I just… I want to know who made you feel like you have to be drunk to enjoy yourself.”

“I did. S’normal for some people,” Elijah repeats, shrugging weakly. He’s trying to convince himself about as much as he’s trying to convince Owen. “Least I think so.”

Owen’s too quiet and it’s hard for Elijah not to squirm under his scrutiny. That warmth he was clinging to is starting to fade and he knows he won’t be able to hold on much longer. He’s not ready to retreat, but he knows he should before it’s too late. He can’t take it all back, but he can stop himself from making it any worse.

“If we’re not gonna do this, I should just… go,” he says, unsure if he’s more disappointed or relieved. Perhaps a little bit of both. When he goes to slip off of Owen’s lap and leave, though, Owen gently grabs him by the forearm, stopping him mid-movement.

“Elijah.” The way he says his name makes his stomach twist uncomfortably. “Please… talk to me.”

He looks away, focusing a little too intently on the pattern of the duvet. His vision is swimming, and it’s hard to figure out what it is he’s looking at.

“I don’t know what you want me to say.”

“I just want you to be honest.”

The two of them are at an impasse for a long, tense moment, before Elijah finally breaks it with a weak, bitter laugh.

“Listen, I’m too fuckin’ drunk for this kind of conversation,” he says, smiling ruefully. He’s not sure he has the mental faculties required to have a deeper discussion, and he’s just drunk enough that it’s easier to just let it spill out than try to protect it so ferociously. “You’re gonna try to get me to talk about it, and I’m gonna avoid it, and we’ll get upset with each other and I’ll tell you everything and then I’ll cry and it’ll be this beautiful moment of healing and revelation. Right?”

He’s not entirely sure how he made it through that without stuttering or slurring his words beyond recognition, but he supposes he’s got enough sobriety left in him to be a fucking asshole. Figures.

“That’s not what I want and you know that,” Owen replies. He seems to pause, hesitating, before he speaks again. “I had some ideas about what… what happened between you and your squad. But… I didn’t realize…”

Elijah’s stomach sinks even lower. He can see him fighting to control his expression, multiple emotions warring for control. He seems alarmed, confused, sad. Elijah doesn’t like any of them; he almost wishes Owen would just get mad. He could handle anger. He couldn’t handle anything else; not sadness, or questioning, or pity.

God, he doesn’t want pity.

“I’m so sorry, Elijah.”

“Don’t feel sorry for me. Don’t,” Elijah manages, barely able to sound angry – his voice cracks and he shakes his head vehemently. He feels sick, and he doesn’t know if it’s the alcohol or the conversation. It’s probably both. “I made my peace. I get to live with it. They’re all dead and I’m fuckin’ glad. They can’t hurt me anymore. I won’t let them. I don’t want to talk about it and I don’t want to fucking relive it and I don’t—I don’t—”

His voice breaks and he stops, looking away. He’s shaking. He hates it. He hates that he can say these words and make these assertions but never actually feel them. He killed all three of them. He watched the life bleed out of Sharpe and he’d been so relieved, so glad to realize he’d finally managed to release the chokehold the man had had on him. But it hadn’t repaired the damage and it didn’t stop the nightmares or the flashbacks or the phantom pains and the fear that he’d never be able to move on. And sitting here in this half-lit room with Owen watching him as he falls apart reminds him that he hasn’t moved on. He could pretend all he wanted to, drink until it didn’t hurt. He could convince himself that it was what he really wanted, but it didn’t change anything. He’d wake up in the morning and hate himself even more for being so weak.

“I’m not the only one,” he finally says. “It happens all the time. There’s nothing special about me, or what happened, or how I deal with it. So don’t make it special. Just let me deal with it the way I need to.”

“I’m not going to tell you how to cope,” Owen responds after a time, voice going quiet. “But just because it happens to other people doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to hurt. Don’t bury yourself like that. Please. You deserve so much better than that.”

At some point Elijah’s hands had found their way to Owen’s shirt, and he grips the fabric tightly as a means of grounding himself to now, and here, and to Owen. Somehow he needs that anchor, or else he was going to slip away. It’s hard to believe that once upon a time he hated Owen; he wanted nothing to do with the snarky pirate who had wormed his way into his life like a recurring rash. He’d hated him for so long, up until he couldn’t, and now he doesn’t think he’d ever be able to do this with anyone else. It’s only Owen, and him, and the six glasses of whiskey that have made him brave enough to try, only to fall to pieces. What a fine mess he’s become.

“They hurt me. It wasn’t enough for them to beat me, they had to… they had to hurt every fucking part of me they could get to,” he says after he can’t hold it in any longer, forcing the words out and bringing out the ugly truth and the pain with them in the process. It’s something he hasn’t done in… No, there is no time to define because he hasn’t done it at all. He’s never sat down and broken his heart open in front of anyone else and talked about these things in a way that would force himself to admit that they happened. Owen is the first, and that makes it terrifying.

“I tried to get away so many times. Every time I thought it was going to get better, it would just turn around and get worse all over again.” He’s honestly shaking now, and Owen’s hands close over his own and it helps just a little bit. “Three years. Three fucking years. I—I let them do that to me, all of those awful fucking things for that long before I finally did something about it. I hate them, but I… I hate myself so much for ever letting it go that far.”

Finally, Elijah deflates, the anger and sadness and pain finally starting to release now that the words are out of him, no longer stuck in his throat where they can choke him. His head drops, forehead resting against Owen’s shoulder, biting down the urge to break down and cry. If he starts crying, he knows he won’t be able to stop, and Owen isn’t here to be his security blanket or his counselor. He regrets ever putting him in this position to begin with.

They’re both silent for a long time, the room quiet save for their breathing and the distant sounds of the party still going on downstairs. There’s heavy dance music playing and he can hear Tali and Liara laughing in the lounge. Everyone was having a good time, drinking and talking and connecting while Elijah was sitting in a dim bedroom talking about painful memories to a man who didn’t deserve this kind of shit from him.

“I’m sorry,” he finally whispers. “Please don’t hate me for this.”

Owen lets go of his hands and his arms circle around him, pulling him close until Elijah can bury his face in the other man’s hair, tension finally draining from his body as he leans fully into the embrace. He’s never liked being touched, but he needs this. He needs the safety afforded from letting someone he trusts hold him, if only to remind him that there’s at least one person in this fucking galaxy who isn’t out to harm him.

“I don’t think there’s anything I can say to make this better for you,” Owen finally says in a low voice, grip on him tightening somewhat. “I could tell you it’s not your fault until I’m blue in the face and I know it won’t help. But I don’t hate you, Elijah. I would never hate you for something like this.”

Elijah doesn’t say anything, feeling a phantom clench in his chest at his words. It hurts for a moment, comprehending Owen’s words, knowing that he’s with one other person who’s seen the worst part of him and has admitted that he doesn’t hate him for it. He knows he’s being foolish, assuming judgment based on things that no reasonable person would fault him for, but it’s not a feeling he can simply make disappear. He hates himself; why shouldn’t someone else?

“For what it’s worth… I’m here for you. Just tell me what you need.”

Elijah doesn’t reply right away, struggling to find the words and ultimately coming up short. He doesn’t know what he needs. He’s never thought about it; never considered the possibility that he could move on. He didn’t think he’d ever have the option. He didn’t think he’d ever find someone who would see these parts of him and not walk away.

Finally, after some time, Elijah takes a shaking breath and speaks.

“Stay with me?” he asks. He sounds so weak, and he feels so small. But he doesn’t think he can handle being alone right now.

“I’ll stay,” Owen replies, and the relief is enough to bring tears to Elijah’s eyes.

“Promise?”

“I promise.”