#i mean wahtever tho

[demonstars]

when I was watching house for the first time (like s1) I thought "?? house and Wilson have no feelings for each other theyre more annoyed than anything" but then the Stacy arc and Wilson having an affair ended and its like. why do you as a man want your friend to live with you even when you said that you dont want him there

I dont know i was sold from after s4 i can't recall a specific time. I need to rewatch the series but there was A Shift

[yaoichad]

oki watched the vod THAJT BANGED?@??!??!>!?!

[randomsataan]

Ok so am i the only one who does not understand why people got so mad about stedes fish coment?

Like a lot of people are mad at him because they said he just said it to make ed feel better, he lied, he told him that just to spite him

Like i didnt see it (and still dont) see it that way at all! The way i see it stede didnt said the fish thing to be mean to him.like in chapter 5 when he said "oh ed thats beautiful" it was a real compliment and he was saying it because is not the fish who is beautiful is how that achievement made ed look so proud that was beautiful to stede. So when he says" i said that to make you feel good" is not in a manipulative way i just like in a kind of this makes you happy and allthough its not that big of a deal for me for you it is and i suport it.

So now cut to chapter 7 stede is finally being respected he finally is able to share intimacy with someone who he loves and out of a sudden ed says it was a mistake and he is going away and becoming a fisherman because he caught one fish once. So when ed is like you said it was a good fish and stede says it was wahtever its like it caught him out of guard. Everything was going fine and out of a sudden ed wants to become a fishermanman because he caught a fish once? Like imaging someone told you hey i made a cookie once so now im going to abandon everything and cut contact with you to open a bakery even tho i dont have the basic knowledge to do that. Like for stede it was such an impulsive decision that made no sense. Like he said THEY ARE WHIM PRONE

Now stede calling ed a coward THAT was shitty and spitefull

Just in case im not blaming ed for his decisions like were they the best option? No. do they make sense when you think of his character and all thats happened? yes

[darkhopping]

dark world -> dreams -> dreams like. being formed from the depths of ones subconscious and shit elucidating. truths you dont see in the waking world god wahtever -> only eyes blinded by darkness can see the way/darker it gets the more you can see -> entering a dark world by falling into it -> darker and deeper underground -> dark world water themes/darker underwater . abyssopelagic zone and shit

player + kris shit -> 'my castle town'/PLAYERtown -> skipping overworld cutscene and going into castle town by having kris sleep -> ralsei . -> "you could wear whatever you want" -> castle town = kris' dream?????????

dream subconscious shit wahtever -> cyber city being so unequivocally noelles dream

forgor 2 add card kingdom = susies dream???

theres a buncha shit in it thats like . kris tho (ehatevers going on with ralsei headband theory/red=pink + fucking hathy maybe???? i mean idk feel like a not insignificant bunch of kris shit is gonna feature even in dreams that arent theirs) but 4 the most part hmmmm susies dream i think

[subnaut1ca]

Posting a hot take on tumblr cause I’m scared of twitter

PLS IGNORE ITS LIKE 4:30 AM RN IM JSUT SCREAMING INTO THE VOID  

Genuinely, MAPPA animation is clean but Im so fucking genuinely sad csm got blasted with the basic af corporate clean pretty anime normie style beam. like bruh old animation shit and all but can we PLEASE normalize going back to like different animation styles. LIKE LIKE bruh trigger they always be doin the interesting cool art style shit, they have smth thats theirs (yes Im sucking dick to my favorite anim studio)OR LIKE SCIENCE SARU their style wouldnt fit at ALL but at least itd be flavorful, OR MADHOUSE they're good at style mimick and can do the sketchy line shit really well like in OPM

like bruh I sound like a boomer but idk man maybe its cause I pictured csm in my head for so long as really gritty seeing it all clean and shiny is really weird to me... Like dont get me wrong I think MAPPA does usually put out bangin shit, but I wanna go back to old bones, madhouse, fuckin wahtever the hell where they really just went like wild and fun to fit the manga style rather than cater to the general public or whatever sigh. even dororo had like pretty different palettes and shit or even fuckin dorohedoro, sure the anim was like ok usually and the 3d was decent but mannnn I just wanna go back to crispy funky style anime grrr anyways hate anime that shit is cringe and bad ^^ kensuke Ushio on the ost so thatll be a win and proll the carrying part of the show, idk maybe its cause I loved this manga so much for so long Ive like built my own vision of what  itd be like but man sigh sigh sigh idk these days maybe im getting older or smth but a lot of anime seems so milk toast and genuinely manga and shit just always happens to interest me more than its animated counterparts weird how times are a changin, Ill still be hype for the sound effects (they better fuckin HIT like fire force) and ost and fights moving but boy do I WISH it was grittier than that glossy fuckin normie bullshit

Although considering how much of like a cult following csm has and how dedicated most fans are I think there will always be ppl disappointed lol (im normal shut up)

its 4am Im sorry LOL

PS at least it wasnt clover works or smth like ig promised neverland was nice but like idk I feel like their thing is pretty anime, they got that gritty pencil right at right times Ill admit tho

PPS clover field would be bangin on WHA just sayin, seems up their ally

PPPS I also salty with what MAPPA did to AOT, liek WIT studio HAD THAT SHIT BY THE BALLS MAN, and the MAPPA beam made it glossy and shiny like... I mean along with other shit I visually was grrr ed about

idk I feel like a purest nerd saying that but whatever

PPPPS ngl I feel like WIT studio mighta fuckin RIPPED IT with csm all Im saying like ig they do have like a studio style but like idk they adapt well to styles for the most part

am a firm believer in like hate culture bad but in this instance, I will be a hater >:) respectfully

I’m shutting up now hopefully I dont scare away my like 5 followers or whatever

[straightyuri]

something abt the specific way the arctic cruise is fucked up that makes me laugh. like. ok fucked up here means that logical architecture n wahtever is thrown out for platforming and other gameplay. Dead bird studio is not any less fucked up than the cruise i’d actually say it’s worse but I never give it thaaaaaaaaaat much thought (I still think it’s funny tho) the arctic cruise is JUST. man I went on vacation to relax how the fuck do I get up to my room

[babygirldennis]

This shit is fake bby!!!

Here she is.. My masterpost of all the dumb, illogical bits of info contained within these s15 “leaks” that make me fairly confident they are complete bullshit. It also includes my little tinhat theories that have absolutely no evidence.

I will be putting it all under a Readmore in case you don't want to risk it or if you simply Do Not Care

First up, I'd like to point out that these call sheets repeatedly give very detailed backstories to characters that have few lines which conveniently paints a picture of each episode's plot. And I'm not an expert so correct me if I'm wrong, but after looking at other similar casting calls, they only ever include the demographic and necessary skills.

Basically who in their right mind would write up casting calls that give away so many spoilers? Seems like that could cause and issue if they were leaked lol. But anyway that's my 1st point. But onto the actual content

So the conceit of this episode as a whole is that during the pandemic, the gang "gamed the system" and received three (3!) Loans to start businesses that went bankrupt. One of these businesses is implied to be the one started by dee and charlie who end up selling to Qanon shaman. Already this is so impossible baby.

1. We've already seen the gang try to get a loan and it didn't work. They don't have good ideas. Ur telling me, they managed to finagle 3 separate loans for 3 separate business ideas from an actual bank?

2. Maybe I just have bad reading comprehension but how does one have a business that is both fictitious and bankrupt?

3. If the customer is supposed to be Qanon shaman, an actual real life guy, why are the only descriptors white and male? They say he's shirtless so are they going to paint on all of the tattoos he has? And if so, doesn't that kind of ruin the dramatic reveal when charlie "throws in" the viking helmet? Why would he do that anyways? Sus.

Moving on

Alright this episode would fucking blow for obvious reasons but im going to refrain from looking at this through my gay dennis thruther lens because im biased.

Purely from a narrative standpoint, a woman hasn't been shown to be interested in dennis in nearly 5 years during the wade boggs episode. Ever since, every single woman he approaches has been actively creeped out by him. And now I'm supposed to believe that 3 "smart, passionate woman" (In Their Twenties!!!!!!) agreed to go on a date with him? And Anna even slept with him! Just because he what? Agreed with her? I'm not buyin it.

Plus the concept of this scenario lacks any potential for comedy. When iasip gets political, they always discuss a very specific topic using hyperbolic situations and flawed metaphors. If this is supposed to be a political episode, what ultimately lukewarm point would rob be trying to make here? So far we know they're ranting about

The patriarchy

Privilege

Socialism

No more personal responsibility(?)

The... nature of power in society(??)

How on earth would an episode like get approved? This shit sounds like a Ted talk. It sounds like it was written specifically to sound like a political episode so boring and pointless it would generate outrage and mile long essay posts from Tumblr users and reddit users alike. Almost like this one lol.

On a completely unrelated note, do not try and convince me that Frank "casual cock ring wearer" Reynolds is unable to perform.

Jeez this is getting out of hand fast. Let's move on

Ok now we're starting to getting into the Ireland of it all. Let me go on a bit of a tangent here about all this.. Now I thinq there are just 3 possibilities. Either this is all a publicity stunt and there is some truth to the Ireland rumors, the entire thing could be bogus from some weirdo fan (ps, if a fan did write this I want you to know I fucking hate you. You did this to me), or it is a publicity stunt but Ireland is just more bullshit.

I am going to assume it was a publicity stunt, otherwise I just wasted my entire evening and I can't have that kind of mentality rn. Additionally, I'm Going to tinhat here for a second and say that the Ireland rumors are true, but the details are different.

I say this because if they were going to do filming in Ireland, they probably figured that that information would be impossible to hide. In essence, my completely unfounded hypothesis is that this leak was their fucked up little way of controlling the situation while simultaneously messing with us.

Ok tangent is over, returning to the casting calls. From the looks of it, dee starts a "scam" acting class and has some very devoted students (Note that Tony was also the name of the porn shop owner. Seems weird!) Presumably after the gang replaces her with a monkey as the title suggests.

Honestly, there isn't too much here that's a red flag to me... seems like a nice little dee-centric episode that is the link to the Dublin angle. Assuming I am At All right, this could be a genuine plotline for Dee. However, the monkey could be a red herring and there could be a whole different side plot with the guys. who's to say. Next one!

Ah yes this is the dennis we all know and despise.. no red flags for me here really, I'm also running out of steam because idk if it shows, but I am majorly sleep deprived atm. Anyway I'm going to the next one

Okay this is where things start getting weird again ough a migraine just hit, anyway back to my earlier point about how casting calls would never contains major spoilers bc the people who see these wont be under any kind of NDA..

These ones reveal that bonnie dies. Again, that info wouldn't be in a casting call.

But also they suggest charlie has a irish penpal named Shelley who is his biological father. First off charlie is illiterate, although as pointed out by @undeadbreeze shelley could also be communicating in symbols. However, this scenario is still unbelievable to me for a couple reasons:

1. Bonnie's last name is Kelly obviously, and we know it's her maiden name because Jack's last name is also Kelly. But Shelley's last name is... also Kelly? In the context of this big ol hoax, it feels like it was written to show that look! his last name is the same as charlie's! That's how you know that's his dad! But It would be way too big of a coincidence if charlie's dad happened to have the same last name bonnie.

And 2. There's the whole mystery of charlie's long-lost sister from 'charlie got molested' but never any mention of a brother which according to this, shelley has been pretending to be his brother for years. And we all know how much rcg loves their continuity, it seems uncharacteristically lazy to just tack this on without any prior buildup.

And finally let me talk about mac for a second and specifically the line in gus's summary "both are gay men who are attracted to the priesthood for all the wrong reasons"

Iasip has commented on pedophilia in the priesthood many times in the past which leads me to believe that they are implying that mac is a pedophile? Please let me know if I completely misread the implications of that statement, but if not, then that is completely insane and one of the biggest indictators that this is fake. Mac is awful, just like everyone in the gang but he is definitely not a pedophile.

However even if i did completely misread that, it's still proof this is fake.. For all his faults, Rob put a surprising amount of care and effort into mac's coming-out. It hasn't been perfect, but Mfhp in particular firmly established that mac's faith is integral to his identity so Its unlikely that rob would throw all of that away for a cheap shot at priests.

Ok my brain is irradiated sludge at this point, but in conclusion. I hope that 1. I'm right, at least about it being fake (Otherwise damb that'll be so humiliating for me) And 2. This eases ur fears a bit. I don't want to lose all faith in future seasons bc I love iasip and miss the gang. If you read this far youre insane but I literally love you so goddamn much because I spent so so long tapping this out on my silly little phone

Please feel free to add on or message me your thoughts and opinions I need to know I'm not the only one who uhhh went a bit insane. And finally: whoever made these is a cunt. Mwah.

[mothpile]

see the difference between jevil and spamton is that whenthey had to eat the brown part of the banana , jevil enjoyed it and spamton thought it sucked so bad and thats why jevil has no more mental issues but spamton got all of them

[geneticmisfit]

Sometimes I think about how the R*ssos had Rhodey of all people make fun of Thor for his trauma and then I get filled with rage

[galaxyeyedphoton]

hey, um btw if i’m suddenly unable to get on tumblr later today or feel unsafe doing so (do to loss of net neutrality) then I will most likely just post the new arc v manga chapter/s here: https://goo.gl/photos/vVok13shvbWLXpAq6 on google photos with the rest of the ones i have saved there, new chapters would be at the bottom and if you join the album i think it will give you a notification when i add/share new photos, i havent confirmed it but i do always get notifications when the new photos are viewed

[viscaeriic]

funny pokem’on fact’s

1. ingo could have been sent back to hisui from ANY point in time. this means it could still make sense that he’s in his 50s. he could have just been sent back from a time where he’s a bit older than when we see him in black and white

2. you don’t need to make a huge fuss about a character you like being bald. like yeah haha bald egg but realistically it’s not like. bad to be bald. just saying. you dont have to “fix” it. its literally the same character

3. trainwreckshipping is hillarious but something i noticed that nobody else seems to care about is the fact that it makes a lot less sense than people seem to think. YES volo DID make giratina tear holes in time and space to draw the attention of arceus BUT it is never explicitly stated he was intending to draw a person out of those rifts as well, nor would he have been able to pick a specific person so there’s no way that emmet would have a concrete reason to hold anything against volo, pretty much. it is a crackship tho so wahtever

[misterbitches]

some thots. having a bad time so this is rougher than usual. oh well

....

i guess he really does know hiim best cos if that was my mans (man specifically cos if anyone else did that id take it more srsly) i would be like oh my god ur singing me a love song? i would love it but i woudl SCREAM in embarrassment. UNLESS it was a really deep love song that's about us dying together.

like i want to eat ur skin type of thing (drain u nirvana) lmaoa but i really like this song it reminds me of that velvet underground song (the only one i know cos of juno lmao) and nico or whatever 'i'm sticking with you)

my adhd would be out of fucking control i had to spend my time listening to this looking around i kept getting distracted by a tissue and thinking "wow this song is nice but i wish it would end bc i am getting distracted" and lo and behold i paused it and i have to pee and i know it's gonna take forever to undo this

ok about 12m later i turned it back on and they kissed and then he bit the corn then that night li chen also lost his virgin teas after watching gay porn and being like "hm interesting" and he'll be like "i see, ur dick is not medium sized"

i'm honestly gagging i cannot at this 12 year old marrying his mom

beautiful theyre beautiful

ayea you fucking psycho we do too because he was 17 and we had to witness it (or well, other people did cos i didnt watch the show even tho wayne song is [BEEEEEEEEEEEEEP BEEEEEP BEEEEP] and i want him to [BEEEEEEEP] and ppl even liked it which is fine like i get it in theory but they put this in my eyeballs so i'm gonna make fun of it bc it's fuckin DUMB lmao like i can't I CANNOT and he said "u were so persistent" BITCH UR 30??!?!???!?!?!?)capi hve it on mute and i tried to get a screencap of li chen and mu ren like together and not just his face but i cant find the timestamp and seeing their faces as they get married is literalyl traumattizing i'm like scremaing at my screen going "HE'S 5 HE'S 5 HE'S 5" and every time theyre like "we acn live forever together" like no bitch ur bones rae creaking

also is the officiator white? if anyone knows why or if that's common i'd love to know more. EDIT: HE ISN'T I JUST THOUGHT HE LOOKED LIKE MOBY FROM THAT ANGLE

anyway here

i'm almost done with this fucking bullshit and i am in a really ould mood and usu they make it a bit better but imo it's kind of....annoying i guess balancing all these story elements and introducin gother couples (even in the periphery) since the story in itself can't focus. i feel like all in all the time spent with these two is a lot more limited and we get the feel for the rship because of their chemistry as actors, irl chemistry as friends and colleagues, and hopefully being happy and working on a good set. so it isn't the strength of the writing or production.

for some reason they get like less dynamic ways of being together which i think is part of their charm, they do things their own way, but the writers really should have substantiated this more. it's really just the way everyone in the show has managed to deliver these AWFUL story lines and production decisions (like seriously who the fuck was on costume? lighting?)

like maybe hot take but all the moments that are cringe and insane in the show are not pleasant, per se, because they aren't thought out clearly. so they're not a joy to watch in the normal sense but the actors are good enough to pull it off. i didn't cringe at the talks they had because it felt like actors like acting these lines out instead of us being embarrassed for it and you CAN TELL theyre embarrassed.

this is a huge kudos to the casting director and the actors and whatever crew that actually did a good job. i don't particularly like watching bo xiang and his grandfather husband not because of the content but because i feel like, to me, they're so awkward even though they have chemistry. i don't have that issue with xing si and his rapist brother boyfriend because watching them is actually really pleasant, it's intimate. this isn't to do with the story though because when it hits you how devoid this other person is and how stupid the situation is it changes (for me, for me, for me, this is all my opinion think whateverrrr u want im not telling u 2 ok!)

so truly kudos to this cast. idk if i'm misremembering here but imo the most cast appropriate series in this was crossing the line and close to you. one is a decent atmosphere and execution (yes even with that brother story line, notice the major key differences though because that's a sincere false equivalence. they try to execute power imbalances soooo badly and then fail every time but here's one meant to shock too and it was just likelmao ok girl?)

it may not make sense to say either in a writing way or for the character to do it but i believe that whoever the characters these people are supposed to be especially those super not well written on the page still get that message aacross (yong jie's actor is a good ex. not sure if i should ccongratulate him for having the worst job on earth and the worst character and his character is flat but. ostensibly they should let their actions speak for themselevs but what they do is they back themselves into a ccorner with unsuretyabout their characters or a dilemma that pops up they just want to excuse it. well guess hwat u couldnt do enough legwork. but to some extent the disposable side couple works here on a um "our eyes see them and get it" way

also to me it seems like they chose this story just to have this specific wedding. like it's a timely topic and i'm pretty sure like another provision? (correction? idk) was made WRT taiwanese same-sex marriage so it's topical but it isn't like a "papa and daddy" situation where they're interacting in it and there (for ex: the pride parade) and there being like real life terms and consequences. here it seems like they were like ah yes wedding ah yes dumb couple from modc bc we kiled off the other one sooooo (then outsource them to life love on the line u__u) then hamfisting in some fucking message which is funny bc

- despite the hints peppered in and the clear attraction they both acknowledge ur like ~not gay just him~ even tho...i mean i just. again they dont read over what they write i don't think considering. but wahtever.

- the only gay dude (verbally said) is with his rapist brother with an awful power dynamic oh or IS a rapist (gao) (or his brother but i think it was just a "im a psycho so it's him" thing unless they said it. in which case idc cos i wasnt paying attn but that's also not great) or i guess the wedding but like....that's also a ridiculously inappropriate and dumb relationship taht it's built on. i mean i don't really see much respect her so i dont particularly want to hear abt gay weddings being important when they didn't even utilize it in the story beforehand and have we ever. this is a huge indication to me that it was a reverse engineered chosen story beforehand (if it was one) or thought of

soooooo

so reversal of that....it didnt give us enough time to breathe with these two at all but for both of the actors they can capitalize what's on the page and the writers didn't. like their dynamic is very i give/you give like taking car eof each other etc that's why

again, no artist worth their salt will ever say their work meant nothing. that's a cover up. i'm sick of lazy production and then getting away with it claiming being subversive or attacking an issue by not doing anything. we show crazy shit all the time but it has a POINT and ur point is "i like the gays" then girl.....i mean it's not great

but the acting really carried it. i have a feeling if this series continues it might continue to use more experienced actors cos maybe the budget goes up but they also have less inhibitions now when it comes to acting. i like the way li chen expresss himself and teng teng too. i like anson a lot and there's some angles that did not do any favors and i think eh has to get more control of his body movements (bc he's SO LARGE and thin) but he wasn't bad at all and there were real human tears. of course i, personally, favor charles tu. he has more control over his body because he has...less to work with and he's a bit bigger and he was really great in this role. he's a himbo a bit of a meathead but you like him. you like them. there's some things i think they had them say and do that they wouldn't let happen if they stuck to the characters and the story (mainly liking that dumb idiot rapist)

what i notice is that the reprehensible actions people criticize others for in the show and in real human life lalways gets turned around. teng teng being surprised that this boy's grandfather boyfriend met him when he was a junior in high school and he's 12 years older and him apologizing for being shocked and then whatshisface going "ur better at it than most people" and then the convo about gao with whatshisface and then rapist brother comes to pick him up. they are admonishing gao but thinking that rapist brother is noble for doin gwhat he did (and oh rapist brother shows up) like the hypocrisy and the decisions are immense. so now it's like "guys see he's a great guy" like girl STICK TO SOMETHING but whatever so i live in this universe where muren and li chen do everything right and have lots of different interesting fun seex with all their friends. i would write this but i cannot i am dying

[loisfreakinglane]

tscc, dark angel, angel

G A S P! SHOCK! A DEEP DIVE! lol thank you

tscc:

Favorite Male Character- DUDE THATS SUCH A HARD QUESTION suffice it to say this is either john or derek depending on when you ask, buuuuuuut terminator in my face i say john

Favorite Female Character- JESSEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Least Favorite Character- i. struggle to think of anybody i found bad or boring or anything???? oh okay you know what i have eternal mixed feelings about the character we know as eileen/alan/abraham and the weird choices around them. yeah thats all i got

Favorite Ship- derek/jesse my heart breaks and i am just a mess forevermore

Favorite Friendship- lmao there is no way to call it a friendship it is not a friendship but riley/jesse is so very fucked up in so many trillions of ways but god i’m obsessed with them......... also riley/john i would have fucking loved to see them have a real relationship, platonic or otherwise, their dynamic is SO GOOD and the possibility of their dynamic when they were both open about themselves.... fUCK

Favorite Quote- there are so many off the top of my head but like the biggest gutpunch to me personally was when jesse called derek out for his suicide attempt, asking what was he doing there when she found him and he just says ~i was waiting for you~ THO THO THO ALTERNATIVELY when they’re trying to get ellison to help program john henry and he says- you wanna teach it commands? start with the first ten.

Worst Character Death (if any)- uhhhhhh i think i like all of the character deaths on this show- i mean rileys death K I L L S me but i’m not angry about it and it was incredibly well done. dereks? maybe? i’m not actually mad about it but it was very abrupt. like i get it tho? OH WAIT I HAVE A REAL ONE friendgirl of johns who killed herself in the plotline that was never resolved bc of the writers strike. that was horrifying and ultimately we never even got a reason (beyond the obvious one they hinted at)

This made me so happy you have no idea Moment- what on this show makes anybody happy????? ever?????????????????????? uhhhhh. fuck. i mean the reveal about who riley is is SO GOOD i’m just always happy when the pieces slot together and we see new depth?

Saddest Moment- so many things on this show make me sob but like peak among them bc like you can feel your soul screaming bc you have no idea what could be done differently, when riley and john both ask the other if they’ve got anything they want to tell them, and they both say no they don’t EVEN THO THEY BOTH KNOW WHAT THE OTHER ONE WANTS TO SAY BUT THE ACTUALLY SAYING IT PART WOULD CHANGE LITERALLY EVERYTHING UGH FUCK KFUCK FUCKCCCKCK

Favorite Location- the stupid future tunnels where i want to see what happens next in the series finale FUCK

dark angel:

Favorite Male Character- uhhhhhhhhh even tho him being 95% of the tags every time i check have grated all of my nerves, yeah i still love alec the most when it comes to dudes

Favorite Female Character- max is a forever and ever and ever girl

Least Favorite Character- ames white. i don’t remember much about that plotline but i remember a lot of UGHS and groaning

Favorite Ship- cindy/diamond i’m mad forever I KNOW THEY WERE ONLY ONE EPISODE BUT ME/THEM FOREVER

Favorite Friendship- max/cindy eternally, the best ride or dies ever

Favorite Quote- fight the power, protect the downtrodden. blah blah, woof woof. ALSO max’s whole little once upon a time story about tinga...... :(

Worst Character Death (if any)- diamonds death was painful and i hated it and it was a dumb thing anyway. like at least she got revenge but MEH TAKE IT BACK I DON’T WANT THESE. worse character resurrection is zack they should have just let him stay dead instead of turning him into a robot (i like zack this isn’t a slam against him but it was an epic death for him) OH OH ALSO ANNIE FISHER she never should have died that was dumb and a waste of kandyse mcclure

This made me so happy you have no idea Moment- when cindy and max cheated the money off of those assholes and then beat them up, still in their itty bitty sparkly outfits and left with such flair :) but just also max forever........ cindy/max forever.......... mine own heart. 

Saddest Moment- when the show decided to make clones a thing breaking the whole internal logic of the entire first season aka them not knowing what the kids looked like :( I SAD

Favorite Location- i always thought the jam pony set was really fun. i love that the whole last episode was set there.

angel:

Favorite Male Character- angel, with a side called gunn or connor YAH I LIKE CONNOR I SAID IT YOU CAN ALL SUCK IT

Favorite Female Character- cordelia chase forever and EVER nobody else on planet earth holds a candle to her

Least Favorite Character- look i love christian kane i do, hes amazing in leverage- but man lindsey......... hes fine when hes snarking at lilah tho i’m with lilah in that groaning and screaming at wr&h being so blatantly misogynistic in preferring weak ass flip flopper lindsey over LILAH. also lindsey in s5 blew they should have spent the money they wasted on him and eve and adam wahtever and just paid for stephanie to be a main

Favorite Ship- cangel OTP ETERNAL

Favorite Friendship- angel/gunn is such a good dynamic that you can feeeeeel the show dropping (along with so much of their gunn-centric content bc they didn’t know how to write for him and never thought hm maybe we should hire some black writers)

Favorite Quote- it’s a cliche at this point and theres many great quotes on this show but it really does hit home- if nothing we do matters, all that matters is what we do. cause thats all there is.

Worst Character Death (if any)- freds death is vile trash garbage and they should feel like vile trash garbage for doing her like that

This made me so happy you have no idea Moment- cordelia and angel falling asleep with baby connor between them talking about how to spend a big payday........ such marrieds content..........

Saddest Moment- ‘is that it? am i done?’ idk if this would have been a SADDEST MOMENT before glenn quinn passed away but it sure hits hard now. it also hits hard when they replay it in you’re welcome right before cordelia dies

Favorite Location- the hyperion hotel is one of my favorite sets in all of television. i just wish we’d explored more of it, and that they hadn’t ditched it in favor of that new wolfram&hart set, which was honestly very very boring to me

[diarrheaworldstarhiphop]

what does it mean to be a woman? i find that the normie / incel paradigm is more meaningful than the male / female one. is this merely because my mind prioritizes intellectual independence as a virtue? is that what my mind, perhaps wrongly, registers as intelligence - the sort of cynicism that only emerges through study of the system we exist in? i feel as though there are those who live in a society, and those who merely tolerate it - those who have escaped the mental matrix of pop culture

OKIE !! UM

shit, theres alot here

this is going to be a mess, hang on

what it means to be a woman is uh, to boil it down rather clumsily, it’s a struggle for subjectivity in spite of one’s own body. A search for a self because of the perpetual trauma of being objectified. And that’s as far as what it means, to a woman.

i also think the normie/incel paradigm is more meaningful than the male/female one also. Instead of saying incel, i’d probably say something like outcast. Being in the out caste, in a way, produces a circuit of trauma that instills a drive to assert and validate one’s own nature by own’s own nature because they can’t find validation in any herd. Great people or the uh, the last men, will tend to navigate that i feel.

I think women will encounter being within the outsider circuit of abject loneliness less than men would because of the social oppression/abuse and eventual sexual objectification they confront particular to their gender. From an early age, they are conditioned into being herd or group critters. I don’t think it’s very often that a (cis)woman will encounter a deep, traumatizing relationship with the abyss, the way men do. This is so because a woman can often put a face to her trauma or have some safety net or shared solidarity with other women. A man who falls out of society often doesn’t. There is no net for young men, and perhaps this would go some way toward explaining suicide rates and the incel manner of hyperfocusing on tfw gf to fill that void with a companion.

Even the manners women would have fall into the outcast circuit the way men do (appearance, hygiene, wierd behaviour, etc) is prevented by the particular conditions and modes of oppression women experience. It’s redirected to her body, and thus into the struggle for subjectivity rather than a struggle against the void.

is this merely because my mind prioritizes intellectual independence as a virtue?

ur mind prioritizes it because its something you want for yourself.

I think its why alot of male relationships or male social hierarchies risk being object based, in a sort of desire for oneself, the qualities in a loftier other man. Or rather, a king. The status, not for the sake of status, but the self-security it MUST confer in his mind. And the desire for that status is what brings them together. I find alot of groups of men tend to function llike a bunch of rowdy wolves all flitting about and orbiting the “alpha” of their group. A sort of fraternity, tho often poisoned by latent insecurities and object/desire based perception.

Perhaps men have an abundance of subjectivity and that prevents them from seeing those around them and their own unconscious desire production outside a possessive or object basis.

Something that has stuck in my mind recently is Kantbot’s exasperated expression about how the alt right was supposed to be fraternity, or rather an attempt toward that. Of building a place for their own. But i feel that it appears it’s been fucked to hell by the way men incessantly objectify everything they perceive around them or render spaces of fraternity as opportunity, as a chance to achieve security in status while letting security in fraternity atrophy. I don’t think it was ALWAYS like this for men, but that it’s exasperated by capitalist modes of desire production.

. . .

Anyway, i think independence as a virtue of intelligence is a particularly male phenomenon or construct.

is that what my mind, perhaps wrongly, registers as intelligence

I think about intelligence the way uh, Aleksandr Dugin speaks to in the logos of cybele, of the multitude or pluralcy of truths and phenomena. I think intelligence is not a hard, measurable fact aside from circuits of awareness, outside and in. Or rather, what’s activated from use and circumstance. intelligence is ultimately noumenal or wahtever, or just. fuck. its something you can tap into but i dont think many people ever get to do so because there is also a pluralcy of traumas or manners you can use to explore and play.

Anyway, im extremely dis-articulated and offtopic with that lmfao. So uh, ill move on before i spiral on my inability to put this shit to words. What I mean to say, is like, i guess you can be extremely well read or versed but you can also be extremely stupid or underdeveloped in critical manners that wouldve allowed to be greater than book smart or fucking wahtever.

These are the ills, when expanded in a civilizational sense, that the west endures as an completely appolonian construct constricted by christianity and subsequent athiestic herd morality copes such as democracy and modernist material based ideologies (communist, fascism). In otherwords, what necessitates the dionysian modes of thinking.

the appolonian construct is part of with whats considered patriarchal modes of thinking. Which brings me back to “independence as a virtue of intelligence”

the sort of cynicism that only emerges through study of the system we exist in?

i think independence is a phenomenal byproduct of the process. Because that’s one part of what should be a pursuit toward pluralcy. A system over linearity.

i feel as though there are those who live in a society, and those who merely tolerate it

I dont really see a difference in that. Society is a platform, yes, and everyone learns to tolerate it or go FULL TED about it upon realizing the zoomed out horror it entails or hurriedly waits for us at the horizon.

those who have escaped the mental matrix of pop culture             

Wojak, the call is coming from inside the house

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[piamii]

life feels like a slow frozen bitch right now i can’t make sense of anything and it’s also coming at me too fast the fuck’s going on? also these are some really confusing emotions, i’m so overwhelmed i don’t know what to make of any of this it’s just too much, no matter how much i talk about whatever is going on, it’s never enough, there’s always more to process i fucking hate that i process everything so slowly i feel like a pile of shit that’s been accidentally stepped on after today’s supervision i can find happiness in many different things, but at the end of the day i feel more and more empty this is the happiest and most balanced i’ve felt in years, and at the same time the feeling right now feels like backsliding i feel this way whenever i push myself too hard at work, i know that my capacity will continue to grow, but i’ve had to numb myself to how hard this week was i’ve started to regulate my bedtime a tiny bit, and it feels good if also really hard

i also feel really sad, for the rest of my life i’ll have to go at a pace where i can’t process anything adequately and just be permanently emotionally constipated, and then i actually have to be responsible and eat emotional vegetables every day too every time we have 2 hr supervision i feel like i’m being pushed too hard, like the pace is too fast everything that E said today, i felt so much but i didn’t want to tell her that because i didn’t want to minimize how she felt, but i feel it so much, my own versions of her feelings is this just how life has to be from now on? I feel also this strange and irrational fear lately of losing the people important to me? like it makes me more grateful but also makes me feel a lot more, i cant tell if i’m feeling this way bc im perpetually sad i also dont want to tell people im starting to feel sad every day bc i dont want people to make a big deal out of it. i dont want people to tell me i should get therapy bc i cant handle whats going on right now bc thats annoying as shit I really want to take a sick day tmr bc it’s a good day ot take it, even tho im not sick who fucking cares my supervision might judge me but wahtever why should i have to be like her what if she thinks im not fit for my job Im scared of that almost every day lately i’mm scared that the people who have been nice to me all along will suddenly realize what a shit friend i am  i want to swallow everyone and eat them for all the ways im drowning right now who i am is wrong no matter how much i grow, i’ll always be reminded of how much i still lack wow, it’s been awhile since i’ve actually been overwhelmed enough to succumb to these kind of thoughts again i feel like i actually really need an emotional self care day tmr bc of how fucking important it is to be emotionally intact while im at work like today i felt a tiny bit triggered during convo about hosp dynamics bc how am i supposed to fucking know and recognize when i feel inferior it reminded me of the conflicts ive had with M around like “how do you not know? isn’t it really obvious? how do you not even know how you’re feeling?” Fuck all of that is being brought up again. i know she really didn’t mean it that way, but i just feel really sensitive  it’s like what i said last year, i need to take a big emotional shit but because im backed up, even if i take a big one, theres still a few big ones left in there im really annoyed, even if i take a sick day tmr i have to fix my timesheet fucking  im really happy with the people i love i just wish i had more fuel in the tank for them

[arcanigenum]

shipping romantically with benj is a bit different tho like

he doesn’t feel deep love and a deep connection and wahtever. he’s aromantic. now HE doesnt identify as that, he just knows that “ok apparently im not so into this love thing if i compare myself to others”. 

however he thinks being in a relationship with someone can be nice. he gets things out of it. he gets attention. he gets intimacy. he gets a stable point in his life. someone who can show him how to act like a normal person (i mean he doesnt ask for it, he observes and it’s easier when you live together with someone ok). 

he makes a quiet agreement to not hurt this person, physically nor emotionally. he might still go into the emotional abuse zone, but that’s most likely cus A) he’s in a terrible mood or B) he doesn’t know he’s being hurtful. he will stand up for his parter, he respects his partner, he will protect his partner. 

but someone who is weak mentally and naive will be eaten whole by him and pooped out.