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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 2 years

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I've been wanting chicken quesadillas for days, and finally finally finally I got up enough energy to go to the store for the ingredients. That's a very difficult task on its own. Gotta get dressed. Drive there. Shop! But I did it!

I dressed cute but comfy and low effort. I drove all the way to the store. Shopped. Got some Starbucks as a fun reward. Barely had any guilt about spending money, and bought only the stuff on my list! Healthy stuff!

Brought it home. Unloaded it all. Appreciated how nice my fridge looks when it's full of healthy food.

And then I realized that I don't have enough energy to cook. I went to all the effort of buying the ingredients that I don't have anything left in me. Why. Why am I like this.

My quesadilla ingredients are sitting. Alone. In my fridge. Wanting to be cooked. I want them to be cooked. But the thought of standing. And cooking. Is so much. I cannot do it. But I want my quesadillas :( But I need to wash dishes. Need to cook. Can't wash dishes. Can't cook. Can't even stand. What the fuck is this bullshit.

#i am exhausted and i dont know why #well i know why. my body and brain are nightmares. thats why #i got home. put sll my shit in the fridge. needed to sit. then needed to lay down. cant get back up. too tired #it seems like ive been getting tired so much easier these days...#i dont know why shopping has taken so much out of me. but it did #i even rested before i went to the store...#im so sad that i xant make my quesadillas :(#but tomorrow maybe? i think my gf will be over #so she can do dishes for me. and the ingredients are already bought. so i dont need to waste energy on shopping #so maybe. if im lucky. i can make my goddamn quesadillas #wait im a genius #i need to eat. thatll help something right. i havent eaten much today #i know myself. i know that i need easy meals. so you know what i did?#i bought nacho ingredients. and thats just a layer of chips with cheese and jalapenos in the microwave #its easy. basically no effort. itll give me a bit of energy. i probably still wont be able to cook more than that #but im so smart. i anticipated low effort meals. holy shit im amazing #nachos are pretty much zero effort. than at least ive eaten #i cant get over how smart this was btw. buying low maintenance meal ingredients. its almost like i know my brain and body are shit #and ive grown to anticipate and adapt to that #wow. thats pretty cool #its not quesadillas. but it is food and its only two steps #at least i know how to work with myself #i can even sit for the most part. i am so smart. only requires one dish. little effort. god im exhausted #its 10pm and im gonna make nachos. no one can stop me. except maybe my neverending exhaustion #okay wish me luck

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