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mishapen-dear · 1 year

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uhhhh i think they were kinda fucked

#hlvrai #benrey #this was Such a Challenge #and it's still not how i want it smh smh but i've learned a bunch and ive already spent so much time on it #so that means i've won at art #i opened up my program and looked at it and went 'huh! :} ' rather than the previous reactions of 'huh >:/ '#which is truly the Best indicator that ive succeeded at an art #maybe ill repaint this one day and work harder to make the green = top layer and red = bottom a stronger distinction #i think that's what's throwing me off #but i def need some more practice drawing liquid before i do that #i do like how fuckin dead benrey looks tho that's fun #get owned idiot #mishapen draws #i hope the colours arent ass ugly on other screens <.< the greatest curse of doing weird things with colours is that not everyone's screens #show the same and it kills me every time something looks so much different on my phone compared to my comp

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1driedpersimmon · 8 months

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Damnit

#ff #ffxiv #i started Stormblooddddd~#its fun!!! as always!!!#spend a good chunk of my first day tho dressing up Sesame... need more gil tho #also #um #so ive seen Zenos for years at this point #and i was always jokingly like haha if i ever played this game i think id like him (based on design alone)#and unfortunately #i know myself very well #and it took only 3 seconds of him walking on screen for me to be like hahaha uts so over for me #*grabs him by the neck*#also sticking Sesame doodle in here too because hes supposed to be looking at Zenos #and then getting beat up #:(((#Sesame get stronger so you can beat him up next time #Sesame #Zenos

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kindheartedgummybears · 3 months

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you wanna know what??

I am

TIRED

of overmasculinized werewolves!!!!

I WANNA SEE A

WEREWOLF

WALKING AROUND IN A CVNTY LITTLE OUTFIT!!! WALKING THE STREETS!!!! DISEMBOWELING CREATURES!!!!

I WANNA SEE WEREWOLVES COVERED IN BLOOD AND GORE WHILE WEARING A SHORT SKIRT AND CROPTOP WITH HELLO KITTY ON IT!!!!

I WANNA SEE A WEREWOLF WALKING AROUND IN COTTAGE AND FAIRY AND PRINCESS CORE OUTFITS!!!!!! WITH A DEAD MANGLED RABBIT IN ITS MOUTH!!!!

AND MAKE THE WEREWOLF

D I S G U S T I N G ! ! !

#i am TIRED of seeing all these manly man werewolves that are all copy and paste white boys #I am TIRED of seeing all these woman werewolves being butch and masculine(also mostly white) or submissive!!!#I WANNA SEE SOME PLUS-SIZE WEREWOLVES I WANNA SEE SOME BLACK ASIAN LATINO MIDDLE EASTERN NON WHITE WEREWOLVES!!!!! THAT ARNT F3TIZIED!!!!!#I WANNA SEE A G I R L WEREWOLF THATS INTO “G I R L Y” THINGS!!!!! LET THE WEREWOLF BE A SLVT!!!!!#LET THE WEREWOLF BE IN THE TRADITIONAL CLOTHING OF ITS CULTURE!!!!#AND RIP AND TEAR AND MAUL AND CRY IN THE MORNING AFTER DOING ALL OF IT!!!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#no but fr can we werewolf fans like. actually sit down and reflect on the inherent misogyny of werewolves??? ESPECIALLY IN MEDIA #like. almost EVERY. SINGLE. WEREWOLF. in movies and shows and stuff are always a buff white man with anger and trust issues #and on the rare occasion that there *is* a woman werewolf shes always either over masculine or “weaker” than the “stronger alpha male” were #olf and only seen as a mate. AND shes always “calmer” and “maternal” and “calms the alpha male down🥺🥺”.AND she never has an actually good #werewolf form its always either wolf tail and ears or full wolf. or if it *is* actually a decent werewolf her transformation is offscreen.#like whyyyyyyyyyyyyy are people so scared to make women go ape shit?????? werewolves are NOT pretty creatures!!!! STOP MAKING THEM PRETTY!!#(lmao jk we know why they're so scared hashtag male gaze)#like yes. werewolves ARE pretty but not in the “dog show 30k$ poodle” kind of way i see some people making them(not that that's bad tho)#AND ALSO LIKE. ARE WE JUST GOING TO PRETEND WEREWOLVES LITERALLY WEREN'T MADE FOR WOMEN AND MINORITIES???#like. once a month someone turns into a raging bloodthirsty unstoppable beast driven by the moon and instincts with an insatiable hunger an #need to hide away from people due to them wanting to kill you or fearing you simply because you're a werewolf. they don't know you. they ju #t see you as a creature that might hurt them. constantly being hunted down to be killed simply for existing.#WHAT PART OF THAT SCREAMS: “ah yes. White man.”#IK theres going be people(men and pick mes) that see this post and think “this bitch is overreacting” and tbh idc.the girls who get it get #the girls who dont dont.#anyways shout out to Ginger Snaps trick or treat and every other piece of media or fan piece with disgusting non-f3tiszied woman/poc werewo #i love yall #*smooch smooch*#Werewolves #Werewolf #Lycanthrope #Lycanthropy #Werewolf AU #Yeah. Im tagging that too. I see yall.

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craycraybluejay · 5 months

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i have this insanely good fic idea but its way past my bedtime.. tomorrow we write

#wincest #oh you guys are going to be in for a treat if this is your thing #any hypersexuals out here? its going to focus a lot on that and how that manifests realistically #and how sometimes you are mean to yourself indirectly because the need is stronger than anything else #lile u straight up be disrespecting yourself even tho u know u can do better #not at all a personal thing nope #anyway #hypersexual!dean and loving!sam #like big bro please stop letting you do this to yourself i will take care of you this is sad as fuck #but in a sweeter way #i dont usually like fluff but like #writing a hypersexual character getting treated with kindness and respect and love is like crack #it is so important to me #hypersexuality is a lot like other addictive/compulsive behavioral patterns #u end up in a bad place w the good intention of keeping yourself happy or content #and i think addicts deserve endless love and compassion and patience and accomodation #just #yeag

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upperranktwo · 1 month

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Have to start doing therapy again tomorrow and tbh if they tell me to try CBT again I'll scream because that isnt working for me 😭

#im not even fond of the whole thing in general for me because talking about stuff sets me off qnd then i get nowhere #i really need stronger meds but tye side effects set off other conditions i have 😭#i will never win!#hope the new guy is alright tho #sky rambles ♡

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baldurs-gate-official · 4 months

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All that trauma and bullshit and he still has the capacity to trust and have a healing journey?? To love? I think a lot of people don't fully grasp just how difficult that is

#bg3 #astarion #seriously #speaking from experience trust is HARD #I have friends. Plenty. Do I trust them? to a point. I trust them in the sense that I love them and trust them to be friends #I trust them to be there for me - to a point. I trust that they're trying (maybe I just don't trust myself to be worth it??)#But I don't trust them not to hurt me eventually. I'm always preparing myself for that #and I don't trust them to keep me safe. Even when they're bigger or stronger than I am #I'm always prepared to get in front of them if something happens. even if I know I'll get hurt from it.#feeling that way is tiring. but its so hard to turn off #I don't think I've even fully felt safe with/trusted anyone I've been with romantically. Not for lack of trying #tbh I don't think anyone can make me feel safe #or maybe I just don't give people the chance to. I probably don't #in my defense tho someone I loved deeply tried to murder me several times SO I think it's pretty damn understandable to feel this way #anyway my point is its really nice seeing Astarion able to achieve these things #trust. healing. a happy ending. love #all those things feel insurmountable in the face of trauma #i need to stop rambling like this #q

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transkingcobra · 6 days

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Okay but am I the only one annoyed by how pathetic the Emperor is mechanically compared to illithid!Tav/Origin or illithid!Orpheus?

I’ve done the ending multiple ways for a few Tavs and like…he’s lacking so much illithid shit

“You’ve seen what an illithid can do” bitch you did nothing first of all, secondly I can become a baby illithid and show your ass what’s up in two seconds

I love him but come on he’s not that helpful in combat comparatively, let him be as cool as the baby illithids

#like shouldn’t he be???#unless it’s specifically the astral tadpole but like #idk the actual npc default mind flayer mechanics but even they feel stronger #or at least there was something they did more often than he does #but if you need an illithid with you #shouldn’t the illithid options be kinda similar #he was fun the first time #now I’m just disappointed when I use him #even tho he’s my favorite to have story-wise #man finally gets out of the prism and forgets how to function I guess #anyway #rambles #bg3 the emperor #bg3 spoilers #kinda i guess #technically

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todayisafridaynight · 10 months

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i went on a walk and came back 60% more evil

#snap chats #you know that meme of spiderman holding back the bus while a kids walking across the street thats me @ myself right now #STOPPPP STOP BEING SAD STOP THINKING OF SAD THINGS TO DRAW OUUUUUGGGH theyd be SOOOO nice tho..#NOOOOO STOPPPPP its JUST angst for Everyone involved #this is what i mean my dad a fucking LIAR he be like 'go on a walk to feel better :)' father i came back with the intent to harm #with the intent to harm all ten people invested in the arakawa family i have come to be cruel #but NO. NO i said no more. wheres that electric fly swatter i need one of those #i have CUTE and WHOLESOME things on the menu THAT is the OBJECTIVE #my mental health keeps getting worse and it shows im trying to fight it with family fun time #who tf made that graphic of the mate in charge of ghibli movies and he's depressed as all hell im tryna live like that #i might be dying inside but let me make something pretty at LEAST #okokok let me actually start drawin onea them sweet things. the urge to lie down all day is strong but i shant i must be stronger #also dont walk outside it hot as hell out. im built like a lizard though thats perfect for me #but tryna sit in a cold place afterwards No Thanks.#ok my head hurts bye lets see if i come back with anything or the apathy wins

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daz4i · 2 months

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saying this lovingly bc i grew up with these songs and i have much respect for these artists. but every time i listen to my playlist of songs from my country i get a confidence boost. bc my god no one here knows how to sing. like i am actually at a very good starting point in that regard i think

#according to my singing teacher my range is significantly larger than most singers here 😳#tho tbf the songs i listen to are relatively old and they're very rock leaning. ik the pop scene is very different 🤔#still! my. ig goals? hopes? when it comes to my music are way more varied than just pop for sure hehe #realistically speaking i don't think the local audience would vibe with what i plan to go for tho 😭😭😭 oh well #i could be wrong. the indie scene is also getting stronger lately from what i heard. man i really need to catch up with modern music lol #anyway this entire ramble is lowkey pointless anyway bc i don't see myself going in this direction any time soon anyway #but it's nice to fantasize sometimes

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bulldagger-bait · 3 months

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#me being almost a pack a day smoker for like two years being like girl no im not addicted to nicotine its just the motion of it #smash cut to now in south africa and i bought a vape bc goddamn everyone around me smokes and im tryin no to listen to the devil #and then i realise with that first hit of the day like .. oh hello... theres my bestie nicotine 5000x stronger than ever before #i get why these are banned in Australia now LMAO #But girl i swear i dont have a problem Nic and i are just having a summer fling girl i PROMISE #i mean its not like ill be able to get nic vapes back home #and ive actually been doing pretty good at not feeling the lure of cigs #when i visited my cuz tho he did smoke like wet wood and he handed me a cig a few times and i did smoke with him #but then i went back to my bestie (vape) and just kept to myself for the rest of the time i didnt even reach for a cig #ive come a long way #like i dont need to be smoke free for me to be happy i just need to not be anywhere near where i was #if i have a every few months then id be okay with that. thats my goal. i want to get to a point where its happening a couple times a year

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hikinghydaelyn · 6 months

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Phew, that's enough for tonight. Just unlocked Prae though, so I wanted to announce that Nanari will officially be done with ARR tomorrow! \o/

Honestly, I thought I'd have given up on this challenge by this point, but we keep on truckin'. Truly, I have achieved some form of zen. orz

#Hiking Hydaelyn #Starwalker's Log #This lil man has the strongest legs by now #my goodness #Doesn't even need to be a Monk #he could destroy gods with one kick #And he'll only get stronger #ngl tho #I am half tempted to get Monk and level it for the sole purpose of using it against Zodiark #Just for the meme #Thoughts for later #G'night guys #<3

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c6jpg · 1 year

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I am kinda 👀 those weapon banners though I literally main all 4 of those characters

#at the same time tho those are 4 characters whose weapons i dont need #ig yoimiya/yae banner would be the better one #al haitham's weapon is too niche and i have mistsplitter and i dont need my kazuha getting even stronger #but on second thought lofi is such a pretty weapon... but i also rly dont want kazuha's weapon lmaooo #yae miko is on atlas which is just. a lot of atk that i rather go into the cd kagura will provide #thundering pulse would also be nice bc my only 5* bow is harp who everyone is sharing like a hot potato rn #0.txt

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zarovich · 1 year

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miss when i was younger cuz even tho i was still severely depressed and suicidal, at least i had still motivation and passion. now it's completely gone

#personal #tbf while i was still sickly then in terms of like my immune system being far worse... my chronic illnesses have gotten worse with age #back then i could draw without my hands locking up or i could run around for longer without the world spinning #now i have to be very careful with the things or i do or ill end up in having to get extra rest or worse. end up in the hospital #having to deal with these issues has unfortunately taken away my passion for things i once loved and im finding it hard to rekindle it #the good things i can say.. at least my immune system is stronger. my nutrition is better. im not in denial about (most of) my conditions #im just rambling out rn. i dont feel particularly good today. im sure that is obvious withwhat i say tho #its day like this where i wish i had my cat with me. i still miss her and im not sure i will ever stop missing her #i need to find my motivation again

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akkivee · 1 year

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hayama-san showed off he had gold decals on his nails and i love that we agree on what kuukou would vibe with lol i’ve also drawn kuukou with gold nail art

#this is vee speaking #lol and like hayama-san’s day two fit looks similar to what i drew kuukou in for my young gun of the sun art lol #kuukou would look great in high waisted boho pants i’m soooo glad we agree lmao!!!!! (hayama-san’s corset tho was too powerful lol 😩👌)#since i don’t draw enough lol i never get the opportunity to do so #but i have a folder of outfits/parts of outfits i save that i think kuukou would absolutely kill #and for me to draw him in lol and it’s nice to see overlap with whatever hayama-san wears!!!!#my accessory game needs to be stronger tho that harness choker!!!!!! that!!!!!! sir!!!!!! 😫😫😫😩😩😫😫😩😩#i drew nemu in these punk suspenders that are mildly kℹ️nky but neat imo maybe i should give them to kuukou instead………………..#c: seiyuu stuff #c: kuukou👑

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