#i say this bc i like them btw. b4 someone assumes otherwise bc it has happened b4

[beedreamscape]

Let me write this before I lose my line of thought, (Again another RANT for the weak of heart)

but I think BH needs to lose something that matters to them, I'm talking true loss --- not like losing Bertrand or Eshteross which they mostly didn't care about, or like losing the skyship which they sacrificed willingly, or 'losing' their newfound friends/lovers to a research mission that should've ended at least a month ago.

I could add Laudna to the above list since everyone knew we'd get her back eventually, but at the very least it gave them drive (which gave us one of the coolest battles in the campaign which was worth nothing in the end, hey Delilah...)

But lose something that makes them ache, that shifts their dynamic into life and gives them purpose --- like losing Dorian! like fumbling the Paragon's Call infiltration and losing that battle in Bassuras with three party members down! like dropping a ship on a wizard's head and meaning very little! like 'losing' each other across a communication-less Exandria when you thought victory was within your grasp! like aaaalmost losing a friend to a million pieces for a decision he made!

There's so much stagnation in Bells Hells that it drives me insane, they're not the same people from the beginning but maybe apart from FCG and a little bit Orym and Imogen, most of them are still committing the same fallacies as they did in the beginning.

[seoafin]

tbh,, i havent read the raws of the interview yet, only the translated ver from fan-translator and b4 i start, i think that this will be just me talking in circle and in no particular order AND a real mess (my brain does weird things after exams) but uhh here we go

gojou collects talented people, and by doing so he finds the people he can most probably relate to, except that he can't, not really, because something in the universe shifted when he was born. and it makes me think of how he's always known it, that he is special, and he's proven it, time and time again— he wants to take in talented ppl and he does, but there rly isn't much he can do for them. for they are talented, more talented than the world can understand,,

but they aren't gojou satoru

gojou took in megumi, bc he knew megumi was strong, and would grow up to be someone even stronger, but gojou can't facilitate or encourage his growth, bc for all they're similar, they are so fundamentally different. ALSO,, while geto was in his life, gojou rly judged everything according to his understanding of geto’s moral compass. gojou wears a human suit and geto is how he learnt to wear it well 🏃

the dragonfly analogy regarding to geto’s response to gojo, who was shown wearing a dragonfly patterned yukata in HI arc,, i’m trying to not think abt the fact that dragonfly symbolized victory in jpn....pain. i quoted from a web here for more explanation : In Japan the dragonfly is known as the "victory insect", or kachimushi, because of its hunting prowess and also because it is known to never retreat. Dragonflies are agile and fast fliers and can even hover, but never fly backwards

and bringing this up again, matricide and patricide are 2 of the 5 worst act to commit in buddhism, and it was said that if u commit one of those act u’re going to spend a real long time in the deepest pit of hell before continuing the samsaric cycle (higher chances to be born as an animal after that probs)— this might be geto’s divine retribution. held no power over his own body and could be considered that he’s the same as those “monkeys” 💀

ALSO the fact that sukuna's interest is "eating" rly drives home his hedonistic philosophy of seeking pleasure for himself. and he’s a cannibal...makes me think if he’ll just chomp on ppl with the mouth on his stomach

randomly, to date i think he hasn't really called himself a human, shaman, or a curse, and has held himself apart from all 3, and we've also the intro of the cursed wombs so i wonder if he’s trying to become, or is, a different entity altogether

so onmyoji got mentioned in the interview and what they practice is called onmyodo and abe no seimei and kano no yasunori were the notable practitioners,, and the kamo in jjk is the same as irl who served the imperial court back then

maybe i was right when i said that the relation between the govt. and jujutsu elders are similar to how the shogunate and imperial court work (ie, the former holds the actual power) but... lets see later,,

and i cant believe that i actually nailed it on the analogy of jujutsu practices by religion,,, so mahayana buddhism, shintoism, and taoism is present in jjk along with their respective jujutsu practices...but between the 3, it shld (?) be taoism > shintoism > mahayana buddhism (which could took a path to pure land buddhism)

it’s weird that the number of curses are supposedly higher in jpn comparable to other countries when taoism was brought from china....tengen sus

so the zenin family tree is sth like :

brothers: [toji's dad] ; naobito ; ougi

so toji, naoya, and maki & mai are cousins of the same generation

[toji's dad] → jinichi (probs) ; toji → megumi

naobito → other brothers, naoya

ougi → maki, mai

but yea i’d call anyone who’s within/close or below my age range as cousins and others above 30 as uncles/ aunts LMFAO,, i dont rly memorize my own family tree 😭😭 especially since most call the other by honorifics instead of names : aunt, uncles etc or attaching said honorifics at the end of a name for an older sibling figure/ older cousins [but like ppl in my country also call the other who are older with sibling honorific even if we’re strangers,,, rly similar to korea’s hyung/oppa—eonnie(unnie)/noona but some uses more genderless honorific] (1)

tw // topic of incest, mentions of abuse

if anyone got the wrong idea when reading this : i am not glorifying/ romanticising incest(uous themes),, i’m looking at this with absolutely no lenses of bias even tho im rly against it

初恋 = literally : first love, or puppy love

恋 = romantic love/ deep longing

i literally don't know how else to put this...🧍and with language barrier...using a western interpretation of the eng word "love" to explain a jpnese term is not quite that simple, unfortunately

that thread omg,, i rly do understand how exactly someone could associated kindness with love bc of my upbringing, it was when i was slightly older that i was just...oh so its not like that orz,,, so the most plausible explanation would be that

but the problem is that,, akutami never specify when exactly she had a crush on them,, and when megumi answered todo’s question she had a “♡” reaction 😶,, uhmmm there’s rly no way to look past this if its this way or be in denial

i’ve seen some of "why wouldn't mai react that way after hearing megumi say he'd like someone who's compassionate when she's surrounded by men like naoya",, well I MEAN,,, that, but also mai probs admires that megumi grew up so well out of the clan, regardless of the fact that he had the foundation (10 shadows) to do so. imo she seems happy for him the way she can't be for maki, bc maki ultimately had to leave her behind

hate to say it but yea,, the 3 clans most likely still practice inbreeding in order to preserve their power and presumably their wealth too 😀

i had an idle thought abt it at first but i filed it deep in the back of my mind asap,, bc i ont wanna jump to conclusion abt this out of all things too early. it’s probably not even in jjk, but all those elite clans in other ani/mangas that produce powerful heirs and whatnot also do the same,,, but this way of (my personal) thinking was influenced when i first got into tsukihime (type-moon),,, i read abt the nanaya family background and found out that they practice that in order to keep their bloodline “pure” (to keep it short : they have an optical power),, and i had this kind of assumption ever since so there’s that

i’m,, convinced the zenins' inbreeding made it more difficult for them to get powerful shamans bc they got 2 jujutsu technique-less children with heavenly restrictions in the same generation: toji & maki

even more convinced that maki might be a bit stronger than toji bc toji could see curses without aid while maki can't so the pay-off must be higher,,, SJJASN IDK ,,, plus naoya sort of implies his older brothers are nothing compared to him, and idk if we should take that as his arrogance or that his older brothers rly are weak/powerless. it would make sense as to why naobito had a lot of sons, ig, as head of clan

i feel so bad that if one of the factors that can caused heavenly restriction is inbreeding,, toji and maki and mai had no say in how they wanted to be born but are scorned for it,, typical asian families projecting their traumas and ideals onto their kids but get mad when they realize that those ideals are ugly...😁😁😁

since the zenin are conservative,, i wonder if they still hold onto old jpnese dining traditions. where in ancient jpn, hierarchical relationships were made readily apparent even within families. a dining table where everybody sat down and ate as equals would be unheard of. rather, each individual is given their own table that indicates their status,,, someone who is not considered “strong” according to the zenin’s views most likely have no place at the table, and probs eat when those who are “strong” finished/ serve them when they are eating

if toji was tossed into a swarm of curses,, i dont think abuse during said time is below them,,,

the zenin clan was already great, but they further amassed power and strength by, what i assume to be, marrying and adopting powerful individuals into the clan 🤔 ,,, i imagine they're like the hiiragi but without doing what they did to shinya (ons reference)

BUT after all that, i like to think that since akutami’s a big horror fan, jjk might be an outlet to explore said topics or even darker ones, so i wouldnt be that surpised abt it. given that there’s more than enough “red flags” before this was dropped : a reference to “tale of hikaru genji” when a grown woman asked for gojou’s number in HI arc (out of all things); granny who transformed into the man’s daughter, sat on his lap and man just touched her waist; mei mei and ui ui ; and...this (incestous theme is in the novel btw)

lets not start with whatever the fuck in kubo’s head in the interview otherwise i’m writing paragraphs with every curse words possible,, those big 3 mangakas are so— UGH,, a planet w out (cis) men like him sounds real good rn 😌 if one of yall out there decide to do it,, pls hmu rly cant do this shit anymore

akutami said i like my men pretty and i like women who will step on my neck and spit in my face (I REMEMBERED TATSUKI FUJIMOTO’S INTERVIEW WHEN HE WAS ASKED ABT MAKIMA AND IT WAS SO 😭😭😭😭) but ykw,, love that for both of them <3

when i said 3 : one piece, bleach, naruto. aside from the blatant depiction/ characterize of women in those 3,, idk if some ppl arent aware yet but oda is friends with two (2) convicted pedos,, man...the major disappointment and disgust when i first find out abt it

anyways this is just my 2 cents (which i think rightfully belong to the trash can) so pls just take this w a lil to no grain of salt - 🐱

YEAH THE ♡ LMFAO I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A “good answer ♡“ heart BUT NOW IM RE-EXAMINING?????

honestly i wouldn’t be surprised if the three clans practiced inbreeding. but ik people are going to be  😡😡😡😡😡 about it when the queen of fucking england is literally married to her (something) cousin. i’m not justifying it but like....love the double standards, just as always with the west 😍

DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT FUCKING PED* LIST THEY SHOULD ALL BE IN JAIL. JAILLLLL. it’s all so gross. that’s why i fucking hate when people look towards manga for positive representation because the chances of that are super slim to zero, especially since the industry is saturated with misogyny and ped******* and a lot of other gross stuff.

i think ppl forget jjk is a horror manga LOL so obviously it’s going to confront darker themes. the question is whether it’s going to be done tastefully or not......

[olusegundare]

BROTHER SAMSON AND SISTER DEBBIE’S STORY CONTINUES

"Find  your lost key", Sister Debbie said.

Our  church in d island organised a special program 4 d singles...afta d program a  sista approached me for counselling, I had 2 excuse "mai" lord so as  2 attend 2 her...we walked 2 a corner within d church premises, dia we  discussed.  "Sorry 2 disturb u aunty" she said.  "It is my pleasure", I said.  "My name is Feyisere", she said.  "Uhm! It's nice knowing u. My name is Debbie", I said.  "Oh, I know u. I am a memba of dis church, but when I finished my skul  & job is not forthcoming, 1 of my niece asked my parent if I can come  with her so as 2 be assisting her in her buz & taking kia of d children.  And I left with her last year" Feyi said.  "Oh, sorry, I dont think I have ever come across u", I said.  ""Eegun mọni, enia ni ko mọ eegun", sometimes if not all d  times, you our leaders do not know us, your followers & membas,  particularly when such a person is not an officer in d church", Feyi  said.  "Thats true. It is easy 4 people 2 know officers but d silent ones, it  is not easy 4 us 2 know such pp", I said.  "I  have a little problem ma, which I need ur counsel on bc u r educated, older  than me, a Believer & by God's grace engaged to a responsible brother in  the church", she said.  "May  God solve all our problems in Jesus name. May He also guide us into His light  and truth in Jesus name" I said.  "Amen"  Feyi said.  "Okay.  I am listening", Debbie said.  "Be4  I left d Island abt 8 moons ago, I have a male friend in dis church, broda  Johnny, we were close friends. Infact people think we were engaged then, but  there was nothing like dat btw us then. He is a principled person & I  know he is a christian. I entered institution of Higher learning b4 him &  graduated b4 him...However, dis does not stop our friendship &  interactions with each oda within d campus, d church & at d  neighbourhood"...I, miss Debbie, was attentively listening 2 her as she  continued.  "So,  dis relationship continued even afta our graduation...Afta our graduation, we  were searching 4 jobs but when it is not readily coming, he afta listening 2  a lecture 4m your spouse, evangelist Samson, he also decided 2 start  something, & he opened a barbing salon near one of d institutions gate in  d Island..."  "Okay,  I think I know d broda now because "mai" lord told me of a broda  who came to him on where 2 establish a barbing salon sometimes ago...pls go  on my sista" Debbie said.  "Thank  u ma. That is d broda, bc he also briefed me abt d counsels of evangelist  Samson, your fiance, & all d assistances he rendered 2 him, financially  & otherwise, how he linked him up with some people in d area which  facilitated d establishment of d barbing salon near d institution's  gate", Feyi said.  "Oh!  That's nice of him" Debbie said.  "Few  days afta d estab of d salon, I left 4 other island with my neice...Weeks  afta, he proposed 2 me...A month afta his proposals I consented, and we were  having it nice on air talking daily...When I told my friends about this  development, they made me to understand dat men are unreliable and dat I shd  not have give in to him easily like dat, dat I shd have kept him in suspense  4 a while, b4 answering him, dey said he will abuse me & consider me  cheap...I was sorely sorry 4 myself on hearing dis, and I decided to start  playin games with him, I started hanky-panky with him...Whenever he calls, I  would not answer him, he will call severally before I answered, dat is if I  will answer at all...sometimes when I did not answer his call he will text  me, but I will not reply his texts too...Whenever I asnwered his call, I will  give excuses and reasons for not answering his initial calls...this has been  going on for sometimes now... But I have discovered that he has changed, he  neither text nor call me as before again, and to cap it up, when I arrived  two days ago, I arrived purposely because of him but, I discovered that he  has been cold towards me, even he was not as this cold when we were ordinary  friends... I felt unloved, I felt unwanted, I felt neglected... As I saw u  dis morning in d church I thank my stars dat u are around & dat u could  make dis program, and I decided on d spot of seeing u dat I wil discuss dis  issue with u, so dat u help me out", she enthused.  "Uhm!!!  Is dat all sista?" Debbie asked.  "That  is about all ma. Pls what do I do?" Feyi asked.  "I  thank God for dis avenue. Let me ask u dis? Do u love dis broda,  Johnny?" Debbie said.  "Yes,  I do". Feyi answered.  "Do  u think u can live d rest of your life with him?" Debbie asked.  "Yes  I can ma". Feyi answered.  "Having  resolved these, what I want to tell u is dat your mistake is that you are  imitating your friends on dis crucial issue of your life... You have failed  to know that individual persons have their own angels, what their angels can  condone, your angels may may not condone, what is working for them, may not  work for you bc u are created differently...  "...even  those people you call your friends may be christians, but they are different  from you and you are different from them and the way God deals with you  differs..."  "As  a christain who have prayed on the person you wanted to be engaged to and  having loved the person, you need not play hanky-panky with the person any  longer...or didnt you pray before consenting?" Debbie asked.  "I  prayed ma", Feyi replied.  "Having  prayed, and having gotten God's peace in your heart towards the person and  having loved the person unreservedly, you should not have bothered your head  about your friends' counsels again because they have misled you as it were  not. You should have just continued with the relationship, because in love there  is no fear", Debbie said.  "Okay  ma. What do I do now? How do I win him back?" Feyi asked.  "You  should search out the keys to your ertswhile friendship and the key you used  in unlocking the door of his heart's love. When you find these keys, and you  start using these keys, the near dead love he has developed for you in the  past weeks will be resurrected and things will return to normalcy, even if  the love is not hotter than before", Debbie said.  "Pls,  expantiate further", Feyi said.  "What  I am sayin is, what u were doing before that makes your friendship grow, what  you were doing before that make you fall heads over hills in love for each  other should be re-ignited again, when you start doing those things again,  within space of time, weeks, days, his love for you will come alive again and  you will be happy again", Debbie said. Kneeling down to thank her,  "thank  you ma, I will start doing that...I ought to leave on monday but I stay back  a while to play with him..", Feyi said.  "That  will be good. When you start doing those things ensure that you keep it up.  Be opened unto each other, as distance has separated you for a while now,  tell him your moves, let him know your steps ahead of time, do not assume  anything, do not say u will tell him afta u have done such thing, that means  u do not value his advice, dat means u do not consider him important in your  life and life's decisions and steps and when such happens another gap will be  created, he will have some reservations, he will not be able to open his  minds unto u again, he will not be willing to divulge impt decisions he also  want to make to you...and you also know dat discovering that someone u love  did not tell u or carried u along in his or her decision, u know how u feel?  One feels dejected, rejected, un-important. So to make him an important  person, u also need to carry him along in all u are doing or u wanted to do.  You have 2 start dis even before you are married..." As Debbie said dis,  she knelt down nodding her head...  "So  do this and other things that will make him happy and you wil discover that  brothers are not the same...brothers are different. Because "mai"  lord, I did not play hanky-panky with him since we start dating and so far so  good, everyone has loved our relationship, everyone has been blessing God for  us...We never allowed any communication gap let alone allow d enemies  entrance...even though i may grieved him sometimes, but I ensure that such is  resolved b4 I leave for bed dat day...and d same with him...so I have enjoyed  to the maximum dis relationship with "mai" lord...I also pray you  enjoy broda Johnny in Jesus name," Debbie said  "Amen",  Feyi said.  "Shall  we pray?" Debbie said...As they prayed together...     

TRANSLATION    "Find  your lost key", Sister Debbie said. 

memba  (means member)   

skul  (MEANS school) &  

 buz  (means business)   

kia  (means care)  ""Eegun mọni, enia ni ko mọ eegun", (means masquerades know  people but people do not know masquarades (It is a Yoruba Proverb which means  popular people are known but they will not know the numbers of people who  know them)  

 ur  (means your)  

bc  (means because)

u  (means you)   

r  (means are  

oda (means others)     estab  (means establishment)