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#i shld rlly do the new ones sometime oh dear i have a lot to catch up on
noxtivagus
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ALHPY IS SO CUTE 🥺
#🌙.rambles
#[ ffxiv. ]
#saw smth on twt of him in yk one of the trust dungeons
#i shld rlly do the new ones sometime oh dear i have a lot to catch up on
#I'M RLLY EXCITED THO! i want to do a lot. so i will fix my schedule. simple.
#i'll sleep soon n just be productive tmrrw i need sleep but
#alphi's always there to /comfort you n he's the cutest. mwah
#i want to catch up yes.
#n then gbf i rlly wna do better next gw ! >:3 i rlly want lich tho oh my god
#w school i haven't been procrastinating anymore. at least not last minute
#i won't write about it anymore but i think i'm. clear about it now in my head
#n so i'll learn to live with this. n i'll just be myself.
#i'm really not so nervous anymore. i think reflecting abt my place in life n this world n having my family n
#the dear friends i still have that. after thinking of what each of them mean to me.
#i've come to terms with letting some go. things aren't the same n that's normal n i'll learn to live with it.
#just. drifting apart normally
#n then there's others i want to get to know better n be even closer w when my social energy is better c:
#yeah it's a lonely feeling but i'm good at managing things like that
#the only way is forward. n
#ah i'm not gna ramble abt it anymore
#i'll focus on my studies first n then i'll find my way certainly bit by bit. at my own place. just by being myself. n that'll be enough
#i'm gna sleep soon today was well i rlly love spending time w my family :( they're not perfect either ofc but. i've always had them.
#but i wish that. from time to time when they talk abt the future n
#i'm abt to cry even just thinking of it haha it probably won't be anytime near but the idea of death. mortality. is just
#thanks to fiction n music n stories i'm familiar w it but. experiencing it. is smth i haven't actually. yeah yet
#though i know of loss. in a way that. we can't have the past ever again. or old friendships n
#the fleetingness of time rlly. just. sigh. it suffocates me everyday i think
#which is one reason why i try so hard to do my best for the sake of the present n the future n remember the past so keenly
#maybe a bit too much that i'm more tied down to it instead. but.. i have to do what i can. i can't hesitate anymore.
#so i'll stop writing n get to sleep. as always i'll just. do more tomorrow. n i'll rest now so i can actually do more tmrrw.
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#🌙.rambles
#just rather. i'm not sure i'm thinking rn n i think i'm proud of myself in this moment
#like oh yeah i'm still struggling n i shld continue working on my assignments but
#thinking of it n i've improved a lot
#sometimes i certainly do feel like a ghost or a hollow husk of who i used to be but
#there's also so much more than that
#maybe i've been feeling much more down than earlier this year and more often i do find myself faltering
#but.. despite all this pain i'm still here aren't i?
#i'm still here trying my best to do what i can despite how my regrets and shortcomings weigh me
#but i'll. overcome them. eventually let go of even more pain n i'll move forward even more
#i'm not rlly sure what i'm writing but thinking of like maybe how lonely a year ago was when i was so afraid to open up!
#i remember thinking when i wld get the opportunity i wouldn't be afraid to take it for myself bcs i deserve that
#n look. i did get it a few months after; earlier this year
#n then since then i've also strengthened my bonds w old friends. n made new ones that i'll remember and take with me for life
#memories moments experiences emotions thoughts that i never thought i'd experience or have but look at me now
#i haven't been in the best state definitely for the past few months or so but i'm still here
#being alive n here is a testament that. my efforts weren't for nothing
#honestly don't we all carry so much we all deserve to be kinder to ourselves
#every single step n each improvement n each desire to do better i think is enough to be proud of.
#i'm rambling oh dear this happens when i'm overwhelmed n emotional but YEAH
#there's so much. unsaid n hidden pain n sorrow in this world n i'd really just love to do what i can to heal even just a part of it
#take it upon myself bcs i know i can handle it. even if i won't be remembered it's enough for me to. do that for others
#thinking of my interests as well as my goals for the future (such as career) n idk stories n in general n. myself really
#i'll embrace it it's me after all n ngl as a whole i rlly do love myself. hfjsdlkf sm to write abt that.. i'm v proud of how far i've gone
#like before when i rlly was so. even more lonely. n then. accepting help was even harder then.
#i still have my fears but i'm better at overcoming them n yh life is like that n i'm growing after all but it's not like it's wrong to be
#proud n happy abt that!!!! idk i think i had experiences w friendships that made me feel like having or reaching out to what i want
#is 'selfish' :// nyways i'll be productive now i want to say rq. sob i'm sorry my social energy is so dead. but.. thank you for staying
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