#i should’ve went to a biology college or something even if i’m not smart

[marzzrocks]

i’m really considering dropping out of college and taking a boat out to sea

[kasaslovr]

ੈ✩‧₊˚ 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄

*ੈ✩‧₊˚  in which no girl has even looked his way so what makes him think you will. he's just not getting the hint that you want him to have little taste of your love

❈ warning: f!reader, college au, mutual & m!masterbation, fingering, praise, pet names, hair pulling?, teasing, he's like kinda subby at first then dom teehee, porn with plot. wc: 3.5k

❈ notes: i changed the concept oops, idk maybe ill write a fratboy!gojo fic later,  idk my friend was talking about how they dislike a playboy gojo so shoulder shrug. likes and reblogs r much appreciated mwahh anyway please enjoy my official first piece !

its not like he was hated, not at all. its just he never stood out and was never labeled anything more than basic. he just wanted to get through his college life peacefully. he didn't need those parties that lasted till 2am or those saturday night hookups which would leave him heart broken. sure he's had friends talk to him here and there, but he would never get super personal with anyone, ever.

it was a study hall in a library where there should’ve been just silent but instead, there would be students gossiping or making out in such a public place. how vulgar. he wasn't a nerd either, just an average guy honestly. he was finishing up notes that he could use for his next unit test, until the aroma of warm vanilla and marshmallows filled his nose, he usually wouldn't look, but he couldn't help it since it was right next to him. you were right next to him.

he slowly turned towards you and was met with such a winning smile with your head tilted and hand under your chin. your eyes were staring right at him like you were trying to see through his own eyes. you had the cutest cheeks he's ever planted his eyes on, they were just a little rosy and rose just a bit when you smiled at him. and your lips, they were beautifully plump with a little shine from your gloss and it was moving–shit you were talking and soon he was convinced. he's never had a taste of love like this before or ever.

“hello? i asked if we had biology together?” there was a concern look on your face, he snapped out of his thoughts and looked anywhere else besides your face. “uh i’m not to sure..” he responds with his hand reaching to the back of his neck, god you must think he's such a big loser cause of course he wouldn't know, all he does is keep his eyes down at his paper or at the floor.

a sign of nervousness. how cute you thought. you knew satoru was in your class, of course you did, ever since you transferred all you wanted was a new start and to live out your life so you did that, went to any party possible and made as many friends as you could while sticking with old ones. but there's one thing you wouldn't do and that was to let just any guy to have a taste of your love, you were gonna be in the one to control who you want to love and such and you chose him. gojo satoru.

“gojo right? i’ve definitely seen you around, you feed those cute cats behind the building!” you exclaimed, way louder than he would've liked and loud enough to  make his ears red. “uhm yeah..look are you following me around for fun or something because there are more entertaining things to do.” he suddenly felt discouraged like he wants to cry or never find someone attractive again.

“no no no, of course not! that was just by coincidence and since then i kinda told myself ‘i have to get to know such a cute and sweet guy.’” you said smiling ever so sweetly. what did you just say? cute? sweet? he's never seen himself in such way nor has anybody else, maybe when he helps the old ladies open the door or when his friends sees adorable baby photos of him, but he's never felt these kinds of butterflies about it before.

“you-you think im cute?” he turned towards you again to see if there was any sign of jokingly behavior, but no, you were being genuine. “yeah i do. i’m y/n, i think i need to be caught up on stuff in biology and you seem pretty smart so maybe if you wanna stop by my dorm sometime and help out i would totally appreciate it, im in room 318 in wing c.” you informed, you were starting to feel a little nervous now cause what if he thought you were just messing with him or gave him stalker vibes, you didn't want that at all. 

yes. a million times yes. he thought, he got so excited that he all of sudden stood up, giving you quite a shock, but made you giggle a little and he found his favorite sound ever. “yes i will..i mean i will take you up on that offer. is there a certain time or day you'd like me to go over?” he asked, he didn't think you guys were gonna be at that point where he could just go into your room anytime soon. “hmm doesn't matter to me, i’m never really busy.” you shrugged and now he's thinking of showing up tomorrow morning, but soon he’s interrupted by an alarm on your phone.

“shit! i’ve got lessons, here,” you grabbed a pen off of his notebook and wrote your number in the corner with a little heart. “now you should contact me whenever. i’ll see you around.” you smiled and wave then left the library while adjusting your tote bag on your shoulder. gojo put your number in his phone as soon as he could, in case he forgot of course, but how could he? you've made his day maybe his whole week–hell his entire month. he gathered up his stuff and walked to his dorm quickly.

he searched for his keys in this bag which were usually hung on his tiny key chain that geto gave him, he likes to deny him and gets undying friendship, in reality he was his best friend and almost brother, but gojo denies it all. he opens   the door and expects to see geto laying on the couch with a bag of chips on the couch and a Red Bull on the little coffee table, but no there was a small post, which geto stole from satorus room of course, it on the fridge saying ‘heyy im out to go bang a super hot chick from wing b, she's so hot and let me tell you when her boobs were bigger than my hands, i had to get in on that lmaoooo see ya tmrw - super hot playboy sugaru’ gojo had to blink of couple times until he reacted to it, he gagged with disgust and rolled his eyes, ripped off the note and threw it in the trash.

geto was almost the opposite of gojo, get had plenty of people follow him, guys he played sports with and some who just thought he was cool and wanted to tag along, there were girls too and they had the smallest articles of clothing and would throw themselves onto geto, it was almost like geto was some kind of cult leader. gojo chuckled at the thought, no way. what makes geto different is that he was kind and acknowledged everyone around him. 

gojo opened the door, turned on the lights and set his glasses on the table, grabbed some clothes that looked comfy and made his way to the bathroom to take a shower early since he ended sweating lots more than he usually would. after a half hot half cold shower since college bathing is shit he decided he would order some KFC knowing geto wouldn't be here to steal everything in the bag. gojo knew it was gonna take a while so he went into his room, closed door and lights off. some him time after a long day of classes.

soon satoru got curious, he was thinking back on gets note, did you know him?hes quite popular so maybe, but you were new so he was conflicted. gojo opened his instagram that he barely uses and only got it cause geto forced him to, but he logged onto his account with only 14 followers and got to searching, he went to gets that he has around 10 times more followers than gojo, but he doesn't mind since he doesn't even post anything. he went to search for your name in getos follower list and there you were, gojo felt his heart leap out of his chest of what? he doesn't know just yet. he's excited he found your account even if its a bit stalkerish, but you followed geto so were you using him to get with his roommate. he hopes not, he prays not.

with trembling fingers he pressed your account, he examined your account. your profile picture was a cute mirror picture with a white sweater on and studying something and you used a table mirror to take the picture, it was so cute, he moved onto to your recent post and he felt his heart drop even farther down and his eyes slightly widen. its you, of course, in a tiny blue swimsuit a two piece to be specific. 

there's three different photos, one of them is you closing your eyes with your knees bent onto the sand and hands cupping your own face and squishing your breast together, it must be unintentional, it has to be because gojo wouldn't know what to do with himself if it was on purpose almost like you knew he was gonna see this and get the hardest boner he's ever received in his life, he swiped to the left, not to exit but to look at the next picture. you're by the shore now and it looks like you're walking with a hand out and another holding your hat to cover your face and finally the last one. youre in the water just above thigh length and you're facing the sunset and your ass is on full display.

gojo couldn't do it anymore, either he was to go throw his phone away and take another cold shower or die because you were just so breathtaking, he scrolled to the first one and he didn't mean to look at your breast, but he didn't and then getos note came into mind again, damn geto, could his hands fit over your boobs? he had to do something about his problem. with his phone in one hand and his other snaking down to pull down his sweatpants, his dick was already leaked with precut ever since he found your account.

he used his thumb to spread the precut around tip to down to the base then back up. his mind was racing and imagining how would you play with his cock. would you make him beg for it? edge him over and over again until there's tears pooling in his eyes? or maybe you would make his sit on his knees like how are in that first pic and make him eat you out without any hands as you play with his cock and just use him as you please. all these fantasies has made his hand speed up and his groans louder now becoming words as he gets lost into wanting you so badly. “f-fuck..wanna cum inside you, baby.” he threw his head back and soon dropped his phone not even caring if it broke. his other hand ran through his hair then moved it down to his chest where he played with his nipples over his shirt, he's never masterbaited like this before, never with this much emotion. 

he was so close, pants and boxers by his ankles and the ends of his shirt caught in between his teeth. he wasn't taking it slow anymore, he just wanted to cum and the shlick slapping noises have just gotten wetter and almost heavier. he was pinching and pulling on his nipples now, they're both red and swollen, but it only adds to his pleasure. his face was red with blush and sweat built up on his forehead while moaning and whimpering your name over and over again like a prayer. would you moan his name like this? imagine you getting lost into so much pleasure where your toes are curled and eyes are crossed and screaming his name with moans followed right after, oh to make you feel that good. it got him painting his hand white and your name on his tongue. he felt his breath staggering back to normal as he cleaned up and when he completely snapped back into reality he wondered how was he supposed to face you.

its been 2 weeks, 5 days, 6 hours, and 27 minutes since gojo spoke to you. of course you've tried to say something to him, but he gets all flustered and leave or ignore you if he must. its really throwing you off so you text him. “hey gojo! could u come over and help me over this unit, but if ur busy that's ok, i don't wanna bother u. just lmk! <3” and sent, you hope your words can convince him to stop whatever phase he is in to talk to you.

gojo is sitting on his bed with his glasses off and hands on his face. what was he supposed to do? you sounded so distressed and he wants to help you, he truly does, but how can he face you when he's done something so lewd. ok fuck it, he has a plan he’ll result to pointing and yes and nos that's easy enough. he grabbed his textbooks and shoved them in his bag and rushed out the door and storming over to your room.

around 20 minutes later he's appeared in front of your door with three quick and panicked knocks. when you open the door you can see his face flushed with red from speed walking his way here and his breath is heavy. you say something first “i didn't know you were coming, i would've changed.” you joked, maybe lighting the mood would make him feel better, but all he did was scan you from your brown slippers to your biker shorts and at your black bra and he gulped “would you like to come in?” you asked him and he nodded. 

this was getting quite annoying. you didn't really need to study since you were pretty smart anyway, but your love for gojo hasn't left at all, you still find him the sweetest guy ever and really adorable and you thought inviting him over would settle things, but the tension only grew. until you stood up and asserted your dominance. 

“okay satoru, i don't know what's been going on with you or why you won't talk to me at all, but if i did something im sorry and if i didn't then what the fuck! i feel like im putting all this effort to be with you and you all of sudden don't give a shit about me!” you shouted almost on the verge of tears. it wasn't your first round of rejection, but to be ignored and humiliated like this was a first and you hated it and felt strong urges to just punch his face if he continued to portray this silent treatment. 

“i..i uh” he stutters, god you can feel tears dripping down your face. “do you hate me or something?!” you asked, not even caring if the neighbors next door are listening in. “no! i don't, its just..i really like you and i don't want be a loser in front of you and i was stalked your instagram and ended up jerking off to one of your photos and im sorry!” he confessed with a panicked expression. why did he admit that? his confession was also lame as fuck? was he in middle school? gojo felt so light headed suddenly and closed his eyes shut and braced himself for a punch anywhere on his body and he held his face. 

he's never felt such way for someone before and this time it was his fault that they were gonna walk away. he hates himself so much right now and wishes he wasn't some weird loser kid and wishes he was someone more popular, more social, more like geto. 

when he peered through his fingers he saw your face and you were..laughing? why? he just told you the most shameful things he's done in his life and you laugh. “sorry sorry, you know because its you i don't mind.” you blush a little while wiping your tears. “and i like you too if you couldn't tell..” you mumbled, finally gaining eye contact with him. he's looking down and playing with his fingers, he's confessed to girls before, but for someone else to want him first. it makes his self confidence sky rocket honestly.

“im still sorry for what i did, but can i ask you for something?” he asked, you nodded slowly, truly having no idea on what it is, “can i kiss you?” he asked shyly and you didn't even responded, you couldn't tell what was moving faster, your mind racing a million times per hour or feet rushing to put your lips on his. it was nowhere close to shy or calm. it was kiss full of madness, want, lust, and love. with noses colliding teeth clashing with one another, and tongues only making the kiss less collective and messy. 

you grabbed his hand and led him into your bedroom without breaking off the kiss, you locked the doors and turned off the lights only leaving your little yellow lamp on your table as a light source. “off. i wanna see you.” he said his voice hoarse from being breathless while trying to rush you, you worked as quick as you could only for satoru to help you as you shoved your pants off he got your top and latched his mouth onto one of perky nips and playing with the other, he closed his eyes and moaned loudly without any shame which caused vibrations through your body adding to the pleasure. “satoru, baby lemme make you feel good too, please.” you moaned softly while trying to get his pants off, anything to return this favor of lust, he pulled off for a split second just to take his shirt off and as soon as that was off he continued ti mark your body with big red splotches that will soon turn people in due time and all over your neck and finally his pants came out and before you could make a move on him, he grabbed your hands

“show me. right now how you play with yourself. put a show on come on.” he encouraged, letting your hands go then peeling off his boxers, slowly moving his wrists up and down his leaking dick. while watching him it felt like your mind was on autopilot, you slipped off your panties and gathered some wetness that has been developed from the kissing and such. you didn't care that you making a mess everywhere, spreading your juices all over your already drenched until you stick a finger in, moaning so light almost with a relief cause the sensation was just so good. then another one, but it wasn't enough your fingers couldn't reach into the deep spots your toys usually could, but why do you need it when you have one right in front of you. with his mouth agape and his abdomen flexing and a flush covering his entire body, to the tip of his cock to the blades of his shoulder. “t-toru s’not enough. want your dick now.” you whined, wording slurring as your brain turned into mush. 

his eyes traveled down to your messy cunt and there was a faint smirk on his face. “oh needy little thing, you want me to help you out, sweetheart. you gotta open those cute legs of yours further then.” he said letting go of his crimsoned tip cock and taking the fingers that were in your pussy to spread them farther and when he saw the sight, he felt the wind knocked out of his chest. all he could do was stare. “stop looking, ‘s embarrassing” you mumbled looking away, honestly the fire in the bottom of your stomach only grew as he continued to play with your pretty little pussy.

he moved your fingers away as he plunged his own right in without an ounce of hesitation. he wasn't being gentle at in nor nice. he wasn't your toy, you were his and he loved it like that. “ill look if i wanna, ‘s mine now isn't it? tell me, pretty girl, who's your cute lil pussy gushing all over for?” he was merciless and he didn't hold back, not at all. “you! satoru! its yours, ‘m all yours, please wanna cum!” you were so close, moans only got louder and higher in octaves at that point, “’s lucky you're so cute, cum for me, baby.” he says leaning in to kiss you and your swollen lips from deep heavy kisses and from biting on it to keep quiet, though it didn't work in the slightest. he moved his head down back to your neck, he loves this taste of you and he’ll never ever get enough.

with your hands in his hair and a slight tug, you came and it completely drenched the sheets and almost the entirely of his hand, as your brain became cleared of fog and passion you rested your weight on satoru only for him to push you down and get on top of you and the feel of his tip kissing your clit, teasing your already worn out cunt. 

“you thought we we’re done? nah baby ive gotta taste more of your love.” 

[tobesensation-9]

Earlier, I was cramming for bio and could just imagine how much Youngbin and Inseong would nag me for leaving it to the last minute, with Taeyang making some coffee and Chanhee out like a light, asleep the minute he opened the textbook because we had a physics exam last week. How do you think cramming/pulling an all-nighter with each member of SF9 as your study buddy would be like - individually - can you lease make this light a scenario for each member? ik ur busy, k ily bye.

😂😂

Why do I see that too. Especially Chanhee 😂. And I love the requests you guys send, it gives me an escape from my hectic college and work life. (This also late but I thought it was timely with my finals around the corner 💀)

Youngbin

“You have to make sure your careful about this stuff.” He’d come over to you at the table where you sat, handing you some healthy snacks to help you stay focused.

“Yeah I know. I had a lot on my plate.”

He takes his hand and reaches across your shoulder and caresses it.

“Don’t stress yourself too much. But make sure you get enough studying in okay?”

Inseong

You’d ask him to help you study for the test and he’d oblige. Only to find out that you were cramming. He’d be peeved from you not telling him about cramming on such short notice.

“How-“

“I can explain.”

“How do you expect me to help you study when the test is tomorrow?”

“I’m sorry h should’ve told you that.”

“Okay, it’s a good thing I’m good at this I think you’ll be alright.”

Jaeyoon

He tries to comfort you as he sees you trying to cram for your test. He feels helpless wishing he could do more to help you.

He approaches you at the table and hovers hoping you’d notice him and ask him to help you with something.

“Jaeyoon?”

“Hmm?” He looks down at you realizing he was noticed.

“Do you wanna help me with something?”

“Yeah...I mean I can if you want me to.”

“I need a hug, I’m stressing out.” You turn around in your chair and hug him. He smiles and caresses your back seeing how stressed you were. “You got it, don’t stress out,” he says.

Dawon (Sanghyuk)

Why do I see him trying to help you with the subject as he knew what he was doing 💀. Not saying Dawon isn’t smart. But he’d read certain concepts as if he knew but in actuality knew nothing about them 💀.

“Oh biology? I nailed that back in school this is nothing.” He closes the book and puts its down as if he’s ready to school you on something.

“Okay?” You look at him confused. Him being confident scared you more than excite you.

“I let’s go over the concepts”

“Do you not know wh

You look at the flash cards and

Zuho (Juho)

So get ready to try to calm this guy down. Although it’s YOUR test, he panics at not being able to help you. Think of “Taeyang-shii” energy but x10 with him yelling your name instead.

“Y/n!!”

“What? Why are you yelling at me?!”

“What happened to preparing for your tests by giving yourself enough time to study?”

“I’m cramming bc I forgot. I don’t like cramming but that’s what I have to do. Are you gonna help me or not?”

“I’ll try my best 🥲🥺. But I may not be of any help I’m such short notice.”

Rowoon (Seokwoo)

When I say he would annoy you so much 😂. Yes Youngbin and Inseong wound nag, but that wouldn’t be nagging compared to this guy.

“So how long did you know about this?”

“A while. But I got sidetracked from all of my other classes so I forgot.”

“Ah. So you were being careless.”

“Where are you getting this from? I wasn’t careless it just slipped my mind.”

“Get a planner. Put it in your calendar. Make a reminder.”

“I did. That’s why I’m cramming now.”

He’d make you some food and a drink as if he didn’t just annoy you and try to help you study. From the good food he made you, you almost forgot about him being a jackass prior. Almost. He’d run your head or back and caress it as his way of cheering you on in your studies.

Taeyang

Yes like you said I see Taeyang just not being in your way and making you or getting you coffee. He would try to help you any way he could, without distracting you.

It would be 12 am when he saw you yawning and stretching backing away from your textbook and notebook. You’d get to stretch too and yawn three more times before you noticed him looking at you with a small smile.

“What?”

“You yawned like four times in the last 30 seconds.”

“I did?” You’d sheepishly scratch your hair while he got up and left the small private study room you guys were in. He’d come back a few minutes with your coffee made just the way you like it.

Hwiyoung (Youngkyun)

No but why do I see him having to cram for a test with you 😅😂.

You’d text him telling him to meet you at your favorite study spot so he can help you cram for a test. Then he’d text you back saying he was gonna text you asking the same thing 😂.

“Which lessons did we have to know for chapter 3?”

“I don’t think he went over chapter 3.”

“What? We didn’t?”

“Yeah we’re only getting tested on chapters 1, 2 & 4.”

“Where have I been?”

Chani (Chanhee)

Oh he’d be out for sure 😂. That or he’d be confused like Hwiyoung but x10. Like he wouldn’t even know what the test was on, let alone have some idea of what to go over (like Hwiyoung). But he’d still end up finessing the test and passing without trying (without cheating) 💀.

“Chanhee c’mon the test is at noon tomorrow.”

“No I thought it was next Tuesday.”

“Yeah, professor said that last week.”

“I don’t remember that are you sure?”

[ofstarsandvibranium]

Waiting It Out

Fandom: Marvel (College AU)

Pairing: Chubby!Bucky Barnes x Reader

As requested by anonymous:  hi! I was wondering if I could request something where you’ve been friends with Bucky for years and there’s been mutual pining forever but now that he’s chubby he’s more reluctant to tell her about his feelings. love u btw 💛💙❤️

You’re not even sure you remember life before Bucky. When you met Bucky in sophomore year of high school, you just knew that that friendship was made to last. He was funny, smart, kind, and was always there for you. You were there for him as well. When his dad passed during senior year, it was hard for Bucky. He was so emotionally devastated, he was so close to failing his last year of high school. But thanks to you, he was able to walk across the stage and accept that diploma from the principal, while shooting you a wink and smile. 

You were proud to call Bucky Barnes your best friend. You would do anything for him. Even help him get girls...despite how much it hurt you to do so.

You didn’t exactly know how it changed. But one day, as you were sitting in the cafeteria listening to Bucky talk about the presentation that he absolutely killed in AP Biology, you just knew that you loved him in a more romantic way than platonic. There was just something about his eyes and his smile and his humor that got you hooked. Just like how all the girls and guys were hooked on him. But you never stood a chance. You were just his best friend and that was all you would ever be.

____________________

Junior Year of College

You drag yourself out of your bedroom and into the kitchen to see Bucky plating some sausage and eggs, “What’s this?” you sat on the stool next to the counter.

“You got a big test today. Figured you’d need a good breakfast to get your brain waves flowing, ya know?”

You gave your best friend a soft smile as he slid a plate towards you, “You’re the best, you know that?” he gave a shrug and watched you dig into a meal, a fond smile on his face that was only reserved for you and you alone. 

He then let out a sigh as he went to cook breakfast for himself and the rest of his roommates, Wanda and Sam. For years, Bucky’s feelings for you have remained strong. He doesn’t know how it happened. He just woke up one morning during high school and got a look at you and he was bit by the lovebug. And it never went away. 

As you two grew older, you grew closer and Bucky fell even more head over heels for you. You were so outspoken about the things you were passionate about. You were so determined, resilient, and hardworking. He was in awe of how beautiful, inside and out, you grew up to be. He also cursed that you would never see him the way he saw you especially after he gained the Freshman Fifteen and it didn’t seem to go away. He looked down at his pudgy stomach, hidden by the oversized tee he was wearing. 

At one point, he was so ready to tell you how he felt, but then freshman year and all the stress and food happened and, well, now it seems like he’ll never be able to tell you. Why would you wanna go for a guy like him now? He wishes work and school weren’t keeping him so busy. That way, he’d be able to get to a gym and lose all this weight. But he can’t and now it holds a huge weight on his back.

“How do you think you’ll do on midterms?” you asked after swallowing some eggs.

Bucky shrugged and glanced over his shoulder, “I think I studied good enough to at least pass. Passing is what I’m focusing on. I don’t care about getting A’s anymore.”

“C’s get degrees!” you exclaim jokingly and he chuckles, which makes you smile wider, “I think you’ll kill it.”

He nods, “Thanks, Y/N. You’ll do great too. You always do.”

____________________ 

As soon as you walked out of class post-midterm, you checked your phone to see several tests from Bucky.

Bucket Barnes: finished my test. think i did okay.

Bucket Barnes: you done yet?

Bucket Barnes: lets go celebrate the fact that we survived midterms!

Bucket Barnes: answer meeeeeeee!!!

You giggled as you typed back a response:

You: just got out. 

You: wanna drop off my stuff at the apartment and then we can go eat or something.

Bucket Barnes: meet ya there! :D

You rolled your eyes and pocketed your phone. Your apartment was just a bus ride away, so you headed towards the bus stop to take you back home. 

When you walked back into your apartment, you found Bucky and Sam currently wrestling on the couch. They paused when they saw you standing there looking amused. They then pushed each other off, rambling on:

“I was trying to watch tv-”

“He just took the remote and changed the channel-”

“-I was watching a nature documentary while waiting for you-”

“-and the show was boring as Hell so I-”

“Enough!” you yelled with a smirk on your face. They stopped and shut their mouths. You chuckled and shook your head, “For adults, you’re such children.” you then went over to your room, tossing your things onto your bed before grabbing your purse, putting your keys, wallet, and phone inside. 

You came back out to see Bucky glaring at Sam, “Buck, ready to go?”

His eyes softened as he turned to you, “Yup!” he pushed Sam one last time before following you to the door.

“You kids be safe!” Sam yelled as Bucky closed the door behind him. 

You hooked your arm around Bucky’s, leaning into his shoulder, “You guys are such dorks, you know that?”

He shrugged, “He started it.” he glanced at your head, a fluttering feeling going through his stomach that’s then placed with regret. He should’ve told you how he felt before instead of waiting it out. 

___________________

You sat across from Bucky slurping up your oreo milkshake, an amused smile on his face as he munched on his fries. 

“Happy?” he asked.

You nodded and let out a satisfied sigh, “Aaaah. Very. Nothing makes me happier than an oreo milkshake, and you, of course.” If he only knew how deeper those words meant to you.

“You make me happy too, Y/N.” he glanced behind you and his smile fell. 

Immediately recognizing the change, you asked, “What?” you glanced back to see Bucky’s ex, Dot. 

She was a toxic person. She and Bucky started dating at the beginning of Freshman year of college. She was always bragging about how smart, strong, nd handsome he was. The thing about having a significant other is that you go out and eat a lot. That along with Freshman Fifteen, well...Dot didn’t like the weight he was gaining. 

She made him feel insecure. Ugly. Not good enough. Eventually, she became ashamed of him and broke up with him. What she put him through had lasting effects, thus why Bucky felt like he could never tell you how he felt now. He wasn’t good enough for you.

“Oh God,” Bucky mumbled into his milkshake as Dot came walking by. 

She stopped at your table with the fakest smile on her face, “Oh hi, Y/N!” she turned to Bucky and snorted, “Hey, Pudgy.”

“Leave him alone, Dolores,” you sneered.

Her head snapped back to you, “It’s Dot.”

"Whatever, Period. Go bother someone else. Bucky and I were having a good time until you showed up.”

Dot scowled and leaned over to be face to face with Bucky, “Just remember, Chubby, no matter what you do, she would never go for a guy that looked like you.” she straightened up and continued to walk down to the diner, her little clique following her. 

Bucky’s shoulders deflated and your heart broke for Bucky, “Do you wanna get outta here?”

Not looking up, Bucky nodded, “Please.”

You then went over to the counter to pay and pulled Bucky along. Your arm looped around with his, “Do you wanna stop by the store and get some comfort food?”

Bucky shook his head, “No. Dot’s right. This,” he pokes at his stomach, “isn’t doing me any good.”

“She’s wrong. Bucky, any girl would be lucky to have you. Dot’s just a bitch.”

“The girl of my dreams doesn’t even want me. So who’s to say that anyone would want me?” he murmured, eyes on the pavement as you continued to walk.

You then stopped, tugging him to halt, “I’m sure whoever this girl is, she’s kind and understanding enough to know that it isn’t what’s on the outside that counts. Who’s the girl?”

“You,” he mumbled, eyes still on the pavement, hands in his pockets. 

“Bucky...” you moved closer to him, placing your finger under his chin to get him to look at you, “Hey, you like me?”

You can see the fear in his eyes as he whispered, “I love you, Y/N.”

You grinned at him, “I love you too.”

“Really? Even with-” his hands waved around his stomach and it made you giggle.

“Especially because of that.” you rest your hands onto his shoulders, “You’ve always been my Bucky bear. Now you’re soft and cuddly as a bear too. I’m sorry Dot made you feel like you’re not attractive or worthy enough. But she is so wrong. I’ve loved you, Bucky, since we were in high school. I’ve loved you then and I love you now. Nothing can change that.”

“God, how did I get so lucky?” his hands went to your waist, holding you close.

“I think I’m the lucky one.” you leaned in, pressing a kiss onto his nose and you stepped back, “I think I’ll save the kiss for after our first date, yeah?”

You held out your hand to him and he took it, “I waited for so long to tell you how I felt, to hear you say you felt the same...I guess I can wait a little longer to kiss you.”

You grinned at him, “All good things come to those who wait.”

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Hiding. Part 79d

The sound of Paul letting out a little sneeze in his sleep broke the romantic moment and caused Duffy to giggle.

Duffy's giggling caused Charlie to laugh.

"We should get some more sleep before they all wake up for the day."

“Sounds perfect to me.”

They slept peacefully for about an hour before the usual morning chaos began. But Peter still didn’t wake up at his usual time. Duffy nervously popped her head around his door to check on him.

He was fast asleep.

She sighed and went back to helping Charlie get the other children ready for school.

It was after the other children had gone to school and Charlie, Duffy and the younger boys arrived home that Peter woke up.

Duffy was curled up on the sofa whilst Charlie settled Paul and attempted to entertain Oliver. Though she'd only walked the short distance to the girls' school around the corner she was rather tired and achy. She couldn't settle though as her mind kept replaying Charlie's words from earlier about Peter having something he needed to tell her.

Peter came downstairs and hovered in the doorway. He didn’t want to tell her, he knew she’d get upset and blame herself and he didn’t want that. He began to play with his hands nervously.

"Peter you're lingering..." Duffy remarked with a sad smile.

“I...” He felt sick, “Need to tell you something.”

"I know." She paused. "I called the college and told them you weren't feeling well so wouldn't be in today."

“Thanks.” Peter smiled sadly.

Charlie was playing with the boys in the garden trying to give him space.

Duffy shuffled up on the sofa and patting the vacated spot beside her.

Peter sat down beside her.

"Your dad said you wanted to tell me something but wouldn't say what it was."

“It’s about Andrew...”

She narrowed her eyes slightly. That was a name she wasn't expecting to hear out of her eldest son's mouth.

“I saw him....”

"Recently?" She asked. "He's not supposed to be near any of us unless it's a prearranged supervised visit with Jake."

“Rape you.” Peter blurted out suddenly over his mother's words. “I saw him.”

Duffy gasped. "W-when?" She tried not to shake. "You were never home when that happened..."

“Once.” Peter swallowed, “You were in the kitchen, He... was on top of you. You didn’t even know... and I didn’t even try and stop him.”

"What do you mean I didn't know?"

“You were... unconscious. I didn’t stop him!” Peter was beginning to get agitated.

"I..." She swallowed. "He did that whilst you were in the room?!"

“He didn’t know I was there.” Peter's hands curled into fists, “I’m a coward.”

"What? No!" She replied firmly.

“Yes!! I should’ve stopped him but I didn’t! I couldn’t. I just froze! I don’t know why I keep thinking about it.”

"You were just a little boy. You should never have had to see that."

“I’m sorry I never told you.”

"I'm sorry you suffered through all of that."

“It wasn’t your fault mum.”

"My poor decisions led us to where we ended up."

“No. Andrew manipulated you. Made you scared and afraid of everything.” Peter reached for this mum’s hand, “You did your best!”

"He revelled in the control and power he had over all of us." She sighed, squeezing Peter's hand.

“But he’s not a man. Just weak and pathetic. A bully.”

"I'm glad you can see that."

“Dad’s a man. I want to be more like him.”

"I know I've told you this before but I really do see so much of your dad in you. Always have."

He smiled, “I love you mum.”

"I love you too." She cupped his cheek with her free hand. "My battles aren't yours to fight Peter."

“No. I know.”

"Is there anything else you want to talk to me about?"

“I think Sarah wants to split up with me.”

"Really? What makes you think that?"

“She’s gone all distant.”

"She seemed OK when I saw her a couple of weeks ago." Duffy mused.

“What if she’s pregnant and she’s keeping it from me?”

"What?! How many times.?!" She ran her hand through her hair in frustration.

“No. Mum, I... we were careful. The scare. What if she lied and said it was negative and it isn’t?”

"Surely she would tell you..?"

“I thought she would too. We tell each other everything.”

"Do you want me to talk to her?" She suggested.

He nodded. “She might be more willing to talk to you, female to female.”

"I'll text her and see if she fancies meeting for a coffee. We'll get to the bottom of this I promise."

“Thank you.” He lent over and kissed her cheek.

"It'll be OK."

He rested his head against his mum’s shoulder.

She stroked her fingers through his hair trying to soothe him.

He was just quiet for a while, “You don’t hate me do you? For not saying anything about what happened? I was trying to protect you.”

"I could never hate you. I love you too much for that."

He nodded. “I didn’t have a nightmare last night after talking to dad.”

"That's good. Maybe you've made progress?"

He nodded. “I think so.”

"So what's your plan now I've gotten you the day off college?" She asked, smiling softly.

“Dunno. I was going to do some studying but...” He shrugged.

"That's a good idea. What you working on at the moment?"

“My chemistry work.”

"You'll have to explain it to me sometime. It's not really my area of expertise but I'd be interested to learn."

“Why didn’t you let me chose biology?” He laughed.

"I think you know more then enough about that already!" She chuckled.

He laughed gently, “I’ve been thinking about uni.”

"Oh?"

“I’m not sure what I want to do but I’ve been interested in going to a few open days.”

"We can look into arranging that. I must admit I'm curious to see what university is like."

He nodded, “Me too.”

"I imagine it's a million miles away from what nursing college was like back when I was your age."

"I've been looking at some courses."

"What are they?"

“Mostly chemical engineering.” He replied, “But I don’t know if that’s where my passion lies.”

Duffy's face lit up. "Wow! I'd love to know where your brains come from."

“You and dad obviously.” He laughed gently, “You and dad are really smart.”

"I barely scraped through my O Levels. Luckily back then nursing didn't require a bunch of GCSEs and A Levels just to get through the door."

“You don’t give yourself enough credit.” Peter told her, “You’re a nurse and a midwife! Takes someone special to do that.”

"Took me over twenty years to get to this point though."

“How long did it take you to become Sister?” He asked.

"Seven years. But I did have a slight advantage..!"

“Dad?”

She nodded.

“My therapist says I talk about you and dad a lot.”

"In a 'parents - they fuck you up' kinda way?"

He frowned and shook his head.

"Well hopefully that means I'm doing something half right at least!"

“You and dad, you’re both really amazing people.”

Duffy blushed. "Aren't most teenagers supposed to think their parents totally suck?"

“I’m not most teenagers though.”

"So I'm discovering." She smiled.

He smiled, “You and dad, you’re not very good when you’re apart from each other.”

"Your gran once described it as being like we've suddenly lost a limb."

“Gran’s right. Dad gets you, doesn’t he?”

"More than I like to admit at times."

“Is it just because you’ve known each other for a very long time? That’s why you and dad just... connect?”

"I guess in a way. But there was always something special there. We just clicked. I don't know why."

“I had that with Sarah.” He sighed.

"Don't give up just yet. The path of true love doesn't always run smoothly."

Peter sighed again. “She’s been distant for a few weeks. I asked dad what I should do but, I don’t want to annoy her or upset her.”

"What did he suggest?"

“To talk to her but to listen to what she has to say.” He paused, “But if that fails, annoy her and then use her weak spots to my advantage.” He laughed.

"What til I get my hands on your father..!"

“Why what’ve I done now?” Charlie asked from the hallway.

“You’re about to get your arse kicked, dad.” Peter replied, laughing softly.

"Suggesting our son use Sarah's 'weak points' against her ring any bells?"

“Sounds a little familiar.” He replied as Oli dived into the living room, squealing to himself. Paul was asleep in Charlie’s arms.

"Now why would you suggest something like that..? Hmm?"

“I was merely suggesting that it’s an option.” Charlie caught Duffy’s gaze.

"An option that's worked for you in the past?"

“Do I have to answer the question?” A smile tugged at the corner of Charlie’s lips as Oli clambered up to sit in Peter’s lap.

"Depends... Do you fancy seeing how comfy the sofa is this evening?" She smirked.

“Ok.” He shook his head, “Using a woman’s weak spots has worked for me in the past.”

"I see... And what weak spots would those be..?" She was enjoying watching her husband squirm.

He continued to hold Duffy’s gaze. “Well it all depends on the woman. Every woman has different weak spots though some may cross over.”

"Is that so?" Duffy smirked.

[quipsnsnips]

I saw something similar to a character development, but more of what they were ‘supposed’ to be and how they ended up. so here’s my take on it.

karleigh 🌻 (karls): she originally started out as a classic aries type of character (lmao fire sign), but became waaaay softer as I worked her out…

•still obsessed with sunflowers, a Kansas piece of trash at heart. •did a lot of alternative modeling for easy cash as she was figuring life out in her early 20’s, but kind of regrets it now that she’s older and has a foster son/soon to be adoptive son (the internet’s forever). •is realizing a lot of things she thought she knew about herself are turning out to be different, is discovering herself again as she learns to really open up. •diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia at 5 years old, was in remission after chemotherapy & other forms of treatment. currently has myelodysplastic syndrome. very rarely talks of this, doesn’t like talking about it at all. •would’ve gone to med school if she had the guts, but didn’t have that kind of self-confidence. she stuck to what she knew she could do best; helping others through social work (wants to work with kids in schools). •froze her eggs as a last ditch effort incase she wants children of her own in the future, doesn’t/can’t ovulate anymore. •pretty self-conscious about her music tastes (they’re not even BAD) because it seems like everyone she knows has a musical talent or connection, keeps a lot of it to herself as a result so she doesn’t inadvertently alienate herself. •is a helpful nugget who would give you the only shirt off her back if you needed it & listens to anyone’s problems at any time. •is way too trusting/kind/understanding and ends up being betrayed often or taken advantage of (& usually lets them keep doing it unintentionally because she’s too forgiving). •is a bit codependent at moments, but in the end it boils down to whether or not she cares about you 'cause if not she couldn’t care less. there are happy mediums to this for her in friendships of course, but not when it comes to love.

caitlin 🌷 (aka caity or cait): karleigh’s younger sister that was meant to be really innocent and shy, yet snarky and witty but she ended up being a total fucking sass.

•still pretty pure, didn’t lose her virginity until she was 19. (still dating the guy to this day) •was originally supposed to be a pediatric oncologist, but I really liked her more as a cardiothoracic surgeon. (she’s cutthroat, I felt it reflected her better) •is a complete smart ass. sarcasm and dry, witty quips are the languages in which she speaks. •has always been the overachieving child because she felt the need to compensate for everything her parents went through with her older siblings. (josh was a rebellious shit, karleigh was sick) •ridiculously, grossly, stupidly smart. took college courses in high school and had her associates by the time she received her diploma. •as a result graduated college with her bachelors (biochem) in two years; also played volleyball, and was president of her sorority (she’s a try-hard, w/ no life~) •currently works as an LAFD EMT while she puts herself through med school & enjoys it greatly. (ended up with her Dad’s first responder instincts/drive/“hero” complex) •not known to many (since she rarely talks about it) but is a huuuuuuuuuge sap for her boyfriend, who is the first/only guy she’s ever dated. though they’ve been exclusive for close to three years, all of what he does gives her MAD butterflies and brings out her cute, awkward traits as a result. (his phone calls, seeing texts pop up, seeing him in person. everything makes her insides go !!!!!!!) •family-oriented, but extremely career driven as well. feels the need to prove herself a lot as a female in her ruthless & competitive field so she rarely talks about a future home life she eventually desires. (has never admitted to anyone to this day that she had a dream she’d married Anderson and woke up with a stupidly cheesy grin across her face. happy-sighed infatuatedly for the duration of the day) •would never, ever, EVER say it out loud because she’s ridiculously independent and prides herself on it but would also probably follow Andy anywhere if he genuinely asked her to come with. is the type to fall hard but work her ass off for both their dreams to come true. •is certainly Karleigh’s younger sister, but now that they’ve aged into their 20’s they’re a lot closer than what they were growing up. practically best friends instead of annoying siblings. jokes that Karleigh’s her flowerchild and maybe she should’ve been the baby sister instead. •acts like a hard ass, and is incredibly strong as a person, but has moments. she shuts herself up and people out after difficult calls. cries until she feels confident she’s gotten it all out. she has a warm, sensitive soul but is rather picky as to who gets to see it. (Karleigh & Anderson basically)

ryan 🌼 (Karleigh’s AU daughter): I have two ~developments of her, one’s AU and one’s kinda canon so I’m just gonna go into AU. They do blend together at certain moments, but that’s to be expected because she’s still Ryan overall.

•grew up rather similar to a tomboy thanks to Callum & the Xinx boys. doesn’t click very well lifestyle-wise with her other cousins (mirabelle & bethany) as a result but still loves them and hangs out nonetheless. •nicknames include Ry and RJ, mostly Ry. (RJ was what her mother called her). •has a bit of a temper, quick tongue and wit. hell hath no fury like a ryan scorned. isn’t nearly as forgiving or compassionate as her mother was (to a fault), but is still a sensitive person with a lot of empathy. tries to stay reasonable and levelheaded as a result yet often finds herself blowing up here and there. •will insult you/hit you where it hurts if you humiliate or make a fool out of her. she hates feeling like an idiot so if you’re the one who caused it, you’re probably going to hear some blunt, unapologetically harsh words. •at 13, went to live with her aunt & uncle (Caitlin/Anderson) when her mom died in a freak car accident. has a voicemail Karleigh left her the morning of and to this day hasn’t deleted it. would lose her mind if she ever lost the audio for good because it’s all she has. her worst fear is forgetting what Karleigh’s voice sounds like. •finds comfort in the fact she shares a birthday with her Papa Grady, as his favorite story to tell her is how much he wanted her mother to have a baby of her own. Ry’s a living, breathing granted wish of his. Every July 11th the family throws a large party and they have a good time with it. (ryan believes they started this after her mom passed so she wouldn’t feel so alone on that day.) •rather quiet, finds it hard to make friends as easily as some people do. ryan prefers depth in her friendships and relationships. (she’s already lost the most important person in her life so meaningless acquaintances are just that to her—meaningless) •she’s a no bullshit person, has a one strike and you’re out policy. won’t blow smoke up anyone’s ass. either you mesh with her or you don’t. is an introvert so her feathers aren’t ruffled when someone doesn’t want to be friends with her, she’s usually secretively thankful. •ever since she first learned about DNA and the concept of genetics/heredity, has been absolutely fascinated with learning more about it. her major is molecular biology and she lives for it. •is in a bit of an inappropriate situation with an older family friend of her aunt and uncle, and is mortified they’ll find out and think less of her for it. (is actually being preyed upon by someone twice her age yet doesn’t exactly get that, thinks it’s a mutual 'arrangement’ of sorts. it’s not, he’s a real scummy dickweed).

[ginkgou]

hi mai, i might be wrong, but ur planning on being a nurse, right? You're obviously really smort n hardworking, so was there ever a time where u considered becoming a doctor instead? And if so, what deterred you? sry if this is a weird ask, but im currently trying to choose one and i jus wanted to know if u have any thoughts on this kinda stuff since I think that you and i have some similarities regarding academia, and in general as well (feel free to ignore this!!)

i actually have always wanted to be a doctor my whole life! it was only later in life where i got rlly scared n chickened out to become a nurse instead. so many people have asked me why i wanted to be a nurse instead of being a doc bc of my work performance n academia n etc, like u said, n there has been many times when i wanted to change. when i actually started thinking bout what i rlly wanted to do in life i knew that it would be in the medical field for sure but i didn’t kno where. in senior year, i just decided to be a nurse since it was a shorter time span than a doctor n i was scared to take on such a big responsibility. i was afraid being up top big boss n have so much responsibility over someone’s life so i decided to be something lower, to work for a doctor instead of going the whole mile to be one while still being in the med field. now that i’m in college, i see my potential n im like…. i should’ve done it. i should’ve went the whole way. i’m only 2 years into university but i feel like if i switch now i’ll have to restart all over again n i don’t kno if i want that…. my friends r confused when i tell them i wanna be a nurse. they’re like, why aren’t u a doctor instead? u have the potential ?? ur so smart??? n im like uh idk lol. but taking all these classes made me realize that that’s what i rlly want too. i rlly wanna be a doctor. the only reason why i didn’t take that path is bc the fear of going so high… if that makes sense. if ur like me then truly think about it. what r ur passions? do u rlly like the medical field n how r ur grades n work performance? if ur thinking about being a doctor, then i think u should go for it. like rlly go for it. n later if u wanna switch to nursing it’ll be easier for u to do that since u’ve taken more advanced bio/chem classes then the other way around (like me)obviously, there r advantages to being a nurse bc of the shorter time span n i’ll be able to get work like asap n like, anywhere. when i decided that i didn’t think about anything else but the money tbh. now that i’m like. learning about shit (especially human anatomy n biology) it made me realize how much i love it?? it’s a fucking pain in the ass but shit…. its incredible what our body does even when we’re not consciously aware of it. i kno this became like…. ridiculously long LOL but if ur like me, which i think u r bc even our thoughts r on the same track n ur concerns seem similar to mine, then i think that u should push urself to do what u really want. don’t let anything deter u from being a doctor, if that’s what u want. don’t settle for anything lower bc ur scared of the what may happen in the future.