#i used to sing along with adele a lot lol

[sebscore]

hey lovely! i love how u write and i’ve just had this idea for a request for a while and it’s with charles and u know how he plays the piano 😁 so the reader loves to sing and has a really nice voice so he loves to play like an adele song and let her just singgg. I think it’s so sweeet, have nice day/night ily!!🫶

PIANO PRINCE | CHARLES LECLERC

pairing: charles leclerc x singer!reader

warnings: this is heavily inspired by taylor swift and joe alwyn's relationship!

author's note: this is probably the first and only time I'll ever complete a request the day it was requested lol- I'm proud of myself. I know it is not exactly like how you suggested it, but I still hope you enjoy it! thanks for the support and I hope you have a nice day!

masterlist

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''There is this one name that comes up a few times in the song credits,'' Jimmy puts the cover art of her new album down, ''Jules Perceval.'' He reads out loud, a humorous grin on his face.

Y/N nods her head, already knowing where this was going. ''Yes, Jules Perceval.'' She confirms.

''Your fans are quite confused on who this person is, because it's the first time they've shown up in your album credits and they have a lot of theories so can you confirm who Jules Perceval is?'' Her publicist had already confirmed with Jimmy's team that they had permission to ask about the mystery person that had producing credits on her new body of work.

The singer laughs as the audience reacts enthusiastically. ''Yes, I can,'' she mischievously smiles at Jimmy who claps his hands, ''Jules Perceval is a pseudonym for my boyfriend.'' As soon as the words left her mouth, the crowd started applauding and making 'ooh'- noises.

''Your boyfriend? Is he a composer or?'' The host grows more curious at the revelation that it's her significant other.

She shakes her head. ''No, he's actually a, uh, race car driver.'' Y/N chuckles, Jimmy's surprised face amusing her greatly.

''A race car driver? Wow, that's quite a contrast,'' he laughs, the audience giggling along with him, ''how did you guys end up working together? Because your jobs are vastly different.'' He asks, putting his cards down.

''It wasn't planned, but Charles- my boyfriend- he loves playing the piano and he's been doing that for years, and one day he was just playing around on it and not taking it very seriously, but he played this certain melody that caught my attention,'' she explained, ''I asked him to play it again, recorded it on my phone and I send it to my producer that I usually work with.''

''He sent a more worked out version of the melody back and that's how it came about.'' She finished her explanation.

Jimmy and the audience looked impressed. ''That's amazing! And why did he decide to use a pseudonym and not his real name?''

''We wanted people to listen to the song without having any higher expectations simply because he was in the credits.'' Y/N answers, diplomatically.

''Jules Perceval sounds very fancy,'' Jimmy smiled, gathering some laughs from the crowd, ''did you come up with that or did your boyfriend?''

''That was all him,'' she grinned, ''his godfather is named Jules and one of his middle names is Perceval so that's how the name came about.'' Y/N remembers clearly how proud Charles looked as he told her and her team which name he wanted to be credited under.

''I love that! Well, if the racing doesn't work out, he has another profession he can get right into.'' Jimmy teased, leaning his arms on the desk.

Y/N giggled, hiding her face in her hands. ''I'll tell him that.''

''So… I can quit racing, huh?'' Charles' tired voice sounded over the phone, the mischief still present.

Y/N snorted at his greeting. ''You watched the interview then, I thought you might be too busy to watch it.''

''Of course I saw it, it was your first time on the show- I couldn't miss it.'' His words melted her heart, touched by the fact that he still took the time to watch her interview despite being busy in Italy with simulator work.

''I really appreciate it, honey- I hope you're doing well, you sound very tired.'' His voice was a bit deeper than usual, indicating just how exhausted he was.

She could hear him chuckle on the other side. ''I'm fine, chérie,'' he assured her, ''it was just a long day, that's all.''

Y/N was about to reply, but her manager waved her hands in front of her face. ''I'm sorry, we have to go now.'' She whispered, pointing at the door of the dressing room.

''You have to go, huh?'' Charles sighed.

''Yeah,'' the singer pouted, disappointed the couple didn't get to call for at least a few more minutes, ''I'll call you later, though.''

''It's okay, mon amour,'' despite not seeing him, she was sure he was smiling, ''I'm always proud of you, okay? I'm thinking of you.'' The driver let her know the words in his heart.

''I'm thinking of you too- I love you.'' Y/N bid him goodbye.

''Je t'aime.''

[confortaleza]

DOROTHEA  IYER ( SHE / HER ) is a CISWOMAN, TWENTY NINE year old CAT CAFE MANAGER who has been living in Moorbrooke for TEN YEARS. They were born on MAY 3RD and right now, they are currently residing in REDGRAVE GROVE. It has been said that they look suspiciously like ASHLEY SIMONE and if they had to choose a song to describe themselves, they would choose CHASING PAVEMENTS by ADELE. 

b a s i c s

full name : dorothea anurag iyer sexual orientation : lesbian  occupation : Manager at Sylvia’s Cat Cafe +intelligent +thoughtful + loyal - unsure-petty -awkward

h i s t o r y  

TW: mention of homophobia

kinda? Dorothea doesn't know for a fact  if her parents are homophobes or not she just really doesn't want to find out. 

Two things were made abundantly clear the day that Dorothea watched Grease for the first time when she was a mere teenager: One, she loved musicals and two, she found herself more attracted to Sandy than Danny. The first thing, was something she expressed easily and had become a well known fact about her. The second well, she learned quickly to kept to herself. Dorothea spent her childhood in India but she came to Moorbrooke as an international college student and absolutely loved it. The best part ? She was able to enjoy the freedom of being away from her parent's strict rule. The plan was that she was going to return to India after graduation, but that quickly changed when she met Sylvia De La Fuente. It wasn’t her first relationship, but it was the first time she had ever dated a woman. The two dated for a few years and Dorothea was absolutely head over heels for her. So much so that she had prepared to came out of the closet - despite the risk of getting disowned by her parents. After a lot of pep talks and support from her friends, Dorothea got on one knee and asked Sylvia to marry her. Unfortunately, Sylvia said no which not only crushed Dorothea’s heart but also any courage she had to come out to her parents. 

w a n t e d  c o n n e c t i o n s

RUSSIAN BLUE - Dorothea wants so desperately to appease her family that she is willing to try dating men. There’s one man whom she enjoys spending time with but... she’s not sure she’s able to take the next step. BIRMAN - a fake boyfriend! He/they act all lovey dovey every time she facetimes her parents and she does something for him in return ( mayube she acts as their beard too  or maybe pays them, anything goes ) SCOTTISH FOLD - a roommate! maybe they only see each other at night or the weekends and they are still a bit awkward around each other or maybe they are super tight and have weekly traditions lol or if you're feeling zesty... maybe they don’t really get along due to a misunderstanding?   RAGDOLL  - theatre buds! they go to productions together, constantly quote the ones they love, and maybe even go to karaoke to sing their fave songs  SPHYNX - college friends! maybe someone that used to help her with her English?  maybe even... a college boyfriend? they only dated for a few months but they could have been the first person she came out to CALICO - Dorothea’s closest friends . They had encouraged her to propose to Sylvia and they were the only people that Dorothea let in after their breakup. A big part of the reason she is trying to move on. 

im sure i’ll think of more later lolol 

WORK IN PROGRESS

e x t r a s

- She’s a violinist and an actor at the local theater. When she isn’t working at the café, that’s usually where you can find her! -After their breakup, there was a time where Dorothea absolutely isolated herself from everyone. She’s coming back out of her shell though, determined to move on ( or so she says )  - Honestly, she is very much still in love with Sylvia but the denial absolutely crushed her and now she can’t help but have her guard up every time she’s near the woman.  - A bit of a shy person but warms up very easily! -Can’t flirt to save her life bless her soul -She’s a really good cook! Loves sharing Indian cuisine with her friends.  -Her excuse to why she stays at the Sylvia’s café is that she she can’t bear to leave the cats. While that is partially true, she just has an incredibly heard time letting go of the last thing holding her to Sylvia's life. 

[queenmylovely]

Wedding Party III

Summary: Ben hardy x fem!reader. The night before the wedding is for the bachelorette party and the bachelorette party only, right? 

Word Count: 2.9k

Warnings: cussing, building tension, flirty texting, spoiler alert: heavy make-out section (very light smut, no underwear is removed, pretty much just descriptive grinding lol) 

A/N: Part 3 to part 3 of the celebration! Thank you so much again to everyone who follows me, including the people that have since I hit 500, cause it’s been quite a minute. This one’s a little shorter, but it gets the job done I think. Make sure to catch reader’s Freudian slip lol. Yell at me if you must. Any feedback is super appreciated but especially replies, messages, and asks are super helpful for my writing ‘cause I get to hear what you think!

Part I, Part II, Part IV, Mini i, Mini ii, Masterlist

(dorky cutie, gif by @catspawzz-yeahyeahyeahthedrummer​) 

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How you were up at 3:00am the night before your best friend’s rehearsal dinner and subsequent bachelorette party was beyond you. Well, it wasn’t really beyond you because you knew why. It was that damn Ben. You and he had been texting since that first game night and some nights it lasted until one of you fell asleep in the very early morning, phone in hand.

It stayed… mostly friendly, but every so often it ventured towards flirtation, which you thoroughly appreciated. But then the morning would come and one of you would inevitably make the switch back to just friendly. All in person interactions followed the same type of pattern. A couple more game nights as each other’s partners, dinner parties sitting across from each other and sharing looks and laughs, and brunches with free flowing mimosas and bloody mary’s that turned you both into tipsy, touchy flirts were enough to make both of you desperately want a quick fuck in a wedding reception bathroom (or anyplace and anytime sooner), and maybe more too.

In any sort of wedding related event, the two of you were paired up, and usually by the happy couple themselves. It was some sort of sweet torture that the two of you were walking together. You both greatly enjoyed spending so much time together, talking, flirting, whatever, but the damn rules were always on the edge of your minds.

Not that either of you knew the other was aware of the rules as well. Ben had the tiniest inkling that you might be, but he didn’t want to risk bringing it up in case you didn’t because he would’ve been a little embarrassed. You were completely clueless and were more focused on not breaking the rules than figuring out if Ben had any idea about it, because boy was it getting hard not to break them.

Anyway, it was 3:00am and you were struggling to keep your eyes open, but Ben’s texts always came right when they were about to close.

Ben: So what r u guys doing for Luce’s party?

Y/N: umm i think that’s a secret

Ben: A secret? I already told u what we’re doing 😤

Y/N: that’s on you bud

Ben: Rude

Ben: Whatever it is try not to get too drunk so I don't have to deal with u complaining of a hangover at the wedding

Y/N: says the guy who shows up to most of the brunches hungover or half drunk from the night before. besides, it’ll be hard to get drunk when i don’t have my personal drink maker there

Ben: Ah ur dependent on me now? No one else does it quite like me?

Y/N: that’s right, hardy. no one else keeps me filled up the way you do, it’s why i keep you around

Y/N: *my cup

Ben: It’s not the stimulating conversation or my charming good looks?

Y/N: those help, but no it’s your usefulness as a personal bartender

Ben: If I’m ur personal bartender, where are my tips?

Y/N: i’ll settle up after the wedding

Ben: Looking forward to it

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About 16 hours and a rehearsal and rehearsal dinner later, the wedding party was splitting into two groups for the respective bachelor and bachelorette parties.

You saw the boys gathered by one of the tables where the rehearsal dinner had been. Lucy and Rami were talking so everyone was taking a minute before it was time to leave. From where you were you could see Joe and Sami talking in hushed tones and counting what looked like a few hundred dollars in bills ranging from ones to twenties.

Catching Ben’s eye as he was scowling at you, you couldn’t help but laugh. Since he had told you that they were going on a chartered boat that had been set up for poker, you knew exactly what the money was for. Ben walked quickly over to you, crossing his arms and giving you a look once he got there.

When he didn’t say anything you asked, “Can I help you?”

“You haven’t told anyone have you?” Ben asked, still frowning. The little crease between his eyebrows and the slight pout of his lips made it hard to remember to answer his question.

“Of— of course not, I’m not gonna risk ruining the surprise for Rami,” you said, placing your hand on his still crossed forearm before smirking and saying, “Unlike you.”

Ben’s frown deepened for a second and you worried if you had been too mean, but then he just started laughing. You joined in and both of you took a step closer without realizing.

“Shut up,” Ben said, still chuckling.

You looked up at him with a challenge in your eyes and replied, “Make me.”

Ben suppressed a groan and looked down at you, biting his lip. There were a few seconds of heated silence and you felt yourself moving closer to Ben as he was doing the same.

“Y/N, we’re ready to head out, are you?” Emma called from where she and the rest of the bridesmaids were.

Ben cleared his throat and you turned around to tell her yeah. Then you turned back to Ben, putting your hand on his arm again, “See you tomorrow, then.”

“Have fun, be safe,” he told you.

“You too, don’t go falling off the boat,” you said with a smile that he returned.

Then he leaned down and kissed your cheek quickly, saying bye as he stepped back and you waved before turning around and following the group out the door.

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The bachelorette party was set up at your apartment because it was bigger than Emma’s and so that it could maintain the surprise for Lucy. It had required a bit of thinking for you and Emma to figure out what to do because Lucy didn’t want to go to a stripclub or anything of the like. Plus, since she was having the party the night before her wedding, she didn’t want a wicked hangover. She also wanted her mom, aunt, and young cousin to come, so it had to be something that they could participate in too.

Everyone went inside, seeing the multiple tables set up in the living room, wondering aloud what the plan was. It was only a couple minutes before there was a knock on the door. Just outside, there were two women wearing aprons that you let in with a smile.

Emma stood up to introduce them, “Everyone, this is Katy and Jay, they’ll be teaching us how to make cocktails tonight!”

Everyone exclaimed happily, and you were glad to see Lucy smiling brightly in excitement. You went to the kitchen and wheeled out a bar cart that had all of the equipment, alcohol, and mixers that would be needed. There were enough tables for everyone to be in pairs, and you were paired with Lucy so that Emma could be with her cousin, May.

One from each pair grabbed one of each of the items that Katy and Jay said to grab. The group included one pregnant bridesmaid, one who just didn’t drink, and the fourteen year old May, so your instructors had planned drinks that would still be good without alcohol.

The class ended up being a lot of fun; they taught different types of martinis, spritzes, mojitos, and G&T’s, so that by the time they were all made and everyone that was drinking tried them all, it was enough to be more than a little tipsy.

Jay and Katy took their leave after many thanks and promises of more cocktail parties in the future. Then you announced the next part of the evening.

“It-- it is now time for a fashion ex-- extara--vangza!” you exclaimed, stumbling over the long word and causing everyone to crack up with you.

Then Emma came out of your room, pulling, along with the help of her mom and aunt, two giant racks of clothes that you and she had spent the past few weeks collecting at different thrift and second-hand stores. You had gotten old wedding dresses, prom dresses, funky patterned shirts, bohemian skirts, oversized blazers with giant shoulder pads, sparkly bralettes, and everything in between.

Seeing the clothes, Lucy jumped up and ran over, immediately looking through them and soon there was a little crowd around the racks.

Emma tried to shout over everyone, “We have seven minutes to create an entire outfit and then we will have our fashion show! Don’t worry, this is only the first of many!”

The whole affair was full of laughs, shouts of excitement, and a couple quick arguments over who got what. Then the runway had to be prepared, which meant turning on the color changing LED lights you had and turning on a playlist of Beyoncé, ABBA, Rihanna, Adele, Lizzo, Lady Gaga, Billie Eilish, and Queen, though only the upbeat songs.

Everyone did their best struts down the runway and then posed strikingly at the end, channeling their inner model. The crowd said their oohs and ahhs and clapped for each one. You and Emma took turns modelling and being a photographer each round so that all of the outfits were captured during their walk.

After about five rounds, the fashion show devolved into a dance party where everyone was laughing and singing along with the songs.

Around midnight, you lost Lucy’s mom, her aunt, and May to tiredness. And once the first group had left, it wasn’t long before others started leaving as well. By 12:30am, the only ones left were Lucy and Emma, to help clean up. But you both tried to make Lucy sit and relax since she was the bride and shouldn’t have to clean up after her own party. She refused and helped anyway, hanging up the clothes that had gotten left on the couches and floor. Though a lot of them ended up in a large tote bag she found in your room that she planned to take home with her.

Once all the trash was thrown away, the dishwasher was running, and the last stray glittery shirt was hung up, you ushered Emma and Lucy out the door with hugs, kisses, and reminders to get a good night’s sleep.

You flopped on your couch, tired out but also somehow wired with energy and you debated over watching one episode of TV or just going to sleep. You were reaching to grab the remote to turn off the music when there was a knock at the door.

Rolling your eyes and smiling on the way, you unlocked it and threw it open, the question, “What, did you realize you left one of the pairs of cute trousers behind?” halfway out of your mouth before you realized that it wasn’t Lucy and Emma.

“Ben,” you said in surprise. Probably the last person you were expecting at this moment was Ben, but there he was, in dark jeans and a plain white t-shirt that fit him too well to leave anything to your imagination, his hair a little messy like he had been running his hands through it and his cheeks flushed pink due to what you could only assume was alcohol.

You opened the door wider and let him in, after you remembered to stop just staring at him and trying to imagine what he’d look like with those clothes off.

Ben smiled at you sweetly and said hi. Then he looked you up and down and a brief look of confusion crossed his face.

You looked down at yourself and realized that you were still wearing one of the sequin bralettes, a black mesh t-shirt underneath that, a high waisted neon purple skater skirt, and a houndstooth yellow and pink blazer with shoulder pads. Chuckling at yourself, you explained, “Oh, we had a fashion show.”

As the two of you walked into your living room, Ben nodded in understanding.

“Sit. How was the boat? Who won big in poker?” you asked as you sat on your feet, kneeling. You asked a little more enthusiastically than usual, but you were still kinda tipsy.

“Boat was good. Ummm I think maybe Rami won, yeah, he has a good poker face, he’s a good actor. Has an Oscar, you know,” Ben rambled, and you nodded with a smile as you thought that he must be kinda tipsy himself. Then he turned so he was facing you more and closed his eyes, shaking his head, “But we didn’t even play poker for long.”

“No?” you asked, leaning closer to him.

“No,” he said, opening his eyes slowly and smiling, “We did karaoke instead.”

“That sounds fun,” you whispered, looking down to his hand that was very close to yours. If you had been sober, you would’ve just looked, but you weren’t, so you grabbed it in yours and started playing with his fingers.

“Mmmm,” Ben hummed and you wondered whether it was in agreement to your statement or because he enjoyed what you were doing.

“What did you sing?” you asked curiously.

Ben flipped your hands so that he was the one doing the playing as he responded, “Me and Joe did a duet of ‘Greased Lightnin’’ from Grease. He was Danny and I was Kenickie.”

“Kenickie was always my favorite,” you commented, looking up from your hands to his eyes.

Ben looked up to your eyes as well, leaning in and asking, “Really?”

You moved closer too, and as you nodded, you felt his breath on your lips yet again.

This time, there were no interruptions and you closed the last few inches together, your lips finally meeting. The first kiss was soft, but the next one was a little more urgent, and the next even more so. Before you knew it, you were parting your mouth for Ben’s tongue and he was teasing along your lower lip, daring you to follow into his mouth.

You moaned as Ben’s hands came to your waist and he helped you straddle his lap. Your hands went to his chest and down to his stomach, feeling the taught muscles that you had seen through his shirt. Ben pushed your blazer off your shoulders and then one of his hands moved to tangle in your hair and the other slid lower and underneath your skirt to your ass

Breaking the kiss, you instead moved to placing kisses along his jaw then down his neck, scraping your teeth lightly on his pulse point and making Ben shudder. He moved his hands back to your waist and pushed down, at the same time grinding his hips up into you from below. You gasped and moaned, feeling his hardness pressing against you through only your underwear.

Kissing back up to his mouth, you bit his lower lip, getting a groan and another grind of his hips in return. Your hands slid up his torso and then to his hair, tugging it lightly and Ben continued to help you move with him as he moaned. Each pass of his hard cock on your clothed pussy made you a little more desperate for more and you whined whenever he grazed your clit.

When you tilted your head back in pleasure, Ben took the opportunity to move to your neck, kissing down the column of your throat before starting a search for your sweet spot. He found it quickly, and started sucking, but as good as it felt, you had to stop him.

“Ben, no marks, the wedding.”

Just that simple sentence knocked the sense back into both of you and you each leaned back, your hands all moving to your own sides.

“We can’t do this,” you said in unison, and then looked at each other in confusion.

“Wait--” you started.

“What--” Ben said at the same time.

“Why can’t we?” you asked him, a few thoughts falling into place as you remembered that initial conversation when Lucy had singled out Ben.

“Well, I’m just not supposed to-- I mean, I probably shouldn’t say…” he trailed off awkwardly and you got off his lap quickly, pacing in front of the couch as you came to a conclusion.

“Did Lucy tell you not to sleep with me?” you asked, turning to Ben quickly.

“No, well yes, well kind of. I guess it’s fine. Rami told me not to sleep with anyone from the wedding party, he didn’t single out you. But I assumed that Lucy felt the same way,” Ben said sheepishly, a blush covering his cheeks.

“Don’t be embarrassed, Lucy told me not to sleep with anyone either. Except she did single you out. She excused that it was because we’re walking together, but it’s probably because we’re both sluts. Nice to know I’ve got an ally out here,” you said wryly but when you looked over at Ben he just looked very confused. You quickly added, “That wasn’t meant as an insult.”

“No, it’s fine. I’m just surprised that they would go to such lengths. And I’m a little mad,” he commented.

You nodded and flopped back down on the couch next to him, “Yeah, me too, but I can see their point.”

Both of you sighed and then laughed.

“And we probably shouldn’t do anything tonight?” you asked, wanting his agreement, because you were close to just saying fuck it and doing something anyway.

“Yeah, we probably shouldn’t tonight,” he said, facing you and you could see that there was still a healthy amount of desire in his eyes. “But I make no promises for the reception.”

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Playlist for Everything

READ “EVERYTHING” ON AO3

This post is going to be extra af, but I am really inspired by music and am so in love with how perfectly some of these songs fit in with feeling of this story. I just want to yell loudly about how much I love some of these songs 😂

Here’s the link to the playlist (YouTube)

Below the cut  = more details and some highlights of the lyrics for each song!

TL;DR: If I had to narrow it down to only a few songs that really capture the essence of the story, they would be (in order of importance):

1. Unfold by Alina Baraz and Galimatias 2. Lights Out by Ayelle and Sonn 3. Strange by Kris Bowers feat Hilary Smith 4. I Miss You by Adele 5. The Bitter Suite III: Embrace by The Dear Hunter

1. The Bitter Suite III: Embrace by The Dear Hunter

Darkness Hesitation I fell into her arms Breathe in, this is amazing Breathe out, this is amazing She removed her clothes and all of the world shined Now that we're alone, all of the world shines First hot breath, then cold hands Intrusion, but aware The fire inside was alight, and she bloomed I never knew life could ever be this good The distant sighs, the clothes on the floor The bedding a mess, she sings for more We fall beneath the sea in the back of our hearts, And fail to breathe until we resurface again.

So I’m just in love with this band. They have a series of albums (Act I - V) that tell a story throughout all of the songs (they are AMAZING and I highly recommend). In this song, the main character loses his virginity to a woman he later falls in love with, and I just thought this song perfectly captures the overall experience really well. Plus, the bass riff that starts around the 5 minute mark is absolutely beautiful/emotional in a way that I can’t quite explain. 

2. Come Here by Sabrina Claudio 

I'm dying to see you You know what I'm fiending for The only one to get to me Only one to get this close So I want you to come here I want you to come here I just need you near

This one is more about the sensual vibe of the music, but the lyrics are also pretty fitting.

3. Speechless by Beyonce

Goin' out my head I think I'm losin' all my mind (all my mind) Drive me crazy burning candles, makin' love all night (all night) Feels so strange, it feels so crazy to be in your world (in your world) In your arms lost for words, you got me (you got me) Speechless

This one is pretty obvious when you listen to it hahaha

4. Unfold by Alina Baraz and Galimatias

Cover my thoughts in gold I'm your flower, watch me unfold My vulnerability, letting you consume me The parts of me that eyes can't see The glowing underneath Picking off the petals I'll let you if you're gentle This kind of love we can't control The art of touch, I am covered in gold I know that you feel me now No I'm never going down The parts of me buried underneath The glowing, don’t you see? I know that you feel me now

This is one of the songs I am OBSESSED WITH, especially in relation to this story. Such beautiful lyrics and just a beautiful song in general with that perfectly slow, sexy/sensual vibe.

5. I Miss You by Adele

I want every single piece of you I want your heaven and your oceans too Treat me soft but touch me cruel I wanna teach you things you never knew, baby Bring the floor up to my knees Let me fall into your gravity Then kiss me back to life to see Your body standing over me I love the way your body moves Towards me from across the room Brushing past my every groove No one has me like you do, baby Bring your heart, I'll bring my soul But be delicate with my ego I wanna step into your great unknown With you and me setting the tone

I’ve always loved this song and how sexy/emotional it is. The beat (especially around the 30 second mark when it really starts) is ON POINT.

6. Until It Hurts by Fransisca Hall

Undress these beautiful lies Blind me with animal eyes Carve your heart into mine Carve your heart into mine Brush me with venomous lips Tear me to passionate strips Stir up the beast inside Stir up the beast inside Take me for all I'm worth Touch me until it hurts

7. The End by JPOLND

Keep your breath on me And keep keep keep going 'Til my body is free Keep your eyes on me And keep keep keep going 'Til I'm the last thing you see Keep your touch on my skin And keep keep keep going Keep keep keep going...

8. Show Me by Alina Baraz and Galimatias

Rising like the smoke You linger on me You got me so high I can finally breathe You're walking poetry It's what you do to me It's what you do to me Touch me with no hands Hold me with your eyes Unwind me with your mind tonight Speak with no words Show me and I'm all yours

ANOTHER PERFECTLY FITTING SONG. The beat/sexy vibe + lyrics UGH.

9. Strange by Kris Bowers feat Hilary Smith

This is an instrumental track from the Bridgerton soundtrack that played when the main couple makes love for the first time. I just thought it was SO beautiful. One of those pieces that really makes you feel something without needing any words. I envisioned this to be playing during either the “everything” scene where he touches her face, or when they actually finally start making love. P.S. This is a cover of Strange by Celeste, which is also just as beautiful but the lyrics don’t really fit for the situation. Highly recommend checking it out though!

10. Vulnerable (David Luxe remix) by Tinashe

Once upon a time I was all alone How you like me now? Do I turn you on? Now I got you drunk, hot, and vulnerable Show me what you want, give me what you want, want Have to make you mine, get you on the floor Yeah, watch me go to work, I’ll put on a show

This is for when things start really heating up lol. It’s more about the sexy beat/vibe, but the lyrics are relatively fitting too. I like the original too, but this remix gets rid of the rap part which isn’t as appropriate for this use, plus I like the beat a bit better in the remix.

11. One in a Million by Aaliyah

So, no one else love me like you do That's why I don't mind to spend my life with you (with you) I want to please you in any way I can I want to share my world, don't you understand? Your love is one in a million It goes on and on and on You give me a really good feeling, all day long

Just kind of continuing the sexy vibe here, but the lyrics fit really well too.

12. Made to Love by John Legend

Oh I've never loved, I've never loved Never loved someone like this All-I-know is... I was sent here for you We were made to love We were made to love You were sent for me too We were made to love We were made to love

Again, needed a few songs that were a little faster for the sexier parts haha. The lyrics on this one are also pretty beautiful too.

13. Lights Out by Ayelle and Sonn

Talk about the way you wanna be You don't ever hesitate to say how All you wanna do is to be with me Taking it all in I wanna be with you 'til the sun rises In your eyes, in your eyes, in your eyes I wanna paint the moon with your eyelashes Paint the night, paint the night, paint the night Lights out

THIS ONE MIGHT BE MY FAVORITE ON THE WHOLE PLAYLIST (along with Unfold). This song is not only slow and sensual but the lyrics are BEAUTIFUL. I put it towards to the end because I think of it as when they’re coming down after and cuddling. Just imagine them looking into each other’s eyes being super in love. WARNING: If you are wearing headphones, there is a realistic knocking sound throughout the song that can be kind of alarming lol

14. I Don’t Wanna Miss a Thing (piano version) by Aerosmith

Don't want to close my eyes I don't want to fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, babe And I don't want to miss a thing

Ok so...I’m partial to this song because the full version is what my husband and I had our first dance to at our wedding. So this song will always give me major feels. BUT I included this special piano version specifically, because just like Strange, it evokes a certain beautiful feeling of romance without needing the extra words. Just to wrap up the end with that warm fuzzy feeling of love

If anyone actually read this.....THANK YOU. It really means a lot to me ❤️

[incorrecttwoset]

Lesson time with Dani:

I think the lesson we all learned here today is that I probably shouldn't look down on kpop too much. But then, I have listened to a lot of vocaloid and read along with the lyrics which get pretty intense sometimes. I would give examples but Prof. Nic has gone through many a phase and I cannot remember all of them. (And some i dont want to remember)

So, lets get on with the... songs? Pieces? Lyrics? Shall we?

1. Opera: Verdi - La Travita, Aria: Sempre Libera (Always Free), Character: Violetta. Lol i seriously thought that this was a pop song I havent heard of. But when i realized how this game was gonna go, aka when they revealed that it was opera and a translation thing, i stepped up my guessing game. But like SERIOUSLY THOOOOO. Who could've known? (Probably the singer or a person who actually understands the language) But damn son. Quiz-sama ain't playin aROUND.

2. Pop: Arianna Grande - Imagine. When i read the lyrics, i knew iMMEDIATELY. Why wouldn't I when I live with a sister who blared this fucking sing day in and out. (No offense sis, no offense Arianna) But like, when i saw that Twoset thought this was an opera? Oh bOI. Thank goodness I'm great at controlling my reactions. Because fam, I would've laughed my ass off in disbelief like what the fuck. I'd understand Brett's ignorance but Eddy too? Damn. (Brett's lofi intensifies)

3. Pop: Billie Eilish - . I honestly thought that this was like- okay, my thought process had phases. First sentence I thought "okay this sounds like that one Arianna Grande song." When I got to the "set fire" part, I thought "adele?" And then when i read "burn", i thought "is this that really old song? The "and im gonna let it burn burn burn" thing?" As you can see, all my song guesses were wrong. At least I got the genre. And like me, the bois were learning. (Cue that bear grylls meme)

4. Opera: Tchaikovsky- Eugene Onegin, Aria: Ya lyublyu vas, Olga (I love you, Olga), Character: Lensky. Like what Eddy said, this one's pretty obvious. Also, "I can see why people like opera now. I'm getting old." "Why yes, I do love opera as well." I say, a not legally an adult person. But like, seriously tho. Opera is good. Granted, I havent listened to a lot and to be frank the only opera I've listened to all the way is the Magic Flute but like- its good stuff. Only thing I want is to be able to appreciate it better. (Also check out Patricia Janeckova's recording of the Doll Song. I love it, its wonderful)

5. Opera: Donizetti - Lucia di Lammermoor, Aria: Il Dolce Suono (The Sweet Sound), Character: Lucia. I'll admit that Eddy's singing threw me off a lil but I guessed opera. With... not a lot of conviction. Sounded like something Lana del Rey would write okay.

6. Opera: Mozart - Don Giovanni, Aria: Madamina, il catalogo e questo (Dear lady, this is the list), Character: Leporello. I thought that this was either some really obscure rap, or weird opera. I couldn't decide so I just let it play out. When I saw it was opera, I was confused. Then, I wasn't because I saw that Mozart wrote it. I swear, Mozart would make a killing as a rapper or some kind of foulmouthed idol if he was born in modern times. Also, small Edwina and Brettany cameo!!!!!

7. Opera: Bizet - Carmen, Aria: Tout Doux, Moniseur (Softly, Sir), Character: Carmen. Honestly, by this point of the video (when I watched it for the first time) I was just straight guessing opera. Although, if the lyrics were rephrased, this line could fit in perfectly somewhere in a pop song. And also, I did not expect the dRAMATICNESS of the singing when they played that excerpt. Like, wOW OKAY. I mean it makes sense for Carmen as a character... and the language they used it in... and the style of opera... okay I really can't say anything about the extraness can I?

8. Pop: Billie Eilish - No time to die. I knew it was pop. (Rhyme scheme and lyric pattern and subject matter too predictable babey) But the fact that it was by Billie Eilish was what confused me. Idky, but them lyrics givin me Taylor Swift vibes. Or Lana del Rey vibes if you slow it down and make it "dreamy".

9. KPOP: Blackpink - Kill this love. This one was sUUUUUPER ambiguous to me. It was very eloquent and poetic in a sense. But then it also gave out pop vibes. I couldn't answer though I leaned more towards opera. But when i saw that it was Blackpink's Kill this love? My brain melted out my ears. I mEAN ITS IN KOREAN ITS A TRANSLATION THING. That still doesn't excuse the fact that im very- aSDFGHJKL about it.

10. Opera: Dvorak - Rusalka, Aria: Mesicku na nebi hublokem (Song to the moon), Character: Rusalka. This one was very obviously opera to me. But dem kpop lyrics threw me for a loop man! I went opera but yall, I was dOUBTING.

11. Pop: Charlie Puth - Attention. Was there really any need to guess this one? Although, if you've never been exposed to pop music and are hearing them for the first time then thats okay. We're all learning.

12. Opera: Mozart - Cosi Fan Tutte (All Women Do It), Aria: In Uomini in Soldati (In men, in soldiers), Character - Despina. I sincerely thought that this was a really obscure rap. And I wasn't surprised when it said that Mozart wrote this opera. (His creepy smiling face tho...)

13. Pop: Justin Bieber - Sorry. Like I said in number 11, was there really any need to guess. And Brett's (albeit braindead) singing of Super Junior's Sorry Sorry is- aUGHCK MY STAN HEART. I WAS ALREADY SLAUGHTERED BY HIM WEARING THE VIOLIN BUTTON UP AND HIS ADORABLENESS AND HIS DADDYNESS OTHER NON ADORABLE QUALITIES. Ughhhhh. Jesus christ i really have to simp for Brett in each of these posts huh?

14. Pop: Taylor Swift - Delicate. I thought that this was fOR SURE an Arianna Grande song. Because of that one song with the sleep thing. But ugh, Eddy's assumption of the song was just too good not to be mentioned. (And also because i need to fill these paragraphs but like- dat voice dow) And oh gOD SEEING THEM LAUGH TOGETHER AND VIBE LIKE THAT? IM- wow look I just died of blood loss.

15. KPOP: BTS - On. Brett picking opera and falling off his chair is me. Quiz-sama. Mercy. Mercy pLEASE. Dude, translated kpop is intense.

Also editor-san was on fIRE TONIGHT. The sass was very string today. Fuck, i LOVE IT. Wait. Holy shit I just realized something. Editor-san, subtitler-san, and quiz-sama. The holy trinity of subtle twoset humor and behind the screen action. The cast is huge and i am a simp for all of them.

[duniaellis]

The Untold Story

"Mas, kayanya aku gak akan tinggal di jogja lagi deh."

I remember that day when I started a conversation with him. To which he replied, "Lah nanti yang nemenin aku di sini siapa?"

I'd been knowing him for years but it was never in my mind that I would get closed to him. I never cared about him. And so did he. Until we hit the same event which led us to get closer.

We texted almost everyday and met frequently. Sometimes we had a phone call at midnight or it was just me asking him to help me out to stay awake due to my supervision the next day.

I like throwing jokes and he's that kind of people who often jokes around and makes his surrounding laugh. And we had this internal joke that only us would understand. We often laughed together and called each other "jayus".

We were different in many ways. But at some point, we had the same basic principal which kept us stick to each other. When something didn't go well, sometimes I called him "cowok brengsek" or "cowok bajingan". (Little did I know, it could be considered as name calling to which it's not healthy in a relationship). Then he answered, "Aku tuh salah apa sih, Lis, sama kamu? Kamu kok kaya benci banget sama aku," It sounded like I hate him so much but I swear to God I didn't hate him at all. I don't. And never will.

He totally had no idea how much I lost my appetite when we no longer got along well. I tried to cheer me up by going to the movies but I ended up having no idea what the movie was all about because my mind couldn't just stop thinking how he's doing and questioning how many mistakes I made to make him left without a single word. I guess it all started when he said in a text, "Kamu kan gitu. Pacar gak sopan. Gak bales wasap. Gak ngasih kabar," and I was like, "Hahaha" and sent him a kiss emoticon in a hope that we would make peace afterwards. We did get back. But I guess what he said wasn't just joking.

It was uncomfortable not to talk to him that long so I tried to reach him out. But he never sent me back. I was tired of thinking how bad I was not being able to make him stay. I was so confused and tried to let it be. Two months later, someone told me he's with someone new. As soon as I knew it, I couldn't function well and it felt like knives stabbing in my chest. We practically didn't break up because there's no so-called "kata putus". But then I realized, we might also have never been in a date because I didn't literally say yes when he asked me "Lis, pacaran yuk." Instead, I joked around, "Haha enak aja w pelarian dong." I kept telling myself that we were never that closed despite the fact that we spent more than a year going thru thick and thin together (especially he supported and accompanied me during my thesis and thesis defense).

He's such a whole package. He's funny, kind, clever, wise, caring, hard worker, and good looking lol. He's raised the bar high for me in seeing future bf, I guess? If I could have the chance to tell him the truth, I would thank him for taking care of me and treating me well. And if only I could turn back the time, I would never replace the part of being together with him. I was happy to be supported by him during my hardest time. It was a good time after all.

Now he looks so happy with his wife. I will not bother thinking the what ifs I happened to be with him. I'm totally fine and I've made peace with everything. Last but not least, I learn a lot from this.

*singing adele's someone like you in the background *

**kenapa lirik lagunya bisa accurate gitu:))**

P.S ini terjadi beberapa tahun yg lalu jadi saya sekarang sudah biasa saja menulisnya tidak sampai merasa tersayat-sayat seperti dahulu bye

[littlemissnellie]

Aaaaah! Hi guys!

First of all I’ve got to apologise for the lack of Golgotha Manor posts recently, I promise they’re coming, it’s just that I’ve been a little preoccupied with putting this together…

Not too long ago I managed to hit 250 followers, which is absolutely insane, I literally cannot find the words to thank you all for following along with my mess of a blog. So I thought that I’d put a little something together for you to try to show my gratitude!

I was going to do sim requests again, like when I hit 150 followers, but tbh my sim requests are always open, I’ll make you any sim, any time, lol. So instead, I thought that I’d make some sims of my own for you to use however you please!

So yes, here are my babies! I’ll put their little intros and cc links under the cut and if you actually want to download them, they’re up on the gallery and my origin id is: cherrygorilla.

I really hope that you like them, guys! And if you actually do choose to download any of them, please keep me updated on their lives in your save, I’m too attached to my bbies and would loooooove to know what they’re up to!

Thank you again for 250! I love you guys so much, thank you for sticking by me all this time! And here’s all the info for my bbies…

Oakley Forrester

Aspiration: Freelance Botanist

Traits: Cheerful, Loves Outdoors & Insider

Oakley Forrester is a quiet, relatively shy soul with a strong passion for gardening. He’s had a green thumb practically since he came out of the womb and would always be found playing in his mum’s greenhouse amongst the tomatoes. Besides his beloved plants he doesn’t have a great deal of friends, well none that are his age anyway. He may be the youngest member of the gardening club by about forty years, but he doesn’t mind at all. The homemade jams, weekly bingo-night updates and just general company he gets whenever they see each other at the local allotment never fails to warm his heart. He just needs to find the right person to bring him out of his shell and away from his planter boxes for a little while to show him that there’s more to life that compost and cream teas…

CC: Freckles, Floppy Hat

Adele Circuit

Aspiration: Computer Whiz

Traits: Genius, Perfectionist, Squeamish

Adele Circuit is completely obsessed with all things technology. She’s always been fascinated by buttons and screens, but it wasn’t until she hit school and actually started learning about computing that her passion really took off. No one would ever be able to tell when she’s majorly geeking out over a new piece of software though with her signature, cold air that often gets her mistaken for a huge bitch. A lot of people are pretty intimidated by her, but not because of her computer-prodigy intelligence, because of her apparent constant grumpiness. Once you take the time to get to know her though, and listen to her rave about binary coding, you’ll quickly find that she’s just a big softie with a resting bitch-face. She knows the ins and outs of every computer system, but anything outside of that, like getting to know a fellow human is waaaayyy out of her comfort zone…

CC: Freckles, Lipstick, Eyeliner (03), Glasses, Choker, Nail Polish

Evie Roberts

Aspiration: Public Enemy

Traits: Clumsy, Hot-Headed, Kleptomaniac

Evie Roberts is the greatest evil mastermind to have ever lived. At least that’s what she wants you to think. In reality, she can barely run twenty feet without tripping over her own two feet. She doesn’t let her clumsiness deter her though, her fiery passion for wreaking havoc burns nonetheless. And besides, the mishaps she gets herself into, and the various injuries that they leave her with, just make her look even more menacing. And when you have a baby-face like Evie, you need all the help you can get to strike terror into your enemies’ hearts. The whole reason that Evie turned to crime is down to her face really, and her determination to shed the happy-go-lucky, pretty, girl-next-door persona that everyone seems to have pinned on her. But will her short temper, knack for stealing and desperation to be bad be enough to persuade the world that she’s not the big sweetheart they all know that she is on the inside?

CC: Leggings, Black Eye I’ve put a different one on her on the gallery, which is here, Hat, Eyeliner, Hair, Lipstick, Nail Polish, Skirt

Ryker Bass

Aspiration: Party Animal

Traits: Dance Machine, Noncommittal, Outgoing

Ryker Bass still wants to believe that he’s in high school because that’s what’s easiest for him. In high school he had friends around him at all times, he had a secure routine and he had a promise of hope for the future. Now all he really has is…himself. He may have had the time of his life in high school, but that’s because he wasted all of his time there, and now he wants nothing more than to just turn back the clock. Homework was a totally foreign concept to him, a red solo cup was extremely familiar though. In fact, one was practically glued to his hands. But all that meant was that he wound up with nothing more than some pretty good dance moves and very few qualifications. Without any guidance from school, and because his partying habit has destroyed his relationship with his success-driven parents, Ryan, who now goes by Ryker because it makes him feel cool, is left drifting from place to place, from job to job, from friend to friend, from relationship to relationship, with no idea of where his life is going. He needs a little more than a crazy hair colour and ‘bad boy’ name to help him find out who he really is though…

CC: Glasses, Freckles, Shoes, Jeans, Beard

Adagio Solo

Aspiration: Musical Genius

Traits: Music-Lover, Good, Romantic

Adagio Solo practically has melodies running through his veins, music is just a huge part of who he is. He can play the piano and guitar with a talent that just cannot be taught, he just has a magical touch when it comes to instruments, and his voice his a whole different game all together. Even when speaking his voice has a sort of musical quality that is so pleasing to the ears that the hairs on the back of your neck stand up to listen, so when he begins to sing it’s as if the notes are spinning themselves into the finest silk and wrapping around you until you feel that you’re as much a part of the song as Adagio is. When he’s not serenading his adoring fans, Adagio can usually be found rhapsodizing about love to…anyone that will listen really. Whether it’s about his latest ventures into the romantic field, or the bewilderment that the rest of the world won’t just forget about conflict and join together in love and harmony really depends on the day though. And with his endless charisma and silky-smooth voice, it seems that Adagio can charm anything that breathes. That might not always be the case though…

CC: Denim Jacket

Katie Kapital

Aspiration: City Native

Traits: Gloomy, Vegetarian, Art Lover

“Yes, that is Captial with a ‘K’. Alliteration provides a lot of hidden depth.” is something that can usually be heard tumbling from Katie’s red-painted lips, which are almost always fixed into a pained frown of despair. You see, her surname wasn’t always spelt with a ‘K’, but when she discovered her 'true calling in life’ was literature, she felt that her lifestyle should coordinate. Her ventures into the world of poetry seem to have made the biggest impact on her though, and, contrary to what her friends will tell you, it’s not because the coffee is free on slam poetry night. When she’s not depicting her first-world struggles through rhyme, she can usually be found crying over a lack of vegetarian options or just nothing at all. Will she ever be able to get her priorities in check, or will she be an emotional, hipster mess forever?

CC: Necklace, Hat (I don’t think this is the exact one, but it’s pretty much the same), Leggings, Moles, Lipstick, Cropped Jumper, Glasses, Eyeshadow, Eyeshadow (2), Hair, Earrings, Jeans, Nail Polish, Skirt

Once again, thank you sooooo much for 250 and I hope that you like my bbies! Let me know your favourite! I love you guys!

[spaceorphan18]

Finding Kurt Hummel: A Katy or a Gaga

Masterpost

5x04: A Katy or a Gaga

It’s about this time that Glee decided - I just don’t give a fuck anymore.  And that’s fine by me because I actually love these super cracky episodes of season 5.  And underneath all the crazy jokes, there’s a bit of heart and a bit deeper story, you just have to go looking.  Now - I will say that it’s silly to me to compare Katys and Gagas, because the two artists aren’t all that different.  I’d say the two of them vs Adele is probably a more striking difference in presentation.  But as the end of the episode states - who cares about any of it.  It’s arbitrary anyway.  Just be true to whatever your weird self brings forth.  

That One Time Kurt Hummel Started a Band

So, we all thought the rumors were a joke until we actually saw the episode.  That’s right, Kurt Hummel decided to start his own Madonna cover band! And then he decided one dude singing Madonna was a bit limited, so he decided to open it up to letting girls in - which makes it easy as he has three girls ready and available.  Or - two and a half, as Rachel isn’t really ready to do much more than focus on her Funny Girl Broadway stint.  (Why she isn’t focusing all of her attention on that is beyond me, but this isn’t about Rachel.) 

So, let’s break this down.  Is Kurt starting a band really out of nowhere?  No, I don’t really think so.  I mean it is mentioned at the end of Tina in the Sky with Diamonds, lol.  But really - he tells Rachel that she shouldn’t just let life pass you by, and later on, he talks about attempting to do something a little more mainstream so to get better recognition.  So I think this is Kurt deciding - hey, life is too short, I need to get myself out there and seen, and I’d like to perform more.  Why not start something myself and make something out of it.  

(I have to wonder if this stems a little in part because Chris wouldn’t let the writers let Kurt be a writer (even if Kurt becomes a little bit of a writer.))  

Anyway - he is all enthusiasm and joy as he talks Santana, Dani, and Rachel into it.  But, it’s funny, he’s still playing it a little safe asking them to join.  Would he have really taken the risk if he didn’t have three singers in his back pocket to join him? I don’t know...   

Meanwhile - let’s take a quick second and talk about Adam.  It’s a throwaway line, but one that does pack a bit into it.  See - I’m still guessing that Adam was still thinking things were just fine, if going really slowly.  And then Kurt goes away for spring break and comes back engaged to his ex.  I’m not surprised that Adam kicked him out of the Apples.  

So - Dani is totally in (bummer they never do anything with her).  Santana wants partial control, which Kurt is okay with (for the most part).  Rachel won’t be joining just yet - nor do I blame the girl.  And Kurt’s one happy kitty thinking this whole thing is in the bag.  

Enter Starchild, Stage Left

If this still doesn’t sum up Kurt and Santana’s relationship - I don’t know what would. 

Kurt’s scrapped together all of his tip money to rent out NYADA’s one room to hold band auditions.  (At this point, my main issue with NYC stuff is that it’s claustrophobic.  They have two sets. I mean they have the diner now, and new cast members help but sometimes it feels stifling.)  Anyway - I’m bypassing the implausibility that in all of New York /no one/ shows up to this indy band audition.  I mean - c’mon, you’ve seen American Idol and all the crazies that show up just to get ten seconds of fame.  

Now that I think of it, this whole American Idol-ish set up is purposeful, most likely, as Adam Lambert started there.  And there’s your real reason for Kurt’s band, folks.  

Anyway...  Santana wants to name the band The Apocalypsticks.  And Kurt’s having none of that.  Can you say -- this kid likes control? 

Man - all of Kurt’s facial expressions in this scene are priceless.  

So - we have our introduction to Adam Lambert’s Elliott “Starchild” Gilbert.  And he out Kurt Hummel’s Kurt in just about every way.  Which is probably why Kurt isn’t even at all open to the possibility.  

I mean, okay.  So Elliott comes in, looking crazy fab, in a costume he designed himself, and exudes confidence while still retaining an incredibly kind demeanor.  But on top of that, here’s a guy whose presence is noted the moment he walks in the room.  And Kurt’s still screaming to be heard.  Kurt thinks “competition” right off the bat, and dismisses Elliott before really even giving him a chance.  Hence the barbs about the clothes, and the disturbed looks throughout the performance.  

I don’t even like this song - and still love this performance.  Adam Lambert is amazing.  

Santana freaking loves it.  Kurt is all -- nope, and a bit of -- what is even going on.  It’s kind of hilarious to me that as much as Kurt has always considered himself as “out there” when he’s face with actual “out there” he’s a bit conservative about his ideals.  Kurt dismisses Elliott without even thinking about it (not even worrying about Santana’s threats to bitch slap him) on the basis that Elliot, and his look, is too much.  But the underlying thing is that this band is about Kurt - and Kurt doesn’t want to be overshadowed by someone who not only shines as a performer, but has the possibility of completely outshining him. And Kurt’s insecurities get the best of him. 

Role Reversal 

Okay, so I really love this scene.  Why? because it’s flipped from every other Hummelberry scene that we usually get.  Kurt’s the one having a crisis of character and Rachel is the one to help doing the emotional lifting.  Was that so hard show? Was it? Here’s a Hummelberry I can get behind.  

But SO? Isn’t it hypocritical that you only like Hummelberry when it’s in Kurt’s favor? YUP!  Actually - I like Hummelberry fine, it just got tedious as a Kurt fan watching every plot line start with a Kurt story and end with a Rachel story and/or Kurt playing the “gay best friend” there to support Rachel.  It’s nice that they give Kurt an actual story line and let Rachel play the supporting role.  

Anyway.  Rachel’s heard from Santana that Kurt doesn’t want to share the “lavender lime light” with Elliott.  Rachel calls him out on possibly being jealous or wanting the band’s attention all to himself.  Kurt counters - saying that’s not really what it is (though that is a part of it), but more so that he wants to try to be something that fits in, that’s mainstream, that is easily accessible.  And Elliott, and all his Elliott glory, would not work for that.  

It’s interesting that this pulls on some threads from season 3 - mostly that Kurt feels like he can’t appeal to a mass demographic and because of that it’ll hold him back.  And it’s such a fascinating thing because when you look at it from a Doylist POV - this quickly, gay character is not only now a leading role (and the leading male role), but also lead role in a romance story. Oh Kurt - if you could only view your life like the rest of us can. 

I think also, interestingly, this is where the show itself decides to stop being the mainstream thing that everyone wanted it to be (or that it was in the beginning) and becomes the niche, cult show.  Own it Glee.  Own it.  

Anyway, Kurt laments, however, that all of this is hard.  Interestingly, he’s looking to the future, wanting the stability, and that there’s nothing wrong with wanting to take the easy way if possible.  It’s interesting because I think both Finn’s death and being engaged play a role in all of this.  I mean Kurt thinking about his future, and how he’s going to make it out there, and that you only live once - do what you can to secure your future stability is written all over it.  

Well, Rachel says what I’m thinking -- being different is always hard, but it’s better to be you, kiddo.   

Or -- in the language that this episode is going for -- Kurt’s a Gaga trying to be a Katy so he can be as successful as his friends because he thinks they’re Katys (even though they’re both Gagas.  Hm.) - but the fact that he is a Gaga frustrates him because he thinks he’s too specific and individual and niche to ever have success in a mainstream way.  But Rachel tells him that being a Gaga is awesome, and if he isn’t true to his Gaga self, then he’s never really gonna get anywhere.  And, maybe joining up with other Gagas instead of pushing them away isn’t such a bad thing.  (lol this paragraph)

Oh - and I should mention, because if I don’t someone will yell at me - Kurt’s sewing his own clothes.  Yup, skill Kurt Hummel has probably always had - in action.  Nice touch, Glee. 

On an Intermission

So - let’s talk about Kurt as a waiter.  Um.  He’s not very good at it, lol.  Oh Kurt - you should take a page out of Cooper Anderson’s book, and use serving as an opportunity to try out new things, like accents, and different personalities.  It’ll help you get through the day more -- promise.  

Anyway - after a lot of soul searching, Kurt decides that Rachel might be right, and Elliott would be helpful to his band instead of harmful.  And through TV magic, and Elliott desperately needing to be in Kurt’s band to fulfill his own bucket-list, Elliot’s there in the diner, toned down, and ready to play by Kurt’s rules.  Kurt, however, doesn’t need him to be toned down - just to be his authentic self because Kurt wants to be his authentic self, too, and they should both try that out together -- with everyone else in the band. 

(Also, we learn that Elliott is from New Jersey, land of malls, and he didn’t get into NYADA - because NYADA is apparently stupid.) 

So - Adam Lambert joins the cast for a tragically short amount of time. 

I also love that Santana comes along and tells Kurt to stop flirting because of his fiance back in Lima.  (And then gets all hot and excited when she learns who he’s talking to.) And this leads to an aside from me - look, I get there are a ton of Kurt/Elliott shippers out there.  I get it, they have a nice chemistry about them.  But I really love Kurt and Elliott’s friendship.  I kind of love that these two can be friends and there aren’t any romantic overtones to it.  But obvs. that’s just me. 

Pamela Lansbury

So.  I love this scene, it’s just quiet and snarky as they Kurt, Santana, Dani, and Elliott try to come up with names for the band.  “Queen” Kurt is shooting them all down, though.  Oh Kurt - your wanting to be in control will always be a part of you, won’t it.  Personally, I liked Aerola 51s, lol.  Anyway, I kinda wish we had more scenes like this - they’re so much fun. 

So, Rachel comes in, and magically comes up with Pamela Lansbury for the name.  Which.  Sure.  I mean, I get it - it makes sense for Kurt, especially the Lansbury part.  Not so sure about naming the band that has connotations to your future mother-in-law, but you don’t know that yet, do you ;) 

This is what crazy Kurt looks like.  Have we ever seen him make this face before?  I don’t know.  

Anyway - Kurt tries to get Rachel to join because sure -- she’s just dealing with the death of the person she thought she’d spend the rest of her life with, starring in a Broadway show, going to college, and working as a waitress -- but what’s a little side band, too? (I mean, god, even I think she needs a break.) But Kurt is magical and can talk her into it.  And bam -- Kurt will not even get to sing in his own band.  

(Seriously - why are Chris’s vocals not on this one? Fail, Glee.  And you were doing so well!) 

However, I still love Roar.  It’s my jam.  And even if Kurt doesn’t sing -- at least he’s having fun with the rope they managed to tie to the ceiling? Oh this show...

Gay, gay, gay, gay, Rachel.  <----------Season 5 NYC in a nutshell. 

I love season 5!  **YAY**

[deadcactuswalking]

REVIEWING THE CHARTS 2020: BRIT AWARDS SPECIAL

So, welcome to... a Tuesday? Yeah, it’s not exactly a usual time for me to post on this blog but it’s not just your everyday episode of REVIEWING THE CHARTS – That’s right, it’s the 40th ceremony in the annual BRIT Awards celebration, where we – or at least ITV – commemorate the greatest in British pop music. I’ll be celebrating in full force this year, but not by tweeting manically like I did last year – well, there will still be some tweeting; follow me @cactusinthebank – but instead by writing my live commentary right here. I did this a couple years back so I figured I’d bring it back again in traditional, over-analytical, unnecessarily nitpicky fashion. I’ve got an Excel document like I had last year to make not of who wins and compare it to who I think should win. I’m all prepared – it’s time for the 2020 BRIT Awards... unfortunately hosted by Jack Whitehall.

COMMENTARY

Interestingly (This is 10 minutes before the show begins), the International Group Award, Best British Video, Outstanding Contribution to Music and Global Success Awards have been abolished, and British Breakthrough Act, Critics’ Choice Award and British Single of the Year have all been renamed. Also, the BRITs caught flack for less female artists being nominated although last year there was a record amount nominated so I feel like sexism claims can’t really ring all that true in my opinion. It does often seem like male artists have dominated that year of pop music, just as it feel female artists have the previous year, and the BRITs have noticed that, so it just feels a tad lop-sided towards the males this year. I’m playing Devil’s advocate, sure, and I wouldn’t say 2019 has been a bad year for British women in music, but I am able to somewhat defend this decision. I feel like I’d just say that as a little pre-amble. In fact, I’ll add this: this will be less formal and grammatically correct than a normal RTC episode, and perhaps a bit less wholesome or family-friendly. Also, if none of this makes any sense, that’s because it’s out of context completely, and this will make absolutely no sense unless you’re watching it with me or had watched it prior to reading this, but that’s the joy in this! Scorecard at the ready, 19:58, it’s the BRITs in two minutes, and I am prepared to make fun of every issue I pick out.

Jack Whitehall is so unfunny lol Like Haha She Is Cleaning Lizzo Flute But He Look Like Masturbate Ha Ha

I feel like they did not know what they should do for this year

The intro with him trying out iconic BRIT Awards outfits is kinda cool actually

I wonder how far into the future they plan for these. Like are these skits pre-recorded by three months or so

Mabel didn’t really hit that note huh

I won’t really be paying attention to this one because I’m filling out scorecard and all to update it for this year but Mabel is less energetic than she was on the Graham Norton Show months ago

Can’t tell if Don’t Call Me Up has soured on me a lot or this is just a bad performance. Probably the latter

Is this the vocal loop from Mad Love or something I don’t recognise it

Nevermind I’m so dumb it’s from Don’t Call Me Up

The telephone on the screen Because Ha Ha She Says Call Me Up is a bit on the nose

I don’t think they realise she also has a song called Ring Ring

“Please welcome your host Jack Whitehall” No go away

Audience did not like the Boris Johnson joke or even the Chris Martin one lol this gnarly dude is BOMBING

Rod Stewart has eight children what the f

“Horny scarecrow of rock and roll Ronnie Wood” I hope that is on his CV

“A bit of witty banter from Dave” Jack Whitehall Shouted Out The TV Channel Dave

Lewis Capaldi – Someone You Loved genuinely makes me want to eat a living frog this live version is better though he’s not straining that much

I saw a BBC News piece on a boy with cancer and this was used in the background and I understand it’s a sad, sappy piano ballad but it’s literally just about a break up like that’s a tad unfitting and kinda undermines the illness and tragedy surely

Niall Horan looks SO infused

The production value for these little transitions seems to have improved it actually looks cool and not dated garbage

Lewis Capaldi will win Best New Artist

Lewis Capaldi won Best New Artist

It’s his first BRIT Award but what’s the point in celebrating he’s gonna win like seven more

Dude is coming up to the stage with a bottle of beer in his hand bruh

I bet this dude is going to be the Adele and just get drunk and swear every time he gets an award

He hugged Niall Horan for a concerning amount of time

The audience chanted ‘DOWN IT DOWN IT’ he did not down it

He just shouted profanities into the mic after 40 seconds of delaying it, but the audio was muted so I have no idea why Jack Whitehall Loves This Man

Lewis Capaldi’s music and personality clash so hard like I saw an advert of this man making funny faces set to Someone You Loved and it was so odd

That advert played right after the BRITs by the way lol

Why is Lewis Capaldi on another advert singing Someone You Loved again like stop stop stop pelase i ccant getsv awytsuavforrnjeofityre

JHE’S BACK FOR ANOTHER ADVERT GO AWAY YOU DRUNKEN IDIOT

Why would Mastercard proudly sponsor this sh

How the hell is FKA twigs nominated for best female artist like cool and all her album was good but Huh

I guess they put one alternate win each time

Mabel will win Best Female Solo Artist

Mabel won Best Female Solo Artist

Oh yeah I forgot people actually make speeches

“There are so many amazing women in this category” Mabel Listens To FKA Twigs

Don’t thank your record label they are crooks

I forget that Mabel is Neneh Cherry’s daughter that’s wild. Neneh Cherry won a BRIT too, I think this same award. Cool. Neat.

Jack Whitehall’s sarcasm and dryer wit is not exactly the best fit for the BRITs. For once I miss Ant & Dec

Harry Styles Is Literally Wearing Pajamas

This is an ok song and with actually good vocal mixing it’s better but he does sound a bit off. He did get robbed before the awards happened though lol

I am sick of guys singing ballads with a e s t h e t i c backgrounds like can we get some volcano eruptions up in this

The Rising Star and British Producer Awards (new awards) were already given out I feel like cheating

Literally the only nomination for the British Producer of the Year was fred

He won

Another break bruh bruh bruh give me a break

Harry Styles’ Pajamas Are Wet Now He Was Standing In Water

Little simz is on an advert afterwards with an amazing song from her amazing album but she’s not nominated for any award

Im so tired like this shit is keeping me awake last year i fell asleep during a jess glynne performance

Liam payne performed a month before the ceremony and his album fell 31 places on the chart in response

Jack Whitehall called himself a lanky streak of piss this man might get an Ofcom Complaint

Lizzo’s really pushing that title track huh

Lizzo didn’t censor herself on the Grammys but her breathy ‘uh’s are making some lines unintelligible lol

This is a good song though

LOL SHE STOPPED FOR THE AUDIENCE TO CONTINUE HER SENTENCE BUT NOBODY SAID THE LINE YIKES

I guess she forgot Truth Hurts didn’t even peak in the top 20 here

Good as Hell is the one people here care about

She knows that they didn’t respond in Truth Hurts because she said ‘sing along if you know it’ lol

She kinda messed up but to be fair she is walking and singing with the audience

That White Guy With The Crap Hair Killed It

Drummer is going wild

I love the extra guitar flourishes in Juice this is pretty cool actually, her interpolating Cause I Love You at the same time is pretty epic this actually sounds pretty great I’d love for this whole medley to be on streaming

She yelled ‘biiitch’ but the mic did not catch that

Ronnie Wood Really Got The Positive Vibes

Lewis Capaldi will win Best Male Solo Artist

(Michael Kiwanuka got like no applause god damn at least give them pity applause)

ROIGHT and tha winna ***upside down*** is STRORMZY

Stormzy won Best Male Solo Artist

(Second time by the way)

Clean version of Vossi Bop kinda slap Ngl

Stormzy TOWERS over Ronnie Wood lol dude is tall

“Um.”

“Best Male is nothing without incredible females” Cool cool

Ronnie is about to tell Stormzy why he thinks he should go back to his own country and that He’s Not Actually Racist

(Those allegations are baseless. My lawyers advised me to say so.)

Jack Whitehall touched audience feet

We’re already nearly an hour in wow

WHY ARE THERE SO MANY ADVERT BREAKS

Yes Yes

Hell yeah dave is awesome, he got his Top Boy co-star to work as a hype man before him

I think this is Black? If so that’s amazing I love that song

It’s Black he has it written on his white piano

The only white piano is slowly turning more black

I like the headlines and all the imagery on the piano it’s really cool

Dave is a tad off beat but he’s also playing a double-sided piano so understandable

A white dude is playing the other side of the piano I’m sure that’s symbolic

He is aggressive in this delivery damn he’s killing it

Some of this imagery is beautiful – especially the BRIT Award being covered by black snakes and the Arabic writing transitioning into an Africa with colonial borders

This was an amazing performance, especially with the violins. Incredible.

OH THERE’S ANOTHER VERSE ABOUT BORIS JOHNSON

The least racist is still racist damn right

This works as an obituary as well damn.

I’d have to analyse this whole thing but this was an incredible performance oh my god

I want this on streaming

When did this man help a terrorist plot wh

Paloma Faith Sounds Like A Robot Who Is Vaguely Feminist

Burna Boy will win International Male Solo Artist

(I so want Tyler to go home with it though. Could go to Post as well)

It’s just whoever shows up gets it though so

WHOA

WHAT THE HELL

TYLER THE CREATOR WON HOW

TAHT IS AMSGWYUFE

THE RADIO HOST SAID IGOR WRONG BUT ITS OK TYLER WON

Tyler, The Creator won International Male Solo Artist

This gnarly dude just said ‘errr yeah errr’

“Shout out to all the British funk from the 80s I try to copy”

LOL THE THERESA MAY CALL OUT HAHAH

I FORGOT HE WASNT ALLOWED IN THE UK

Bts is not a british group, presenter

Coldplay will win Best British Group

Foals won Best British Group

I am actually so surprised lol at Tyler and Foals winning their first BRITs

More alternative dudes winning I guess. Neat. Means a lot

Stop thanking your corrupt labels

The name’s eyelash

I haven’t actually heard her Bond theme yet

Finneas do be lookin kinda handsome tho

I like it. The whispery tone of her voice, the eerie strings (cello?), and slick guitar really fit the Bond franchise. Thank you Billie Eilish, very cool!

No Don’t Talk To Lizzo Don’t Talk To Anyone Jack Whitehall

“There was so much energy they could have done the whole performance for me” well not exactly mrs. Lizzo

This is so awkward we can’t hear what Lizzo is laughing at Harry Styles looks pissed

‘floutists’ is the name for flute players huh

I’m so confused what is going on

Lizzo is threatening jack Whitehall with a flute and within the transition to the break i could hear a slight faint shout from jack in the background

Is everyone ok

More people that i wanted to win than who i expected to win are winning

Sam Fender is haha funnie but nobody in the audience thinks so lol

Celeste is performing she’s the new Rising Star award she has already had a bit of a crack but I’m pretty sure that’s part of the song

This song is ok

Bit boring tbh. Audience is getting tired too. This is lasting like 5 minutes and the song is pretty flavourless and repetitive. Yawn snore

We’re about half way through and I’ve kind of lost interest ngl

Honestly lewis capaldi did better than celeste on jah

Jack Whitehall is having a mental breakdown right now. Understandable

Billie Eilish will win International Female Solo Artist

Billie Eilish won International Female Solo Artist

Lizzo looks so disappointed for whatever reason lol like did we really think anyone else would get this award

Sporty Spice is in the background dancing to everything i wanted that is not a song you dance like that to it’s about suicide

This speech is going terribly

Why are so many of these gnarly dudes signed to polydor

Thank you Billie Eilish very cool

No Jack Whitehall Don’t Talk To Harry Styles

Harry Styles looks like he hates Jack Whitehall so much

The Lizzo-Harry-Jack Whitehall love triangle is Awkward And Awful

Lizzo is the only reason the brit awards are good

Ok the exchange about Harry Styles not being taken seriously was pretty funny

In fact this whole exchange was very funny And Partially About Incest

“Is one of these lucky ladies your date?” “That’s my sister”

Lizzo is chugging the tequila

Harry Styles Looks Like He Pissed Himself

The BRIT awards have suddenly become very confusing

Epic Stormzy Time

Genuinely have no idea what song he’ll perform. Probably Vossi Bop?

Stormzy Should Keep The Singing To His Backing Vocalist And Choir

Gospel beat sounds sweet

I think this is supposed to be Lessons but the studio version is so much duller than this version. This one is pretty cool. I think it’s the choir

I’d be surprised if he only does Lessons. Also the production value here was crazy. Full band, pyrotechnics and all.

Oh yeah it’s Vossi Bop time he’s got the red lighting

Nevermind it’s Wiley Flow lol but still

Reminds me of when Kanye did All Day (also the audio got muted for a long period of time just like when Kanye did that)

This one is more choreographed though lol

Why did he perform two of the least popular songs first though

Burna Boy is coming out for Own It alright, he sounds just as good as studio, probably because He’s Not Actually Singing

I don’t like this song but the choreography is great, stage presence is good and the visuals are incredible. Really shows that even with the worst material, you can make a song sound as lively as ever. The horns the live band added to Own It sound beautiful

Burna Boy’s little solo bit was great

He got away with saying “Sucking on their mums” nice

I hadn’t heard Rainfall before this I don’t think (it sounds familiar though), but the mashup with Praise You was great. I love the sight of Stormzy in front of family members, the young men in black outfits from Wiley Flow, the tropical clothes-bearing women from Own It, Burna Boy, the live band, and all. It’s really a nice diverse sight to see. Cool cool. This probably means absolutely nothing but I Am Knackered

Someone You Loved will win Song of the Year

I really hope it’s Ladbroke Grove though. It and Location feel very emblematic of 2019, in a way that I Don’t Care by Ed Sheeran and Justin Bieber DEFINITELY isn’t

Someone You Loved won Song of the Year

“Biggest winner of the night so far” there’s only one award left mate

Lewis Capaldi Is A Very Funny Man

“Thanks to my grandmother for dying”

Finneas do be lookin kinda handsome tho [2]

Heard a very british voice say “i luv yoo bilie” in the audience lmao

Lewis Capaldi will win Album of the Year

I’d prefer literally anyone else to win this award. Only one of these albums was a 7/10 or above but Lewis Capaldi’s album was unlistenable

OH HELL YEAH THE ONLY GOOD ONE WON

Dave won Album of the Year

Epic I love that album. It could very well have been Capaldi but since Dave won the Mercury Prize I guess he would have been a better prediction

People are screaming man’s lost for words

“Jesus Christ!” dude’s so astonished lol

I loved Dave’s speech actually very inspiring

“Jack, I’m gonna do this one for your mum, Hilary” bruh  rod stewart really saying ‘ur mom’ jokes out here

I love Rod Stewart’s raspy voice man. Orchestra’s great. This is beautiful lol

Gnarly dude got the guitar solo

Conclusion

I cannot be bothered to write some massive conclusion but most of the performances were great and emotionally powerful, especially Stormzy, Dave, Billie and Rod Stewart, and even those who were a bit crap performing were very funny on stage, like Lewis Capaldi. The on stage banter was really cringe-worthy but Jack Whitehall, Harry Styles and Lizzo had this really funny triangle going on. The outro with Ronnie Wood and the rest of Rod Stewart’s band was great, Stormzy’s extended performance was sweet. This was actually a pretty great BRITs, to be honest, and all of the winners, except a select few, deserved it, and if they didn’t, it was pretty expected. There could have been some more winners – off the top of my head, Slowthai and Little Simz weren’t even nominated, but hey, Tyler won. That’s great. The scorecard will be on Twitter. In the words of the BRIT Award winners in 2020, “errr yeah errr”, and thanks for reading!

REVIEWING THE CHARTS 2020

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SHIP US & THANK YOU SO MUCH

Hi everyone,

Recently we hit 1000 followers which is totally insane and we can’t thank you all enough, honestly we wondered if we could make it here and we have! We are extremely happy and thankful for our community.

We decided we want to get to know you guys more and also let you guys get to know us more, as we do your ships and have gotten to know some of you quite well and we want the chance for you to know us well as well. So we are going to describe our personalities to you guys and you can ship us with BTS and Got7 (and other bands if you wish to). Now obviously you don’t have to go quite as into depth as we do (only if you want to) but we would love to know what you guys think :D. You can put it in the comments or message us etc :). Thank you guys again and we will be doing more interactive things from now on ❤️

Bubble: So my personality ha, well my appearance is red curly hair, brown eyes and pale skin. I’m 18 and Australian. I obviously love K-Pop but I also love anime, lots more music (Adele is my favourite female artist ☺️), Disney, video games, the internet (I love it too much 😂), art, acting (I’ve always had the dream of becoming an actor, dance (I’m a dance teacher at my local PCYC), singing, movies and a lot more things ha. My friends are very important to me and I love them all very much, without them I’d be horribly miserable, I don’t really like being alone. I’ve never had a relationship 😂 so when it comes to crushes etc I’m really really really awkward, although I love love and romance, my favourite genre is definitely romance and I love seeing love in any form (I think I’m addicted to romance despite having no romance of my own ha). My friends say I’m cute, kind, motherly (I'm often said to be the mother of the group ha) and can be funny however my funny is definitely sarcasm based, can be quite dark and puns are definitely what I find myself doing most of the time (even if they are horrible ha). I have way to big of a heart, I’m a people pleaser and because of this I’ve had people manipulate me and use me pretty terribly, however these experiences have made me stronger in more ways and made it easier to stand up for myself. I’m still and probably always will be very insecure about certain things (bigness {height and weight, not that I’m overly huge in weight but being so tall the weight looks strange to me} and acne being the main ones). I’m quite shy and awkward most of the time except with my friends and family where I am extremely open and just want to have fun. Anxiety is a huge thing in my life and I feel it come on a lot. Im a big crier, I’ll cry in a lot of movies (even the croods I sobbed in) and just cry a lot in general but sometimes it really helps me de-stress and it is calming. I’m also a huge procrastinator, like the queen of it 😂. I love skinship and always find myself wanting it (probs because of never having a relationship ha). I have huge dreams of being famous 😂 (being a K-Pop star would be goals but we would have to see about that lol). I mainly want to be able to support myself and my family as money has always been an issue and I want my family to be happier and not stress so much about it 😊. I think that’s enough for now ha I hope I’m not too hard to ship and thank you all again I love you guys 😘💕

Frog: My appearance is short-ish curly brown hair (with red fading out as I dyed it haha), blue eyes and pale skin. I’m 16 turning 17 and also Australian. I also love K-Pop a lot and also anime, I love music in general (I typically lean towards classic rock and alternative, also acoustic), I also love Disney, I’m a total nerd/geek, I love to read and write, SuperWhoLock, art, singing, dancing (I don’t dance professionally, it’s more dancing along to kpop in my loungeroom 😂), I’m currently an apprentice baker on a probation period for 3 months (on my third, they’ll see if they want to keep me or not), after the apprentice ship whether they keep me or not, I would like to study to become a nurse (through TAFE), I love to act but more so voice act (I love doing impressions 😊), playing bass (I also would love to learn guitar; I do have one, just gotta learn haha and also piano :)) etc. Haha. My family and friends mean everything to me and I would risk my life to protect them, I’ve had a lot of bad experiences with friends, so I do have trust issues, but Bubble is one of my greatest friends I’ve ever had (I consider her my sister, I love you 💙💙). I’ve been in one relationship, it lasted a year, and since then I’ve just been single *starts playing sexy, free & single* 😂. I love love, it’s so beautiful when you see it, I’m also not totally straight, I’m more attracted to guys than girls but girls are still totally adorable to me (if that makes sense 😅) side note; My biggest girl crush is Hwasa from Mamamoo 😊. My friends have described me as kind, caring, motherly (I’m a Hufflepuff if that helps), funny but like Bubble’s funny, mine is very dry and sarcastic humour, and I also love puns haha. My mums says I have a heart of gold and I’m also pretty innocent and still a little naive, because of the friend thing I mentioned earlier, I do have trust issues and find it hard to open up to people unless I trust them enough, although I am an open book, but experiences make you grow and you learn to become stronger. My insecurities are about my weight and personality, I’m curvy but I have a pancake butt, and I’m skinny but I do have a pudge. I’m a very 4D and awkward individual around humans I don’t know and around my friends and family I’m a psychotic potato dwarf..hehe. I do have anxiety and depression, I get lost in my own mind a lot, and I have a natural thing with my hands shaking but it becomes worse when I over think, however music really helps to calm it down, that’s why I dance, it’s a stress relief technique and it’s so much fun :). I’m also a very emotional person, like Bubble, I cry a lot. And I mean a lot. If I see anyone else crying, especially babies, kids or animals (I love kids and animals, they’re so cute and need to be protected) I cry. I’m a huge cuddle frog, I love to cuddle and am a very affectionate person. I’m still lost in what my purpose in the world is supposed to be but I know I want to help people, that’s why I want to become a nurse, to care for people and help them. I always want to be able to support my family and friends, if I can I want to buy my family a nice house near a beach maybe hehe. I would love to find a partner, get married, have kids and settle down. I’m a Sagittarius and so I’m a natural adventurer, I would love to travel. I don’t know if this helps or not haha but I’m a relative of the Irish pirate Grace O'Malley (the Pirate Queen). I would love to explore the world, it’s big and complicated but beautiful in its own right. Nothing would make me happier than my friends and family being happy. I think that’s enough to read (haha sorry I ramble a lot), hopefully I’m not hard to ship, and thank you so much for everything guys! I love you 😘💙💙

Again, Thank you all so much and we hope you continue enjoying our content 😌

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TAG GAME: AlphaMe

Rules: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag up to 10 people and also tag the person who tagged you… And most importantly, have fun!

Thank you darling for tagging me! @celeb-fess 

a - age: 29 omg getting close the 30! holy shit

b - biggest fear: Oh god never being good enough or worthy! Never finding that special someone to love me for me.

c - current time: 8.13 AM 

d - drink you last had: Apple Cider 

e - every day starts with: Cleansing my face!

f - favourite song: right now? Way Down We Go by Kaleo and Believer by Imagine Dragons so a tie at the moment. 

g - ghosts, are they real: I would say yes as every time I get the urge to play the piano it sounds like someone is singing near me and freaks me out when I am home alone!

h - hometown: Well I live in a quite suburb but as my sis tells me who is a cop and say’s bikies are moving into the area well that fkn great! Anyway Greystanes which is 20 or so mins from Parramatta and 10-15 mins from Merrylands which are other suburbs that have major shopping centers in NSW Sydney Australia.  i - in love with: Lol do I have to choose single at the moment but crushing hard on Chris Evans like who isn’t?

j - jealous of: POthers when I know I shouldn’t be as their life might be shtter than my own but your mind can’t help but think they have the perfect life and mine is just a pile of shit!

k - killed someone: Fk to the NO! and never want to.

l - last time you cried: Listening to all 3 Albums of Adele plus Skyfall. She really knows how to speak to me! Oh and Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol 2 omfg cried like a bloody baby!

m - middle name: Marie!! I love and adore my middle name and hateish my First name, French spelling and it sound so pretty. 

n - number of siblings: 3, Older sis, then Brother and then Sis who is 4 yreas older! we can kind of have a very toxic relationship from time to time and when we argue it is like world wars, funny thing is that my sis aren’t talking to my bro after like a major bust up, so me and my parents have to see my sis and her family one day and see my bro on another!

o - one wish: For us all to get along, But to also find my other half to my soul, finding that love that is never ending and having a family!

p - person you last called/texted: ohh My bestie Crystal to vent to her about some fkd up shit that happened to me last week. but I won’t to say if I could call and text this person I would- @littleplebe she is like a life line and get’s me to a T, but also we are like Pinky and the Brain we could plot to rule the world and I think we could do it??! lol <3<3

q - questions you’re always asked: When are you getting married?, when are you having kids?, when are you getting your license? 

r - reasons to smile: @littleplebe @theycallmebecca @senselesssamii and so many others!

s - song last sang: Don’t You Remember by Adele

t - time you woke up: 5 something AM 

u - underwear colour: Black

v - vacation destination: Would love to go back too NZ but dream of Paris!

w - worst habit: I stress and worry a lot, and when that happens I eat Nutella!

x - x-rays you’ve had: 7 knees!, thumb, pink, lower back

y - your favourite food: Steak and Guinness Pie!

z - zodiac sign: Taurus of course <3 <3 Also born in the year of the DRAGON! WOOt!

I tag @littleplebe @theycallmebecca @ilovethings-somuch @mcgregorswench @dresupi @hollyspacey @holdmecloseandfast @wahwahwaffles @phoenix-173 @cinnaatheart

[cinderssmokeandashes]

NY Pops Concert Write Up

Because of some dear souls asking, here is my write-up of the NY Pops concert featuring Will Chase, Jessie Mueller, Christopher Jackson, and Adrienne Warren.  My thoughts and summary are under the cut if you feel so inclined to read! :)

So, I’ll start this with the huge caveat that I love Jessie Mueller (in case that wasn’t evident from my blog haha) and basically think she can do no wrong, so anything I say will be biased in that regard.

The concert was structured in 2 acts, with each performer singing 2 songs during each act and all 4 of them coming together to sing a song together at the end of each act.  

Act I started with Christopher Jackson singing Let’s Stay Together (Al Green) and I Love You More Than You’ll Ever Know (Al Kooper).  He was very personable and made a bit of small talk between his two songs, joking that when they asked him what he wanted to sing at Carnegie Hall he had to pick this.  Later, he came and closed out the solo performances with The Times They Are a-Changin’ (Bob Dylan) and A Change is Gonna Come (Sam Cooke).  They felt like very relevant songs for our current political and social climate.  His voice was very similar to how he sounded in Hamilton.  I think he has a really nice voice, so I could listen to him sing all day, and I especially loved I Love You More Than You’ll Ever Know.  It was soft and croony, but I think he had some timing or lyric issues.  I really enjoyed the songs, but I thought some of the songs that he chose could have used a more honeyed voice, even though he did a really good job.  Anyway, I always enjoy hearing him sing so it was a treat.

Next, JESSIE came out and sang Jolene (I cried) and Goodbye Yellow Brick Road (I sobbed).  She came out barefoot for Jolene, which I just love so much.  She introduced Yellow Brick Road by saying that it was arranged by someone who had become very dear to her at this point in her life (Sara Bareilles), and launched into it.  She talked far less than Christopher Jackson did, but I thought her performances were incredible.  I wonder if she was fighting a cold or something because she sounded a tiny bit off and her songs were lower than she could sing (like she could hit the high notes in Jolene if she wanted to).  Regardless, her performance was incredible and hearing her sing these songs was not something I knew I needed in my life until it happened.  She then opened Act II by singing Beautiful and Both Sides Now.  Obviously, I was excited to hear her sing Beautiful since I haven’t heard her sing it live since her Beautiful days, and she didn’t disappoint.  Her vocals were incredible and she was moving up on stage like she was very happy to be singing it.  I had been waiting the whole night to hear her sing Both Sides Now so holy shit!  That’s one of my favorite songs, and to hear it performed by one of my favorite singers was nothing short of perfection.  She took it a little slower than I’ve heard in the past, but she imbued it with so much emotion that I cried after the first few lines.  (I’m a sucker for Jessie + emotional songs, don’t judge!)  I will say that overall she seemed a tad uncomfortable on the stage, but I think she’s always slightly awkward when she performs so I don’t know what it was.  Maybe part of it was that she closed her eyes a lot?  But anyway, she was incredible, obviously the highlight of the show for me, and on a purely superficial note I liked her Act I dress (strapless) better than her Act II one (halter).

Will Chase followed Jessie and sang Ring of Fire (June Carter) and Bridge Over Troubled Water (Paul Simon), which he introduced as being for his children, one of whom was in the audience.  Honestly, Bridge Over Troubled Water was my favorite song of his that he sang because it was very well technically executed and you could tell it meant a lot to him.  He was a very strong voice, so it was interesting to hear him sing a gentler song.  He sang 3rd in Act II and sang Fortunate Son (John Fogerty) and Imagine (John Lennon), Imagine being because he played John Lennon in the musical.  Imagine was also really well sung, and a favorite song of mine, so I thoroughly enjoyed it...but again, I thought it could have used a softer voice.

Finally, Adrienne Warren closed out the solo performances for Act I by singing If I Ain’t Got You (Alicia Keys) and Fire and Rain (James Taylor).  I thought her voice really worked for I Ain’t Got You, and the audience had fun with the more contemporary song.  She also talked up the crowd and mentioned how her dad was sitting out there and how Fire and Rain was what she was first taught to sing by him so she was singing this for him now (if I remember correctly).  Anyway, her voice is amazing and she really slayed her songs in Act II, Hello (Adele) and Think (Aretha Franklin).  I thought her Hello was a little slow for my taste but she sang it excellently and hit all the big notes very impressively.  Now I’m sad I missed her in Shuffle Along!  

The 4 closed out Act 1 by singing Sir Duke (Stevie Wonder), and I honestly don’t remember much about it because I was still thinking about Jessie singing Goodbye Yellow Brick Road--hahaha I know--and I don’t really know the song.  I remember it being really fun and the audience clapping along, though.  They closed out Act II by singing Ain’t No Mountain High Enough, which I LOVED.  They all took turns singing solo lines (Chris --> Jessie --> Will --> Adrienne), which I thought was really cute and they were all having fun singing with each other up on stage.  Finally, they did a surprise “encore” (they never really left the stage) of You’ve Got a Friend in Me, which was really sweet.  Again, it was a little slow for my liking but it was really fun to see everyone sing the song, especially Jessie since she sang it in Beautiful.  She also had a really cute moment where she mouthed “one more” at the audience and held up one finger when the music started to play. Overall, it was a really fun and enjoyable 2 hours, and I thought the performers had really on-point song selections.  If I could, I would go again!!  Sorry for my heavy Jessie bias and the obvious fact that I paid the most attention to her lol.  Anything you want to hear about that I didn’t talk about?

[barce-fabu-lona]

Neymessi Drabble 5

And here we go again. Another lovely anon requested another drabble of my OTP and of course I was v happy to do follow her/his request. This drabble is called “I Miss You, Come Home”. I hope you all love this as much as I love Neymessi and Geri trying to be a good friend. Lol, enjoy <3

Leo and Neymar break up. Gerard takes Leo out for a ride and gets them back together through the power of Adele’s voice. (The song used in this story is “I Miss You” by Adele). 

“Will you please stop that godforsaken tapping?” Geri hisses when they come to a stop in front of a red light.

Leo glances over to the tall man sitting beside him and ruefully takes his hand away from the window. He folds them in his lap instead, holds on tight and stares straight ahead windshield.

“I’m sorry.” He says and doesn’t move to look at Geri when he hears him sigh.

The light turns back to green and Leo stares at the speck of color until it starts to become blurry.

“Are you crying?” Gerard asks, his voice giving away that he is slightly panicking. “Oh nonononono, Leo don’t cry. Fuck! Stop, you’re not as small as Sasha, I can’t just take you in my arms and cradle you like a baby.”

Leo forces himself to take deep breath through his mouth and then exhale again through his nose. It calms his fluttering heart a bit and he goes to rub at his eyes, preventing those embarrassing tears from falling.

He’s so emotionally unstable lately.

“I’m not crying.” The Argentinian remains stubborn.

“Yes, you were. I am sitting next to you and I am sure as hell not blind yet.” Gerard counters.

His voice is loud, way too loud for the small room they find themselves in currently. Leo winces and digs his fingers into his thighs until they start to hurt.

“Stop screaming.” He says, marveling at how white his knuckles look when he squeezes his hands just a little bit harder.

“I’m not.” Geri protests just as loud.

Leo knows, that Geri knows he’s screaming. He always does when he gets nervous or overwhelmed with a certain situations and Leo being emotionally depressed definitely counts as one of those situations.  

“Maybe I should have taken Milan along.” Gerard muses beside him. “He’s always good with cheering people up.”

“I don’t need any cheering up.” Leo says and finally solves his hands from the sleek leather seat of Geri’s Audi. “I just need sleep.”

The Spaniard snorts beside him.

“You’ve been walking around looking like somebody fucking died, Leo. And it’s been weeks. It’s affecting your skills as well and I really don’t want to see Cristiano-longing-to-fuck-himself-Ronaldo win another Ballon D’or. Are we clear on that?”

Leo smiles a little but when he catches his reflection in the review mirror, he notices it not being a real smile. It doesn’t reach his eyes and he keeps on looking like he has just made his return from the afterlife. Geri is right.

“Well, maybe I need some more sleep.” Leo mumbles. “Maybe I have to sleep for the rest of my life.”

“Stop.” Geri groans, he’s really annoyed by now, Leo can tell by the way his hands keep clenching and unclenching on the steering wheel. “You’re a grown man Leo. You’re a fucking football god and you need to get your shit together and call.”

“What?”

“Call. C-A-L-L. It’s when you pick up the phone and talk to people.”

“Who do you want me to call then?”

Leo is aware of the fact he is behaving like a child, but if Geri wants to play this game, he sure as hell is not going down easy.

“Neymar.” Gerard is saying incisively. “Want me to spell that out for you as well? N-E-Y-M-A-R.”

“I hate you so much.”

Geri laughs at him until Leo makes him pull over. They’re standing on the side of some isolated road in the outskirts of Barcelona now. It’s dark outside and the headlights of Geri’s car are the only light source for miles around. Leo takes a moment to appreciate the privacy that he didn’t know he could find in the busy streets of Barcelona and then loses his seatbelt.

“I can’t call him.” He says simply.

Gerard turns of the car engine and kills the lights as well in the process. They are sitting in complete darkness now but Leo doesn’t mind, knowing that Gerard can’t track every sign of pain showing on his face makes it a little more bearable altogether.

“Why not?” The Spaniard asks into the night.

“He said he doesn’t want me to call me, said that he doesn’t want to even see me ever again.”

“Ney says a lot of stupid shit when he’s drunk.”

“But he wasn’t drunk.”

“Still.”

Leo feels his eyes getting wet again and this time he leans back and lets it happen. His head is resting against the cool glass of the window and he can hear the salty droplets hit the leather of Geri’s seats. He knows that Gerard hears them as well and he’s thankful the Spaniard doesn’t comment further.

“Rafa called me a couple days ago and said that Ney is hurting as well. He regrets what he said and he wants to talk to you.” The taller man tries again.

“But I can’t talk Geri, I can’t express what I feel and Neymar, he’s so sensitive. I don’t want to say the wrong thing.” Leo answers, desperately combing his hands through his already greasy hair.

He looks like a mess and suddenly he’s even more thankful for the pitch black night shielding him from prying eyes.

“Then let someone else talk for you.” Gerard suggests carefully.

“Someone else? Like who? You?”

“Nah, man.” Geri denies quickly. “I was thinking of someone better. Someone who can bring across her emotions quiet well.”

“Shakira?”

“Good guess but still no. Adele.”

Leo laughs breathlessly and starts rubbing at his eyes again. He doesn’t want to cry, he doesn’t want to, he doesn’t want to, he doesn’t want to. He does anyways.

“I’m sorry to let you down Geri but I’m not that rich. I can’t just ship her over and get her to sing to Neymar.” He tells him, hoping the Spaniard will let it go.

“No need to ship her over, I have her album. It’s great. Shak bought it for me.” Geri says instead and Leo can literally hear him grinning.

He sees Geri’s fingers starting to work the sound system of the Audi until it lights up and Adele’s soft, melancholic voice fills the silence of the car. Leo shivers.

“Come on, call him. I have the perfect song ready.” Geri says and leans in to shuffle through the track.

Leo can see him now, the light from the sound system reflection onto his face. It has a weird blue color, kind of like the one of his eyes. But it’s still Geri and Leo trusts him. He trusts him with his life.

So the Argentinian pulls out his phone and searches for Neymar’s contact with trembling fingers. His name still has a little smiley face behind it and it makes a fresh tear roll down Leo’s cheek and drip onto the display.

“Stop crying.” Geri exhorts him. “Call him now. I’ve got it all set up.”

Leo does and puts the phone on speaker once it starts dialing. His hand is shaking so hard Gerard has to reach over to steady it and keep the phone from slipping through Leo’s sweaty fingers. They wait, the tension so thick Leo has trouble breathing evenly. With every passing second his heart speeds up and when there is finally a rustling sound on the other end of the line, he’s sure it will rip right through his chest. He’s sure of it.

“Leo?” Neymar’s voice sounds tired but before the Argentinian has time to answer, Geri hits play and music starts floating through the car.

He squeezes his eye shut tightly, not wanting to look at his phone and see how Neymar hangs up on him. Gerard’s hand is still there and the Spaniard keeps it there through the whole song. Leo is fucking grateful because he knows he would have pulled away otherwise.

 I want every single piece of you I want your heaven and your oceans too Treat me soft but touch me cruel I wanna teach you things you never knew Bring the floor up to my knees Let me fall into your gravity And kiss me back to life to see Your body standing over me

Baby don't let the lights go down Baby don't let the lights go down Baby don't let the lights go down Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

I miss you when the lights go out It illuminates all of my doubts Pull me in, hold me tight Don't let go, baby give me light I miss you when the lights go out It illuminates all of my doubts Pull me in, hold me tight Don't let go, baby give me light

I love the way your body moves Towards me from across the room Brushing past my every groove No one has me like you do Baby you bring your heart, I'll bring my soul But be delicate with my ego I wanna step into your great unknown With you and me setting the tone

Baby don't let the lights go down Baby don't let the lights go down Baby don't let the lights go down Lights go down, lights go down Lights go down

I miss you when the lights go out It illuminates all of my doubts Pull me in, hold me tight Don't let go, baby give me light I miss you when the lights go out It illuminates all of my doubts Pull me in, hold me tight Don't let go, baby give me light

We play so dirty in the dark Cause we are living worlds apart It only makes it harder baby It only makes it harder baby Harder baby, harder baby

I miss you when the lights go out It illuminates all of my doubts Pull me in, hold me tight Don't let go, baby give me light I miss you when the lights go out It illuminates all of my doubts Pull me in, hold me tight Don't let go, baby give me light

I miss you, I miss you I miss you, I miss you I miss you, I miss you I miss you, I miss you

When the music slowly starts to fade away, Geri hits stops and nudges the phone back towards Leo. He is still shaking when he slowly, carefully lifts the device back to his ear and prays to hear Neymar’s voice.

“That was so cheesy.” His lover breathes and the sound of his voice make Leo’s stomach do weird things.

Weird but awesome things.

“I’m sorry.” He mumbles back. “I just- I can’t talk, you know that.”

“I know.”

Silence. Leo starts counting.

One.

Two.

Three.

Four.

Five.

“Leo?”

“Yes?”

“Are you still there?”

“Yes, I’m not going anywhere.”

Six.

Seven.

Eight.

Nine.

Ten.

“Then come home. I miss you as well.”

[frantasticake]

LIFE UPDATE: Where Have I Been?

This would be my first writing again for 2017.

I have lost my vocabularies.

I don't know where to begin.

LIFE UPDATE: Where Have I Been?

    It's been a while since my last post! I really love blogging, writing and sharing... but i have my priorities and i should focus more on those important things.

    First, i am here at the office (yes, i'm employed!) listening to Shawn Mendes' Three Empty Words on Spotify. I decided to write again because i missed this!!! I've been a little preoccupied lately, with the recent heartbreak (lol), graduation, and workload.

    I'm listening now to Callum Scott's Dancing On My Own (too much feels). Actually nothing much happened lately, so this would be a boring post these past few months. 

WHAT HAPPENED LAST DECEMBER 2016?

    Nothing much, a lengthy term break. I became addicted to K- Dramas, that i forgot that we are still not finish on our thesis. I can finish one series in one day, all night, all day. Then the following day, i am only waking up if my mom called me to eat. That's how my life went, and that is one of the reasons why i gained a lot of pounds aside from endless eating (because why not?).

Learnings: Know your priority. And stop binge eating while watching kdramas!

HOW ABOUT JANUARY?

    One thing i regret, i forgot to post another cliche "new year, new me" resolution blog post (lol). But, nevermind, i wouldn't be doing it anyway. I actually read again what i wrote last Jan 15, 2016 , to see if I have achieved some of my resolutions last year. 

Improving myself

                    YES I CAN SAY I HAVE IMPROVED IN A LOT OF ASPECTS.

Move on from lost friendships

                    I AM SOOOO OVER IT.... THEM.

Healthy lifestyle

                    I'm not gonna lie, i failed...... I gained a lot.

Travel

                    School, House, School, Out with friends on a weekend. 

Love life

                    Yes, I met someone. And i was happy and I learned a lot. 

Just to clear things out, what i wrote above are just some updates of my failed and successful resolutions of Year 2016.... I'm still coping up with this current year. 

Learnings: If you really want change, do it now. Don't depend change on what you wrote on your New year's resolution, FOCUS on what you really want, what your heart desires. And not everyone will stay, they will just be another lessons learned.

FEBRUARY (#NowPlaying How Will I Know by Sam Smith)

    Birth month... or should i say 1 month almost lovelife. And this song fits perfectly on everything that happened this month, now it's on repeat. I did the worst decision of my life... something i thought would be best for me, for us, but nah. This is the same guy I wrote about a year ago last September 2015. One of the lines that hit me the most in the said song is, "This love is strong. Why do I feel weak?". I am very sure of you, but this walls that surround me stopped me, my trust issues and all. I pushed you away..... Again. I got my priorities, and you got yours. I focused all my energy on my studies, my family and everything that i neglected you. Then we both chose to give up. That's it, end of another ALMOST getting back together. I guess we are really not in God's perfect timing. As the song goes, "How will I know if you really love me? I say a prayer with every heartbeat. I fall in love whenever we meet. I'm asking you what you know about these things." I didn't gave him the chance to prove his love, now it's too late.

Learnings: One day he won’t have more love left to give.​​​​​​​ One day, he'll find someone that would bring out the best in him. You're just gonna be there watching him from afar. And as you follow him on social media, when she posts that picture of him and his forever, you’re going to hate yourself because it could have been you. "It should have been you." 

    There will never be an easy way out, always take the risk in love.

MARCH (#NowPlaying All I Ask by Adele)

    I am about to say that March, April, May went by just the same stressful month for our deadline on our thesis. BUT NO, March had to be the month of regrets, where my "what ifs" suddenly came out. There's nothing more painful than seeing the one you truly love, whom you rejected, finds another. Yup, the one i'm talking about on my February ganaps. 

           "Cause lately I was thinking I never told you, that every time I see you my heart sings."     (#NowPlaying Nervous by Gavin James) I never did, i never appreciated when you were still there, i never listened to your heart. "Maybe we will meet when we get older, maybe we won't." The moment i saw you happy, i let you go. "So I won't say I love you if you don't"

Learnings: Enjoy every moment with someone, and when it's time to let go. Let him go, say goodbye with an open heart. Never hold grudges on anyone. Always remember that every morning is a fresh start.

APRIL & MAY (#NowPlaying Welcome To My Life by Chris Brown)

    Typical stressful environment, paperworks, deadlines, graduation preparations, toxic people, broken heart, all the negativity are here in this month actually. I almost gave up, in school, in life, in everything. I was at my lowest point that drinking had always been my refuge. I never told anyone what i felt, what's been up with my head, what i really want in my life, i kept it to myself. I was so selfish with my own thoughts, i though about writing but i did not. I told myself, "write when you're already okay, when you have passed all these shits already." And now, I'm here still alive, fighting and happy. Laughing at my miserable-summer-self, i never thought i would come up more stronger after all these dramas. I have always been ma-drama, but iba to. LOL

    Until late of May, my best friend went to Canada, for good. Another emotional ganap for me, so as much as possible we bond together. I can't imagine life without my best friend, feeling ko it would be boring. I have written a blog post about her already, click this. Our friendship will never be broken by anyone else, not even distance lol. I got her through the moon and back of the universe, she became a sister to me already, along with Bratz. I will never forget her last night here in the Philippines with us, i can't show her my tears. But as soon as we got in the car, i cried like a little baby, i wanna go back and told her not to go. And the following day, as soon as she got off the plane, i called our friends and cried out that i missed her already. Lol

    Then i got employed, hooray!!! A new chapter begins.

Learnings:

Remember your importance.

Surround yourself with positive people.

Don't be a coward, speak out what you feel. Call a friend, tell her you're sad or happy, burst out your emotions so you could release it all and feel relieved.

There would always be that one friend, your best friend, that you could trust, you could rant to and share everything. There would always be a person who is willing to listen.

Smile, because you are alive, and that is enough.