#i’m gonna leave for dinner rn but i’ll be back for (hopefully) at least one message

[casismybestfriend]

help me break my art block!

please submit a comment/reply on this post or an ask in my inbox of a character you’d like me to draw :D

i have little to no practice with drawing people and living things, so i’d like to start fixing that, especially before inktober. don’t be afraid of submitting the same request as someone else, i might just draw them a second time to practice even more :)

[higgins5]

Tag game

Oof, this is so so late, but I am doing it! And thank you to the lovely @foxsoulcourt for tagging me!

LAST

drink: Water, we are being healthy children here 

phone call: My District Manager at work to discuss my transfer

text message: One of my best friends about his terrible life choices (jk but really binge watching a show for 14 hours straight? Boy get to sleep!)

song you listened to: I’m Over You by Bryan James (it may or may not have been on loop for a while)

time you cried: Last Thursday 

EVER

dated someone twice: Haha, yep. Didn’t work out, but we’re still friends

kissed someone and regretted it: Not yet!

been cheated on: Unfortunately

lost someone special: I think we all have, but such is life

gotten drunk and thrown up: Oh god no

fave colors? Sea green, storm gray, oh I can’t believe i almost forgot! Really any deep blue or purple, like how the night sky gets just before it’s almost black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE I?

made new friends: Multiple, and i am so greatly for all of the lovely people who have graced my life

fallen out of love: Not so much people. But things I believed I loved turned a little false, yes

laughed until you cried: Gosh, all the time. It’s awful, I call it my seal laugh because I’m laughing so hard I can’t breathe and i’m just doubled over hitting a table or my leg to express my joy because that’s all I can do

found out someone was talking about you: Just two weeks ago! And honestly I hate that. Like if you’re gonna talk bad about me just do it to my face. I’ll find out one way or another, might as well be from you

met someone who changed you: Some good people, some not so good people. But I believe it was all for a reason

found out who your friends are: Yes

kissed someone on your Facebook friends list: Hmm... Well, I do not actually have a Facebook so I guess that would be a no

GENERAL

how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I guess I can clarify about FB here. My parents were always freaked out about the internet so never let me get one, and being a good child I never did- plus I was just not interested, so I just... never got around to it in adulthood. AND like whenever I needed to talk to a friend through FB I just used my parents page cause that was their solution, so there was no real need. But like, from the friends I had on my mom’s page yes, I know all of them irl

do you have any pets: SEVERAL AND I LOVE ALL OF MY FURRY CHILDREN! I have an 11yo poodle/terrier mix (mom was a poodle, dad was the terrier next door. Truly a scandal) named Bear and i love my grumpy old man to death; a 2yo boxer/husky mix we rescued that was originally supposed to be a lab which was a total lie named Nutmeg, but it’s okay I love my babe even if i can take her on a 3mi run and she’s still ready to run 3 more; an 8yo wonderfully affectionate and beautiful tabby cat named Willow; a 6 year old (oh my god, she’s 6, it feels like yesterday she was a satellite dish in a collar that meowed) purring machine tabby cat named Sage; and two beautiful girls. Lagertha and Gwenievere are two very playful and loving one year old dumbo eared rats

do you want to change your name: Eh, not really. I’ve had it for this long, might as well keep it

what did you do for your last birthday: Oh that was so fun. I went to the Melting pot (this fancy fondue place, so good) With a couple of friends and had a really great time, even though someone got me crayons as a gag gift (I.... hate, crayons with a PASSION, but she’s known me for like 10 years so of course I accepted.... hesitantly)

what time did you wake up today: Like 7:30? but i didn’t actually leave my bed until 9ish because don’t be fooled, I am not a morning person. I just run because I’m an idiot

what were you doing last night at midnight: Sleeping

what is something you can’t wait for: Figure out where life is taking me and then be a bomb ass bitch at it

what are you listening to right now: X&Y by Coldplay

have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I have, and he is a lovely person. Go talk to a Tom everybody, nice people

something that gets on your nerves: Horrible people. Like just those people that are horrible for no absolute reason. Like grow up, get a life, why do you have to make other people just because you’re unhappy. there are many people you could see for help and I have a number you can call if you need a recommendation 

most visited website: Probably a tie between Tumblr, Youtube, and Spotify

hair color: Well, naturally I am blonde but rn it’s a reddish auburn color (but hey, people ask me all the time if it’s my natural color so who knows maybe i was destined for this shade)

long or short hair: ish? It’s growing from a pixie (that I might go back to soon) so its like... not quite shoulder length yet but give it another month and we might be there

what do you like about yourself: You know what, i’m gonna give myself some love and say everything. Lol, but as a serious answer probably my personality/nature. I have a very big heart but am also incredibly sarcastic so it is a delicate balance 

want any piercings: SO many. I’m saving up to get my nose done soon (nostril) and later I’ll get my daith, helix, third piercing in my lobe, tragus, and maybe rook

blood type: Some kinda O? Honestly for someone who donates blood as much as I do, I should really know (but important blood donation note, if you wish to make sure not to do it too frequently! Healthy people = healthy blood = healthy donation receivers!)

nicknames: Gosh, too many to type. Apparently I’m just nick namey. But uhhh, the most common: Ash, Ashbash, Higgins, Higgy, Higgs, Figgins, Chief 

relationship status: Single

zodiac sign: I’m one of the twin fish babes, Pisces all the way

pronouns: She/Her

fave tv show: Don’t watch as much tv as I used to but Supernatural is always a good go to (recently I’ve been watching a lot of HGTv and doctor Phil and Hallmark with my mom though, if that’s anything)

tattoos: None (yet)

right or left handed: right handed, I’m basically useless with my left (unless an instrument is involved)

ever had surgery: Nope, and hopefully we keep that trend goin!

piercings: two ear piercings 

sports: Uh... in High School I was pretty active and track and I was a competitive shooter (air rifles- but I’m from Texas so). Nothing in college at the moment, I might try out for the track team just cause i miss bein a part of stuff

vacation: I am broke, I can only dream (but I do really wanna travel, so gotta save up!)

trainers: my totally stylish suede brown vans are my go to, but Adidas for running

eating: Currently? Nothing, but I did have some steamed broccoli and carrots&rice, and grilled chicken for dinner

drinking: Orange Juice

I’m about to watch: Absolutely nothing

waiting for: Didn’t I already answer this? it’s so much pressure. Uh... change?

want: To be successful in whatever I 

get married: Eventually

career: Haven’t gotten there yet, but everyday is one step closer

hugs or kisses: Depends on who and when

lips or eyes: Eyes. First thing I notice

shorter or taller: At 5′3 I don’t think I can even pretend to say i’m tall

older or younger: I probably fall more on the younger spectrum

nice arms or stomach: Yes

hookup or relationships: I am a committed relationship kinda person all the way. Never really understood the whole hookup thing but to each their own

troublemaker or hesitant: A hesitant troublemaker is probably more me. I say I try to stay out of trouble, but it just kinda finds me

HAVE I EVER?

kissed a stranger: No

drunk hard liquor: Yes

lost glasses: Ugh, all the time, worst is when I lose my contacts AND glasses

turned someone down: Yes

sex on the first date: Not my style

broken someone’s heart: Yes

had your heart broken: In love and life

been arrested: Nope, and i’d like to keep it that way!

cried when someone died: Yes

fallen for a friend: Yes

DO I BELIEVE IN?

yourself: Well someone has to, so might as well be me!

miracles: I do. And if they aren’t true, at least the belief of their existence helps make their outcome possible

love at first sight: In some fairytale world maybe, but for me, nah

kiss on the first date: Possibly

angels: Yes. Of what way and form I think that’s for you to decide

OTHER

best friend’s name: I have a couple because there is too much life to only need one person in it! Lexi+Brittany+Mauricio+Imaya from all the way back to middle school and Ronan (a recent addition)

And even if we don’t talk every day of our lives I know they’ll always be there for me when I need them. Good or bad. And they know I would do the same. That’s all that really matters in the end. They’re my little chosen family

(oh that got a bit sappy, okay moving on)

eye color: Light blue? Blue? I dunno, people say it’s pretty so I go with it

fave movie: Don’t really have one...

favorite actor: Yeah... same with movies, don’t have one of those either

extrovert or introvert: I like to call myself an introverted extrovert

favorite flower: white peonies 

favorite hello kitty character? I wasn’t aware there were characters aside from hello kitty....

oof this is a long post, but very fun to do! Hopefully y’all haven’t done this yet but if so well I’m gonna tag you anyways @i-h8-u-no-u-dont @pansexualpandion @rvmengf @egglorru @it-has-the-gay-fanfiction and really @ anyone who wants to do this! I’d love to see your versions!!

[fluffairy]

here are some things that are worrying me rn!!!! 

For some reason I just woke up and started crying and idk why but everything just feels like too much right now. This is weird because the last three days were strangely very very good. Thursday was fun, and then on Friday I had art history and then Italian and I got myself a yummy smoked salmon and ricotta sandwich for lunch and then had to go on a 3 and a half hour visit to the Uffizi with Renaissance class and it was A Lot and I had mixed feelings about the Uffizi but ultimately it was fun and I had fun talking to my friends while we were there and like you can’t really go wrong with seeing the Birth of Venus on a Friday afternoon lol. Also the weather was perfect!! Afterwards me and my roommate and our friends got dinner at this fun pub and we sat outside and got burgers and drinks and I got a White Russian which was very good and then we walked in search of another bar to get shots but we couldn’t find one so we went to the grocery store and then went back to their place and we had wine and hung out and I tried to do my homework but it didn’t work lol

Then on Saturday we got up super early (I actually overslept) to go to Bologna!! And Bologna is weird but it was significantly more fun this time. The weather was very very nice and we saw some cool stuff. Also had fun talking to my friends, especially some new friends I’ve only made recently (from last weekend when I went on two field trips two days in a row lol). Then we came back and someone invited me to go to a club with them and I was feeling very conflicted about if I should go or not bc on one hand I should go out and experience life and Florence clubs right?? But on the other hand I know that I would be seriously uncomfortable in that environment. My roommate was like “just don’t go if you’re not going to feel comfortable” so I didn’t and I think that was the right choice lol. But then I texted my really good friend from my home school that I wasn’t going out and she Skyped me literally just to try to convince me to go out, and it didn’t work lol but we still talked for like an hour anyway and it was nice to talk to her. It was nice bc we talked about whether or not we think abroad has changed us and she was like “it’s so good to see you so grown up and independent bc you’re so different than the girl I met 3 years ago bc that girl would have never gone abroad and gone to Paris and be the navigator of the group” and like tbh she’s right!!! I have grown up so much in college and that is seriously something to celebrate.

But then we were talking about post grad which is freaking me out and I was like “well I’m not staying in [the city of my university] bc it’s too expensive and doesn’t make sense and I refuse to move back home :-)” and she was like well it doesn’t make sense to move somewhere just for the sake of moving just so you have a place to go, you may have to move home for a while" but like. No. I refuse to do that. And I am NOT doing that. I am not moving back home. I am starting my real life in January and that is that. But it made me nervous anyway.

Which brings us to today. And I am nervous and sad. And here is why. •I have to write a paper on Artemisia Gentileschi in the next five days and I want to write a lot of it today but I’m very nervous about it •I’m scared that my Michelangelo paper is shit •I’m not good at Italian and I am simultaneously scared of the final while also being nervous that once I leave Italy and don’t take Italian next semester I’m going to immediately lose it all and that will bite me in the ass for grad school •I probably don’t have a job for this summer which is really scaring me bc there are legit no jobs for me in my town and I also don’t have a car and I’m worried that I’m going to be screwed in that respect •thinking about leaving Florence in 2 weeks is making me want to cry •I also haven’t done a lot of shit here still and I feel really upset about it bc I have so much to do in the next two weeks 

 •I’m scared that I’m never going to get into grad school 

 •I’m scared that I’ll never find a post grad job 

 •I’m scared for the summer working (hopefully) and taking an online class and studying for the freaking GRE 

 •I’m scared for next semester taking 4 reading and writing heavy classes, PAINTING, taking the GRE, hopefully working somewhere that is not the library, applying to post grad jobs, applying to grad schools, and maybe finding a place to live after I graduate 

 Like!!!! This is all just too much right now!! And I know that I shouldn’t be this upset but I really am. Idk what to do. But priorities first. I’m gonna get an iced coffee with my roommate and then go food shopping with her bc that is something I need to do. And then I will go to the library and write at least half of my essay. Then I have to come back and make dinner and talk to my parents. And then maybe I’ll feel okay again (lol doubtful)