#i’ve spent countless hours researching psychology & sociology & human habits for years. since middle school. and yet i don’t know anything | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

eenochian · 11 months

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i know it’s stupid for me to be doubting my writing skills rn, like i’m literally getting more attention on my fics now than ever, but i’m just so unconfident in everything i’ve written lol. i’m putting out things that i’m happy with, but there’s always that voice telling me it’s shit and that i should just stop – and, it feels selfish, being insecure despite the support. like i’m not appreciative enough and i’m just being an attention whore. now i’m just sitting here, staring at a blank draft for the past 5 hours. i have the idea, i have people asking for the chapter, and yet i’m paralyzed trying to write.

#“it’s character analysis evie you love that stuff”#<- the last analysis chap that i was so excited to write was shit. i hate it. why do i act like a psychologist when i don’t know anything.#i try to write these deep layered pieces and fail every single time.#i’ve spent countless hours researching psychology & sociology & human habits for years. since middle school. and yet i don’t know anything #nothing i write will ever be compelling. nothing i write will ever be deep. nothing i write will ever stick with someone –#– the way pieces have stuck with me. i’ve improved but not enough. never enough.#everything i make is surface level at best. even if i pour my heart and soul into something; even if it’s from a personal place of heartache #it’ll never be good enough.#i’ll never be good at art i’ll never be good at writing i’ll never be good at any of these things that i love

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