#i'd have to finish my watch of the show because idk much about her atm

[candledburns]

you know who i’m considering also. raven.

[elviriel]

Angel The Series. Obviously.

bless you for asking 🌹 i finished it yesterday and the opinions are Brewing

my favorite female character: Cordelia. I grew so, so very attached to her during my watch - I always liked her a lot, but I wasn't hugely invested in her in BTVS either. Here, though? Favorite. Which made season four and five all the more frustrating at times, especially given what we know of the behind the scenes stuff with CC and JW T_T. But yeah, I love Cordelia. She's a fun foil for a character like Angel, and her journey with the visions - and the fact that she didn't want to give them up - was really enjoyable for me

my favorite male character: At the risk of sounding obvious, Angel? I keep trying to articulate the why of it, and it comes down to just the fact that I just... like him. Wesley from season 3 on comes very close, but in general, I tend to root for Angel more. The biggest indicator of my liking for Angel was that the second Spike came onto the scene, I was hissing like a cat like "ok vampire with a soul is ANGEL'S THING"

my favorite book/season/etc: I find it hard to choose between 2 and 3 atm. 2 had Angel's little dark spiral, which I found very fun, and season 3 had the whole "the father kills the son" arc, which was the most invested I ever was in this show

my favorite episode (if its a tv show): season 5 is fresher in my mind, so I'm going to say episode 12 of season 5, because that one has Cordelia in it - and is, thankfully, a nice send-off for her, though I'll forever be bitter she couldn't be around for the whole season (It might have made me less resentful of Spike's general presence, tho I did enjoy him regardless)

my favorite cast member: Idk much about them as people, but I'm going to say Alexis Denisof kILLED as unshaven miserable Wesley, and I was very impressed with him

my favorite ship: I hesitate between Angel x Cordelia and Wesley x Lilah. Angel x Cordy took me by surprise - I'm a diehard Bangel, and before watching ATS, the knowledge that Angel x Cordy became a thing made me a hater already. But I was surprised by how their friendship grew, and the Ship was Awakened in me when Angel was obviously deeply upset that Cordelia was still mad at him in season 2. That being said, I also think I'd have been satisfied with Angel x Cordy without the romantic element, as long as they kept the close friends/warriors for good aspect. It's the kind of ship that I feel could stay friends (unlike, say, Bangel, to refer to Spike's little 'You'll never be friends' speech", which I know you're familiar with xD), and I do like my ships with a bit more bite, no pun intended. And Wesley x Lilah was a fucking delight. Didn't see it coming, enjoyed every second of it, right down to the corpse head chopping. OH, I also enjoyed Lindsey x Darla for what it was. Lindsey in general was a fav of mine - he's just neat!

a character I’d die defending: Mmmm. No answer springs to mind, but I will say, I found myself kind of protective of Harmony in season 5 - I know she's a soulless little demon, but like, be nice to her (the fact that Spike was so dismissive of her got under my skin like BRO where's that soul of yours now)

a character I just can’t sympathize with: I desperately want to say Andrew, but we barely saw him, and that's mostly my BTVS feelings bleeding over. I'm sure there are answers among the villains, but nobody comes to mind.

a character I grew to love: Definitely Wesley. I was never too keen on him, but then, gosh. His dark side is just FASCINATING and I love him to bits.

my anti otp: unfortunately i can't say sp*ffy for ATS xD but otherwise, i don't think there's any ship on Angel I outright hate. Though Connor x Cordelia was definitely unpleasant, I don't really count it as a ship. I guess.... Angel x Nina didn't do much for me? But we barely saw them together, so, it's hard to muster any anti otp hatred. Fred x Wesley didn't do much for me (I always side-eyed them because from the start, I was convinced it would mean nothing good for Gunn), but without Fred x Wesley, you don't get Wesley x Illyria, which was the highlight of my late season 5 viewing 💙

[forvalkyrie]

in a very real ranty session pls ignore – i just want to get my thoughts down before i go berserk (also uhh depression trigger warnings – just dont read if you wanna not get depressed).

i just hate the job market i really do

i graduated with a masters this past summer and i've yet to find a job. i''ve had TWO PHONE SCREEINGS – theyre not even interviews, they're straightup just SCREENING. no specifics about any one job, just asking me general questions like im doing a check up.

i just... i have never been so mf depressed and ive been mf depressed before and that was a scary time in my life. in any case, i had like a mental overload earlier this week where i lowkey hyperventilated, crying my ass off. i feel like im a failure for even getting this masters– which btw was an accelerated masters meaning i finished within the year.

i feel both under and overqualified for jobs. my last job, i made a certain amount, and both these under and overquilified jobs either make wayyy below what i used to make or are above but aren't hiring. TODAY i just checked one of my apps on the company site and MIND YOU, i applied yesterday. TELL ME HOW AND WHY the position is now filled/closed.

i don't have like any money – i can barely pay my own damn rent since my savings wasn't supposed to be lasting me forever. my sisters help me more, like offering grocerymoney or paying for a portion of my rent, but my parents are just– idk man. they are not parents atm.

i feel like a true failure and i just don't know what to do about it. im legit trying not to cry atm because i already freaked out yesterday but listen, im not tryna become god or the president or anything but i thought i'd be more than just... hopeless. everytme i draw, it feels boring and empty. when i was in school, i stopped graphics because i wanted to relearn drawing and creating art again but even that's being taken away from me.

i'm watching feel-good shows and re-watching oldies but every part of me is like... punishing myself for taking a break? yesterday i told myself i was gonna stop mass-appplying to jobs since i had that mini breakdown but my friend sent me a link to try to apply to. today, she asked me what departments ive appliued to – her position is very low on teh totem pole so i doubt she could get me a job– but yet thats when i saw that the positions i applied yesterday are already filled.

its depressing to hear for 100 jobs out there, 80% are FAKE and within the 20% left, you'd be lucky to get 2 interviews. i dont wanna lower my wage standards cause ya girl gotta eat too but goddamn. entyr-level positions want 10+ exp for some reason and jobs with certifications– listen, i was gonna try for the certificate until i read that you literally need this type of work experience for you to even APPLY.

spoke to another of my friend who said i should jsut appply to these lowtier jobs and get some money but like... i am so sorry, i have so much school debt that you want me to work minimum wage after just getting a masters? i would much literally rather kill myself (not before making sure none of my siblings get the brunt of my loans because its not their responsibility).

there is nothing good in life. nothing good in this capitalist society.

[trekkiehood]

1, 2, 11, 12, 17, 20, 21, 29, and 30?? (Sorry that’s a lot!!)

1. favourite fandom you joined this year

Supernatural 😁

2. favourite fic of the year

"Working With What We Got" by @somedayonbroadway

Like I have no words. This fic. This fic got me through early quarantine. Like I would like in bed at night mentally working on this fic because it was everything I ever thought I wanted. Legit everything by her is good but WWWWG (W4G?) Is probably my favorite fic of all time.

11. favourite OC you met this year

I really like one of the OCs I created for my fic Desiderium, Ash.

As for not my oc... I really don't deal much with OCs. I have to admit tho, @tunameltsner has some great ocs. I love everything I've heard about Kate and I even like Simon though I know less about him.

12. longest fic you read this year

I'm actually more of a short/one shot kind of girl but I will read long ones if it looks good. The longest I actively remember reading was "Skyline Pigeon" by @xlightmycandelx.

It was written in first person which is usually a no for me but it was so good I couldn't not finish it. It was 156671 words and 66 chapters.

It's also not complete so...

17. WIP you hope gets updated next year

Listen I would love for Skyline Pigeon to be updated. Don't see it happening (last updated August 2019) but I'd love to see it!

Also W4G. That'd be nice too.

I'm not gonna rush anybody but I wouldn't mind to see it updated lol.

20. favourite character of the year

Dean Winchester. Just... Dean Winchester.

21. favourite ship of the year

I fell absolutely in love with New Dream. Like I've shipped things before but.... New Dream hits different.

29. fandom “first” you accomplished this year

Well I completed the great fandom combo of Superwholock lol.

I also got to experience the chaos of Nov 5th. I'm telling you I smiled so wide because this was the tumblr I had wanted to join. Chaos yes. But it was the tumblr of pinterest lore lol.

Also I joined for the ending of two shows which is kind of cool. I joined Tangled right after the finale and Supernatural right before the finale.

Also Supernatural was the first time I ever actually... Cared about the cast. Like watching cons and being invested in who they were and what they did. So that was a cool thing this year.

30. fandom resolution for next year

Finish my fanfics. Like.... I just need to finish them all.

Really need to finish DKoT and OMY. Those are the two that desperately need finishing. I also want to finish Desiderium. But I'm also an idiot who's bout to start a new fic. So... We'll see.

The thing with DKoT is that I haven't been super active in the Marvel fandom since Endgame came out. I really just need to buckle down and right it. Might watch the movies to make me feel the need to whump Steve again. Idk.

As for OMY, I only have like two or three chapters left so I might even be able to finish it this year. It's just slow writing atm.

Desiderium is largely written just not.... Published lol. Need to work on that.

Hopefully I'll actually be able to finish these fics soon lol.

Thank you so much for asking!!! I really enjoyed answering these!