#i'd say i'm a shipper but i'm an ambigious one

[thetarttfuldickhead]

"I’m not even a hardcore shipper but what the hell am I supposed to do when the when “let’s get lost, let’s get lost in each others arms” plays over Roy and Jamie biking away from the windmill? Hmm?"

bro exactly 😂 like I wasn't against the ship, not a notp, but I didn't actively ship the pair at all or anything. but it's like, what am I supposed to do!! how can I not fall for this now!! you can lead me to water and damn I will drink okay!

You cannot be blamed or faulted in any way, dear nonny! This episode was a whole new level, that’s for sure (particularly, I feel, with the shared look and smile in front of the windmill and then the music starts playing… I mean, come on, what WAS that? Up until then it could have been just two buddies being buddies, but that just read a little too goddamned romantic to me. Doesn’t mean I think it’s intended to be read that way, by the by, but even so).

To be honest, I did ship them before… but a little hesistantly? Like, with how complex and gorgerous and layered their relationship is, I wasn’t – and am still not, if I’m being honest – sure I want or need romance and sex thrown in there as well. Sometimes I think that the inclusion of that tends to overshadow other aspects and reduce the relationship to being primarily about this one thing? I wouldn’t want that, not when we have the way Roy is obviously something of a paternal influence on Jamie, but Jamie is the only one of the players that quite often take the role of Roy’s peer? The way Roy’s being the only person Jamie is still a bit of a prick to at times, but also the person Jamie actively seeks out to comfort and help? How Roy is far rougher on Jamie than on anyone else, still thinks him a prima donna and fragile little bitch, but also pays him so much attention? Is willing to sacrifiece sleep and so much of his time to train him? Quoting one Jamie Tartt, “that’s mad, innit?”.

So I kind of want them to grow into something more, but I’m also resisting the idea that romance would actually be more. Romance and/or sex to me isn’t some higher order of relationship, not something necessarily deeper or more meaningful that any other strong relationship. I like what we have. I think is plenty.

But, okay, Roy and Jamie kissing would objectively be really, really hot, so of course I want that! They’d be such an interesting couple! Give me that! But maybe don’t! It’s complicated.

Now, Roy and Jamie and Keeley I ship unreservedly. This is the endgame I want (although one I deem sadly unprobably, if not wholly hopeless!). You might questions why my potential objections against Jamie x Roy don’t apply here, and that’s very fair and I don’t have a good answer, except there’s something about there being three of them that changes the dynamic to make it inherently complex and intriguing and yeah, that’s vague, but that’s what I’ve got.

Thank you for the ask, nonny - and happy shipping!