#i'll work on my hw before i get too sleepy

[noxtivagus]

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[gonbeanengr]

Day 3 | November 13, 2021

Margaritas, Drip Coffee, & Third Year Textbooks

prompt

Have you experienced burnout from studying? How did you handle it?

short answer:

Fuuuuuuuck yeah. Right now. How I handled it? I forced myself to stare at the pain, face it head on, and fight it in an attempt to slay it gloriously. I did stop and take a break- forced to, really, out of sheer fatigue and general apathy- then I returned to continue slowly but steadily getting through university. There's nothing else I can do. Just, fuckin', go and do my work. I have something I want to accomplish- if this is what I have to suffer, then I'll fucking do it. This isn't for anyone's sake but mine. I chose this life, and I won't half-ass it. Even if I have to get through all this agony, it won't last forever. My actions and what I will accomplish, however, will resound my entire life.

long answer:

Separate post! Also...beware? (So much swearing;;;)

music

more metal (kostolom is addicting, damn)

some classical (everyone knows Shostakovich's Waltz No. 2 but the Lyric Waltz from the same jazz suite is underrated!)

accomplished

report 2 M2U3 (chem lec) | progress

hw 13 & 14 (maths) | progress

to finish

plate 2, 5, & 6 (enggdraw) | late

reports, M2U3&4 (chem lec) | late

hw 13 & 14 (maths) | late

task 4 (vis art) | late

general thoughts

The scope of our chem lecture subject during midterms covered material science engineering, specifically on the topics of polymers and nano-materials- amazing topics! (The relevance to Formula 1 AAAAAA-) The only problem is that because I spent so much time reading a bunch and getting excited over learning about all the advances in this field of engineering, I've...been having trouble putting it all in one succinct report. And the report is now two weeks late. And...it's also the end of midterms. (I'm fucked.) The questions were simple:

"What are the polymers and nano-materials used in your field of study? How are they being employed? Discuss the significance of their creation or discovery in the future breakthroughs in the engineering field of your interest."

Also:

"Research on recent innovations or discoveries. Discuss only the salient points of this innovation or discovery. What is its significance? What are your thoughts about it? Would you venture on polymers and nano-materials as well based on this? Why or why not?"

I'm in mechatronics. Do you know how little those questions narrow it down? If it moves because of 0's and 1's and a shit ton of wires, then it's in my "engineering field of interest". Aka...almost everything in the modern world.

So I freaked out about it and...mom suggested I go along with her and her siblings to the mall for a little while. Her younger sister is a professor at a business school and her younger brother a former math prof at my engineering school. Both agreed that I should take a break. I wasn't visibly breaking down; my mom's words were, "You look kind of relaxed despite your workload, actually..." (I was flattered. Didn't realise I wore stress so well.) But they brought me out anyway. I got not one but two margaritas. We ordered onion rings, calamari, and chicken fillets too. Ah! Nearly forgot: and a basket of unlimited nachos. Hells yeah. The cheese dip was beautiful.

We went to get coffee afterwards (also great) and...now I'm not feeling so burnt out. The alcohol? Not sure. I tasted the liquor, right, but didn't really feel the effects- besides feeling rather sleepy before I drank the coffee. I'd never had a margarita because I'm more of a beer person, but there were nachos and I wanted them...and none of my friends drink either. They're all coffee people! So this is the greatest event of college drinking I've ever experienced thus far, aha. (Love you mom! <3)

It's pretty late now and I might pull an all-nighter to finish my chem report, but I don't think it'll be as soul-crushing as it has been recently. Liquid courage? Or more caffeine courage. Yeah. And metal!

LET'S FUCKIN' GOOOOO-