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racingmiku2018 · 1 year

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i like my job and i like having money but remembering that i have to work makes me feel like a baked good deflating immediately after being removed from the oven. work takes up so much of my energy that i barely have enough for the things i like to do outside of it like drawing and crafting and reading and gaming and i need to spend like 90% of my weekend just recovering from the work week and by the time im up to doing literally anything i have to go to bed bc i have work in the morning

#racing!#its so fucking twisted. an endless cycle of being exhausted leading to being sad youre tired and then being exhausted bc ur sad #what am i even doing all this for #the cycles endlessness leads to hopelessness and it becomes very difficult to be optimistic #keeping my chin up has become a necessity bc if i drop my head for too long it gets impossible to perk back up #and im SO DAMN LONELY ALL THE TIME!!!!!!! I MISS MY FRIENDS #i miss my partner and i miss some of my old coworkers #im so sick of being alone with myself this bitch is terrible company to keep #its really awful. the worst #i know im just tired in general and maybe in the morning ill feel silly for rambling #but right now i really feel terrible and i need to get it out somewhere or ill go to sleep and itll fester and result in weird ass dreams #id rather not have goddamn eldrich horrors and skinbeasts in my dreams again tonight thanks

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