#idc about the anatomy anymore AHHHH

[pineappical]

happy valentines! 💕💕

[gaysidecharacter]

i am physically deteriorating 🤡 i have two exams tomorrow and i did not prepare enough... like i understand the material for my micro class but my reproduction class not so much 🤡 like bruh idc about male anatomy 🙄🖐 but i guess... i HAVE to know SOMETHING about it.... i like... don’t want to even try anymore and just fail them exams... but they don’t drop ANY so thats where i’m like well... maybe... i should study but i procrastinated SO hard. i legit started to study like 4 hours ago and it wasn’t even GOOD studying. i probably only know 35% of the material okay ish for my micro exam and 40% of my repro class... I SWEAR I CHOSE MONDAYS FOR A REASON AND THEY STILL MAKE ME COME IN ON A WEDNESDAY WHEN I SPECIFICALLY ASKED FOR MONDAYS???? it doesn’t make sense... like i did it like that so i could focus on that class if i had an exam. monday is repro wednesday is micro and friday is o chem!!! but NO they just wanna have it all over the place huh 🤡 on the bright side... I SPOKE TO THEM 😌 i thought i was never going to see them again because some random guy took her spot? but no!!! shes working for insurance now since the winter storm really messed up a lot of things and well i was studying for my micro class well... i was catching up on all the lectures i missed... EITHER WAY. i heard a doorbell and i was like 😐 because i thought it was the males that come in acting like they own the place and just... don’t care about the pandemic since they’re always doing BBQ things and inviting everyone 🤡 anyway i open the door and THERE SHE WAS. ahhhh she looked so cute 🥺 i usually only like to use that emoji for my dog but AH. i literally was like oh hey😸 and she like chirped up a little with a hey 🥰 and AHDKABFSKFHS RUN ME OVER. she was here to take some measurements or i actually don’t know what 💀 i was so happy to see her since i hadn’t seen her in so long... and well she was doing her job 💀 but then she needed to check my roommates room and i was like oh... um... i think she’s still asleep 💀 and she was like oh really? 😅 and i was like i can call her! see if she’s awake? and she was like oh okay sure 😌 and i called but no answer... and i was like no... shes dead 😅 asleep 😗 and she laughed and then she was like no i can just look at pictures if they didn’t make any modifications! and well AH SHE IS LITERALLY SO PRETTY and like i made her laugh but i don’t even remember what i said... i get so nervous i just babble 🤡 and her VOICE RUN ME OVER PLS. oh my lord... its so... smooth? creamy? can that even be used to describe a voice? 🤡 EITHER WAY. ugh. she literally sounds perfect. i could hear her talk all the time 😔 and then her OUTFIT she looked so cute an professional 😭🖐 her little maroon button up 🥺 and her little clip board 🥺😭😭 literally i can’t 🤡 and her tattoo peeped a little through her sleeve and- i almost died 😀 HOW IS SHE SO ATTRACTIVE? it’s probably so obvious that i enjoy being near her... i just get so nervous that i want to leave because it makes me nervous!!! like i enjoy talking to her and i wish we could have casual conversations that aren’t about the apartment... but i know she’s just doing her job... and that she probably doesn’t see me that way... but i would still like to be friends!!! i wanted that with the last girl i had a crush on but i thought i was so straight back then 💀 i’ve only recently realized i had a crush on her in high school 🤡 and i think she knew 💀 because she did art and i asked her to tell me what ALL of her art meant and i went to the art exhibition BECAUSE of her... i wanted to see her art because she has some REAL talent even to this day!!! and she was openly bi but she called me cute so many times 😭🖐 one time at prom she saw me and she literally caressed my face a little! AND CALLED ME SO CUTE. I ALMOST DIED. how did i think i was straight 🤡 can we talk about that? getting more excited over a girl touching my face than kissing a male 😐 i still get flashbacks🤢 but i could speak to her... ITS SO MUCH HARDER TO TALK TO HER! i guess i like her more 🤡