#ideaposting. I guess

[crow-or]

stupid ass idwtbamg idea:

so imagine... aika and zira are at a mall (aika wants to have Normal Teen Experiences!!) and eclipse is at a random store and sees aika and zira, but he does NOT want to deal with all that today so he tries to avoid them but ends up bumping into them later he calls her the full 'star guardian: guardian of the stars!' title and tries to cover for himself by pretending to be a huge fanboy (since I imagine he's not very recognizable in a normal ass human outfit) this leads to him having a really weird double life where half the time he's trying to defeat her and the other half he's pretending (even if it's not much of an act after a while) to be her biggest fan AND IT WORKS TOO!! since he'd obviously know all her coolest moments as he's either the one being defeated or there somehow idk I came up with this at 3am, thoughts?

[butyouvealwaysbeenthecaretaker]

Last week, I had the post-coital thought that what if my sexuality isn't a work in progress, a thing that needs to be fixed or practiced at until I get better at enjoying [the things I'm supposed to enjoy] and maybe I can just say "i don't like this" or even "I've chosen not to work and this. I might be able to work at it, and get to a better place with it, but ive chosen not to" and maybe "i don't like this and therefore don't do it" is a complete sentence.

I know it's daft, but I do feel like I've turned an important corner. And like, it's a cornerstone of asexual politics I guess, to reframe whatever desires they do/do not have as not "a problem that needs fixing" but as "this is my jam, and that's objectively awesome".

Mostly I think about how limited the use of these activist concepts has been in my life. Like, I have been involved in feminism and kink and ace politics for Quite Some Time now, but somehow it's fallen short of feeling actually applicable to my life. These spaces often aspire to have a quasi therapeutic role, often because mainstream sources are inadequate to speak to the experiences of marginalised people. Still, while that's a good (and maybe necessary) goal, my experience is that these spaces are kinda crap at it.

Or at least, it's taken me 2 decades to feel like "if I don't like this, I don't have to work at it, my preference is a full sentence" is actually viable in my own life. I feel like that's mostly to do with getting away from destructive environments, getting the right therapy, and being with a safe person, rather than any consciousness raising or politics Ive read.

(The best ideaposts usually imply a question , and I guess in this case it's "what could political spaces do to provide this quasi-therapeutic work more effectively?")