#idk why the ask got messed up i think bc i edited the ask whoops

[amedetoiles]

i just finished the drama and i'm having severe emotions about jiang cheng's sacrifice, i am begging for any thoughts you have on this!!

@ first anon: I’m so sorry, and we welcome you to this hell. But also, hey, how did you know to come to my humble blog like this? Has my vocal incoherent crying become this famous across the vast MDZS tumblr spaces? XD I’m extremely amused by this development.

BUT DO I HAVE THOUGHTS ABOUT JIANG CHENG’S SACRIFICE YOU BOTH ASK? OF COURSE I HAVE THOUGHTS LMAO!

Every single day I cry about this. For the majority of the story, we have Wei Wuxian’s sacrifice, downward spiral, and vilification at the forefront. This makes sense. He is the narrator. The main character. The one whom this story is about. We don’t learn about Jiang Cheng’s sacrifice until the very end. Until the moment we, the audience, think all the pieces of Wei Wuxian’s story have finally been neatly picked up and tucked away and Wei Wuxian gets the happy ending he most assuredly deserves at long last, we discover that one of the driving catalysts of Wei Wuxian’s entire story is actually because of this singular moment right here:

A little brother who loved his shixiong so fucking much. A little brother who, in the wake of losing his home, his parents, and his entire clan down to his very last shidi, consumed by grief and anguish and vengeance, with the burden and responsibility of rebuilding the honor and memory of his family’s sect now on his shoulders, looked at his brother in danger and chose his brother. He fucking chose him!

The haters of this fandom can argue again and again that Jiang Cheng did not choose or stand by Wei Wuxian “when it mattered” or whatever cockamamey logic drives the anti-grape agenda, but the fact of the matter is, Jiang Cheng absolutely did. He absolutely unquestioningly fucking did. Despite society, despite his awful parents, despite his insecurities telling him that they are not brothers, that they are not blood, Jiang Cheng decided Wei Wuxian was his anyway. Jiang Cheng looked at his brother and decided getting hurt, losing his core, and dying, hurt far less than watching Wei Wuxian get hurt. Just look at this fucking face! The grief. The sadness. The concern for his brother’s life. The resolve when he comes to his decision. The realization of what he is about to do. The fact that he can’t say goodbye to either his brother or his sister and neither of them will ever know why. The fact that he knows he will die and that is okay because his siblings will live. Take care, he says. I’m sorry and thank you and I love you.

Fuck it all to hell. The greatest and worst things Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian do to each other were out of love. And Jiang Cheng never fucking tells him. It pisses me off so much that he never tells Wei Wuxian, but it also breaks my heart into thousands of suffering pieces. Because even at Jiang Cheng’s angriest, at his most cruel, even in the face of Wei Wuxian’s most hurtful words and moments and actions, Jiang Cheng never once holds this moment against Wei Wuxian. A man known to say the absolute worst things at the absolute worst times buries this secret so deeply in his heart and doesn’t say a goddamn thing ever. And Wei Wuxian never tells him about the golden core transfer. Granted Wei Wuxian’s secrets are by far the most detrimental, but GOD THEY’RE SO STUPID YOU GUYS! SO SO STUPID.

And I get why Jiang Cheng doesn’t tell Wei Wuxian. I do! There’s so many factors to his decision to keep this secret, the fact that he wants Wei Wuxian to choose him for him instead of out of some guilty obligation notwithstanding! And @howdydowdy wrote an extraordinary meta about it all. BUT HEY, you dumb ass grape, I think maybe your equally bruised and insecure brother would also very much like to know how much you loved him! That it would also help him understand even if it hurts, even it paints the back end of your entire first lives together in a terribly excruciatingly painful light. Even if he gets extremely pissed off at you! Hey, maybe it would do some good for you both if the roles are reversed and Wei Wuxian gets mad at your reckless disregard for your life. Huge, huge, absolute losers, and I love these idiots so much.

Basically, everything is Jiang Cheng and everything hurts. MXTX/MDZS/CQL was like, hey, here’s a wonderfully complex story about an idealistic chaotic kindhearted little gremlin who would dig his own heart out of his chest for the people he loves and how he finds the love of his life, but spoiler alert, you’re actually going to spend most of your foreseeable days crying about his extremely well-dressed and prickly purple grape little brother instead! SURPRISE!

Anyway tl;dr Jiang Cheng loves Wei Wuxian so fucking much, pass it on.

[hanmemyphone]

prove ur not weak and do all the flowers

excusE ME you hoe goddamn i knew reblogging this was a trap alr alr let’s gooooooo (sorry to others who asked, seeing as I’m doing all of them, you’ll see the answers here)edit 1: i hate this so much there are SO MANYedit 2: how the heck did you do these it’s so hard

In response to this!

amaryllis - name an attribute of yourself that you are proud of.Uhhhh, I guess I’m cheerful? I don’t like to be down around others bc it might make them feel down as well so I try my best to always keep a smile~

anemone - describe a time when you felt abandoned or betrayed by someone you loved.Like, two years ago when I thought I was so close to dating the person I’d crushed on for two years but then they seemed to completely ditch me (though I did know reasoning and such, we’re good friends now)

azalea - would you describe yourself as a patient person?Hmmmmmm it honestly depends on the situation. Sometimes I can be the most patient person in the world and sometimes I get super frustrated when someone fails to complete a simple task.

begonia - describe anything you see as a “red flag” (something that makes you cautious about a new friend or love interest)My red flags are when people don’t respect others, when they don’T GIVE UP THEIR SEAT FOR PEOPLE WHO NEED IT ahem and people who seem to lack common sense.

bird of paradise - do you like hosting parties, or do you prefer to just attend?I’m more of a ‘perfer to attend’ type. I don’t mind helping out behind the scenes but recently held a party with friends and it was the best mess ever. Definitely not one for hosting either.

bluebell - what keeps you humble?UhhhhhhHhHh probably my friends who are just so much better than me LOL

chysanthemum - describe your idea of a perfect day.Chilling at home alone playing games and just blasting music

spring crocus - describe your favorite childhood memory.hmmmmm probably waking up in the middle of the night to watch my dad play World of Warcraft. There was one certain raid he would play where there was a fight which took place in a theatre and every time you did it there was a different play. There was like Romeo and Juliet, Red Riding Hood and The Wizard of Oz. It was honestly so fun to watch these plays (despite the violence in the bg but we keep hush about that). This honestly pushed me into the gaming hole.

daffodil - how do you confess your feelings to someone you’re interested in?HahahahHAAHAHa I would answer this truthfully if I had ever done it. I was very close to writing a love letter just last year but wussed out. Though, in the future, I would probably say it to their face.

daisy - describe something that gives you hope when things seem bleak.Tbh I just remember the words of Monty Oum. People don’t get it but I honestly live by his words. He was the creator of RWBY but I followed him wayyy before that. He was always going on about how you should always keep moving forward and the only obstacle is time. Remembering how much he accomplished in his short life just makes me keep going.

foxglove - when was the last time you told a lie?Today? I think? Told my mum I went to the shops in the morning to get milk (I never did, I didn’t even wake up, my grandma got the milk instead whoops)

gardenia - have you ever had to keep a romance a secret? if so, why and for how long?Yes it did in my early highschool years. I was afraid my parents would find out and get me for it so I just kept it a secret, only telling a few close friends.

purple hyacinth - describe a time when you had to apologize to someoneI had to apologise to my ex because I was the biggest piece of shit in that relationship. I fell out of love and instead of breaking up with him and helping each other move on, I ignored him for a bit only talking to him when I needed to. Very bad of me I know :(

hydrangea - how much time do you spend on your appearance each day?Not that much LOL I just like, get dressed in something, brush my hair and do facial care stuff. 10 minutes and I’m ouT

white jasmine - what is something that never fails to make you laugh?1. The kpop band Seventeen. They’re such idiots and I love them.2. My friend, SC (just his initials) he’s just endless entertainment.

lavender -  describe your oldest friendship, and why you think it has lasted so long.My oldest friendship is with the monkey who asked me to do every single flower, I’m talking about you @moanbyul-yi >:(Honestly, what a great person tho, our friendship is just so chill and I love that. We don’t have to talk every day and spend time together to know that when we DO meet up, it’s never awkward.

lilac - describe your first relationship or first love.A very cringeworthy relationship when I was in the eighth grade (yeeeaaaaaah you know how it is). Was all fun and games until we realised that we never really did anything together.

calla lily - what traits do you find beautiful in others? in yourself?Kindness, honesty and just compassion. I love these in others, can honestly make me fall instantly. In me? idk HAHA I think others are more beautiful than me

tiger lily - if you had to choose between doing what you love and making very little money, or doing a job you hate and making a lot of money, what would you choose and why?I think I would rather be doing what I love. I don’t need that much money to live, I like living a very modest life so I’d much rather prefer looking forward to each day rather than dreading it.

lotus flower - would you say that you are a spiritual person? if so, what elements of spirituality are important to you?Not really? I appreciate it but I’m not really one for all of that.

magnolia - describe your favorite thing to do outdoors.Sleep. Honestly. Gimme a good, on the cold side day and I could just sleep on a nice patch of grass under a tree. 

morning glory - are you an affectionate person? if so, how do you show affection?I’m not an affectionate person at all. I don’t really hug others like some do or tell people how much I appreciate them or like them. Although, I think if I were in a relationship, I would love to cuddle and hold their hands. I found this out two years back.

pansy - what is the most thoughtful thing that anyone has done for you?Don’t know if it’s the most but it always makes me smile. Your second appearance @moanbyul-yi ! This one always paints (I’ll use this term broadly here) something for my birthday, it always brings a smile to my face legit. Ty dude.

peony - describe the top three things necessary for a happy life.SATISFACTION.RELAXATION.LOVE.

petunia - what never fails to make you angry?People who don’t give up their seats for people in need. I’m sorry, just don’t like this :(

red poppy - what tips or tricks do you use to cheer yourself up when you’re down?I listen to The Script or Seventeen. Pretty much just listen to music and sleep.

red rose - describe your ideal date or romantic evening.Oh geez, alr hear me out here. I would love to go window shopping with my partner and just sing the songs they play in department stores. Then, we would go home and just chill together, maybe play some games or watch some anime together.

yellow rose - do you get jealous easily?Yes. Very easily. I HATE this about myself because it could be the smallest most insignificant thing and it’ll still tick me off.

snowdrop - have you ever had a falling out with a friend or family member?Not really I don’t think? I don’t really get mad at people.

sunflower - do you consider yourself a loyal person?I think I am, now at least. Betraying others is just something I don’t have an interest in.

sweet pea - describe a difficult goodbye you had to make to a friend or other loved one.A few years ago I went on exchange to Japan meaning that I had to spend two weeks with a Japanese family. That was the hardest goodbye I ever had to make. I cried so much that day HAHA usually I don’t cry at goodbyes but inside I had the feeling I would never see them again so the river of tears started flowing.

violet - how important is loyalty in friendships and/or relationships?SUPER IMPORTANT. To make your friend/partner feel secure in a relationship is so important to their health, in my opinion. Loyalty is just great.

wisteria - do you like poetry? if so, describe your favorite poem(s).I love poetry! My favourite poem is To the Virgins, To Make Much of Time. Kinda mainstream but I love the meaning behind it, telling those who read it to make the most out of every day.

zinnia - do you have any loved ones in your life that you miss and wish you could see?I had a friend in the past who made me into who I am today but in 2014 she died to cancer. If I could see her one more time I would tell her that I loved her so much. I would thank her for everything she taught me and for the stories she told me. She’s someone I’ll never forget. Thinking about it now, maybe I wouldn’t wish to see her. She would probably get mad at me HAHA

[dancinginmydressinthesun]

3 for the unusualish asks💞

Oh I will girl ( you should have NOT give me that number right after the bold type season finale)

I cannot rant about Taylor bc everythings good and I’m living for that so lets just go with my favourite show and how fucked up everything is, I am usually not someone who voices their opinion too much especially on here bc thats just not the type of person I am but anyway 

The Bold Type has been my favourite tv show and if you have never seen it I still recommend you do bc overall its still a damn good show dont get me wrong if it does not seem like that (there are several reasons to watch it and I want it to become more popular so pls do)

Well, I started watching it right at the beginning, June/July last year when the first episode aired and BOI it blew me away, like, i did not expect anything major BUT lemme just say it destroys every other show its just that good (I love the girls it focuses on individually and together, the boss is full perfection, the main ship (a bi girl of colour and a proud muslim lesbian) was breathtaking, the storylines were on point and emotional and it just idk maybe they set the bars too high)

So the second season started airing beginnign of june and you know, I WAS worried before that they could not keep up but I had SO MUCH faith (but it also seems like the writers were kind of replaced and man that shows) the first few episodes were fire alright which is even worse bc i had lost all my worries and knew I was gonna be fed the whole season but little did I know …

You know I really hate complaining too much about something about a tv show that is there to enjoy and make me happy so I’ll stop thinking about it after this post but I do get the frustration so much (but death threats and bashing the whole show is not helpful whoops I said it) 

Just a few short notes on things that anger me a little (I’m probably forgetting thigns but anyway):

1. Jane (she is one of the three main girls) I really like(d) Jane a lot and I feel like I can identify with her, we are very much alike in many ways and this especially showed in season 1. I dont “hate” her at all after this season, not even dislike her, but she they used her for almost all (?) the controversial topics as the one who makes rude and subtle offensive comments, which is not bad in itself bc she learned from it mostly all the time and apologizes but it was just too often and much for me. in the first season Jane seemed at least trying to be more understanding even when she could not really and she was relatable with her concerns and her feelings and this was not really the case for me this season. I felt like she did not own up enough for some mistakes and it did not give me this tbt feeling of happiness and goodness and wholesomeness I had after every damn episode last season????

2. Screen Time (Jacqueline/Alex/Adena) You could probably talk about everyone of them in detail now but I dont have the energy - let me just say Adena and Jacqueline are my favourite characters so maybe I am biased and I know that this whole post need to be edited probably after I rewatch the season bc I can easier give feedback when everything is fresh in my mind but you know, all we fans wanted was to have backstorys (and bc he didnt really get one either this probably applies to Oliver too) not even much, just maybe like the episode in season 1 when we got to learn more about Jacquelines family and her past in general (still crying), it was so well-written bc it was not just something thrown in there but integrated in the storyline, it had purpose, it was emotional, it gave insight into her character and I honestly saw her with different eyes after that (and loved her even more), now those 3 or 4 just are really pushed to the sides. You dont see Adena without Kat really or talking about her character without it being about her sexuality and Kat (oh hey a gay one complaining about that??  yes bc even tho I answer I am gay after someone asks me “how are you” theres more to a person and especially to someone as interesting as Adena. I love hearing non heteros talk about their love life and everything surrounding it but at least then let Adena talk about how her coming out was, what she finds interesting in other women, if she ever struggled with it (i know they tried to cover some things but naah idk i just expected more) or just talk about something else, let us see her going to the movies with friends, a childhood throwback when she was in art class, let her talk about what she likes about some types of art. AND HER WHOLE CULTURE? I am a white western woman and I never see muslim representation on tv and I feel like still havent? i forgot at some point?! there are so many non-white people watching it hoping to be represented and ofc you cannot please everyone but now it just feels like Adena is just a proud lesbian you know. And Alex? what who was that again?

3. the storylines - sooo first of all, I liked the storylines more than most people probably from what I have seen on the tag. I think some of them were hard to put in just one episode and try to talk about everything important and still have  show going on, which is why it did not work all the time  have less storylines but make them work would be better. I really did appreciate that they tried to have a lot of stuff covered and they tried to put different points in there but there were a lot of het relationship and other drama stuff to be shown so the storys were often pushed too hard to the sides. this I say having the gun episode in mind the most i felt really unsatisfied after it and I was really looking forward to it bc i think its important and brave for them to talk about it (anyway watch one day at a time, the episode on the same matter is pure gold) . idk its alright its not the same feeling its less spectacular but I’ll stop whining about that now.

4. KADENA - I’ll try to be objective here , i do get that you cannot have a happy relationship without anything going on for 10 episodes (ok you can I would love that but maybe its less wise when it comes to viewers idk?? i stan unpopular shows so who am I to know) BUT come on, not like this?? they started of as PERFECT alright and then it all went downhill, you know cheating and stuff idk, I am not happy with it, could be more original, could be less meh but whatever I was like “ ok I’lll roll with it maybe its gonna bring a new light in this, let them grow, let them learn” but man idk. it was all a mess and once they made up and everything was fine (after 3 epsiodes of pure stress for my weak heart) after 5 minutes there was something new? almost any interaction was either them arguing or making up. I liekd their conversations mostly I really did but I was tired of drama all the time, after this season I’ll just say it: If they want to continue it like that until the end of season 3 I’d rather have them not together anymore. its no fun, its stress for them and even more for me and it would not seem realistic when they make them endgame at the very last minute (which I assume they will bc they promote it like that) without using multiple episodes and time passing to really let them grow in the relationship, without that it would just feel like one day after the finale of season 3 they would have somethng else coming up to fuck them up again. I was really baffled with the finale bc I WAS NOT expecting that they really wouldnt resolve it at all let us suffer like this (I remember that Nikohl i think said that it would be like that but someone else also said recently that it really feels like a finale and that the fans would feel assured but excited for the next season but excuse me? tbt fans who are happy about that end are great. would love to meet one one day. but where they at?? suttard fans all 3 of you I am happy for you honestly. and for sutton. richard idc. i am bitter tho. 

I STILL HAVE SO MUCH HOPE FOR SEASON 3 (pls let the old writers come back, listen to the fans, there are not too many instead of trying to make it more appealing to the general public what about pleasing us again with friendship, gayness, depth and happiness?)

(& remember: I.love.this.show. i do. I would recommend it even when there would only be season 2. but it would not be my fave anymore. its like as if taylor would have the same albums with the same music, same career, same backstory BUT her not really caring about her fans. I would still love her as an artist so freaking much. but would I jump off building for her?? naah maybe if there were a balcony and a pool who knows 

Thanks for coming to my TED talk 

[fuckedupriot]

I'm procrastinating

I was tagged by @stitchesespobeansturntan hello!!! nicknames? beep beep gender? i? don't know my pal star sign? cancer height? like 5'3 or 5'4 please send help or a stool for me to stand on time? 2:14 pm (edit bc as I post this it's 3:11 this took me nearly an hour rip at least I admit I was procrastinating with this) birthday? june 24 favourite bands? hippo campus, remo drive, public, bad suns, coin, walk the moon, foster the people, pinegrove, monday night, american authors, cruisr, the wrecks, weathers, saint motel, secret weapons, urban cone, x ambassadors, young the giant (OK I can literally go on forever and these are mostly in no particular order beyond hc & remo being my top faves rn) favourite solo artists? bleachers (jack antonoff), Andy grammer, oh god this is making me realize I don't listen to much solo stuff lmao OH I forgot to put focus ring (erik paulson) so adding that too also nathan stocker (hippo campus, but if ur reading this post you Knew That already) song stuck in my head? ok see this is hard to answer when I'm actively listening to music bc then that song is the only thing on my mind but I guess "don't know for sure" and "old ways" (both are by Monday Night) get stuck in my head a lot last movie you watched? see if I knew I'd be asked this I would have made sure it wasn't frickin zootopia but here we go it was fcuckign zootopia I s2g,, it's on Netflix oh my god I watched it bc of the meme and my dad ended up watching it with me for like over half of it??????? he was on his way to bed but just sat down and watched it last show you watched? I don't know?? I don't really specifically sit and watch stuff that often but I probably fell asleep with George Lopez on or somethin bc I always sleep with nickelodeon/nick@nite on,, when did you create your blog? probably in january this year but I started using it in february literally the day I saw them lol what do i post? hippo campus and random totally unrelated text posts last thing i googled? "focus ring bandcamp" (focus ring is erik from remo drive's solo stuff) do you have any other blogs? (like 100+ sideblogs mostly with hippo campus urls feel free to ask me for one or thirty lmao I was gonna maybe change this url or my main but I love both too much but here's the ones I sorta use) @oldrecordplayer (main) @remowalk (remo drive) also a twenty one pilots blog that barely gets updated and a blog that I thought id maybe use for public (the band!!) but nobody posts about them so it sits unused!!! @dottribe also ?? I've got a room design ideas blog with an iCarly url for some frickin reason?? @afanofhammers uh there's also my blog I used to use when I played runescape BUT I'm not even gonna talk about that anymore ashdkglh do you get asks? sometimes, mostly just random questions abt the boys!! why did you choose your url? lyrics to Violet!!! following? uhhhh around 2k bUT JUST TO BE CLEAR I've uh had this blog for years and I made the Mistake of following Everyone who interacted with my only post that had over like 200 notes lmao (it ended up getting like 3k I think rip) bUT that's how I met at least one friend on here so. worth it? followers? around 715 I think?? hello pals favourite colors? black, red, grey, white, gosh I'm boring but my room is all those colors so I'll list those lmao but I do love every color especially in rainbows (ahajskfl I'm Not straight pals) average hours of sleep? 3 or 13 I know that's not the true average mathematically speaking but if I were to do that I'd look like a normal person who sleeps a normal amount each night so I list both numbers so it shows how Truly a Mess I am lucky number? hmm never thought about it but? maybe 21 lol instruments? I tried to learn guitar but rip (literally oh no) to that idea and I bought a uke to try to learn to play that but i never did but it's cute it's rainbow!!! (of course it is though lmao) what am i wearing? dark blue jeans with holes in the knees and my work shirt that has a rainbow cat and a cucumber on the back it's not as cool as it sounds and next month I'm gonna put all of my hoards of shirts from the last like 2 years in a pile and burn them because I'm losing my job so I won't need them and then I can wear clothes I actually like to work ideally if I even have a job whoop$ (ok that $ was a frickin typo but. whoop$. OK that one was intentional) how many blankets do i sleep with? like 5 dream job? Having one after next month!!! lmao help me pals dream vacation? mpls to see a hippo campus home town show,, so close yet so far legit someone pick me up,, it's only like 600 miles out of ur way if ur from mpls pleas e (abt 300 each way) also uh I know I should say some kinda destination out of my Actual state I live in but I literally? don't have any place in mind I just love concerts favourite food? you can't go wrong with like pizza or sandwiches that covers a lot also pasta ?? nationality? I'm like. 90% Norwegian lmao ig my town claims to be the most Norwegian town in the USA or something ridiculous like that lmao idk I heard that somewhere but idk if it's confirmed tho? favourite song right now? buttercup by hippo campus!!! I just rewatched the video of the (I believe) first ever live recording of it from my first hc show back in feb and I just love that song so much and that video reminds me every dang time!!! I'm not gonna specifically tag anyone but if you'd like to do this go ahead!!

[approximately7bees]

1-100!

 1) What images do you have set for your desktop/cell phone wallpapers?

i just like aesthetic things so like my laptop’s background is crumpled up paper and my phone’s backgrounds are a picture of glitter and a picture of one of the golden ratio dogs lol

2) Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?

hmmmmm i feel like i have but i can’t actually remember any particular instance

3) What was your last text message?

i won’t type it all out because it’s really long but the gist of it is my friend who just turned 21 and i were talking about how we need to hang out more lol

4) What do you see yourself doing in 10 years?

so i’ll be almost 32 at that point, so i don’t know except i’m for sure going to be a proud dog mom and will hopefully be moving on up with my career

5) If you could be anywhere else right now, where would you be?

probably by the ocean. it’s a really nice day here but no bodies of water in sight

6) What was your coolest Halloween costume?

i was a genie one year when i was little and my mom made the costume, i rewore a lot of costumes because money so there isn’t a whole lot of excitement there

7) What was your favorite 90s show?

I’m gonna say Boy Meets World

8) Who was your last kiss?

lol, the gay guy I met last night who asked me to be his first hetero kiss 

9) Have you ever been stood up?

not like for a date or anything, but sometimes plans end up not working out with my friends

10) Favorite ice cream flavor?

marshmallow :3

11) Have you been to Las Vegas?

no!

12) Your favorite pair of shoes?

i have these black and blue glitter platform sandals that i like a lot

13) Honestly, have you ever cheated on your significant other?

i have not

14) What is your favorite fruit?

banana, but only freckly ones

15) Have you talked to anyone on tumblr that you could see yourself dating/having sex with? If possible?

no i don’t talk to people :/

16) Are you into hookups? Short or long term relationships?

i guess ideally i’d like long term but i’m kind of at a “take what you can get” stage

17) Do you smoke? If so, what?

nothing

18) What do you do to get over your anger?

normally vent on social media and delete it after a little while. 

19) Do you believe in God?

ye

20) Does the person you’re in love with know it?

well i’m not in love soooo

21) Favorite position?

cowgirl lol

22) What’s your horoscope sign?

gemini

23) Your fears?

i don’t really have tangible fears.i guess i’m afraid of information getting into the wrong hands like there is just stuff i don’t want some people to know. and i’m afraid of failing i think.

24) How many pets do you have? What kind?

i have 2 cats, but I would also say the pets at my parents are mine so 2 dogs and 2 more cats too

25) What never fails to turn you on?

neck kisses???

26) Your idea of a perfect first date?

the person i’m with is capable of carrying a conversation, but i feel comfortable enough that i don’t actually need to worry about what to say. we go do something fun that they have prior knowledge of so i don’t have to be the one like planning stuff. idk, i don’t have one single thing that i would want to do on a first date, i’m more concerned with the social aspect lol

27) What is something most people don’t know about you?

i probably wouldn’t call myself straight anymore i guess?

28) What makes you feel the happiest?

when it’s stormy in the summer and i don’t have any responsibilities at night and i can just do anything i want. preferably also a dog is there

29) What store do you shop at most often?

dillon’s lmao that’s where i get groceriessssss

30) How do you feel about oral? Giving and/or receiving?

i really like giving, receiving would be nice but i have like such low expectations :/

31) Do you believe in karma?

mmmmno i don’t think so

32) Are you single?

yep

33) Do you think flowers or candy are a better way to apologize?

better way to apologize than what? i do think gifts can add to a verbal, authenticate apology but i think one of my main love languages is gifts

34) Are you a good swimmer?

i’m decent, i did swim team as a child/ pre-teen so i have some of those skills still

35) Coffee or Tea?

coffee

36) Online shopping or shopping in person?

online shopping bc i hate people, but also it’s really hard to know if a clothing item will fit when you buy it online

37) Would you rather be older or younger than your current age?

my dude i’m fine where i am 

38) Cats or Dogs?

D: i’m going to say dogs bc i love dogs but i love cats too

39) Are you a competitive person?

situationally. a lot of the time i don’t care enough

40) Do you believe in aliens?

yeah

41) Do you like dancing?

no, i might if i was good at it but sadly i’m white

42) What kind of music to you listen to?

lots of kinds, i like folk rock a lot 

43) What is your favorite cartoon character?

ummmmmmmm i might say ice bear from we bare bears

44) Where are you from?

kansas

45) Eat at home or eat out?

i love to eat out. or more accurately, i love to use the drive thru and then bring the food home

46) How much more social are you when you’re drunk?

oh my gosh so much more social. which i learned last night . but lowkey right now at least i feel like actually more comfortable being social after last night because like i know i have the capacity to do it? which would be cool, bc one of the reasons i was feeling worried about drinking was bc like what if i start believing i need alcohol to function socially and like whoops i have slipped into being an alcoholic bc like that’s somewhat in my family. but i think that that isn’t the case

47) What was the last thing you bought for yourself?

i mean i bought a soda earlier but i’ll say it was a case for my mac so i can stop carrying it naked

48) Why do you think your followers follow you?

well a lot of them are porn bots, and a lot of them are people who don’t use tumblr anymore. the rest i would say are here because i post a lot of different things and i have good taste ;)

49) How many hours do you sleep at night?

lately it’s been real bad maybe 6 hours or less ?? but that’s because i’m kind of a mess, i usually aim for 8 hours

50) What worries you most about the future?

i’m worried for like the future of the country, the world etc but not really worried for my own future

51) If you had a friend that spoke to you the same way you speak to yourself, how long would you be friends?

actually probably a while, i have been a lot more positive about myself lately i think. and i keep doing these dumb inside jokes with myself so i feel like that would be fun (ex. lately i have been thinking about something and i��ll be like “oh yeah, that’s what we in the business call *the common name of whatever i’m thinking of*” and it’s like dumb but i’m amused by it so like me and myself are getting along swell)

52) Are you happy with yourself?

yeah i am!

53) What do you wish you didn’t know?

probably stuff about my ex, like i sometimes will look at his page and find stuff out and regret it

54) What big lesson could people learn from your life?

a lot of good stuff is just luck

55) If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?

probably like one of the fancy homes in gossip girl or something

56) What’s your favorite Website?

it’s probably tumblr, even after all this time

57) What’s the habit you’re proudest of breaking?

i don’t really have a lot of bad habits, maybe like picking at stuff or something

58) What was your most recent trip of more than 50 miles?

going home for easter but that’s lame so i’ll say going to Atlanta for the ncaa tournament

59) What’s the best bargain you’ve ever found at a garage sale or thrift store?

probably just some of the nicer sweaters i’ve found

60) What do you order when you eat Chinese food?

depends where i go but i really like getting sesame chicken, white rice, and crab rangoon at my go-to place

61) If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be?

Montana

62) If you had to teach a subject to a class, what would it be?

hmmmmmm i could probably teach like editing in a writing class or like basic coding

63) Favorite kind of chips?

probably like baked lays. they taste so good and they’re healthier???

64) Favorite kind of sandwich?

i really like the chicken bacon ranch from subway

65) Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus?

dictionary

66) Have you ever been stung by a bee?

no i have not

67) What’s your favorite form of exercise?

lately it’s weight lifting, like exclusively

68) Are you afraid of heights?

nah

69) What’s the most memorable class you’ve ever taken?

maybe my politics of women of color class

70) What’s your favorite breakfast?

toaster strudels? i don’t really eat breakfast anymore

71) Do you like guacamole?

nah

72) Have you ever been in a physical fight?

lol no

73) What/who are you thinking about right now?

i’m hungry 

74) Do you like cuddling?

yes, tho my back is super sensitive so there are Factors there

75) Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?

probably yeah

76) Have you ever experienced one of your biggest fears?

no

77) Favorite city you’ve been to?

probably San Francisco, though i was only there for a day

78) Would you break the law to save a family member?

Depends on the law probably

79) Talk about an embarrassing moment?

my life . lol. um the thing is i’m bad at telling stories and bad at remembering things (specifically negative things, i block that shit right out) so i don’t know

80) Are there any causes you strongly believe in?

yeah like basically all causes surrounding how people are treated

81) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

i think when i was little i conked my head and got stitches maybe? part of being risk averse is that you don’t really get hurt, plus i’m like not clumsy

82) Favorite day of the week?

i like fridays i think

83) Do you consider yourself sexually open minded?

not particularly, but i’ll try some stuff

84) How do you feel about porn?

like ethically i know it’s wrong

85) Which living celebrity would you like to know?

harry styles asd;fjas;dkfsdf

86) Who was your hottest ex?

lol uh of the whole two of them? neither

87) Do you want/have kids?

nooooooo

88) Has anyone ever told you that they wanted to marry you?

yes 

89) Do you get easily distracted? 

yeah sometimes

90) Ass or titties?

ass i guess, i like a booty but i’m not really the demographic for this question i think

91) What is your favorite word?

humdinger (i don’t know if this is my favorite word but that’s the word that came to mind)

92) How do you feel about tattoos?

i want one and am going to get it when i reach my goal weight (and i even have an obtainable goal, an eating plan, a work out routine, AND a scale) but like idk i feel like some people get dumbass tattoos

93) Do you have any pets?

............didn’t this questions happen earlier.. yes. 2 cats.

94) How tall are you?

5′10″

95) How old are you?

21, just about 2 months until i’m feeling 22

96) 3 physical features you get complimented on a lot?

my hair, my eyes, my nails (i guess)

97) Is there anything you’re really passionate about?

i get passionate like politically but i think in general i’m not v passionate

98) Do you have trust issues?

i probably trust too much idk

99) Do you believe in love at first sight?

naw

100) What are some words that you live by? Why?

there’s no harm in applying for things. like the worst thing that will happen is you won’t get it, and also you won’t get it if you don’t apply.