#idk. i keep looking at the hanahaki and that bombed pretty well. just like everything before it | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

the-kipsabian · 9 months

Text

im really just struggling at this point again to think that i can do anything with writing. or that im any good at it, that the things i make are any good or worth anyones time. that what little i manage to push out rn is even worth the effort of even making

#idk. i keep looking at the hanahaki and that bombed pretty well. just like everything before it #and yeah sure maybe i should give it a bit more than three days but in the hell scape of online its already been forgotten #ppl arent gonna find it going forward either if they havent looked at it already #just.. its not that just with this. its everything. it takes me so much to get writing these days and its just not giving me much back #i mean it makes me happy to create (i think) but beyond that its just a waste of my time and already limited energy i have #its just not worth it i think. who fucking cares #i know i keep saying this and then turning around to make something again just to burn myself again and repeat the cycle cause i never learn #it is what it is. i know i cant make people care even if i try. i honestly dont know why im trying #maybe i just really actually need to step away. like. for good #im just not good at anything maybe i'll get it through my thick fucking head one day #how its nothing but disappointments and misery one day after another. and almost always self inflicted. yay #sorry you dont care its fine im just sad again

3 notes · View notes