#if I feel motivated enough I'll do another follow up with dabi tbh

[inexchangeforyoursoul]

After that, Hawks slowly but surely collapsed into a crouching, quietly weeping mess. Except it was less and less about being touched and more about him feeling like a piece of shit. :^)

(it did earn Himiko about 12 bucks and a half tho... bc she would bet on that)

This is kind of a follow-up of that sleep pile I drew about two weeks ago... happy way-too-early Mother’s Day? (Ignore the angst if you want to. In fact, have this:)

(twice is just a little creecher. thatse it. he canot change this.) (also fae suspect)

Anyway, have some additional txt and other extras with Spinner bc I’m gonna SMASH all of this into a One For All single-use post:

With slight befuddlement on his face, Hawks twirls the rounded object around his fingers before looking back at Spinner. The confusion can also be felt in his voice once he speaks up.

“... lipstick?” Really? Random as hell. Did he buy some kind of Mother’s Day edition cat-in-the-bag instead of going for flowers, like the others? Or does he just not really care? Looking at the morose expression on the guy’s face, latter is not likely.

The other wrinkles his snout. He’ll have to get this part out of the way, doesn’t he.

“… well, it was meant to be for Magne, but…” Spinner’s shoulders rise in a half-hearted shrug, and he tilts his head with one raised brow in discomfort. He sighs before returning to the answer; “Anyway, since you’ve become somewhat of a stand-in for both big sis and Kurogiri, and today’s… y’know. Figured I should get rid of it already.

”It always felt like a dead weight in his bag whenever he had to remind himself that it was still just… sitting there. Aimlessly. For months. But he spent the last of his money from home on the birthday present, so hell if he threw it away.

Hawks’ eyes focus back on the small tube; the bottom reads ‘Rosso Corsa.’

 “... so only half a joke. I see.” Much like the severely dehydrated potted tulip, fresh bouquet and the couple of wilting daisies and thistle in his other arm, but there’s an additional weight to it. He lets out a sigh of his own and allows a small smile to creep on his lips. “Reserved for special occasions, then.”

Spinner nods in acknowledgement and relief.

“Is today special enough?” chimes in Himiko from behind him. God knows when she creeped up… one can never be too sure with her around. And there’s a very special kind of glint in her eyes, indeed… the one reserved for make-up artists before a photo shoot.

“…” After a long moment of consideration, he stops staring at her, and his eyes dart back to the lipstick. He doesn’t need to look to know that there’s a pained expression on Spinner’s face as he mumbles something along the lines of ‘oh my god you’re gonna do it aren’t you’.

Honestly? Yes. To hell with it all, yes, he will.

“Just having been nominated a single parent of half a dozen or so is quite out of the ordinary, I guess… I’ll bite.” He’s not entirely sure who counts to this brood and who doesn’t. They are all bona fide idiots in one way or another. And so is he, apparently.

She jumps a little in excitement. “Yes, yes! Let me!!!” Having snatched the item, she takes an overjoyed look at the actual color inside. “It’s just like your wings when it's all bright outside…! I have some other stuff, can I make you super pretty?!” she asks then, turning back towards Hawks.

“Make me… the fairest mother hen of all.”

soon after Dabi walks in and this biptch turns around like

and Dabi’s just

“why do y’all have to make things w e i r d”

(For anyone wondering where Shigaraki is during all of this: I guess most of you saw that cryptid doodle I did a few days ago already? That red in his hair was no accident. All he did was basically clean up a little around himself, but Hawks was proud enough to smooch his head. He almost died, but it was #worth.) (He prolly should wash his mouth after that tho, because let’s be honest...)

[localcactushugger]

Is anyone else amazed that Hawks was only "undercover" with the Leauge for 6 months at the most.

Not only that, one and a half of those 6 months were spent just trying to gain enough trust to infiltrate.

I know it seems like much longer since Hawks made his Manga debut 2 years ago. But he had such a short amount of time on this mission. Hawks was introduced in the manga with his role being the "double agent". We literally have not seen Hawks outside of his "spy" role. Even when he is interacting with other characters outside of the Leauge, his "mission" is still happening in the background.

It seems Hawks made contact with Dabi right before the Hero Billboard chart, this is when he starts trying to infiltrate. His interaction with Dabi in the warehouse begins immediately after Endeavors fight with High-End:

During this time, Dabi is testing out a High-End Nomu for doctor Ujiko. Which means by the time Endeavor fights High-End, the My Villain Academia arc is already happening. Hawks is assumed to be one of the "members" Dabi is trying to recruit:

The Leauge has already made contact with doctor Ujiko, and the Doctor sends Dabi to test his High-End Nomu out on Endeavor (even though Dabi didn't know it would be Endeavor) while the rest of the Leauge battle Machia. At the time, Dabi still doesn't trust Hawks at all and he keeps the hero at arms length. While Dabi and Hawks are sharing ominous phone calls, the Leauge is hauling ass and it take's Shigiraki a month and a half to finally beat Machia. (The MLA is "defeated" too):

After a month and a half of phone calls (while the Leauge gets their asses handed to them by Machia in the background) Hawks is finally allowed into the Leauge when the battle of Dekia City is finally over. Dabi let's him in because Hawks "kills" Best Jeanist.

But there's a problem. By the time Hawks is let in, The Leagues numbers have drastically increased. They have an army at their side, multiple High-End nomu, and are now called the MLA:

Hawks blames himself, saying that he was "too late". That so many civilians would be alive now if he had been faster. He couldn't round up the Leauge when they were a small group, and now they have an army. A powerful one:

He's in too deep now. And you can see the stress on his face. I bet he never expected to be part of an army. He was simply tasked to round up the Leauge members while they were a small group, but the MLA was completely unexpected. Still, he decides to improvise and do the best he can with the shitty cards he's been dealt. It's not like he has another option at this point.

So he slips a coded message to Endeavor ASAP. Basically saying "yo, in four months shits about to go down. Ttyl I'll keep you posted lol". He can't tell the guy in person now, because to make things harder, he has camera's on his wings. (and even though he's being watched by camera's, he also gets followed by guards at the mansion):

After Hawks relays the massge, he stroles around the mansion with his bodyguard and heads towards the cafeteria. With a little eavesdropping (courtesy of his feathers) he also finds out that the Leauges plan is to "Destroy Everything" in four months:

After he relays the massage to Endeavor, he listens to the Leauges plans of destruction as his thoughts run a thousand M.P.H.

Because now "capture the Leauge" has turned into "Holy shit I now only have 4 months to take down a full fledged terrorist organization/army from the inside-out by myself while I'm being monitored 24/7 with absolutely no privacy & also a full time job as a hero + a public image to maintain. And I can only contact my fellow pro's about this mission through code because if the villains find out I'm a double agent I could be killed and Japan could be destroyed. Also some heros have even joined the MLA so who on my own side can I trust? Only a select specific few for now I guess."

If you thought things couldn't get worse your wrong.

Because around 2 months before the raid Hawks' heart (that wants to be free & has a genuine desire to help people) takes shit a bit too far when it makes him get attached to a certain powerful villain.

Hawks quckily finds out that Twice is easily the second most powerful villain in the Leauge after Shigiraki. He's an S ranked villain and he'll kick your ass with the power of friendship anyday. He's a great guy, but him and the Leauge are still planning on doing horrible things within the next 2 months. Twice is going along with it because he wants to stick by his friends, which y'know, is a cool motive. But considering that fact that the people Hawks is trying to protect ALSO have friends, and family's, this makes shit difficult and sends Hawks on some major guilt trips. (I would show all the panels of Hawks sadly smiling as Twice calls him a "good guy", but alas- Tumblr has informed me that I've reached my 10 image per post limit)

And tbh who wouldn't feel bad about suddenly getting attached to such a golden retriever of a man and then realizing you'll have to double-cross him at some point! I'm not surprised Hawks would feel this way, especially considering the fact that he never wanted to take on this mission in the first place.

Hawks is very much a people person, and he HATES lying even when he has no other option. This is a man who got "shivers up his spine" when he had to put on a serious face while handing Endeavor a book with coded messages inside. He literally felt icky and thought "this is low even for me" just because he had to use a deadly expression so that Endeavor would get the gist.

And when the Commission made their "proposal" about this mission, Hawks' first reaction was to call them out on their B.S. for asking him to put civilian lives at risk. He even admitted that he was feeling bad about sending Tokoyami away while talking to Deku, Shoto, and Bakugo. Hawks felt guilty about not being able to spend more time with his student, but considering that things with the MLA were starting to get riskier, and that Hawks literally handed Endeavor a book with a coded message inside about an uprising 2 seconds later, I can see why he wouldn't want to risk Tokoyami being around him. The fact that the camera's on Hawks' wings caught his interactions with Endeavor & the students also makes the creep‐factor worse. The MLA saw everything AND talked about it in a meeting later. Continuing to train with Tokoyami would put him at risk.

I love the complexity of Hawks' character, he's incredibly intelligent, logical, and intuitive. But at the same time throughout this entire mission his heart is constantly battling with his mind. Even when he knows he has to grit his teeth and do something shifty, his heart never fails to put up a fight with his logistics. Honestly it's been a pattern for a while that Hawks' sympathy always "Trips him up" in some way, so idk why I didn't see it coming around to bite him in the ass later.

(Tbh it's hard for me to see Hawks as a this super "Morally Gray" person that the fandom likes to paint him as because of a mission that he only spent 6 months on. I personally, kinda see Hawks as a "good person" who works for a "morally gray" agency. But that's a whole different meta)

Basically, Hawks getting attached to Twice wasn't a surprise. But considering how powerful Twice was, along with his role in the League's destructive plans (He was a lieutenant in one of the MLA's "Units") the discourse going on in Hawks' mind makes sense. By this point Hawks has already figured out all of the MLA's "Units" along with the three "bosses" that support the lieutenants of those "Units". It's noted that those "bosses" are extremely powerful and can match the strength of the heros as well. It took Hawks an entire month just to figure out all of the "Units" members. (I would show the panels explaining all of this but I'm at my photo limit)

All of these members were tasked to follow their lieutenants and bosses, and the plan was to attack all of Japans major cities at the same time. Once the cities were destroyed and chaos had set in, Redestro and feel good inc. Would distribute support items to the remaining citizens in the name of "self-defense". It would create a country full of discourse and destruction where Redestro and Feel good inc. Would rule from the shadows. But Shigiraki would be the main leader. He would become "king" and sit upon a "throne of rubble". (At least this was the MLA's plan, Shigiraki himself just kinda wants to destroy everything. But I suppose this would make things easier for him to do that.)

needless to say, the stakes have been upped excessively. But it took Hawks an entire month to gather this info.

This post is honestly just me marveling at what an M.V.P Hawks is

My guy literally only had 4 months to take down an entire terrorist organization for the inside-out. AND he was being monitored during that entire time. He figured out the MLA's intentions within the first month of being there. And it took him another full month to go into detail and figure out all the members, bosses, and lieutenants, for each of their "Units". Hawks even went as far as to immerse himself in the MLA's ideology, and he had in-depth discussions with the MLA's members. HELL HE EVEN FAKED HIS CO-WORKERS DEATH JUST TO GET IN.

AND HE PRETTY MUCH IMPROVISED ALL OF THIS SHIT!!! The original plan was to capture the Leauge when they were a small group! But by the time Hawks managed to infiltrate, The Leauge already had an army! They were a full-blown organization! And Hawks just kinda rolled with it??? He just kinda bullshitted his way through??

Like, "okay I'm now apart of an army I guess. The Leauge is now an entire organization and they're planning on destroying Japan in March. Let's see how this goes. I'll just have to make this work"???

LIKE HOW THE FUCK IS HE NOT DEAD! WHAT A FUCKING MADLAD