#if anyone wants more details I wouldn't mind sharing tho

[shslskaterboy]

Hey bestie tell me more about that phantom theives band au👀

(^is enabling again)

Oh my god Al. My best friend Al. I have so many thoughts this is gonna be such an essay I hope you’re Fuckin ready

No seriously this got so long it's basically the bones of a fic, but uh, I'm kind obsessed with it so here we are

First of all, it’s an aged up non-metaverse au, so everyone is like 23~ give or take. Akira, Ann, Yusuke, Haru, Makoto and human Morgana all met in university, Ryuji is childhood friends with Ann, and Futaba met the rest of them through her adoptive brother Akira, and Akechi is the ex-boyfriend that no one ever talks about.

The band consists of singer/front man Akira who does the song writing. He was one of those child prodigy musicians who primarily played piano and violin, but taught himself guitar despite his parents aversion to his favourite genre (which is emo-punk bc it’s not a true James hc without some MCR influence.) The first beginnings of the band were him and Futaba as teenagers since she also played the keyboard, but the Phantoms would not be a realized dream until he met the rest of them in uni.

He meets Morgana and Ann first, the former who can play guitar, and the latter who knows absolutely everyone. When Akira floats the idea of wanting to form a band, Ann is more than happy to rally up her friends Makoto, Haru, and Mishima to fill the spots of bass, second guitar, and drums. Things actually come together very well at first, they start simple with practices and small shows at Crossroads (Akira works nights there and Lala-chan is very supportive of his endeavours) and eventually they start to be able to handle more complex songs. Haru becomes truly incredible at absolutely shredding, Makoto is the pinnacle of sexy bass-player coolness, and Akira is more confident than ever in his songwriting. They even end up commissioning their friend Yusuke to make posters and design a logo for them (he would've done it for free since he was hanging out anyways, but they insisted on compensating him properly)

Unfortunately there is one person who is not very confident, and Mishima ends up quitting the band because he’s worried he’ll weigh them down, leaving them with a rather open gaping hole to fill. The Phantoms have become fairly well established at this point and are pretty popular among the other university students, leaving Akira very worried about finding an adequate replacement- and none of the people they audition seem to be able to keep up.

Luckily, Ann knows a guy.

Akira is hesitant because this guy apparently has no experience playing in a band and is totally self taught, but Ann swears up and down that he’s really good and “please Kira just give him a chance, what’s the worst that can happen?” And so he eventually caves and agrees to have the guy try out, assuming that it will end up in failure just like all the others.

Enter Ryuji Sakamoto to the chat. He’s loud, he’s energetic, he’s covered in tattoos and piercings, he’s arguably obnoxious, and Akira doesn’t want to be impressed but he absolutely is. Ryuji surpasses all his expectations and it drives him fucking crazy because he shouldn’t be this good and yet. And Yet.

So he begrudgingly agrees to have Ryuji join them for their next practice, and decides to throw all of their most complicated songs at him. Make or break. Sink or swim. Either way he’s determined to push Ryuji hard until he cracks and crumbles under the pressure, ultimately proving Akira correct.

What he does not account for is Ryuji’s incredible stubbornness and determination, pushing him to outlast and out-perform each and every time without fail, even in the face of the rather tense relationship building between them.

Or at least Ryuji thinks it's tense, but Akira is starting to crumble himself, and although he is loathe to admit it, their new drummer is growing on him.

Of course in this au Akira is autistic (bc again it wouldn't be a James hc otherwise) and communication is not his strong suit, so he expresses himself in the only way he knows how, which is music. He writes the songs himself and is usually the one choosing which ones they're going to play, and the ones he picks become gradually more emotional and personal to him in hopes that Ryuji is paying attention.

The culmination of this being when Ryuji overhears Makoto questioning his song choices, saying "but don't you think the new guy..." and assumes (understandably so) that they're still questioning his abilities to keep up. He confronts Akira about it, only to be told "you know I write these all myself right? So listen and maybe you'll learn something."

Ryuji ends up feeling awfully foolish when the song ends up being about deeply personal struggles, but Akira doesn't hold it against him- instead inviting him out for ramen after practice so they can have a real conversation that doesn't involve them bitching at each other. He apologizes for being so standoffish, and explains the autism that went undiagnosed for so long, and the fact that his parents kicked him out when he was 16 because they found out he was gay- which is what lead to Sojiro adopting him.

In turn, Ryuji tells him about his father and the Kamoshida incident (resolved in a non-metaverse way obv) and a new understanding is formed between them, which eventually paves the way to a budding friendship. They bond over shared taste in music, video games, anime, the works, and the band becomes stronger than ever.

And it isn't long before group hangouts become one-on-one hangouts. They'll get takeout and go back to Ryuji's apartment to play games- Ryuji always drives and always makes a point of opening the door for Akira- and each time they'll stay together a little later, and linger a little longer in the car before saying goodbye.

The rest of the gang is understandably intrigued by this turn of events, especially since Akira hasn't seriously shown interest in anyone since his big breakup, but Ann The Matchmaker is confident that she can give them both the push they need to take the leap. Ryuji is skeptical about her insistence that he absolutely 100% does have a shot with Akira, meanwhile Akira has come to terms with his feelings for Ryuji but does not know how to express them, so he does what any reasonable person would do: get everyone to go drinking and dancing so he can have a very convenient excuse to get very close. He even remembers to put the snake bites in for this one

(spoiler alert, his plan absolutely works and he does not wake up in his own bed the next day)

And then things are good because of course they are. They're the sun and moon, adhd/autism, they balance each other out, they respect each other, they bring out the best in one another, and for the first time in over a year Akira feels totally at ease.

But of course we have to have an obligatory "oops we ran into your ex-boyfriend in public and now he knows you have a new boyfriend and is being weird about it" scene, where Akechi susses out their relationship and proceeds to be a massive bitch about it. Of course all of it is ire directed at Ryuji and his general appearance/demeanor, which doesn't really bother him because fuck it, he managed to get through high school and is okay now, why would he care what some pompous twink has to say about him? Akira on the other hand is not having it, and Ryuji has to interject before they can have a full-on argument in public.

This run-in prompts Akira to actually talk about his relationship with Akechi- something that he had never done before- and in doing so can finally come to terms with how much it really affected him, and gain some semblance of closure. (Perhaps I will talk about the Akechi relationship in a different post so that this one doesn't end up being 800 miles long)

In the end, this is all a very long and elaborate pegoryu story that I haven't really thought of a proper end for, and was entirely inspired by me listening to music whilst walking my dog and going "ough but imagine emo Akira" which became "imagine emo Akira singing." That coupled with the fact that Ryuji is the most drummer ever, and I found myself with a recipe for a delightful daydream that became so wild the more scenes I imagined and wrote in my head.

Maybe one day I'll try and turn this into something, or at least just a collection of scenes ranging from fluff to angst to, uh, other, if I'm feeling really crazy about it, but yeah, long story short I am absolutely buckwild insane about them and I think about this a lot

[curatoroffiction]

Congratulations on your milestone!!!

Can i request perhaps a comfort with Octa trio, with an artist reader but finding out their art it just a coping mechanism, please?

if its not too much tho— feel free to ignore the request:)

Thank you!

Azul had long-since attempted to get one of your art pieces in the Mostro Lounge. The art of another world - Another universe! It was a novelty that was discovered in your first art class. You had techniques and perspectives and memories of places no one had ever seen. Whatever you put your mind to, you poured your heart and soul into it to bring something alive in it. Something none of Twisted Wonderland had ever experienced before you arrived; Your world.

Your teachers were surprised and excited by your works. Other students marveled as they asked questions about the places you painted, or the things you captured in your sculptures. Your art very quickly became the talk of the school - And it was spreading quickly beyond those confines as people passionately shared photos of your work online and discussed what you'd say about your own work. Posts of your paintings were going viral online, and you were attracting quite the unique art convention to Night Raven College. But to you, it was the only way you could see your world, even just a glimpse of it. It was because of your rise in popularity that Azul was willing to do whatever it took to get a piece of your art. Something to attract people to the Mostro Lounge, something he could invest in for the future - A ___ ___ original! But you weren't selling. "Look, Azul, I've told you several times already that I'm not selling. I'm not doing commission work. I just, I just create art, and I'm keeping it for myself." "Surely, ___.. You couldn't appreciate all this art on your own? You MUST have some pieces you're willing to part with. I've got quite the offer, I'd say.." "No thank you." "You can have a meal a day at the Mostro Lounge for a month." "No." "Two months." "I said no." "Three-" You start closing the door on him again, which is when a foot slips right between the door and the doorframe. You look up to see Floyd grinning, having just slithered into view. "Now Shrimpy, I think you should hear out Azul's offer.. ~ Wouldn't want to be rude, yeah?" He's daring you to give him just one reason. You sigh, slowly opening the door. You're not looking to give him a reason. Azul straightens his tie, coughing into his fist as he puts on his smile again. "Now, ___.. I'm sorry we're getting a little more.. eager? But you have to know by now that your art is going to make a lot of noise. If you let me host a public gallery, we can keep the art hounds off of you. No one will know your address, and anyone who comes here to harass you would meet quite the resistance! I know you like your privacy, so please, let us help you." "...." You stare at the two, your hands still firmly on the door, ready to attempt to slam it at any moment. Jade is nowhere to be seen, but that doesn't mean he isn't here. But still.. there's a certain sense to what he's saying. You could let him showcase your art, keeping the pieces all to yourself at the end of the day, and he'd keep people from trying to take it for themselves. And, if you aren't selling, that creates an exclusivity that should be appealing to him.. "How's this; I could let you showcase my art, BUT- The pieces are still my own. Mine. I'm not selling. I'm not selling to you, I'm not selling to the art critics, I'm not selling." "That's fine! I can work with that! Yes, an art exhibit could be quite thrilling!" Azul flashes an excited and warm smile. "And it'll be quite beneficial for the both of-" "I want half the proceeds." "..." Azul blinks. He then gives you a bewildered look. ".... What?" "You're gonna charge for admission, yeah? I want half of whatever you make from my art." "..... I'm sure we can iron out the details-" "It's a non-negotiable term." Azul pauses. He smiles once again. "We'll iron out the details in a contract, to keep both parties honest." "You'll be speaking with my lawyer." "... Who is your lawyer, exactly..?" "Crewel." "... I see. ----- Part 2

[cripple-culture-is]

Cripple culture is just,,, this rant I sent on discord be warned I reached the text limit on this so uh yeah:

(Also "us" is used because plurality but that's unrelated to this)

So apparently my sister told my mom she saw us using our cane in the halls in school. She (mom) tried to say there's nothing wrong with us and literally said that using aids makes you dependent on them and makes your situation worse because you're taking strain off. She literally said that if someone is using a wheelchair who can use their legs they shouldn't because they're "making it worse for themselves". She didn't want to listen to us and kept saying we were fine. Like, yeah, according to the doctors were "fine" (they ignored us both when we specifically got it checked out and at a general checkup when we mentioned it) but that doesn't mean we're not in pain. Walking is really tiring for us and it's still tiring with the cane, it just lessens it to the point where we actually have the energy to do stuff after school. She literally ||fucking|| said to just "exercise more" and when we explained how we'd tried that before and it didn't help, she was like "not with (horrible gym teacher) just like taking walks and stuff" you don't think we tried that?! Some nights we literally cannot get to sleep without melatonin or painkillers because of the pain. We wake up feeling so stiff we can't get up for minimum 15mins. We've been mentioning this ever since it started (we tend to date it to last summer but it's probably farther back) and nobody's taken us seriously. It's our money we spent, it's our decision, and even though she's our mom, this decision should be entirely on us. I don't think she gets an opinion on what we do at school.

Trying not to cry too loud because our moms friend is here/going to be here soon

This is why we didn't tell them. We were scared of this response. This is why we haven't shared that we wanna transition (not all of us are transmasc but we all hate the boobs) or that we're plural at all. Or multiple other personal details we feel would get a reaction like that. Now we're back to the miserable 2020 mindset of "I can't wait to move out"

Ok sorry that's long

Basically sister saw cane, told mom, she said it was unnecessary and mobility aids make it worse

I'm not gonna stop using it tho

No worries 😊 Never apologize for long submissions/asks like this, I love reading all of these submissions, even though many make me angry--this one in particular.

Your mother sounds like someone I wouldn't want to he around. I'm looking into a mobility aid to use for when I attend college next year. Even though I can walk fine, standing for long periods of tike hurts, and I can only walk for so long.

Your mother was incredibly out of line, and she honestly sounds like a very ableist, narrow-minded person. I'm sorry you have to live in an environment like that 😢 That must stink. Your mother sounds like someone who has never experienced disability for herself.

If your mobility aid helps you, then that's enough of a reason to keep using it. Non-crippled people don't need to use mobility aids in order to function just like everyone else does.

Nothing is a cure all, and I hate when people think it is. My disability is a lot better than it was when I was younger. But no matter how "abled" I become, I will always be disabled. Walking is fun to me, but it doesn't cure me and if I overdo it, my knees start burning.

You shouldn't stop using it, no matter what anyone says ❤

[the-path-to-redemption]

I wonder if i should get into rwby? I like sun wukong in any media he is but i wonder if its worth seeing him in rwby despite from what i heard is that in here: sun is his actual first name instead of it being the last name here in rwby

Or do i just stick to fanfics?

I am v fascinated by this sun wukong tho from readin your blog: it seem better if someone else took over this character (imo needs more JTTW esque lifestyle like him being wandering pilgrim and he takes care of ppl who he considered his family like the actual sun wukong from the novel)

Idk so do i?

cont.

Same anon that was asking about rwby sun wukong. I just think its neat if by having a character that has tie to sun wukong, he should share more similarities(or a bit of history) from the monkey of his namesake. Like for example he found a book called jttw (within rwby universe) that detailed how in a pilgrimage a human was traveling with a group that had a monkey in it and they were a family and our sun idolize that monkey and took up his name as his own. Or him got tired of ppl not calling his name right so he just lets them called him by sun(here it be his last name). Idk small details like that but idk much of RWBY besides my knowledge of JTTW and sun wukong.

Long post ahead

Oh boy, anon. are you in for a ride.

You're right that if handled by anyone else, RWBY's interpretation of Sun Wukong as both an allusion and as his own character would've been so much better and I would've liked the route of him being a traveling Huntsman in the world of Remnant instead of being a team leader to a team that half of the members doesn't even like him. It would've made a lot of plot holes and unsavory writing decisions about his character in the books nonexistent.

However, the context of humanoids with animal features in this show relates to a racial subplot that was handled like SHIT. This isn't against you anon, but to have Sun read and idolize a monkey-humanoid entity like the OG Sun Wukong with this context in mind would raise A LOT of issues.

For example, the author of that book (spoilers) would not possibly exist pre-cleansing where humanoids with animal features cannot be found (that's after the global boom boom), so the author would be writing an epic with very racist ideologies in the context of racism in Remnant (comparing Faunus to animals is racist). And uh, yeah.

Please understand that I am highly biased against the show's many decisions involving its writing, but I did very much enjoy its 3 beginning volumes, where the writing and choreography were slightly better and could be excused as "the starting point" of something greater. Hell, that was why RWBY even got some relevancy in Japan and China with the two official mangas, manga anthropologies, game crossovers, and dubs. But I wouldn't recommend it to you, who want to experience a good Sun Wukong-inspired character.

That being said, please make your own decisions if you decide to check RWBY out. I recommend watching Volumes 1-3, or at the very least a famous fight scene between Sun and an antagonist, Roman Torchwick, here.

I wish you the best of luck, and I'm sorry if this answer is lackluster due to my own gripes with this show.

[rachymarie]

I was too scared to add these thoughts to the post i saw (bc i suffer enough my illness and its stigmatization to be further attacked by people being righteous in an ignorant way, feels like it would be walking into the lion's den asking to be targeted 😔) but Honestly I hate AI art as much as the next artist, but I noticed how toxic the anti-AI art space has all gotten.

People have been (what i can only hope is fake) threatening detailed and quite specific violence and stalking in tags and notes of some of the posts, against anyone who broke their rules just made due to Tumblr's fuck up.

Which isn't our fault bc some of us are actually not born in the 00s with AI on the scene and have been making "mistakes" since the dawn of Tumblr around 2009 when we were just teens and had no idea of this unforeseen consequence of simply wanting to share and credit other artists' work. I was thinking kinda "any publicity is good publicity", "art is made to be shared" and even reposted my own stuff to WeHeartIt back in the day to boost my traffic.

Tumblr didn't used to be so text-heavy and discourse-heavy it was free and light and fun, home of the artist and art-lover alike. No-one (well, many) meant any harm, wanted to celebrate and bookmark fellow artist. We wanted so much art we traversed websites for more.

The rampant ripping off of artists for AI is definitely a new thing, and it's completely fucked up. No-one was prepared for this, and the laws around it need a lot of work to protect us.

So maybe I am learning reposting is not ok (another etiquette i should have known but apparently didn't - I thought it was ok because I made every effort to credit profusely and I and I wouldn't have minded people reposting my art with credit if it helped traffic, but apparently it's not). But like I am disabled and don't possess the spoons and mental capacity to correct/take down every post. I did that spring-cleaning like once back in 2016 and I ended up in psychosis. I will correct what I can but understand I am struggling day today to keep up with basic tasks. I am barely awake most of the day. I am only ever living off adrenaline and fake energy from coffee. I am just one of the many mentally ill not to mention abuse victims/survivors.

Don't threaten violence to random people on the internet you don't know what they've been through. Most of us know you're joking (i hope you are tho i even saw tags saying not joking) but some won't and it is kinda ableist/saneist don't be this openly hostile to strangers

Tumblr is supposed to be like the one even moderately safe space we have to just exist as ourselves and y'all are making it scary being violent to us in our space heavily populated by traumatized and isolated people (like psychotics), a demographic already quite vulnerable to and with past traumas of violence and who already suffer with "delusions" thinking the world is out to get us. Don't make those delusions real

I say this as an autistic schizospec fellow artist, don't be so quick to bully people for making mistakes they can't easily undo and they are already suffering

i get that you're mad but stop it you are being mad at the wrong people. Be mad at the bastard corporations not your fellow person/s

Lets not make the internet any more hostile to struggling folks than it already is, that's icky

Many schizospec and mentally ill are struggling artists ourselves, we are some of the most deeply passionate, authentic and purposeful artists around. And we know more than any about being exploited. Our image is stolen constantly and misrepresented to further marginalize us. Please be more considerate

I know someone eventually gonna say annoying things like "it's not that deep, don't be so triggered it's not FOR you. Stop policing our language/freedom of expression BLA BLA BLA" But people literally threatened violence at thousands of people they don't know in a space heavily populated by communities vulnerable to and traumatized by violence, stigma and delusions of being targeted etc and I'm calling people out for it

[azenta]

What leaded you to find you are 1 core? i always thought 5 was right so when i saw it i was surprised.

I thought too that 5 was pretty fitting, until I went through two different and independent typing process that reached the same conclusion with people I knew some bit or not much, which was core 1. I was debating for 5 core, but someone explained why what I was saying stemmed more from a 1 place than 5. I wanted badly to argue back and forth but even my reaction left me dumbfounded.

I became angry because "i kNow MySeLF bEttAr" (1 line to 4 + Fi...), but I self-controlled to stay "correct" and on the "higher ground" by avoiding to answer until I felt in better control of myself, and then I wanted to correct, rectify and nitpick on what they said. That's textbook 1 reaction.

What I thought was withdrawing was rather self-control or boundary control instead of 5 withdrawal, which I can't deny. My fear of rejection is also more rooted in being so flawed I wouldn't "do" and being scared I couldn't make up for it, rather than being about gaining power over people through knowledge and finding acceptance (even tho, I do have that theme running as well within myself, it's still my second fix).

But in the end, 1 and 5 are very much intertwined in my psyche. I think it could still be debatable at this point. I now believe 1 core fits slighlty better, especially from core wounds and fears perspective. Also, in the light of the observations that have been made about me, and from the perspective it gave on myself, I see how 1 could trump 5 in me.

Anyway, I am quite tired lately and have a hard time writing with as much depth, details and meticulousness, so that's the best I can offer as an answer for now. But tbh, there would be more to say. If you, or anyone else, have another opinion, you could share and I wouldn't mind. My heart fix is still debated and I am more confused about this one lmao.

[dms-saggicorn]

I posted 12,443 times in 2022

That's 4,037 more posts than 2021!

210 posts created (2%)

12,233 posts reblogged (98%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 3,132 of my posts in 2022

#dms speaks - 1,141 posts

#this looks yummy - 828 posts

#dms answers! - 160 posts

#yandere - 158 posts

#your boyfriend - 132 posts

#your boyfriend game - 127 posts

#your boyfriend fanart - 121 posts

#yb fanart - 115 posts

#yb fandom - 107 posts

#sunny day jack - 105 posts

Longest Tag: 124 characters

#never really had the nerve to share my ocs so i guess i was spared the critical and down right brutal comments of deviantart

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

How do you feel about the possibility of Sundrop/Moondrop (FNaF: Security Breach) as being interesting/hot as a yan.? 🤔 yay or nay??

Gotta say at 1st Sundrop was kinda horrifying with his unhinged voice and forever cursed smile and dead eyes

buuut after reading some very convincing *ahem* "literature" some fun cute animatics and animations I've eased up on the dude and think he could make for a great delusional Yandere! Don't think I'd want to be his Y/N personally tho.

As for Moon drop...he's scary with a kick ass voice and would make for a great and terrifying rough Yandere 😱 The rough Yanderes are scary and quite mean so I wouldn't be down for him either :p (not that I'd have a choice tho I guess 😭😭)

See the full post

8 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

#4

Ok ok ok here's that one final request I finished awhile ago for @calefee apologies for the wait:

She is a very pretty character but god the details were killing me a bit ngl lol but the ending result is pretty good I'd say! Thanks for requesting 💜

If anyone else wants to request go on ahead as well!

11 notes - Posted November 30, 2022

#3

Did you see Angry Boy Pedro’s new update on Twitter? He can play guitar.. I’m like OH THAT’S HOT, THAT’S HOT.

Ngl Pedro? Not a fan. I don't like to be punched in the face >:( or batted to the face???? No bueno buuuuut that being said Anony, Guitar? That would indeed be a weakness of mine for sure 👀👀 so maybe he ain't so bad...Still a 💙Peter💙 Simp for life. Him being able to sing tho...might change my mind...slim chance but still a chance UnU

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Oops my hand slipped

I did NOT mean to have this piece be this good??? It was supposed to just be a sketch lol was fun to draw the angry man :)

Might not like him very much but he does look cool.

19 notes - Posted May 2, 2022

#2

Aaaaaand done! This was A LOT of fun to draw! They're talking bout their boyfriends obviously ;) ;) ;) while drinking some grape juice and apple cider! (alcohol is a no no ;3) once I get my damn Kofi thing fixed I'd love to do a commission for you if you'd like! That and any one of you Anonies since was so fun to draw another Y/N sona 💜💜💜! Welp until next time take care!

44 notes - Posted May 19, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Kk Just like last time for that one sad Anony part 3 (yeah that one Anony probably not sad anymore...maybe but it's easier to call it that trust me lol)

You can't escape the sins of your past edgy self YB. No one is safe

This one is so silly lol until next weeks comic ;D

60 notes - Posted May 8, 2022

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[thereaderinsertlady]

OKAY OKAY OKAY DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE VIDEO GAME JESTERS-- DIMENTIO, MARX, JEVIL, AND EEESPECIALLY JOKA ARE ALL EXTREMELY UNDER-FUCKIN-RATED CHARACTERS. DIMENTIO? HAS LIKE 5 READER INSERTS. JEVIL? HAS MAYBE 30. MARX? MAYBE 3. MAYBE. AND THEN JOKA LITERALLY HAS NONE. LIKE, ZERO READER INSERT FANFICS. HE'S THE CUTEST MF OUT OF THE JESTERS, AND THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO FUCKING READER INSERTS OF HIM. READER INSERT LADY YOU'VE GOOOTTA HELP ME OUT HERE PLSPLSPLS--

Omg I love all the video game jesters sososo much. Joka and Dimentio easily make it on my top 20 most favorite character list. I love Marx and Jevil as well, but not as much as Joka and Dimmy. (Still adore Marx and Jevil tho 💞). I've been starving for content tooooo 🥺 If anyone wanted to get me a Valentine's Day present, a reader insert fic or drawing of Joka or Dimmy would make my world.

I definitely would have written something for all the jesters for you, anon, but I've been working so hard on all the Valentine's Day gifts, I just don't have time for it. So, nothing for you... is what I WOULD say, if I didn’t care about each and every one of you suckers! So have some headcanons ya turkey, and happy early Valentine's Day!

Marx x Reader Headcanons

Marx absolutely adored you when he first met you. It was something about your personality that made him so incredibly attracted. The way you talked to others— even the way you walked around just made his little heart flutter.

He wasn't nervous to talk to you, not at all. He was able to easily have a long conversation with you, and he was able to play a few games as well! He really liked playing games and having fun with you.

He often has dreams about you as well. Very detailed dreams, and he managed to remember every single last one of them. Even just thinking about one of the dreams makes his heart pound!

When he confessed his affection towards you, he was very... cheesy about it. However, you didn’t seem to mind. You didn’t mind at all... That only made him even more attracted to you.

Maybe a year after you two got together, he began to spill some of his... more darker and secretive thoughts. He honestly believed that you'd think of him to be some psychopath, but surprisingly, you still didn’t seem to care! You even seem to encourage his 'naughty' behavior!

"Mhm, and how would you kill these people? Would you kill them quickly, like... slice open their throat? Or would you rather torture them first?"

Marx knew he liked you when he first met you.

Jevil x Reader Headcanons

Oh you were just so cute, cute! As you talked with Jevil more and more, he thought you looked more and more cuter. It was an endless cycle, but this is one that he didn’t mind!

Jevil wasn't obvious about the fact that he liked you (or so he thought), but one day you came up to him and boldly asked;

"Do you love me, Jevil?"

In that moment, he was extremely tempted to say no just so he could see your reaction, but he managed to answer honestly.

"Of course, of course! Why wouldn't I love a cute face like yours?"

Ever since that day happened, you and him have been on several dates. Jevil's most favorite date was when you two headed to the famous milkshake shop in the city. In typical romantic fashion, you two shared a milkshake. However, that wasn't his favorite part about the date, oh, most certainly not! His most favorite part was when he gave a... 'polite' smile to a person that was staring straight at you two, and they ran away! You asked him what was so funny, but he couldn't stop laughing!

Now, whenever you two hang out in public, he keeps his tail wrapped around either your wrist or your thigh, just to let everyone know that you belonged— err, that you were with him!

Dimentio x Reader Headcanons

Like a bee to a spring flower, Dimentio liked hanging around you. He hasn't felt this way towards anyone else, so needless to say, he didn’t know what the feeling was at first. Oh, but soon enough, he found out what it was. And certainly not because he read Mimi's diary, oh most certainly not because of that!

...Anyways, he had to learn more about you. So, with that in mind, he decided to snoop around a little, and kept a good eye on you. However, while he was... keeping a good eye on you, you ended up catching him.

"Why are you stalking me?" You said with a pout, walking up to him.

Dimentio gave a sly chuckle. "I am not stalking you! Rather, I am simply... observing you."

"Mhm. Well, while you're doing that, can you do me a favor and change the light bulb in the fridge?"

"Why of course!" He grinned, and went over to the fridge... only to find that the light bulb didn't need to be changed. Instead, there was a note, aaand that note revealed your true feelings for him. Hm. Is this what embarrassment feels like? Oh, but it was sweeter than embarrassment, like the frosting on a cupcake... Ah, he was blushing.

After that... ahem, delightful event, you and him went on a dinner date of sorts, which went swimmingly. That date led to another date, and then another, and then another, and... You grew incredibly comfortable with him as time went on, and now a date would be considered as a movie night on the couch at your place with you in nothing but a pair of underwear... not that he minded, of course.

Joka x Reader Headcan... wait a minute, this isn't a headcanon!

That's right, this isn't a headcanon at all! Despite being balls deep in Valentine's Day asks, the Reader Insert Lady manages to create what is (probably) the first ever Joka x Reader oneshot! Here's the link for it on ao3. It may not be the best piece of fiction, nor the longest, but damn it, it's something! Us Joka lovers shall go hungry no longer! And now, we can finally say that yes, there is a reader insert fanfic of Joka! So, without further ado:

Joka x Reader - Red Teeth

“Hey, um... I like your red teeth.”

Joka blinked once, twice, before slowly squinting at you. “Wh... What?”

A few months have passed since the death of Ghadius, as well as Joka’s own near-death experience. He received a multitude of grievous wounds from a... certain battle, and he really didn’t expect to make it out alive. However, he didn’t escape death without a small price, unfortunately. He received a few more than uncanny scars, and his face had several ‘cracks’ that were unsightly to the eyes. Right now, though, he was heading into town to go to the grocery store. He wore a long thick cloak that covered most of his body, and he hadn’t expected to come across anyone on his way there. It was... oddly domestic of him, in all honesty. He never thought he’d be here, getting groceries of all things, but... here he was, despite losing to those meddling brats—

“I like your, uh, your red teeth,” you repeated, likely figuring that he didn’t hear you the first time. After another short pause, you gave a weak smile. “I think they look nice.”

Joka stared at you for a moment longer before what you said fully registered to him. “You... You WHAT?! But... you know who I am, right?” He said, starting to get a bit anxious.  

When Ghadius was still alive, Joka would be beaming with confidence, but... as of right now?  

Joka took a step back as he pulled the hood of his cloak more over his face, readying himself for... for whatever you had planned. Nobody would ever say anything like that to him, especially after what happened. And, since you saw his red teeth, you must have recognized who he was. Was this some... some ploy to distract him, perhaps? Because if it was, he wasn’t gonna fall for—

“Yeah, I... know who you are.”

His tail flicked against the ground nervously, and he took another step back. “Oh yeah?” He said, swallowing hard. “Well... go on! Whatchu gonna do about it? Are... Are ya gonna pull out a-a-a knife, and dice me up like some freshly picked tomatoes?!”

You frowned, and immediately shook your head. “No, of course not!”

Joka... scoffed as he crossed his arms. “Well, what are ya gonna do?” A brief moment of silence passed, and he tapped his foot against the ground, trying to keep up his semi-confident charade up. “C’mon, get on with it! Don’t keep me waiting— I haven’t got all day!”

Your frown deepened. “I’m not going to hurt you...”

Joka gave you a wary look. “Oh yeah? Prove it!”

...Slowly, you pursed your lips while furrowing your brow. “How can I prove to you that I won’t hurt you?”

…

...Joka shrugged.  

You lightly huffed. “That’s not very helpful.”

He grunted loudly. “You’re not helpin’ your case here, brat!”

“I just don’t know what to do! Should I... get you some flowers, or something? Do you like flowers?”

He scoffed. “You think I would like some flowers?!”

“Would you?!”  

...Joka paused, rubbing his chin as he thought about it. “Actually, I guess I wouldn’t mind gettin' some flowers. Especially the ones that are more expensive.”

You softly pouted, folding your arms across your chest. “Well... too bad! I’m not getting you any flowers, you... you meanie.”

“Ya just said you would, brat!”

“I-I never said that I would, I just asked if I should!”

Joka lightly growled as a surge of anger pulsed through him, before stomping up to you. He stopped maybe a few inches away from you, and jabbed your chest with his index finger as he spoke. “Why, you little brat! First, you come up to me completely out of the blue, then you try to prove your innocence, and nooow you do this?! Why I outta, outta...”

Joka noticed the tears building in the corner of your eyes, and to him, that felt like a punch to the gut. Guilt immediately engulfed him, and he thought about the conversation that occurred so far... Okay, so maaaybe you weren’t trying to kill him... Whoops.

With a wince, he looked off to the side. “I... sorry, I... I didn’t mean to... to...”

“I-It’s okay,” you mumbled, rubbing at your wet eyes. “I just get upset easily when people yell... It’s not your fault.” Somehow, that only made him feel worse about his response. He... sighed, and handed a handkerchief over to you. “Thanks,” you said quietly, before drying your eyes.

“Look, brat— err, kid. I really didn’t mean ta make you upset like that. So, how about ya accept my apology, and we part ways, alright?”

You frowned. “Part ways?”

“Well, after what I said... I assume you don’t wanna be around me anymore.”

...Slowly, you looked off to the side, chewing your bottom lip.

Joka stared at you in disbelief. “You... You still want to be around me, even after what I said?” He whispered, watching as you nodded in agreement... “Why?”

“...Do I need a reason?” You said quietly, looking back over to him. Your eyes were a little red, but you’ve mostly calmed down by now.

“Everything has a reason! Just why in the world would ya wanna hang around someone who has yelled at ya?!”

A few seconds ticked by, and... a soft smile gradually appeared on your face. “Because I like your red teeth.”

Joka continued to stare at you in disbelief. “But... But why?! Do you not see my face good enough? Well here— look at me!” He hissed, before yanking his hood off, revealing the several ‘cracks’ running along his face. “I... I’m hideous!”

A frown once again appeared on your face, and you leaned forwards to wipe his... tears? With the handkerchief he gave you earlier. “You’re not hideous,” you said softly. “Sure, you may not look the way you want to, but... you can’t help that. I used to think the same way about myself, but... I learned to like myself the way I am.”

Joka stayed silent for a long moment, looking at you with uncertainty in his gaze. However, he eventually took your wrist into his gloved hand, and gave a somewhat somber chuckle. “Well, it seems like we both have our demons, eh, kid?”

You let him hold your wrist, and with a sigh, you nodded along. “Yeah, I... I suppose so...” You didn’t feel uncomfortable as he continued to hold your wrist, but you still felt the need to change topics before the conversation turned even more sour. “So, um... Where were you heading before I... before I met you?”

Joka blinked a few times, like he wasn’t expecting the question. “Where I was going? Uh, well... I was going to the grocery store.”

...You bit your bottom lip. “The grocery store?”

“Yeah, and— and I see you tryin’ to smile!”

As soon as he said that, a wide grin broke out across your face. “I’m sorry, I just didn’t expect that’s where you were going. It’s so...”

“Domestic?” Joka finished with a huff. “I’ve gotta get somethin’ to eat somehow, kid!”

You covered your mouth with your free hand, trying to hide your giggles. This whole conversation was just... absurd. With a calming exhale, you talked slowly. “And so, you were going to carry all your groceries by yourself, with no help?”

“Well... yes! How else do you expect me to carry everything?”

“Let me help you.”

...Joka slowly squinted at you, furrowing his brow at the sudden offer. “You want to... help me...?”

You nodded. “Yeah, I’d love to help.”

He... really wanted to ask you why you wanted to help, why you wanted to do this for him of all people, but he merely sighed, and pulled up the hood of his cloak back over his head. “Fine, but don’t get mad if you have to carry some heavy stuff!”

Still holding your wrist, Joka led you towards the grocery store, and you followed right behind him, smiling every single step of the way.

[jungw8ns]

GOING TO AN ESCAPE ROOM WITH ENHYPEN !

PAIRING: boyfriend!enha x gn!reader. GENRE: established relationship, fluff, crack. WARNINGS: profanity (not that much tho), mentions of death (?). WORD COUNT: 100 - 200 each member.

HEESEUNG:

the two of you were so pumped playing an escape room together for the first time that the other people in line had to calm you guys down (which was trully embarrassing to say the least 🤐🤐)

he was looking at the ranking board filled with pictures of players that had succeeded in the shortest amount of time and he just wanted nothing more than to see both your faces on there

but anyways, we all know how competitive heeseung gets 🕴️

oh boy let me tell you, this guy WAS SPEEDRUNNING IT but not the kind you were thinking

the second the timer had started he was literally SPRINTING AROUND THE ROOM LOOKING FOR CLUES YET COMPLETELY MISSING THEM 🏃‍♂️💨💨💨

while he was busy running around, you were picking up the little details in the room and in no time managed to open a few locks

"y/n look i found– oh 😐😑😐"

HE WAS SULKING PLSSS 😭😭😭

when you noticed him standing from afar staring at you with his arms crossed, you called him to solve this one puzzle you already did

*gasps* "oh no! babe i don't understand how to do this, please help me 😔😔🤥🙏🙏"

he had to bite his lower lip to stop himself from letting out that cocky grin but it got out eventually

"oh it's so easy sweetheart, just put this here and then voila! 😉"

when the two of you escaped you suprisingly got to take a polaroid with him home after ranking 2nd in the records

heeseung was the one who held onto it tho, placing it underneath his clear phonecase for safekeeping <3

JAY:

GOD THIS DUDE

THE ESCAPE ROOM WASN'T EVEN THAT SCARY AND YET EVERYTIME YOU GUYS OPEN A LOCK OR A DOOR HIS FIGHT OR FLIGHT INSTINCTS COME UP 😭😭👊👊

"y/n stay behind me >:(("

"um, babe, you do realize that's just a door right?"

"WE'LL BETTER SAFE THAN SORRY?? THE STAFF COULD'VE PROGRAMMED IT TO GROW LEGS?? 😵🧐🧐"

you knew you shouldn't have played horror games with him a few nights ago cause he looked like he was about to lose his mind 😔

you had to shove his ass aside and move on to the next mission cause the both of you knew that he was stalling 🏌️‍♀️

jay was being extra clingy the whole time you were playing, he'd either link arms with you or hold hands (he's literally so adorable) 💞💞

BUT THEN YOU THOUGHT OF DOING A PRANK ON HIM

while you were roaming around the room trying to solve a puzzle, you saw this horse mask on a nearby table

and so you made sure jay was distracted and put on the mask

you could've NOT worn the dusty old thing but where was the fun in that?

"jay can you come here for a sec?"

you hid behind the wall beside the door frame waiting for him to come into your sight and attacked him

now, how about we guess what happens next?

a. he faints

b. he runs away

or c. he slaps you in the face and forces you to buy him food for the rest of the night

if you guessed c then YAY! YOU'RE CORRECT 🥳🎉🎉🎊

THIS HOE SLAPS YOU AS HE SHOULD

"$##/@+(+'£%(:?!!)&£**/*%@"

when he finally takes off the mask like those scenes in scooby doo he's never felt so betrayed in his life

"i- I TRUSTED YOU 😭😭😭 YOU BETTER BUY ME FOOD LATER, I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS, THE BETRAYAL???? LITERALLY UNPROVOKED?????"

he wouldn't stop side eyeing you until you guys finally pulled up on the mcdonalds drive thru

"hi, can i get two um– bts meals please? 😒😒 and two oreo mc flurries 🙄🙄 and also large fries 😐😐"

sane (1/3)

would be trailing behind you like a little puppy (i love him so much 😭😭😭)

he either has his arm linked with yours or held hands every five minutes

JAKE:

really focused on the puzzles he's doing but the second he hears you call out his name for help he's there beside you with the sweetest smile

but anyways, mans was POPPING OFF the entire time you were playing

he was solving problem after problem in no time (he wanted to impress you is why he activated his inner flash ⚡⚡) but he did let you play tho, the last thing he wanted to do was make you pissed at him for hogging all the games

def buried jake with compliments and forehead kisses right after ❤️__❤️

and so the two of you got out in like an hour and a few which you were very proud of

"you were so cool today babe, good job !!"

"aww thank you angel 😊😊"

sane (2/3)

SUNGHOON:

would be linking pinkies with you the whole time, only letting go whenever the both of you had to solve something that needed two or more people

there was this one game tho where he had to arm wrestle this literal hand lever to open the door to the last room (yea...don’t ask why, the staffs were pretty weird 😬😬) 

it made him enjoy the experience a bit more as it was only the two of you playing instead of getting accompanied by strangers

HGAWAHSGDHSGHDA PLSS THIS GUY

“oh this’ll be easy, y/n step aside, i’ll handle this 😏😏😏”

idk if you were supposed to think about how handsome he looked with his serious expression on and his veiny hands coming into frame or be worried for him because the lever was REAL HARD to pull that his veins looked like they were going to pop any second soon, you stepped in and helped him tho cause you were a good s/o <3

from a spectators point of view, the two of you looked like y’all were about shit your pants but the two of you eventually succeeded on beating it, immediately dragging him to the next room which had a sofa in it, laying down to catch your breaths

cliché moment ahead ⚠️⚠️

the two of you shared a few laughs before standing up on the empty space, held hands and started to jump in circles to celebrate your success 💃💃

yupp, y’all were never going back to that hellhole again

very stubborn at first, he wanted nothing to do with the game but then you held him at gunpoint by saying:

SUNOO:

"please just this once or else i'll revoke your mint choco ice cream rights 🔫🔫🔫"

"BUT IT'S SCARY IN THERE BABE :((("

"it won't be that scary sunshine, besides, i'll be ready to 🤜💥 yk?? trust me babe i would never let anyone hurt you <33"

kinda pissed since you blackmailed him into the place and also bc he wanted to play bumper cars and dance mania but he yea he caved in pretty quick 😋😋

(y/n let him play his games in peace tf >:(((( )

once you guys got in tho he realized how normal it was and that it was not terrifying at all

THE EPITOME OF CLINGY OMFG

he wouldn't stop back hugging you and you couldn't bring yourself to push him away to play the games so you just let him walk behind you with his arms on your shoulders 😩😩

(y'all were walking kinda funny but don't tell sunoo that 🤫🤫🤫)

yea the two of you ended up escaping with a whopping 2 hours and a few minutes

but it was the effort that counts so A+++++ for the both if you 😜👍👍👍

sane (3/3)

JUNGWON:

was the one who suggested going, he even searched on naver about really good escape room places to visit and was overall really looking forward it

he liked going to places and having fun with you so it wasn't a shock how his eyes were literally crescents and his dimples were so evident

yea he literally rushed the both of you to the place that you were the first in line 😵

while waiting for the staff to finish setting up he was playing with your connected hands like 🖐️✊🖐️✊ (so precious 💞💞)

"y/n why are you taking so long 😭😭 what if they close and we end up not solving a single lock, hurry up por favorrr 😩🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏"

when they finally lead you to the room he was kind of surprised that they had separated the two of you into different spaces (like the one with txt where they had the answers to the other member's puzzles yk???)

he was locked inside a telephone stand while you were handcuffed in the main room

dw the two of you reunited after a few minutes cause jungwon was rushing his lock to get to you 🤭

you both were progressing at an average pace and it made you guys a lot more closer (not that you guys weren't before but you get what i mean)

after you guys escaped the two of you went to eat curry and talked about the whole experience 😋✌️✌️✌️

this boy literally dragged you in the escape room with him

NIKI:

HE DIDN'T EVEN GIVE YOU TIME TO REFUSE HE JUST 😐👉🚪

"ok masterchefs, in order to test your abilities we must go through series of puzzles and make it out alive, understood?"

he tried ignoring how confused you were and went on to try and get you guys to escape

HE'S LAUGHING AT YOU FOR WHATEVER REASON AND OBV YOU LAUGH ASWELL CAUSE WHO WOULDN'T??? his laugh is so contagious pls 🤖🤖 he was so close to d wording cause he couldn't breathe from laughing too much

yea.. you guys spent so much time laughing at each other for being so dumb at this that you ended up playing 'till closing time

spoiler alert: he fails on doing anything cause the second you made eye contact with him this child collapses 😍🤩

GIRL SO EMBARRASSING 🤡🤡

THE STAFF KICKED THE BOTH OF YOU OUT AND NOW YOU GUYS WERE BANNED FROM THE PLACE ☠️☠️

"haunted house next weekend???"

"BET"

NOTE – god they were WAY funnier in my head but yeah.... i love them so much AND OMFG HAVE YOU GUYS SEEN HEESEUNG’S SELCAS LAST NIGHT???!?@??#?@?!?@ HE’S NOT REAL WTF ⁉️❓❓⁉️

also, idk why BUT EVERY TIME I SAVE A DRAFT the paragraphs get scrambled?? £!?) 6=6) 🤣😂💔💔🤣🤣😂💔 it's so annoying but anyways, ilysm pls stay safe and have a great day <33

[unholyhymns]

Demonolatry Anon again I'll use 🐇 so you know it's me. Your response helped me a lot, thank you! I'm currently reading The Black Arts, and while reading a dream interpretation I was called by a spam number with 999 after the area code in my town after reading about Sorath the night before. I'm having trouble meditating (intrusive, probable adhd) and quelling my fear to the point I got so frustrated I started sobbing. I want to become knowledgeable enough pray, invoke even, but I'm terrified of disrespecting or insulting a demon. I've heard Lucifer and King Paimon are pretty chill, and I've had a fascination for FurFur for a couple years now. But it's still nerve-wracking. Here are my questions. You don't have to give extensive details about your relationship or your gods name btw I've seen that that's pretty personal so no hard feelings! :)

-When did you know you were ready to invoke for the first time? And how did it go?

Did your god reach out to you first? Or did you start your journey to them?

Have you been plagued by actual evil spirits/tricksters?

Do you actually see a "physical" manifestation of your god/whoever you invoke or is it more of a very strong feeling? Do you hear their voices?

Has your faith and relationship with your god made you happier?

-🐇

ah, that emoji is adorable. i’ll tag your asks as bunny anon so you can find them :) i’m glad my ask helped! i definitely understand the frustration. i have huge attention span issues, but the biggest thing that helped me was making myself keep a routine. and also remembering that its not a race. i could only meditate for five minutes at a time, and im now at like ~30 mins if im just sitting and hours if im writing. but that took years and i had to keep telling myself that i would get there at my own pace, and to not compare my progress to others’.

and i don’t know that i’d call any of the demons “chill”, even Lucifer. but respect goes a long way, and they usually know when disrespect is intentional or not. but yeah, i can understand it being nerve wracking and frightening, especially given pop cultural depictions of demons. the best i can say is that they aren’t as malicious as media depicts but they also aren’t all love and light. they’re powerful and hold respect in pretty high regard, but beyond that, interactions can vary wildly from demon to demon and even from person to person.

(as an aside, i dont mind sharing. i worship the Devil/Satan, though i know him under a few names)

-i don’t know that i’ve invoked anyone. tho i might have the wrong definition of invoke in mind? i pray a lot, and do some form of automatic writing that probably counts, (and divination and meditation) but i haven’t necessarily called anyone into myself. so you dont have to invoke, especially if thats not something you feel you’re ready for. ive been worshipping him for ~14 years and i havent really tried to do it. if you mean just kind of reaching out in prayer/ meditation, i did it right away rhrjrhrh i was serious when i said i fuck around and find out. it has… gotten me into trouble in other instances but i like adventure. i didn't put much mind into whether or not i was ready. i wanted to talk to him, so i reached out. it didn't go badly, but i was fairly young so i think i was given some leeway lmao.

if you mean more along the lines of calling him into me, ill use my writing as an example. i didn't start that in earnest until last year, 13 years into my journey. not because i didn't feel ready, but more because i hadn't realized i could beforehand. 

-i reached out first. it started as an edgy teenage rebellion thing but i found a lot of joy and solace in it, and he was very… patient with my fumbling attempts at an early spiritual practice. 

-i will preface this by saying i don't really ascribe good or evil labels to deities or spirits, and i wouldn't consider tricksters negative. also i consider him to be a trickster. i never really had any issues with anyone pretending to be him. i think a few spirits have tried but by the time they did i had a fairly decent grasp on who he is so i knew it wasn't him. ive had trouble with spirits in general, though it wasn't because they were inherently malicious. just kind of a… conflict of ideas….

-not physically like right in front of me, but in my mind, yeah. mostly when writing, and on occasion when meditating. it started as just feeling his presence, and eventually i started to see some things. i haven't heard his voice in a physical sense either. if i'm writing, it's more like words just kinda form in my head and i know they're his. 

-yes, very much so. ive found a lot of comfort and love and joy with my god, and my writing (which has become a core part of my practice) brings me a lot of happiness. 

[xxbangchansidedishxx]

Weak- part 2

Jeongin X Hyunjin

Trigger warning: suicide, self harm, major character death.

Plot: Hyunjin is dead and the boys are left to cope but things are only about to get even harder.

That night Jeongin lay alone in the room he shared with Hyunjin. He couldn't get the image out of his head. He wanted him back. How could he just be gone forever? Shakily he slipped out of bed and crawled into Hyunjin's. It still smelt like him. Memories of times where the two lay together watching movies and talking about life and comforting each other flashed through his mind. They could never do that again. He pressed his head into Hyunjin's pillow inhaling his scent as tears soaked the soft material. That's when he heard a rustling noise. Coming from under the pillow. He reached under to see what it was. That's when he was greeted by a piece of paper.

He squinted his blurry eyes trying to focus on the words.

Read incase of death:

If you are reading this that means I'm gone. Please don't be sad. It's for the best. I'm so sick of everything. The worst thing is I don't even know why. I'm living with this heavy feeling in my chest and this voice in my head screaming at me that I'm not good enough. It's been getting louder and louder and now I just want to scream. I feel like I'm drowning in emotions and it's too much to handle. I'm expected to always be perfect, always be on time, stick to strict diets, work and train all the time. I love my job and I love all of you. I am thankful for where I have gotten in my life and I appreciate the love and support that stay have given me throughout the years but maybe this life just wasn't for me. I thought it was until the voice started screaming. I tried to ignore it but I just couldn't. It's hard to explain. Anyway please know that it's not your fault, Chan, Felix, Jisung, Lee Know, Changbin and Seungmin, I love you all so much. We have really had fun over the years haven't we? I'm sorry for putting you through this and I'm so sorry for whoever found me. Jeongin, I love you. It feels good to finally say it. I love you more than I could ever tell you when I was alive. Our countless nights we spent cuddling and just being together meant the world to me. Perhaps they meant more to me tho because as time went on I realised that I love you more than I should. I just want to kiss your cute little face and shower you in love but I know you wouldn't feel the same. I brought you a gift, it's in my bedside table, please keep it with you always and know that I'm by your side. Please don't be sad and if you need me just look to the stars. I'll be watching over.

- Hwang Hyunjin.

The young man began to cry even harder. He was so stupid. He couldn't believe that Hyunjin loved him. Maybe he would still be alive if Jeongin had the courage to confess his feelings as well.

He reached over to Hyunjin's bedside table, sliding the draw open slowly and rummaged through until he came across a box.

He opened the box gasping when he saw what was inside. It was a beautiful ring, gold with a large Dimond that looked like it had the galaxy inside it. Other clear diamonds either side of it.

He slipped it onto his shaky finger and took out a note that was inside.

Out of all the stars in this Galaxy you are the prettiest of them all. You outshine even the moon. Make me the happiest man alive and stay by my side forever. Yang Jeongin, I love you. Please be mine.

- Hwang Hyunjin

Ps: the Dimond I chose is called a salt and pepper Dimond. People say it looks like the galaxy. It's super pretty! But not as pretty as your eyes hehe ❤️

Oh god. He's such a dork. Such a fucking perfect man. So thoughtful and kind. Jeongin hugged the note tightly. If he was still here he could be hugging him instead. He wanted to be lay with him giggling and kissing his stupid perfect little face . How could he ever get over Hwang Hyunjin? That night he fell asleep imagining being wrapped in the elders warm embrace.

When light peaked through the windows reality hit again. Hyunjin was gone, and Jeongin was head over heels for the man and now there was nothing he could do. Then it dawned on him. He should probably let the other members know about the suicide note. He sighed before picking up the piece of paper and making his way to the living room. Walking past the bathroom he froze. There was Chan on his hands and knees, scrubbing away the blood of Hyunjin. His chest felt heavy and he began to shake again.

"Oh my god I'm sorry, I should have shut the door. I- I just figured it should be cleaned up sooner or later and I didn't want to put anyone else through it."

"I-it's okay. Channie I found this under Hyunjin's pillow last night. I thought I should let you know. He also left me this." He showed Chan the ring as he handed him the suicide note.

"C-come on, we should read this with the boys."

He shakily stood up and made his way to the living room with Jeongin.

They all sat around as Chan read out loud , his voice breaking as he cried .

"So he liked Jeongin?"

Felix went over to hug the young man.

"This must be even harder for you now... knowing that."

Jisung sympathised with the boy.

"His funeral is tomorrow. This is all happening so fast. I've not even accepted that he's gone yet." Sobbed Jeongin.

"The boys all sat comforting each other until they decided it was best to just take some more time alone to process things.

Jeongin was sat back in Hyunjin's bed reading the note that was written for him over and over again.

He wanted to be with Hyunjin. He couldn't live knowing that they could have been together. Thoughts of how the future could have turned out clouded his brain. They could have been together, stargazing, sharing soft kisses as they giggled holding each other close. That's what could have been.

He needed Hyunjin.

Slowly he made his way back to that same bathroom. Carrying the note with him, reciting the sweet words in his head over and over again. He locked the door behind him. Looking at the floor a lot of the blood had been cleaned up now but there was still some dried up on the floor. He scanned the floor and that's when he saw it. The bloody blades that Hyunjin had used to do it. He sat down leaning against the shower and picking up the cold metal. His brain went wild. He read the note one more time before pressing the sharp edge against his own wrist. He pressed down piercing through his skin, wincing at the pain he dragged down slicing a deep cut into his honey skin. He gasped realising what he had just done. Fuck how could he do this to his members. They were already going through enough with Hyunjin being gone . And now him...

his brain began to cloud over as the crimson liquid oozed out of his wrist and onto the white floor. He read the note again whispering to himself

"I'll see you soon Jinnie. We can be together I promise."

That's when everything went black.

"Innie come out of the bathroom."

No response.

"Innie what's taking you so long?"

No response.

Lee Know took the earring from his ear and began to pick the lock, relieved when he heard it unlock.

He opened the door immediately collapsing when he saw it.

"Oh god, oh god no. I-Innie."

He scrambled over to the boy pressing two fingers against his neck. No pulse.

Screams left his mouth as he begged for the young man to wake up. The rest of the members came running when they heard it. Tears welled up in their eyes. They knew he was gone....

Jisung called an ambulance his voice nothing but a hoarse whisper.

"P-please come quickly. My friend has killed himself."

Again they all watched as the body of someone they all greatly cared about was carried away.

-

Hyunjin's funeral was postponed. It only seemed right to wait until Jeongin's body was prepared for his.

They decided on a joint funeral. Hundreds of people piled into the room where Hyunjin and Jeongin were lay in an open casket. They were placed together. Finally reunited. Sobs filled the room as the service went on and fans showed up from across the country to pay their respects outside. The two boys looked peaceful . Almost like they were sleeping. Chan stood infront of their coffin placing a single red rose on each of their chests.

He wanted to be with them for as long as possible. This was the last time he would ever see their faces and he wanted to remember every little detail. He never wanted to forget the two talented beautiful boys that came into his life and saved him when he almost couldn't save himself. If only he could have done the same.

"Jinnie, Jinnie."

The young man heard a voice. He was floating up, he was amongst fluffy clouds.

That's when he saw it.

"Hyunjin!"

He ran towards the blonde man hugging him tight, tears spilling from his face.

"I can't believe you, idiot."

He slapped his shoulder sobbing into his chest.

"Hey hey Innie. it's okay. I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry."

They both held each other tightly.

"Hey look at me. Why are you here."

The teary boy raised his head to look at the beautiful man.

"I got your note. I love you Hyunjin I can't live without you."

Hyunjin's face fell. He killed himself because of him?

"Hyunjin say something."

The boy pleaded.

He just grabbed Jeongin's face attaching their lips into a passionate desperate kiss. He had wanted to do this for years.

When they pulled away to breathe Jeongin smiled amongst tears.

"We can be together now Innie. Forever. Even if it's not the best circumstances we can be together. I love you so much. I'm so sorry for what I did, I didn't want you to find me like that." Now it was Hyunjin's turn to cry.

Jeongin just pressed his lips against his reassuring him that everything was going to be okay. They had each other now and they could spend forever together. Watching over their members and making memories together. They held hands as they walked into the light.

This was only the beginning.

[procrastination-queenie]

BTS Princes!au

Note: 1)This is a modern Royal family! au headcanon. (I never saw any fic with the BTS members as brothers of a royal family, so why not post about the concept. 🤷🏽‍♀️)

2)All the members of BTS are brothers.

3) Yoongi and Hoseok are twins, and Jimin and Taehyung are twins, too.

4)This takes place in the present time.

5) I will make a separate headcanon for each member (how they meet their significant others and the weddings details)later, also might turn it into a series if it gets good response.💜

6) last but not least, none of the photos included are mine, only the edits are made by me.

First things first

Maknae line are so hard to tame, I am telling you.

Yet, the queen loves to pamper them because they're her babies.🥺

Hyung line are so formal and collected, unlike the maknae line.

They are always carrying out royal duties.

They are so concerned for their subjects.

Hate the idea of leading a lavish and luxurious lifestyle while there are people out there who are suffering.

Therefore, you find each prince supporting different causes.

Jin would be supporting organisations that help single mothers.👩‍👧‍👦

Yoongi and Hoseok would focus on mental health.🧠🗣️

Namjoon definitely supporting education.🎓🏫📕

Taehyung promoting environmental causes.♻️

Jimin would probably be interested in organizations that focuses on the issue of plastic pollution.🏭

Jungkook supporting anything related to physical health maybe doing something like The invictus games as Prince Harry did.💪🏼♿

But the nation has never been on edge like this since ages, everyone can't wait to see each Prince's choice of their future spouses.

Plus don't get me started on the idea of 7 different themed, royal weddings .... OMG!!!👀💃🏽

It got to the point that whenever any of them is seen with any woman then it's instantly assumed that she'd become a future Princess. 👸🏻👸🏼👸🏽👸🏾👸🏿

The king's advisors would suggest that he talks to the boys upon the matter since they're becoming of age and should start families of their own.

But he won't force them to do anything tho.

Like he'd discuss it with their mother while they're all out doing a traditional royal activity or something.

The Queen getting excited over the idea but won't pressure her boys just like their father.

The boys won't focus on that matter, they want to focus on helping the people more.

But that doesn't mean that they haven't thought before about meeting their significant others.😉

Especially when their parents, the king and queen, set a great example for love stories.

But they find it hard specially with all the attention being on them which is not giving them the space to focus on their love life.

During one of the rare interviews that the Palace allows them to do, the 7 Princes agreed that they won't mind marrying a foreign girl.

The King and Queen wouldn't mind, too. The most important thing is that their sons are happy.

Each one would meet the love of his life unexpectedly.

Surprisingly, first one to be in a relationship is Jin.

I know everyone said it would be Jungkook, but the poor boy can not imagine to put his future Princess under the spotlight with his lifestyle, so he preferred to wait and see how it would go with his hyungs.

Plus he didn't want to be the first one to settle because the intensified attention on him that will get worst as he's the golden maknae.

The last one to likely get married or settle down is probably Yoongi.

Everyone knew it really, especially the Queen.

When Yoongi was a smol baby,👶🏻 she realised that he cherished spending time by himself.

Don't get me wrong tho, Yoongi was a sweet baby.🖤

He got along so well with Hoseok and Jin.

He even loved playing the part of the big brother when the world welcomed baby Namjoon.

He would hug his siblings if anyone of them was crying and needed comforting.

She could remember that one time Jungkook was crying his heart out because Jimin snatched his favourite toy, and Yoongi would immediately comfort Jungkook and share his favourite blanket with him, but not before reprimanding baby Jimin and making him apologize to his little brother.

Such a sweet baby 🥺💜.

But again...

It's just that the Queen noticed that her second son was not really into being a sociable person like his brothers.

He can definitely be sociable, it's just he prefers not to be.

And because of that, she knew that her Yoongi won't settle with just anyone, and that it would take time.

The king is such a proud father because all of his 7 sons are hard working and passionate about their duties.

Jin and Namjoon are definitely the ones who lead most of the important royal events.

Jin is mature and knows how to handle himself with the public and the press.

Something that the maknae line still has to learn and perfect, that's their father's opinion.

while Namjoon is really well read in politics as it was his major.

So Jin and Namjoon definitely make a good duo when it comes to the political affairs of the country.

Hoseok,Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook are most likely the ones to be on the first page of the newspapers almost everyday.

As I said the citizens would be very interested in the life of their future rulers.

Therefore, the boys are always under a microscope.

Especially those 4 because they're bold and reckless, but like not in a bad way.

With the world evolving around them, many people do realize the fact that the concept of a monarchy is old news.

And that's why these 4 are working so hard to evolve their monarchy and keep up with the changes taking place.

Therefore, they manage to surprise their subjects by their open minds and their updated thoughts upon almost every matter.

That's why you can find them all over the global news every now and then more than the other monarchies.

The boys would all probably travel abroad to complete their education, then come back to enlist in the army.

Jin enlisting first of course as he's the oldest and finishing before them.

Then Yoongi and Hoseok complete theirs.

Followed by Namjoon

Then Jimin and Taehyung

Finally, ending with Jungkook.

And let me tell you something...

The Queen cried the hardest during Jungkook's ceremony.

I mean she did cry during the other ceremonies of her sons, too.

But Kookie's was the hardest.

Because that's her last baby🥺.

Plus you know how mothers always pamper their last child. ALWAYS.

It's so unfair.

The boys sometimes think that Jungkook is her favourite, but that's not true.

She loves them all equally.

"It just hits differently when you're letting your youngest baby off to face the world because he/she is all grown up now."

That's what she always says.

Now let's move on to the important stuff ...

The Queen has an important event at which she will be bored to death?

Don't worry😊.

Leave it to her youngest twins and Jungkook to accompany her.😈

They always know how to make their mother laugh when things get way too boring.

Of course they would all show up with all their glory 😉.

The Queen is so proud of her babies.

Like who wouldn't be proud of having 7 perfect handsome boys who are well mannered and such gentlemen.

They are so smart and are always up to learn more.

Here's how they turn her boring night into an eventful one:

Make her laugh over their silly attitude towards eachother.

You know like, Jungkook teasing Jimin for being short.

Or Taehyung squishing Jungkook's chubby cheeks.

Never fail in making their mother laugh.

But now moving onto the serious part.

Once the event starts.

They become focused.

Start firing questions. (Politely of course).

Want to know more about the matter discussed at hand.

Will intimidate the host by the amount of questions being asked.

Which leads other hosts to remind themselves to be prepared beforehand in case the 3 Princes decide to show up ... No one wants to be embarrassed in front of the royal family and the public and be accused of not knowing a certain detail about the matter they're responsible of.

The Queen would have a big proud grin on her face.

Proud of her babies for being so invested in the matters of their country.🤗

Now moving onto the older twins: 😉.

You know, everyone told the Queen that having twins would be a really unique experience.

And it was true.

She swears having her first twins was the funniest thing in her life.

She was astonished to find her babies becoming the total opposite of eachother.

Like, to her Yoongi's character is the moon 🌒 while Hoseok's the sun 🌞, and the cutest thing about it is that they complete eachother.

How cute is that. 🥺😍

As we said Yoongi is calm and prefers to spend time by himself and that wasn't any different when he was an infant.

But,Hoseok was and still is the total opposite.

Even tho they were similar when they were born.

But you would definitely know how to differentiate between them.

Baby Yoongi is calm while baby Hoseok is bubbly and energetic.

You'd probably find Hoseok fussing in the middle of the night, but YOONGI !!! 😂

Baby Yoongi appreciated his sleep over anything else. 😂😂😂

The Queen would remember toddler Yoongi falling asleep in weird places at weird times.

Like how he fell asleep under the dinning table during a royal family gathering in Christmas. 😂🤦🏽‍♀️

While Hoseok would cause many maids to hand in their resignation to the head staff of the palace due to his over energetic bubbly self.🤣

Definitely was the devil himself.

Pranking the staff and pushing them to their limits.😂

She would remember that one time when they were on a vacation and they were introducing the twins to the concept of a swimming pool....

Hoseok was ecstatic, he felt like he was on top of the world and kept splashing water at his mum by slamming his chubby little hands in the water. 😂

While Yoongi kept looking around like a grumpy cat then falling asleep in his father's arms with his chubby cheeks squished on his dad's bare shoulder.

Pouty lips slightly agape.

With drool falling from his cute little lips 🤤.

The Queen was laughing so hard that day at her husband who was trying to get any reaction from Yoongi but failed miserably. 😂

Getting out of the pool and putting the twins in their push chairs for a nap.

Yoongi grumping in his sleep because the sun was too much for him which led to him waking up feeling grumpier than ever.

Hoseok was too busy consumed in his curiosity by looking down from his high chair wondering why he is being restricted in it now when he was far away from being sleepy.

Now fast forward a few years later, and the twins were still the same in their mother's eyes.

Sometimes, she would look over at them and wonder if her grandchildren would look anything like their fathers and inherit their weirdly cute personalities, or maybe they would grow up to take after their mothers whom she still has no idea who they are or when would her boys meet them.

I mean let's face it, all mums get super excited when thinking about grandchildren.

The Queen actually caught herself imaging how her grandchildren will look like after the boys decide to settle down and start their own families.

Almost had a mini heart attack at the thought of the palace being invaded by her grandchildren.😂

That is if her sons decide to have as many children as she and her husband did.

Would secretly wish for girls because obviously she didn't have the experience of raising a girl.💜

Which will lead her to think of all the royal jewelleries that she will be giving to them.

But would push away the whole thought as she didn't want to pressure the boys.🥺

Now moving onto Namjoon:

Boy was the king and queen amazed when they discovered his love for reading at an early age.

Like he would spend so much time in the library of the palace, and afterwards would go to bed immediately.

The king promised not to tell anyone this except for Namjoon's future wife.

But one night when he was on his way to his room ...

He found Namjoon sneaking late at night out of his room and into the library in his cute baby blue onsies. 💙🥺

His father won't admit it, but he thought it was one of the cutest things ever.

Just like, how he found his oldest twins the total opposite of eachother. 😍

The king as a father was very involved in his sons' lives.

They made him so excited.

Like everyday they would teach him something new, and as a father he was and still is looking forward to know more about them.

How they think, react, and what do they like and dislike.

Raising them was such an adventure to him.

He remembers when they were first expecting Jin.

Everyone told him that having a son is like having a partner in crime.

And God blessed him with 7.

Too many partners in crime for the poor Queen's heart.😂

Well concerning Jin:

The king and queen remember how he was the second quietest baby after Yoongi.

Sometimes the Queen thinks that Jin is too mature for his age.

A perfectionist since childhood.

She could remember when he would throw little tantrums when things didn't go his own way.😂

As the eldest, he is doing a great job of looking out for his brothers.

She of course understands the way Jin is as he's the crown prince.

But still she can't help but worry that he takes the position too seriously that it can wear him out.

She just wants him to enjoy his life a little bit like his younger brothers.

When accompanied by one of the maknae line to carry out a royal duty, you can see him quietly reprimanding them (yet gently) to behave in front of the public and the paparazzi.

This one time the camera caught him giving Jungkook the look because he was fussing around.

Poor Kookie looking at the ground like a reprimanded little child muttering a "sorry hyung." 😂😂😂

Jin has this faint sided smile.

He loves his brothers,truly.

Can't help having a cute little smile whenever one of them would apologize for acting unprofessionally, he just loves to mess with them.

And they know it.

But they respect him so much that they won't argue about it. 💜

Now Jimin and Taehyung are a different story:

THESE KIDS ARE A MESS

I am telling you. 🙂

DO. NOT. LEAVE. THEM. TOGETHER. FOR. TOO. LONG. ⚠️

They will bring chaos upon the place.

Even though they are not identical twins.

But unlike Yoongi and Hoseok, they have a lot in common.

Would wear matching outfits when doing a royal duty.😊💜

The boys remember when Hosoek once suggested doing the same thing with Yoongi...

But he scoffed at him. 😂

Anyways.

Even though they are trouble, but that doesn't mean that they're unaware of their positions as princes.

Therefore they won't really do something reckless. But still they're crazy.

Insepararble.

If one leaves the other to carry out a certain royal duty without his twin.... They immediately feel uncomfortable.

You can definitely feel it that they're close brothers.

But again they're twins so you can't really blame them.

definitely helped Hoseok with his pranks on the staff of the place when they were kids.😂🤭

As for Jungkook, well...:

Last child, so definitely pampered all the time.

VERY CURIOUS.

you know how children are curious by nature, well.... He is extra curious.

Definitely the most athletic among his brothers.

Very competitive.

Don't ask me why!! But Prince Jungkook would be interested in fencing 🤺

Like I'd imagine him in that uniform, sword in his gloved hand, messy hair hidden under his helmet...

And oh my God ... I just melted at the concept 🤤

Such a hopeless romantic.🥺💜

Like when the king and queen would share a short loving kiss.

All the boys would act disgusted, but not Kookie.

He found it cute.

Like he would have a hint of a blush on his face.

Smile, face down.

Hoping to find someone like how his dad found his mum.

Like it really amazes him how after all these years, with seven kids, a heavy burden of ruling a country and yet they seem to be falling more and more for eachother everyday.

If the boys learnt one thing from their parents, it would be pure love.(romantically speaking.)

All in all, the boys are doing just fine as princes.

Carrying out their duties as professionally as possible.

Things are quite normal in their lives that is until ...

Each one finds his partner.😏💜

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A/N: Please, please, please I am begging you guys for the millionth time to not be silent readers and share your opinions. TELL. ME WHAT. DO. YOU. THINK. Pwetty pwease 🥺👉🏼👈🏼. Also I'll upload the second part of this when it gets a decent amount of likes so....

[clare-with-no-i]

Honestly if anyone has more details on TLAT I'd love to know more to ! I read it recently after 4 (?) Years and I have fallen in love with everyone all over again. It's SUCH a marauders era classic . Actually I wouldn't mind if anyone wants to talk about it either because I'm on a TLAT roll rn 😭 I wanted to ask if it has 36 chapters or 37 tho, because I searched the tag on tumblr and came across exercpts from chapter 37. But on fanfictionnet, I only see 36 chapters. I don't remember how many chapters there were in total when I first read it.

Lastly Clare I really want to thank you for not just redirecting me to tlat, but also for sharing your own incredible work with us and for being an absolute sweetie . Thank you SO much x 💖

this is becoming a TLAT blog and honestly!!! I’m so okay with it!!! I love talking about that fic.  It’s like my holy grail - every time I read how well Jules developed the Jily relationship I just sit there like this: :O

also - I think what people are referring to with TLAT ch37 is @jilyesplz ‘s continuation fic of TLAT, “Potter and Evans”! It’s brilliant.  I’ve talked about it before (and about jilyesplz, the queen she is) but I highly recommend reading that for your TLAT drought needs! It’s in my bookmarks on AO3 :) :) 

also - thank you SO much! the last part of this is just so, so kind. I’m so glad to share my works with such a wonderful community of people! you all knock my socks off all the time with how supportive and lovely you are. thank YOU! <3 xx

[callmewhatyouwaaaant]

HOW TO CALM DOWN?!

I had an embarrassing day (not that bad tho) because of Taylor Swift. Yes because of her and her newly released song (YNTCD). So it started early this morning, I was at school, I'm too excited to see my swiftie friend because I know that she haven't watched Taylor's live on Ig, so I hurriedly went into our room when I saw that she's already in there, I ran as I wear my shoe socks and I almost had a face-to-face with the floor (literally), good thing I get a hold of my balance, so yeah, I walked like nothing happened (some of my friends laughed at me). That was the first one, of course after that I told my friend abt everything that Taylor had announced, I never skipped even the tiniest detail. So funny 'cause she's as excited as I am, we're already having a good time sharing thoughts about Taylor's upcoming song when our teacher entered the room, so yeah, our chitchat was interrupted, and then we went into our respective seats.

The class proceeds as my mind wonders elsewhere, I was too pre-occupied because I was thinking of excuses so that I can go home earlier because I really wanted to listen to Taylor's song as soon as she drops it. Then I was poked by my seatmate and she told me that our teacher at that period has been calling my name, and I literally almost hide myself because I was too embarrassed that I haven't been paying attention to her lectures, she asked me a question and Idk what to say 'cause I have no idea what she's been talking about, I just smiled at her awkwardly and apologize for not listening. She even lectured me that I shouldn't be thinking about my boyfriend in time of class! Like wth, I don't even have one, kinda gives me cringe 'cause I don't like the idea of it lol. It doesn't end in that, my friends and classmates even teased me! I was too embarrassed because they were kinda laughing at me and I'm not used to being laughed at, i don't like it 'cause it makes me wanna cry you know (does anyone of you have the same feeling?). Then after that, our teacher stopped them so she could continue her discussion, I listened after that, of course. This was the second time.

The third one was in our second to the last period, it was around 10am or smth, I was sitting at the back beside my swiftie friend, we sat there so we could talk about Taylor without being noticed by our contemporary arts subject teacher (That's what we thought). We were excitedly whispering at each other, silently giggling/laughing as we talk about the failed theories that the other swifties made up and how we believed one or two of those theories. She was telling me about the prices of the merchandises, we were both about to cry (not literally) sad, and hurt knowing that we can't afford any of those, we were both deeply sorry that we had to download her songs illegally (I admit it) because we can't afford to buy those, if we only have our own money, we would buy, of course, because it would pay off Taylor's hard work and talent. So yeah, we are being dramatic at each other when we noticed that it went silent inside the room we're in, we both looked in front only to noticed that everyone was looking at us, even our teacher in front, she was leaning at her desk, arms crossed while looking directly at us. Some of our classmates were containing their laugh, but most of them just looked at us. Then our teacher asked us to tell the class what we were talking while she was discussing in front, we didn't answered because we were both embarrassed at that very moment (who wouldn't be? And it was my second offense that same day!). Then she gets mad, omg I was about to pee in my slacks (lol just exaggerating things) we were both embarrassed and scared at the same time, I was dying inside, felt like I'm gonna throw up or something lol. Then she told us to always pay respect to the teacher that's lecturing in front (we both know that, we just couldn't contain ourselves at that moment) and she lectured us more before she asked the both of us to leave the room. It was a blessing in disguise, tho. But it doesn't change the fact that we were marked as absent in her period (that period only) and we were both embarrassed. We went in our room again after our teacher left only to teased by my classmates again. I literally wanted to leave at that time 'cause it's too much embarrassment already.

Then it was around 12:50 when our last teacher dismissed us, I was literally in the verge of crying, like wth it was only few mins before Taylor releases her song, my swiftie friend left first because I was still waiting for my friend who lives near my home, he was so slow and I was already shouting and he's just laughing at me like hell I wanted to punch him. I was asking to hurry up because he was slowing me down (I can't go home alone) I was half running already as we went to the jeepney terminal. At the terminal, my swiftie friend was already in the jeep(public vehicle in Philippines) which has its full capacity already that's why I walked back in line. It was past 12 noon already when I asked my friend if he has a load, the he said yes, and I borrowed his phone, open his youtube app, search for Taylor's youtube channel and saw her newly released song, I immediately clicked it and went to my swiftie friend who's already inside the jeep, I was just outside, jumping in excitement as I showed her the lyric video, we were both beyond excited when we heard it the first time. I didn't noticed that the passengers inside the jeep were looking at us, not until the driver asked me to remove my hands (I was sticking my hand inside the window to show my friend the video) because the jeep was about to leave. I was dying because of too much embarrassment, seriously. I went back to my friend, pretending not to notice the contained laugh of some of the people in there, my friend wasn't holding his laugh, he told me I looked stupid which makes me more feel embarrassed. I gave him back his phone because I was pissed, I didn't even get to finish the lyric video (tho I prefer to listen at home).

I was humming the first part of the song that I get to listen to as we go home, I can't wait to finish the song 'cause it sounds great (seriously). I also keep on remembering my embarrassments that day, take note that it all happened in just half of a day! I can't get it off my head but I love Taylor more so when I get home, I immediately fished out my phone, connect to WiFi, and searched for the song. I thought that it was one of the worst day of my life, not until I listened to YNTCM. All the embarrassments fade away like all of it never really happened. As soon as I finished the song, I realized that I NEED TO CALM DOWN! 💗

Ps. It's still playing until now. I can't get enough of it, I really should calm down 'cause I'm getting too loud, right @taylorswift ? 💗