#if u're seeing this (i saw the post u made about it and. sorry i laughed) then i am so so so sorry!!!

[byfulcrums]

holy shit my worst fear just came true

[nanaminokanojo]

hi! been following ur blog for awhile now and ive always wanted to ask but i kinda felt intimidated but was scrolling thru and saw that u'r rlly sweet to ur readers. thought i'd do the same. love ur work btw. just curious. i assume u're japanese? sorry if u'r not but i saw posts and afted reading your gojo smau i was wondering if ur stories are all meant to be japanese like in culture and setting? pls i don't mean it in a bad way just really curious. thank u. pls ignore me if u'r not comfy with this

OMG, hi, Anon! 😊👋 I don't bite huhu 😭 I was wondering if I posted anything that made you feel intimidated but yeah, I'm rather benign. 🤣 Also, thank you for appreciating my work. It means a lot to me! 🥰

Aaaaand yes, you are right in your assumptions, at least 50% right. Aki thinks she's funny.

As for my writing, I don't necessarily think they're made around Japanese culture or setting unless I do it on purpose like that one Noritoshi scenario I made or Thawing Ice Queen.

I think. *scrambles to look at everything I've written so far*

I just really wanted to give Gojo his "heritage" there but apart from location and his family's general feel (maybe Nanami, too), nothing else about it is "Japanese", I'd like to think. But if it peeks through my other work, it's most likely unintentional and it's my usual self and environment talking. I try to be neutral about it, too.

Really though, I've yet to fully and properly explore actually working with and around Japanese culture. Perhaps a Heian era Sukuna thing or something similar, but I'm probably gonna be much too anal about it to make it work. 😂 So, let's see.

Anyway, thank you for the ask. I am happy to answer you, Anon. 😀

[jupiters-witch]

just wanted to let u know that i have been reading and rereading quite a few of ur works since late 2018 (when i first got into bnha) and somehow it never registered in my mind that u might be on tumblr. was looking at an old post rn and saw ur comment on it and the way I AM FEELING SOMETHING… I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO ARTICULATE HOW I'M FEELING RN OH MY GOD… u're a real person… on tumblr… oh my oh my… this feels like sending someone a fanletter 🥺 i'm sorry i'm being dumb but it's insane that i can just… send u an ask… oh my god… (i'm pretty sure i've left comments on ur work before but u know… it's been so long that i can't remember… i was LITERALLY rereading one of my fave works by u 5 days ago though 😭) JUST WANTED TO TELL U THAT U'RE WONDERFUL AND I HOPE U ARE LIVING UR BEST LIFE… i don't know anything about u other than that u write fics for a fandom i like to read but thaaaaaaaank u for everything u've ever done and all the comfort u've given me through ur works. thank u. genuinely. i am wishing u the very best. ❤️

thank you so much, this is very sweet and it made my night!

if you’re comfortable with it, you can DM me and i can give you my (fandom) writing tumblr (i’d @ it here but i have irl friends follow this blog and i don’t want them to see my work pfft). i’m not very active on there anymore since i’ve been trying to focus on writing original novels

the asks for that blog are closed though because i’ve grown weary of repetitive questions 😅

if not, no biggie at all, but this seriously made me so happy to read.

i hope you’re having a lovely day 🥺💕

[freshpickle]

Vent post, trigger warning: $u1c1d@al

hii, just wanted to say i reaaally love your blog! :) i'll just vent here 'cause i saw u're ok with that. :D

ok so basically i've been diagnosed 2 years ago with depression, i was medicated for 1 year and the i just stopped going to my psychiatrist because i felt numb all the time (and i hated fhe feeling the pills gave me) but i got better anyway after a year. Howeveeer, this past summer i was finally able to go in no contact with "the reason" of my neverending sadness.🙄 And i feel like 1000% better now, but is there something no one talks about at the beggining of the healing proccess. The fact that you don't actually know who you are without your sadness. And I say this because even tho i was diagnosted just 2 years ago, i've been depressed for the last 10 years lol (like, fr, i tried to kms) and now with this ✨new will to live✨ it just feels weird. Because 10 i was 14, so i basically grew up being really sad all the time and now is just like??? What am I supposed to do haha.

Anyway, i am really doing well now, this summer in july i'll finish my degree (6 fkn years in this university really made me stronger haha) and i'm in a 5 years relationship with my bf and everything is going really well, but i can't help but feel weird about my self concept. Because I don't identify anymore with being sad, now i'm just me. But who am I really, you know? Because all the trauma is still unpacked and I still can't really fully enjoy life - sometimes i do think it's pointless anyway but i'll not do anything (kms) because i really don't wanna hurt the ppl around me. Is kinda sad the fact that i don't really wanna live because i want to, but because i feel responsible for how ppl whould feel if i'd be gone. From time to time i just try to enjoy/remind myself that life is worth living because i get to see more marvel movies, or eat a hazelnut donut (i really like those), or sometimes i feel like i should just stfu because it'll be a shame to die - i have a pretty face & body and i got pretty privilege a lot, isn't this the plot of all those 2000's movie? Pretty girls get a secretly sad life but then ✨the plot✨ happens and everything is ok? Lmao. Anyway, i feel like last summer was the plot and now i just get to enjoy life a little more - even tho i don't feel like doing it at all. And i feel a lil guilty because i have a good life (living in europe, good parents, good bf, a uni degree) like it seems like i'm doing "everything i'm supposed to do right" but i feel like ???? wanting to end it because of the years of abuse i went through. I really want to erase it all and live at peace with myself because at the end of the day is my mind vs my mind..

I'm sorry for this long ass text lol i did not thought i'd write this much, also i'm sorry if i've made mistakes english is my 3rd language so i'm not really good at expressing myself 🥲 you don't really have to answear i understand is a sensitive topic and not everyone wants do deal with stuff like this and it's 100% ok! 😊 i hope you have a nice rest of the week, and thank u for reading! ❤️

hey! thank you for venting!! i am always happy for people to vent in my ask box, I can't always promise to have advice, but i'm always more than happy to chat if people need someone to talk to!

congratulations on what sounds like so many incredible things going on in your life! i completely relate to that feeling of there being this chunk of your psyche that can't make sense of happiness because you've been in flight or flight to survive for so many of your formative years!

i really struggle with suicide and depression and i also battle the feeling of disappointing my family and friends if i was to act on any of those feelings. somedays its the hardest feeling to live for the big things and i find it helpful to focus on the little things instead.

i know you sent me this to rant so i don't want to give you any unsolicited advice, i'm just happy you feel safe to talk to me and if you ever do want advice, or want to rant some more, i'm here for you <3

[just-my-type-x]

I'm really hating about this tv+ thing

Like even the girl who posted short videos on tiktok to promote tv+ had to stop doing that... like?! it was only 1 minute of video or less! and even then she had to stop because of the whole "can't post" thing or something

Sorry but I even understand that about paying Dean, but I don't think this is anything inclusive for the fans, many of them don't have money, many are underage and the parents say no, because I've seen people saying that in their country it's a the price is absurd, there are several caveats and in all of this you can see that the vamps is not the family they talk about so much, the vamps is something inclusive, you can only be a fan if you have money, besides that? just stick to spotify music or less than that

Im really sad with this cuz we can see that they really only seem to care about uk fans as they are the ones who can afford tv+, i'm not talking about just uk fans, ofc, but we know it's about more there

I saw fans from philippines who couldn't afford it, or even some others like mexico, chile and argentina.

I get very sad when I see fans disrespecting those who post little about tv+, like, not everyone can afford it, so just leave a crappy 1 minute video! but not! they even made the tiktok girl stop posting. So, sorry, I don't think the vamps are a family anymore, it's all become very exclusive, I'm starting to think they're even going to charge us to hear new music, new albums and music videos.

Sorry about all this, I had to vent. people care so much about judging, but they don't know why a fan posts... often fans don't have money, so they help each other like that.

some fans are not from countries with a good economy, you know? and that's sad...

First of all, don't be sorry, i love a good rant session

Second, the person who has/d the tiktok acc stopped for Dean and she messaged him and apologised in case she made him upset at any point by promoting the app and Dean went something like "well at least u're not the one posting on YouTube" and he seemed really annoyed, no matter how sincere she was in her message and don't worry, she lied about knowing who used to post on YouTube the episodes, so he still doesn't know anything. If u want, i can ask for permission to post the screenshot.

I am in one of the countries with awful economy too and paying that amount is honestly money spent carelessly. I don't know what people can afford for $12, but we buy to cook a whole ass meal, which in the hindsight is really stupid to spend on watching some videos, therefore, my parents are open to letting me subscribe once in a while, but we all know it's unworthy

I know how u feel by saying that the vamps fandom doesn't really feel like a family anymore bc we got incredibly divided and it's sad and building up walls in the fandom to protect a platform and to have ur "premium community " sucks for anyone outside it. And regarding having fans complain about not seeing the vids, tv+ on tiktok received a lot of messages from Manila and i think Osaka (?) from fans who asked for the videos bc they were there and wanted to watch the show or whatever (so she would send these their way). It's just sad :(