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[gallifvrey]

ok ive been thinking some more so here are some more thoughts abt the ep esp now that ive seen it twice (and am... planning on watching it one more time before the day is up)

(obviously theres gonna be spoilers)

i kinda liked how the episode was not very dramatic - that it was not particularly “flashy” in its action, the “villain” (or what you think is the villain) is really just a nice, legitimately good corporation. i also loved that bill was in it, however, i did think that her addition did in a way feel sort of forced? Ultimately i thought it kind of backtracked in the way that she was left in the last episode (the gay character being able to go live off the rest of her days w her girlfriend? pretty cool) and getting rid of that made me kind of sad. but also i just thought that her being part of this weird organization itself was kind of strange? there were definitely some plot holes? 

basically why is there suddenly this really powerful organization that has the ability to lift peoples memories from their bodies and transport them into another body/thing that allows them to kinda keep living? like how has this not come up before?? im just ... Kinda confused by the concept (and thought it kinda goes back to the thing that happens in a lot of eps when moffat writes something So Grand that its like... a bit beyond belief) 

BUT!! i loved the subtext of the idea that your memories are what makes you and not your body esp. in the context of the regeneration bc the thing that really binds the past regenerations together are their memories and w 12 being all like “i die when i regenerate” it was important to have there be some sort of like, no you dont die, you’re still you because you keep the memories

i just wish they maybe talked about it a little more directly? (we’re putting in a cut here bc this is getting long)

I LOVED CLARA !! i honestly now that im a bit less excited obviously wouldve loved some more but the fact that she was in it at all with everyone not expecting her to be in it was So Awesome and as soon as bill said “i have a gift for you” i screamed and my parents were like... ??? but Yeah that was AWESOME (i was still hoping that we would maybe get to know what she said to him in hell bent (or heaven sent?) but ill take what i can get)

i loved the fact that 12 tried to tell things to 13 before he regenerated, and the bit about kids can understand your name was really sweet imo and i really liked that i hope kids thought that was as cool as i did 

and i loved that they included the silent night thing, thats one of my favorite stories from history and it made me rly emotional

and i loved the regeneration tbh? i was So So So So nervous that they were gonna do smth rly stupid. that theyd have her regenerate into a woman and then act all ditsy and be like “Omg i have boobs!! Woah!!” or w/e and it would be . rly disappointing but the very quiet understated “Oh, Brilliant” was perfect and i mean ofc i wish she said a little more but its better than them being overly creepy and i loved that she crashed the tardis like everyone else and idk the entire thing was so great i love her already and id die for her

the biggest complaint i have tho is abt one? bc his character got rly tiring rly fast. i mean i havent seen the older episodes and i havent seen his at all but i cant imagine he was that blatantly sexist, and honestly even if he was i think we couldve maybe ? not included it. like, i get that sometimes it was funny and the first time it was and the second time it was slightly less so but as time went on it just got.. kinda tiring tbh. like i want to like the episode but having to go and sit through the doctor saying those things?? is a bit much yknow

and like, i get that its supposed to be there for comedic effect, its just watching it id rly feel a bit uncomfortable and put off from the episode. i dont watch my tv shows to feel that way and to listen to someone say that. it felt a bit like moffat was just gratuitously patting himself on the back for being So Progressive (which he is, in a lot of ways, but still) and idk. id like to rewatch the ep a lot but i just. dont want to sit through the doctor saying things like “oh she should clean” or even the Really creepy thing he said about like? watch your language that made me So Uncomfortable

but overall, i really did enjoy the episode and im so so so so so so so so excited to see where they take 13 and how she’ll move on, and as sad as i am to see peter capaldi go, the doctor has always been my role model and i really love that shes a woman now and i can’t wait to see the adventures she’ll go on