#ihaveitpbutitpdoesnthaveme

[jtmarose]

This article by Emilia Clark for @newyorkermag is honest and amazing. I figure if she can come out about this terrifying experience then I can tell my small story to the masses. I have/had a bleeding disorder since I was 15 years old. My body, at different times in my life, eats my platelets. If they get really low I have to be hospitalized for days at a time. I get to leave the hospital but then medicated for months sometimes years to get my body to even out. When I got ITP as a kid I was upset but took it in stride like kids do. There were times in my life it took me out of everyday fun like riding roller coasters at Disneyland Grad night at 17 to being benched for a year after I worked my ass off in Fresh Meat roller derby for 7 months. To big stuff this last time like 6 month of my life that I cannot remember, my hair fell out and I asked my mom to put me in a psychiatric ward because I thought I was losing my mind due to very high doses of steroids. Right now my levels are normal but I still get my blood drawn regularly. I still freak out every time I get a bruise or my nose runs for fear it’s a bloody nose. Of course there are others who have it worse but in dark times you just wonder if you’re going to survive and if you’re strong enough to get through it again. Each time I surprise myself, I become stronger and work harder to make the days count. Without my friends and family I would not be close to what I am today. #ihaveitpbutitpdoesnthaveme #thankfulforallthedays #itpawareness https://www.instagram.com/p/BvS9041Fw0E/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=kjorlu2q1h56