#ik i said this wasn't long but In All Fairness to me that was Before formatting

[flowersforabby]

first love, late spring

"do you believe in first loves?"

ellie lets out a low laugh, using her elbow to hold her head up and look at you as you laid on her bed beside her. her face was illuminated by the bedside lamp behind you, freckles littering her cheeks, the occasional ones on the bridge of her nose. she'd let her hair down for once- messy, unbrushed.

"that's already a kinda real fucking thing, isn't it?" she says.

you roll your eyes at her. "shut up, fuckwad. i mean like... that we'll never forget it. that's we'll spend the rest of our lives mourning it,"

"i thought you said you were over abby,"

"it wasn't her,"

"what?"

her eyebrows knit together, and you can't help but laugh as you watch her confused face. "she wasn't my first love,"

"you had another fuckin' girlfriend before her?"

"no," you said. "it was just... one sided, i think,"

"you never tell me shit!" she says, using her other hand to poke you in your side harshly.

you smack her hand away.

"what, i have to tell you everything?"

"duh," she says, that familiar look on her face.

you should want to smack it right off her face. part of you does, but another part of you has grown fond of it over the years. a side effect of spending most of your life with her, ever since first grade. she had been quiet, a loner, when you'd first met her, though once she started warming up to you, you discovered she had quite the personality.

"why're you even asking? you've been readin' too much sappy shit,"

"yeah, maybe," you sigh.

"well now i'm curious," ellie says as she sits herself up. "tell me,"

"you don't know them,"

"so it's a them now, huh?"

"you don't know her," you say, swinging your legs over the edge of the bed. "and it was ninth grade, anyways,"

"you knew me in ninth grade,"

"you don't know everyone i know,"

"almost everyone,"

you huff a small laugh. "shit, you're annoying,"

"who was she?"

"you would've noticed, maybe, if you weren't too busy shoving your tongue down cat's throat,"

"that's not fucking fair," she said. "you had abby,"

"not that spring, i didn't,"

"so it was spring,"

"why're you trying to sound like you know all 'bout it? i never told you jack shit,"

"and who's fault is that?"

you groaned, getting up to your feet and stumbling over to her desk to grab your jacket.

"where are you going?"

"wouldn't you like to know," you say. "forgot my ipad downstairs,"

"'kay," she says.

the bed creaks as ellie rolls over to face the bedside table, grabbing her phone off of it. you make your way to the door- opening it, then pulling it shut behind you, the lock clicking into place audibly. with a loud sigh, you press your back against the cold wooden surface.

"yeah," you muttered, under your breath. "i fuckin' knew you,"

a/n: haven't written anything in SOO long... ik this is pure shit, i'll probably delete it soon idk

[citruswriter]

Can we have a part 2 about that Angel dust fic with a younger sibling reader ?😭 I just lived it soon much. Maybe angel helping his lil sister out cause she got a beating by val

Uno Reverse

Listen with me! ↠ⁿᵉˣᵗ ˢᵒⁿᵍ ↺ ʳᵉᵖᵉᵃᵗ ⊜ ᵖᵃᵘˢᵉ

Warnings: Soul contracts, abuse, dark themes, comfort, she/her pronouns, angst if you squint.

Part One

It was all too much. The pain in your body coursed throughout your veins as you laid on your bedroom floor sobbing. You hadn't done a shoot perfectly. Or so Valentino said. Your punishment? To be kicked until you were coughing up blood.

You stayed curled up on the floor, crying and shaking, too afraid to move. But the ringing of your phone brought you back to reality. Stretching out a hand, you grabbed it to see your brother calling. "Hey Ant." You croaked out as you answered. "(Y/N)? Hey you good? What happened?" Your brothers worried voice came through the phone. "Val..." Was all you said and he immediately understood.

"Fuck. Ok. Stay there. Me and Vaggie gonna come and pick ya up". He said before hanging up. You decided now would be a good time to pull your pathetic bones from off the floor and into some fresh clothes. It wasn't long before yelling was heard. Vaggie bust through the door, spear in hand. "You ready?" She asked and you just nodded. She seemed to notice how in pain you were, opting to scoop you up in her surprisingly strong grip.

Outside Angel and Valentino were fighting. "I'm taking my little sister! She's off her fuckin shift. And if you hurt her just because I decided to take her out, so help me Valentino I will rip your wings off your back!" Valentino looked like he wanted to say something, but it took a single harsh glare from the spear wielding angel was enough to shut him up. "Fine. But she better be back here by tomorrow afternoon". He spat back.

The escape was quick and soon the three of you had made it back to the hotel. "That was oddly fun". You said with a pained laugh. Angel looked down at you with surprise before laughing himself. "Yeah I forgot how fun it was to fuck with Val." He said with a smile that made you warm inside.

"Well shit. Now that you're here. How about you join us for game night? Charlie wants to do Uno". Vaggie said and you looked up at her with a mischievous grin. "Well then count your lucky stars because I'm a master at uno!"

«────── « ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ » ──────»

"HA! Take that, Anthony! I win again!" You shouted, bolting up from your seat to do a little victory dance. Angel Dust groaned and threw his cards down. "No fair! You cheated!" He said and you stuck your tongue . "Nu-uh! You're just mad that I won!"

Angel smirked at you and shrugged his shoulders. "Yeah, yeah. Whatever ya say, sugar". You giggled but was interrupted by a yawn. "I think someone's tired". Angel said and you nodded. "Long day. Still getting used to the industry n all that". You said with a slow blink.

Angel helped you up to your room he sat at your vanity, gossiping as you changed. "And then Husk said that Nifty cried because she couldn't find her favorite cleaning spray". You chuckled and sat on your bed. "Hey Ant?" You said softly and Anthony looked over at you. "What do you think heaven is like?"

Anthony smiled softly and went to sit beside you. "No idea. But tell you what, when I get redeemed, I'll send you a postcard, yeah?" He said gently and you smiled sadly.

The two of you spent the rest of the night quietly talking on your bed before eventually passing out. Life wasn't what you wanted it to be. But your glad it could be so much more for your brother.

Super short and shitty, ik. But I still think it's cute. So enjoy. :D

[flowery-mess]

I'm watching a turkish telenova rn so that's why I'm requesting this specific thing.

What if teen noah and teen reader got pregnant, but he's like, "I've got a band and no time for a child, get out" and readers being a badass and is like "k, I'm moving back to Europe, raising this child and becoming a lawyer"

So daughters now 20 years old and a rock fan, hence why she goes to the rock am ring festival where bad omens are gonna perfome (she's not a big fan of them, she wants to see the other bands)

Noah spots her in the crowd and is like "yn?" And sends the security to get her backstage. She declines to go backstage bc of the stories of rammstein drugging and abusing their fans and tells the security "yns my mom tho" and boom Noah realizes that's his daughter. At the end of the festival the daughters waiting with her friend for her mom to pick them up when Noah approaches her and is like " i know ur mom" daughters like " prove it i,I don't believe u" so Noah's like " this is her birthday, her middle name is this and yada yada"

(Daughter not knowing that Noah is her das obviously, mom never mentioned any names just that he was trying to make it with his music)

She was like "oh cool, mom used to be friends with bad omens?" So they're talking and boom Mama pulls up and is Hella mad when she sees Noah buuut not because she's butthurt of what he did to her 20 years ago but bc she's mama bear and is like " u were a nobody when u hurt me but now ur a big Rockstar and have more power. So stay away from her"

Noah's obviously still in love with mom and is shook that she thinks that way of him.

Ik specific and long but if u wanna work with this imma love u forever. It could be like dad daughter things, where he realizes even tho she looks exactly like ger mom, they have same interest. Orr the mom and Noah could talk it out and eventually fall back in lovee.

I don't write about having kids, but I gave it a try so I hope you like it💗

Uf I don't think Noah would be like that, but let's get along with that scenario...

I think it would be only fair to the daughter to tell her the truth.

I'm not sure what her reaction would be, but I wouldn't tell her what Noah said in the past, she doesn't need to get hurt too.

So maybe tell her that he wasn't ready to be dad yet so they parted ways and you got back to Europe.

Daughter would listen to both sides, take it all in and make her own opinion.

She wouldn't feel any hate towards any of you, because despite being just 20 years old she's very mature.

But she would want to get to know Noah.

They would exchange numbers and keep in touch as he and the band continue festival season.

After they are back in the states, all three of you have a big call about finding a date when the daughter would come visit Noah in the states and stay with him for like a month.

Daughter attending college makes it easier with her semester starting in October, so you agree on date from middle of August to the end of Semptember.

After the date is set, Noah tells her he wants to talk to you alone for a minute.

You talk about what happened between you two and Noah apologizes.

Through the years all the hate and anger kind of dissapeared.

Mostly because you're proud of yourself for raising your daughter alone and making it on your own.

Noah is proud of you too.

And he would never ask you or your daughter to talk about him like her dad or ask her to call him dad, because he knows he doesn't earn that title yet. He just wants to get to know her.

But what he does is ask if you would want to come too.

And you're surprised.

Of course all of those feelings you had for him flashed through your mind when you saw him again. But also all the pain he put you through with his decision.

But before that happened he was amazing. He was great boyfriend and great person.

The thought about your daughter flying alone scared you, but you know she could make it and then she would be with Noah. And you were 100% sure he would keep her safe.

That's why you didn't mind her flying to the staes even if you and Noah haven't seen each other in 20 years.

But you coming too? That made you scared.

You were scared that you would fall in love with him again.

You made this new country your home, you have great place to live and amazing job.

You can't give that up for someone who left you when you needed him the most.

"Thanks, but no Noah. You know it's not a great idea. I trust you with her, she is adult so I will be supportive of you two getting to know eachother. But I'm not gonna turn my life upside down because of you again. I appreciate your apology, I will stay in touch with you, but please, only because of her."

Even though he asked you to just come to the states for month you knew him and you saw in his eyes what you saw 20 years ago.

Love? Feelings? Call it whatever you want, but you knew how going there with your daughter would end.

And you didn't need your heart broken again.

[numetaljackdog]

what i'm listening to 5/5/2023 (song notes under cut)

spot. link//yt link

Laura Les - Haunted: haunted. by laura les.

Machine Girl - Dumbass!!: i was listening to a whole bunch of machine girl in the lead-up to the gecs n girl show and i feel like it made me a bigger fan than i had been previously. i honestly still am not like the most familiar with their individual songs but this is one of the ones that sticks with me. NO SUCH THING AS THE BOOGEYMAN!!!!

Cracked Out - If You Leave Me I'll Kill Myself: pretty tasteless but as soon as i came across this post and listened to it i was immediately hooked on this song. it reminds me of the dumb edgy comedy bullshit i would have listened to as a tween, but like, the better side of that stuff. it was basically impossible to find much of anything about this group, so the spotify track is a local file that you guys won't be able to play, and it wasn't on youtube so i actually uploaded it myself this morning just to put it in the playlist lol

Sum 41 - In Too Deep: i feel like sum 41 tends to kinda get dismissed as part of the obnoxious skate punk scene of the 90s-00s, and to a large extent that's fair, but man did they have some good hits. i feel like edgy teen songs like these really can work by being simple as long as they just hit the premise with everything they've got, and this would be an example

Tyler, The Creator - DOGTOOTH: i was very pleased when this reached the top 40, brief though its stint was. i've been getting more into tyler recently bc i feel like i've been missing out, he's really such an interesting artist and he balances a lot of different traits super well while still delivering the goods in terms of good beats, good lines, etc. seriously, "not sure what you overheard but it's probably what I said" is such a good fucking line

Nick Lutsko - A Ghost Story: would STRONGLY recommend checking out the video for this one, either in the youtube playlist or on tumblr here actually never mind i can't find it. watch it on youtube it's fun. i followed nick lutsko on youtube for a while before whatever network it was that he was producing for went under. probably machinima. i mainly knew him because of his limp bizkit parody which is funny bc i wasn't even listening to actual limp bizkit at the time. anyway i really like his voice and i'm actually glad that he's still finding success these days

Naughty By Nature - O.P.P.: as i've referenced, i've been rewatching robbydude's paper mario vods, which are very good, and in one of the early ones robby references this song and it made me look it up. and then i made this post and it was underrated. i don't really have anything else to say it's just a good classic rap song

Slipknot - Left Behind: putting this here as more of a landmark to represent that i've been listening to iowa (the album this is from) a lot in general. i've had slipknot on the brain recently more than usual (not for any reason of course. winks) and reminded myself of why everyone loves iowa so much. it's so fucking brutal and biting... nu metal <3

Busta Rhymes - Woo Hah!!: honestly another one where it's like yeah idk this is just a classic what do you want me to say. busta's a legend and this song is legendary and he tears it up and it's good

Sweet Trip - Tekka: probably the most direct of the violet finds from this month (hi violet :3) i had never listened to sweet trip before but tekka instantly grabbed me... it's all crunchy and stuttery and has yummy synths. i especially love how it just fucking breaks down in the second half it's like that machine that's breaking down and sweating and sputtering it's almost sexual. you know

Ike & Tina Turner - I'll Never Need More Than This: so i've been on my phil spector bullshit, as you might have guessed, so i was revisiting some of his tracks to just kinda take it all in. as always, it. well it sounds really fucking good, and tina turner turned in a killer performance as always. i love. sound :)

Rowdy Rebel - Computers (feat. Bobby Shmurda): I'M SLIDIN OVER CARS WHILE I SHOOT

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THEY THINK THAT I'M TOM CRUISE

Machine Girl - Scroll of Sorrow: it's really rather exciting. see for those in the know (which is all of you bc there's only two or three people reading this), you're aware that my mutual (hi again :3) had posted about how, at the live show, the vocalist of machine girl got up real near the crowd (including said mutual) during scroll of sorrow. as such, i was listening out for the song at my own show and well chat i'll tell you i was not able to recognize it :-) but there was one point where they got up on the railing above the pit and were singing from up there, and while it wasn't like exceptionally close to where we were at, it was still cool bc it was like hey! that's like the thing! that i heard about! :) amd anyway i like the song

Sonic The Hedgehog - His World: itsa banger... i actually heard the penny parker cover of this song from the sonic fandub way before ever hearing the original so even now i still mix up the lyrics but it's fine. i've actually never played a mainline sonic game or any video game or any media at all but i like the music

Strapping Young Lad - Oh My Fucking God: i straight up didn't know that strapping young lad was a devin townsend thing, not that i've listened to any of his other stuff. this song's weird and loud and stupid and i like it

Rae Sremmurd - No Flex Zone: okay now. based on this one and the previous song, can anyone guess what semi-popular artist playlist i was listening to this month? i tried to listen to a lot more rap this month, because i wish to learn more about this beautiful world. no flex zone has been my first exposure to rae sremmurd and it was a good one, although i like one of the guys way better than the other one. slim jxmmi i like him better

glass beach - classic j dies and goes to hell part 1: i didn't really "get" glass beach for a while, i thought they were alright, but this month they started to click (once again with some help - check out this post teehee). they're cute, earnest, and high-energy; i have to kinda be in the mood but i can get into it 👍 i've also seen the band described as sort of a modern emo type deal and while i don't yet know if i agree or disagree with that it compels me

NLE Choppa - Final Warning: straight up this dude is weird and has a weird hit on the charts rn but bc of that i was like "ok let's see what he was like before his big image change" and ended up liking some of that stuff. he's so energetic and it really gets you pumped up, which is def what i'm looking for in this type of thing. he's got some interesting lines, too. it almost makes me wish he hadn't changed at all - i feel like i missed out lol

Vanilla Ice - Prozac: okay look i try not to vanillapost too much but like i'm a little bit insane about vanilla ice. i'm obsessed with his career path and it is not uncommon for me to just sit and think about it for an hour or more. i really enjoy his nu metal stuff, at least the earlier portions of it, and this is a top-tier track from that era. real headbanger. FUNKY RHYME KILLER, THE DOPE SONG DEALER

[that-was-anticlimactic]

I totally understand your discomfort but honestly I think you should be more uncomfortable with how people of the Christian faith have systematically wronged people than with people who make jokes about it because, seemingly, they have not had good experiences with Christianity like sooo many people. They find humor in it because they have little love for that religion. You’re welcome to but

hey, anon! no i totally know and understand this and i don't mean for this to sound like i'm just defending myself or something, but i am very aware! i have a lot of friends who aren't religious or christian and who've been hurt by my religion and i hear this kind of stuff all the time around campus. i am a LOT MORE uncomfortable with the way my religion has been used to oppress and hurt others. i absolutely am and this isn't me trying to discredit or undermine what others have gone through. it's just. i hate hearing people mock jesus dying on the cross, like, that's one of the things they were doing. which i think is awful not even solely in a religious context; people other than jesus died that way and it's a horrible way to die so i just don't get how people find that funny in general.

i am very aware of my privilege and ik this probably sounds like i'm being super defensive about my religion and saying things like "oh i have friends that have been hurt by christianity so i get it" because it's not the same thing as experiencing it. i just don't want this to come across as i put my own comfort before acknowledging what my religion has done because we Should feel uncomfortable about it. i'm actually actively working to try and educate my family and small group about this stuff - like i really care about this and--okay, now i feel like i sound like i'm just trying to make myself feel better or prove that i'm a good christian or something, that's not my intention. i just have this issue where when i write anything, it gets too long because i get paranoid that i'm not saying enough lol

no, i completely understand that which is why i said that i realize i'm speaking from a place of privilege. it's just still hard to hear and upsetting for me, which i think is fair. i'm not judging their reasons behind making fun of my religion or saying that making christians feel good about themselves is more important than recognizing our universal privilege. i hear this stuff all the time in a Lot of my classes and i wasn't going to tell them to stop because they were making me :/ because it's not that big of a deal, so i just needed to say something about it and ik my mutuals respect me - maybe i shouldn't have said something

idk if what i'm saying is making sense, i'm in class right now so my thoughts may be scattered because i'm paying attention too lol.

[jade-bright]

I've been in love with this one dude for 3 years, but when I was thinking about how many years I've loved him I thought it was 5.

The start was definitely something.

One of my best friends at the time also had a crush on him, ik this because she told me the day after I showered and thought 'I wouldn't mind him being my first kiss.' So I kinda backed off, I didn't say that I also liked him, I didn't say that I had talked to him the day before she would rant to me about him. And God was I sooooo annoyed when this dude texted me saying that she told him she liked him, and he was asking me what he should do. Not because she confessed first, no, I backed off, I didn't care if she got the guy, I was annoyed that when I asked him several times if he liked her or would want to date her or something, he was so unsure and didn't give a definite answer. Then I was further annoyed when she called me to tell me how she finally confessed, meanwhile I was still basically arguing with him. Idk what was said when they met up (which I didn't know until she told me a day or two after), but they didn't end up dating.

He had also just broken up with this other girl, who, I don't genuinely mean it when I call people this but she was a fucking bitch. Further proof being later in the year, this girl ended up dating my crush's friend.

And I always feel shitty when I say this, but he wasn't physically attractive. Even now that he's had a bit of a glow up, I feel like one of the reasons I like him isn't his looks. (But I did have the unfortunate luck to figure out that he looks so fucking good in flannel). It's cheesy and cliche, but he fucking cares. Before we ever dated, I got sick and he was the only when to text me and ask why I wasn't at school, like not even my friends had asked. My best friend who also had a crush on him texted me, but it was just to see what I wrote for the worksheet we were doing. More recently I had a like a breakdown or panic attack and once he noticed I had been out of the room for too long without ever coming back in, he went to check up on me and when he saw me vulnerable, on the floor, looking like I had just been crying, he just sat right across from me and was overall patient with my explanation that I didn't owe him and waiting for when I was ready to get up.

However the situation I'm currently in sucks because we have dated and broke up a TOTAL of 3 times. In our last break up (over the phone btw), he said he wasn't ready for a relationship, but then 2 months later I'm telling him how he hurt me really bad and that I still love him and other shit. But I asked for time to think if I wanted to get back together, especially since I had a trip out the country later in the week. So I come back to the states and like a month later I'm telling him that I don't think I can like people in a romantic way, but then come back to school and I'm realizing that I just can't like anyone else because I'm still in love with him and can't imagine being in a serious relationship with someone who isn't him. And so half way through the month, I call him and I tell him so and also that he can have all the time he wants since it's only fair. But since then to now, we're gone to the mall with a mutual friend and I held his hand, went to hoco held his hand and slow danced with him and ended up accidentally taking his hoodie with me and having it for the whole weekend. All of this and he didn't stop me, and we haven't acknowledged or talked about shit. The closest thing to acknowledgement was when I'd first go to hold his hand, he'd look down to see what I was doing then just hold my hand in return. Like wtf!?!?!

When I mentioned the unacknowledgement to my two friends who I've been telling all this shit to, they've both told me that we should really talk about. And I've told them, I will, after November 3rd, because from the day I called and told him I still love him to that day was the same time it took me to finally say how I (thought) I felt at the time.

I am to a degree prepared for rejection or acceptance. If he says no to a relationship, I feel like I'm gonna need him to tell me he doesn't like me in that sense anymore because I might be able to move on right way if he doesn't tell me that. And if he says yes to a relationship, then I stop worrying, i stop overthinking as much as i used too. I'm emotionally and mentally better than I was last year, and I'm worried about it but I can actually kinda see myself marrying him.

[cntritum]

ﾟ 〢    ✕    //      𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄     ⸻       //       ⌜  accepting   /   @traeumeri​  ⌟        asked   :

❛ all i’ve ever wanted to be was useful ❜

𝒉𝒆'𝒔 𝒅𝒐𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒅 𝒉𝒊𝒎𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒕𝒐 𝒂 𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒆             /     atrous  fate  dripping  cramoisie.     that forgotten fury wraps over him like a smoldering blade,   molded to the crook of his wits ;   that awful  bend  where his heart should be.   where it must be—  but you can’t hear it.   not anymore.   not under the song of early morning’s vapour,   bleeding orange in dawn’s light.   casting nothing but shadow over you both.

no—    there’s nothing for you to hear anymore .   what once fed a steady melody now bleeds nothing but silence through the wind’s heavy howl.    beneath it,   the ocean only weeps by your  tandem .    he is the moon  &  he pulls the tide.      your dam’s been  constructed  from branches piled through the years.     contrived by the decade.      words upon words of reassurance and hope :   all he ever knew to provide .       music woven by the sheer will of his fire.       a constant call to action.      he is an unstoppable force————    but you are no immovable object .

you :  docile  /  fragile ,  seen malleable as you have always been.       he’d pushed for your strength outside of your words and now all he sees is what becomes of you without them.   without him .   a single cast of his will and you’re shipwrecked,   twisted to lost bits of driftwood spread across a vast,   wide open sea.      eyes  lost ,   looking for what went wrong.    why you couldn’t  see  the fissures in darkness before.    you are destined to lose yourself no matter how long you search for every last piece of debris.    as if wood could never  look  like more than paper.     pages of painted stories beyond your own imagination .   of monsters in the lagoons you’d never seen,   spinning rites of passage beyond those of your kind.

you  were the one who saw a lesson in every tale.    you  were the one who saw knowledge in those books.  you  were the one who read about the songs of the ocean.   and now you are the one to face everything he’s tuned through this twisted cacophony.

                   ❛     well ,   armin  …       ?    ❜           he looks up from the shadow of his eyes,  a flash of unplaceable tension in their grit.            ❛     were you   ?   ❜

they warned you not to play with sirens .

                                                                                     maybe next time ,    𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑙𝑙  𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑛  .

[myoddessy]

johnny knoxvile but hes losing his mind because his gf female!reader just pulled off an insane stunt

JOHNNY WHEN YOU PULL OFF A CRAZY STUNT

I love this idea sm, and it took me a while to try and think of a really impressive stunt to base this off of and I actually really like it-

Jousting was a stunt you'd written very late one night before the crew would be travelling to the bull ring for some of Wee Man's stunts, which involved two people and two bulls. The idea was for each person to mount one of the bulls and attempt to joust, while the bulls got progressively more aggravated, and whoever stayed on their bulls the longest would win.

Ik it's mostly Johnny who does bull stunts, but I can see Chris doing this stunt with you, mostly because he saw an opportunity to dress up like a renaissance knight and jumped at it with open arms.

So while Wee Man was getting his costume ready for El Matador, you, dressed in a cowgirl outfit, and chris, dressed in a suit of armour, stood in front of the cameras before the bull ring.

"Here ye! Here ye! To joust is the ultimate test of strength, resistance, and balance. It is an honourable sport reserved for only the best. I am Sir Christopher Pontius, and I challenge Fair Lady, Y/n L/n to a joust!" Chris turned to you, you shook hands before making your ways over to mount the bulls.

The stunt itself didn't last much longer than two minutes, with Jeff yelling at you to see just how long you could hang on for after Chris got flung off.

While Rick kept the main camera on you, Lance took this as an opportunity to get footage of how the rest of the crew was feeling about the stunt.

"How are you feeling about this, Bam?" "She's batshit crazy."

"What do you think about this stunt, Steveo?" "I'm so fucking happy I turn down bull stunts."

And then he finally gets to Johnny who's not entirely present in the moment, at slightly zoned out while he stares at you.

"How do you feel right now, Johnny?" "Harder than a turnbuckle."

However, all good things must come to an end, and yours was harsh and fast, ending in you knocked to the ground and winded while the bull was herded away from you.

One of the cameramen, probably Rick because he was closest to the ring, hurried to get a close up on you, who, surprisingly, was laughing uncontrollably while clutching your bleeding forehead.

"How you feeling, Y/n?" "Like a winner."

That day was probably when people really got hit with the similarities between you and Johnny and why you guys were so good together because even though you were probably concussed to hell and back, you were acting like it was nothing.

With a bit of help and a lot of applause and congratulations, you were finally seated in the medic van, you head being gently cleaned and Johnny sitting at your side, unable to stop talking about how killer the footage was and how impressive your performance was.

This was all caught on camera, ofc, and even though it probably didn't make it into the movie because it wasn't actually relevant to the stunt, it was nice to look back on when you were all reviewing the footage because, to be completely honest, your ears were ringing like crazy and you didn't hear a single thing he said.

[robinofgothamcity]

"if you are not too long, i will wait here for you all my life. “

♡ character: zack sabre jr

♡ pronouns used: she / her

♡ note: not checked for grammar or spelling mistakes / hiiii ik i haven't updated in a while i was just lazy but ig im back and employed now!! and i'm also wildly obsessed with zack sabre jr at the moment so heres a throwback to forbidden door. might be a bit short but its whatever.

"zack, ive done my time in japan, AEW seems like a great opportunity for me," you told him, seeing his face dropping and looking at the ground, "you knew i didn't have much time on my contract and i wasn't planning on staying."

zack sighed, not knowing what to respond with. he didn't want to sound selfish nor did he think you were in the wrong but he couldn't imagine a time where you weren't with him. the two of you came to japan together, spent each of your time working respectfully in Stardom and New Japan.

"i know but maybe i thought you'd stay if i asked," you smiled, sitting next to him and putting your head on his shoulder, "remember our pact? if neither of us were in relationships by the time we hit our mid thirties we'd just marry each other? i stand by that."

he laughed, shoving you playfully.

"you're no where near thirty but maybe i'll marry you the next time i see you."

this time it was your turn to laugh. you knew zack liked to joke around with you but sometimes it was hard to decipher if what he was saying was true or not, "please, like you haven't been eyeballing. i heard stories from maki," you replied, now getting up and stealing the jacket off of his chair, "but maybe i'll let you marry me the next time you come to the states. i guess we'll see."

giving him one final wink, you walked away and shut the door slowly. you could see zack's saddened face and a part of you wanted to go back and just hug him but you knew that if you lingered around any longer, the goodbye would get even harder.

“if you are not too long, i will wait here for you all my life."

you heard the mutter from zack and tried to contain your tears.

+

it had been three years since your departure from Stardom and you had been running around AEW since then. you had your fair share of feuds with britt, penelope, and nyla but currently, you were in a feud with rosa for the AEW women's belt.

you had secured a match for the forbidden door pay-per-view against rosa and while you were happy to fight against her on such a big stage, you had heard rumblings about who from New Japan was going to make their way to the states to wrestle your co-workers and one of the names going around was zack.

you talked to zack every now and again but it was nothing like how it was before. you hadn't heard from any of the girls in Stardom if zack was in a relationship but you couldn't say the same. you had been in a few relationships since departing from japan but none of them ever lasted.

the only one that lasted a bit longer than the rest was with maxwell jacob friedman but that was only because you joined the pinnacle when they formed which not only made you his girlfriend but his valet as well. during your time with max made many people wonder why you were even with him. one of those people was zack who was beyond shocked to see the way you acted with him. it wasn't anything like how you were in japan and frankly, it made his stomach stir each time you were visibly making out with max.

"guess what i heard," penelope said singing into your ear. you looked up from your latop in confusion, "zack is in building," your eyes widened in shock as you heard kip giggling behind her, "it's not funny to lie especially when i'm on next."

penelope shook her head, "i'm not lying! kip was speaking to him earlier. he's very interested in seeing you again." before you could respond, you felt rosa's arm go around your shoulder, "lets go! we're next."

you gave one final look to penelope who kept muttering that she wasn't lying. you knew penelope would never lie to you but you hadn't seen zack since you arrived got to the building which was a lot earlier than most did.

rosa went onto the ramp first getting heavy cheers from everyone as you cracked your neck in anticipation. the two of you weren't due to wrestle but more or less rough each other up. you were wearing you SPLX sweater, the exact same one you stole from zack, and blue jeans. it wasn't your most stylish outfit in comparison to rosa but you knew it would do the job.

"breath, maybe what penelope told you was just to mess around with you," you whispered as you heard your theme going off. you went out of the heel tunnel, a smirk plastered on your face, "oh fuck off you dickheads!" you yelled.

you walked slower than usual into the ring as you made sure to give rosa as much time as possible to get herself comfortable on her side of the ring. you blew one final kiss as rosa cut you off and immediately starting her promo.

you chewed your gum obnoxiously, something that would make matt menard proud. you knew this would be last time you'd face rosa before forbidden door and you had to perfect your promo more than ever.

"oh rosa, it's really embarrassing that you're standing her not being able to compete at the rate britt was when she had the title. you should consider handing the belt over to me now so you don't embarrass yourself on Sunday. you've never been against a submission master like myself before and it'd really suck to see you injured after our match so like i said i'm willing to take the belt off of you and we can call it even, alright?"

rosa laughed as she tossed the belt to the side.

"submission master? that's a funny name to call yourself considering the only person who's had that name is zack sabre jr himself and he's not here right now so how about you stop embarrassing him. we all know how happy he was when you left him and its even more embarrassing that you're walking around here in his clothes three years later!"

your eyes widened as you dove to attack her. you went for her legs immediately you put her in a submission hold making her cry out in agony. it wasn't until you heard a very familiar theme song go off through the speakers making you look up when you realized that the rumors were true.

the crowd went nuts as you stared at zack making his way through the heel tunnel. you stared at him not believing that this was the way he would make his AEW debut and not with bryan who you assumed would be the one he was going against.

you kicked rosa one final time as she rolled out of the ring. you stood in the middle of it and continued to stare down at him, disbelief written all over your face. zack made his way towards the ring, making sure to spew insults at the crowd before finally climbing in and standing in front of you.

everyone in the building went quiet as you felt your body jerk forward to hug zack. the entire crowd started to boo as you felt him laughing against you. you knew that zack wasn't exactly someone who would be hurt with this reaction but you could see that he was holding you tighter than usual.

zack finally pulled himself back and held your hand up as your theme went off. you wanted nothing more than to curse zack out for not telling you he'd be here but you knew you'd have more than enough time to do it backstage. he opened the ropes to help you out of the ring and as you gave one final middle finger to the crowd, zack stood behind you clapping proudly.

as the two of you reached the back, you immediately jumped on him and shoved your face in his shoulder, "you asshole, why didn't you tell me?" you screamed into it. zack patted your back, "had to make sure you still weren't with that dickhead maxwell before i reunited with you."

you could see penelope and kip watching you from afar as they muttered an, "i told you". you paid them no mind as you continued to hug zack, "i missed you so much," you whispered in his ear as you now let your tears fall freely. he could feel the wetness of the tears on his shirt as he hugged your closer.

once you finally pulled away, zack wiped the tears away before pulling you into a more secluded corner.

"i couldn't tell you because i was practically sworn to secrecy until i got into the building," he finally explained. you smiled at him weakly when you realized that he would only be here for about a week until he had to return to japan, "you're leaving after Sunday, aren't you?" you murmured sadly.

zack nodded as he grabbed your hand, "i don't want to but my contract isn't up with new japan yet. if i could stay here just to be with you, i'd do it in a heartbeat," he replied. you closed your eyes, not wanting to cry again but you knew that it was useless to grow closer to him again when he'd have to return just as quickly as he came.

"fuck, this forbidden door bullshit really screwed us up, didn't it?" you joked, wiping away your tears again. zack nodded as he realized that the gift he had in your pocket felt like it was burning him from the anticipation, "remember the last thing we told each other before you left?"

you remained confused for a few seconds until zack went down on one knee when you finally realized what he was speaking about. you saw him pull out a tiny silver ring from his pocket.

"i told you i'd marry you the next time i saw you so how about we go through with it? nothing is stopping us from running to some random officiant and getting married after this," your mouth fell from surprise but you nodded almost immediately, "lets do it," you whispered as he put the ring on your finger.

you went up for a steaming kiss with no intention of releasing him anytime soon. zack felt your fingers running through his hair and let you continue to kiss him until he was out of breath.

"maybe i'll have to ask for an excursion run here in amerca just to spend more time with you," zack whispered against your lips. you giggled, "or maybe i'll be the one to go to you. i know they're doing the princess of princess championship soon and i could see if i can contend for it."

zack's smile widened even more as he spun you around in excitement, "Well lets go mrs.sabre, we have a lot of things to do tonight," he said holding your hand and twirling the ring around your finger.

you nodded, giving him one final kiss on the lips before finding penelope. you knew you'd need a witness and possibly someone to vouch for you when the news inevitably got out that you married zack.

[aetheternity]

Hard Pass P3 (Levi X Reader)

Synopsis: Levi is forced out of his comfy dorm room and in a strange twist of events right into your arms at a college party.

Levi was relieved for the silence as he clicked away at his keyboard. Mike had gone to his only late class of the entire week. Which meant Levi could actually study in his room.

The scent of tea and the small aroma diffuser on his desk as well as the open window in front of him welcomed a nice calming smell that was normally masked by Mike's gym bags and sweaty clothes. Which reminded Levi of the laundry he would have to do soon.

He pressed his tea cup to his lips feeling a twinge of irritation as he was interrupted by two knocks on the door. He looked down at the time. 6:15. A little too early for Mike to be back complaining that he'd forgotten his keys.

Then it was probably one of his girls complaining that she'd left her shit in the room. If Levi had a dollar for the amount of times that had happened he could pay for a new roommate.

The next couple knocks were a bit louder. "Levi? It's Y/N.."

Y/N?!

His face practically exploded. He stood far too fast because just as quickly he was flopping over his stupid desk chair and hitting the floor with a hard thud. He gasped audibly tugging at his knee and gritting his teeth.

"Levi? Are you ok?" Came her voice again.

He pulled himself up with a huff and staggered over to the door. Unsurprisingly he had to limp. With a quick turn of the lock he yanked open the door right into his forehead. God fucking dammit.

He groaned in a mix of fury and disgust partially because he'd idiotically stood so close when opening the door and partially because he hated the stupid inanimate object.

"Oh my god! Are you ok?" Y/N gasped, squeezing herself inside and shutting the door behind her. "Let me see? Did you hit your eye?" She asked

Her fingers were so delicate as she brushed aside his hands. So close.. Her thumb traced the already appearing red spot on his forehead. Soo close.. She brushed his hair to the side cupping his cheeks to gently reposition his head towards the light. Close....

She breathed out a little chuckle. "It's probably gonna bruise."

Levi barely registered her words. Occupied with her beautiful eyes illuminating moonlight and the dim lights in his room. His lips parted ever so slightly. When her hands fell away he gulped and jerked his head back. Trying to find literally anything to take the edge off.

"I'll.. go find you an ice pack, ok?" Y/N began already heading for the door.

"K-knee.." Levi tried and mentally cursed himself.

"Huh?" She asked, turning back.

"M-my.. t-two please.."

Her smile was gentle, "Two ice packs. Got it." And with a little wave she was out the door. Her lingering touch still causing heat to pool in Levi's chest.

~~~~

"Aww sweetie, are you sure you're ok?"

He was not. Definitely not. One of her hands was on his uninjured knee and the other was brushing his hair away from the ice pack. He didn't even know if he'd breathed in the last 20 minutes. His brain echoing the word sweetie.

The two of you had been sat on his bed as he uncomfortably laid his head back on the wall. Trying and failing to not fixate on your touch. Every brush of your fingertips was downright intoxicating.

"You look kinda red. Do you wanna try seeing a doctor or something?"

"N-no.." It was barely audible but he knew she heard when she nodded.

If there was a hole nearby he would crawl into it and never come out. Though he also didn't wanna move as the fear of making this situation worse for himself stayed ever present.

"Let me see?" He partially removed the ice pack from his forehead, spine tingling over the way she sucked in a breath. "You should be more careful."

Levi didn't answer. Just squeezed his legs closer together and sighed. In all the time he'd been in this room he'd never hit himself in the face with the door. Just what kind of power did this girl have over him.

"I know because my little cousin has done stuff like this but you should put some cream on the bump so that it doesn't get redder and it'll go down faster."

Little cousin? That wasn't a fair comparison. Little kids do stupid things cause they're kids. Did she think about him that way? Uggghhhh.

He was yanked from his thoughts by her hand coming down to squeeze his. "Are you positive you're ok? Do you need anything else?"

"I-I'm fine.."

Just as Levi said that his attention was brought to the door. Mike had barely stepped into the room and he was already grinning like a fucking idiot.

"Well, hello." He greeted, stepping closer. "Levi, you didn't tell me you were inviting anyone over. Especially not a pretty girl."

Y/N's chuckle was nervous, "Hello, you must be Levi's roommate." She stuck her hand out which Mike immediately took placing one hand on top of their joined hands.

"And you must be Y/N." He said "I've heard so much about you."

His teasing was met with a glare that could slice concrete. If Levi had known Mike was gonna come straight back to the room he definitely would've gotten rid of Y/N sooner.

"Oh? Really?" Y/N turned to look at Levi behind her. "You told him about me?" It was a split second thing but Levi could've sworn her features softened.

"Oh, no I meant Hange." Mike replied

"Oh."

Oh? Was she disappointed? It sounded disappointed? Did she want Levi to talk about her?

"But at no point did Hange tell me you were this pretty. Neither did Levi honestly, I'm kinda disappointed."

Alright that's enough of that. Levi stood. Placing the ice packs on his bed.

"You should probably leave." He gritted his teeth at how harshly it came out.

Now Mike was letting go of Y/N's hand. "Oh wait! I came to get my phone. Hange said you had it."

Levi blinked. He'd almost forgotten about that. It had been sitting on his desk since yesterday. His knee was screeching in absolute horror as he staggered his way over to his desk.

"What the hell happened to you?" Mike asked, clearly trying to hold back a snicker.

"Aw, it was an accident. I scared him."

Levi returned with the phone shooting daggers into Mike who pretended not to notice.

"Thank you." She breathed a sigh of relief.

"Y-yeah.."

"Did you put your number into it?"

Levi's face perked up a little. "Yes."

"Ok, then I'll text you later." She assured, brushing her finger tips over his forehead once again. "Goodnight boys." And with those last words she took off.

"Faking an injury?! I didn't think you had it in you!" Mike celebrated as soon as she was gone.

"Dickhead." Levi scoffed.

"Hey, is that any way to talk to the best friend who just confirmed your biggest fear moot?" Mike plopped down on his bed with a playful huff.

Levi flopped down into his desk chair, staring up at the ceiling. "One you're definitely not my best friend especially after that shit. And two I'm not you I don't fake shit to get girls."

"That would totally be hurtful if it wasn't true." Mike shrugged "I meant the fact that she doesn't have a boyfriend."

Levi practically flipped himself out of his chair. "How do you assume that."

"Simple. Hange told me about her ex boyfriend. By the way it was probably that guy that took her from the library that day. And Hange says that a lot of guys find Y/N attractive. Because of this her ex got too overprotective and they broke up. But he had no reason to be because Y/N would always tell people she had a boyfriend or at least around Hange she did."

Levi stared at his barely drunk tea. The liquid probably cold after being left on the table so long. So she had dated that guy.. He had been so tall and pretty muscular looking, was that her type? She didn't seem like she was going to get back together with him.. but he was still around.

"All I'm saying is she seems loyal. You better snatch her up before someone else does or she gets back together with her ex."

His attention was drawn away by his phone softly buzzing on his table. He pressed the on button, swiping his pin and clicking the notification as it popped up.

Hey Levi, it's Y/N.

Listen ik you said you're ok but I bought you some cream just in case. I'll bring it to you tm ;)

His heart fluttered and ached remembering her touch and her kind words. If he didn't full blown know Mike was staring at him he would probably hug his phone.

~~~~

Too much time had passed and suddenly the whole school was on break. Levi had been dreading this. Not because he was a workaholic like Mike claimed but because he knew Hange was gonna drag him away and make him vacation.

And no form of vacation could possibly be more relaxing for him than curling up in bed with some books, doing some casual cleaning, and drinking tea with light music playing at all times. Mike was definitely going home during this time so it'd be the perfect way to spend his break.

But Hange's family owned a couple lodges and that meant another year of begging for Levi to come ski and freeze his fingers and toes off.

"Come on, Levi!"

"Absolutely not."

"Erwin!" Hange called to him where he sat on Levi's bed, scrolling through his phone.

"You knew he was going to say no." Erwin replied

"Which is why I brought you to help me make my case." Hange complained

"You clearly made an error in judgment then." Erwin retorted

Mike laughed from where he was laying on his own bed. "Might as well give it up Hange, Levi is just too stubborn about this. We all know he wants to be close to all my junk while I'm gone cause he'll miss me."

"I wouldn't hesitate to tell your stalker where you're going over break." Levi spat

"She'll figure it out anyway. She's a high class stalker. And I'm not her first." The room fell in uncomfortable silence but Mike just leaned back giving his full attention to his phone screen.

"That disturbing remark aside.." Erwin began shaking his head. "I'm going."

"And that's supposed to change my mind? How'd Hange force you into it?"

"It may stun you but I chose to go through with this all on my own. There are studies that claim it's good for the mind to get away from normality during breaks or away from your comfort zone to properly clear your mind. It'll also help you make less mistakes when classes resume."

Hange smiled, "Yes, that's exactly what I was thinking."

Levi rolled his eyes. "If I go you can't beg me next year." Hange's loud shrill screeching made Levi's heart drop out of his ass.

"Finally!!" Hange screamed in excitement as she wrapped her arms around Levi's neck.

"Get off already! You're such a pest!"

And that was how Levi ended up on a train for almost three long hours with Hange blabbering on about nothing and Erwin sat in the seat across from the two of them listening to podcasts while staring out the window of his own very sad music video.

And all of the crap Erwin had spewed about getting away being more relaxing proved to be completely from the ass as Levi shivered along wrapped in two scarves, a pair of gloves, his long green coat that fell around his ankles and a winter hat plopped over his ears.

"Walk faster Levi! Is that the best your little legs can do?!" Hange called, somehow racing her way up the slope with three bags. One that wasn't even hers

Levi grunted in irritation. Not only were they walking up a hill but it was covered in snow so deep that every step felt like he was falling.

"Do you need help?" Erwin asked, not waiting for Levi to respond as he hoisted the overnight bag off his shoulders.

Levi just huffed. "I swear Hange was made in a lab."

"As possible as that is, Hange was basically raised in the snow so this is the equivalent of dust for her." Erwin replied as the two of them trudged along.

"Her parents own multiple ski lodges why the hell did we go to the one up a fucking hill."

"The other closest one was more than 6 hours away. Did you really wanna be stuck on a train with Hange for more than 6 hours?"

Levi just groaned as they finally walked through the surprisingly big doors of the huge ski lodge. Hange raced over to the front desk as Erwin slipped onto the lobby couch, followed by Levi who was still kicking snow off his boots and his second bag.

"What's in that bag?" Erwin questioned, nodding to the luggage Levi had yanked over his lap.

He exhaled loudly giving the bag a couple soft pats. "Clothes, extra boots, extra gloves, two bottles of cleaner and a small box of tea as well as some light reading material."

"When are you gonna have time to read? We're going to be skiing most of the time we're here."

"If you think I'm getting on a ski lift you have less working brain cells than Hange."

Erwin smirked with a roll of his eyes, "Alrighty then, what's in this bag."

"All of the shit that didn't fit in this bag, toothpaste, toothbrush, cologne, extra pairs of underwear-"

"Woah, Levi you can't just talk about your underwear in a public space." Erwin chuckled at his own joke.

Levi rolled his eyes, "It's bad for your health to hang around Mike as often as you do."

"How is it you're not dead yet then?" Erwin retorted

Hange had been chatting up the receptionist for almost 15 minutes, bouncing up and down in front of the desk and indulging him in the stories of their travel up here. The man just gave her a sheepish grin and honestly Levi felt a little bad for the man but a little less when he thought about how it wasn't his problem anymore.

Moblit.. his name tag read. Somehow Hange's mannerism seemed more crazed with him if that was even possible.

"Yeah.. it has been so long." He heard the man say. You got.. taller..

"We're never getting out of this lobby are we?" Erwin sighed as the two continued to chatter on. Levi and Erwin stared as Hange continued on about her car with a surprising amount of engagement from the other party. "You know they kind of remind me of you and-"

"Hey, Hange!" Erwin cut himself off as a brown haired girl that Levi instantly recognized hopped down each step, a bald boy following her. And Levi believed he remembered them from Y/N's stories as Connie and Sasha who he remembered from the party.

"Hange, what're you doing here?" He asked as the brown haired girl gave her a hug.

"My family owns the lodge so I brought Erwin and Levi for the break!" Hange said, pulling Connie into side hug that he immediately reciprocated.

"Oh god! Why didn't you tell me your plans for break? Jean would've driven all of us up here and you wouldn't have had to waste gas."

Hange just shook her head. "It's quite alright I was already out of gas so we just took the train up here."

"You didn't put gas in your car again?" Connie asked

"Wait, if you guys came then does that mean Y/N is here?" Hange asked completely dodging Connie's question.

At her name Levi bounced out of his seat. Almost launching himself into the spot next to Erwin. Pulling his hat over his eyes and sliding his back as far into the chair as he could.

"What's up with you?" Erwin questioned

"I embarrassed myself last time I was with Y/N.."

"What? Didn't she buy you cream like a month ago?"

"Y-yeah." Levi shimmied his feet together as he slid further down in his seat.

Erwin's chuckle next to him made him grimace. "I know you don't really get it Levi. But uh, making an ass out of yourself in front of your crush is the first real hurdle to knowing you've got it bad."

"Shut up.."

"It could've been worse.. You could've accidentally injured her. Or got caught by the loud mouth in your class while writing her first name and your last name in a notebook."

"Sounds like a personal story.." Levi replied, inching the hat off his eyes to look up at Erwin.

Erwin scoffed, "Point is it happens." He said with a roll of his eyes.

Levi let out a little snicker that instantly got caught in his throat. It had never occurred to him that he'd actually paid attention to the romance movies he'd seen a hundred times with his mother. But now that Y/N was walking down the stairs it was like a scene from all of those movies combined.

Her smile just as warm as always. Turtleneck sweater hugging her features along with dark blue jeans and brown boots. Each step felt slower than the last as if everything in this particular room had been put on the slowest speed imaginable.

The butterflies in his stomach swarmed like they were all chasing after one specific thing. Everytime she appeared somehow it was different.

"We're still going skiing today right?" Connie questioned as Y/N stopped on the last stair.

"If Jean's up to it sure." She replied, her cheeks flushed like she'd just walked in from outside.

"Well this is gonna be a fun weekend." Erwin said but Levi didn't even register his words. His heart stammering in his chest. "Go make a fool out of yourself." Erwin nudged

"Hey Jean! Come on!" Connie said

"Yeah, Jean I'm hungry!" Called Sasha

Levi's heart stopped, his chest crumbling in on itself. The same guy from before.. just as soon a loud crash sounded and everyone turned all at once.

"Oh god are you ok?!" Y/N was the first person by Hange's side followed by Moblit from behind the counter.

Hange let out a laugh, wincing as she pulled herself up with Moblit and Y'N's help.

"I'll be ok. Just took a little spill." She continued to laugh.

Erwin was soon standing by her side. "Are you sure, you're alright? Your face is super red.."

A momentary lapse in Hange's facial features made Erwin step back a little. "Shut up Erwin." She huffed

"You fell on your side. You should rest a little bit." Moblit said, coming closer. "Just.. in case."

"Ok.." Hange replied

Y/N seemed to relax at this information. Her gaze immediately falling on Levi surprisingly. He really hoped he didn't outwardly wince.

"Hi, Levi." She spoke plainly giving Erwin a small greeting as well before her, Connie, Sasha, and Jean were leaving the lobby.

Hange and Erwin unsurprisingly crowded into Levi's room about five minutes after the whole ordeal. But Levi couldn't even bring himself to wipe one thing down like he'd wanted to. He just laid still on the bed, eyes planted to the ceiling.

Surprisingly Hange had also stayed silent. Her eyes shut where she laid next to Levi.

"I can't believe you broke the handle on my luggage Hange." Erwin called still sat on the floor holding his luggage in one hand and the handle in the other. Pressing the broken part of the handle to his bag as if it'd be that simple to fix.

"Now what am I supposed to do?"

"It broke my fall Erwin. Be grateful."

"For what exactly?"

"I don't know!"

Levi blinked, his gaze falling on Hange for the first time since she took that spill in the lobby. Her hands were crossed over her stomach, thumbs rubbing the spot where she fell.

"Are you alright or not?" Levi questioned

"I'm fine."

"Ok, I know why Levi's upset but why're you?" Erwin chimed up

"What's Levi upset about?"

"What else? Y/N."

"Uggggghhh Levvviiiii why don't you just ask her out already?" Hange said

Levi sat up on the bed pulling his feet into his chest. Shoes long gone, pushed up against the wall as soon as they'd walked into the room.

"I'm not talking about this shit anymore this week."

"Levi, if we're staying here all of this week and next then chances are she's also staying here all week and next. Which means somewhere in here is a perfect opportunity to-"

"Get in her bed." Hange interrupted

"Or something less crass." Erwin suggested "You did pack condoms in your emergency undies bag right?"

"Did you pack a spare handle in yours?"

Hange's obnoxious laughter was almost loud enough to muffle the low knocks on the door. Her irritating jabs to Levi's shoulder quickly halting when Levi grabbed her fingers.

"Who is it?" Erwin asked, one hand on the door.

"It's Y/N.."

Now Hange stopped laughing. Erwin shrugged as he looked back at both of them before pulling the door open.

"Hey, here." Y/N sounded filled with fatigue as she handed over a small bottle to Erwin.

"Oh! Thank you! Where'd you get this?" Erwin smiled with delight immediately flopping back down next to his bag.

"Jean carries around extra strength glue because Connie always manages to break something fragile." Y/N replied "I doubt it'll work but maybe it'll help a little?"

Erwin nodded happily as Y/N turned to look at Hange. Her hands balled up and her fingers fidgeting where she was pulling at them.

"How's your rib Hange?"

"It's ok now, thanks for asking."

Y/N nodded and at this moment everyone in the room was looking at Levi who automatically felt extremely naked.

"Levi um.. can I talk to you? In the hall?"

Levi didn't know if he had nodded in his head or in real life but he was swiftly moving across the room. Passing Y/N where she stood and then holding the door open as she walked out just behind him. The door shut behind the two of them and if Levi felt naked before the feeling out here was somehow worse.

"What happened?"

Levi could hear the slightly muffled footsteps on the other side of the door and even a whispered Hange as Y/N spoke. His hands felt both too dry and wet all at once as he looked into her mildly menacing gaze.

"Wh- where wh-when.."

"You barely said anything to me after I brought the cream for your forehead. What happened? Did I do something wrong?"

Oh god how can she possibly assume that? Levi felt his stomach clench. He had never had it easy with text, which was why he pretty much always called everyone.

"I-I didn't mean.. it um.." He shuffled his feet a bit now remembering that he still had no shoes on.

Y/N sighed. "I wanna be your friend Levi. Please tell me you want that too."

With a deep breath he replied, "Call me."

"When?"

"Anytime.. I'm a bad t-texter.."

When her facial features softened Levi felt his shoulders finally sag for the first time since he'd heard her name in the lobby. "Ok.. oh ok, that's all it was? I thought I did something wrong. I'm glad we talked."

And Levi was barely registering her hands wrapping around his shoulders. Her body pressing oh so comfortably close to his. Hand sliding over his back, scent overwhelming his nose. And then just as soon it was all being taken away.

"I'll call you, ok?"

"Ok.." Levi's hand was still waving long after she'd already disappeared out of plain view.

"Oh god you're her friend!" Hange laughed the door suddenly yanked open behind Levi.

"It's as cute as it is sad." Erwin clicked his teeth.

"Tch, shut up." Levi stomped back into the room.

"Levi, you're in the friendzone!" Hange huffed as Erwin shut the door. "And if you don't get out of it. You're gonna be the short shoulder to cry on when some big dude with an invalid drivers license, a shit ton of tattoos and a porn addiction breaks her heart."

"That's oddly specific.." Erwin retorts

"All of you keep assuming I wanna be her boyfriend. I don't!"

Erwin rolled his eyes, "That tall guy that she was with actually. I think he'll be the guy who has her running to Levi's shoulder."

"Oh you mean Jean?" Hange nods "But they broke up a while ago."

"Then why is she still hanging out with him?"

"He's Sasha and Connie's best friend. So they've all known each other a while. They're a set, don't separate type deal."

"Then it's only logical that Y/N will marry Jean someday. You know if they all stay so close."

"Yup, definitely."

"You can both eat shit."

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Day one

Levi strained awake, blinded by the harsh sunlight stabbing his eyes through the uncovered window. He couldn't even remember when he'd fallen asleep last night but he could already tell it was too early for everyone else to be awake.

He could recall a couple things from last night. Hange overstaying her welcome in his room, Erwin suggesting that Hange pay for his fucked up luggage and somethings he would rather not think about.

Preferably the others joining in his room to discuss breakfast plans. At which Sasha had suggested the diner they had already planned to go to early in the morning. Levi's heart sank as he recalled Y/N's gorgeous smile directed to Jean who had stood behind her rubbing her shoulders and whispering in her ear.

He squeezed his eyes shut, standing from his bed and immediately working to straighten out the sheets before eyeing the book he'd unpacked last night.

Maybe he could get some reading done before Hange inevitably came to annoy him.

The one he was currently holding was of a dog wearing a big floppy hat in the mist of sunflowers. He quickly matched it with his black and white sweatpants. And with a small sigh he headed to the bathroom.

He thumbed at the spine of the book, sliding his finger between the pages to the current bookmark. A shower would probably be a better start to the morning though. He set the book down unzipping one of his bags and pulling out the first pair of clothing folded at the top. Levi hadn't remembered packing one of his mother's many silly birthday gifts to him. She had always bought him shirts with pictures on them that confused him.

He didn't even remember the last time he'd had a shower that was hot for more than five minutes. Or the last time he could look down at his feet without seeing a hair monster in the drain.

He took a couple extra minutes to completely wash his hair, combing his fingers through the strands before shutting off the water and quickly getting dressed.

As he reentered his room he remembered the random gaze Jean threw his way. The smirk on his lips, the taunting glare and then just as quickly it was over. And he was talking to her like nothing had happened.

Levi had never once in his entire life thought about having a girlfriend. It just wasn't something that absorbed his thoughts but he knew the second he saw that smirk on Jean's face what he wanted to be to Y/N.

He just couldn't imagine how.

His fluffy towel hugged his head as he popped open the book he'd discarded a couple minutes ago. He pulled his feet in closer to his body tracing the letters on the page, delving into the story-

"Levi!"

Two fucking seconds.. that had to be a new record.

A barrage of harsh knocks sounded outside his door and he yanked it open to see Hange standing there out of breath with a barely alive looking Erwin behind her. Excitement flooding her features as she pushed past Levi with Erwin in tow. A blue toothbrush almost falling from his lips.

"You couldn't let him finish brushing his fucking teeth?" Levi grunted, shutting the door behind the two of them. Erwin sighed his eyes shut, toothbrush dangling from his mouth. "Why're you here?"

"We're all going for breakfast remember?"

"Not for another thirty minutes." Levi narrowed his eyes and leaned back against the tv table.

Hange smiled, "Yup and that means we have enough time to figure out a game plan to get you and Y/N together by the end of today." Hange clapped excitedly though both Erwin and Levi couldn't possibly look less enthused.

"I don't need your help."

"Erwin, back me up here!"

"I'm not doing shit since you didn't let me spit and I had to swallow toothpaste." Erwin remarked, squeezing the bridge of his nose.

Levi's face scrunched up and Hange let out a snort. "Why did you swallow it.. you could've just spit it out in the hall or something."

"That's fucking disgusting." Levi grunted

"Why the hell would I do that?" Erwin asked

"You're not supposed to swallow toothpaste duh!"

Everyone huffed all at once and Levi flopped down next to Erwin on the bed. "If I need any help I'll ask.." He mumbled already feeling heat fly to his cheeks.

"We're finally gonna get you a girlfriend Levi!!" Hange squeezed his body in a tight hug.

Just as Levi was about to push her away a couple of soft knocks sounded on his door again, "We're leaving a little earlier, hurry and come downstairs."

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Before the car had even pulled up back at the lodge Hange was already screaming about going skiing. Erwin had asked if Levi wanted to which he'd replied with a scoff.

"Really? Cause there are plenty of chances for Y/N to fall on you. Or you to fall on her." He shrugged.

Levi just rolled his eyes and at that Erwin gave up and now he was standing at the freezing cold railing watching everyone go down the stupid slope for what had to have been an hour or so. How'd he end up with bag watch? He didn't even wanna come outside.. He blew on his fingers trying and falling to warm them. At this point he felt exhausted, absolutely none of his clothes were keeping him warm.

With a sigh he pulled Hange and Erwin's bags up onto his shoulder along with Sasha and Connie's belongings. If he could manage to get upstairs he could warm up at least a little. A hot cup of tea practically beckoning him.

It took him only a couple seconds to realize he didn't have Y/N's bag. He looked around for a couple seconds. Did she bring a bag outside? Did he lose her bag?? He'd only left once to got to the bathroom. Did someone steal it.. Shit. He grumbled in disgust. Where could he have left it?

Feeling a bit panicked he headed towards the stairs. Blood running cold, his eyes practically bouncing out of his skull. His heart stopped at the display in front of him. Jean's hand on Y/N's waist as she leaned forward on the railing. Their lips pressed together..

(Hey Siri, play Heartbreak Anniversary by Giveon.)

[thecrackedbead]

Weird metaphors and weird jewelry: The making of 'Candy Chaos'

IN THE BEGINNING (of the bracelet), THERE WAS THE WORD (no, not that one!) AND THE WORD WAS 'meh'.

…Uh, I suppose that 'meh' doesn't sound ls+ike a word to stir creativity. You'll have to bear with me. I will explain.

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Whether or not you like it, I hope the result doesn't make you think 'meh'.

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Last month, I was perusing a thrift store when I heard a siren calling. Following its song, I found a box of wooden beads. Given that my self control when it comes to beads is even worse than my self control when comes to chocolate, it should come to no surprise that I took it home. I was pleased by the wooden beads…I was less taken by the rest of its contents which either hid in cracks and crannies of the containers or had the audacity to flash their imperfection.

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What I thought that I looked like when getting the beads.

What I probably actually looked like.

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Some were nice enough like the little green and clear glass ones or simple but ever useful gold beads. Unfortunately there wasn't enough to make more than a few pairs of earrings and sometimes not even that. Others were like the hot pink clay beads, massively inconsistent in length. Finally, there was *gasp* plastic beads whose bright white windmill shapes refused to be ignored.

So with there not being many of the beads I did like and my hoity toity side sticking her nose up at the inferiority of the rest of the stowaways, I placed them all firmly in the 'meh' category. The logical thing to do at this point would have been to sell/give away/throw out the suckers but the only reason that beaders aren't a staple of the show 'Hoarders' is that our obsessions tend to be vaste in number but small in size. So into My Hoard of Doom (TM) they went.

Weeks later, I sat down at my worktable (which is totally not a coffee table that looks like it was hit by a tornado) determined to make something. As to what, I wasn't entirely sure what. I didn't have a massive amount of time before bed, so anything too intricate was out. My usual standby was to dig around in the bead soup and make earrings. However not that long ago, I had dealt with such earrings (I'll post about them later), which meant I had spent a fair bit of time

Writing about them.

Photographing them. (This takes too long as my equipment sucks and my training is non-existent.)

Editing the photographs. (Much like #2 when it comes to time.)

Noticing then freaking out about some miniscule flaws apparent in the photos.

Trying to convince myself that the flaws were barely noticeable and thus could be left along.

Failing at #4 and thus absolutely HAD TO fix said tiny flaws.

Is it so surprising that I felt earring-tated at the idea of making more?

Realising that as the items had (minisculely changed), I HAD TO go back to step #2. This cycle of course happened multiple times.

Is it so surprising that I felt earring-tated at the idea of making more?

However, there was a coil of memory wire nearby and sleepy minds can sometimes be a help instead of a hindrance. (Creativity of dreams seeping in?) In this state, I remembered a Facebook post asking if others ever made bracelets from random beads and my sleepy mind waved a lethargic hand at the beads I had formerly scorned.

Memory wire bracelet with random stuff? Sure, why not?

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You'll need this to know what the heck I am talking about.

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I recommend you reference the previous image to know what I am about to talk about.

Randomness is something of enemy of mine when it comes to design, or rather I view it as an enemy, while it is perfectly cordial to me. Like when I made the necklace 'Reflection on Asymmetry', going completely random was out of the question. I spent a good while taking beads on and off the long piece of memory wire that would be the bracelet's backbone until I felt I could produce a vague pattern to the piece. The sort that would allow me to get rid of my odd ball beads and prevent the bracelet having large boring sections, while keeping a feeling of spontaneity. It all came down to the Six Commandments:

Keep thy beads in the same relative colour family or else thy eyes will meltth. (Keep colours that more or less match or it will be ugly.)

At the Beginning and the Endth of thy memory wire make surest that there is a bead, neither small nor large, to mark the path. (Use a medium bead at the beginning and end of the bracelet length.)

Use thy smallest beads the most for they are a multitude and of those the pink most as they are as a legion to a single warrior. (You have too many small beads, so use them. Most of them are pink, so make use of them the most.)

For every fourth to eighth beads have oneth large bead or twoth with a few small beads in between. (Every 4-8 small beads have one large bead or two large beads with a couple small ones in between.)

Where there be loops at the ends of thy bracelet, let their little dangly-thingies joined in marriage to them be as unique as their fellows upon the path. (For the loops at the ends of the bracelets, have the little dangly-thingies attached to them be random-ish like the main bracelet.)

Above all else, if thou art going to follow the spirit of chaos in thy endeavour, then embrace it fully with all thy heart. This may lead to glory. (Okay, if I'm going to do weird things with this bracelet. I might as well make sure people know I am doing it on purpose. Those one or two unique beads that are sitting around for months doing nothing? There in. The white plastic windmills you poo-pooed and said belonged nowhere? I guess that means they belong here. NO obsessive matching!)

These Commandments pretty much tell the story of making the bracelet except for two things.

Firstly, for the dangly-thingies on the ends (I really need a better name for those), I didn't want to attach them directly to the bracelet loops. The loops being memory wire are really hard to manipulate so I was unsure of how good a job on them. That combined with the thinness of the pins that were used on for dangly-thingies (there's got to be a better name) made me worry that they would fall off. So instead of attaching them directly or using a jump ring to connect them, I used split rings (aka. that-key-chain-thingy) instead as they was wider and thicker than the jump rings I had. This plus the multiple loops of the split rings seemed to fit with the busy look of the rest of the bracelet.

Secondly, you see the big yellow bead on the main bracelet? It's hole was really big. In fact it was only little bigger than the pink beads thus it might might slide over them and the other small beads. The size difference was small enough that it hadn't happened yet, but I was worried I would get a grumpy customer who didn't like that there was suddenly a section of bare wire in their bracelet.

Solution? I'm tempted to say I did something cool and sophisticated but as I keep on using the so-called word 'dangly-thingy', I doubt you'd believe me anyways. I'll be honest: I spent five minutes running pink beads along the wire then shoving them into the yellow bead's hole while grunting like a pig. Once the hole was full, sliding or no sliding, I was sure there wouldn't be a sudden patch of bare wire.

Now you know how I made 'Candy Chaos' and it was really, really fun. Commandments or no, I mostly just randomly picked up and used beads. It made for an an oasis or spontaneity in a desert of order. I even found myself liking most of the things I was originally 'meh' on. The variation of colour, texture and shape made me think of a field of wildflowers in the spring. The white plastic windmills (or is it daisies now?) in particular added to this. Plus when you line two up, they act like gears, one spinning making the other one spin as well; thus, the bracelet's wearer has something to fidget with.

I write this after having a few days to process it. My final thoughts are other than missing my bedtime, I it was a success. I tried something new, used up a lot of beads that I normally would have ignored and got something I liked out of it. I will probably make more of this style.

. . . Also the word 'dangly-thingy' is starting to grow on me.

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The bracelet 'Candy Chaos' is now for sale at my etsy store.

[strongsassysexysloane]

Eleventh Day of Twelve - A Tired but Treasured Day

A/N - Look at that! We are second from the end! Thank you to all the comments and love! Really appreciate it, it's been a long week!

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Read previous drabbles below.

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You walked into the office clinging to your cup of coffee. It felt like you were just here and you were, only five hours ago. This time however it was your own doing. You'd found a tiny shred of evidence to go on and had to follow it before the trail went cold. Then it lead to Gibbs and Nick finding the killer in a warehouse in town and bringing him in at just after 0100. You didn't finish interrogating until 0200 and it was now 0730. Coffee, coffee needed to be pumped into you to wake up this morning and a constant flow throughout the day would be required.

To your delight there was a hot cup sitting on your desk as you walked into the bullpen. No note so you assumed this time it wasn't from your gift giver. Day 11 and no one had spilled the beans or gone looking at the cameras like they wanted to on day one.

"Gibbs dropped it off about five minutes ago before he went down to get a report from Kasie who wasn't pleased to be called in so early." Ellie explained while leaning back in her chair and sipping her coffee. "He brought one for all of us."

"Christmas miracles do happen." Nick grinned, dropping his small cup in the trash. "Done."

"It's not a race. You just slugged all your energy for the next three hours."

"Oh please, I've stayed up later and come to work more tired before. Remember the November incident." He waved off.

"I still feel hungover from it." Ellie grumbled, scrunching her nose at the memory of Tequila.

"Please don't remind me." Tim groaned. "Plus I'm not allowed anymore Tequila, Delilah's orders."

"She may be on to something." You ran your hand through your hair, smirking at the banter. Turning on your computer for the day, you saw the next gift hanging from your desk lamp. It was beautiful, a little teddy bear carved out of marble with a shimmering purple and green crown sitting on its head.

"Day 11, the gift giver strikes again." You rolled your eyes at Nick's words while holding the Christmas decoration in your hand, running your thumb over the intricate detail.

It was sweet, a cute addition to your small Christmas tree at home. You'd put it up on December one. That was your tradition and some years it didn't seem worth it but you made the effort. Being alone on Christmas sucked, there was no way around it but this year you were making an effort to not sulk about it. The secret gift giver certainly lifted the spirit as well.

Your tree wasn't over the top but a nice addition to your home. This would fit perfectly front and centre and you made sure of it.

The day was relatively easy. The office banter keeping the spirits going with a good supply of caffeine. It was really just a lot of paper work and then you were set free around mid afternoon to try and have that weekend off. This time Vance made sure the team wouldn't be called in. There were other agents to take the call after all.

You'd missed Jack most of the day and didn't want to interrupt her as she was head deep in evals for the end of year. Instead you decided to shoot her a text when you got home.

- Just wanted to say have a good weekend. Didn't want to interrupt your head mojo.

You knew she'd get a kick out of it and you weren't mistaken.

- Head mojo hey? Smarty in the evening just like you said. Missed you today, didn't realise how many evals I still had to do before I went on my trip. Now I'm back logged and still at work.

It was just hitting 1830 which was a late one for Jack on a Friday. She was always hurrying along at the end of the week to make sure by the time 1700 hit she was out the door.

- I hope you are either finishing for the evening or planning on having dinner while you work. It's getting late, Jack.

- No need to worry about little old me. I need to get these done, I'll grab a bite later. Enjoy your night.

An idea popped to mind, you grabbed your coat and car keys and headed back out into the snowfall with your blue scarf still wrapped around your neck.

Thankfully, you weren't too far from the Navy yard and the Diner was just a five minute detour on the route. You called ahead so the food was ready when you got there and still warm when you knocked on her door.

"Come in, y/n."

You huffed, opening the door. "Now how could you possibly know it was me?"

Jack was sitting on her couch, shoes off, legs crossed and glasses tugging her hair back and sitting on her head. "You didn't reply, you always reply. And you care too much." She got up, placing her laptop on the coffee table and walking up to you.

Those were a lot of compliments you weren't entirely prepared for. You thought Jack was the one that cared a lot, but never too much. "I think I care just the right amount but I can eat this all by myself if you'd prefer?" You smirked, pretending to walk back out but Jack caught your arm.

"I didn't mean it like that. I lo-ike that you care so much." She ran her hand up and down your arm a few times before dropping it away. Her warm comforting smile turned into a cute frown. "And don't you dare walk out on me now that youve made all this effort to come here." She took a deep breath in. "Is that two cheeseburgers and fries?"

The frown and the way her nose twitched at the smell was completely adorable. "With a side of gravy. Wasn't sure if you liked it on your fries or not." You shrugged, missing the soft and loving look Jack gave, you walked past her and sat at one end of the couch, unpacking the bag of food. "Come, sit." You urged, patting the spot beside you as she just stood there and watched.

With a soft smile curving her lips, she came around after a beat and sat exactly where you said to. She took the small pot of gravy and poured it over her fries before pouring the rest over yours. "Thank you."

You bumped her shoulder lightly. "Anytime. Can't have Jack Sloane Hangry and loose in DC." That got you a slap on the knee but it was worth it as her hand soothed the spot she hit and stayed there for a while until it was time to eat.

"Didn't mean to ruin your Friday night plans either." She took a huge bite of the burger.

Between bites you managed an answer, "You mean my big watching The Holiday movie while eating a cup of noodles or the one where I go to sleep at 7pm because im living on about four hours sleep right now."

Skipping over how tired you were she jumped at the mention of the movie. "That's my favourite Christmas movie! It's got the best of both worlds! The sun of LA and the cold winter wonderland of the UK. God, I haven't watched that in years! My mum and I went to the movies to watch it and then every Christmas after we'd watch it together, some people had Love Actually, we had The Holiday. Guess I stopped watching when mum passed." She ate a few more fries. "Wow, Jack, way to ruin the good mood. Sorry. Got lost for a moment there."

You liked it when she rambled. She always would say so many interesting things and you just loved to hear her voice. You prayed the day never came when you wouldn't hear it anymore. "Don't apologize-" You held up your hand to stop her from butting in. "- And, no it's not because of Gibbs silly rule. I enjoy hearing about your past about things you love or did. The Holiday is a sweet movie, my must watch in December along with The Grinch, Home Alone and many more. I try my best to keep the holiday spirits up when I'm by myself for them which has been the last many."

"I enjoy hearing you talk too." She smiled, taking a massive bite of her burger and filling up her cheeks.

There was no silence after that. The evals were put to the side and you talked for what seemed like hours. Talking about childhood Christmas' and silly stories to cringe worthy dating moments over this time of year. It wasn't until you couldn't keep your mouth shut from yawning that you said good night around 2300.

"Sorry you didn't get your evals done." You sing over the roof of your car as Jack unlocked her Mini.

"Don't be. I'm happy to come in tomorrow because tonight was fun!" Her genuine smile told you that she wasn't lying. You could read people pretty well and most times Jack Sloane was an enigma to you but right now you knew she was telling the truth.

"Good night, Jack."

She opened her car door before adding. "Enjoy your movie!"

You yawned with a laugh. "You're kidding right? I'm going to sleep, I'll watch it tomorrow now."

"Fair, good night y/n. Sweet Dreams!"

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Who doesn't want this to end? Me. But I also maybe, slightly want a break from writing every day. It's been fun but tiring. I've enjoyed it a lot though! I love this time of year, if only I wasn't working in retail.

[pirateboy]

the trio :) donna toby josh pls

The Trio!!! I love them!!! (also love that u literally could have ended this after 'the trio' and I would've known exactly who u were talking about)

I've answered for josh here (literally as I'm writing this u liked the post sjdjdk but I'm still gonna link it for other people's convenience) @shannonhutchins I'll answer the donna part here cos hopefully these 2 aren't gonna be as long

Donnaaaa <<<3

I feel like it would be blasphemous to not start off with aroace donna, that's like. my whole thing lmao. The longer I have this hc the more sex and romance repulsed she gets so. I rlly like the idea of being romance repulsed tho it also does make sense. See I feel like she's the kind of aro who rlly likes romance in theory, who's always loved the idea of being in a relationship and this grand romance, but like physically Cannot when it's applied to themselves. Also this leads to her convincing herself for a long time that she likes josh when she rlly doesn't, but because she does genuinely love him! And it seems like. It seems like the kind of thing that should lead to a relationship so she convinces herself of that, and it's only when amy asks if she's in love with josh that she realises she isn't.

Autistic and adhd Donna go brrr. I've only recently started Actually thinking about this, but it's so good. I think there's more actual evidence for adhd donna then autistic donna?But it makes sense for her to have both in the way that they kind of cancel each other out sometimes? They rlly don't my brain can attest to that but in the way they present ig I meant . But I'd have to watch the earlier seasons again to look for it. Late seasons donna is masking a lot tho. She definitely masks very well anyways, just consequences of growing up as an autistic girl. I think donna expresses her hyperactivity through talking a lot, also all the trivia stuff is just hyperfixations (u telling me the skiiing wasn't a hyperfixation? ok). Also I like the idea of her having a language special interest. Oh also she does the t-rex hands All the time josh teases her about it so much.

Ok umm this one is just Donna's family ig? I've been thinking a lot about it cos I'm writing a fic to do with it but anyways. (Also I honestly can't remember what she said about her parents in the Supremes so this probably doesn't align with that sorry) She's not rlly close with her family, she is pretty close with her cousin Beatrice tho. I read a rlly good fic where her mum was called Nerida and I've kind of stolen that. Her dad is called Colin cos that's absolutely hilarious to me. She has 4 siblings, yes that's quite a lot ik but writing big families is fun. So the oldest is Dante, he's like 5 years older than the rest of them, her mum had him pretty young, then the girls, Isabella, Maddalena then Donnatella are all fairly close in age, then Donna has a younger brother who's like 10 years younger than her called Liam. Kind of hc that her dad left a few years after she was born and thats when they moved to madison, but then he came back before Liam was born. So she's definitely a lot closer to her mum, although like I said she's rlly not that close to anyone in her family. Also don't think she had a lot of friends as a child, she was just rlly lonely. Her mum's a direct immigrant from Italy, and Donna always feels bad about not knowing about that side of her family. Her interest in languages started when she started teaching herself italian.

President Donna Moss my beloved!!! I just think she should get to be president I think she'd be good at it :) I think. 2022. It's only fair that the republicans get two goes, but then it's Donna's turn >:) I think her and josh get married for political purposes, her because she knows it will be easier for her to get elected if she's married, him because he thinks it was be cool to be first lady. I don't have anything else to say I don't know how the presidency works. Which is probably good this is getting very long.

Donna listens to vocaloid music. Asksks I will not shut up about this sorry. It doesn't even make sense chronologically. I think Donna and music in general is definitely a thing, probably a special interest ngl, but something she's very into. Also I feel like she definitely would like a lot of 'cringy' things, so vocaloid makes sense. Also a lot of the themes explored in vocaloid do make sense for Donna. She probably watches anime as well tbh, she's a bit of a weeb. Definitely started learning Japanese.

Toby Zachary Ziegler >:)

Autistic toby!!!! Rlly obsessed with this one atm actually I just think it makes sense :) He's not very good at the whole socialising thing, I also think he's bad at eye contact and also is very sensitive to touch. The stimming is honestly canon, both the rubber ball and just the stuff he does with his hands I dunno lmao. Also... there's something about his honesty that feels very autistic. Special interests in planes and poetry I said what I said. I also truly believe with all my soul that he goes non verbal. I don't think he's diagnosed, I like the idea of him figuring it out after josh tells him about his adhd and he goes off to do research about it. Whether he gets diagnosed after that is up to u. He had the classic starts speaking very late experience, but no one rlly cared enough to look into it more, they were just like he'll start speaking eventually, which I mean. he did.

Ace toby!!!! While I think it makes sense in canon, it's not rlly based on canon lmao I just thought it would be cool so dunno rlly what to say. I think he's fairly sex-favourable when his sensory sensitivities allow, I also rlly like the idea of him wearing an ace ring. I think he's bi-romantic, he definitely has been openly queer for a while, definitely was involved with some queer activism in his younger days, I don't know when exactly he'd encounter the term asexual? But it's something that he'd know immediately fits him. Also I think it makes his whole thing with andy in s4 a lot more interesting, cos like it's implied that they were just hooking up right? But if toby's doing that just because he still has romantic feelings for her and he feels like that's the only way he can be with her even though it's something he doesn't want to do, then damn.

Agender toby!!!! Akdsk why am I just cycling through the As? I don't know if he actually identifies as that? But he doesn't rlly feel any connection to his gender, like he's fine with presenting masculine and using he/him pronouns, but he doesn't ever rlly feel like a man. I think he never rlly questioned it, but he's having these conversations with josh about gender and he realises he doesn't rlly get what josh is talking about cos he doesn't have a connection to his gender, but he also like doesn't do anything with this information he's just like ok cool I guess.

Ok no more As sadly, this hc is just that basically toby kind of adopts donna. (I could have probably turned that into an a but eh). I think he's always respected Donna, but he has never rlly that close with her, he just kind of viewed her as oh thats Josh's assisstant, but that starts to change after rosslyn. I think the defining Moment for them tho, is when Toby tells her about the ms. Now he already does trust her at this point to be telling her about it, but I think that's when he realises that she's something special and formally takes her under his wing. He pushes her to get more job opportunities, he teaches her stuff he knows about politics, all that. Because of this I also think it hurt him when Donna left the white house for russell, not in the same way as josh, but he still felt betrayed. Also along with Jed the first person to realise she could be president.

After leaving the white house Toby goes into more radical politics. I dunno, why not.

[mochuelovelli]

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Let's talk about the Timephoon Episodes

This is such an old topic of discourse but after reading many fanfics, videos, and some posts on the subject I have found little divergent takes on the whole subject.

While commentators are of the mind that, for the most part, the punishment and execution of said punishment for Louie's actions were partially if not fully justified but how she went about it was wrong.

Some fanfic writers and some subsects of the fandom but they are much more critical and often in a more black and white interpretation. Which is valid for vent art. However, I find both these portrayals to be lacking in some nuance.

Specifically when it it comes to who's to blame for the next 3 episodes, and to me, its more than just Della (and Louie but there really isn't much discourse here).

Let's start with Timephoon:

This pretty much solidifies their relationship throughout the episode[Also sorry for no captions]. Multiple times Della is shown to have a very laissez faire style of parenting as she primarily wants her kids to enjoy being kids and having fun. This is probably in part to her personality in general - which is probably what Beakley assumes here - however it is also her want to be loved by her children and even more critically, she doesn't ever want them to suffer like she did. Above all else, she wants them to be happy and feel confident in themselves. We see this in all the previous episode with her and her kids - From Dewey and reassuring him that he doesn't need to prove himself to her [notably in this episode she only shows concern when Dewey himself is in danger, she doesn't give a shit when he almost kills her] to Huey and helping him to have the most fun he possibly can, to even Webby and making sure that she also feels confident in herself regardless in how she goes about things.

Bringing up all these adventures does raise some pretty damning hypocrisy. Della encourage Dewey's reckless behavior in his episode. The lesson at the end wasn't, okay maybe we shouldn't be going on dangerous adventures, it was its okay to be afraid and you don't need to prove to me that you're great I already know you are. Huey's message was similar, albeit more low stakes. Webby's lesson wasn't even that she shouldn't be trying to take such risks to find adventure in the future, it was just a lesson in not being disappointed when things don't work the way you want.

So why wasn't Louie's adventure treated the same? Well... let's look at some more examples of Beakley V Della this episode before we answer that -

This is right before the kids find Bubba, Beakley's reaction is what most people would consider to be parental as she is concerned for the safety of the kids running out in a hurricane. Again we see Della acting casual.

Once Bubba is inside and Huey geeks out about him, Beakley actually smiles bc she knows that something like this means a lot to Huey [keep this in mind for l8r]. She only gets serious after Della says it's neat without much after thought so she gives the lesson of the episode - "Small problems become big problems later if not prevented early."

Next we have Della's faux attempt at being strict with her kids. Letting the irresponsible thing happen as long as they are "safe". While also harkening back to her previous episodes where she also is shown to have this attitude that "the kids can do anything as long as they are safe with ME or Scrooge or another SAFE adult", it is also good to note SCROOGE'S expression here to her patting herself on the back for her parenting. Now he could just be confused as to why Della is taking this "lesson" as a win, but he could be noticing that she really doesn't know what she is doing but unlike Beakley doesn't make any attempts to correct this.

Another scene that people often forget when reviewing this episode, just like with all her other kids she at first takes LOUIE'S side and decides they should just roll with the punches like always. Which honestly is sort if valid because that's kinda Scrooge's whole MO; though he also had others to there to keep him afloat but we all know someone like Scrooge, Della, and the kids hardly see that. I also want to hammer home that, just like with the other boys, she doesn't shy away from displaying that she loves them ALL. A few seconds later, it's subtle but she is shown smiling and patting Louie on the head because like the other kids she just wants him to feel supported. If I was to be critical, I would say this is possibly because she likes the IDEA of her boys more than them but I mean - this is pretty much everyone's attitude towards kids. It might be amplified bc of her trauma but it's not unusual. But even still I would argue that she mainly does love the boys for who they are as she is excited to get to know them.

After Della figures that they are looking for a "master thief", Scrooge and Beakley immediately know it's one of the kids. Shocking her since she later states she is of the belief that her kids are too "good" to do something like this. I also want to bring attention, again, to Beakley smiling (ik im putting a lot of stock into expressions but animation tends to do stuff like this for a reason). She is smiling at whom she expects is Dewey for messing with time and space. Bc even if she planned to scold him, she knows it's just their normal. Scrooge seems to also be of the same mind. Later Beakley gives a really good line about "Even good kids can do dumb things. We got to make sure those dumb things don't turn into bad things like destroying all of existence!".

Mrs. B exists stage right

All jokes aside, this must have been a nightmare for all of them but especially Della. She had just finally admitted that she was out of her depth and made another mistake in parenting. But now it seems like she lost her chance to rectify that. Because for all she knows, Mrs. B will never come back. This is import-ALLRIGHTWEGETIT

Della is then shown explicitly worried about her family. Emotions, insecurities and fear obviously getting the best of her. We don't know exactly what she is thinking but we know she is terrified of the possibility of losing one of her kids. When she asks about Louie, she probably thinks he must have disappeared without her knowing. That she might have already failed more than she could know, because she wasn't there to protect him. She doesn't know - she is "Della Duck" and she doesn't know how to fix this. She didn't expect everything to go so horribly wrong, but that's her theme isn't it?

She is both relieved and understandably PISSED when finding that Louie was responsible for almost destroying the fabric of reality (let me say this again, nearly destroying the fabric of reality). She goes scold both herself and her son about the danger he put them in. Later we see Della, the last one leave and seeing almost everyone she loves vanish. We don't know how long each of the characters who left were in the past but we can assume it was long enough to have to change clothes. Yeah this was probably more of a visual gag but like, the other past characters didn't change their outfits when they came to the present so - (also Launchpad was specific about knowing how the world ends so he had to be there enough for him to understand it). Side note someones gotta write fanfic of these characters time misadventures. I wonder if Dewey and Webby ran into Agent 22.

[Last picture of the infamous scene, side note did anyone notice Launchpad NODDING his head when Della mentioned his time schemes could've cost them their future? He's the only one who knows what happened so maybe Louie's misadventure has more impact than we think-]

Anyways, yeah we know what was said here. But I think it's important to see the reaction the other adults (sorry LP, and Gryo i GUESS) have here BC this is basically why I made this post. What Della decided to do was unquestionably the wrong decision, at least her way of going about it and I will not absolve her of her many MANY mistakes. However, let's remember she wasn't alone in any of this. She was with other parental figures who KNOW more about her kids than she does.

After Louie leaves, why did they think it was good to encourage this course of action? Why did they think giving full parental control to a PTSD, trauma survivor who barely got back less than a month ago was a good idea? Sure it's one thing to not want to overstep your boundaries but are you telling me they wouldn't want to guide her in the right direction at least? We KNOW both Beakley AND Scrooge have their grievences towards Della's parenting strategy or lack there of. Beakley so far doing the most to try and put her in the right direction (which speaks volumes to the problems Scrooge has).

So why wouldn't they explain that, hey, maybe taking away the one thing your kid thinks he is good at ISNT a great idea? Why didn't either say anything about their two day vacation? Something that came up presumingly on a whim and might of prevented (although i doubt it) Louie from trying to steal w/ time? He might have considered pushing back time schemes at least 3 days later. While Mrs. Beakley might be less aware of Louie's insecurities and ambitions, Scrooge definitely isn't. He should have talked to her, and hey we don't see what happens before they leave so maybe MAYBE they did. But again, I doubt it. Seeing as how they all agreed with her at the end, I don't see them trying to meddle with her.

But they should've. They are both experienced guardians and they have nothing to say to her? Plus Donald (goddamn it i almost finished a post w/o him) have THEM responsibility to take care of the kids NOT Della. So they are obligated to help her. Really, the other option other than just well negligence would be not thinking this punishment was a big deal. I wish this aspect was also scrutinized just as much as Della and Louies role in this arc.

Beakley and Scrooge (more so Scrooge) are just as much to blame in what happens as Della if not MORE since they know of her situation in only a way that an experience adult can. There is no excuse for their negligence.