#ill delete this in a bit hehe

[matamisin]

Dunno about any art this week cause it's gonna be a little busyyyy just a liiiitle 🤏

[moles-hideout]

𝓦𝓮𝓵𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓜𝓸𝓵𝓮'𝓼 𝓗𝓲𝓭𝓮𝓸𝓾𝓽 , 𝔀𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓻𝓪𝓫 𝓪 𝓬𝓾𝓹 𝓸𝓯 𝓬𝓸𝓯𝓯𝓮𝓮 𝓱𝓸𝓷 ?~

𝓗𝓮𝓻𝓮'𝓼 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓮𝓷𝓾!~

Hello my dear! Welcome to the Mole's Hideout! I hope you have a wonderful time here!

Here are some info about me:

° You can call me Ravi or Jack!

° My birthday is on September 3

° I'm veri delulu hehe

Here are some ground rules for requests!

!!! A bit of disclaimer, I am still in school so finishing requests could be a tad bit slow so please bear with me darlings (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠)

° I only do Hcs for now

° I can do NSFW

° I mainly do m/m but would make exceptions in the future

° I can do multiple characters at a time (only up to 4)

However I DON'T ACCEPT requests that include the following;

° Non con and dub con

° Yanderes

° Underage Characters (unless platonic)

° Mental Illnesses and Trauma (I don't want to spread misinformation about such things and I don't feel comfortable writing for such.)

I too have a right to delete any requests that I don't feel comfortable writing or have no energy to write for. Please understand and respect my boundaries my dearies.

I currently write for;

° Identity V

° Coming soon....

Now with that out of the way, would you like to make an order?

All images used are not mine!

[notnights]

Random fun acetate ribbun fact? Good fic!!!!

As in this is your fun fact, or you're asking me for a fun fact? (Either way thanks hehe.)

Uh lets see fun fact. I mentioned this the other day but deleted it because I don't like giving away too much about a story though it's technically not spoilers either but like people to figure out the beats themselves. But ehh uhhh:

Its about Kinger and Queenie being the original hanahaki case in the in the story. I dropped a few hints about it, but I don't know how well it came across. It's hard to know what a reader's view might be compared to yours when you know all the twist and turns you put in ya know?

Since we know nothing about those two yet, I kind of threw them under the narrative bus in the sense I used them in whatever way I wanted to help with the story lol. One day we're gonna find out what their deal was, and my fic will be outdated as it possibly depicts them as completely inaccurate. (Imagine they're divorced.)

I was originally going to leave just a single hint in chapter one as a solo; Kinger mentioning he was vomiting up affection. As well as him explaining how yellow camellias symbolize longing; fitting for them in the Digital Circus. They long for an escape; it's their default flower. And then him gifting camellias to Queenie, was meant to imply he was also vomiting up those same flowers.

I however ended up adding more hints in chapter 3 and 4 though. I'll leave those as a surprise to reread for unless folks can't find them and want me to point them out.

This was meant to be evident to the audience, but not to the characters. As every time the couple come up I also have Gangle look at them as a frame of reference. She admires this love they had, that she never saw herself. How nice it must have been compared to this horrible love story she's experiencing now. But she is blissfully ignorant that Kinger and Queenie also had a rough start.

Admittedly NOT as rough of a start as Gangle and Jax did of course. I like to imagine Caine gave them the same prescription but, Queenie was neutral about Kinger before then, unlike Gangle who already resented Jax. And Kinger was kind to Queenie prior to his illness unlike Jax who's been nothing by terrible to Gangle even after falling for her.

So we can assume our King and Queen chess piece had a more typical hanahaki story. A bit reluctant at first, but ultimately became a loving couple. That the second Digital Circus hanahaki couple puts on a pedestal to compare themselves to, without even knowing they also suffered from similar (but less intense) problems.

I also like to think Kinger forgot the details of this event himself. He remembers being sick, Queenie nursing him back to health, him being very affectionate, namely in giving her a lot of flowers. But he doesn't specifically remember the case itself. Maybe doesn't even remember these being connected.

He has vague recallings, such as Caine taping up the door, Gangle showing him rare colored flowers then mentioning Jax is sick, but sadly it's not enough to bring the memory back in full. Just thoughts of "huh this seems familiar..."

Likewise, if Caine forgot, you know poor Kinger did, as I imagine Caine's memory is a lot sturdier than Kinger's. My excuse for Caine forgetting is that, if he's an AI, he still has limitations due to the computer he's attached to. Could be fantasy digital with endless memory and infinite terabytes, but for this lets say he only has so much memory to work with.

So finer unneeded details get deleted to ensure he continues to have space for new ones. Recognizes what hanahaki is, but doesn't have the specific name or exact reference for it until he looks it up again. Doesn't remember who was involved in the original case, or how exactly it was resolved. Just that "we had this before; this fixed it! Somehow!" He didn't delete the memory completely because, what if this happened again! Needs to hold onto a piece of it just in case.

So uh anyways there's the implied and hidden Kinger and Queenie lore in my fic.

And you also may be wondering how exactly was Kinger capable of throwing up you may be wondering? ???? ????

????? ?????? ?? ?? ???

[lil-ftm-fakeboy]

sideblog pinned 🩷💜

this sideblog is primarily for my misgendering kink. massive cw for the whole blog about misgendering, some detrans, heavy cnc, rapeplay and similarly dark kinks. Any post not tagged with "#irl talk" should be considered roleplay and in-character.

please let me know if i shouldn't have liked/reblogged your post (or you feel uncomfortable that I did), and i'll unlike or delete reblogs as necessary. please, feel free to block me if you don't feel comfy about anything on my blog.

none of this stuff is real, and even within this kink I am uncomfortable with any generalised transphobia and anything that implies that all trans men/people or enbies aren't really trans or that it is okay to misgender them without consent.

important stuff

asks and DMs are open, but I get overwhelmed by lots of messages so I prefer longer messages or asks. Please use an emoji if you're sending as an anon so i can keep track. please read my kinks and limits (here and on my main) before sending anything. i will delete and/or block people who repeatedly ignore my limits.

before doing any roleplay involving cnc or rapeplay, we need to have a conversation about safewords, what we're looking for in the roleplay, and what aftercare might look like. for this reason, in-depth role-play is only going to be happening in DMs.

I'm not particularly camera shy (hehe) but I am a bit shy of posting/sending on the internet, so I won't be sending any pictures of myself. Feel free to send me pics of yourself, or send me picrews to do! I love doing picrews <3

my limits, which do also apply in roleplay: scat or diapers, dd/lg, md/lb, ageplay, permanent marks or injuries, raceplay, vom, gore, incest/fauxcest, p3dobait blogs, anything immoral/rightfully illegal (necro, bestiality, MAP or p3dophillia, lolicon). Most of these things I'm happy for you to roleplay on your blog, but I don't want to be involved. However, if you're a MAP, p3dophillia or lolicon blog you will be reported.

i am into these kinks, but am unlikely to tag on this blog: praise, hair pulling, biting, degradation, humiliation, objectification, spanking, some painplay, breeding (no preg), free use, gangbang, gloryhole, cockwarming, creampies, bondage, double/triple penetration, somno, cnc, dubcon

about me 🩷💜

here's a couple of things about the character i'll play as on this blog:

Elliot (Elle, Ellie, other femme nicknames)

ftm (really a fakeboy)

he/him (use she/her or it/it's)

on testosterone HRT, planning on getting both top and bottom surgery eventually (will I though?)

bind my chest (b-cup tits)

happy to report some bottom growth (big clitty and wet pussy)

roleplay specific kinks:

misgendering, feminine terms of endearment, (forced) feminization, humiliation (including small penis/clit), dumbification, patronisation, praise (for acting femme/ admitting i'm a girl), breeding (no preg), and similar

roleplay insisting i must be female because you're attracted to me and you are a straight man/lesbian women

making me refer to myself with she/her pronouns

making me tell you my (fake) deadname

telling me that i'm not a real man

comparing me with real (cis or trans) men

using (and making me use) anatomical terms like clitoris, vagina, cervix or even cutesy, mocking names like clitty or cunny

telling me you'll fuck my ass like a real boy if i deny i'm a girl

making me watch/look at porn/nsfw content involving women and comparing me to them

trans men telling me I'm not a real man like them and that I'm just a fakeboy

asks or DMs, even with unsolicited pictures

tell me if you think of me while masturbating <3

(irl bio)

i'm 19, i go by Elliot, Elle, Ellie (or similar) online, i am the sort of enby/genderqueer that cannot be misgendered (i use any pronouns), i have a lovely partner, and i'm not looking for a relationship, just casual fun. i'm happily on hrt and i don't bind or plan on having top or bottom surgery. i'm AuDHD and chronically ill, and i'll be most active when i'm too tired/in pain to leave the house.

picrew <3

dividers by @cafekitsune, picrew from https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1342558

[minkkumaz]

AHHHH OMII TT

it feels like its been awhile,, (its only been a week.) since i interacted ^^;

how have u been?! i hope all of yungyus insta posts have been making you jump up and down with happiness LOL

a little confession, i always delete tumblr off my device when i go to school. I worry someone will recognize the app and find out im an avid fic reader.. but i forgot to redownload it for a while..

had to backtrack on what happened w/ the bonedo series u were working with; ill be excited when november rolls around!! an extra month to prepare for all of that angst.. BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, IM SO EXCITED FOR THE HALLOWEEN IDEAS U HAVE COMING UP!! whatever u write will exceed all of our expectations (as they normally do!!)

hopefully you were able to recover from ur sickness!! stay healthy omi, dont force yourself to write <33

-🍉

HI MELON!!

i've been good, and yes all the yungyu photos he's been posting have had me jumping for joy :,3 i literally have changed my pfp on discord multiple times hes just such a cutie.

AND ME TOO ! i used to have notifications on all the time but i turned them off and have gotten so secretive over my phone ever since i started my little tumblr career. i used to be super into fanfiction over quarantine with my other interests, but i only got back into it out of curiosity when i started liking kpop! then it only spiraled from there. my first story ever was a coffee shop au for seungmin hehe. i had such a crazy seungmin phase, and i have so many old stories for him that i haven't published!

and yes i feel so bad for putting them on hiatus but all of them will probably be around 6k words, and it has intimidated me so bad i haven't wanted to work on them! so i might just gradually release them for awhile, just know at least ONE of them will be released in january. so sorry abt that btw i know you were looking forward to them :( but i do have an idea up my sleeve for october so atleast one thing will be spooky themed aha.

i've recovered well from my sickness just a little cough :) i'm gonna focus on school for a bit, as i hate forcing myself to write! writing is something that is supposed to be a fun hobby to make me happy, and if i force myself to get stuff out i won't have fun anymore. but trust me, ill get back in my groove eventually, just waiting for thanksgiving and winter break LOL

[lilyoffandoms]

FHR Drabble - Matchitehew Bassera

For #6 off my spotify playlist for the anon ask I deleted because I seriously have a problem with that. Like it shouldn’t be hard. Answer or delete, it’s that simple and yet I’m an idiot. But in my defense, the buttons are right next to each other (and I’m an idiot).

Thanks for the request! May need to come back to this one someday.

Warnings & A/N: Canon typical violence and mental illness.

The mirror is foggy and he refuses to swipe it clear. It’s better this way. Better not to see what’s in the mirror in this body. Better not to see what he is. What he’s becoming.

The news drones on in the background. Some politician looking properly outraged and indignant at another breach in security, another meeting interrupted, another politician brutally murdered.

It must stop.

When will it stop.

His words? No. Or the television? Maybe.

He smiles. He remembers how easy it was. Breaking in. Snapping necks. Oh so entertaining.

Then the news flashes to a hero, one of the Guardians, looking properly stoic and determined, every bit the overworked dutiful hero of the city. She waxes poetic about the plague of villains and criminals in the city. Hissing out vows of vengeance on ones like Maher.

He will be stopped.

I promise you that.

His words? No. Or the television? Maybe.

He has his next target. Blaze may see grey where there is only black and white but he will come around, they all will.

And if they don’t, well there are ways to deal with them. It’s not hard to drown out the voices of opposition. Even if those voices are sometimes his own.

It’s not hard to crush them beneath his feet. The ones in his mind, brutally silenced. Not like they are real. Not like they care.

He has to do this. This is how he will pick up the pieces of his life. Pieces scattered on the pavement where he fell after that jump. Piece by piece. Death by death.

He swipes the mirror clear and smiles at himself. He almost looks real. No. It almost looks real.

Can’t forget what is. Reality. Real.

It’s only black and white.

And in the end will it be enough? The deaths, the pain, the voices in his head finally silenced or at least beat enough they can no longer speak?

He smiles again.

Yes. Yes, it will.

And if not, at least it’s entertaining.

——————————

FHR Tag: @amlovelies @roxaro

[Send me requests this weekend and maybe I won’t delete them hehe but chances are I’ll remember them even if I delete them.]

[luxuriousmalfoy]

Fic Stats Game

Rules: Give us the links to your fic with the most hits, second most kudos, third most comments, fourth most bookmarks, fifth most words, and fic with the least words.

ty @allalrightagain and @sandervansunshine for the tag!! i love stats hehe

Most Hits

In the Open | Stranger Things | Tweetfic | 3k

LOL this started out as just some one-off jokes i was making and then i discovered twinote. i am so sorry to the peeps who love it but i have not thought about this fic in a long time BUT i promise it's only like 2 or 3 chapters until the end

Second Most Kudos

The First of Many | Harry Potter | James/Lily/Regulus | 1k

This fic and her sister are so special to me!! The beginning of my Jegulily obsession AND from my first ever attempt at hosting a fanfic event (lmao i knew nothing)

Third Most Comments

at the altar, you beg | Harry Potter | Cho | M | 607

I am actually very proud of this fic! I have already talked a bit about it but yes i love this one so much

Fourth Most Bookmarks

The Magnificent Race | Harry Potter | Draco/Ron | 23k

okay another one of my favs that i have already talked so much about but I LOVE THIS ONE. it was just so much fun and it's def one of my fav things i've ever written

Fifth Most Words

One Sparkling Night | HSMTMTS | Gina/Nini | 3.1k

so what's funny about this one is that i originally had wanted to write a slasher and then I chickened out lmao. so instead it's just some fall festival fluff ig?? LOL

Least Words

Belong | Lockwood & Co | George/Lucy/Lockwood | 161

okay so admittedly this is because i deleted most of my drabbles from ao3, BUT 161 is still pretty low! Maybe one day I will write a longer fic w these three bc I AM OBSESSED but yeah for now i am still ill about the show being cancelled

i'm sure every one of my mutuals has been tagged in this bc we have all been addicted to these tag games recently so i'm just gonna be tagging everyone who reads this and hasn't been tagged lmao

[sarcasticsunshine123]

top 3 hsmtmts original songs? 🤔

I thought this said hsm song and was SO ready to fix the right here, right now slander I see but,,,, whatever (jkjk ty for the ask hehe <3)

this is SO HARD I like so many and for so many different reasons.....

1. let you go

okay this one was in my liked songs for a really long time i have literally no idea if its still there and I have it in about every playlist I can fit it in, I'm actually obsessed w the bridge and it's so good it's one of the only hsmtmts songs on my mums liked songs playlist. this one is magnificent and when he sung it in the ep i cried <3

2. red means love

this one HAD to be here it is... my song. I own it. no but singing it brings me so much comfort? and I played it/sung it enough my mum would do the ooh ooh bit in the chorus and she tried to sing it when I was scared to get my first jab. also the performance for this is so cute like I can't listen to the song itself anymore but whenever I skip it I smile dkfkf

3. just for a moment (/finally free)

this is. up for debate. I recently put it back into my likes after hearing my mum playing it bc I forgot how good it was, however this space is probably a tie with finally free as that one is so good and really brings joy to my heart so yeah I'd probably put finally free there but JUST because of when I'm writing this I'll put just for a moment

honorable mentions:

second chance which I have a LOT of fun singing along w like I get to do funny voices and it's so dramatic I love (also rickys 'beEegin again' things in the background while everyone else sings a Proper Part gets me giggling like an idiot everytime and who wouldn’t rate that kind of joy?)

1-2-3 which is an absolute iconic performance and is good song even if it gets me thinking 'I have heard this before but can't remember when' every single time it plays fjfjf

I think I kinda you know which is a super sweet song and I really like the vibes it's so,,, like it's so sweet and innocent and i love how its like a cutsey little thing 'i wont say it but im saying it ;)' idk and actually!! fun fact I listened to it before I even watched the show and had already added it to my playlists before I even watched fjfjf (my mum was confused how I was able to sing along)

wondering which is super well done and while the other version w all the girls on it isn't as good I have both added to my playlist because it's so sweet

also even when/the best part is absolutely hilarious when you're singing both parts by yourself I have no idea if that's why it was in my likes for so long but yeah. a lot of fun.

OMG I almost forgot out of the old which I also liked a lot (and the new ones good too but I haven't listened as much so can't say) I'm so tired rn ill add why in the morning (or delete like did I mention every song? if not I love billion sorry too it was in my spotify wrapped- and also on my mums most listened bc I listen to music on her device sometimes)

this turned into an absolute monster of a response good luck making sense of it djfjf (also I feel like I've included all original songs but I'm tired so if I didn't look away <3) thanks for the ask this was really fun!!

[redsaurrce]

Lmao come here raawwrrrrr 🦖🦖🦖

Really? I don't know if they are any good 😅 Like I have a direction in which I want to go but I do not have the ability to write my ideas down beautifully, to create my own world like you do hehe

Especially since even in my native language I have no talent in writing a nice story *snort* It just feels wrong? Like I go on and on without saying anything 🙀

I am good in providing ideas but writing is FAR from a talent of mine 😬

Awwwww I love you too 🥹🥺 You are so ADORABLE LIKE WHAT. Can I give you a nickname? Sweets? Cause you know you are so sweet? 🍬

YOU BETTER CHANGE YOUR ADDRESS THEN! YOU stop being so cute HABJHABUJDXAHUK

My poor heart can only handle so much 🥵

Hahaha you never know! Some people enjoy asks etc but some just don't care I guess? Plus people intimidate me especially if the blog is HUGE and interactions are minimal or not there at all 🙈

I will send my notes in a different ask okay? lmao it's a bit long 😂 Plus if it is bad you can answer to this but can ignore my notes and delete it 🤣

- Y ❤️‍🔥

Oh u lil dino 😩😩

No luv, I just read it and you can definitely write amazing stories!! In case u are struggling to build the background or story setting, I'd highly recommend reading more stories (which infact is suggested even by the best writers i've met on tumblr and even I have personally achieved more clarity on world building by reading more stories)

I think I can understand the feels so wrong part? Especially because of lesson 1 🥴 but I kept writing regardless and I think I have improved and so can you if you are looking for the defining edge to your writing!

Adorable? Not more than u tho 🥺 and.. and.. is that a confession?!? 😭😭😭😭 I love you too caramel 💗💗💗💗 oh sweets?? Look! Don't push me away once I'm charged with criminal record of trespassing ur house just to give you a tight squishy hug ☹️☹️☹️☹️💓💓💓💓

luggage? Packed!

Houses? Moved!

Address? Changed!

Hotel? Trivago caramel's pocket!

Ahahaha tho I might be guilty of dodging the loveshot asks like a bullet 😭😭😭😭

but if u feel good and not intimated by my ultimate rizz 😩 I won I guess 😏

Ill never delete it wot u sayyyin???😭

[manias-wordcount]

request !!!!! are !!!!!!! closed !!!!!!1 (until 10/1)

as of today, august 8th, 2022.... request are closed !!!! for the next two months at least. request will be opening back up on October 1st, 2022 though !!! buy as long as you put in your request before today, it'll get done and get out to you sometime between now and October 1st! more info under the cut hehe

tomorrow is last part of my surgery and then the following Tuesday is when i move for school so my schedule is going to be a bit busy and i wanted to take care of the people who have put in their requests already so i can catch up. I've been making good progress though i have a big courseload this semester so i want to get a feel for how the start of fall is going to go before i go back to opening for requests.

and uhhhh,,,,

i wanna try to do kinktober again :} so that means i have to start planing now if i wanna be able to have a social life during October. that's IF i can even pull it off though smh..

but yeah, ill be sure to update my bio since i know this post is going to get lost in my blog so that everyone knows. but just a heads up, if you send me a request while my requests are closed, I'll just delete it and not ever respond. sorry about that ahead of time though

butttttttt if things end up working out for me better than expected, i might just open up request earlier than October 1st !!! hehe !!! but seriously, you're free to send whatever on October 1st. though if im doing kinktober again, you won't get it posted until November.

thank you guys for understanding !! and i hope you can hang on for a little bit while i ensure people who have been waiting already get a chance to see their favorite character do a little for them or smth

ok mania out peace

[valkyrietookmoved]

was gonna delete that valkyrie post after the emotions settled down a bit but for the sake of your future valkyrie thought overflows ill leave it <3 and now im weaving a yarn bracelet in valkyrie colors if that gives you an idea how bad its gotten for me

Hehe~ thank you Duck the sacrifice is appreciated <3

Embrace the Brainrot Duck.... Embrace it~~ become one with it (⁠~⁠‾⁠▿⁠‾⁠)⁠~

[jamzandbamz]

For you guys 💗💗 Vibes were like... a hot summer day energy, but with a bit of a cool breeze, too 😂 Kind of wobbly, like he's been in another world mentally, angry but also friendly, wiped-out, sore from Murph workout, still himself, generally open 😆

-He talked for 12 min without realizing it wasn't on, said "ohhhh my God, ohh my f'n God, I been doin, I been on here for...it's not funny guys...now I'm starting off mad." Def got very angry lol, banged the table a few times 💣 😂

‐Top Q was about patreon, overall acknowledged they've been slacking, mentioned failed vids in particular, not quitting patreon, said he thinks they overpriced it in the beginning, went into this blind last year, said "everyone in here I need to treat like equals (referred to godfather sitch)," gave an actual apology, said he appreciates everyone

- (detailed if you want it) Deleted his Murph workout ig pic bc a female friend (of Mike's) texted Mike about it, he screenshotted the convo, and sent it to Jeff. Her text was, "Oh what does this guy do, just work out all the time?" Jeff said in the live, "I dont want to be like that, I'm not doing this to make ppl feel like shit, I'm doing it bc I'm mentally ill and I hope that I can motivate ppl." Deleted the pic last night. Later added that he was insecure about it so deleted

**Said he was with a "friend" earlier today who asked him "what the goal is" in his life, "why do you work so hard to where you never have a personal life?" Later was like, "then SHE SAID---" He immediately acknowledged he was "admitting it's a girl," so chances are this is Georgie today. (his answer was: legacy, influence, helping ppl, having a positive impact on the world 🌎)

-"I don't have a gf if that's what you're asking, I'm seeing a girl, she's got me in a hold (or hole?), she has mind control over me" (I wouldn't read into this too much, she's not doing anything, he just really has fallen for her, early, like we already knew, like a lot of guys do it seems)

-Asked if he's "in love" now: detached/sarcastic vibe: "I'm in love with all of you" "I'm in love with my own self"

-Went to "Laguna bc a lot of shit was -" then got cut off by a Q (arghhhh lol)!!! Breezed through a later Q about what was bothering him before Laguna (said "um" then replied to something else, not mad tho, energy was open/maybe he didn't want to say)

-a mental health Q, his response: "rough times over past two weeks, idgaf about skin cancer, they'll cut it off, go in with lasers and burn in off, I've done 10 surgeries in the past year and a half"

-In Laguna, found out about Ray Liotta, teared up after it set in, growing up he felt like he wanted to be him (like his movie roles) cried bc this he had such an effect on his life 😥

----- Other non-essential items: 😂

-Looking at locations for studio space to start shooting the shop in there! A "fantasy factory," front will be a storefront, have a functioning barbershop on set, thry msy build another podcast set, build others up (maybe) like Steven and Kyle. He'll take a cut ✂️ (hehe) ofc 😂

-Trying to find a place for LA meet up, more of a live pod/show

-They lost the memory card/footage from the wedding and after that day, Jeff is understanding (accident)

-New items: VINNIE ep in 2 weeks or less, did do a vid on the failed miami vid (ooh)

-Said he used to be insecure about his feet, used to jam them into shoes to make them fit 😆

-Said some if his fave content to make is doing these live streams 🔮, apologized again for the beginning, said "I hope you dont hate me"

[quanxui]

i might have to go anon for this, but yup

aaa thank you, ate you're my life's saviour lmao. and it's so cool that you have little to no social messaging apps !! i mean, i only hav it bc of sch and fam ig but aside from that ill delete it in a heartbeat. my mother told me it'd be better to have no gadgets at all, or phones to be specific, and it's something im looking forward to do as i age hehe i imagine answering telephone calls or writing silly letters to my olden friends hihi, the idea's so cute tbh

anyway, im conflicted with myself whether im just sensitive or what flkfskd and the person im talking about is in my small circle 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♀️🧍 at first, my feelings towards them was fine until i hav found their replies a bit hostile and callous, example: edi wow, sml, and more, especially sml after i tell a story huhu, ik they do it bc ofc someone influenced them and it sort of rubbed them into always and automatically reply that, lik a habit/mannerism or defense mechanism idk they're nice but that's how they casually talk, and i don't really lik it bc it is soooo unnecessary, insensitive, and childish. omgh wait, this is a big a toll to discuss about urgsvhj but yes, i feel wonky about it, i hate that we hav our small gc and id get to interact with them daily with the feeling of needing to stay on guard yk?? it's tiring !! ::((

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omg! first of all, you're not sensitive at all. people have got to stop using those phrases!! especially online because it's more difficult to “hear” someone's tone and things could go wrong. but yeah, you're not being sensitive. i'm sure a big number of people also find those phrases offensive even me!

personally, i'd tell my story to my other friends separately. id interact with the friend as little as possible, sabi nga niya “share mo lang” edi sige wag na i-share yan sa kanya. also if they do that online only, and you guys meet up personally then sure, tell them the story in person. talk to them & interact with them in person! if they're like that in both irl and online, lol leave them out of your stories. leaving them out would or could bring a lot of drama though and it's childish hahahahh

the mature thing to do (i think? cause im not sure about my maturity ahsgajdgdh) would be to talk to them about it. i don't know the character of this person so i can't predict how they'd answer but maybe you can imagine it? and then, depending on that, you tell them through group chat (when they do it) or you privately message them.

“hey friend! i'm not really sure how to tell you this but your use of skl etc. honestly hurts me. i'm not sure if you're being sarcastic or you really don't like my stories but even so, being sarcastic hurts me. if you have any problems with it, maybe tell me? did i do or say something wrong?” something like that i guess?? or when you want to do it in the group chat you could just say, “hey friend that actually hurts, did you really mean it?” and “i'm sorry i don't get if you're being sarcastic or what but it hurts.” not these exact words but something like this?

you could also talk to other friends about it so they'd understand your point of view before you confront the friend. as friends should, i'm sure they'd understand. you could tell them in person too! that feels more heartfelt and better! or thru video call?

this got too long but i really really hope this helps!! or it comforts you in some way? good luck to you and your friends! i hope you & the other friend come to an understanding, friendships are really really nice to have!

as for my online habits... i still have facebook for school, i just didn't download it on my phone & instead go on the computer to open it so that it's separated in some sense? i still don't interact that much though cause i open facebook once or twice a day to check announcements & instead go straight to the Classroom or to my emails. i made good acquaintances through group projects so we could help each other but that's about it. as for relatives, i have a telephone & a cellphone number and my other family members relay the messages or stories told online to me during dinner. or i ask relatives about it when we see each other, if im really curious. they have been bugging me about it but i won't budge. i'd get a flip phone if i could read manga & read emails & watch youtube there but right now i'm satisfied with my old phone!

and i actually have instagram and interact a bit there. my hs friend group has long separated from each other but i talk to some friends there & i like looking at pictures there so it's all good! i also open it on the computer sometimes. sometimes i even chat with some old friends on genshin lmao >.< i do have this cousin who would message my whole family if he had something urgent to tell me. it's so funny walking around the house and having people stop & tell me the same message!

[raspberrysmoon]

um um um 3, 6, 10, 14, 17, 21, 25 !

oh gos thats a lot !!

3: whats your favorite fic that you've written?- hehe ill give you my third favorite my top two are in the other ask post !! its actually my alice/deb fic 'wrapped around her finger' i just love them

6: are there any fics you reread from others all the time?- YES!!! absolutely. i reread every single fic with hannah & ethan tagged as a relationship several times a week. i cycle through them like fine wine its great. hes her big brother guys cmon

10: is there a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?- all of them. im consistently shocked people are reading my writing

14: if you could see one of your fics adapted into a visual medium, such as comic or film, which would you pick?- LITTLE LAMB!!!! 'little lamb, god blesses thee' would be SUCH a good comic i think

17: whats something you've learned about while doing research for a fic?- uhhh cannibalism. and cooking meat. the less obvious answer thought is ukrainian customs!! clothing, gift giving and courting mainly, but also color meaning differences between them and america! and the ukranian language structure and ettiequte :] love ride the cyclone

21: have you ever deleted an entire scene after spending hours laboring over it?- i dont think so! i hate deleteing scenes- i always save them and move em around or change em bit by bit. ive scrapped huge (3k+) fics though, so that probably counts for this. i usually just lose the joy around the source material

25: have you ever upset yourself with your own writing?- yes. absolutely. 'the burn in my back' (which is drafted but unposted) actually made me cry several times. so did 'a bandage and a wide smile slapped across my face'. tbf i was sick and in a lot of pain, but still

[mesanthropi]

psa btw (+ a series of other things, selenicives update post ig?)

(if u came here but didnt expect this, here is my navi)

im deleting the masterpost for don quixote bc i realize that i cant do this unless im committed committed,, and w august upcoming, i will literally not have the time to write in paragraphs. ill release dnqu when pretty u gets like,, halfway done or smth. i will plan every single ep there n then write them whenevr. applies to both series btw

i hope that this will help me and not make me feel horrible,, i do love dnqu as a story i js think it was very poorly timed + pretty u was spotaneous too and i can write for it a bit more often + muni13 was also spotaneous but its fun bc i get to do it w somebody who also likes it

do you remember the other pookiebearz gang members tho (stacy, cade, jinhai)? i have love interests for them as well,, but i intend to go over them as sidestories. they wont be worked on simultaneously bc look at what happened to dnqu, but they will be experimented on :D their time settings may differ or be similar to pretty u but til then idk idk

what is the future of dnqu? i will do the very thing to do and work on it behind the scenes :) i love the story, i will like build it up to be better and smth i can be consistently invested in, and i will plan the ch's with like one-liner summaries hehe

what about my requests? still open! but i may close them on the 13th of august because on the day after that, school starts :[ which is unfortunate smhhhh,,, i will only do hcs/reactions @ requests then ahhhh

thats all, methinks,, ty for reading :) appreciate u all im so sorry i did this ughhh

[olive-and-nom]

Rules

Yippie, more boring stuff. I’ll make it simple for you all. Alright?

Big no-no’s. (You do any of the following on my page and you’re blocked basically)

Talk about minors inappropriately. It makes me and probably a good majority of my readers just uncomfortable.

Harass me over fics after I’ve told you to stop. I don’t write very often so if my works are late, I will apologize but asking me constantly 24/7 will only take my motivation to write longer.

No slurs. Ever. I will not write them, and I do not expect to ever read them anywhere on my page.

Don't sexualize me. I can take some joking flirts but I don't do e-dating personally and I will occasionally flirt (as a joke, let me clarify that) and I will not care if you jokingly flirt back. But never sexualize me or get pissy with me if I explain this to you "because you thought it was real".

Three strikes and you're out or whatever (Basically, you get three warnings, after that you're blocked)

Spell colour as 'color'

Spell grey as 'gray'

Spell centre as 'center'

Spell defence as 'defense'

(In case you couldn't tell, all of the above was a joke)

((I will still get irked by some of them though lol))

Request rules

No NSFW, sorry hehe. The most ill do is suggestive content or implied.

I am probably will only write female reader or gender neutral on most of my posts unless its a request that specified for a male reader. Most of my posts will otherwise be gender-neutral or female based.

Please check is requests are open first! if they aren't I'm either gonna ignore it or delete it.

Please be a bit specific when requesting and don't just put 'Insert super cool and sexy character x afab gender neutral reader please!!' because if you do ill either ignore it or do what I want with it. and you dont want that