#im a sap and weepy

[poppymorioh]

Every few weeks, I get overwhelmed by the amount of love in my life, in every form it takes. It envelops my heart and spills over.

I do not feel worthy of it, and yet the connections I've made continue to show that love and worth.

To everyone who has been here and to those who will be: thank you.

[likesunsetorange]

Eren! 12 - 21 & 23

character ask game

i think you meant 12 through 21? either way the more the merrier LOL (also feel free to send me other characters besides em LOL from any show thats in my lil pinned post tbh!!!)

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

in canon — i think eren harbors a lot of self loathing and when him and mikasa go to the cabin, he finds it really hard to believe that she truly forgives him for all of his transgressions, so it's hard for him to accept that a lot of it is real (kind of makes me think of the real/not real thing in thg but in a different way - everlark is so engraved into me lol) so he's just a big weepy sap lol

in a modern au — he's probably a music lover, he makes playlists a lot and makes them for everything. i bet he makes mikasa playlists all the time too

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

i feel like eren would love this emoji 🧍🏽

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.

eren would only have a sense of style bc of mikasa and carla LOL he probably wears solid color tshirts and/or the occasional nice graphic tee and jeans/basketball shorts and some typical sneakers that are moderately trendy lol. he doesn't look frympy but he's not a fashionista by any means

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

eremikaaaa clearly

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?

i feel like this is obvious lol

17. What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?

im clearly an eremika truther but i can see why ppl like erejean LOL it's giving typical shonen homoerotic vibes (e.g. bakudeku)

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

i love eren and levi's relationship so much bc of the mentor/mentee relationship, and honestly levi was like the closest thing eren had to a paternal figure following grisha's death. like those tiktoks where it's like s1-s3 levi saying "i'm not your dad" then it's s4 eren saying "you're not my dad" UGH I CRY!!!!! but levi being so hurt/disappointed by eren in s4 just gets to me and i think if we could hear anyone else's paths convo with eren i would wanna hear his and levi's. also bc i wanna see if levi beats his ass again lmao

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?

i wouldn't say i hate annie, but at one point i used to lowkey be an annie hater LOL (now i actually love annie), so i guess in s1, i really enjoy eren and annie's dynamic (prior to the ft arc), especially bc you can see how much eren clearly admires her. i think it's funny how even tho she clearly beats his ass he still wants to learn from her, i think thats kind of noble of him tbh! also i think bc he admired her sm and considered her a friend it sucks to see him so hurt by the reveal of her betrayal

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

armin and eren are platonic soulmates and there's nothing you could ever say that could change my mind about that tbh

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

favorite — i love writing eren's dynamic with carla, i think it's really special bc of what happened in canon. i imagine eren as such a mama's boy (in an endearing way) so it's so sweet to get to write their bond and imagine how that dynamic would be as eren would've grown up

least favorite — i think in a canon universe, i don't like writing some of the more sad scenes, like in the ema au, when i think about eren harboring all the pain of the memories to himself, it literally makes me so sad LOL like im genuinely such a fucking sap so i just cry and cry bc i hate thinking about it 😭

23. Favorite Picture?

canon & fan art (once again im biased)

[azonewithu]

Stop it Anya. Im honna watch one of ur bad ass movies. Nonone needs to see uiu iyn a bonnet again. Whetes ur bonnet here? Theyll do Emma. Trillion times thats a sign to God, that naybe this experiment should end. Dont listen yo yhe fuck ass english about anything. Those ate somd if tge suffuest stupidest people on earth. Their word meabs just about nothing to me. Look at even their queen. No im oussed st her. Not enough to call pierre and toast her ass with cancer. We cast something for her. With all the flack she was getting then that. I fekt bsd but i defend some people some times Anya ehen i probably shouldnt have bothered. Then theyre nit yhe underdog anymore they forget me. Like i never helped at all. Not a thank you nothing. Thats thrm though if uoubantiwues roadshow and yiure a grnius like me you can tell something is gravely wrong with their souls. Their not nice people who are saps too avterrible combination. Again not all. But theyre all a littke like that. Cold saps tgecworst kind of people. Ill expkain in kne sentence as usual. They get. All weepy essy over anybsapoy stupid story but they tresy people like shit in reality generally. Its just weird to me. Emmas nor do much like that. Her condition makes her care a lol more thsn your abersfe cold ass fucon lymie. I sm a escist everykne is anya wherher thry wabt yo sfmit it or not. Even black oeople are racists. Everyones a fucking racist 100 percent of people. We sll have a race we font mix well wiyh. Thats God. Trying uo bring us around. English have always got on my nerves. Ive dvrspped a few of them and beat thrir asses fastervthsn anykne else they cant scrsp those dsinty ool fuckers. They used to be tough as hell. Skinny lil english woukd kick your assa not no more. I think they wanna be americans now. Its about tslking yough abd actually being a fyvon pussy ass wimp. I eon every fight o ever got in with an american. Not at sll in yhe leadt but tough. Pyssies like fucon bad. Any duelers ??? I admitted to killing i girget how many of their somdiers a lot. Not obe if them will stand up gor thrmsrlves or the peopleni ckearly killed. Thsts weak. I dont resoect your people because if that mainly alone.

Emma. (2020) dir. Autumn de Wilde

[frannyzooey]

im a sap but i have to say that scrolling thru your blog is just like getting a hug and reading everyone’s kind comments about your work gives me so much serotonin and you are the sweetest kindest person and l i t e r a l ray of fucking sunshine that’s all love you byeeeee ❤️

CRIS

This makes me weepy

Being kind is ABOVE ALL the most important so for you to say those things?!

I put my hand on my chest and made an AWWWW sound 🥰

All these kind comments are worth every second that I spend writing in the bathroom in secret or going for long drives on the weekend to park with a coffee and type into my notes app and I’m SO BEYOND thankful that people like reading it; I literally can’t express into words how it makes me feel

And how YOU MAKE ME FEEL - I love you so so much ❤️❤️

Me, aggressively forcing my love on you and you, aggressively accepting it:

[koyacyi-vode]

4, 5 and 12 for the fanfic asks c:

4: has a fic ever made you cry? oh absolutely. im a big sap and get kinda weepy (especially if im off my meds). i dont read a ton of like sad fics though for that reason ahaha. i prefer my angst, whump, and hurt-comfort with a happy ending. ive definitely cried from laughter though!!

5: what category of fics do you read the most? (angst, fluff, etc) oh i am a SLUT for hurt/comfort. with good catharsis at the end? oh yes pls. i basically like angst that turns into fluff ahaha.

12: first-person or third person fics?

im gonna be honest. i cannot stand first person writing. even in standard fiction. its not something i vibe with. i dont like putting myself in the place of a character. i like reading about characters but i dont want to like... be them. it feels too personal and awkward.

[contrapposto-leto]

Somethimes I wonder if you are watching in the shadows. Looking at the ghost of our public exihubition. I drempt of you a few times since we last spoke. The first was horrifying. The pain pourd from you, it flooded the hallway. The second. We were in a state park. You sat at my picnic table and looked outward. Gazing to the blue sky. Smiling softly. Happy to be near by. The last one you had me. Pinned to the bed by your stubble my skin tingled. First we flirted in the halls, letting the electricity charge, then you were swimming between my thighs, grinning as you held my leg on your shoulder.

I miss you.

I am scared to ventur out. To seek you in my dreams and about. It's as if I taste a fruit that is delicious yet kills me with each bite. But perhaps that is just the fear talking.

Yet. Here I am. Wondering about the trek. Would I be so daring?

To flaunt myselr?

I am sunburned today. I rememer how the sun kissed my skin that week and you could not look away. Your arm felt so strong as I clung to it in fear of the san diego traffic. The tingles that run through me when I imagine us together never stop. I felt them then I feel them now.

Sometimes I torture myself with our vast correspondences. You probably have no such luxury. You probably don't get to see my face whenever you feel like. You probably can't read letter after letter of how we would yearn for eachother. How we wanted to drag eachother into the mud and just never wash again. Nasty. The stories we'd write, the encouragement to continue to the next act, my creative writing thrived. As did yours. You are so gifted and Im afraid you are letting yourself languish.

Sometimes the moments are so intense it is like you are sitting next to me. Part of me wants to think we have some connection and that we are still (ugh) connected through the universe (cringe).

But I can still hear your voice

"What happened? I lost the connection?" Perhaps you are. You did say it then.

I do miss you. So often I just want to talk to you about the world and I get so upset, morose, weepy, angery that I cannot. I simply do not even have that luxury. Oh how I miss it.

So much has changed since then.

Clearly I want you to miss me like I miss you. But that is unlikely. I understand the situation.

Part of me wants you to be as batshit as I am. Thinking this is the only possible way you'd know.how to contact me. Unable to remember aything but this. Would be easier to find me here then to summon a long dead email. Part of me wants you to see this. Maybe because I didn't really get......closure? Part of me hopes that this public outcry will allow me to sleep or slip further into maddness, either way I'd rather expedite the process.

Perhaps I am also jealous. Knowing that I will never feel like that again, never experience the stubble on your chin again. Oh god i am such a sap.

Honestly so many people are terrible sexually. Some or them are downright aweful. But you were a god. Someone who can communicate effectively what feels best and understane their partners needs. Goddamn im getting flustered just thinking about it. I am jealous that someone who dosent want it gets to deny it every day. I wanted only to exsist in that erotic space.

It was hard, without your kindness. I had become so reliant on it.

I realized those words were gifts.

Even if you saw this what would it mean? That im still obsessed?

Or am I justified in my constant lusty sadness? No goodbye? That shit huuuuurt. Still hurts. Hurts that you won't see this (probably) id say I am 87% sure that you will never see this. Why would you.

I find myself wanting to say everything I never got to say to you, all the things I wanted to ask.

I already personally hate not knowing things and not being able to ask you questions is worse. Bevause it is like i had the opritunity and failed but that I also sorta could.

I have so much I want to share with you.

Why did we have to be so good?