#im having to wait on this place because my current apartment doesn't have heat or ac or consistently running water

[bitchfitch]

bathroom floor is about 70% tiled now. the thinset needs time to finish drying finish drying before the last row is put in and grout is laid down. once that's done the shower walls will be tiled and then the cabinets, sink, toilet, and fixtures will be installed. and then the bathroom will Finally be done. The rest of the apartment just needs the 40+y/o carpet ripped up and replaced with faux wood, the walls painted, the outlets and switches replaced (to get everything up to code) and the new lighting fixtures to go in. and then the whole kitchen needs ripped out due to mold but I'm trying to not think about that. tldr another big step has been made towards me finally getting to move into the new apartment and I'm very excited about it.

[randomsevans]

Pain of being in love part 3

Original apart of @jtargaryen18 #30daysofchris2020

Two weeks had dragged by as you felt like an empty shell going day by day . You hadn't spoken to anyone apart form Scott ,you haven't left the house unless it was for a good reason. You would constantly forget to eat so Scott became like your own personal chief.

And all this because the time had finally arrived where your love for chris was outshone by his own love for someone else .

Scott had told you that Lisa and Minka have been planning a engagement party much to chris dislike as he sees the announcement as an engagement party .

Chris had tried to call you but you always let it go to voice mail as it was probably an invitation to the party next Saturday. You really didnt want to go . The pain in your heart was begaing you not to as it cant take anymore hurt . But you knew as being the brothers best friend and a family friend you need to go . Because as much as it hurt you . You know that this will make Chris happy and you need to be happy for him even tho you are dying inside .

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It was the day before the party so the Friday and some how Scott had managed to get you out of your bed and house only to be in his house on his couch . Currently eating too much mint chocolate chip ice cream along with this stuiped movie Scott forced you to watch

Love Rosie .

"How fuckin ironic "

You knew that Scott put picked this movie on purpose . Whether it was for the both of you to make fun or the movie like you usual do or let you watch it because it was so fuckin relatable. Either way you too had ended up watching the movie in silence with a few mumbles about food or if one was getting up or not and even a giggle or two when Rosie was struggling with a new born .

It had got to the part of the wedding and oh by god how you related to it . Rosie speech on how she loves him no matter where he is or who hes with .. your heart was yelling someone gets it . You were stuck in your own your head focusing on Rosie words until Scott spoke up.

"How ?" He ask

"What ? " you were confused and faced him as he faced you turning his body as the movie played in the back ground .

"How , when, why ?" He stared directly into your eyes with the soft blue shade he shares with his brother

"What ? " you asked again

"When did you begin to have feeling for my brother and why ... and how much because not to be mean but iv never seen you like this not ever so his engagement clear has affected you " he said softly

You hadn't yet actually spoken the words I love your brother to Scott or I'm in love with him to be more exact but Scott had guest it never asked about it until now .

You were silent for a moment thinking ... well more like your head was empty of thoughts you just liked the silence.

"Who said I have feeling.... "

"Y/n " Scott cut you off

You shift in your seat turning to face Scott legs cross over each other and hands in your lap looking down .

"I .. I had always had a crush on him you know ... who didnt " scott hummed in agreement

"But do you remember that day when I...was ment to have my first date but he never showed up "

Once again Scott hummed

"Well Chris picked me up... and he tried cheering me up .. and it worked "

You glanced up a Scott who looked softly at you as your eyes hot glassy . You looked back down to your hands as there stared nervously fiddling with the ends of the blanket that was wrapped around you.

"Well we were at a dinner ... and do you know in movies it like you have loved someone and you always new . Well it wasnt like that ... "

You took a deep breath.

"I hit me .. like a truck ... he was sitting at the other side of the table... and it hit me everything flooded I... love him but not just that . Because I love you ."

That caused Scott to scoffed as if ' I know you do who doesnt '

"It was more ... well more like a different type of love ... or more like . I was in love in love with him ."

You glance up at the ceiling letting the tears sink back into your eyes as you shake your head .

"I AM in love with him "

You looked at Scott who now had tears in his eyes ..and red showing he was trying to hold them back .

"And I think I always will . "

You were both silent for a seconde

"No matter where he is ... or who hes with a will always love him "

That caused you both to giggle as you made your way into Scotts open arms

"Quoting are we " he chuckled as your head landed on his chest as his arms wrapped around you .

"Well you know me "

You heard him sniff as you felt a tear drop into your hair .

"Oh .. god ... how have you kept it in for so long... that was like ... .... we were 14 or 15 fuck how ? Why ?" He said softly as tears clouded his voice .

"I didnt say anything or do anything because he will never and has never felt the same I'm... im like a sister to him ...in a weird way... and I'd never deserve him ....."

You left your head and looked at Scott .

"And at the same time I realised iam in love with him I also knew nothing would become of it because... " tears bow fell down your eyes .

"Because it was better to have both of you in my life then not to have neither of you ... and I wasnt willing to risk it ..... and I knew ... I knew this time would come .... but it dosnt stop .... it doesn't stop it hurting " you couldn't help but let it all out as you tucked your self back into Scott

He placed a kiss in your hair

"Your a silly one ain't ya ..... I will always be here you know that " he said softly

"You do know that right ?"

You just nodded as your tears drained his shirt .

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You stood at Lisa front door with Scott by your side much like that dreaded day three weeks ago . You were in a blue floral dress in small pumps waiting patiently as you heard the party already up and ready with in .

"Its not late to turn back " Scott whisper in your ear just before the door swang open. To reveal Minka at the door with a giant smile and an even bigger diamond on her left hand . That had somehow made your heat beat pain through out your veins.

"It is now " you whisper back before putting a wide fake smile on

"Minka .... contagralations " you tired your best not to sound bitter you really did .

"Y/n right ? " she asked looking you up and down . You just nodded your head

She was about to speak again when Chris practically ripped the door hinges off as he opened the door wider . As his eyes landed on you there grew and his month hung open as he let out a deep sigh . Making your heat beat fast instead of the numb feeling it has had over the last three weeks .

"Y/n " was all he said a small whisper .

You and Chris eyes were locked missing the fallen smile of Minka as she looked between the two of you here eyebrows knitting . While Scott had a small smirked placed on his lips due to Minka reaction

"Chris I thought we agreed I'd do the door " Minka snapped at chris . Breaking his eye contact with you . To glance at Minka for a split seconde

"Um yeah sorry " he said quickly and looked back deep into your eyes , with the softest blue shade "I... I just heard her name ..." he sighed and he said it slowly and softly . He tilted his head almost like a child went there feelings are hurt . "I haven't..... I havnt see you ... heard form you ... I tried calling but ..I always ... "

"I was busy " you cut him off

Before chris could answer or even process what you said , Lisa pops her head at the other side of the door

"What are you all doing out here ! ... come on come in "she took at step back with a wide smile , as you stepped in .

She pulled you in to a tight high as she always does "isn't this amazing.... finally get to celebrate my boy with hes wife to be "

You closed your eyes as your rested your chin on her shoulder and sighed "it sure is "

You took a step back and put on the widest smile .

What you didnt know was as you were facing momma Evan's. Two blue eyed boys looked at you with soften eyes but both for different reasons .

"Come on let's join the others " lisa said to all of us.

"I couldn't agree more Mrs Evan's " minka replied

"How many times Lisa or even better mom " lisa laught her and Minka walked side by side to the garden

"Ma! " chris said .

"What she will be my daughter in law soon so she better get use it " both lisa and Minka laught and diserperared into the garden . Leaving you , Scott and Chris still in the hall way of the front door .

"How soon exactly ?" Scott asked the fill the uneasy silence .

"Um its gonna be a fall wedding " chris replied

"Oh " was all you said as you felt the pit in your stomach grow and your heart beating fast

"Like .... next year or two ?" Scott said slowly shrugging with his hands in his pockets .

"Uh no " Chris paused and took at quick glance at you and looked at the floor . "This year .... in 3 months " he sighed.

And as if it wasnt possible you felt your heart crack more .

Scott only let out a deep sigh and grab your arm " come on y/n let's get a drink " you nod you head and began to walk to the garden . But you turned your head over your should and with a deep sigh , you dry throat and stinging eyes .

"Contraglation Chris " you sighted, eys watery " I'm... happy for yo... you ... sh ...Minka is a lucky girl " you choked out as Scott pulled you futher away as he tried to save you from futher heart break or for you to continue lying .

"I'm...not " Chris mumbled silently as you were out of earshot .. and took a deep sigh and then finally followed your direction and headed for the back yard.

The never ending growing pit in your soul and tears in your heart was growing more painful as you chuged down your first of many drinks of the night. But what do you expect it's the pain of being in love

Ps I didnt realise that the actress (lily colin)that play Rosie in the movie love Rosie actual dated chris

[gxtsmxt-blog]

Hello 😊 Do you happen to do BTS fluff scenarios? If you do (if not then feel free to change it to smut or anything I'm just a fanfic hoe lmao) could you please do a Namjoon scenario where you're dating and he doesn't realise you're stressed because he's away so often and you come home really drunk one night after an awful day and he tries to take care of you? School is super stressing me out right now and I'm currently living for Namjoon fluff but it's so hard to find with most being smut aha💜

i love you, baby

❛❛Something can be beautiful because there is something horrible. If you can accept that those hard times are part of beautiful moments in life, I think you can truly understand our HYYH.❜❜ - Kim Namjoon

COUNT → 1.360

GENRE → angst | fluff

PAIRING → namjoon | reader

WARNINGS → alcoholism

→ thanks so much for requesting this!!!!!! u literally just sent me this today but i actually was really excited that u asked for namjoon and im on spring break with nothing to do LMAO!!!!!!!! this felt more like a drabble but i hope this is what you wanted. n i hope you feel less stressed soon anon :-)))

You laid your headagainst the cool surface of the dining room table, your phone held in your facewith one of your hands as you scrolled through pictures of your handsome boyfriend,Kim Namjoon. He was the leader of a popular boy group, BTS, and ever since theydebuted, hadn’t been able to come home as often as he had in the past. Becauseof that, he hadn’t noticed how stressed you’d felt lately because of school andyour part-time job. But you had done a good job hiding it from him, too.

At first, you werehappy for him. You wouldn’t be a good girlfriend if you were unhappy about hissuccess in the first place. You were happyfor him, but with him being on tours and on variety shows more and more eachpassing day and not coming home as often, you felt lonely and depressed. He wasso kind and gentle, both as a boyfriend and as your best friend, and you triedyour hardest to hide how you were feeling. It didn’t help that school was starting to stress you out as the time approached for midterms. Closing out of your photo app, youscrolled through your texts with him, the corners of your lips tilting up atthe most recent one.

NAMJOON [12:07:32]: i miss you baby but im coming hometmrw

You had textedback how much you missed him, too, and sent him a dozen heart emojis. He’d sentthat yesterday an hour after you went to bed, but it was a nice text to wake upto. You were determined to keep hiding your stress from him as you sat up andpoured yourself a bowl of cereal.

Unlocking yourapartment door, fumbling a few times from how badly your hand was shaking, youmanaged to finally make your way inside, slamming the door shut. Tears brimmedin your eyes as you thought back to how your boss had yelled at you for messingup another customer’s order. Your head hadn’t been in a good place lately, butno one seemed to cut you any slack or even notice. Not only that, but you got oneof your midterm exams back as well and didn’t even get a high fail; you got thelowest grade in the class. Then, your teacher asked you to stay behind and yelledat you because of it, clearly disappointed in you and your lack of effort. But youhad spent hours studying for thattest.

But you failedanyway.

It seemed nothingyou did anymore ever was good enough for anybody. And to top it all off,Namjoon never came home when he told you he would. Of course, he texted youthat he had to work for a few more days and then he would be coming home, soyou figured you would spend tonight drinking.

Dropping your bagonto the coffee table in the living room, you stormed into your bedroom,looking at yourself in the mirror for a fleeting moment before you marched backout the door.

You had felt toomuch lately but now all you wanted to feel was nothing.

You came back afew hours later after the sun began to set. You left your car parked in thestreet outside of the bar because although you could usually handle yourliquor, the alcohol in your system was too much for you to even focus on peoplestanding directly in front of you. After you hailed a cab, you stumbled throughyour door, leaning against it as it closed. However, you weren’t alone.

Namjoon was home.

“Baby!”he called, clearly happy to see you, but then stopped when he noticed somethingwas off. He stood from the couch and quietly walked over to you, placing hishands on your shoulders. “What’s wrong?” You tried to open your mouthbut he could immediately smell the alcohol. “Are you drunk?”

You waved him off,dropping off your purse on the dining room table, and then stumbling towards yourshared bedroom. The sound of his footsteps following you echoed throughout thehallway, and he closed the door to your bedroom as you sat down with a huff onyour bed. Your face fell into your hands as you tried to hold back the onslaughtof tears. Namjoon sat beside you on the bed, rubbing your back soothingly. Hishand stopped after a moment to glide up your back and grab onto your shoulder,pulling you into his chest, and rested his chin on top of your head.

“It’s okay,baby,” he whispered in that deep voice of his. “I’m here. You’reokay.”

Your handsautomatically wrapped around his chest, as natural to you as drinking waterwhen you’re thirsty. Sobs fell from your lips and you dampened his shirt. Hekissed your forehead, waiting for you to cry until you had no tears left. As herocked the two of you back and forth, you pulled away.

“I’ms-sorry,” you blubbered, eyes irritated from crying. “I know you— Iknow you were expecting something else, not your girlfriend drunk off her assand crying like a baby.”

“Don’t saythat,” he said as he kissed your temple. “Did you have a bad day?Tell me what happened.”

You hesitated fora moment. “It’s j-just school, and work. I failed my midterm and myteacher chewed me out. I kept messing up people’s orders today at the cafe,too. I can’t do any-t-thing r-right.”

Namjoon thoughtabout asking you why you hadn’t told him about it sooner, feeling that this hadbeen building up for a long time without him even noticing, but you didn’t needthat right now.

“That’s nottrue,” he whispered into your ear and you fisted his shirt at that.“You do so many things right. Remember when you tried to teach me how tocook?” You pulled your head back to look at him, sniffling as you laughedsoftly at the memory. “I can’t even cut an onion properly but you were sopatient with me. You’re always so patient with me—me and everyone else in yourlife. No matter what anyone says to you, you never say anything bad back. Youdon’t have a bad bone in your body. You’re so patient and kind—and that’s why Ilove you so much. That and how beautiful you are. Do you know how beautiful you are? I still don’t know why you agreed to go out with me. But you know that, right? How much I love you? I love you somuch.”

“Namjoon…”you managed to say through teary eyes.

“This willpass.” He hugged you to his chest, running his hands through your hairlike he knew you liked so much. “If things are bad, they can only getbetter, right? And if they don’t, I’ll be here waiting for you to make itbetter with a kiss.” To emphasize his point, he pressed a chaste kiss toyour lips. You reached for him but he was already pulling away. “I’m notgoing anywhere, baby.”

“B-But whatabout BTS? Don’t you have to go back soon?”

“We’re all onbreak right now after the comeback, so I’ll be here as long as you want me tobe.”

You smiled softly downat your lap and watched as you played with your fingers. “Forever.”Wiping the moisture from around your eyes, you gave him a hug. “I want youto be here with me forever.”

“I was hopingyou would say that,” he said with a laugh, kissing you on the lips again.

You pulled backafter a moment, something occurring to you. “I thought you said youweren’t going to be back home for another few days? Did something happen?”

His cheeks heatedat that. “The guys knew that I wanted to see you, so they talked to Bang PD-nimand he agreed to let me take the first flight home. Being the leader has itsprivileges.”

You laughed, andit felt like the first genuine laugh you let out in a long time.

“I love you,Namjoon.”

“I love you,too, baby.”