#im rambling they call me the rambler

[goremet-chef]

its so cute i need to. ramble okay

in creatures of sonaria like. man. a year ago at this point? i made friends with someone and like. just by chance, they decided to add me to their pack and let me kill with them and like. I WAS NERVOUS im not known for. my social prowess 💀 but they liked me? and they added me as a friend and idk it was nice. like it was a group and i was kinda in the group? even if i was mostly quiet the whole time, i was still helping and covering for them yknow?

i didnt play for a while, i went from like. playing daily to playing monthly but i started playing again and i remember i think they invited me a few times to come play like with the roblox invite function but i wasnt online at the time and so. IDK i didnt think anything would come from it yknow? but. when i joined their server on accident, they added me to their pack immediately and said hi and im like SHOCKED. did i matter enough for them to like. feel the need to say hello to me and invite me to hang with them? IT. its happened more and more, i like to play with them whenever i can and i get nervous maybe im annoying them by joining them all the time but they always invite me and say hi, and its to the point where other people in the group also say hi to me and it

you must understand! im a fucking loser man, im not someone people get along with, im painfully awkward, i feel like an alien trying its best to act human okay. but it feels good, it feels like. NORMAL. we arent serious friends like i dont know shit about them, probably never will honestly i just like to wreak havoc with them. ive always been afraid of like. INFILTRATING a group, thats what it feels like!! whenever im accepted anywhere, im so terrified im latching onto false hope, im scared that im forcing my way in and im too happy to really see it. but. they say hi to me and they mess around with me and they JOKE WITH ME like. OKAY!!! im still quiet like 90% of the time but they know alright im busy playing the game, its not like i have much to say anyways!! its fun to be. social? like im too scared, fearing itll go so horrible wrong and bruise my already quite small and fragile ego, so when it goes RIGHT?? idk i just wanna. ramble about it cuz

i joined today and one of the other members said "YAYY looksee" and it. MY HEART... i like all of them cuz i hang out with them enough like. i really only talk to the one who has me added since they will actually say things to me directly but i feel like im opening up more? just a little, im still shy but. IDK knowing theyre like getting used to me? yay looksee?????? teehee!!!!!!!!! idk why it makes me so happy, i guess im easy to please if you show me the slightest bit of. positive acknowledgement im absolutely giddy. the bar is on the floor 💀 but i dont care!!

when have i ever made a friend on roblox? ive been called slurs and insulted and told to kill myself more times than anyone has ever like. tried to be my friend 💀 i get it, im not very welcoming, its not like i try to be. im friendly sure, but quiet, and if im in any sort of social interaction (which can range from someone speaking to me and not going away after they say what they wanted to say to literally just. something cute, like someone sitting with me or giving me some food) i cant handle it (i scream and close the game as fast as possible, my heartrate goes up im BREATHING HEAVILY IM SCARED... it was nice but. terrifying!!! i feel the obligation to stay and thats too big of a commitment OKAY... roblox creature you must understand)

ITS A LOT FOR ME OKAY.. and i mean. i know how my roblox avatar looks, ive been told its cringe enough times for one lifetime, im tired!!! i get it. catboy with a skirt ooo so scary. that boy is a faggot, yeah yell it louder at me.

the worst part about that is like. IT HURTS... i know i shouldnt care about what a child on roblox says to me in creatures of sonaria trade realm, but lord! it hurts. i dont socialize, ive had enough bullying!!!!! ive done my time IN SCHOOL. alright thats enough im good on the bullying. idk im just weak i guess I CANT HANDLE IT. im not good with confrontation, i wont come up with a witty response, ill just sit and wait for them to get bored from me ignoring them and leave me alone. ITS ROUGH. especially cuz its ALWAYS about my avatar, i look gay i get it, thats the point.

im a very like. ive spent TOO MUCH TIME kicking myself down over 'cringe' alright. i literally lost my interests and passion cuz i was scared of being cringe, wanted to fit in better. it made me MISERABLE. im very pro cringe i love it cuz? its only cringe if you suck, things that are 'cringe' i never find cringey even a little bit, cuz i like it when people are happy. but. i find it hard not to be a little embarrassed. its ROBLOX i get to look however i want!! i love silly roblox avatars okay, i dont want to be embarrassed about mine!!! im not a confident person, i wear it around because i like the image of this stupid catboy clothes on a very man shaped man alright looksee is my pride and joy i give him a little kis. but maybe they get the wrong idea? idk. i dont think so, i think they just dont like how i look. whatever. also my avatar matches with my friends really well so. its iconic to me!!!

still, like i said. its why i try not to play social games alone on roblox, im scared to be bullied i will admit 💀 if my friend was there, she'd tell them to kill themselves for me!!! but. shes not always there. i literally panic anytime someone runs up to me directly i sigh and say 'here we go again' cuz im waiting the imminent insults alright. IM TIREDDD so tired. they dont get him like i do. hes an avatar ive DRAWN before hes just an oc at this point, i wont ever change him cuz i like him but . sometimes it gets hard!!!

im so off topic here i just. NEED TO RANT A LITTLE cuz it. it does genuinely bother me but im too scared to like. VENT ABOUT IT to any of my friends cuz im absolutely sure some of them would roll their eyes, its just a game!! game is important to someone like me, game is the closest i come to like. living in a real social world, of course its important to me!! game is the easiest way for me to interact with strangers and not die of a panic attack immediately after 💀

WHATEVER im yapping i love to yap but. idk i just wanted to talk about it, im still so . it feels good to know that even if im weird and quiet, im not so weird and so quiet that people want to avoid me all the time. theres SOMETHING about me that they think is cool enough, like. well. i can overthink if i want to. maybe theyre adding me into their pack out of pity? maybe they dont actually like having me around but they feel too awkward to like. they feel like its gone too far now? in too deep? or maybe. im not as awful as i think i am!! maybe im weird and offputting but its okay :]

LISTEN. maybe this is normal for everyone else but its a big deal for me oky. ITS HUGE ACTUALLY. like just to have a mindless video game buddy? someone i dont even like. I DONT EVEN KNOW THEIR PRONOUNS BRO thats how little i actually converse with them but. like its not serious its just a little treat for myself, a little thing i can have. shaking like a chihuahua right now. its embarrassing to be so excited about it but. i dont do this sort of thing ever really, maybe im getting better? even if im not, ill still enjoy it

[babieken]

hi! i noticed wonho looked a bit different but i hadn't been 100% sure if i was making it up so i was someone who never said anything but usually i don't point out when idols get work done since i feel it's obvious it happens so i tend to ignore. but seeing your post confirmed that wonho got work done which is a bummer because a lot of people don't realize that your nose is meant to fit your face and a lot of nose jobs don't 😭 sorry for the ramble!

nooo its okayyyyyyy <3 I'm glad im not alone TT TT yeah... like, I'm not anti cosmetic prosedures or even plastic surgery (it would be hypocritical of me if i were) but nosejobs are one of those procedures that are so rarely done right... and they're even more rarely actually needed. there was literally nothing wrong with wonho's nose... not functionally (that we know of, ofc) and not aesthetically. it was unique and it fit his face both in size and in shape. I was already upset when he started getting fillers to make the roundness of the tip of his nose pointier, but at least it still wasn't that drastic. it was still HIS nose with a bit of modification, if you will. but now... it looks too small and too narrow espcially from lower angles. it's also fucked up the distance between his top lip and nose... in the recent photos and clips we've seen of him since his release, he just looks like he has a permenant Snow App filter on.... (narrow face, smal nose and big round eyes)

[minkkumaz]

omg speaking abt exposure.. imagine the bonedo boys/8turn boys accidentally letting ur name slip during a live 🙊

I CAN LITERALLY ENVISION WOONHAK SITTING DOWN WITH LIKE GONGFOURZ, AND HES JUST TELLING THE FANS ABOUT HIS DAY AND HE GOES “oh yeah! yn bought me this jacket, i’m wearing it right now!” AND TAESAN JUST WHIPPING HIS HEAD TOWARDS WOONHAKS DIRECTION SO FAST. leehan slowly turns to him, then back at the tablet with a 🙂.

it’ll be even funnier if woonhak fails to notice and he continues rambling.. i feel like woonhaks the type of guy to treat a live like a family videocall. like he’s so used to calling his sister or his parenrs and just ranting abt you, so he just (accidentally) does it live.

so with YUNGYU i believe he’s the type of guy to normally facetime you whenever he can. like hes eating dinner? yeah he’d call. he just woke up and is about to do some skincare? pick up the phone. sometimes when you’re too tired, he’d just ask yes or no questions. or he’d just talk about his day.

“right omi? this outfit looks good for today?”

“omi! i had some street food with seungheon.. of course yoonsung wanted some so he came along..”

“omiii i miss youuu”

unfortunately, when hes live he also tends to fall back on his habits on facetime. when he’d be spoiling talking about a comeback, he’d be like

“im so excited for you to hear it, omi!”

the staff behind the screen just blankly stare at him and try to direct him to another topic before suspicions arouse. normally, someone would be freaked out they accidentally released their relationship to the public.. but for some reason theres a little grin creeping up on his face.

MINHO would panic, but fortunately jaeyun was on the live with him and said that the person minho mentioned was a distant relative.

“me and yn tried this filter last night..”

“yn is minhos cousin!”

but when the agency allows for the relationship to be public, and minho mentions your name.. fans would be REALLY confused on why hes dating his cousin.. then theres the 15% of the turnings who speculated the name yn was definitely his gf and NOT his cousin. (i love minho sobs)

jisung sneak..

jisung would be on a live while at your apartment, he frequently gets questions like,

“marry me jisung!” or “jisung one chance!!!”

and he’d be blankly reading them out with no reaction. but one day he accidentally goes “i dont think yn would like that..” and the comments go insane asking about who yn is..

“..oh.” he looks up from the live to see his gfs sleeping figure on the other couch. and with a small, warm smile he talks about having the most loveliest girlfriend ever.

to ur surprise, you wake up with many new notifications and a surprising hashtag on twitter.. #YNSUNG

-🍉

SLIP UPS WITH THESE BOYS AAAH!

all of these are so accurate to their personalities i can't melon :,)

woonhak would most definitely have a little rant and the rest of the boys eyes would be twitching HAHA but jaeyun would probably be there like YEAHH THATS MY GIRL I LOVE YN! then the live chat would be like wtf are yall yapping about?

and tell me why when you insert my name for yungyu's i actually exploded into a fit of giggles i smiled so hard >< but yes! i have yungyu's plus chat subscription and he's always talking about the most random things. he love love loves spending time with turnings (in this case reader, aka me >;3) and always apologizes if he doesn't text for a day! so like woonhak, he's definitely a rambler and i could totally see him messing up hehe.

you're so funny for minho's, cause dating his cousin? LMAOOO once the relationship is revealed, i can imagine whiney yoonsung complaining to turnings that his bf cheated on him </3 first with myungho then with reader sighh

I SEE U JISUNG SNEAKK waking up clueless asf to have your phone blowing up is genuinely my worst nightmare cause i'll think i did something wrong HAHA but fans would be very supportive! i can imagine reader not wanting to do a face reveal quite yet, but her arms come in frame to give jisung something THEN FANS MAKE EDITS OF LIKE HER HANDS OR SOMETHING JUST TO BE FUNNY HSJSN

[hana-no-seiiki]

Sjsjsnksjsbd Welp! Now I know who I'm gonna ramble to whenever I feel like rambling! You can still take it back tho my beloved god cuz I will talk about random shit at random times-!

you sure you wanna let me ramble? 👀

Also I have a new nickname for you my beloved god~

How do you feel about being called my pretty hubby?

-Your Junie

I swear I answered this-

But yes feel free to ramble to me! I love talking/socializing in general and ramblers are usually good at keeping conversations going.

(better than having someone answer with ok/ooo/etc)(this is totally an insult to one of my friends lmfao)

ALSO IM FINE WITH HUBBY. JUST KEEP THAT WRETCHED ADJECTIVE BESIDE IT AWAY FROM ME-

[rosetherat]

Doodles soo many doodles I’m mentally unwell I’m going to skin myself alive or something but how would you even do that like that doesn’t make sense I mean you could but could you really I don’t believe it I’d have to call a friend for help probably anyway enough about my weekend plans It’s like doodly doodles this time cause im like who’s that composer guy with the wig whoever he was im him but for art im like Jesus one of these days im gonna walk outside and the people will throw stones at me and I’ll go hey don’t do that and walk back inside because im smart and know they would never enter my house without me letting them in because they are polite okay moving on it’s monkey time ladies list your favourite monkey species below I’m being interactive see im interacting with you all isn’t this nice I still don’t know how this app works how do I reply to people when they say stuff about me do I just not or what what’s the social etiquette here still autistic no social skills this place is hell for me that’s why I only come on to post art and then like leave straight away I don’t even have notifs on for this thing I don’t like it it’s too scary okay moving on again did I already talk about monkeys probably is anyone even still reading r my two followers seeing this what’s that song where it’s like and it was all yellow yellows my favourite colour okay maybe pink is my favourite colour yeah yeah I love pink my whole room is pink I look at pink and I go yay! I’m like that hippo from fnaf he’s my number one kin now what’s a kin does rhat mean he’s my kid or what anyway I’m him now I’m a rambler I’m a rambling man I’m CRAZZAY it’s my Uber autism Uber speaking of happy late lesbian day I’m like the ultimate lesbian I’m the final boss probably maybe not I’m like a secret boss that you have to look up where to find me and it’s never worth it anyway can we go back to the doodle go back scroll up and look at it again and think wow what a doodle rat that’s a doodle alright why did I name myself rat why did I do that to myself okay it’s cause people used to call me a rat but I said no no no this is clearly not a being mean thing this is a cute endearing thing like a nickname because rats r cute so I embraced it because social cues don’t exist to me and If I wanna be a rat then dude, get me in a sewer or something let me scuttle around notice how I’m still going that’s called being unmedicated my brain goes faster than the speed of light I’m thinking about a minimum of ten things at the same time rn it sucks if any doctors r around and would like to shorten my waiting list wait so I could be medicated that’d be helpful I’ve been waiting like four years at this point how does it take four years for you to go hey here’s the medication you need like is it that hard wish I was a monkey they don’t get medicated they don’t have the technology for that GET ME OUT KF HEREE anyway bye bye my babas I just realised it’s 4:20 rn and I think that’s funny so I must fall asleep immediately so I fall asleep at the funny number this is the part where u tuck me in and give me a little kiss on the forehead warning I sleep with ten blankets and like three of them r weighted so you will have trouble tucking me in I can’t help it I’m like a little bear I like being warm if I had a cat or something I wouldn’t have to do this I want a cat so bad btw I need a little guy who will curl up on my chest and go meow at me to remind me of who I am WAKE ME UP WAKE ME UP INSIDEEE that’s me if I was emo okay I should wait another thing don’t forget the hot water bottle I sleep with like two hot water bottles you might be thinking how do you not overheat with ten blankets and two hot water bottles and the answer is I’m simply better than you also I’m always cold my body I can’t regulate my temperature it sucks im just so cold. Omg arg refrence the cold guy Ermm did you say guy? PURPLE GUY hor hor hor hor hor I love fnaf this is why I stick to twt they have a short word limit if they didn’t have that I’d be making whole novels this is just white noise omg channel referen

Oh my god I can still type this is like Christmas for me know that I never shut up is anyone still here if you make it through reply with like idk apples and I’ll send u my credit card information just kidding aha! I don’t use those because I’m paranoid the government can track me with them it’s all paper money for me teehee if I was a monkey I’d hope to be a proboscis monkey did you know they regurgitate their food and chew their cud that’s so dreamy majestic even wish I did that sadly I am just a little human lad anyway this time I’m really going im leaving I think Charlie’s ending stream so I have no more reason to be awake enjoy the art in the meantime my eyes hurt I’ve been sick for over a month is that normal I get headaches like every day and my eyes r always dry my nose is like an Olympic runner at this point that thing does not stop and as I am sick I deserve rest and like onion rings oh you don’t even know about the onion rings I’m eating on like an average 20 onion rings a day I can’t stop I can’t even help it it’s my autism taste buds I eat the same thing for like 2 months and then never wanna touch it again for like a year I can’t help it GUINEA PIGS I wish I had one I’d let it lay on my chest and go hello little guy this is why I need a cat that will cuddle with me I need it right now get me one someone assign a cat to me I need it to crawl through my window one day and refuse to leave how would a cat even get through my window they can’t climb that high okay he just ended tbis means I can leave now please look at the art it’s not even art it’s a doodle anyway goodbye

[freakurodani]

Hey, Hey, Hey!

Earnest (lol) here, nice to meet you! I'm dropping in to say that soup (hilarious nn) may not be able to respond for a bit, she got called in so they're currently on a ten hour drive to one of their jobs. 🍜 has three jobs, she's insane /lovingly. Well two jobs most of the time and then this one every once in a while and the park is wayyy out in the boonies so service is shit. they'll probably tell you all this later but I didn't want you to be left hanging since they're SUPER time blind lol! I won't see 🍜 for almost a month! 😭 sadness! tragedy! despair! It may be the end of times here. Pretty sure I'm not going to make it. Pretty sure. she doesn't know I'm messaging you HA! I'm even using her account. MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA *cough* don't worry 🍜 will be totally cool with it since I don't have a tumblr. OH! And shyguy (shyguy loool so accurate) is totally sending asks to you, that little rascal 🦝 aaaaand wooing me is easy. Well not like "easy" in a "i'm easy" way, more like I'm a simple kind of person, not dumb type simple, hell this first impression is shit, but I'm not editing it because then it wouldn't be og me. I def rambled and possibly overshared maybe? Idk I have a word vomit problem sorry 😅

omg... the whole crew... in my inbox... 💕💕💕

earnest... soup... shyguy.... wrow ////u\\\\

Im so sorry you and soup will be separated for so long!!!! And I really appreciate the message letting me know she didnt die or anything!! i will await her return diligently on my widows walk, oh, when will soup come back from the war park. hehehe

sounds like youre a scamp as well!!! hehehe!! but dont worry!! im a rambler too, so i like it when other ppl ramble, it feels more even that way <33

hehe thank you again for the message, earnest 🥰

[aestheticvoyage2021]

Day 248: Sunday September 5, 2021 - “Take Me Home, Two Lane Roads”

9am, I woke up wondering where I was (it was Pratt, KS).  Last I remembered, I was grumpily unpacking the car, going through the motions until I could give up and pass out.   And now, with the question looming on if we could make it all the way to Tucson in one go, Audrie had let me sleep.  I half supposed she figured I would need it, with the other half supposing she had made up her mind that it was a fool’s gambit...either way, the stakes were now raised.  As efficiently as possible (90 minutes) we got the kid and the car and the dogs packed up and ready to hit the road.  The future was definitely unwritten but I knew if we got as far as Southern New Mexico, we’d be going for it.  I chalked it up to having a speeding ticket to pay that we’d earn it back by slicing a nights hotel off the trip.  It could be done - we were professionals after all.  But this would be a tall task - 950 miles from Pratt to the Pueblo, 14.5 hours that couldn’t be measured with accounting for milk stops.  And like out of a Chevy Chase movie, 5 minutes into the run, we were pulling to a stop.  “We’re going to need food if we’re going to do it” I declared... good food.  “Rick’s” struck me as a magic horseshoe.

Inside, I found the perfect slide of Sunday morning Americana.   An awkward teenage girl waited on me and poured three cups of coffee in a real loaner coffee mug while shouting back and forth with the short order cook through the kitchen window.  I got two big omelettes to go, with a homemade cinnamon roll, and an extra side of sausage for Audrie to replace her toast.  I looked around at the people and the history here and decided I loved it.   This is Kansas, but it might as well have been somewhere in Gratiot County or Glasgow, MT or any you-name-it small town between Mississippi and Maine and I thought about how this goofy rambler with baby already taking his first milk break out in the parking lot, was playing a character in the story of this place.  The passer through.  I tipped well, in hopes of good karma and took my take-aways outside for AC and I to enjoy in the morning humidity, standing up of course, in the parking lot; itd be a really long day of sitting, for all of us.  The food was perfect; our tanks were full.  Roll on.

The road stretched ahead down a two lane highway, filled with little towns and speed traps, but seemingly in the most perfect straight line pointed southwest.  It carried us past grain elevators and flat fields and farm towns of Southwestern Kansas, when we saw a billboard for Dorothy Gale’s house - “the one from Wizard of OZ?  oh google that!”   AC provided the narrative and we had a plan for our next Milk Stop - Liberal, KS - two hours down the road.  What we found there was about the closest thing to a tourist trap as we’d find on this ramble (yes even more than Mark Twain’s Brewery).  Just a block off the highway was a replica house, with donated yellow bricks, and marble wall displaying all the names of the young girls who had played the Dorothy tour guides here over the years.  We didn’t pay for the actual tour, but we did set up on a bench in the front yard for some breastfeeding....Im sure for the other toursits rolling through they had to think, “now thats something we don’t see everyday” as our little cowardly lion went off to see the Wizard, the magical milk wizard called Mom.  4 miles later, we weren’t in Kansas anymore.

Audrie drove us across the Oklahoma panhandle, which goes by very fast and before you knew it, we were cutting across the northwest corner of the top of Texas.  This was the closest thing to Bee-line next to if we were drawing it ourselves.  We made our next big milk stop in the town of Dalhart where after another hour’s stopped we were seriously starting to question if we could go all the way or not.  But in our hip-pocket we had an ace, we’d be gaining two hours back as we crossed the timezones into New Mexico and then Arizona.  Runnig backwards through time!  As long as we could hold up, maybe we could pull this off.  And so I wandered into the gas station and got a couple five hour energy drinks.  My mind was made up.  Id sleep in my own bed tonight.

Drove us across the New Mexico line as the terrain started to change and look more Southwestern.  Fields had given way to desert brush, and rolling hills, and a the Texas line a big stunning storm cell loomed in the blue sky off to our south. We’d be outrunning that, no problem.  Audrie and the dogs, and the baby all got their naps in before we pulled onto an Interstate for the very first time in the long-drive-day.  A very short haul that would pull us from Tucumcari to Santa Rosa, where we’d take a long milk break and dog walk and fill up on gas.   We’d hang here for quite awhile as William really started to fuss and be done with the car, but as we set off, back on a two lane road, headed South now toward Alamogordo, the sun started to set and I hoped the dark of night would provide us the long quiet run that we were needing.  “go to sleeeeep, little onnnneeee” We would need to pull off and try to potty and change diaper and get any comfort that we could from the deep cry that now filled Silver’s cabin but it was so ironic because as much as it was unbearable anymore for William, the view out the windshield was stunning for us!  A cloudy sunset, a wide open road, perfectly spaced windmills on the horizon -not another car in front or behind for hours. I almost could imagine William’s cry was for wanting t see too....though I knew, of course, it was really a “what the hell is wrong with you two?”

Before long, darkness fell, and the pretty colors were gone, replaced with those high New Mexico stars.  Beautiful out here at night.  I cracked my window and got some sleep as AC took her shift, that dragged us all the way to Las Cruces, and one last milk stop and gas fill.  It was time now to earn my badge.  I started the day at 9am central time wondering if we could go all the way, even with the slow start and had spent all those miles coming across Kansas, Oklahoma, and Texas thinking about all those long great runs I had made over the years, stretching out those miles to every corner of the continent.  Those long bright nights in Alaska and the Yukon; practically running out of gas on the Alligator Alley of Florida; limping home from the Boundary Waters on Subi’s last ride.  I knew that as we left the lights of Las Cruces behind, this would be one of those legacy drives worthy of finishing strong. Two days and one night drive cross country with two dogs and a 12 week old baby ending on a 950 mile marathon across the southwest.  Only rodeo clowns like me, would try such a thing.  I put on the best ramble music I had, and got started on the last 4 hours to home. 15 miles from home, Audrie wakes up and tells me to turn down the music....but at that point, we’d done  it.  Those two lane roads, had brought us home.  We definitely weren’t in kansas anymore.   We unpacked as simply as we could and then piled into bed - both dogs assuming their positions, pressing me all the way to the edge of my King sized bed.  But I was so tired and accomplished I failed to even care.  We were home.  Mission accomplished.

Song: Vampire Weekend - Harmony Hall

Quote: “Here the earth, as if to prove its immensity, empties itself. Gertrude Stein said: 'In the United States there is more space where nobody is than where anybody is. That is what makes America what it is.' The uncluttered stretches of the American West and the deserted miles of roads force a lone traveler to pay attention to them by leaving him isolated in them. This squander of land substitutes a sense of self with a sense of place by giving him days of himself until, tiring of his own small compass, he looks for relief to the bigness outside -- a grandness that demands attention not just for its scope, but for its age, its diversity, its continual change. The isolating immensity reveals what lies covered in places noisier, busier, more filled up. For me, what I saw revealed was this (only this): a man nearly desperate because his significance had come to lie within his own narrow ambit.” ― William Least Heat-Moon, Blue Highways

[thegirlfulloffandoms]

Hear me out: stop sign for Luke

its gonna get memey up in here

Luke is terrible at reading social cues and doesn't know when to stop rambling (pure self call out there,im a rambler) so Alex devises a system where if he is feeling non talkitive but luke is he'll like put his hand up as a 'stop sign'

the memey version: Luke once asked for a sign from god and alex pointed up at a stop sign and luke didn't talk to him for like half an hour for the bad joke.

[amorecleverdevil]

@shiftingsupport​: 1 and 13?    ↪︎ ask the mun about writing. [ 𝔄𝔠𝔠𝔢𝔭𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔤 ]

         𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔬𝔣 𝔥𝔢𝔩𝔩. Oh hell yeh! Question time! I threw your answers down below a lil read more because I’m what the kids like to call?? A rambler.

1). What does your writing process look like?

A mess?? Lmao nah;;; So, honestly it depends on what I’m writing, how long I’m going to be continuing the story revolving around it, and what my current mood is. In general, I am a person who has a hard time sticking to one particular style or approach because I just get bored of it a lot. I find it a lot of fun to come at writing in many different ways and I’ve found that it’s helped me really explore what I do and don’t like for each genre or character that I attempt to tackle.

That being said, though, I tend to have at least a couple consistencies. Basically, when I’m writing replies, the most important questions I ask myself tend to be;

What is my character’s reaction to what just happened?

What have I written that actively engages the other writer and/or their character?

Have I actually described the scene or merely provided dialogue?

Will this thread carry for at least two more replies and, if not, should I end it or can I add something to make it keep going?

I’ll go ahead and give you some examples using writing that I’ve previously written to paint what I mean with each of them. For the first point, that’s the one that most people I’ve seen tend to have the best grip on, obviously. People who do roleplay tend to really know their own characters and can write them really compellingly. Most of the time, this part of the writing comes from the other player setting up a question or scenario and my character basically engaging with it. Typically, reactions tend to be the first thing I’ll actually be the first thing I put into a reply and I think that they are really important to keeping a fluid transition from one character to the next. 

In the above example, you can kinda see what I’m talking about. Basically, Izzy made Gwen say something and Billy here gave a very basic response to it. Most of the time, I find dialogue or verbal responses are the best because usually the other character should pick up on them, but I like mixing in physical reactions and more internal monologues alongside those verbal responses. Sometimes, if two characters are in tune enough with each other, it actually can be really rad to get away with only physical reactions and internal dialogues, but that often requires a certain connection and history between characters to make accurate conclusions about what might be going through their head. Here is a great example between one of my mains and Nay from my old blog.

Basically, Nay notices that Oswald is probably getting emotional over the fact they’re standing in front of this grave and looks down to get a better idea of who Oswald is getting so upset over. Oswald then follows his line of sight to the headstones, themselves. It’s a more sad scene, so not only is the lack of actual verbal responses very fun to play with, it’s also much more appropriate for the tone of the thread. This is something I love to try and play with a lot, but I avoid doing it as much with people who I have not already threaded with a few times.

After that, I then have to try to actively engage the other writer or create an opportunity for them to add to the thread as well. Especially when writing with someone new or for whom you may not have an immediate chemistry with, it becomes very important to throw them a bone, so I usually will do this as a follow up. I personally don’t love using questions to carry a thread, but it can be a good way to give an explicit indication of how the other person can contribute to it and it can be a lot more comfortable for people who are new to interacting with me and may be hesitant to just throw new ideas at me without having an extensive conversation about it. Here is an example where Naomasa responded to a question that Oboro poses and interacts with a nonverbal. 

These first two bullets are what I usually consider the meat of the reply, so the most work is put into them. Everything else is filler and tends to be what actually makes the replies prettier and more interesting. In many cases, adding the last two can even happen naturally when you are trying to come up with ways to do the former, but it’s still something I keep in mind to look out for when I’m writing. Of the four points, I think that the one I probably struggle with the most is the one that revolves around describing the scene and I think that has been what’s kept me from reaching that multi-para/novella goal that I really wanna be able to do when writing threads, but I’ve been putting in more work to try and get on top of that one. 

The final point is basically just thinking about what I can add to try and keep a thread engaging. This is when I really tend to bring in that plot and start advancing it. Introducing a conflict or a new activity in the scene that might not have otherwise been relevant before now can really revive a thread and I tend to do that a lot if I feel like a thread is dying out too quickly. Sometimes it takes, sometimes it doesn’t but it’s basically just my way of jumpstarting an interaction I feel like didn’t have enough substance to get off the ground in the first place. The example for this one is between Naomasa and Jasper - Yes, I know it’s the same person, again, but it’s because Fabgen is ridiculously good at doing the whole “yes and” thing and really we should all just take some time to appreciate them - in which the two of them are both responding to a crisis of some kind. I had felt the nature of the thread hadn’t given them a concrete way to continue to interact with each other, so I made up a random conflict that they both could work! In this case, it was some random kid running into danger.

After ALL of that, basically the last thing I tend to do for a thread is proofread and format. In a perfect world, I’d actually do the whole proofreading thing more often, but lmao nah. Basically, tldr, my writing process when doing threads is:

1). Respond to what the other person says. 2). Give them something to respond to. 3). Introduce a new plot point as necessary. 4). Fill in scene details and revise as necessary.

If you read back on my old threads, you’ll probably notice most of them follow this linear outline. Sometimes I’ll switch a couple things around, but 95% of the time you can literally cut my replies pretty into these parts without too much trouble. Also yall should go check out the people in these example threads because they’re all very talented and worth interacting with!! 

13). What do you look for in an RP partner?

Hmm.... An excellent question let’s see...

Typically, these are things that make or break rp relationships:

Have concise rules/ooc pages that includes information such as their name, their pronouns, their age and their triggers. For certain fandoms, I also tend to look for stances on certain major discourse points.

Have the ability to para or multi-para threads and 3rd person POV. We don’t have to always do this, but I do really prefer this kind of RP.

Have the ability to participate in joke/crack posting

Read my character info or at least my rules before interacting with me. I know they are long and tedious and that I tend to ramble, but there are some important things in there that may vastly differ from many other people in the RPC and it’s important to me that everyone takes those things into account when engaging with me.

Have discord for OOC conversations and extended plotting or, at the very least, be comfortable chatting regularly via IM.

Follow me. It’s not necessary to interact with me and I 100% will interact with people who are not mutuals, but I typically tend to assume others around me are mutuals only regardless of whether or not they actually are and it’ll often put most of the responsibility on the other person to come interact with me if they want to thread.

I tend to main with people who will have OOC conversations with me about our characters and who are willing to adapt to fit into the settings / verses which I have already created for my characters. I am always seeking out familial relationships of ANY kind and will usually be quick to main people who do these kinds of threads with me. I do have ships for many of my characters that I tend to indulge in, but my mains tend to be people who actually get me to start shipping something because the characters just ended up vibing so well. I actually really love shipping my bi male characters with women, but there just really aren’t enough ladies in any of the RPCs to have lasting ships ;;y;;, so if we are able to get one going, I’d probably consider maining with ya’ll

I tend to like people who like continuous threads and verse building. I tend to like people who don’t mind having a million unfinished threads. I tend to gravitate to people who do formatting and icons, but I do not require it. I tend to shy away from people who are too self-concious about doubles or who tend to prefer being exclusive. 

Overall, I’m open to at least trying to rp with everyone! And I’ve definitely formed lasting friendships with people who did not meet many of this criteria, but in terms of what I look for this is probably a pretty good list.

[aestheticvoyage2018]

Day 361: Thursday December 27, 2018 - “Ramble Season”

Ramble Season complete for 2018. Retiring the green line after one last run kicking up dust on the old Route 66 yesterday.   Updated the scribble map using that green line for 2018′s new roads for the last time.  And with Christmas Ramble in the rear view mirror, its really time to start reflecting on 2018 - where Ive been, what was a highlight...and Im starting here.

Some roadtrip highlights from 2018 were mostly the surprises - the places I didnt expect or plan for but just ran into:  Kit Carson National Forest in New Mexico, a lonely forest road running the border of New Hampshire and Maine, the back roads of Death Valley at sunset with Luke, the Amarillo Loop through Jet OK, CA-2 over the Angeles Crest, snowstorm jaunt to Shorts, Rocky Top TN, and that curvy high ridge up in somewhere UTAH. Not pictured here is all the track we ran in ZSA and Swazi - equally adventurous. Always on the hunt, for the new roads.

Heres to the backroads, those backbones, that lead us back - back to the important places; the outposts and outliers of the backcountry where the big boxes dont dare roam, and where ramblers like me call "home" 

Collected some beautiful “road shots” along the way too.  As I start to get through the photos from these 365, I’ll come across so many random one offs where I stopped to take the photo.  I suppose thats what its all about on this aesthetic voyage - to get out there and see it with my own eyes.  From the blueberry sky out on route 66 last night, to the fall colors in NH, to that lost road to Pagosa.   Its a map with colored scribbles on it - but to me it represents the window down, heading west on some quiet road with the sun on my arm and cheek, sorting out the next turn, the next landmark, the next the next the next.  To sip a beer in a new town, to meet a new friend, to ponder a new peak.  Someday maybe a next of kin will wonder if I was ever here.  Birmingham, Biddeford, Bakersfield, and no name places all along the way that stop you in the track to say “whoa” with contemplative gratitude; and the answer wont be known for sure, probably, but they’ll know that whatever it is they’re looking at, thats what I was after.

In 2019, my ramble intentions include more on the eastern seaboard in the Carolinas and also Mississippi and that river delta.   I’ll have to pick out a new color for the new year quick!  I’ll have two opportunities in Iowa and Reno right off that bat in January - keep the roads running.  Nothing exhilarates me more than the spirit of Go. So many more places to see.

Song: Our Lady Peace - Ballad Of A Poet

Quote:  “Nothing whets the intelligence more than a passionate suspicion, nothing develops all the faculties of an immature mind more than a trail running away into the dark.” ― Stefan Zweig

[hoepran]

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