#im shit scared of whale sharks actually but that’s not the point

[cabbagegunk]

I personally think that all whale sharks should be put on Mickey’s Dick Smasher.

WHAT!!!! they are such gentile creatures why would you say thst…

[milaek]

2 am Stream of Conciousness

Forward:. I was asked a couple of days ago by @squiddleward if I would ever consider writing down just a stream of consciousness. This of course was after about a 30 minute discussion on the various and finer points of the ADHD brain, which I am pleased to say went rather well. And I am having trouble sleeping at the moments because my brain never shuts up and figured, hey, I might as well do that one thing.

And so begins stream of consciousness proper.

SOC. Is that weird? That's a little weird. Oh God starting things is hard. I spelled that wrong the first- car. Theres a car noise and now my airconditioner- wait I don't have one of those we only get heat- is on. The workers are actually- what time is it? I saw my clock out of the corner of my eye. I'mma check. It's 2:10. Why am I like this? Typing makes a funny sound cuz my phone is on vibrate.

Do you ever just listen to the noise of a quiet room? Like that weird buzz that you start to pick up when things are super quiet. I like to play a game called 'whats the highest buzz I can pick out?' where I choose a buzz frequency and my stomach just gurgled and oh hey heater again and why is my roommate still up she just started playing some video about America? Why is our- taco. I used to have an incader Zim tshirt that was bright blue and had for on it and I think text that went 'being normal is so taco' or something like that? True 2009 rawr XD culture right there.

She keeps pausing and playing the video in these tiny spurts? Are her headphones broken? Did she fall asleep on her phone? It is unlike her, she never plays her shit out loud and she's always the first one asleep. It paused again.

Anyways the buzz game. Once you find a tone/frequency you try to focus on the next one above it. And then the next one. Except they're all so damn high that you end up going in circles because sometimes the next one- JESUS I FORGOT MY PHONE WASNT ON SILENT. I just got an email and it scared the crap- heaters off again. Why does it do this on off on off thing? Like, just pick one?

Anyways yeah sometimes it circles to one that's actually.lower cuz you thought it was higher but it's not? Yeah. I'm doing that now. Ok now some weird truck just turned on? Or theres some goddamn vampire tireless construction worker drilling all by himself in the house apartment thing being built- the floodlites go right into my room it fucking suuuuucks. I really like having my dog sleep in my bed. I know my boyfriend doesn't but I love having her all snuggled up with me it's so sweet and very valuable I had Chinese food today. Good shit. Chow fun is so good, but it was basically I got in a fight not fight disagreement with my roommate about diets because I'm trying to watch what I eat but we like in a very big body positive house but I do want to lose weight? How do I say this and complain about having to hold myself to new food standards in a way that doesn't imply that fat is bad? My roommates are fine I just hate myself and wanna get at least a little more thin. Nothing crazy, just back into the 100's would be nice. I want eggs. 160 is like ideal Kate, but 170, 180, those are both good. I think there was a garlic potato recepit I can't spell that goddamned word fuck in the book I was reading today. Good shit. I can't spell porpoise either. The whale thing. Or purpose. The not whale thing. Why is English so hard.

Are porpoises whales? I took a class on marine biology, olivia I have failed you I'm sorry. Dig to the brain dig to the brain why does dogfish brain look like cat food tuna salad. I think some got on my mouth when we did that it was v salty. A v salty fish boi. What did you have to be salty about my dude? Oh wait yeah being killed as a baby duh lol. Eyes are weird. I squished it's eyeball and there was like, another fuckin ball inside of it? Is that how eyes work?? I still don't know??? It haunts me to this day. I don't think I ever looked at it's little shark teeth tho fuckin- glass blowing was cool. Man I wish I kept doing that. I burned myself again rpobably where that burn was from when I made a rose it was pink and pretty the rose I mean not the burn. The burn sucked. My coworker got burned and it turned into a big ol boil right under her bra hook poor girl. I ahevnt seen most of my face co-workers in weeeeeks why do none of y'all work closing TTnTT gotta turn over but I hate moving. Why does my bed eat pillows? Cookie monster. How did we all believe that he was actually eating those cookies. I watched the Muppets movie the other day. It was aight. The two humans were the most blancy mc bland straight couple tm people tho. Like, the hell? It's a wacky.story abt Kermit please give the woman an actual personality u fools I refuse to believe you spent it all on ms. Piggy. Ok Im tired I wanna shut my eyes now. Play the bu- heater just turned on again. Did it ever turn off? Those okami flag scroll things are the fucking worst that you have to run across. Rabbit. Like, just random image of.a rabbit on my brain. Though i should explain that one. 'thought you ought to know' *passes out* *thousands of children scream*. Truly iconic. Dat boi. The image in that meme was kinda trash but the meme itself was so good. Fuck man what's the opposite of missing something bc that it what I feel for that forever alone and meme face tm meme stuff. A dark, dark time. Before the age of dadaist memes, after the age of random XD. What i dub in my brain as the 'newgrounds era' of memes. My screen is yellow. I wish i could on a ferret. I wonder if a ferret would eat grass?

Ok this needs to end. Any thought pauses were denoted by line breaks. And now i must sleep.