#im so irked but maybe it’s just bc its that time of the month again

[melxncholyman]

trying to enjoy myself in a space but there’s this one person who is always so pretentious i can’t stand it argh

[okamiwind]

writing meme

stolen from my best buddy @lilcrickee

Rules: Go to your published works on AO3 and list the first fic you ever published there, the last fic you published, any fic that you wrote for a fandom/ship only once, your favorite fic you wrote in the fandom/ship that has the most works, the fic you wish more people read, the fic you agonized over the most, the fic that sprang fully formed from your mind without any effort, and a work you are proud of—for whatever reason.

First ever published: you're the prize (i wish i'd won) EXO, kyungsoo/jongin lord almighty, it's almost been six years! how surreal is that. yeah, i had this idea for an enemies to lovers fic while watching parks and recreation. i dont know. it was one of those things that just absolutely compelled me. it's kaisoo bc i was reading a lot of kaisoo before jumping into the fandom. i look back on this one fondly, but i dont think i'm confident enough to reread it. might hurt my feelings lmao

Last fic published: i aim to be your eyes EXO, sehun/junmyeon my fuckin baby!!! still ongoing. probably will finish sometime in 2024. well. Crossing my fingers anyway. it's long and silly, but i love writing it. once i start reading over some part of it, i immediately feel like i need to add more to it. i love writing all the little characters and reading how people think things will end up. i still have yet to decide on the ending, but who knows, maybe i'll sopranos it.

Fic that you wrote for a fandom/ship only once: the million roads that lead to you MDZS, lan zhan/wei ying wrote this before even watching the live action. definitely not sure how it holds up. will almost certainly never write another fic for this fandom, but it was fun to write regardless!

Favorite fic you wrote in a fandom/ship that has the most works: in the blood haikyuu, keishin/ittetsu had no idea that haikyuu had more fics than any of my other fandoms. so it goes. it was interesting to see that nct has surpassed exo too. cwazy daisies. anyway, i love this fic, i think its kinda my masterpiece for haikyuu. i sometimes want to return to this pairing, but the lack of engagement sours my mood abt it a bit. i love writing it, but i feel like the more i shove it in people's faces, the less likely they are to read lol

Fic you wish more people read: lawyers, guns, and money EXO, sehun/baekhyun i thought this was a great little fic (she says, looking at the novel length word count) and i was really shocked that it didnt get more love. i mean, its fun, it's spacey, it's found family. i still really like a lot of the passages, i think they're very pretty. maybe i'll reread it myself since NO ONE ELSE WILL!

Fic you agonized over the most: chronos-826 EXO, sehun/junmyeon i can hardly remember the way this fest was run, but lord, i remember being irked. like there was noooo communication if you weren't on the discord, and i was like jeez, i know it said you could join but i didnt know it would be MANDATORY if you wanted information about the event lol. but yeah. despite all that, i really enjoyed writing this. and by enjoyed, i mean went insane. literally i felt like i was going crazy throughout the majority of it, and while the finished product is a lot different from what i had envisioned (something more along the lines of House of Leaves with that element of interactivity.... sigh) im still proud of what i managed to produce

Fic that sprang fully formed from your mind without any effort: pilgrimage EXO, sehun/baekhyun yeah this fic was just so weird and like. Fantastical. it felt like it was dropped from god's hands into my brain. like i sat there and wrote the first 10k almost in a Flow state, didn't touch it for months, and then just banged out the rest like it was nothing. i doubt anything will ever come so easily to me ever again, but yeah. what a time to be alive!

Work you are proud of—for whatever reason: i write to you from the road and the red king's consort BOTW/TOTK, sidon/link i just think these are some really nice examples of my writing. idk. like i think they accomplish what they seek to accomplish, i think they're stylish and pretty, i think they have a lot of earned emotional weight to them. Just some nice fics by me imo. anyway. that's it.

anyone who follows me is free to follow in my meme-ing footsteps but i would like to tag @fff777 and @deepbutdazzlingdarkness to see their answers as well :3

[earlymodernlesbian]

As a fellow disabled leftist queer Jew can I ask how the dating world has been and how to go about dating? I’ve honestly been so afraid to jump back into the dating game bc Im nervous about people who aren’t normal about Jews and aren’t normal about masking to protect themselves and their community (so many ppl have gone mask off both literally and in regards to Jews). Sorry if this is a silly question i just don’t have any ppl irk who get it 🥺 anyway have a lovely day!

Oh damn I really wish I had more wisdom and guidance to offer!!! I have absolutely been struggling with this for years, and especially in the past ten months. First of all, let me just say that BEING a disabled leftist queer Jew (especially right now), much less dating as one, can often feel really isolating and lonely!! But you are not alone!!! So if nothing else let me offer solidarity. <3

My personal experience has been mostly positive, but limited tbh. I do put in my Hinge profile that I'm Jewish, and I also have other references to Judaism kind of sprinkled throughout my profile (things like my interest in queer Yiddish theatre history). I don't think anyone who's blatantly antisemitic would swipe right on me in the first place. On the first date, I always bring up something Jewish-adjacent in some capacity to feel out their reaction. Honestly, this happens organically 99% of the time anyway because Judaism is just a huge part of my life and who I am, but if the conversation for whatever reason hasn't found its way to a natural point where that came up, I find a way to steer it there. I do not mention Israel at all. So far, no one (from a dating app) has. ((Other random people have, including LITERALLY my waxer in the middle of giving me a Brazilian wax. So to be clear I am not in anyway trying to say that this does not happen. It just has not happened to me on dates, at least not yet.)) A lot of people have things about it in their profiles, and that gives me an easy starting point to block or at least swipe left on. The person I'm kind of seeing right now has been by far the most normal about it of anyone I've gone on dates with, except for one (1) Jew I have matched with in my entire dating journey. It is rough out here for Jewish lesbians in Texas lol.

As far as masking goes....ugh. I put something in my profile like "Green Flags: still takes Covid precautions," and then a list of other items. So it's kind of in there but not super blatant. I think I maybe also have a photo of me in a mask on my profile?? But I don't remember right now. I always do an outdoor date for first date, usually just coffee or drinks somewhere with a nice patio, although that is getting tougher and tougher as the weather is getting hotter and hotter!! I don't have a solid template for this one. Sometimes it comes up while choosing a date location, I'll mention that I still mask and so request somewhere with an outdoor venue. I've had some people tell me our lifestyles are incompatible and unmatch with me at that point, which stung a little but honestly I'm grateful that we didn't waste our time!! Sometimes it comes up on the first date, I feel like a lot of people ask getting to know you questions like "What did you do to spend your time in early lockdown?" which is not a bad question imho!! And I talk about being immunocompromised. Most people have been pretty understanding, several people have said things like, "I really should be masking more often" or something like that lol. If it doesn't come up on the first date, I bring it up before the second date when we are picking a location/activity. And this is kind of rare because tbh most of my dates don't get a second date!!! But that has been my pattern so far to the extent that a pattern exists.

Again, so far everyone has been relatively normal to me in person. I have not gotten any hate or anything. ThePersonI'mKindOfSeeingRightNow has been the coolest about Covid stuff too, although I definitely take more precautions than she does. I believe there are some Covid cautious dating apps that exist out there if that is more of a dealbreaker for you. Honestly, I think I am probably not cautious enough for those apps, which is funny to me because I am more cautious than probably anyone else in my life at all. I still mask around my own parents!!!! But there are other risks I take that other people in Covid cautious groups would never ever take. It's all a balance, right? We have to determine which specific risks are worth it for us, taking into consideration BOTH our interconnectedness with society and our individual health risks. For me, right now, unmasking with ThePersonI'mKindOfSeeingRightNow feels like a risk that is worth it for me, and they're testing regularly and being really communicative about symptoms or exposures, even though she doesn't mask consistently in her day-to-day life. Unmasking at the grocery store or on a plane, on the other hand, will probably never be a risk that is worth it for me!!

Anyway that was long and ramble-y but I hope there were at least little pieces of it that felt valuable or at least made you feel less alone. <3 Truly I know these times feel really bleak AND look back on everything our ancestors have survived for us to be here today!!! Am Yisrael Chai!!!!

[myescapediary]

Update:

Hey! Its been two months and I have so much to say lmao. I swear time flies, can’t believe its been two months since I been on here. ANYWAYSS,

let me start of by saying my life been all over the fucking place, shit be changing so mf quick... I cant keep up. 

Work been great, love it there so far. Nothing to complain about other than sometimes time be going by so sloooow, I am trying to find another job during the weekends to have that as extra money for school or whatever. 

J, cut him off on wed 5/24/23 bcs mf going to FL with Brit for about 3/4 months and that honestly did not sit right with me at all. I just don’t understands why he wants to to be there like a dumb bitch as if he’s not building and continuing to build what they have going on like what???? Idk if its the fact that he’s been able to at least find someone and i have not. Yet again, I haven’t even tried to actually build something with anyone else bcs I been trying to be on my own. Also, he been ready to settle and wants to have a family and shit at an early age and i honestly don’t give af at this point. School is my priority rn and being able to be happy on my own. Ngl it does irk me too bcs i’m used to always having him to myself but this juts doesn't sit right with me, him actually trying to remove me slowly bcs he has her like wht???? Maybe this needed ti happen for me to finally cut ties. Of we are meant to be, we will get back together when the time is right. 

School is over, semester ended like two weeks ago and i ended it with allA’s and made deans list. Hopefully I keep it like that, i’m planning on taking summer courses but the money is always a issue so idk what to do. I feel bad not being able to help my parents tbh. I know i be going out like every weekend but I don’t spend money honestly, I have stopped spending money in dumb shit. 

I still hang with the same group and im honestly surprised bcs they don’t seem to be people who I hang with but they cool to go out with and thats it. Jacob been trying to get close to me and flirts with me but na lmaoo cant scoop that low fuck no. Bailee and JZ are a thing now LMAOO. She left her mans for him and ngl i was salty at first cus wtf?? but it showed me JZ true colors and i just laugh at him cus he’s dumb af and i know he knows but i am over him and don’t care anymore. Did him out of spite and yea i embarrassed myself but whatever shit happens. They planning a trip around my bday lets see if i go, tbh i don’t really care if i don’t go yet again ik ima feel left out af. 

I been having the urge to speak to Naz, but idk if i’m having those thoughts out of spite or bcs I actually care?? I know it wont kill me to reach out but i’m also embarrassed to reach out cus who tf am I? Like now I wanna text him?? yk, but we’ll see. 

Overall, i am happy where im at with school and just my social life. J has been taking a toll on me but i am going to try and actually heal and move on because I have not been giving myself that. 

May 27th, 2023 

2;25pm 

[michibikionmain]

This isn’t THE tommyinnit villain essay but it sure is one of them

Ok ok so 4 those of u who aren't on discord with me: i have two main essays that have been in the works for MONTHS, these being my Complete Dream character analysis essay going in-depth for nearly all of his canon interactions and finding his character traits and motivations through the story, and my Tommyinnit (and Wilbur Soot) were Always The Villains on the server essay talking about how the only reason so many people view them as the good guys or heroes is because we see the story from their perspective mainly. This essay? Is not either of those. BUT, it does go through a lot of my thoughts on Tommy and Dream’s characters so I figured I’d post it. maybe itll help me organize my thoughts 4 my Mega Projects lol

@ranboocore bc u helped me pop off on this so hard LMAO

Warning, it’s VERY Tommy Critical, what a suprise. I do not like Tommy as a character lol. idk what triggers yall might need me to tag but if u need one in particular pls lmn!

My biggest issue with tommy's character is that he SAYS hes learned but he never does he is exactly the same person he was at the start of the server just More Sad and with Trauma, when out of all the characters he's had the most push to change. c!Tommy is a very tell-don't-show character which can make it hard for some people to connect to him, especially those who don’t directly share his trauma or see themselves in his character. Of course, there is still a MASSIVE amount of people who relate to his struggles and thus love him regardless of his writing, but those who can't relate to him will always feel some kind of barrier until the things they've talked about are actually shown to the viewer instead of being spoon-fed to them.

It is a very beginner writing thing, and I'm hoping that Tommy is figuring out how to fix this, maybe with support from the many other writers on the server. There's the 3 you mentioned, plus fundy, niki, and maybe tubbo who also play dnd, plus Dream who said he would've been an English major and does a lot of personal writing for fun.  I think the biggest issue in the writing lies in the individual ccs being inexperienced in the medium, particularly with planning out their own character growth. 

Another glaring issue I have with c!Tommy is how he's framed to be sympathetic and he goes through all these horrible things without acknowledging his role in any of them. The things that have happened to him are a direct result of his actions, but the thing is HE won't acknowledge and so it falls flat. This isn’t to say that being abused is his fault, because it’s NEVER the vicitm’s fault, but being exiled? His multiple fights with c!Dream? His friendships falling apart? Losing the disks in the first place? They’re the direct consequences of HIS OWN actions, but he never acknowledges this and constantly just... brushes off any accountability by either saying that it’s Dream fault or simply SAYING he feels bad without properly showing it through redemption and GROWTH.

Denial is useful in storytelling sometimes, but Tommy's character has been in denial since the very beginning of the server and at this point it's just exhausting. He only ever switches between denial and depression, not really going through all 5 stages of grief properly. His violent/upset reactions would be more powerful if they were any different from how tommy usually acts, but this is always how he is. When he “lashes out” because he’s reached the end of his patience, it doesn’t SEEM like the snap it is because that’s just... it’s seriously just his standard reaction to everything. It hold no WEIGHT to see c!Tommy yell at someone violently or threaten to fight them because he does that anyways!

Static characters can be a good thing, and can be interesting if done correctly, but not every character SHOULD or CAN be static in a story.

Static characters need to have their position or behavior challenged and question, where they look into if the way they see and interact with the world is really the 'correct' one or just evaluated to see if they truly believe in them. This questioning period is CRUCIAL! and NEEDS to be well done in a way that ACTIVELY SHOWS the conflict between the two ideals. If they decide to hold onto their beliefs/continue their behavior then, it feels deserved, because rather than just being a flat "they do thing its who they are" they have defined WHY. WHY is a very important question to think of when telling the difference between dynamic and static characters. The why of a character is ESSENTIAL to developing them as a relatable, sympathetic person rather than a flat story telling device. It makes them a human rather than a puppet. When a character's motives aren't well defined or discussed, they're doomed to fall flat in everything else, because the WHY is the foundation of what makes them who they are.

c!Tommy has an underdeveloped "why", his motivations are weak, rarely properly discussed and when they are it doesn't particularly stick with him. His motivations change without showing us the internal struggle that should come from literally shifting your driving principles. There are some good MOMENTS of him reevaluating the importance of certain things, but they're so spread out and contradictory and immediately spat one that they're hard to piece together. He TELLS us what his motivations are as well, which is another big flaw when it comes to all that but we don't have time to unpack all THAT Anyways, the key to static story telling is reaffirmation. The character goes through a complete journey and ends with the same beliefs because they've looked into why they have them and determined that they still matter to them. A great example of static writing in my eyes is c!Techno, who since the beginning has believed that governments are bad. c!Techno enters the server to destroy a government, and still ends up doing that because he sees and we see him experience that the reasons he didn't like government before still hold true and he has no reason to support them any more than before, and so his anarchist beliefs are REAFFIRMED, proving to him that they way he handles things is the right one for him.

c!Tommy’s attachments are all just... they're all so weird.  like he LITERALLY SACRIFICES HIS LIFE MULTIPLE TIMES for L'manburg. By action of sacrifice it seems like it should be the most important thing to him, but then he throws it away for some disks that mattered less to him just a minute ago.  But then it's all about how c!Tubbo is worth more than Anything and maybe he's found something more important! but then he shoves THAT out the window for the discs again ig!!! but then it's about l’manburg again? Make it make sense.... pls....

Here's smth that really irks me about Tommy's character, and is kind of weird but give me a second to explain: Tommy has never actually permanently lost much of anything on the server. Every punishment he's ever received he's tried to find some way around. And like... I'm not expecting him to be HAPPY to face the consequences of his actions but seeing him constantly have his cake and eat it too is very irritating, especially when there are characters who DO have to deal with actual permanent sacrifices. The whole thing with the disks. where he WILLINGLY OFFERED THEM UP AND GAVE THEM AWAY THEN SPENT FOREVER TRYING TO STEAL THEM BACK WHILE CLAIMING DREAM STOLE THEM FROM HIM, is the biggest example of this, but it's generally his characters way of dealing with things. He's very backhanded and conniving, constantly calling himself "big man" except for when he wants things from people and he plays up the "iM a MiNoR" card to try and get them to give him things or feel bad. He's not just some sweet innocent kid like people paint him, he knows damn well he's messed up and while he SAYS he feels bad about it, he has never once really shown, with his ACTIONS, regret for what he's done except for the stuff with c!Sapnap, which could it could be argued he did because he thought it would help get c!Sapnap on his side to fight Dream and he knew c!Sapnap was a skilled warrior and could possibly be persuaded to fight with dream.

c!Tommy is in NO way some sweet innocent child, he knows what he's doing. He KNEW l'manburg was a drug empire, and wanted to turn his hotel into the same He was FULLY prepared to just murder c!Schlatt for legally winning an election that he KNEW was rigged AND INTENDED TO HELP RIG HE LITERALLY TEAMED UP WITH c!TECHNOBLADE KNOWING THAT HE INTENDED TO BLOW UP L'MANBURG AND ONLY LEFT WHEN HE REALIZED IT WASN'T GOING TO ACTUALLY HELP HIM--

The line of c!Wilbur saying "Tommy, are we the bad guys?" wasn't him mentally going batshit it was him realizing that the entire time they've been doing terrible things. c!Wilbur was literally ALWAYS Vilbur but the time people CALL Vilbur is when c!Will himself realized he was a villain.

[latibulesims]

Hey Lati!

I’m so sorry to press you for more information, but I’m so fascinated by your filming process and I have some additional questions if that’s okay. Specifically around your sets that are just individual rooms, are these just multiple secular room sets on one lot, or do you use a different lot for each set? Like with the River’s house when any family member is coming downstairs, is Tresor or Raign’s room not on that lot? The living room and kitchen? Lol I’m just so fascinated by this if that’s the case, and if so it’s extremely impressive because they look like they all could actually be one complete set. Sorry if this makes zero sense, I’ve just never thought to try this and now I really want to! ☺️ Thanks so much!

Haha no you make total sense!! First of all thank you for watching my series, and don't worry at all about asking questions! I know filming with The Sims 2 can be difficult bc of how often it crashes and its loading time, so any tips I can give to help the game crash less, im happy to share 💖

The sets are actually on different lots entirely! So, when Tresor "comes downstairs", or the characters go from the living room to the kitchen, I load an entirely new lot! I think the only exception I make is with bathrooms because they're so tiny haha, but any time you see the characters going from one room to the other, it's usually a different lot all together. :')

It may sound exhausting to some, having to jump from one lot to another, but over the years (I've been doing this since 2017, at least!) I've managed some tips that help, for those that are interested:

1) I make multiple sims of the same character, so that every sim belongs to every lot! So, if Tresor for example needs to be in her bedroom, the living room and Simons bar within the same episode, I create 3 Tresors (TresorBED, TresorLIVING, TresorBAR), and that way I don't have to move her around.

I should also note that I change neighborhoods every episode (more on that in tip #3), so it might sound like a lot of sims over the episodes but really it's usually just 3 versions of the same character in one neighborhood at a time.

You might find it's easier to just move the sims from one lot to the other, but in my experience moving the sims around (or using the tombstone to extract them) always ends up crashing my game so this is a really good way to avoid it all together!

2) I don't film chronologically, but by sets! This is my #1 tip. I basically gather up all the scenes I have in 1 set and I film them. That way i dont have to go back and forth between lots, instead I just finish off all the scenes I need using a lot and move on to the next! Sometimes a set has so many scenes I end up filming in one set for weeks at a time (usually Simons bar, haha, that S2E1 Christmas episode needed like 3 sets (Simons bar, Simons living room, The Rivers living room), and I spent two months just filming in Simons bar).

The only time I won't recommend this, is when you havent yet found your own style. Then you might risk something like this happening: You're just starting to film, and you have the 1st and last scene in the episode in the same set. So, you film them both. Then you film a couple more scenes after that, and then you reach the final set and by then your filming skills have changed (if you haven't found your style and take months filming an episode - which is completely valid, BTW - this could mean a drastic change). Then, scene #1 (which you filmed at the very beginning) could have a completely different filming style than scene #2 (which you filmed at the very end), and so on. You wouldn't want that.

I had something like that happen to me, where I discovered reshade mid-filming an episode, so the scenes I filmed at the beginning of the episode didnt have it, and then the scenes I filmed at the end did it. It made the epsiode look incosistent, which is something I don't really care about (and neither do my viewers, really), but you might so letting you know as a heads up! Some of these tips do compromise the "professionalism" of the episodes, but it's how i manage to film and pop out episodes with (relative) quickness :').

Thats why for many reasons, including should you want to film by set instead of chronologically, I suggest you find your style before filming an episode or starting a series all together. This can be done through creating small machinimas, filming tests, music videos, etc. Take it from someone who can't even handle sitting through the first 8 episodes of my own series because of how much my style back then. The way it drastically changed from one episode to another irks me so much! 😅

3) And this is my most controversial one, LOL, but I always build sets + new neighborhoods from scratch with every episode. As I mentioned above, I change neighborhoods with every episode because, in my experience, neighborhoods get corrupt with time so starting with a fresh neighborhood every episode helps avoid crashing. Previously, neighborhoods would get so corrupt, they'd stop loading at all mid-filming an episode, so im forced to interrupt my filming streak and build the sets and characters all together which absolutely wrecks any motivation I have to film afterwards. Once, this happened mid-filming a scene and so I had to rebuild, and let me tell you: Theres a difference between sets looking a bit different because I had to rebuild between episodes, and sets looking different within the same scene. At least when you rebuild the set with every new episode, you can blame minor changes on the fact that time passed from one episode to the other.

Also: I make sure to build all the sets I need for the episode before I start filming, because I dont want anything to interrupt my filming once I start it. If Im forced to build when I'm motivated to film, I end up losing that motivation in the time I spend building, if that makes sense. As u probably already know as a machinima maker, we do the work that is usually required of a team (writer, director, editor, and also stylist and set designers), so I like to do things one at a time so I can have a clear understanding of my schedule and timetable. So, I dedicate 2 days to style all the sims, a week or so to build all the sets, usually months to film the episode, then another week to edit and audio edit. I try my best not to have all of those parts overlapping, otherwise it gets too overwhelming.

The reason I rebuild from scratch, as opposed to just extracting the lot and installing it in a new neighborhood is because, again, I prefer a fresh start and have found that lots are less likely to get corrupt if they're "new". A lot of people think im crazy for it LOL, or that it's a colossal waste of time, and maybe it is! But it's the process that works best for me, and I end up filming really fast with much less crashing and hiccups because of it!

Hope that helps!!! :') Let me know if you have any other questions about my filming process or any other tips 💖💖💖 I'd love to help!

[from-a-distant-end]

003 Yoite

OH GOD??? I WASNT EXPECTING???

003 | Give me a character & I will tell you

How I feel about this character: I love him. I do. He’s problematic but I love him. He’s dramatic and scared and so very human. I wish he wasn’t so set on his goal to be erased and I feel like him not changing his mind based on alllllllll the things that he went through, all the self-discoveries, all the challenges he overcame both by himself and with Miharu, and how he still was like “MEH. JUST ERASE ME, MIHARU. I KNOW YOU LOVE ME AND WANT A FUTURE TOGETHER AND I KNOW THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT ME AND WANT ME AROUND AND TBH I DO TOO BUT I RUINED SO MANY THINGS” *no he didn’t* “SO I NEED TO BE ERASED SO YOU WON’T EVER BE MISERABLE WITH MY DEATH I NEED TO ATONE TO MY. BIRTH.” ??????? UM NO apologies but he didn’t have to do that ??? I HAVE FEELS, but logical ones I hope. I feel like. It was bad storytelling. In real life (not like it’s possible but I digress) I think I’d be a lil bit more readily understanding, but from a writer’s perspective, to put your reader through that entire adventure with him and grow with him and learn so much about him and just have him not grow enough to see what Miharu saw in him (OUR MAIN PROTAG WHO WE SEE EVERYTHING FROM AND HOPEFULLY LEARNED TO LOVE THAT DYING BOY WITH ALL OUR HEARTS) was kind of the the biggest let down. Miharu had all the power and more to become happy, to make Yoite happy too, Yukimi, everyone. But Yoite couldn’t let it go and forced Miharu to find happiness elsewhere. Put everyone through that fuckton of pain just so Yoite wouldn’t be in pain himself. Which I get. I know I’m rambling. He has every right to be selfish (EVEN IF ITS NOT ENTIRELY SELFISH) after what he went through for his life since childhood. Like I said though, I just think it was bad writing and would have been more satisfying of a story had. It not done. That.

All the people I ship romantically with this character: AHA ANYWAY. shoving aside all physical properties of characters, I only ship Miharu and Yoite although I do ship Miharu with Yoite’s brother TOO but that’s not. What this is abo- YEAH.

My non-romantic OTP for this character: ....? You mean like? I DON’T UNDERSTAND TBH? MIHARU AND YOITE CAN DO WHATEVER THEY WANT, ROMANTIC OR NOT ROMANTIC JUST BE GODDAMN HAPPY DAMMIT

My unpopular opinion about this character: HE’S KINDA SELFISH SOMETIMES. NOT ALWAYS. YES HE CAN BE, HE’S ALLOWED TO BE. I NEVER SAID HE COULDNT. I JUST SAID THAT HE IS. I ALWAYS GET MORE AND MORE EMOTIONAL THE LONGER I TALK ABOUT THIS SERIES I APOLOGIZE AGAIN. HE NEEDS TO FUCKING TALK. HE DOESN’T TALK ABOUT HIS FEELINGS. YES I GET ITS A CHARACTER TRAIT BUT IM NOT TALKING ABOUT THAT OR WRITING STYLES OR STORYTELLING. I WISH HE’D TALK. I ANSWERED AN ASK LIKE A DECADE AGO COMPLAINING ABOUT THAT BUT HERE I GO AGAIN BC IT STILL IRKS ME. TALK. CHILDREN. CONVERSATION IS GLORIOUS. um what else. I mean. I kinda said it already. I know Miharu isn’t good at talking about how he feels EITHER, and when he did try, he was usually interrupted, but I JUST. I feel like he forced Miharu to find happiness without him, to grow stronger, or what have you, but I just feel like him doing that was a letdown. He didn’t talk about his feelings, Miharu didn’t get to- IM. gdi. HE DIDN’T HEAR MIHARU OUT. HE JUST. “THIS IS WHAT I WANT AND I NEED AND WANT YOU TO RESPECT THAT. AND HELP ME? PLEASE?” BUT THATS NOT HOW IT WORKS. OR AT LEAST, THAT’S NOT HOW IT SHOULD WORK. BE COURTEOUS. here i go. i mean the whole story only took place over 2 months, i think???? so TIME WASN’T A LUXURY AND TIME IS NEEDED FOR WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT SO MAYBE MY OPINIONS ARENT EVEN AS JUSTIFIED AS I WISH THEY COULD BE.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:IM PRETTY SURE I MADE THAT CLEAR BY NOW OMFG.

my het ship:haaaaaaaaaa what. Him and Miharu are it, i am gomen

my fem/slash ship:???????????? IT’S STILL THE SAME THAT’S NOT CHANGING FRANKLY IDK WTF THAT EVEN MEANS

my OTP:^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

my OT3:WITH YOITE? YOITE, YUKIMI AND MIHARU.ANDYOITE, MIHARU AND TSUKASA EVEN THO ALL THREE WERE NEVER TOGETHER 

my cross over ship:I HAVE NONE?

my kink:???????? him healthy and alive and happy af

a head cannon fact:ISN’T THAT CONTRADICTORY? 

my gender bend:that would basically be just him. coming to the conclusion that he’s a girl and not the boy he decided he was o-o nothing would change. Yoite is Yoite. he is whoever he wants to be