#im trying to explain everhtbing as detailed as possible sonppl dont ask me to explain more making it awkward bc i dont want to be awkward | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

bma-2020 · 5 years

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also my version fo a week and others versions of a week are extremely different, i count inactive blogs as blogs gone a year or so. Activity level I base on hours, so a week in my time is not like seven days, that can be up to a month for some people like there was a perior i could only come on an hour a day like twice a week, so for that I take into account multitudes of things and that ‘week’ could easily mean like two months if not more

#in other words #i am an asshole but not an asshole but am still an asshole #not an asshole bc not like literal if you have classes and finals and work and shit im holding that against you #but am because i got so sick of peoples shiz and being used that im doing it at all #and especially am becaus i cant explain things right and just realized a vee week and a normal person week are not the same thing #and i have to explain that bc ppl will just be like ‘ur an autistic cunt’ and like #i mean no but kinda #also pls nobody else use those words together like ive been called that so im using them but if youre not something and bever had a slur #used against you the ... ya dont have a right to use it i dont know how to explain thay in simpler terms #im trying to explain everhtbing as detailed as possible sonppl dont ask me to explain more making it awkward bc i dont want to be awkward #but in as few words as possible bc ppl ‘get bored if theres too many words’ or they just dont have time and i get it and i dont wanna be #that asshole but i already am that asshole in a way but i dont want to be but just by existing i am #and like so many ppl are always saying like #‘the disabled shouldnt have to make things easier for the not disabled it should be the other way around’#but then people dont think i feel like and life is just never easy for us because of that and no matter what we do someone says were wrong s #i just. idk. i probably should have just added this to my last post but i also only thought abt it like three seconds after i already posted #it and as most would say... bish its too late #its already too late thhis is a waste of time im for real gonna run away now bc im just making things worse for myself and possibly everyony #else and even tho inkno ppl are like ‘you shouldnt care abt ppl whove done you wrong #like???? but how??? do i stop caring??? i already feel guilty by breathing ffs the medication i need to survive i feel bad for having bc #like yes i’d die without it but also wouldnt someone else toonlike??? idk its a strugfle but ppl think talking abt struggles isnjust #attention seeking snd idek maybe subconsciously it is but it fomes feom a real place but people dont carea bout realness and ingot off topic #again im just gonna go #medication mention #vee having an existential crisis while —————- cw #is this even negative or is it just pathetic #probably both idk #out.#tbd #maybe

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