#in my defense i was pmsing and also

[toodrunktofindaurl]

Happy Valentine’s Day to my beautiful girlfriend whom i love very much and promise not to drop phones on ever again ♥

[durchdenspiegel]

Whoops life lesson don’t finish a presentation ten minutes before you have to give it 😶

[haasegawa]

Until someone stops me with my weekly skip to loafer thoughts dump I'm gonna keep doing it ok?

And yeah I'm feeling like a broken record already but while last week's ep was really nice 'cause I was having a hectic day and it centred me, today it's just a hard day. My GAD is peaking, I'm PMSing real bad, so I was on the verge of tears for no apparent reason when suddenly I realized that oh it's skip to loafer tuesday I'm gonna be happy from now on and watch it rn while I have my lunch, finally peace (then I proceed to spill sauce all over myself, but that's not the point).

The point is that ok I was already sensitized from the start but I haven't actually come close to crying with this anime until now, it was a really emotional ep for me and here are some of the reasons:

Remember when I said I find Egashira a bit annoying and that I didn't really get her? 'Course you don't, but I did say it and now I actually understand why I had those impressions of her: I am Egashira. And while I'm not getting into those details, Mika is probably the most relatable character 'till this point in the sense that she's the most openly flawed one. She judges people, she's very worried about her image and she expects a lot from herself so that affects all of her relationships and I finally understood this in ep 5. The way they gave us more bits of information on her childhood and previous school experiences, I was tearing up bad.

And not getting too further away from the first point, it was really nice seeing Egashira and Mitsumi interact in the new ep. It was definitely a breakthrough for their friendship in my point of view 'cause now they actually understand each other better (with emphasis on Egashira understanding Mitsumi better in a way that now she not only understands Mitsumi and Shima's friendship better but she also accepts Mitsumi and why Shima seems to always gravitate towards her).

Now to Shima: I've made it pretty clear since the start he is a precious being that has my whole heart, but it's amazing how they're slowing building his character through the eps and through other people's POVs. I just wanna know every little detail about him. Yeah Shima's pretty and he seems like a genuinely good person, but why is he genuinely worried about other people's feelings? What goes on with his family? Why did he wanna make his mother happy by acting? What's his problem with girls? Why is he so elusive? I. Need. To. Know. Everything.

And why do I need to know everything? Why is Shima so important? Because I wasn't popular, I wasn't the prettiest and I am definitely not as kind as Shima, but he's kinda lonely and, like I said, elusive. And those are things I know. Ep 5 just seemed to scream this and it did it specially by Egashira's POV.

With those ramblings, I can safely say that I am now part of Mika defense squad and I'd love to see more of her friendship with Shima because this ep, for me, was proof of how they can help each other grow.

On more happy thoughts, Mitsumi continues to be a little bean and every little YuzuMako appearance made me feel all warm and giddy, the braid scene was asghfajgsfdashdj I'm on the floor

[novachroni-and-cheese]

Black clover characters and what they do when their s/o on their period. Part 1

Warnings: None

Gordon

- Literally the best person to have with you on your period.

- He’ll bring you all the soft stuffed animals and heating pads you could ever possibly want

- The most important thing to understand about being taken care of by Gordon is that he will vanish at random times and not tell you he has left.

- Often times when he leaves it’s usually to go and buy you snacks or get more hygiene supplies for you

- He’ll braid his s/o’s hair for them

- If s/o suffers from particularly bad cramps he will use his curse magic to try and lessen the effects, kinda like what he does for henry and his curse

- Gordon will know exactly what you need when you need it and will always be right on time to give it to you, he’ll take notes on your behaviors during your cycle and use the knowledge he gains to better prepare for next month.

- Lots of cuddles and kisses when in private, he’s still too shy to be affectionate in public but when alone he’ll make a special effort to show you a little extra love.

Leopold

- Does not know literally anything. Someone help this boy, please.

- Gets upset when you complain about cramps and being bloated since he doesn’t really get it and wants to help.

- After a couple months, he eventually just has a sit down conversation with Mereoleona about periods.

- With new understanding in tow, prepare to be absolutely spoiled by this boy!

- You need pads? What size pussy you wear? You need tampons? Regular, heavy, or ultra? You want snackies? You’re gonna have food for days, bro, anything you want.

- He just wants to make sure you’re feeling your best even during this stressful time.

- If anyone tries to make fun of him for buying sanitary products, he just fires it right back at them.

- “What? You aren’t man enough to care for your s/o when they’re on their period? You guys must be sucky boyfriends!”

Luck

- Is constantly asking to fight you and is confused when you refuse. You usually love sparring with him.

- “Fight me, y/n!” is only ever met with “Not right now.”

- Eventually, you’re tired of his persistence and snap at him. “I am on my period, Luck! For Christ’s sake, not now!!”

- Oh.

- Well, now he’s being super careful with you, treating you like royalty.

- He’s also being defensive of you, more so than usual.

- He never tells anyone that you’re on your period. He knows that’s sensitive information to you, but he will be there at, basically, your beck and call until you’re done for the month.

- When you’re finally off your period though? “Fight me, y/n!”

Magna

- Knows when you’re about to start your period cause he can tell when you’re PMSing.

- He never jokes about it though. No “Is it that time of the month?” whenever you’re mad at him, and no shaming when it is that time of the month.

- It just isn’t manly to degrade your s/o!

- Gets real uppity when other guys pull that kind of stuff or when they openly admit they don’t buy sanitary products for their significant others.

- “A real man takes care of the people he loves!” is now his mantra.

- Heats up water bottles for you when you have cramps.

- Magna is the kind of guy who would try and bake desserts for you while on your period, albeit he fails miserably and they taste god awful but he really tries to go the extra mile for you.

Asta

- He is literally so clueless on what to do, he knew something happened to women once a month but he didn’t realize that something was BLEEDING FOR A WEEK+

- He’s incredibly gentle with his s/o, taking the time to pamper them and make sure they're ok, at first he treats it like they have the flu. With more experience and time though he realizes that his s/o can function fine still they just need a little extra attention and care.

- He talks to Finral and Vanessa for advice since Finral is the resident ladies man and Vanessa is a woman who will tell it to you straight, they teach him how to care for you and what things to bring.

- He is not ashamed at all to buy tampons and pads, he will walk into the store screaming “QUICK WHERE ARE YOUR TAMPONS” and have no regrets.

- Asta will cut time out of his daily workout and training to take care of his s/o which is incredible because he almost never skips his workout.

- He will also cuddle you and put up with mood swings and anything else you might throw at him. He will never give up on his s/o.

[givemeurravioli]

Aight but... why do I always feel left behind? And I worry that I'm not enough????? I'm tired of feeling like that almost every fucking time I socialize :( Why the fuck do I always make mistakes??

Shit, tbh I want to get out of this town.

[rowdyholtzy]

Since coming across this post, I’ve been wanting to watch Jennifer’s Body, so I thought I’d do so while writing a Tumblr recap post because... well honestly it’s just fun. And I’ll be watching it as a representation of being a closeted lesbian...

I’m only 3 minutes in and I would already read the shit out of this book if it were a book and I were my 15-year old self. Basically Amanda Seyfried is in prison and talking about how she gets fanmail from creepers, and fanatics who say she’ll be fixed if she just accepts Jesus into her heart but no one’s saved her yet. That’s honestly a pretty accurate description of the response the word “lesbian” gets - either fetishization or criminalization/expectation of “repentance”.

She ends up in solitary and flashbacks to life “before the killings began” - she, her bf, and Jennifer were all bffs and “normal” high school students.

“People found it hard to believe that a babe like Jennifer would associate with a a dork like me” - I know this is a horror movie, but Ow My Heart...

As Cheerleader Jennifer waves to glasses-wearing Anita sitting in the bleachers, the girl sitting behind Anita teases her for being all “LesbiGay” and Anita’s all “What? She’s my best friend!” Mmhmm Sure...

But also, I appreciate showing this because when two girls are close like that they can get teased and that puts them on the defensive possibly before they can even sort out their own feelings. It like forces them to prove themselves as straight girls/just bffs before they even know if that’s accurate...

Anyway, Jennifer invites Anita to a concert and Anita (being the shy nerd because Glasses! and Half-Ponytail!) is hesitant but agrees. Jennifer gives Anita the hungriest look I’ve ever seen one woman give another outside of The L Word:

and says “wear something cute”. Anita then watches Jennifer walk away.

GIRL

I know this is a horror movie, but I secretly want this to be the first scene in an adorable lesbian romcom.

Cut to Anita getting dressed for the concert and her boyfriend feeling insecure about her showing some above-jean-tum. They start making out but then Anita senses Jennifer’s presence. That’s some next-level lesbian ESP and I’m so here for it.

Jennifer gives Anita’s bf serious stinkeye. They head to a divebar to see this band because Jennifer is stalking the lead singer. Setting your sights on the most unattainable dude you can find and dragging your bff along for no reason (after telling her to wear something cute) is pretty gay... #JustSayin’

Bert-Macklin-FBI shows up and seems to be Jennifer’s boyfriend. So far Jennifer’s given no one else the hungry looks she gives Anita. She briefly drools over the lead singer and drags Anita over so she can introduce herself all giggly and baby-voiced. She’s serving serious FuckMe eyes though to be honest it’s hard to tell what’s genuine and what’s her performance so she can get what she wants. Also, is this all an elaborate plan to make Anita so jealous she finally makes a move? That’s the gayest possibility...

Jennifer goes to get them drinks and Anita wanders off to play pinball. She overhears the singer talking to his buddy about how Anita is definitely a virgin because “girls like that like to show it off but not give it up” and I’m thinking they’ve got demon-possession on their mind and of course Anita is all “how dare you talk about my best friend like that”

Anita tells Jennifer about the creepy/sexist conversation, and Jennifer rolls her eyes all “in no way am I a virgin”. Anita wants to leave but Jennifer is still googly-eyed over the lead singer, and the band starts playing. Jennifer slides her hand into Anita’s and grins the purest grin. Anita smiles too but after watching Jennifer stare at the singer, Anita’s smile falters and she pulls her hand away. Girl, you so JealousGay rn...

Suddenly a fire starts devouring the bar and the lead singer stops and smirks... wtf? Jennifer is still staring trance-like at him, so Anita grabs her and runs out. Jennifer is still in a trance, and the singer suddenly appears all “hey let’s go somewhere safer”. Anita’s all WTF DUDE? but he gives Jennifer something to drink and practically pours it down her throat. Jennifer agrees to go to the singer’s van, and Anita watches helplessly as she climbs in. She rushes home and calls her bf freaking out. Understandable so - she just saw a bunch of people burn alive and then her best friend got kidnapped. Her doorbell rings but no one is there. THEN she hangs up with her boyfriend. When she senses someone else in the house she doesn’t call her boyfriend again (or anyone else) she just slowly walks around the house. Smart move.

Anyway, she turns around to see Jennifer dead-eyed and covered in blood. Instead of answering Anita’s questions, Jennifer just stares, and grins to show a bloody mouth. Then she walks over to the fridge and starts devouring a chicken before puking up a lot of something dark that looks like blood but briefly moves on its own. Anita runs away but Jennifer catches her. Jennifer goes to bite her neck but seems to be stopped by Anita’s necklace (it’s one of those BFFheart ones). She runs off, leaving Anita sobbing. Cut to science class, where school gossip about the concert is flying around and Anita is flashbacking to a playground scene where Jennifer gets stabbed by a nail but asks Anita not to tell her mom so she won’t get a shot. Anita says “I never tell on you”

Cut back to science class, where Jennifer walks up to Anita and teases her like normal. Anita’s all WTF? Jennifer is serving serious MeanGirl, not giving a fuck about (and mocking) the people that died at the bar and basically calling Anita a weirdo who overreacts.

Cut to BabyVoice!Jennifer fake-sympathizing with a FootballDude grieving over his best friend who died in the fire. She brings him into the woods and while they makeout all the woodland creatures come out to watch. Pretty soon she unhinges her jaw and her teeth go all sharp and yeah he’s a goner. Jennifer goes for a swim in the lake, while one of the teachers finds FootballDude’s disemboweled body in the forest.

Between both tragedies, everyone’s mourning and dressed in black. Except Jennifer who’s literally wearing heart earrings and strutting like a supermodel down the school hall. A month later, it’s announced that Low Shoulder (the band that was playing at the bar and kidnapped Jennifer) will donate 3% of sales from one song to families affected by the fire. Anita’s like “that’s bullshit because what about the other 97%” but everyone’s like “NO THEY ARE HEROES”. Jennifer is noticeably grouchy, and pale, with bags under her eyes and chapped lips. I’m guessing she’s hungry. Anita’s asks if she’s PMSing and she responds with this doozy: “PMS isn’t real. It was invented by the boy-run media to make us seem crazy”

(While hormonal fluctuations during our cycle obviously are real) I APPRECIATE YOUR POINT GURL YAS.

A seemingly-friendly goth dude asks Jennifer out and Jennifer has the look every lesbian has when a guy asks her out:

Until Anita says “I think he’s nice” and Jennifer gives her serious hungry eyes before accepting GothDude’s invitation.

GothDude pulls up to what he thinks is Jennifer’s house but turns out to be a creepy-ass house with plastic sheets everywhere and ravens flying through it.

Meanwhile, Anita and her bf are having sex at his place.

Back at NotJennifer’sHouse, she’s seducing GothDude before attacking him.

Mid-sex, Anita is having hallucinations of blood dripping from the ceiling and the dead footballer with Jennifer. She freaks out and goes home. She crawls into bed and screams when she realizes Jennifer is there. She yells at her to get out but Jennifer is all “we always share your bed when we have slumber parties”

Jennifer makes out with her and things start to get steamy and not to get all deep about a makeout scene but it’s noticeably different from when Jennifer is seducing a guy. With guys, she talks a lot and always stays in control. Her movements are forceful and aggressive. With Anita, she stops talking as soon as they start kissing. She doesn’t even manipulate Anita’s body. She kisses her, then lies back on Anita’s bed so Anita can climb on top of her. To me, this indicates that her intentions are not necessarily to feed on Anita like it was with all the boys. And she just fed, so It seems more like she wants to celebrate with Anita than to feed on her.

Eventually (though also too soon) Anita jumps off Jennifer and is like “WTF YOU’RE A MURDERER”. Minus the murdery part, I feel like this is a pretty common experience for queer girls: crossing a line with the best friend you have a crush on and she freaks out and sees you as a monster...

Jennifer’s all “BFFs don’t keep secrets so remember that night that evil band kidnapped me?” and flashback to her being in the van and seeing books on satanism all over the floor. They drive her deep into the forest and she tries to run but they tie her up and take her to the giant waterfall that ends nowhere (which by the way is the the big landmark of the town). She begs them to let her go and the lead singer mansplains how hard it is to be an indie band these days because there are just so many and it’s impossible to stand out, so “Satan is our only hope”. 

He stabs her repeatedly, and throws the knife into the waterfall.

Cut back to Jennifer and Anita in her bedroom and Anita’s all “IDK what happened after that I just came to and found my way to you”. My feels are so confused because there’s OwMyHeart but also EwSheEatsPeople and I realize this is probably how fans of Twilight feel about Edward, except Jennifer is actually Anita’s best friend instead of a creepy pedo-stalker.

Anywho, apparently when Jennifer’s full she’s invincible. She stabs herself and it heals up like nothing happened. Anita’s like “OMG... wait what do you mean by full?” As she pieces things together, she orders Jennifer to leave. Jennifer begs her to stay and literally says “we can play boyfriend/girlfriend like we used to”

But Anita is having none of it. She orders Jennifer to leave again, and tears start to fill up Jennifer’s eyes as she jumps out Anita’s second story window and disappears.

Anita does Dark!Forbidden! research and apparently if a virgin sacrifice is not a virgin than the demon resides in the non-virgin. They’re weakest when they’re hungry and a blade through the heart will kill it. She tells all this to her boyfriend as her reasoning for not wanting to go to the school dance (being afraid that the dance will be like a buffet for Jennifer). Yeah girl, that’s much better than just making up an excuse why you don’t want to go. Tell your boyfriend you’re convinced your best friend is possessed by a boy-eating demon.

He responds all “maybe you should see a shrink” because well obviously.

Cut to everyone getting ready for the big dance. In an interesting genderswap kind of scene, Anita’s bf’s mom gives him pepper spray because “there’s a sicko out there who likes boys”. Because I read too deeply into everything, I’m going to take this as a feminist commentary on how more energy is spent “teaching” women how to protect themselves than actually catching and detaining predators.

Jennifer is brushing her hair at home and clumps are coming off in her hands. Cut to Anita at the dance, not seeing her boyfriend or Jennifer.

That’s because Jennifer stopped Anita’s bf on his way to the dance. You think she’s gonna go all demon-face on him but instead she tells him that Anita slept with FootballDude. Then she kisses him and they’re just making out no demon-face.

Back at the dance, Low Shoulder is playing. Anita suddenly touches her lips because her LesbianESP senses are tingling because Jennifer’s making out with her boyfriend. She runs to... I’m not sure where? Following her LESP senses like a bloodhound I guess...

Jennifer brought Anita’s bf to a deserted pool. When he refuses to kiss her again, she pushes him into the pool and attempts to drown him.  Hearing him scream, Anita runs into the poolhouse in her big pink poofy princess dance dress and she’s climbing through the thick vines that have grown all over and it feels very Princess Saving Her Prince From The Monster and I fully approve.

(You didn’t think I’d get through this entire post without a Kate gif, did you?)

Jennifer has just started to go all fang-y on the bf, and Anita dives in and fights Jennifer. They have a super catty wit-off before the bf rams a pole through  Jennifer’s stomach and even after she pulls it out the wound keeps bleeding. Jennifer jumps out the window, and the bf collapses because apparently Jennifer did get to bite him before Anita saved him. He dies as Anita sobs.

Cut to Jennifer lying on her bed, using the yearbook as a menu. So the pole wound did eventually heal I guess? Anita crashes through the window and jumps on top of her, holding up a box cutter. Jennifer calls her butch for getting her murder weapon at Home Depot. They struggle, and Anita rips off Jennifer’s BestFriend necklace. That seems to stun Jennifer, and Anita plunges the box cutter into Jennifer’s heart. Jennifer’s mom comes in to see Anita sitting on top of her. Instead of running away, Anita rolls off of Jennifer’s body and lies next to it on the bed, exhausted (it kind of has a post-sex vibe instead of post-murder). Jennifer’s mom sobs. Not to make everything gay but this scene feels representative of the pretty-common gay experience of having a parent walk in on you and the shocked sadness they respond with...

Cut to Anita in prison, explaining how if you get scratched by a demon (she reveals a large scratch on her shoulder) you might absorb some of its abilities. Camera pans out to show her floating up to the small window in her solitary cell. She kicks it open and walks right through the iron fence. Walking through the woods, she notices a stream that seems to be where the endless waterfall empties out, and the knife used to stab Jennifer lying at the bottom. She picks it up and hops in the car that picks her up hitchhiking. She tells the driver she’s following a rock band and “tonight’s going to be their last show”.

Cut to a collage of clips of the band exiting their limo to screaming fans and signing autographs. They’re partying in their massive hotel room until the doorbell rings and then the music changes and there are bloody handprints. Then body bags and crime scene photos. The knife is still in the body of the lead singer. Hotel security footage shows Anita walking away from the hotel room as she looks up at the camera.

Overall, I liked it. It’s entertaining and made me laugh out loud a few times (which is very rare for a movie). The screenwriter and the director are both women and it passes the Bechdel test. And it really works as thinly veiled representation of being a closeted lesbian in high school. I really appreciated the pre-possession scenes because they showed that Jennifer’s sexual/romantic interest in Anita was NOT the demon.

It felt like the demon was just a bloodthirsty carnivore but Jennifer loved Anita so much that she never wanted to hurt her (which is why when she’s starving and has Anita up against a wall she sees Anita’s necklace and runs away instead of biting her). And later when she realizes that feeding makes her basically immortal she climbs into Anita’s bed and then makes out with her. Like this realization of her new immortality gives her the courage to do what she felt like she couldn’t before. And in the final fight scene when Anita rips off Jennifer’s necklace? Jennifer is stunned. She doesn’t move. She lets herself fall back onto the bed and doesn’t defend herself. In that moment it feels like she just loses the will to go on, like she lets Anita stab her.

And there really are so many parallels between Jennifer’s experiences and common closeted teen lesbian experiences: the jealousy of your best friend’s boyfriend, making a move on your friend and maybe she goes along for a few seconds before aggressively rejecting you and seeing you as a monster, being assaulted by men (the sacrificial scene is very reminiscent of gang-rape, and assault is tragically a universal experience for women in general regardless of sexual orientation), having a parent walk in on you and your romantic partner and be shocked/angry/heartbroken... there’s a lot here that translates to representation of the the gay-teen experience. And I respect the filmmakers for that.

[dracomxlfoyss-blog]

"anne with an e" commentary

i just started Anne with an E!

30 minutes in and I’ve already cried twice. (:

edit #1: 37 minutes in, cried 3 times now.

edit #2: gilbert blythe is adorable oh my god

edit #3: I really want to punch that josie girl.

edit #4: I wanna pull off the teachers mustache lol

edit #5: gilbert blythe ohhh my

edit #6: yo anne you can’t just scream at people saying “iM nOt SuPpOsEd To TaLk To YoU” I mean it wouldn’t hurt to elaborate ???

edit #7: I apologize in advance if my comments bother you and if it appears that I’m not really getting the show,, I’m trying my best ahaha

edit #8: WHAT THE HECK did she just slap gilbert with her chalkboard oh god what just happened

edit #9: anne has been through so much it hurts I feel bad for her I just wanna cry with her

edit #10: look at that development ruby and anne are now friends aw I swear if these two turn into like enemies later on I’ll be so upset I just want happiness for everyone in this show. (but josie and that teacher with the weird mustache hahahahahah)

edit #11: gilbert blythe yes

edit #12: THEY MISSED ANNE aw yes

edit #13: am I allowed to ship gil and anne bc I do OH MY GOS DID HE JUST MESS UP SPELLING A WORD FOR HER THAT’S CUTE THAT’S CUTE THAT’S CUTE gilbert you cutie I’m obsessed with him lol

edit #14: if this teacher doesn’t like leave prissy alone I think I’m gonna scream bc it’s just creepy um

edit #15: *anne gets her period* “IM NOT READY TO BE A WOMAN” lmao me too I cried too

edit #16: “I have just caught up with gil-” 😏

edit #17: I’m not sure what time this is supposed to take place in but did they have pads back then I’m uneducated on the history of menstruating

edit #18: look at this girl talk about periods and ruby crying about not having hers that’s adorable ruby you don’t want yours I promise and shut up josie nobody cares about the fact that you got yours

edit #19: this teacher ticks me off

edit #20: gil you cutie

edit #21: woah anne is totally pmsing

edit #22: just give anne some dang puff sleeves

edit #23: anne and diana are totally drunk

edit #24: I was right

edit #25: gilbert is such a sweetheart

edit #26: dangit gilbert and anne had a sad moment, also anne is totally falling for him. don’t blame her

edit #27: anne is trying so hard to deny the fact she has feelings I relate

edit #28: “anne, you’re crying on the potatoes.”

edit #29: GILBERT GOT DEFENSIVE OVER ANNE MY HEART IS SO HAPPY

edit #30: did gilbert just get into a physical fight because billy insulted anne HECK YES I live for this

edit #31: okay josie why does it matter if annes family is poor? I’d rather be poor with a good attitude than be rich and end up like josie

edit #32: OH MY GOD JERRY JUST GOT ATTACKED

edit #33: gilbert and anne are so happy to see each other otp otp otp

edit #34: anyway.

edit #35: gilbert and anne are 10/10 in love even if they don't know it yet

[punkkwix]

also like i get so defensive when people ask like if my mood/depression fluctuates with my period like. yes! i get pms! i know i do! but i am also literally depressed! dont just assume that if i say “it’s harder when im feeling depressed” that that means that im just pmsing and like that i dont actually have depression bc like. i do. 

[listentothesound316]

... where you're right that it's okay to not always be okay, we can not force people to understnad that. Not everyone gets it. Especially if the neber dealt with those things or people dealing with those things. I think the best way to handle this is with kindness and understanding, not getting defensive and trying the process a point. That goes for both sides of his (so you too anon). Sorry jusy figured I'd throw in my 2 cents, I've seen a lot of this on tumblr lately! Still love you!

Sorry I answered before I could see the rest of this! Could you please let me know who you are if you’re okay with that so I can thank you for the advice? I’ll try and be nicer/seem nicer. (I’m also sick right now as well as PMSing and exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally so I’m not really at my best mentally).