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[mordcore]

oh i think i know what's wrong with me

i'm crashing. that explains

catastrophizing about my fatigue

lack of appetite

general bad mood & everything sucks

severe executive dysfunction

i didnt notice cause im not feeling much more fatigued than the past week of hell-hotness but that's what Caused the crash.

i also didnt notice cause besides the fatigue my other big symptom of crash is pain but ive been having relevantly more pain in general the past months and got accordingly more dissociated from it. i used to say i dont want painkillers cuz the pain makes me notice my limits but that approach doesn't rly work anymore cuz im always in pain now. and also always dissociating from it.