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vegaseatsass · 2 years

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GAP the Series ep 4 thoughts (spoilers!!)

Every episode is genuinely better than the one before. Laura agrees w/ me so you know it's true!! Bless this show.

I think Sam's little "maybe I'm becoming your fan" joke was her actually funniest one yet. She's still just too happy about the "Mon's my fan" reveal. Fan4fan 🥺

Learning that Kirk barely scratched the surface with his Sam codebreaking lessons, and actually Sam's just full Opposite Day with expressing feelings, because she learned to deny herself of any wants and repress everything away at such a young age, is an absolute gift of a character detail. I def want to go back and rewatch the first three episodes now that we know this about her LOL

It's also such a fun reveal that Sam really is that boring and work-obsessed, and the humanizing details Mon's soaked up from interviews are all FAKE. I bought into the cultivated personality Kade created for Sam too, into the belief that by following her public persona Mon had access to a side of Sam her coworkers didn't, and that really kind of is how idol culture feels? You're so sure you're seeing a truth that the less devoted or observant are missing. Now Mon's devoted observational skills are paying dividends, and honing her into the ultimate Sam whisperer, but via what she sees with her own eyes, not what she could pick up from afar from magazines or Instagram!

idk I have a lot of thoughts about Mon-as-fan and how safe that's made it for her to spend ages 10-22 in love with a woman. The protective artifice and distance of the fan relationship goes both ways yk? I've done it the other way - where being a fangirl of men helped me feel straight without having to confront how I felt around men IRL - but Mon has been having these intensely sensual fantasies about Sam since episode one, yet I really think she mentally handwaves them as fangirl stuff, not trying-to-smash stuff. "I would make a move if I were a man" was such a clearly thoughtless comment and it intrigues me. If Sam had said DO IT, COWARD! do you think Mon would be able to do it??? Would instinct and a decade of want take over, or would her self-knowledge kind of shake apart around her as a startling (if veryyyy obvious) Truth becomes clear: She doesn't just idolize Sam, she wants her carnally Just genuinely don't know that Mon's ever looked at what it means about Mon to like Sam the way she does. Idolizing Sam has given her grounding joy and purpose for 12 years, and she hasn't had time to worry about things like boyfriends if she wanted to make it into Sam's venerable company. What's there to question? It's just a fascinating and very real depiction of how heteronormativity can keep us from seeing the incredibly, brazenly obvious. Every week I get a little more excited for how it's going to look when this woman who has been crazy in love since she was 10 actually fully realizes that she is IN LOVE in love.

Love that Sam's friends were like "Mon we are going to break it down for you. Sam 👏 is 👏a 👏 bottom. Here is how to care for her." It takes a village to raise a useless lesbian, truly. Can't decide if I think Sam's a sub top or a dom bottom but it's just incredibly cute that she's been a bossy weirdo who desperately needs help socializing since she was tiny, and these three women/recovering bullies have taken on the noble task of guiding her through her chaotic dom bottom (this is where I'm landing for now ok) instincts.

When Sam was ordering the chef around with no self-insight that he was uncomfortable 😂 felt like a little window into her management style lmao

Tee is hilarious. All of them are hilarious but I'm feeling particular gratitude for Tee. CANNOT WAIT FOR TEE/YUKI BAYBEE

Ep 1, Ep 2, Ep 3

#gap the series #gap the series spoilers #sam #mon #OH CORRECTED THIS POST BECAUSE it's if EYE were a man i would make a move #infinitely more fascinating #dear diary

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fratboykate · 3 years

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I'm a long time follower of yours from back in the clexa days. I have never not once watched a single thing about this MCU Hawkeye thing because it's not my thing. But I read your breakdown of the supposed "discourse" just because I remember the days drags past. And you were unequivocally clear. The fact that people still come to your inbox and say silly shit is beyond me. I don't even know who is the blonde or who is the brunette. I have no idea if they actually have onscreen chemistry. But your breakdown? Was beyond refutable. The main points, with reading comprehension, were headcanon what makes you happy because very little in canon supports either side of the scale. And fandom is the place to have fun with character dynamics. Don't be an asshole.

Yet time and again you have anons saying "you're ace/aro phobic and mean and shutting us out" is exhausting. No one is trying to tell anyone to not headcanon a character as ace or aro. But they act as though their personal interpretations are gospel when they aren't the author, just a consumer, the same as you. The hubris.

How can people argue with FACTS. That post didn't have an ounce of subjectivity in it. It was straight, objective, black and white facts. With links and sources to back up everything I was saying. And yet they're still here arguing???? This anti-intellectualism trend on the internet where people have genuinely started to believe that their feelings now take precedent over fucking irrefutable knowledge and expertise is dangerous. We started seeing it with science but in the past couple of weeks we've really seen it turn in a pretty depressing way in media. We knew fandom was TOXIC but the things that have happened with the discourse of Don't Look Up and Licorice Pizza in the last week is...discouraging. People really think their personal opinions now reign supreme over the opinion of experts who studied their shit whether it be doctors, scientists, or film critics. This is just another version of "My feelings matter more than your facts". It's grim. Truly.

Like......NEITHER ONE OF US HAS CANON ON OUR SIDE???? The gal on them lmao. At least I admit I'm just here for shits and giggles, they're just fucking clowning giving themselves ulcers for no fucking reason. I know Yelena is never going to be a raging gay in the MCU no matter what version of "gay" you want to use. I have my own ideas of what I think she "labels" herself as in my headcanons but I've seen people call her lesbian, I've seen people call her bi, I've seen people call her pan. I don't agree with most of them but you don't see me running up in the inbox of the people who don't agree with my version and screaming at them, because...guess what??? IT DOESN'T AFFECT WHAT I'M DOING WITH MY VERSION OF YELENA. Holy fuck how hard could that be? It's childish as hell.

#rants #ybelova #anonymous #answers

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bow-woahh · 4 years

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If you’re still doing the game, chapter 6 from the grocery store onward?

Send me your favorite scene/chapter from one of my works and I’ll post a DVD commentary on it.

ask and you shall receive!

Little bit of background info, this chapter is obviously part one of two, chapter six being it's better if I calm down, and chapter 7 being the rest of the line: it's better if I lash out. If you listened to the song full stop, you might have already known that lmao

I felt like these two chapters worked well being split into two parts (I mean imagine how long it would have been if it wasn't ... like no thank you) because of the overarching themes across them and most importantly, the plot line with her mom and the readers not knowing what's putting her on edge in chapter 6. It was so much fun to play around with and hint that there was clearly something bothering her. I think in my outline, before I found the official title this chapter was called "calm before the storm" because that truly is what it is, there's a lot of nice, fun moments, but it's clear there is something bad on the way.

Anyway, tangent over, commentary time!

They caught a bus to get to the closest grocery store, which was still a twenty minute journey away, so Catra ignored Diego for most of the ride, listening to music and texting Adora.

When I was originally outlining chapters and everything, the grocery scene wasn't planned in to this chapter (I just love giving myself more to do). I have a section in my outline document where it's kinda just a thought dump of things I want to happen possibly at some point, because I think it'd be cool or cute or whatever. This was one of those instances, and because this chapter felt a bit bare bones at first (the final product was not in the slightest) I added this in as it felt like a great way to introduce Adora and Diego and since Catra and Adora are still fairly early in their relationship here, it just worked so well, because they truly didn't expect to see each other.

“Hey, hi! I knew you said you were going shopping, but I didn’t think—well I guess it does make sense since you live in Alwyn but—”

Okay, time for context no one asked for! Bright Moon is the city they are in (obviously) and Frighton (the Fright Zone) is the neighbouring city. Bright Moon is kinda split into lower city, upper city and mid/center city (guess which kinda classes live where). Alwyn and Elberon (where Catra and Adora live respectively) are more lower city, so they are typically where poorer people live, though there are some nice places there I'm sure. Just not many.

Adora said, “Loser? Nah, Catra’s actually super cool, trust me.” She looked at Adora, properly, for the first time in a few minutes, and found her staring back at her with a fond smile.

Adora's piss poor attempt at flirting. Jk, but I do think this moment is v cute and I just love how Adora defended Catra, even though it's just her younger cousin being stupid. We love to see it.

Once again Diego beat her to it, opening the door and saying, “Sure!” before jumping out and slamming it shut.

[Context for this line: Adora asked if they needed help taking the bags out of her truck.] Honestly, Diego's really cute here. He really admires Adora and looks up to her so he's taking every possible opportunity to talk to her, and be around her.

“You know you could've left, like, ages ago, right Grayskull?"

“Yeah well,” Adora did that little shrug she always did. “I didn't mind.”

Narrowing her eyes for a moment, Catra said slowly, “Alright. Well, you can go now. And I should probably head in.”

She turned to go inside, when Adora grabbed her wrist. “Wait.”

Ahhh I love this whole section of dialogue so I had to talk about it. These two are just... useless. What I love about them, and writing them in specifically this, is the constant push and pull with them, how they can never just explicitly say whar they want, either in fear they'll be judged and rejected or because they don't even fully understand what they want to begin with. With Catra and Adora, as much as one can say something like "You should go" the other will always hesitate to, will always have something at the tip of their tongue that they're not quite saying, or like here, will literally tell them to stay, using words or otherwise. They want each other but aren't quite ready to admit it yet. And I just think that's beautiful.

Also the grabbing of the wrist and the "Wait"? Pretty sure that was an accidental reference to the "stay" scene in Taking Control but it's so ingrained into my brain I'm sure it was subconscious.

“Do you wanna get out of here?”

This line is just so... teenage romance vibes and I love it

Even though they had been talking nonstop for days now, and had seen each other just the other day, there was a palpable tension in the air, one that Catra wasn’t exactly sure how to deal with.

The said tension was definitely more on Adora's end than Catra's, because obviously, Catra is still hiding things (or more accurately, just not sharing them) and although Adora wants to pretend to be fine with it, the closer she gets, the more she wants to know what the truth is, she doesn't want to listen to the lies and rumours anymore.

Adora studied her face for a moment, before saying carefully, “Well, I, uh, have a ton of old gear I’ve been meaning to get rid of, but maybe you could ask him if he wants it? It’d be a good start.”

Catra hesitated for a moment, then nodded. “I'm sure he'd like that. I'll, uh, see what he says and get back to you.”

“Great!” Adora beamed.

Another little moment I love because Adora is just so considerate here and understands that Catra doesn't want to delve into things like money issues. She also gets Catra isn't one to accept handouts but the way she puts it isn't ‘let me help you out’ but more ‘you'd be doing me a favour’. Adora understands how she feels. She gets it.

“Why did he think you were texting your ‘boyfriend’ by the way?” Adora asked, and Catra felt her heart drop to her stomach. She hadn’t thought Adora had been paying attention to what Diego said (arguably nobody should ever pay attention to anything he says, ever) but of course she had, because once again, Catra had underestimated Adora’s observational skills.

“Because he's a stupid kid who doesn't know what he's talking about.”

Honestly Diego isn't that far from the truth he just needs to turn that 'boy' in boyfriend to girl.

Also the fact Adora is asking about this.... interesting. Catra's answer.....very defensive and also interesting. Once again they're so many unspoken words and subtext layered in all of this. It's like a tiered cake.

“That? Oh, nah. I don't—it's not really any of her business, y'know?” Catra replied, staring just past Adora’s shoulder.

Catra is replying to Adora asking whether or not Serenia knows she's a lesbian and, well, obviously what she said wasn't true. Well it was, technically, but she's ommiting the real reason. As I've already at least slightly portrayed, Catra has a complicated relationship with her sexuality, and I don't want to spoil it but that will definitely be explored more in the future, and Serenia definitely plays a part in it, being her guardian after all.

“I guess it was always kind of obvious. I never looked at guys the same way I look at girls—my first crush was some girl in like elementary, although I didn't realise at the time, and they just continued from there. I thought all girls had crushes on other girls at some point, that wishing I was a guy so I could be with them was what everyone did. When I realised they didn't, that it was weird, I spent all my time convincing myself I just wanted to be my celebrity crush and not be with them, until I actually kissed a girl for the first time. Then I couldn't exactly ignore it. I still tried to though. Especially when—well yeah, I tried to deny it for a while. But then, I guess I got tired. Of lying to myself.”

This whole paragraph is just... yes. No one has ever asked Catra how she knew, but more importantly, Catra has never wanted to answer this question, and if it were anyone else asking, she would have definitely shut it down, or answered with something short and simple. It's because it's Adora, and because she's growing more comfortable with her, to the point where she doesn't mind, even wants to share these types of details about herself. That vulnerability is even more important in chapter 7, so this was a stepping stone of sorts for her.

“So, uh, how about you? Not that I’m saying that you’re—but since you asked…” She cursed at herself internally when Adora's expression morphed into one of surprise, eyes slightly widening.

“Oh, me? I, um—I don't really know. Is that weird? I just haven't ever really thought too much about it. I guess my main priorities are school, lacrosse, and work.”

God, it's in moments like these where I wish I wrote from Adora's perspective as well. Because there's a lot to unpack here. She's not lying when she says this, I do think this is partially how she feels. But, some could argue it's so obvious how much she likes Catra, and she's definitely admired some women before. So. I'll leave it at that because otherwise I'll say too much.

Quickly though, back to the what I said about writing in Adora's perspective... saying this here and here only because I don't know if it'll happen but I did have an idea to make a sequel of sorts, from her perspective. But, let's not get ahead of ourselves.

The smooth stream had been interrupted once Adora had asked if Catra's had any plans next week, with Halloween coming up. The relaxed, open demeanor that Adora had seen for the past few hours had almost instantly closed up again, and she could hardly focus on what Adora was saying anymore.

Now that Chapter 7 is out, why she reacted this way obviously makes a lot of sense, but to add more of a commentary to it, as we saw throughout this chapter she was trying her best to ignore her emotions about her mom's death anniversary because for once things were going well and therefore she had other things to focus on. Adora mentioning Halloween forced Catra to acknowledge it, along with the memories that come with her mothers death.

“Promise you won't ditch me?”

“I, Adora Grayskull, promise not to ditch you,” she said, hand on heart.

We love a good promise cameo.

“Did you really get kicked out? Of Horde High?”

Catra should have been expecting this to come up once again. It was bound to. With all the rumours. Especially when Sparkles seemed to be a fan with how she brought it up on Sunday.

I've already talked a bit about the rumours and how they arose in my chap 1 commentary, but really I wanted to talk about Glimmer here, since her scene was before the grocery scene and I have a lot to say about this one. Initially when I wrote it, the scene was a fairly quick altercation that kinda lacked a real punch, but after spending a little more time on it after my beta pointed some things out...it hit hard. I know there is a fuck Glimmer train at the moment because, yeah, Glimmer is pretty mean in that scene. And other scenes. I don't know why I love writing Glimmer as her S4 self so much, but it's fun to play around with okay? I like how she can take on an almost antagonistic role at times.

Glimmer thinks what she is doing is to the benefit of her own friend, by pointing out all of Catra's faults and the fact that she's from the Horde, but I also think there's a little jealousy there. No Glimmer doesn't like Adora, but she is quite a possessive friend, so I can't imagine she likes the fact Adora is spending so much time with someone she doesn't know, and to add to it, she's got the worst reputation in the school. So.

Catra thought back to the moment, and remembered what had provoked it, all the way back in eighth grade. “Yeah. I'd say they did.”

Exclusive for Tumblr gang only, but yes they did on fact deserve it because they called Catra the d-slur. This was during a time where she was really struggling with her sexuality so at the time, this cut deep.

As Catra lay in bed that night, she found her mind wandering back to Adora's handshake, how they had held on for just a little too long, mismatched eyes staring into blue ones. How such a casual touch had brought back that burning sensation, that need to be closer.

Ah...the handshake. There is literally no other reason for this other than the fact they are gay. This chapter along with the next are especially important for their development physically—they get a lot more comfortable touching each other in passing but at the same time they still have to find a reason to touch each other (hence the handshake). Either way, it helps break another barrier in their relationship, and this is even moreso the case in chapter 7. I don't know if you noticed, but that chapter is full of small touches and more, but they couldn't have gotten there if it wasn't for the little steps along the way.

Boy that was a long one! I hope you guys enjoyed this, I know I said chap 8 would be out soon but schools really kicking my ass, trying to find a balance is hard. Nevertheless, it will be out asap, I appreciate your patience! (:

#spop #catradora #micah answering asks #bloom #bloom asks #asks and answers #send anons #ty anon #again #this was fun

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