#it becomes unstable the moment i need it to be stable 😭

[orangerainforest]

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[punksarahreese]

do you perhaps have any headcanons/thoughts about either how you would have liked Ava’s story to go in general, or how you would have written her off?

Soooo many thoughts on this 😭 tw ofc cuz Ava’s story is fucked lmao

Ava killing Cornelius was a bad scenario like. Ma’am what the fuck were you thinking

But if we’re still keeping the murder storyline:

She was way too good of a doctor to do that and not know how easily traceable it was and so logically something tells me she wanted to get caught

Give me a rewrite where Ava knew she needed help and knew her manic state/split was only going to end in her or someone else dying

She purposefully got caught and accepted her fate

But a psych evaluation showed the truth

She was deeply trouble and needed severe help and in a moment of clarity after what she did, she recognized she needed help but couldn’t get out of the situation she had put herself in

So if we’re sticking with the Ava killing Cornelius storyline, it would have been so much better to have her live and even given a side plot of her court case and stuff

Gimme my Ava non compos mentis plea 👀

ALTERNATIVELY

Connor comes to his damn senses and notices Ava’s personality shift and is like hm maybe I should ask dr Charles

Daniel is 👀 cuz we know that man loves a good fucked up case

He has his theories and knows Ava’s attachment to Connor so he proposes a plan

If his theory of Ava having borderline or an adjacent disorder, Connor is clearly her Favourite Person and she would do what he wanted if he promised her he wouldn’t leave her

Connor manages to coax Ava into seeing Charles

He made some empty promises 😐 but it was what had to be done

The first half hour is sat in silence

Until Charles mentions Connor’s dad and the rumours he was trying to spread about him and Ava

And it’s like a switch goes off

She’s screaming and shaking and insisting he’s a no good snake trying to drive a wedge between her and her Connor

And she confesses a lot of things

Including her attempt on her own life during one of her and Connor’s fights

How she can’t make friends in Chicago and her emotions are never “normal” they’re either on overdrive or completely numbed

She explains her hallucinations and mentions she has almost no memories of childhood

Charles can see in her eyes that she isn’t stable and the fear she can’t hide tells him Ava is aware of that fact too

The things she said was enough for him to put her on a 72h psych hold

Which she fought and screamed and pretty much lost it on them

She did have to be restrained and Connor felt so guilty because this was the second time he’s seen this happen to a woman he cared about

Especially when he heard her begging for him to help and promising she isn’t crazy and “I wouldn’t hurt anyone! Please Connor, don’t leave me, please!”

And in the end Ava is diagnosed with BPD and bipolar 1 among other things

Her swings between mania and depression are too unstable and on top of the things she’s said during therapy and threatened when she’s manic she is deemed unfit to make her own medical decisions

So Ava gets committed for a while and becomes a patient of Dr Charles

Maybe she gets a few appearances in the show as a patient and she doesn’t die 

Idk just give Ava a chance to get better please 😭