#it felt a little awkward to me bc idk how to handle the topics in this arc but... yeah

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

one word? omg omg can u do ‘children’ pls (IM GOING TO CRY)

I've never seen you as a mother before, Mulder had said once, and it was like a revelation. He'd seen her with the Eves, with Kevin Kryder, even once with her godson because he'd stopped by while she was babysitting. Scully's gentleness is something he's not sure he'll ever learn the end of, but he's all but entranced to see her like that. He doesn't register it as mothering at first, but once he does, he can't forget the thought.

That same conversation in Home, Pennsylvania held more than just that realization, though. They'd brushed up against something, the prospect of their futures — even, tentatively, backhandedly, a future together; one, singular future. Über-Scullys and genetic compatibility were as close as they could get, being who they are, to hinting at something more.

Mulder has been thinking about it since the case in Maryland, with the subliminal messaging via television tapes; he'd thought Scully was dead, and it hit him like yet another flash of sudden insight: he loves her. And somehow, despite the horrors playing out around them in Home, that's the main thing on his mind. She lets him flirt, lets him put his hand on her back and talk about starting a family, and he wants to tell her. He wants to tell her he loves her, that he wants that future and family with her, but all he can say is "I've never seen you as a mother before".

And nearly a year later, seeing her with her very real daughter, seeing her lose her daughter, he wants to tell her again. It's the wrong time, she's barely hanging onto her emotional control now, but he drives her back to his hotel room instead of her brother's house after the small funeral and wants to tell her he loves her. He's seen her with children before, but he's never seen her so bright and hopeful as those few minutes they played on the floor with her daughter. It's exceedingly selfish to be thinking like this right now and he knows it, but when he sees her turn her face away in the passenger seat so he doesn't see her cry (even though he knows she's crying), something in him aches with longing.

Sand in a casket makes him grit his teeth, because no matter what else Emily was, she was a little girl and she was Scully's little girl. He's always had a soft spot for lost little girls — he has a psychology degree, he knows exactly why — and while he wants nothing more than to comfort Scully right now, he also has some kind of belated protective instinct that makes him want to avenge her lost little girl. Scully deserves so much better. Emily deserved a life.

He'd once told Scully he hadn't thought of her as a mother before, implying then that he had a new perspective — and he did; the thought took root in his mind, Scully with a child, children, a future together. It wasn't until he saw her with Emily that he fully conceptualized what that meant; he would have given up anything for Scully and her little girl — his work, his search for his sister, everything he's put his whole heart into for so long. He would have asked Scully to marry him.

Now, he lets her into his hotel room and watches her curl up, fully clothed, on his bed. She doesn't say a word, and he doesn't either. He doubts she wants him very close right now, but he sits at the end of the bed and gently, tentatively reaches out and rests a hand on her ankle. He's here if she wants him to be; however she wants him to be. He can't comprehend her pain at finding and then losing her child, and his own pain is irrelevant. He should have told her before now about her ova, he thinks, because now she's grieving her inability to have children as well as the daughter she did have.

He'd never seen her as a mother before; now he sees it painfully clearly.

[huangfilms]

Florist!Renjun

summary: i need cash because it’s summer and my parents don’t give me allowance so i applied for this job and on the first day someone ran into me and now i have coffee all over me and wow you’re pretty cute but i gtg and when i first check in for my shift i see you there,,, with my boss,,, who’s your grandma-- oh im working with you

(A/N) ok kids i am back with another renjun bulleted fic!!!! because i have nothing else to do!!! I honestly don’t know how this is going to go but I hope u like whatever i made, feedback is appreciated! also i suck at summaries so let’s Just Pretend that i have a decent summary up there

i mean I Love Flowers ya know

renjun is a flower himself but u dont know that yet

so it’s summer break and you want to make that ca$h money because ur parents don’t give u allowance during the summer,, that Blows.

okay well you decide to apply for some job in places that interest you

like the cafe around the corner of your family’s apartment complex

or the photography studio, or the arts studio

maybe even the animal shelter because!!! animals!!!

but none of those really caught your attention

sure u liked smelling coffee at like,, 5 am, and u liked taking nice pictures and drawing, and you loved!!! animals!!!

but the thing you loved the most

u guessed it!! flowers!!!

so there was a really cute flower shop that was just across your home

and you applied ofc

step one: done

all u need to do is to w a i t 

but you’ve checked out the place, and its literally the cutest place ever!!! 

you Really Want The Job Now

so you get a cute little envelope in the mail saying that you could start full time in like 2 days!

u get super psyched because it’s your first job

so fast forward two days, and u wake up bright and early because you’re really excited!!! 

when you walk in, you see the cutest old lady just watering the plants 

the door jingles since there’s a bell, and she turns around and just looks at you for like,, 5 seconds

and then she gives you THE MOST PRECIOUS SMILE EVER

so she goes in to tell you what you should do today, and says that her grandson will be working with you for summer as well

and you’re like??? oh 

because you don’t

you’ve never interacted,,

with,,, boys.

you get SHY my dude but it’s all good because he arrives tomorrow from where ever he came from

SO anyway, you water the plants, tend to the customers, and all that jazz

you go home and you start to think about her grandson,, like

what does he look like? is he nice or what??? how old,,, is he???

so you think about ur job and then you have anxiety because wow new people who might be ur age

that doesn’t mix well with you

(unless you’re a social butterfly but a bitch can’t relate)

so you wake up and you’re feeling a little nervous to meet this kid

you leave the house really early because you’re just gonna walk around to the cafe before your shift started

but then on the way, you bump into this Pure Soul

and he spills coffee all over you

and it’s ho t like that boy?? facts

who drinks hot coffee in summer

ANYWAY you jump in shock and let out a yelp from how hot it is, and then you look up about to POP OFF but then u take a look at him

and he’s a mess, he looks so flustered, he’s r e d, and he’s stuttering out apologies

and then he dabs your t-shirt with the s i n g l e napkin that he has, wasn’t going to help but hey, A for Effort

and u gotta admit, it’s kinda cute

but anyway you say that it’s fine, it was an honest mistake, and it was kind of, both of your faults.

so he apologizes once more and then offers up his light jacket, but then u refuse because your apartment isn’t even that far away.

so you leave hastily before u could get the Cute Boy’s Name

and u literally run to change into like a sweater or something, and then Blast to the flower shop

and u see that boy again with the cute old lady 

and then u connect th e dots

it’s the grandson

oh god

and your heart??? speedy fast, like,,, sonic Wishes

so you say a greeting to his gma, and then u speed walk to check in and then start your shift

idk u felt lowkey embarrassed cause!! cute boy!! u ran!! now hes h ere!!

it isnt until the pot is overflowing to know that youre overthinking a lot, and there’s like,,, a huge puddle,, at your feet,,,

so you almost drop the stupid watering can and then fuck your life over because that boy??

across from u

in the next isle

looking at u

and he

He Smiles That Smile

I think he was trying not to laugh because he puts his hand over his mouth

i mean,,,,, u embarrassed urself once more

big OOF

but anyway you turn ur self to look away from him becaus e You Just Cant look at him

But life goes on,,,

Fast forward like idk, maybe 2 hours??? you get your first break of the day so u tell ur boss that you are just going to get a snack back at that cafe that u didn’t get to go into yet cause of That Boy 

she tells u to be careful and that you could take like 30 minutes to an hour since you were working so hard

i mean, you were just watering plants but ok,, thanks gma

ur getting off topic sis

and then d cute boy decides he’s gonna take his break too

wow life must be Crazy to have you blessed with his presence

So you see him just like jogging to catch up to you and you hear his little ‘Wait!!’

then you feel all giddy inside because he??? wants to go??? with  you???? wha t

anyway you slow your step a little so he can catch up and then he

he puts his hand on your shoulder WOW PHYSICAL CONTACT

and your heart skipped a beat more like all of them

and then he like,,, he kept his hand on your back while you guys were walking

a whole?? gentleman???

you guys didn’t really talk on the way to the cafe but u really wish u did

because u get in there, you order a snacc, and then u guys sit

in awkward

silence

and its so cringeworthy 

is this embarrassment installment number 3?? why must life Play You Like This

when you’re about to Finally say something, your guys’ orders were called up and he offered to get them

so he went with a small smile and left u with your Stupid Thoughts

but he left for like 5 seconds LMAO

so anyway

he comes back, and you both go to talk at the same time--

‘Oh no u should go first’ and then he laughs

wtf that sounded beautiful

but u don’t even remember what you were going to say

yeah, staring at his face is THAT powerful

‘oh um its ok i kinda forgot haha’

and then its awkward again

embarrassment installment number 4???

of course though you guys introduce yourselves

“My name’s Renjun”

so he just smiles and tries small talk, like why u decided to get a job, or if you’re still in school, your hobbies

all the great stuff ya feel

and by the end of the break you guys are getting closer

i mean you guys arent in any awkward silences anymore

you guys are walking back to your shifts and for the rest of the time

its just you guys messing around

like you guys Got Close hm who knew also this is getting long oops

but it’s the end of your shift,,, and then u go to check out and leav e

and it isnt until you get home that you didnt even

get his number

ayo ma can i get yo numba

so youre just in bed.

questioning life

but hey!! you made a new friend!!

life goes the same for the next few weeks or so,,, and you and renjun become Really Really Close

So close that youre actually leaving your house!! Voluntarily!!

and one day you go in to your kitchen

to see flowers on the table

and a card right next to it lol its in your moms hand 

and you just go up to it cause you see your name on the card 

you McSnatch the card away bc your moms all like ‘you have a secret admirer’ and she gives you the Mom Look

so you just Blush and read the stupid card

‘Please come to work, i miss seeing your pretty face.’ and you go !!!! what !!! 

and so you throw on some pants and the closest t-shirt near you

and then you yell that you’re going to work

so you step into the flower shop and there are wa y more flowers than you remember there to be

like theres,,, one spot that has Just Flowers

and you walk up to it and then 

Renjun comes to scare you what a little shit

and then you yelp!! once more!! 

and then he!! hugs !! you!!

but not before he gives you all of these flowers!!!!

and then he!!! says!! he made the arrangement!! just!! for!!! you!!!

so on the inside you are yelling!! wtfkdfjlsdjg

and you are just wondering w hat did you ever do to deserve this precious

and the he!! says!!

‘Will you be my girlfriend?’ and then he just!! smiles so big!

because you say of course!!! 

He is a whole Catch, he’s caring, knows how to joke around, AND he’s cute!!!

okay but boyfriend renjun who is also your co-worker would be so cute! 

because you would be watering the plants, and then you would see some flowers around with small notes tied with ribbons

with the CUTEST messages on them

and you keep every single one of them in a jar on your desk

by now you have 3 jars filled

thanks for making me the Softest Stan Renjun

and so you would always find cute arrangements in you home!!

and his gma would b watching in the back with That Look

she would think ‘i made a good decision’

BECAUSE SHE DID

his gma: god tier

but anyway florist!renjun who is also your bf!! would be so!! cute!! wtf!!

my heart: melting

honestly my heart cannot handle

SO you guys would just b so happy with each other, life is good,,,

and everytime someone asks how you guys got together,,, youwould always say

lol his grandma like u would Not Believe

but you would always say that the flower shop you both work in, has brought you guys together.

Masterlist

[bredisgoode-blog]

ME: Andromeda Opinions. (so late...)

If anyone pays attention to this blog at all, you might be aware that I’m kind of sort of obsessed fond of Mass Effect. (Please do not ask me how many hours I’ve spent on the series). I just wanted to talk a ‘bit’ (put this post next to the definition of underestimate, bc this post is long af) about Andromeda, since I wasn’t active online when it came out/when I played it. It’s a somewhat simplified analysis. Like I could write a college thesis for any topic for any Mass Effect game, so yeah it was hard to get it as short as this is.

First of all lets get this out of the way: I genuinely enjoyed it.

I avoided alllll the media and reviews as much as I could. The only slight spoiler I ever got was seeing the first rendition of Peebee, Jaal (in pop figure form, no less...), and a headline about the facial animations. I ignored that because to me, Mass Effect has always had some ridiculous animations. Especially facial animations when you make a custom character. I literally noted down the moments in Mass Effect 1 when they’re unbearably hilarious, there are a lot. When it comes to Mass Effect, I just don’t really care about the graphics. However, I will admit that when I tried to make a fem!Ryder, I simply gave up and just went with Sara because any face I tried just had the wORST issues. It was hilarious, but again, I really didn’t care. I didn’t have many issues with my custom bro!Ryder’s face. I will say that one face Lexi makes is AMAZING and AWFUL (you know which one I mean), but at the same time I was like idk that is literally a face I would make.

The only preconception I had for this game was of Peebee, who I thought looked a bit odd, like in a forced way. But I really didn’t care about that and tried to put it at the back of my mind so I would forget I saw her and go into the game with a clean slate. I was pretty sure I wasn’t getting Liara back, so that was the other reason I didn’t care to think about how Peebee looked. (SPOILERS: BUT I DID G eT LIA ARA BACK K INDA !! wDsdjfkd)

Things I liked/loved:

This game somehow felt like all three Mass Effect games put together. You have the new world and hero-building experience like ME1, the companionship and loyalty driven subplots of ME2 (which were so great in ME:A), and the “oh shit we need to really all work together to defeat this overwhelmingly strong and holier-than-thou enemy” feel of ME3. The only thing I didn’t like about that is that I felt like I didn’t deserve the ending being so cool because we haven’t really gotten into this world that much yet.

The game play is. so. smooth. Wow. At first I thought the controls were so confusing, but by the middle of my first play through I was zipping through the game.

I love the profile switching ability. I never really enjoyed playing other classes in the OT because once I played vanguard, I felt like I had all the powers I actually wanted and didn’t need the others. This game made me want to switch classes because I knew I could, and I ended up with a really personalized way of playing. It felt good. I think that was a smart decision. I’m sure there are general ways that people play, but you have so many options to play the way YOU want to.

Hearing Liara again. When I saw people suggesting we see OT characters in Andromeda, I cringed every time. I have this great head canon in which Shepard survives synthesis and gets Lazarus-ed again. So I didn’t want any implication of anything otherwise. (That’s just my selfish preference). They were really smart in how they brought Liara into the plot. It was a nice throwback without altering anything I thought or felt about the OT.

Exaltation (spoilss). Part of me thought, hm this is a bit too similar to the Reapers, but it’s done actually so interestingly that once we really see it happen, I didn’t care much that it was similar to what the Reapers did. Like first of all, how did they come up with this technology? Why do they do it? Why is it so monstrous and demented? I really want to know more about them and their beliefs, I don’t feel we even scratched the surface.

The Angara/Remnant/Jardaan. I knew something was off about the Angara, and I definitely knew there was going to be a connection with them and the Remnant, but I didn’t expect it to play out the way it did. I also just like the Angara as a race. Their abilities and overtly expressed feelings/emotions were very interesting to me.

The planets were diverse and beautiful. I loved that I had to keep going back to them all for side missions. (Though I didn’t like the time it took to get to each one bc of dum spaceship animations !! Good thing they took that out.)

All of the little connections to the OT made me really happy. Though they were a constant reminder that literally everyone from the Milky Way is dead bc of how far in the future Andromeda takes place... at the same time this was always the route I thought they should go so I can’t complain.

Loved unlocking memories, (just wish we got more out of it).

The architects were awesome bosses, in fact I liked that there were bosses in this game even though they were repetitive. The OT never focused on having bosses, usually you’d only face a final boss or just waves of enemies at the end of a section. Though I’ll admit the Voeld architect was the hardest and first that I fought. They could have organized that a bit differently imo.

The abyssal is actually a pro and a con. I was absolutely horrified to drive near it, and I thought it was really smart to make it so daunting... but then I found out it can’t do anything to you so I just kept trying to get as close as possible lol. Would have liked it to interact in the plot a bit more, but maybe it was supposed to be involved in another DLC plan (that got cancelled =)))))))))))))))))) )

The Moshae is the reason I live. I don’t know exactly why, but I was obsessed with her. I would literally bother everyone I know singing Wainting for Tonight and changing it to “waiting for Moshae”  Maybe it was just that they said “Moshae” too many times in the game, but idk man she was cool as heck. I also like that she is opinionated just like the other Angara. She isn’t some passive all knowing god-like character. She will disagree with you if she doesn’t like what you’ve said or done.  

I actually really enjoyed the new dialogue system. Though I’ve seen people say it makes you unable to be renegade like in the OT, and I definitely agree with that, I just hardly ever as renegade so it didn’t affect me. Do you even get to punch someone in the face though? Idk, but I would see why people would be upset if you can’t. It’s a Mass Effect staple tbh.  

The communal crew computer thing in the sleeping area (great descriptions, I know) was cool imo. As were the e-mails. There were some great moments written in here.

Onto the few things I thought could have been handled better:

The Archon. He reminded me of a cute monkey??? I couldn’t take him too seriously. I thought some of the other Kett officials had much better aggressive looks about them. Also the first time we see him is in a moment of weakness; he doesn’t understand how Alec was able to utilize the remnant technology the was we was. It was just a weird introduction for an antagonist imo. After characters like Saren and Harbinger, I didn’t feel threatened by the Archon. (Though I did feel threatened by the Kett overall. Especially by the end.)

I don’t think we really got deep enough into this world. The only reason this bothered me is because I spent like over a hundred hours on the first play through. I thought subplots like the benefactor would tie more into the plot and no, the mission ends, and we don’t really learn much.

Some things are a bit clunky. Upgrade armor in one place, buy those upgrades in another place, change the colors in another. It wasn’t a huge bother at first, but when I really wanted to upgrade my armor, I just wouldn’t because I was worried (because of the confusion) that I’d loose the enhancements I had.

I would have liked one other race to be present in the game. I believe we would have gotten that with the Quarians and their DLC, except that got canned. This was the most frustrated I felt with any part of the game. To tease it throughout the game and just not deliver? All of these issues I had with the game are small, and they didn’t really didn’t bother me overall, but this did. Maybe I was just being spoiled because I was used to having great Mass Effect DLC, I expected it, but they egged me on.

Why are all the creatures nearly the same? That just didn’t make sense to me. I didn’t really care but at the end of the day, there’s no reason for it.

H-047c was so cool I just wished there were more missions here.

I really wanted to be able to interact more with our twin. But that made me really surprised by the (spoileR!) fact that we get to play as them towards the end.

This is not really a big deal, but I thought fem!Ryder’s voice didn’t fit the character. But I never liked playing bro!Shep because I didn’t like Mark’s ME1 and ME2 performances, so it’s not really a big deal/worry. I like playing bro!Ryder and fem!Shep more anyway. (This is also why the facial animation issues weren’t a big deal, like I said earlier I didn’t have many issues with that playing as my bro!Ryder, and since I didn’t even really like playing as fem!Ryder bc of the VA, I didn’t have to deal with the issues much).

And now the characters because I have quite a bit to say on them too:

Peebee - First impression was not a great. I kept thinking she was a weird version of Liara. Still quirky and nerdy, but obnoxious rather than shy and awkward. That drew me to her in a way, but it was a long time before I was sure I’d romance her. Also her actual name is so pretty. Pelessaria. Pelly could have been a cuter nickname that doesn’t make me think of a PB&J sandwich... 

Vetra was another character I considered romancing, but it seemed to not go anywhere, and by the time it could, I was already too invested in Peebee.

Cora imo was so bland, it really was not until almost the end that I started to actually like her a bit.

At first I was worried Drack was a Wrex copy, but they put a lot more effort with Drack than Cora. We don’t even really tap into his background as much as I wanted, but I loved what we did learn. He’s a great character, and more original than I thought he’d be.

Almost went gay for Jaal, but then realized that what I thought might lead to flirting, was just us being best homies. Which I was ok with, but I still thought I would almost rather have him than Peebee. But then they made him a romance option for bro!Ryder anyway but it was too late by then =‘( I have to replay the game again soon.

I’m really hoping they don’t can the series the way it is and do a whole new soft reboot. I like where this game is headed, they just need to deliver a more polished sequel. Who knows when that will be, but I’m hopeful we’ll see more of these characters and this new galaxy, which we only barely got into.

PS - I FOR GOT TO MEN TI ON. When they did that first major patch they fliRKd up the way you walk and move, and I was so mad because I had just started to do this side to side motion that was a funny dance and now I can’t do it anymore and I’ll be mad forever about it. I was having fUN with your JANKY MOVEMENT ANIMATIONS!! I hope they make it an option for me to disable just that “fix” bc its not a fix at aLL but probably won’t bc they’re so done w/ Andromeda lol.

[survivorsentinelislands]

EPISODE 2: YOU HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO BE ABLE TO PROGRESS ~Alex

So, I get online at roughly 9 my time, and we’re all talking about social anxiety and depression. It’s a real thing. It is very much so a real thing that hinders people’s day to day lives. However Sara was very interesting with the way she went about it. Logan seemed shocked to find that I actually like my life? I love show choir, I love my girlfriend right now, my friends are fun. My family is supportive.

The way I get through my life is by almost putting myself down? It’s like Fat Amy from Pitch Perfect calling herself Fat Amy, so people can’t do it behind their back. I’m not the most attractive person, I let that be known to everyone. But it’s easier to be open about things in your life because it’s how you handle things. When I actually apply for the show it’s definitely something I am going to talk about. Growing up I didn’t /have/ a whole lot of confidence as a person to get through things. As I got into highschool I really was this awkward shy human being who wasn’t fond of social situations. I was always a quirky person; I felt like people didn’t like being around me a whole lot? That’s weird to say, but it’s hard to go through life feeling like an outcast. When I got into Show Choir my life really changed. My confidence shot through the roof. It was this wake up call for me that “hey, you’re good at stuff. Open up to that part of your life, and quit focusing on the negative.” And I definitely do that and it definitely gets me through the day.

I don’t get sad over a whole lot because it’s real easy for so many people to say “my life sucks, things aren’t going right.” but nine times out of ten there is something. And that’s what I focus on in my life. And that’s why I’m going to get through this game. I’ve learned to not focus on the negative parts of my life and the same goes for this game. You have to look forward to be able to progress. If you’re stuck in the past things won’t work out for you. So this is my way of saying my way of life. It’s weird to put it into a confessional, considering it’s hardly game-topic, but it seemed oddly appropriate.

Okay i take back what i said i actually really connect with logan her and I both share a passion for stories and characters and shes great and like lowkey love my tribe

Dang sh#t I know I’m not winning and now I may be going home just great <_<

The MATT vote off went very well. Although in hindsight it may have been better to vote off ELENA instead of him. She received a self vote which isn’t a great sign at her activity level going forward.

The next immunity challenge is an individual challenge. Three people win immunity and both tribes go to tribal. So I guess it’s not a big deal that ELENA wasn’t voted off last tribal. If we need to, we can just vote her out this one.

After this coming tribal, there will be 15 people left, which opens the opportunity for a tribe swap into 3 tribes of 5. I hope that’s not the case, I don’t really want to be separated from SAM, DARIAN and NED. The four of us have a good thing going, I’d hate to have it end right now. I don’t exactly have a good record with tribe swaps.

I still have my extra vote but in a tribe of a five it wouldn’t exactly be useful. Either we go in 3-2 with majority or minority. An extra vote would only cause a tie and then a loss on the revote.

fuck u n ur confessionals drew

well! i gotta get to work on staying

I smell

I hate feet and Drew’s face

LET’S GET WEIRD

Oh no no no, don’t phunk with my heart

I prefer tea

I like eggs

OK. Well, I got immunity this week in the double tribal and everyone wants to target Elena.. But She has that advantage and I don’t want her to go. this sucks. I don’t know if i should stick my neck out there for her or if i should just bite the bullet and cut my losses. i have no idea what I’m going to do.

I don’t know what these people are talking about!!

The government is whack

BOO! I’m a ghost!

Honestly I asked them for confessionals. I did this. This is my fault.

I’m here for the party

ANYWAY AFTER THAT MEANNESS. I guess we’re voting out Steven? Idk him enough to even try to find someone else goodbye

Super disappointed in how badly our tribe did. I know we’re going to tribal either way, but seeing just how much we got beat by has me worried for future challenges. Hopefully the challenges in the future will be a little different and give us an advantage.

In other news, me, Logan, Alex, John and Josh formed an alliance. We decided that this time the best person to vote out is Steven, because he’s missed way too many challenges and rarely contributes in the tribes conversations. So hopefully he’ll be gone tomorrow.

Bye!

Hi! after we lost the challenge a few official alliances formed. The Bubblegum Bitches with myself, Logan, Daisy, Alex and Josh. It was formed after I found out it was a four person alliance and Daisy added me to it when I asked her about it. Also, the alliance of myself, Alex, and Nehe. I like the two of them but Alex and I have discussed a final 2 already. Steven has not said a single word to me I forgot if I mentioned that but it still holds true!!!11 ok thats all bye

I scream and yell in my host chat and forget I need to put them in the confessional chat.

So I have an alliance with Keegan, Darian, and Ned and it’s super cute or whatever I guess. All three of them won immunity so I guess I’m just here like the loser of the alliance but whatever.

Besides this alliance, I don’t talk to anyone but that’s not for a lack of trying! I literally try to bug everyone all the time and no one answers me! I really like Elijah when he actually answers me but 90% of the time it’s like pulling teeth. Elena AND Brandon didn’t answer me when I said ‘hey’ so now I obviously feel to self-conscious to ever message them again because I don’t want to have to see the double 'hey.’ So I guess I’m just never talking to them again. But I don’t think that’ll matter because Elena is either about to be 1) med evaced or 2) voted out either way. So I just have to worry about Brandon but like I don’t care if we talk or not to be completely honest. I’m just biding my time until a swap because EVERYONE I talked to before we got put into tribes is on that tribe so like that sucks. Hopefully they take pity on me and decide that they want to work with me.

its been a fun game but my time has come

As of now I know I’m on the bottom of my tribe which kinda sucks. Daisy and Logan made an alliance with Alex, John, and Josh and not me. That left me shocked as I thought me and Logan were having good talks. No matter that, Alex and John made an alliance with me telling me about that one. I’m prob their side piece but as long as it keeps me safe I don’t mind. I made an alliance with Stevie as I really like the guy. I need to speak more with Sara so I can align with her but i’m sure daisy got some side thing with her.

I went into the forest night one and received a self vote which i thought still allowed me to vote just have a vote against me. This turns out not to be the case. I can’t vote at all so this scares me. I told Alex and John about it so that they know they can trust me and in the morning I will be telling Stevie so he isn’t blindsided that I didn’t tell him. The plan is to get rid of Steven, he’s the easiest guy to vote out. Right now though I need to move myself into a good spot and not where I stand right now. But yeah my hope is that Steven is the vote. Not me lets hope.

So I got roped into a great alliance including Sam, Darian, and Keegan, and three of us have individual immunity for the next tribal! Unfortunately, Elena hasn’t said a word since the game started, and I’m a little worried she’s not doing too great. However, we’re voting her out because she’s going to be medevaced soon anyway, and we don’t want to lose 3 tribemates before we even swap. At this point in games, I can usually tell about how far I’ll go, but I really don’t have a clue right now. I could be swap boot or I could win. Hopefully I win.

I won immunity, yay! This is my first time ever winning an individual immunity. The other two individual immunities were won by my alliance members NED and DARIAN. No one on the other tribe is safe which means any one of them could be voted off.

The vote tonight is going to be really easy. ELENA hasn’t been around for a while, hopefully she’s alright and just too busy with real life to play the game. As far as I’m aware, everyone is voting for her. It doesn’t really matter though, I’m safe so I’m not worried.

well no ones talking

but i think elenas goin bc shes inact?