#it took 5 hours to edit a 4 minute video wtf

[w3ird0s-0rgans]

The sneak peak snippet of the video I'm making with the 'puppets'

(I'm playing out a ao3 fic for the fun of it)

(Sorry if my voice is goofy or slurred I have speech problems)

[meitanreax]

day 2

hello!!!

here is my challenge for today >:) here are the most interesting things/funny things that i saw today!!

ok this first one is me bc the lighting was nice hAHAHAHFSLKDFJLSKFJ and i am very interesting (: to u (: LOOOLLL but yeah i thot the lighting was nice HAHA and my skin is nice thanks birth control!!!! 

ok this is. the 2nd one/..so i was just in the mall and i see this and im like kJFDLSKJLXCKVJLJ imagine a family wearing this? IM JFDSLKF i just like specifically how the shirt says fucking KIDDIE....LOOOOLL yah but watch white people wear this. omg i just realized they all have matching bottoms too im going INSANE LOL

3rd thing. OK! like i said!! my cousin plays shooting games...really funny tho!! lOL i did not expect that!!! at least she is a gamer and she draws anime chibis so im like wow. lOOOL #relatable #measakid #wow! she knows what league of legends is so i guess!!! she is a real gamer (but she doesnt know csgo or overwatch, but she is a huge COD fan LOL ???)

4th. i got gongcha and i dont know why this random dude is on the cup LOOOL isnt it most boba places like the cups are clear and stuff?? IDK LOOL philippines gives out like these paper cups and STRAWS TOO OMG..the straw was made out of paper and it got SUPER like...soggy after 2 minutes god please help me LOL

5th!!! this is the view from my hotel room ;_; i dont wanna leave this hotel cuz its so nice and i have my own space away from my actual botch mom...omfg...we hate to see it!!! but its super nice and close to this popular mall (whcih is ok, i am indifferent it is just big) LOL but yah!!! its super pretty sigh TwT lets get a hotel room together sometime again!!!

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ok! for today, i woke up at like...4 am then 5 am...cuz of jet lag. (it really be like that) and then i just lied in bed pretending to be asleep(actually on my phone) so my parents wouldnt bug me!!! today i found out that there are actually lil bugs on strawberries..if u dont wash it thoroughly...scary...i am no longer buying my own fruit and chopping it up HAHA

so like i got up and got ready for the day around like 7 am!! my parents left to go to the gym at 6 and i was like wtf LOL they r probably eating breakfast w/o me..and I WAS RIGHT DUDE I TEXTED THEM and they were like yah come down?? and i got lowkey annoyed like BRO!! why u drag me out here and say u wanna spend ‘famIly tiME’ and then continue to do shit like this LOL but it’s ok!! so the breakfast buffet i went to was super fancy!! here are the photos below

they had filipino breakfast, and then chinese food too o.0 like dimsum! and the lil soup dumplings!! they also had sushi..which was weird!! LOL but it was brunch i guess but at 7 am...LOOOL i had a green smoothie (LMFAO but it was like...not thick consistency it was more like pressed juicery and p like nice consistency! it was mango, spinach, and ginger so it tasted nice!!)

i had fried fish and bacon and then breakfast meat thingy for breakfast!!! and i had a sugar donut!! also i had this filipino dessert that uses like almond jelly/soy jelly, syrup, and boba ^__^ it’s called taho!! 

it looks like this! O: i think u would like it hehe

anyways yah my parents kept asking me about my friends/you back at ucla and i was getting rlly uncomfortable cuz they were being oddly nosy....idk how but i ended up talking about how im close to jess lee and my mom told me i should become an influencer to get free shit ~_~ so im like dO U WANT ME TO BE A DOCTOR OR A INFLUENCER LOL which is it!! bro !! so annoying!!!

anyways we just chilled at the hotel room and my young cousin came over n stuff!! my mom left with my aunt to go get her plastic surgery or sumn idk and then me and my younger cousin and dad went to the mall!! that’s where we got potato corner and gongcha LOL

my younger cousin was shy and quiet at first but she opened up once i asked her about video games and she was more comfortable!! when we got back my dad just took a nap but me and my younger cousin (ez) decided to watch horror game let’s plays. she actually like knows some of the horror games i know cuz of horror lp’ers LLOOOL 

we watched one called the doll shop?? it was creepy it was like this japanese dude who worked at a doll shop, and he has a doll stored in the back of his private room that’s his ‘favorite doll’ and like literally throughout the game theres posters of a missing girl and then turns out the guy is hallucinating/mentally ill and the favorite doll in his room is like this dressed up corpse of the missing girl im KJDLFKJF I CALLED IT. DUDE LOL i was like yo that guy is fucked up!!!!! i bet he is hiding something!!!

we watched another one called ao oni KFJDLSKFJ its some funny pixel rpg horror chase game and idk it’s funny ill show u HAHAHA it’s dumb bc the monster looks dumb it’s like... SOME BIG ASS PURPLE CHIBI DUDE LOOOL

and then my mom came back whatever and went to bed...cuz my dad wants to leave at fuckign 1230 am for the next place we’re going to...im deceased cuz like i will literally have to nap for 3 hours then sleep another 3-4 hours on the way there and im pISSED CANT WE JUST DEAL WITH THE TRAFFIC LOL i dont want to leave at fcking 1230 am!!! what the heck!!

but yes!! im getting jollibee with my dad and im prolly gunna pack and then get ready for bed ^__^ but that’s my night for today!! ill update you more as it goes along :3 

OH ALSO our commissioner says she will give us our lineart for the chibis so ill send that to u later hehe!!!

OK i wanna try giving u a challenge too!! so ur challenge: take the prettiest photo of the sky/view tomorrow on ur hotair balloon!! and tell me if it’s like up!!! plus points if u edit pupy in it LOOOL & also add more songs to the playlist!!

okie!! that’s all for now!! ill update you more tomorrow! hopefully we’ll be able to call tomorrow night or the following morning ;w; its gonna be hard cuz im gonna be out most of the day/on the road but ill try my best!!!

i love you so much bebu!! thanks so much for putting this effort into making it work ;_; it’s a lot more bearable with ur contributions!! u make me so happy !! i am happy pupy too hehe i love you and miss you sososososo much!!! 12 more days at this rate <3 _ <3 i love you! so much, forever, more than anything, with all my heart!! 

[monolid-monologues]

God Bless a Good Mess.

It's getting harder to write these.

It's getting harder to like what i write. Am i getting busier? Am i getting more insecure?

FoR tHe ReCorD, i don't write because these pieces are genius and desperately in need of your attention, okay, there's no such high opinion of these weird journal "letters" (i don't even start with DEAR or end in SINCERELY wtf letter is this) here OK. Actually, i have to force myself to publish every week because its a cringe-worthy task every week. aaaand that's why i do it. to push myself past "no i can't".

My first letter needed to come out because if i harbored my newfound scary lonely feelings any longer, i would've l o s t it. I'm a girl with a lot to accomplish. I can't be tied down by my baggage!! So the best i can do is take a load off by spewing my mental/emotional junk into a "Letter". I believe in the restrooms they say they relieve themselves.

With this writing project, i invoke a fierce 'homing in' on new fears.

Maybe that's why writing is getting harder? What was new is starting to normalize. My struggles won't be rectified with one right turn. Or two. Or Three. In fact,i feel like i just STARTED travelling through a really really long tunnel that may take me years to come out the other end of. :') So the fears are there but, now deeper, invisible, and rooted.  -- that's frightening, lol. I'm intimately acquainted with the sore spots, the vulnerable places, the short-comings. No where to hide. No reason to hide. I'm in it for the long haul. And i can do it. I'm not scared about being scared. WHAT a Revolution. I'm more grounded, more focused, more energized. And...the fears...that are here for awhile....stay circling me quietly. With freakish diligence. --waiting? for my carcass? vultures!!!!!!!!

I'm scared but i'm not petrified. Terrified, but not paralyzed.

In small moments, yes. When i'm lying down, and want to stay lifeless and limp for another 5 minutes, yes. When i let myself get lost in my phone for another hour, yes.

Fortunately, every day gets to be filled with many small moments.

I can give myself another 5 minutes to get up. I can take another hour to make up for an hour lost.

These days, more often than not, i am triumphant. Miraculously, knowing I am in Want has been enough for me to give 5 min, take 1 hr, bust those missions. Wanting It has been enough to make me go and do it, go and get it, move, move, move.

Win or lose, experience tells me pushing forward is all that matters.

At the core of my fears lies my deference to the universe's chaos. Not a lack of faith. With so much faith, I remain fearful yet WILLFUL. I leverage my willpower against that chaos as hard as humanly possible. Move, move, move.

Write, write, write, even if it's 11:51pm Sunday night and you should've published by now. Letter 5 has been hard. "don't know what to write" "have nothing to say" "idk" "idkidkidkidk"

When i think back to 4 weeks ago, i remember how urgent writing these letters felt. I knew exactly what i needed to relieve myself of. Fast forward to new developments, more change, and i'm both well-aware of the demons of 2018 and getting kind of lost in the flurry that is becoming 2019.

If the "bigger picture" is lost on me, let me zoom in. 1 week. 7 days. what happened.

This week has been a week of housekeeping. Last week, I dedicated my nights to one goal. This week, I'm all over the place, because, well, things are all over the place. This week, i am doing my best to chip away at the letter to publish week 5 in reasonable time. This week, I find myself in burn-out slash recovery mode.

Let's talk a little bit about burn-out slash recovery: After marathon-ing the birth of my new script--pulling five pages out the ass every night for a week--i hit SEND to a possible collaborator. I lay it to rest for a bit.

Monday: begin preparations for my first audition in a year.

Tuesday is my day off from gym, I did one thing only: hang out with my brother and sesh.

Wednesday, desperately wished to sleep by 7pm --  slayed my Cleaning To-Do list first.

Thursday, saw my brother again, finalized some weekend plans, fell asleep to Sex in the City.

Friday, Karina and me off to Teatro Luna for some story telling. Later that night, trusty sesh with robin, last time seeing him before he leaves for big business trip >:o big boy shit >:o

Saturday = 1st day of SCHOOL. i wish it felt weirder to be back in a college classroom. I sat in for my best friend so she doesn't get dropped from her class while she's in korea -- twas my 2019 BAE af moment. Then rehearsal as usual. Then an ALL OUT PERSONAL SPA NIGHT.

Sunday, oh

that's today hello today was taking head shots and printing resume day. and, getting this fucking letter together somehow lol

I have an audition tomorrow night. It's been almost a year since i've auditioned for a straight play :O I needed to update my resume and get a new head shot within the week. Finished the resume, went outside, took a selfie, edited the fuck out of it to look as professional and non-selfie-like as possible, l o l, and then took it all to FedEx for 100lb glossy cardstock oh babyy

Middle of the week I'll admit I was freaking tf out about my low productivity. NOW = girl it's fine i'm fine we're fine we're thriving we're sinking we're everything and more it's 2019 all the things all the time that's that m o t t o.

I realize: I'm not used to MODERATE PACING.

I'm used to binge working and then re-actively binge potato-ing. I'm used to swinging in huge peaks back and forth between Ultra-Productive and Ultra-Lazy. I like getting shit done. But I'm too old for that shit. Costs too much. I don't want to lose my shit for a whole day. I don't want to cost myself 2 days purely recovering from the whole day(s) i threw away.

so what? So ~*~*~SPRINKLES!!~**!*!~! Sprinkles of time for myself, time for my work, here and there, all over the place this week. Guided by my trusty google calendar and my internal clock and compass only.

Ups and downs.  Stretch and fold, collapse, and unfold. It is what it is what it is. My career is a never-ending twist of multiple planes travelling lengths of infinity. There is no end to what i can do, there is no end to who i could be. There is no limit. I'm going to peak when I die. As long as my directions are travelling their respective ways, no matter how long it takes, i'm glad.

Advice from my dad: always do the basics, and do them carefully and willfully.

Does that mean as much to you as it does to me? this week especially. careful not to overwhelm myself, careful to be kind to myself, gently, consistently, and upright.

While I'm in bed with my fears, my inconsistencies, my emotional turbulences, i may be a mushy puddle of uncertainty that is all the while gaining the wisdom to know what i need. the strength to get it. the wisdom to renew self-love again and again and again. the strength to lovingly do the basics.

& the peace to let go and let be ad infinitum.

YAY THERE GOES LETTER #5.

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i started writing myself letters like this. Maybe you relate, maybe you want to see how things go, i’ll CC you gurl: https://tinyletter.com/rose-artrat

previous letter:  this-weeks-letter-is-in-video-form-wow-enjoy

for random thoughts, random questions //

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[whyisthissoharddesuwa-blog]

DAY 2

Okay so my next aim is to make a scrolling background, like the ones that follow your character kinda. I spent a good 20 minutes adjusting my background to fit perfectly, I have three of the backgrounds all lined up. I adjusted it to be just perfect... and the play button was on. TURNS OUT that undoes all the changes. That is so fun. Oh my god that is so fun. FUCKING UNITY I SAID I WAS A BEGINNER WHY IS THERE NO POPUP WARNING I report you!!! I literally almost ran to tell Craig and cry. BUT IT’S FINE.

This morning, I made a background on Photoshop! I was looking through opengameart.org but they didn’t really suit or couldn’t really be repeated. So I just did some things on Photoshop and I think it turned out okay! NICE. At some point I actually have to sort out a 8bit Zoe and Craig actually, that sounds daunting.

Edit: THE SCROLLING BACKGROUND WORKS! I had to look through a few tutorials because the first one didn’t really work for me, but I found an okay tutorial (with an annoying voice though) but I watched the whole thing and it works now! I had a lot of problems with random errors, so even though the video was 20something minutes long, I actually spent really long on it lol. Whenever I see a 15 minute video I’m like “WOW that’s so short, it’s gonna be easy” but then it’s like an hour because I can’t make it work...

Edit 2: HOLY SHIT I AM SO PISSED I spent so so long editing these base sprites off opengameart.org to kind of make them look like Craig, it’s a bunch of sprites that allow for animation so you have to edit like 30, AND TURNS OUT THE ENTIRE FILE WAS TOO SMALL WHAT?!?!? It comes out SO blurry on my game?! I am so mad!!! The tutorial I’m watching said the sprites they were using were an edit of the same base sprites!!! WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME THEY ARE TOO SMALL. I AM SO MAD. I SPENT. SO. LONG. WTF. WTF. FUFUFUFUFUUFUFUFUFUFU.

Edit 3: Uh... turns out, all you have to do is choose “point” when you’re choosing a filter in your sprite settings. The sprite then becomes crystal clear. I may have raged prematurely.

Edit 4: I am having serious problems with the animation!!! The code is definitely perfect, I have done the animation part, but it’s something to do with the transitions I think? I really did it according to him, I did it 4 or 5 times but the jump animation is not working :( The walking one is fine though... so I might just make it so when he jumps he is walking through the air I guess. I have spent too long on this and I am very confused, it doesn’t look that bad anyway.

Edit 5: UH did I forget to save?! I have been spamming save project I feel, but I closed unity then opened it and my project is 3 decent sized tutorial steps back. I SWEAR I HAVE BEEN SAVING!?!??! But there isn’t any other explanation other than Unity being special needs but to be honest it’s more likely that I’m special needs. I am now saving every five minutes. Also I am saving both scene and project lol.

Edit 6: I MADE A FUNCTIONING PAUSE MENU AND IT HAD LITTLE TO NO ERRORS AND IT IS LIKE THE FIRST THING THAT HAS GONE SMOOTHLY DURING THIS WHOLE PROCESS I FEEL SO GOOD. It functions properly and everything :D Wow!!!! I think next I’m going to work on some building blocks and maybe some obstacles or something, the map right now is kind of just a floor so I’m pretty keen to give it some height.

Edit 7: OMFG. IT’S 3AM. I HAVE OBSTACLES. WHEN A PLAYER TOUCHES THEM, THERE IS A HEALTH BAR THAT GOES DOWN. I AM SO EXCITED. IT WAS SO PROBLEMATIC THOUGH? The video was 30 minutes I don’t know why it took me two and a half hours ROFL. I also added a couple more ground things but higher up, so that’s cool. But that obstacle thing caused me so much pain what the heck honestly. Also I’m kind of switching between 2 or 3 channels, that probably complicates things a lot. Some people just explain certain things better ;_;

[justmegawatt]

Journal Day 171 – 172 WPM, 176 WPM and First Place Twice

Wednesday, April 12th 2017

Pretty awesome start to a good day so far. I got first place on typeracer this morning after a few attempts. It’s been forever since I last went on this website. However, I wanted to troll a bit, and get more views on my YouTube channel, so I went ahead and recorded a video of me becoming first place at something I knew I was good at. I also put “Vegan” next to my name to represent veganism. The fastest person on the website right now as I type this, is me, and I am a vegan.

I wasn’t even trying when I got 172 words per minute. My fingers felt slow, I felt slow. And yet, I got first place beating the hundreds if not thousands of other people online on that same website at that same moment. People that were trying their best to beat me, but couldn’t.

Alright so I am really good at typing. Can I earn money from this? I’m not sure, but it’s probably a lot better to be the ‘best’ at something, rather than be a normal person at something. And everyone types. I just happen to be one of the fastest typists in the entire world. I mean yeah, I can play Tetris, I can play a video game like Warcraft 3 and become a pro, but in terms of worldwide attention, typing is something everyone does and it is something everyone can relate to. Not many can relate to a Tetris pro or a Warcraft 3 pro.

I would like to thank DurianRider for inspiring me to make a YouTube video about this and to troll in the video a bit. DurianRider is one of the best cyclists on the planet, he got first place on a lot of different tournaments and competitions many times, and he himself is a vegan. So that inspired me. I am one of the fastest typists on the planet, why don’t I make a YouTube video series about this very topic?

I haven’t uploaded the video yet so I have no idea if it will pick up steam or not. But the recording is done, I just have to do some editing work and then upload. I’m getting excited.

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I don’t have unlimited time to just dedicate everything to typing and YouTubing. Unfortunately I have a full-time job. Unfortunately I am studying at a university. Unfortunately I am paying $300 a month for online computer lessons (separate from the university). Unfortunately I have a life, and I can only dedicate so much time to typing.

I try to exercise every day (except I rarely do), I try to update my journal every day, I try to get straight A’s in my courses, I try to do my best at work which can get stressful sometimes, I try. I’m also writing a book with Obs. I just texted her actually to wish her well this morning, because I’m grateful for having met her. I hope she doesn’t see that as weird or anything. I wrote a pretty weird entry last night because I was extremely sleepy, and I made a pretty weird video to go along with it, she has every reason to dislike me now.

So anyway, my point is that I don’t just have unlimited time in this world to dedicate to typing. I’m a normal person going through normal things, and I just happen to be one of the best in the world at something. That doesn’t mean that I’m good at anything else. I’m not as great in art, I’m not as great in video editing, or audio production. I’m just ‘good’ at this one thing.

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I’m pumped and excited. I’ve just spent the past hour or so listening to DurianRider YouTube advice and tips. Man. He makes it sound so easy. I think I can do it. Right now I have 7 subscribers in the channel that I’m going to upload my videos to, and a total of 214 views. Right now I have 13 videos that are publicly displayed. 4 of those videos have less than 5 views, like 2 or 3 views, I mean, wtf. I’m planning on privatizing those videos since no one watches them anyway and they’re not all that great.

Okay so here’s my YouTube to-do list for tonight: - Update YouTube wallpaper background - Create new ‘outro’ video that I will use in all my videos - Edit and create YouTube video from typing footage this morning - Create thumbnail for the above video - Get 1st place again on TypeRacer (gonna be freaking hard at night time) - Upload first video again trolling everyone on TypeRacer

Hell yeah. I can’t wait. Freaking DurianRider is the man. He gave me the tips, I will use those tips. My videos will be focused around computers, mainly typing, programming, and so on. I can’t wait to troll and wreck it online. I’m still at work at the moment, pretty much done with everything that needs to be done.

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I have a ton of things that I need to work on outside of work though. I have a few homework assignments due tonight, some more due tomorrow. I am nearly 100 journal entries behind on my Tumblr, my Medium, my blog website, and my livejournal. Fuck. How am I going to catch up? Do I need to ask someone a favor if they can manually upload 100 of my entries to each one of those websites…? Sigh.

Someone new at work apparently found out that I had a website today, she said that was cool. There are actually quite a few people at work that know I have a website, I think pretty much everyone does, I think. I’m not too sure. But on this website, I also keep my journal entries on there. But so far I have only uploaded until journal entry day 70. Shit. So I am actually over 100 entries behind, as of today. Today is day 171.

I always thought that LG2MT would finish the task for me and catch me up to date, but I haven’t worked on LG2MT in a while. Instead, I have spent a lot of my time and hours trolling around on YouTube, Reddit, Imgur, and other websites. Who really cares about those things? I don’t need to reply to every comment poster or person that replies to me on YouTube when I have a life to live. I made a mistake of taking chunks out of my life to reply to people and that was one of the biggest mistakes of all.

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Alright I’m home now. It’s 5:34 PM. Let’s get cranking on that YouTube to do list. First up, the YouTube wallpaper background. Mine is blank right now, so let me go ahead and make one.

Done. The time right now is 5:45 PM. I also used the bathroom for a bit, so yeah. Not bad, and it didn’t take much time at all.

Next up is to create the ‘outro’ for my videos. Okay. Okay. This one is a bit more complicated.

54 minutes later…

Alright the time right now is 6:39 PM. It was 6:39 PM when I finished and started rendering the video, and then after a while I also started to upload the video. The time right now is 6:53 PM after I finished all of that. The video can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GhhyPzwdScs

Freaking awesome!

Time right now is 7:02 PM and the next step is to edit and upload the footage of me getting rank #1 to YouTube. Alright.

22 minutes later…

Alright, I just finished the video! It’s rendering now which will take a while. This video is super awesome. I freaking love it. Next task is to create a thumbnail for it… Oh man, that is going to be tough.

6 minutes later…

Wow it took me 6 minutes? Geez. I thought it took like 2 seconds, but apparently it took 6 minutes. Anyway, the thumbnail is done, and it wasn’t that hard at all. The video is still not done rendering, and the time right now is 7:28 PM. The video is at 42% rendering, so nowhere close. The next step is… Oh shit, get first place on TypeRacer… Fuck me.

If there is some guy with like 180 WPM or above, then I stand little chance. Okay. First place is 217 WPM, the second place person is 192 WPM. Kathy Florentine is destroying it with freaking 217 WPM. Shit. Cameron is next with 192 WPM. Third place is by some random guy that has a Star as a symbol with 163 WPM, and 4th place is 155 WPM.

I can probably get to 3rd place with difficulty, but to get 2nd or 1st, that is a near impossibility. I’ll go for 3rd as my most, and then give up afterwards. I don’t want to even try to get more than that.

Time right now is 7:41 PM, I have been trying, but the fastest speed I have gotten so far is 140 WPM.

2 minutes later…

153 WPM. Not even close. Kathy is now at 222 WPM, and Cameron is at 210 WPM. I have never breached 200, so this is already an impossibility for me to get 1st or 2nd. I can get third, yes, but not first or second. Not at this level. Fuck. My fingers are getting confused.

This is why I’m fine with watching high performers perform, but doing it myself? That’s really difficult. I can’t reliably rely on myself to not screw up. Typing is one of those skills where you have to have full control of every single finger movement, and at really fast speeds, it’s hard to grab control of them, so typos are abound. I think it’s because it’s late in the day right now, which is why my fingers are having a much harder time than this morning. I don’t know exactly what it is, it’s just that I am having more typos right now for some reason.

I uploaded the video, keep in mind I curse a few times since I’m roleplaying a controversial character: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tfCyJse8NO0

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However many minutes later…

The time right now is 8:22 PM and a low level league of people just appeared. The 1st place person right now is 135 WPM, the second place is 111 WPM, and the fourth place is 108 WPM, the 4th place downward have not even gotten anywhere. Holy shit. This is going to be really easy. I still want to get a really high score though, nothing below 160 WPM.

Finally. Some dude just got 160 WPM. I thought that low level of skill was going to be around for a while.

A long time later!

The time right now is 8:43 PM and I finally got first place again.

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I recorded another video doing commentary while I got 176 WPM. So before I set my record for the night, some other guy got 175 WPM. I bet he was disappointed I beat his score after just 4 minutes. Well 4 minutes after I beat his score, another person beat me. Then 4 minutes after that person, another person beat that person. And then 3 minutes later, the person I beat originally, he came out of nowhere and became first place again.

So my final position right now is 4th place. Oh well. I actually went online to one of the people’s livestreams, and it turns out they were only doing 1 line typeraces. Wow. Just one liners. The one I did 172 with was 3 lines, and the 176 one was also 3 lines. That’s probably why I have never gotten over 200 WPM, because I have never consistently stayed at 1 line for that long. This guy just kept on doing it and doing it. I don’t think you get better at typing that way. You set records, but you don’t improve.

I think that is the first time I have completed all the tasks in my to-do list that I write here. That is the first time. Impressive.

 Selfie for the day

[opepin]

march: week 5

27: i did not get enough sleep. i took my time getting ready in the morning because i had a legit reason for not being in the office on time. i woke up with a headache so i took some advil. after eating breakfast, i hopped on the train and got to work at like 9:30 am or something, which isn’t that bad. i found out that cole forgot his laptop so he had to go back home to work (LOL but qq). i got real hungry at 11 am for some reason so i took an early lunch at 12 pm. i was pretty productive and got my 5 videos edited. then i worked some more and listened in on an extended stand up. after that, i finished editing and uploaded some of them before leaving the office early. i was awake but my body was tired. i met with kevin at the train station (he got off early too). we got back and i finished up some work before taking a nap with kevin. we slept through our alarm LOL and kevin ended up waking me up 10 minutes before the painting session.

we headed over and were surprised that they were giving us pizza, wine, beer, and chicken wings <3 i ate two slices of pizza because i wasn’t gonna be sitting there painting while my tummy rumbled. we got to meet more of the residents at deco and it was nice. i painted a night version of the painting and kevin followed the instructions for a sunset landscape. one of the instructors, josh, worked on the animations and design for bioshock! what?! i’ve basically met a celebrity imo LOL. i didn’t play bioshock but i’ve seen the artwork and everything. we finished painting at like 9:30 pm and it was a successful “date night.” kevin’s painting skills have gotten a lot better! hhe. i made the mushroom rice and washed dishes. then i exercised while kevin cooked the rest of our lunch. then i showered and got in bed and played bravely default. omggg, i stayed up until 2:30 am playing x__X this is bad but the game is so addicting! i went to sleep around that time or something :P

28: mmmm i got to work a bit late again but no one was in the office. lol my entire team was wfh and only a few devs and the marketing team were here. i was pretty productive and then i got distracted and felt tired so i took a break from work to write in my tumblr... i just worked on editing and uploading videos today. it took my entire day. who knew that 5 videos under 6 minutes could take that long to edit. anyway, cole and stephen surprised us by coming in. :O they came from their client site and joined us for the free pizza provided by our forrester contact who was presenting for all-hands today. i ate pizza yesterday so i was like yolo, i’m gonna eat this. the pizza was way different from papa john’s. the crust was harder. i gave stephen and cole some of the candy gum i got from the grocery store and then we listened to the presentation. i got cole to sit in his old seat next to me today ahhaha. he did have to go in the office to talk to stephen a lot so i guess this new arrangement is good for them :P

i stayed longer than i expected but i did leave at around 4:30 pm. it was raining x__x i got back, took out the beef to defrost, and then tried out my new arctis 7 headset! :)))) the sound is alright but the mic is pretty good! i put it away, snacked a bit, and then did abs and cardio. kevin came back and turned on the wireless function for me. i think i’m gonna keep them. i prepped some veggies for dinner while kevin showered then i showered and we had leftovers and watched ‘how to get away with murder.’ then kevin started watching a dota game and i played with my headset. ;D i jammed out while he cooked and watched his game. then i played bravely default until 1 am or so. i was so tired by then. i brushed my teeth and went to sleep before 2 am.

29: it was nice to get 7 hours of sleep today...LOL. when i got up, i was productive because i needed to help sultan figure out this whole video organization thing. i needed to make things easier for him to update the videos. after that, i got to recording. these arctis 7 pick up my voice a lot easier so i need to be careful. i could hear myself breathing and stuff. .__. i had a client meeting today and i did a live tutorial for them (: yay! being active and actually talking in a call makes all the difference. i finished recording and then put away dishes and washed dishes. then kevin came home and gamed so i watched ‘jane the virgin.’ then we ate dinner and watched an episode of ‘how to get away with murder’ before kevin went back to gaming and i did new cardio excercises :) i did one with weights and i died. then we watched another episode, i took a nice long shower, and kevin did some work. i found out that my swollen “ring” toe might be hammer toe? mmmm. it’s probably caused by me working out without gym shoes because i do it at home... kevin and i tried taping it but failed. i finished watching ‘jane the virgin’ and then played a bit of ‘bravely default’ and went to sleep pretty early.

30: i felt sleepy even though i got more sleep? hmmm. the train was delayed so i got to work at 9:30 am even though i got on at like 8:40 am. cole got me a doughnut and i was confused because i thought he was just getting the office doughnuts? steve brought in mini cadbury eggs so it’s all coool. :P i got the gluten free chocolate doughnut and it was pretty good. mmm work went by fast. i had a good amount to do and then i was told to do some testing -- it was fun! cole and i figured out the chat and game audio problem. i was hearing a tinny sound on my game audio for some reason but then switching it to connect to my laptop rather than my monitor worked. :) i can now listen to music and be on calls and etc. so cool! anyway, i was pretty tired after work zzzz. i think the headset problem drained me haha. i ended the day with a call that ended at 5 pm and then took the train home -- it was emptier than usual. i was really tired so i was playing around with the idea of taking nap but, i just did 60 minutes of kickboxing instead. then i washed the dishes, made rice, and hit the shower. i started editing my 2min showcase video (i’m so latee but i’ve been busy) and then kevin came back, showered, and we ate dinner while watching tv. then i ko’d and woke up, washed the rest of the dishes, packed kevin’s lunch, brushed my teeth, and hit the hay. i woke up from my nap with soreness all around my core. i am ded. LOL. kevin and i went to sleep before 2 am. zzz. this week has been super tiring for both of us.

31: i got a lot of sleep, which was nice. i cleaned the dishwasher and washed the sheets all while working. we got pulled into a pretty intense meeting before stand up that continued on stand up. then i continued recording and the day ended with another intense stand up but then i was done for the day! kevin got back from work and we ate while watching some tv. then we went straight into cleaning the apartment for ryan and nluu’s stay here. then i did a bit of exercise but i was so physically worn out that i could only do 30 minutes of hip hop cardio and then i laid on the floor watching a vlog LOL. my body was just so sore all over. kevin was a bit worried about me but he had a lot of work to get done. so then i got up, showered, we made the bed, and i ko’d at like 12 am. i really do need some rest days but i feel bad for not moving and exercising every day. it seems like a waste. kevin ended up staying up until 3 am working on his project with old lab peeps.

apr01: we were going to arrive in yale late because of the weather and we needed more sleep. kevin also had to update his team on his progress from last night. we got gas and then kevin drove around 2 hours to get to yale. when we got there, vivian dropped us off at junzi and i had another delicious bowl <3 kevin got the chun bing so i tried it and i think that the noodle bowl is still better. then saad, jennie, nluu, kevin, and i got into the car and drove to the biggest bowling alley i’ve ever been to. the glow in the dark bowling thing is not my favorite though. i granny-rolled the whole 2 hours. nluu is a beast at bowling x__x kevin and nluu won the first round, then everyone else tied for the second round. it was fun! we ordered pizza and headed back to jennie’s place. vivian and saad went to pick up the pizza and get bubble tea. so we just chilled and when they came back, they played two rounds of avalon. i played bravely default while this was all happening haha. the mashed potato pizza and clam pizza were alright. saad apparently loves clam pizza. then we brought out the cake for nluu and sang happy birthday to him :P

we played fish bowl to wrap up the night and we left after the first round because it was nearing 11 pm and we wanted to get back to boston at a reasonable time. ryan took the train to new haven and met up with us. during the car ride back, we just talked about pokemon, our jobs, our lives, etc. it was nice. nluu ko’d at some point. we all lazed around until 4 am...LOL ryan and nluu were playing the guitar and ukulele, kevin was watching a dota game, and i stayed up playing bravely default. so much for fixing my diet and sleeping schedule x__x

apr 02: mmmm everyone got up around 11 am or 12 pm. i played bravely default while the guys played a steam game, played on the guitar and ukulele, and made congee. this game is so interesting now! we bummed until around 3 pm and then everyone went grocery shopping. kevin was a bit scatterbrained because he was worrying about climbing and dinner and etc. x__x; the shopping trip took longer than expected and everyone got hungry. so we got back and toasted some hawaiian bread rolls. then the guys left to climb. we stopped by oh my tea and experienced the worst customer service ever: they ran out of boba (wtf) and the new hire like rq’d on us while taking our order. whut. my opinion of this boba place has now dipped drastically. kevin got the green apple green tea and ryan got the red bean milk tea without boba. ryan’s drink was really good :O

i played more bravely default while doing laundry and then i did obliques and cardio. then i showered and folded the laundry. the guys came back with wingsover and fat cat. ryan and i got the lobster and crab wrap, which wasn’t that great. so i ate the wings and a good amount of fries. mmm. we watched ‘the voice’ videos and hot sauce videos basically. then nluu, ryan, and i just talked about random things and we played a spontaneous writing game. someone would read a line from a cookbook and then we raced to finish writing first while trying to write legibly. one person would be in the other room and not listening to what the sentence is and then come out to judge, ahah. i beat ryan and ryan beat kevin. the guys took turns showering/using the bathroom and then they went to play pool and chill in the lounge. it was pretty late by then so i played a bit of bravely default and then ko’d at like 2 am. i knew i was going to be sooper tired tomorrow.

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EPISODE 5: IF YOU CAN’T BOTHER TO CONTRIBUTE, I CAN’T BOTHER TO KEEP YOU AROUND ~Keegan

I'm frustrated. ALEXANDER is the only person actually helping out with the stupid music video challenge. CARSON isn't do anything because he's uncomfortable being on camera, even though we gave four or five alternatives. ELIJAH is doing the dumb ass "I-" thing and contributing nothing. DARIAN at least has a bit of an excuse. JOSH is supposedly editing but he hasn't been around in 24 hours.

At this point I almost want to do nothing and just lose so I can vote off some dead weight. Screw tribal lines, I won't hesitate to vote off ELIJAH or CARSON. If you can't bother to contribute, I can't bother to keep you around.

I'm so lost in this game wtf

toondown for what

This challenge is legitimately frustrating me.

Keegan, myself, and Josh are the only ones planning anything. We've asked for their help only to get minimal responses. I love the idea we're doing and it could totally work if people were just online.

I won't be shocked if we lose, but I know my vote isn't going towards Keegan or Josh.

GUEST CONFESSIONAL: Amomda

Abbey is my favorite host. The end.

This is the way things are about to go down. Our video isn't BAD but unless someone took a shit on camera for 3 minutes than the other tribe is probably going to win. So that means the lovely tribe of NuAndaman will be going to tribal. Luckily I know that I have a numbers. The strong alliance of Elijah, Carson, Keegan, and I are already a majority. And I know that we can convince Alexander and Josh who both have put effort into this challenge to vote the ONE PERSON who didn't contribute. STEVIE. Dude, I think you are great but like you are not contributing in this game at all and honestly that isn't going to fly.

I hope that we win, but I'm fine if we don't. I just want Sam and Ned to be chilling on the other side of the merge when we get there!!!

so today i spent some time editing the music video for the challenge, because everyone else was having issues with their editing software. when i did it, we only had footage from a few people but i was on a time limit so i had to use what i could work with, and it ended up being mostly me. now i understand why some people may want to re edit it to have more shots of other people, but it pisses me off that they have to wait till after ive already done it to make the effort to send in footage and for sam to wait till NOW to find new, good editing software when she could've done it hours ago. when all these people filming footage and sending it in could've done it hours ago. it pisses me off that i had to do this so last minute and i put effort into it and now everyone is swooping into save the day bc they don't like mine. they could've easily done all this stuff earlier. lol

Hopefully I didn't just make a mistake. The plan is for Old Andaman to all vote STEVIE, which would make a 4-3 vote to send STEVIE home. But I just told ALEXANDER I was voting ELIJAH for being inactive.

So when the votes are read and ELIJAH presumably doesn't go home, I'll probably lose any hope of getting ALEXANDER as an ally.

Although voting out STEVIE will make Old Andaman and Old Nicobar have six members each left. If there's a merge that puts us in a decent spot.

And in some exciting news DARIAN told me he found a hidden immunity idol. I love knowing these things, it gives me so many options. If the opportunity comes up I can blindside him and get the idol out of play. Or I can convince him to use it on me.

Speaking of DARIAN he told me, and I quote, "I want to take you to the end". I'm sorry but YOU want to take ME to the end? I'm sorry but no. I'm getting to the end on my own merits, I'm not getting dragged there. Hence the blindside statement earlier.

Anyways, we'll just have to see how this vote goes, and whether there's a merge after. I still want to be a little villainous but I think it's best to hold off until the merge.