#it was a joke but then someone in the gc called me autumn and it had the Happy Feeling so. we're going with it :]

[scattered-winter]

i don't stop using names i just gather them. like fae. anyway i am adding "autumn" to my repertoire of names and it can be used interchangeably with winter but with the changing seasons it is time for me to change as well. you understand

[lwt28brave]

369 free merch + promo + singles

Welcome to another ramble by me because I am bored and can't help but think that the free merch thing has to mean something. Or not, because... expect the unexpected. I won't bring anyone else into the conversation but I'm incorporating some messages I sent into a GC pretty much unchanged.

There’s been a lot of talk surrounding the fact that we got studio pictures and then radio silence again, which I agree it’s not nice but not unheard of. And I know we all joked about the possible meanings of 369 but, after all, nothing really pointed to July 15th other than circumstantial evidence (a year it’s 365. 369 could be a year + four days. We don’t know when to start counting, but hey, July 11th is the day he left Syco, let’s start there because it seems important to him. Last year had 366 days, anyway).

The rest is under cut because this got out of hand pretty fast.

Let me preface this by saying I don’t think 18 months it’s such a long time for an artist not to release new music, but I understand that the circumstances might play into why the fandom is so on edge. As someone who’s been there for all of Louis solo career, I get why people might look at everything going on and have 2017 flashbacks. I get them from time to time. I remember him saying the album was ready to go, I remember the shift with Miss You and his tweets full of frustration, I remember TXF. And I wish to take a glimpse into 2021-Louis-brain too, let’s be honest, because Walls might have come out in 2020 but half of the songs were written by 2017. I am not the same person I was back then, and I hope he isn’t either.

But Louis already said we won’t be getting a new album this year. And I do think that him being a perfectionist plays a role into that, no matter how many fingers we can point. The pandemic also contributed to the state of fandom dynamics nowadays. We were supposed to get a tour last year, which equals lots of content, and we got silence then a livestream then more silence. And now we got some content then back to nothing (that we can see—I don’t want anyone to come and call Louis lazy in my DM’s again, I don’t have the patience for that).

Let’s recap. We have an 18-months-old album that got little to no promo back when it should have gotten it, and while I will always support all the projects going on, but, frankly and while this might sound shocking giving my annoying perseverance to stream the album day and night, I don’t think the numbers are so bad. There were never any intentions to have Walls reach newer demographics. The singles aren’t being pushed right now and, certainly, weren’t promoted when they should’ve been. They never got radio play and, nowadays, can’t be added to playlists by his new label… (and we can’t really expect them to do better when the artist has already moved on from that project and the team and discography can’t or won’t help). Obviously, the push we got with Defenceless was great, and it could be even bigger if we got the hang of Tik Tok, but I don’t want the fandom to feel like we’re failing Louis, or we could be doing more, when it’s out of reach unless we get really lucky and creative with those algorithms and trends.

So, now, do I believe we’re getting new music? Does 369 feels like a buildup? It does and, at the same, it doesn’t. From a marketing perspective, for a brand to tease something for so long without clarifying anything it would mean the loss of interest from the potential clients/buyers, creating a feeling of weariness if it goes on for too long, which could pivot them to look for other things to spend their money or time on.

So, no. I don’t believe the 369 thing was being intentionally promoted when Louis teased it the first time, and I think that’s a mistake. If it really has some deeper meaning that can be associated to his next project, I think mentioning it back in March to wait until the end of April to bring it up again and, even then, sell a product related to it without specifying anything about it is a mistake. As a strategist, you have to plan while keeping in mind we (your potential clients) have the attention span of a fish. It’s harsh but it’s what it is. Not to mention this ploy, if it is promoting something, does absolutely nothing to reach new demographics… once again.

I am talking from a professional standpoint here, not throwing blame at Louis but at whoever runs this shit (please, get back to me, I did send you a CV). It’s not as easier as looking for old patterns and discerning whether we’re getting something or not. We have to assess this as a potential new situation and thenwe can focus on analyzing.

Do I believe we’re getting new music? I suspect there’s something coming but it’s just that, a supposition. It’s an assumption that’s once again, pretty baseless. Is Louis sending out new merch to promote a new single? Is he just being grateful?

Let’s look at the facts. The last merch drop was called 369, so it has some kind of significancy. There’re 369 letters/presents. At least one journalist, that we know of, got one of them. We got a few articles almost two weeks ago already talking about Louis in a general sense, re-introducing him to the public as a successful musician and nothing else (which is always great to see). It could be slow seeding, to test the waters. We could have more coming, or it could have been a one-off because he was out and about for the EURO thing andwriting music and making sandwiches for charity, so it’s good to remind people of his existence. Don’t fade away, yada yada yada.

As I mentioned above, he made it clear that he wasn’t going to be releasing an album this year, but that something BIG was coming/going to happen. Right now, I’m expecting a single that could be tied to the documentary, and parallel promotion of both. Maybe we will get Louis’ music in a Netflix show thanks to BMG deal with them, too.

I don’t think we’re getting a new LP (long play, not Liam Payne) until the tour for the previous one is done BUT I think an EP would be an interesting and very clever move. It could help keep his name relevant and get him some presence in playlists and some radio-play without changing too much the setlist of the tour and, at the same time, pave the way for his sophomore album, giving him a much fair chance of breaking into the charts.

Alas, I can’t really make any of this happen. If the sound is summer-y, which could be because of the video of them dancing in the studio, I will say they are already a little late. If you want a summer hit, but you don’t think it will be an instant hit but a sleeper (not really the term I’m looking for, but you get me), release it during spring. If the sound is more like COACOAC it won’t make sense to release it until late August or September because emo music hits harder during autumn and winter which leaves me wondering why now, why now (if it’s now, which I doubt, given the silence from his socials once again, but then, not a good move to send more things related to 369).

So here’re my thoughts on all of this. If you have any questions I will be happy to answer them but let’s be honest, this has 1,3k words so most of you won’t even read all of it.

[ohstardust]

Are We Gonna Finish What We Started?

REQUEST: from @wardley10 You and TGC are in a bar and you’re chatting. You’ve kissed in the past but not gone any further. You’re mostly friends. But tonight you’re a bit tipsy on wine, chatting in a bar, he looks cute, you try to hold back but can’t so you give him a peck but then he deepens it.They go back to her apartment to watch a film where they cuddle and maybe a couple of kisses there but no further. See what the future brings. A/N: This came from one of our many Twitter chats that suddenly escalated and I came out with this. Hope you enjoy! Thanks to @outofworkactress for the film recommendation too, I didn’t think about how perfectly it fit until I began writing (and watched it a bunch of times and fell in love with the film all over again). Title: Selfish Love by Jessie Ware My Tom playlist can be found on Spotify (x)

The early autumn afternoon had cast a dull wash through the young woman’s shared flat but it didn’t affect her mood or deter her from the tasks and errands she had planned for the day. If anything, she quite preferred this weather because she didn’t feel guilty spending the day indoors. She’d just stepped out of the shower and was towel drying her hair when her phone vibrated on the countertop, the shrill sound of a generic ringtone startling Y/N. Somewhat inclined to ignore her device, she scanned the screen for a worthy name and half grinned at the sight of Tom GC and a ridiculous drunken photo of her friend and herself. She supposed he was worthy enough.

Y/N pulled her bath towel tight around her and sat on the closed lid of the toilet seat before answering, “Hello sunshine.” “Hey, how’re doing?” despite so few words being spoken, she could tell the man wasn’t himself, she hadn’t heard him so weary in a number of months. “I’m doing good, you however don’t seem to be your chipper self. What’s wrong?” “My head’s just a bit all over the place at the minute,” Tom paused for a moment, sounding unsure or debating what to say next, “Are you free this afternoon? Few drinks at the pub, a catch up?” “I’ll be there in an hour.” “Knew I could count on you.” They’d been friends for the past three years, introduced by their mutual friends whilst in their late teens and had the kind of relationship that could stand a month of no contact but still allow them to pick up where they left off with no trace of absence. It was no secret that they would turn to each other in times of need, they connected in a way they couldn’t do with others, maybe it was maturity or simply being on the same wavelength. “It’d be a waste of a good friendship if you couldn’t, mate.” “Thank you.” Y/N could hear the smile creeping into his voice, something she didn’t allow herself to think about every time it happened. “Put your happy face on and the first one there gets the round in.” Tom gave a small laugh, knowing her too well to know she wasn’t joking and made a mental note to arrive fifteen minutes earlier, “Deal.”

By the time late afternoon had settled itself, the clouds had started to break and the sun appeared in a beautiful hazy glow. Peering through one of the pub windows, Y/N caught sight of Tom sat at a corner table towards the back of the main room, his head propped up on his right hand and his left occupying itself turning a beer mat over and over and over. She was determined to see a smile on that handsome face before the evening was through. Pushing through the front doors of their local, she acknowledged some of the regulars with a smile and saw Tom’s face brighten as she came nearer. He embraced her tightly for a minute or so, glad to have her there and to clear his head, she’d always been his voice of reason. Y/N held him at arm’s length for a moment more, taking in the sight of her friend and offering him a small smile to comfort him, “Hello stranger.” As she took a seat opposite the man, she mentally recalled the times she’d seen him behave in such a way or look so apprehensive, the accounts were so few and far between, that she began to worry a little more than she already had been. But as usual, she refused to let it be known when she had been called upon to right a situation, Tom needed her, and she needed to get to the root right away. Tom took a mouthful of his pint and scrubbed at his forehead with his fingers before settling his gaze on the woman opposite him, grinning at her. “You’ve got that fake smile on your face, love. I know you better than that, remember?” Y/N sipped on her wine and waited for Tom to begin, never one to push a subject but rather let others speak on their own terms, she had the patience of a saint and the ear of a listener. Tom had always admired how she could subtly coax someone though. “Can we not just have a normal chat first? Let me bore you to tears, later?” “It’s up to you, I’ve got nowhere to be.”

“It’s only a small role but it doesn’t make it any easier, y’know? Like, it’s a film about Tolkein, but regardless it’s still a film set so it’s still nerve-wracking.” He nervously bit at his thumb, a habit he had when he wasn’t feeling all too comfortable which Y/N was quick to stop him doing, pulling his hand from his mouth and placing it on the table between them, her hand staying atop of his. “Plus, The Last Post is so close to finishing being aired which is making me a little bit sad, you spend all this time on a project and then when it’s all complete, and out there for everyone to see, you feel a bit lost at the end of it.” Tom’s head dropped to their clasped hands and gave a small smile, curling his index finger around hers. “That makes sense, I can’t imagine how strange it must feel. It’s had an amazing reception though, you should be proud. I know I am.” Without raising his head, he replied with a genuine, “Thanks, means a lot to me to hear you say that.” “It makes me understand why you enjoyed theatre so much though, you get to relive that character night after night, you can change elements of it for different audiences.” Tom took another gulp from his pint before pulling his fingers through his now blonde again locks, “Yeah exactly, and that’s why I feel so silly. I should be happy and grateful and enjoying all of this– and I am, don’t get me wrong, I love it-  but I’m just getting those pre-filming jitters and I’m so bloody nervous.” “That’s natural though, love. You’ve been on one film set in your life, you’ve only experienced this once, you’re not supposed to be a pro at it. I’d be more concerned about that head of yours if you were perfectly fine and not nervous at all.” He laughed and shook his head as she pressed her free forefinger to his left temple and he could feel his worries and concerns subsiding. “No, I know, it just feels even more daunting than Dunkirk did though, that’s what’s so barmy about it all. I think- at least then I knew there were a bunch of lads all in the same boat as me,” he laughed as Y/N snorted at the unintended pun and he shook his head, “we’d all been relatively new to it. But I’m worried I won’t make the right impression, or something silly like that.” “You’re just worried that you’ll fuck up in front of Lily Collins,” she giggled as he lightly kicked her ankle in his favourite old faithful brown boots beneath the table, “I know you too well Thomas Glynn-Carney, nothing gets past me.” “Is that so?” he playfully side eyed her and quirked his eyebrow with his glass raised to his lips. “Damn right it is,” she drained the remainder of her wine glass and grabbed her purse from her bag, standing from the table, “another one?” she questioned, pointing at his empty pint glass. “Please.” Tom’s fidgeting had subsided and he was starting to feel calmer, whether that was the effect of alcohol or his friend, he wasn’t too sure. Either way, he was grateful for a distraction from his own mind. She was back at the table within a few minutes, drinks in hand and a few packets of crisps clenched between her teeth which she flung onto the table after the glasses had been set down. “Mind the slober.” “I love a good bag of ready salted crisps sans Y/N’s spit.” She rolled her eyes and dramatically wiped the packets with the sleeve of her jumper to appease the man, “Pipe down mate, or you can get your own.”

As the late afternoon progressed, everything felt normal and natural again, Tom was back to being his happy and chilled out self, and Y/N was providing the banter to carry on with the joviality. It felt such a relief to see a smile on the young man’s face again. Tom’s head was tilted downward as he spoke, the soft and carefree smile playing on his lips as he glanced between his glass and Y/N. He consistently ran his finger around the rim of the glass, his eyes lazily slipping shut every now and then when he laughed. Y/N wasn’t quite sure when her gaze had fixed on his lips, they were looking plumper and fuller as he found his voice, talking and talking to her mostly attentive ears. She couldn’t deny how beautiful he looked when he was relaxed and content, there was this certain aura around him that radiated, and the dimming sun was pouring through the window and highlighting him. The more she focused on him, the more she noticed the stunning blue of his irises, brought out by the pale blue button down shirt he was wearing. It has been a long time since she’d thought about him like this, this wasn’t them, not really. He wets his lips with his tongue as his fingers card through his hair once, twice, his fingers separating as they glide through the soft and smooth thick hair. It feels almost too much, but she feels fuzzy and warm watching him. She doesn’t realise she’s slightly reached over the table to touch his arm until she’s done it, and his eyes are focused on her with a half inquisitive, half amused smile. Tom’s sentence peters off into the smoky haze of the pub when he notices her slowly inching forward, trying so hard not to concentrate on what may or may not be about to happen. There’s every trace of hesitation as she kisses his bottom lip very gently, it’s been a very long time and she’s not so sure she should be doing this. His eyes are fixed on looking down at her, his lips unmoved and only slightly parted from his last words, his breathing shallow. Y/N feels somewhat foolish and moves away from him gently, she wasn’t pushy, nor was she willing to make him more uncomfortable. Perhaps she ought to have known better. But she catches his intense gaze, the bright shade drawing her in again and she throws all caution to the wind, giving him one last chance. As she kisses him again, she raises her hand to gently stroke his jawline, thankful when he reciprocates and gives her his kiss. Something felt different this time, they’d done this a few drunken times in the past, both too consumed with various spirits, adrenaline and friends who were bad influences, but this time it was a few drinks down the pub, just the pair of them. This time there was no real excuse. He was so tactile this time, as his soft lips pressed against hers, he felt warm and his thumb stroked across her jawline and along the shell of her ear, caressing her skin. Tom’s eyelids fluttered shut and Y/N could feel his eyelashes on her cheek. His hand slipped to her neck to pull her closer as he gave her a final peck and pulled away just enough to rest his forehead against hers. The lazy smile on his face brought one to hers instantly and she felt so high and content. Y/N brushed the back of her knuckles across his cheek and grinned as he tried to tilt his head to kiss her hand. “C’mon you lump, let’s go to mine and watch a film and I’ll make you all the tea you can handle.” She reluctantly pulled away from him and grabbed her bag from the floor before standing up. When she turned back to him he was still sat there with his legs parted and back relaxed into the cushioned back board of the seat with an amused smile. “Yes Miss.”

Tom comically scoffed when she browsed her Netflix list and settled on Love, Rosie, his grin overtaking his face as he tried to hide under the soft material of one of the few blankets draped over them on the sofa. Y/N laughed and pushed on his shoulder, pretending to be offended by his faux indignance and pressed play on the video. “Did you choose a Lily Collins film on purpose?” Tom rolled his eyes once he realised the lead actress and jokingly shot her an accusatory look. She snorted into her mug of tea just as she was about to take a sip, “I swear I didn’t even think about that, call it a happy coincidence?” He shook his head before sipping his own drink and nudged her ankle with his toes, “Idiot.” “You’d be lost without me Glynn-Carney,” she gave him a knowing grin and turned her head back to the television, “now shut up and enjoy this.” Tom had seen all too many films with Y/N over the years and had grown accustomed to her knowing the dialogue from an obscene amount of films, however he almost choked on his drink when she recited a line with the same nonchalance as the character delivering it onscreen. “Ohhhh Alex, where did you learn to do that?” “You’ve watched this film far too much, such a loser.” He teased all the while brushing his hand through her hair, her head rested on his chest and their legs intertwined as they lay across the sofa. “Shut your stupid mouth or I’ll shut it for you.” “Promise or threat?” Y/N lifted her head and looked up towards him with a raised eyebrow, surveying the coy and challenging smirk on his face looking down at her and she simultaneously wanted to punch and kiss it off. “Fuck o-“ neither were sure why Tom swallowed the rest of her insult and kissed her, lines were blurring again and this was too frequent but the hand already on her head pulled her closer and he was sure he’d figure this out later. After she pulled back she grimaced at him, “That was rude, I was trying to tell you to fuck off.” “Shut up and watch the film or you’ll be cuddling a cushion, you insolent child.” “Make me a fresh brew and I’ll make you breakfast in the morning.” His eyes widened at the placement of the implication of her words this late in the evening but he lazily pulled himself away from her with a kiss to her cheek of confirmation. “I’m not sleeping on the sofa again,” he groaned as he handed her scalding mug on the coffee table, tea made just how he knew she liked it, milk no sugar. Just another thing they’d learned about each other over the past few years that came naturally to them. He took a sip of his and placed it beside hers before settling back onto the chair and pulling her back onto him, chest to chest. Y/N looked as though she was giving the idea some thought and sighed, “I’m sure I can give up a bit of my bed if you’re extra nice to me.” “And just how nice do I have to be?” “Father-Christmas-Easter-Bunny-Tom-Hanks nice.” Tom laughed incredulously, “I can’t believe you just quoted the film in conversation.” “Hush,” she grinned, this time silencing the man beneath her in a bruising kiss. It was messy, and heated and perhaps it shouldn’t be happening but the act was addictive between the pair of them and they relished in the comfort they gained from the other. In some ways, the pair were exactly like Rosie & Alex, 2 best friends with a deep-rooted connection that always draws them back to one another. Maybe one day they’ll have the real life fictional ending that the characters do, or perhaps this is where their friendship will lie for the next some years. Only time will tell.

“You’re a real sucker for a happy ending, aren’t you?” Tom asked in the early hours of the morning in the blackness of her bedroom with their cold feet pressed together for warmth. “So are you.”

[ask-svt-hearteu]

Written Scenario Requests and Moodboard Requests are now OPEN!

Admin: Hello everyone!!! THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR 2K FOLLOWERS!!!! We’re all screaming and after finally clearing all our old written requests and the dates from our 1k follower special, we will now open written requests again as well as open moodboard requests! Please keep in mind we will be adhering to our rules and guidelines for requests and will be listing moodboard request rules below. Also note that since all of us are in school, we may not get requests up right away, so if we get a lot we may choose to close them again until further notice, it all depends. Thank you all for your love and support again! <3

Moodboard requests:

either one member, ship or unit at a time

preferably tell us a color theme (like red, blue, black, etc.)

up to two colors per moodboard

or

tell us a theme

it can be something like “boyfriend aesthetic” or “inspired by the Jun soulmate au” or “based off svt’s song don’t listen in secret” or something like “autumn Soonyoung” as examples

Here’s an example moodboard: “Minghao couple nature aesthetic” 

“‘You said you like the sun, but when you go outside you find shade. You said you like the rain, but when it rains you use an umbrella. That’s why when you said you like me, I was afraid.’ The8 told me that.” -Junhui 

ALSO… If you guys wanna read it, here are some things the admin have to say^~^

Admin Soph: I'm honestly so proud of how far this blog has come. Went from a follower to an admin real fast  😂. No but really. I was freaking nervous when I sent in an application. I wanted to be a part of this blog to strengthen my writing skills (and love for Seventeen) and get to know the amazing people behind it. But I also didn't know whether I would be able to give you guys content that you all will like and deserve. AND I HONESTLY DONT KNOW WHY IM EVEN HERE HAHA.

And I just want to appreciate every single one of you. You guys are literally the sweetest bbys ♥️ ♥️ . My heart always warms up when we receive an ask and it’s for the admins asking whether we're okay and taking care of ourselves. I just want to cuddle you all in warm blankets and take care of you. And I'm saying this now if you guys ever have any problem and feel like talking to someone.Or if you just want to be friends. We're always here~ 

And on that note. To all the mutuals that I have had the chance to talk to. Y'all are amazing. I don't understand why you guys are still talking to me tbh. That's why you're all precious to me ohmygod 💞 💞 . Also, I'm sorry if I don’t reply much. IM A VERY INTROVERTED PERSON AND I ALWAYS MAKE SITUATIONS AWKWARD AHAHA. But if you guys want to talk to me about something, I’ll drop everything and talk to you. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU DESERVE LOVE AND I SHALL GIVE YOU LOVE IF YOU NEED IT  💞 💞 .

Imma write something for Jun too. Because I’ve been with this baby boy for a very long time. I love him so so much 💖 . There are times where I want to fight him. And there are times where I just want to bubble wrap him and protect him. Literally makes me go through different emotions in one day. But mostly it’s the feeling of happiness. Jun is a big reason as to why I'm slowly loving myself. With him being a funny confident dude, I found out that I can be like that too. And ever since I did, I have been feeling nothing but happiness and I want to thank him for that. I hope I will be able to meet him someday and tell him what a wonderful human being he is.

Now to the amazing and beautiful admins. Imma write something for each one of you but first and foremost I just want to say that ya’ll are precious to me. I might not talk a lot and barely reply in the gc (iM SOWI I WILL CHANGE THAT I PROMISE HAHA). But know that you guys have a very special place in my heart. And that's beside Seventeen. Been only a few months and I'm very thankful that I met yall. You guys are like my family at this point and I wanna keep it at that even after this blog.

Now onto Jess. My fave Joshua stan no joke. LOOKS LIKE AN ANGEL AND HAS A VOICE OF AN ANGEL I SWEAR SHE’S PERFECT FOR JOSHUA FIGHT ME. Literally the sweetest human being. Even though she’s older than me, I want to protect her ohmygod. I love Jess very much. You guys don’t even know. She is very nice. I don’t know how she is able to keep that image tbh. She is also very VERY HARDWORKING. I want to freaking start a petition for Jess to rest. It amazes me how she copes with all this school work and with this blog. And man if you ever need someone to coo about Joshua, Jess is that person. She is so whipped in love with Shua. And with Jun second on her bias list and with Joshua on mine, we both basically die because of Junshua. 

Meagan is next!! Meagan is literally the definition of aesthetic . Literally from her fashion style and her freaking bullet journal. And her bias is aesthetic himself asdfghjk. And also her writing style. I adore her writing very much. And I literally asked her for writing advice HAHA. She is a very soft-hearted person. And a very good person to ask advice from. Like I would definitely go to her if I ever have a problem. sHE IS ALSO VERY PRETTY????? LIKE HER INSTAGRAM MAKES ME QUESTION MYSELF. LIKE SHE IS SO DAMN PRETTY I DONT UNDERSTAND HAHA. Also how she is able to converse with everyone amazes me. Overall an amazing older sister for me  💖 I love ya Meagan~

And lastly my fellow youngling Seri. I just want to point this out now. If anyone dares to fight Seri, I’ll be there. This person right here is very precious. And I will fight to keep it at that. You can tell that I love her very much. She is near my age so it’s very comforting for me to have someone close to my age. Also her love for Soonyoung is the cutest thing. Whenever she and Meagan talk bout Soonyoung and being whipped for Soonyoung I just can't. So adorable. She is also very beautiful. He makeup skills are on point. Like please teach me, I'm a potato HAHAH. And can we just talk about how cute her name is? Seri is so goddamn adorable. Just like her.

Amazing that even though we live in different timezones, we will always find time for each other. I love these peeps very much. And I'm thankful for Seventeen for helping me find them.

Pretty long but oh well. This happens when you make the quietest person talk HAHA. But seriously, you guys mean everything to me at this point. Like I feel safe knowing that I have 3 angels watching over me. And I just want you guys to know that I also have your back. Hope our friendship will strengthen as years go by  💖 💖. And to our dear followers, please stay sweet. We’ll always love you. And Seventeen loves you guys too. Let’s make more memories together~

Admin Meagan: Tbh, when I applied to become an admin for this blog I really didn't think I would actually be picked. But look at me now AHAHAHA. I'm so so glad that I became an admin for this blog because it combines two things I love. Writing and seventeen.

I don't think you guys know how much I enjoy writing something and seeing how much people liked it as well. Especially when you guys send us direct compliments in our ask box. I don't think you guys know how much we coo in our admin group chat about the sweet stuff y'all send to us sometimes 💓

To the mutuals I've made from this blog, thank you so much for talking to me. I'm a pretty social person and I enjoy talking to anyone so thank you for that. And I enjoy the stuff y'all reblog as well AHAHAHAHA you guys are amazing and tenks for being a friend.

Honestly, Seventeen has undeniably made me happy. From listening to their songs when I'm mad to calm down to being an emotional wreck during Diamond Edge. I truly care about the boys and this blog made me love them even more. Also, I want to give a little shout out to my ethereal star, Kwon Soonyoung for literally brightening up my day all the time ✨

Thank you for being my ult bias and being extremely cute. You mean a lot to me for sure. Onto our beloved admins, firstly Jess. Y'all don't know how amazing she is. She's immensely smart and so caring. In these past few months of being friends, she's definitely a kind-hearted person and it really shows through. From listening to my past boy drama (like literally, I sent her voice messages and it was like 1-2am for her I'm,,,) to her giving advice to me. She's truly a gem and like an older sister <3 Also guys, she's really pretty!!! Even though she denies it :p and also a good singer!

Next is, Seri!!! Firstly, Seri is exceptionally funny, I swear the things she says sometimes in the group chat is hilarious. Also, she's sooooo good at makeup y'all and hella stunning as well. I always go to her for tips and we always share our makeup of the day with each other AHAHAHAHA. Seri is so kind and such an amazing support system and you can literally talk to her about anything AHAHAHAHAHA. I truly appreciate her being a friend <3 and the fact she stans hosh as well hehe

And to our maknae! Sophia but we always call her Soph. The best Jun stan I've met in my life. A creative little fellow and she also dances!! And also gives me tips for dance because I'm literally a stick AHAHAHAH She's so cute as well!! And such a caring bean <333 Also she likes attacking the rest of us with pictures of our biases 😂 Need a span of Joshua?? Soph is always ready lmao

Y'all mean a lot to me and I can't believe the amount of support I've gotten from all of you for a lot of things. From picking outfits to fangirling with me during my concert. I honestly don't mind opening up to y'all which I don't often do at all. I really like how you guys are always there and whenever one of us is down or have some tea to spill, everyone is on board AHAHAHAHA.

I seriously love all the admins so much because they are friends that I cherish quite a lot. I cannot wait for the day we all can meet somewhere and just hang out together and just have fun, heh 💓 We really need to start skyping with each other and pls one day come to Malaysia!!! I'm gonna bring you guys around for good food and photoshoots!! (I take really good pictures if I say so myself, if you wanna see them. Message me for my Instagram AHAHAHAHA)

Most importantly, thank you to literally everyone who've read our work and enjoyed it, to those who reblog and heart our stuff; thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️ And to our readers I've personally talked to personally, y'all are really cool and tenks for talking to this nerd lmao. I can't wait to see this blog grow even more and to experience new things with seventeen and you guys. Love y'all 

Admin Seri: first THANK YOU, for making it this far >< 

Wow, well I’m speechless, honestly I’m not even sure what to say, so i apologize in advance how unorganized this ESSAY is about to be. 

First, i’ve always been curious on writing scenarios like this, and i definitely think I was good enough. So any thoughts of running a blog was like, jumping off a cliff, it was best to keep it out of mind. Me and Jess, met through an online groupchat that I seriously never thought would lead to this. Funny thing, I was on vacation,  when I joined, one-two weeks after Jess made the blog. With all of my curiosity of what it was like, I was kind of bored and wanted to give it a shot. Legit I expected like 500 followers after like, a year? NEVER did i think we’d have 2000 after 5 months. like WHAT. 

To Seventeen, the talented, amazing dorks, where my vocabulary is not big enough to describe them. aside from the fact I love, adore, and admire them very much, (if i stayed here and talked about  they are a team with a lovely team backing them up. CARATSSSSSS ;))) without Seventeen, there would be no blog, and with no blog, i wouldn’t have met the three other amazing admins, other tumblr mutuals, and our amazing readers ^~^ .  

First to Soph, I- just know she is adorable, that’s all, the cutest freaking Jun stan ever. she’s only a feel months younger than me but i feel like im a grandma with all the energy she has because she’s on a dance team and how tired I am all the time. i’m thankful i get to wake up to her spam of pictures also :’)  honestly rip to her storage, :’) let’s keep together lovely! US MAKNAES SHOULD STICK TOGETHER!!! ;) our own lil maknae line leggoooo ;) <3

Meagan my fellow hosh stan, oh my god she is actually my aesthetic, from bullet journaling SHE IS AMAZING, to makeup I LOVE TALKING ABOUT MAKEUP (someone who can actually deal with that because my obsession is bad hehe) she’s gorgeous and i feel blessed to find a friend like her, (not because of her connections in Malaysia or something COUGH) im jp ;) she’s just someone i can always ask an honest opinion from, and im thankful for that <3

Then Jess, I’m trying not to tear up right now and I honestly don’t ever cry unless I’m watching a TV show, honestly. she’s been here from me through and through and our friendship feels a lot longer than five months. I already know our friendship will last even when we one day will sadly have to end the blog :’), and i’m ready to meet because im planing this trip already like LETS GO LET KOREAN BBQ bc proud foodie right here, hell any of the admins. this is gonna sound so mushy oh god but i feel i’ve grown and learned so much from her and she never makes me feel stupid for asking a question. moving on, GUYS OUR CONVERSATIONS ARE ACTUALLY GREAT LIKE AFJFOLAENGV on of the more memorable ones is when she introduced me to that song, YES JESS YOU KNOW. and most importantly, thank you for being my mom and just being there for me , because im truely thankful for that <3

TO OUR FOLLOWERS, there’s 2000 of you guys WHAT, welcome to our craziness and thanks for sticking around! I’d love to get to know you guys so don’t be scared to message me @bloatedboo !! i’m not great with words but know every single one of you guys are in my heart whether i know your name or not. <3

Admin Jess: Brace yourselves, I have lots to say😂.

First off, if you had asked me if I had expected to hit 100 followers let alone the 2,000 followers we have now when I first started this, I would have laughed. It is a bit of a crazy number to wrap our heads around, but I’m insanely grateful and I might actually start crying. This whole thing started off as simply a hobby, something I could use to vent my love for the 13 boys that have my heart, but it became so much more after a while. It almost didn’t happen too, just like our beloved soulmate series, everything came down to being in the right place at the right time and having everything line up perfectly before the hard work and passion kicked in haha. I’ll state my thanks here so that I can get it out in words rather than tears. I won’t get too much into how when I started this blog with Seri, I was not in a very happy place. But that’s not the important part. The thing is I met incredible people through this blog and learned many things. I learned how to not let every criticism and mean comment get to me, and rather to learn to grow and try to do the best I can. Nothing brightens my day more than hearing I made people smile, there’s nothing else I’d rather do with my time:) ahem now for my thanks (and yes I’m going to thank Seventeen bc I’m hella extra)

Seventeen have made me v v happy and continue to do so to this day. While I may declare my love and hatred (jokingly) and say I’m unstanning, I really love all 13 boys with all my heart. All the admin have talked about it, but when we’re writing for them or answering asks, they don’t seem like just idols to us. They’re friends who love each other, real genuine people who are beautiful inside and out. I’d like to thank them for just being them, for bringing a smile to my face whenever I feel down. Honestly so sappy and cringe but true nevertheless. I love Svt a whole lot <3

Joshua, EXCUSE ME AS I GET HELLA EMOTIONAL I CAN’T JUST WRITE TWO SENTENCES ABOUT THIS GUY;&:9;$2. So I’ll try to keep it short. Joshua, I am the most grateful to him for his undying love for his friends, for his hard work at always being the best person possible, and for genuinely making me smile. He’s the kind of person I want to be, someone who is kind-hearted and tries his very best at everything he does and ilhssm.

I can feel myself tearing up woohee this is going great. I’d like to thank the many internet friends and mutuals I met, through this blog. Initially I had simply wanted people to fangirl with svt about and I got so so much more. There is a moment I remember distinctly 2 weeks ago, I had been really stressed about my slew of tests and I had maybe gotten 20 hours of sleep in the entire week and had told my friends in real life but also my internet friends (you know who you are and ily) and I was bombarded with messages of support from everyone in the morning and I dead af kid you not sat and cried because how did I deserve such amazing support and friends. People who had never seen me before were genuinely concerned about my health and mentality and nothing nothing made me cry more than just the sheer amount of support I got. I had mentioned in our admin chat how I regretted not doing enough due to exams and my bb’s legit were screaming at me to sleep and that it’s ok and everything will be ok if I didn’t answer everything right away and just focused on me and it’s prob one of the moments in my life that I felt the most support and love ever. and so that takes me to my few final thanks….

Soph, okie hands down my favorite Jun stan I’m sorry everyone, I love Soph lots omfg. She’s so talented!!! I’m living for the day where she kills me with her dancing just as Junhui does to all of us, I can’t imagine how hard it must be to learn svt and bts choreo and run this blog lmao. Soph, I love how you hype Josh with me and how we all suffer together when we send svt pictures and honestly thank you thank you thank you so so much for being not only an admin but a valuable friend.

Meagan, I can always count on her to send me pictures of Joshua on Instagram and I love her lots too. I love how despite living 16 hours apart, we can still have conversations about boy drama (no not svt lmao svt wouldn’t do us dirty like boys irl) and fangirl about Josh and svt and just everything. She’s incredibly talented too, her writing and she’s so pretty I die. Meagan, I love how I can say something and count on you to talk about it, it’s beautiful and fun, thank you so so much admin and friend.

And finally, I’d like to thank Seri. Seri has been with me on this rollercoaster of a ride since the very beginning. I found it incredible how the two of us just *clicked* ya know? She’s the type of friend who says one thing and two hours later, she and I are both dying from laughter on the ground in stitches. I’ve never genuinely laughed more than some convos I’ve had with her. I’m also surprised she has yet to hear me screaming at her from across the country, I’m pretty sure I’m loud enough that she could hear me. She’ll prob forever be my aegi whether she likes it or not and while I honestly don’t know how much longer I’ll stan svt, I do hope that our friendship can far outlast our time together here on the blog (plus I swear imma buy her plane tickets somehow so we can go to an svt concert together or disneyland before I die). I’ve ranted to her lots and I complain to her lots but she never tells me I’m annoying and for that, I’m also thankful XD. I think I have learned quite a lot from her, including how to have thicker skin and I love her so so so much. Seri, thank you for everything lovely, let’s continue growing as friends and people together ^~^

Final remarks, I think what has always drawn me to svt is just the sheer comradery and love they have for each other. It’s undeniable they’re family to one another. I had always been somewhat jealous of their adorable friendships and funny chemistry. But as I look back on it now, I found my own sort of svt, in the people, friends, and stories I interact with everyday here, and for that I can only say thank you.