#it’s just another 4 1/2 hours of my life 🙄 it’s not that bad but I can’t wait to be done with it forever

[mtnkat3]

W.9.28.2022 10.29pm est

Whew! Ok Lord!

Thank You!

You are keeping me busy getting tasks done & helping me feel productive again!☺️⚓🙏🙇‍♀️

I mean, yes, I had a bad night & running on ~4 hours sleep. Blood sugar drop at 5am then sinus drainage/ibs for 2 hours sucked! Like flying rubber dog doo on a C-5 to china! Lol! Yeah, one of my favorite lines!

And of course I had stayed up writing last night's til like 1am. I ~thought~ wh was asleep & could go to bed. Psyche! Because he's made 2 bathrooms inoperable, & because I have rebuilt every piece of my own toilet to the point only the porcelain is still original.. so.. uses my bathroom. 🙄🤦‍♀️

I SO cannot wait to have my own clean space! I am not the type of woman to want stuff all over the countertops. The rare special occasions I wear makeup I put it away in my carrier cases. Hair brushes, combs, do-dads. Put away. I like clean but lived in.

But I got up.

Got to work. Heck I got to doing so many things that I forgot to take my morning meds! [Which, btw Lord. I pray to detox so I will be rid of all of them & the cgm. Really hate having such a thing. Too much like the mark of the beast.] But well, this morning! Being woken because my blood sugar was gonna bottom out.. it was a life saver. Oh! Thanks for showing me 1 butterscotch hard candy is enough!

But feeling accomplished Lord.

It's a good thing!

But I also want the people in my life to know how much I appreciate them!

It's why I write, it's why I like♡. [Even when the bulk are people that I don't speak to here, I feel like God You appreciate me putting forth this effort!] I think about each person I speak to & care about. Wanting to give each of them a hug multiple times a day! I really do miss each, & the ability to give hugs!

Kinda think I finally understand that I hit the wall as far as being isolated from people I care about. I feel my soul's Mate.../s.. sigh.. God please??? I feel him.. even though I don't know.. & I know You do Lord! Let him know... I am, & always be, his huckleberry. I'm not a shrinking violet type of princess. I expect to contribute, in whatever form that comes Lord. Only You Lord know.. You can use my life like Sarah, or You may use me like a warrior nun. Or whatever combination because I rather enjoy watching science shows, building Fedora/Redhat Linux based computers, as I also enjoy watching my mandevilla still have blossoms, cherry tomato bushes producing & my herbs & ferns being happy. Would my soul's Mate.../s sigh... enjoy being in the kitchen with me Lord? I pray so. But. It is Your Will, not mine own. I only know...I love You Lord. And that I will work so that as I work I become the best me so that Your Plan will manifest in my life. You give me energy, a stubborn will to survive & determination to make my goals a reality. To make the dreams You Lord have shown me actually happen! I have never been the type to give up. And thank You Lord for reminding me of the woman You Created me to be! The woman You molded with hard working parents, that as much as I grew up with television & things like 'Scarecrow & Mrs. King,' I really only watch things like Barnwood Builders & TWC anymore! Although I lost both of those favorites when had to downgrade to limited basic. Argh! I mean what the heck?!?! The Weather Channel not on limited basic???? So keep watching crazy things, but don't be informed about the weather!?!??! That's insane to me! But I watched another crazy, zany b movie tonight as writing this. "Lava Storm" 2008. With Ian Ziering. I love the cheesy bad science! Lmao!

Just so tired Lord. Good thing I started this early, kept getting dozy. I so can't believe that weather has changed so much that I'm still wear shorts! In high school, I'd have been in turtlenecks, & sweatshirts & needing a coat! I so love Autumn & the changing of the seasons Lord! And I can't wait to be able to decorate & make where I live into a home. To be away from wh scrooge self & this place.

Oh! Today I got my counseling forms filled out, always paperwork. But praying for real help. As I also dealt with emails, that QDRO is almost done.

Today has been a good day! And I thank You Lord for that!

Even with the headache from the weather/allergies. I have been feeling more like myself. But must stay vigilant to thwart the adversary from turning me into the Blue Ridge Parkway, full of twisty turns, switchbacks, & hills. As much as I love those mountains & driving during autumn, I want to get back onto the train tracks be on Your righteous woman path Lord!

Just.. please tell my soul's Mate.../s sigh... tell him.. I love him, & I feel him, & I miss him. That I will always wait & never give up! Not on You Lord. Not on life. And not on Your Blessing me such that I feel like I've won life's lottery! To have finally gotten my life right!

oh Lord.. please??? I know... sigh..

Believe. And oh how do I Lord!

~True love never dies & true love always waits.~

Thank You Jesus for loving me!

Your sleepy, calmer, but listening carefully & closely daughter,

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺

Th.9.29.2022 1.02am est. Diary. 1.28am

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[ohsobetsy]

Pregnancy favourites

Here I am 1-2 weeks pregnant, without a clue on what I need or should be having. I spent hours upon hours googling pregnancy must haves and watching new mums or mums to be on their personal YouTube blogs (I will attach links on an additional post of all of my favourite blogger mommas out there!).

So yeah, first baby and as you can imagine I was thrown in at the deep end just like every other FTM. I googled all sorts and realised from googling that you pretty much can't have ANYTHING whilst pregnant.

I had this super strong head ache, I don't know if I mentioned in an earlier post but I had swollen glands ALL OVER and it was giving me such bad migraines but because I was pregnant I couldn't have anything decent to take the pain away. Paracetamol just didn't cut it.

All I read about was folic acid, pregnacare & the to do was to eat nothing but healthy foods. See this is where I became a bit sceptical, I didn't take my folic acid simply because I forgot more than I remembered. I googled if I was a bad mum because I didn't and I found out that SO MANY other mums to be didn't take folic acid, nor did they take pregnacare. I did however take a full packet of pregnacare but my god did it taste disgusting, I took pregnacare up until 8 weeks pregnant as I couldn't stomach it any longer.

Anyway, months on I'm still eating rubbish - you may have read that my cravings were burgers & haribo. I absolutely adore McDonald's breakfasts too, which is something I'd have now and then but feel terrible afterwards. I did however constantly snack on cucumber, fruit juices, strawberries and grapes - so although a high sugar content, there was some healthy things there! 🙄

I didn't really need much in the first trimester, just strong pain killers and a better memory.

So now my second and third trimester must haves...

My ultimate must have for second and third trimester is COMFORTABLE CLOTHES. I cannot stress enough how much it hurt to wear my usual Topshop Joni jean, my lord it felt like I was wearing a size 4 and trust me I am NOT a size 4, if I ate out I couldn't even fasten them. I live in leggings, they are so comfortable and I've found that yoga pants are wayyyy more comfortable than leggings.

My second must have would be a long, warm soak in the bath tub, loads of bubbles and some relaxing music. Since being pregnant I have literally bathed so much, sometimes three times a day just to put off back aches and pains. It is so nice to get into a really hot bath and just lay down. (May actually go run another)

HELP, help from others during pregnancy is such a must. If I didn't have such a supportive partner, family and best friend I would have really, really struggled. It's crazy the amount of things that change, how long it takes you to do things, like omg even walking upstairs is effort.

A pregnancy pillow, I say this lightly as I have recently taken mine to the tip because it was just SO bulky but what I've figured is a basic pillow does the exact same job and takes up less room. I mean, we do have a king size bed but there's Jake who sneaks into the middle, me who is the size of a whale plus a pregnancy pillow and throw Winston our selfish kitten in with all that and believe me there is no room at all. So I'd advise anyone getting a pregnancy pillow or even thinking about getting one, save your money (and bed space) and use a normal pillow.

Fake tan! I've always been a girl who loves the finer things in life and tanning is one of them. I feel so nice tanned and outfits just look SO much better whilst tanned and pregnant. Definite must. Please note that you CAN use fake tan whilst pregnant but spray tans are NOT advised during pregnancy.

There are some of my pregnancy must haves, they may have been what you were expecting but they may not have been. I am not Mother Earth, I am still Chloe, I am not prepared to eat avocados whilst in a yoga position, just because I am pregnant and google says to do so. I'm going to eat my burgers, wear my heeled boots and lather on the fake tan.

My lord I miss good strong pain killers, prosecco and being able to run up the stairs but becoming a mum is amazing, the whole process is overwhelming yet empowering and if I can do it, anyone can. I can't wait until our bundle of joy (possibly not joy if she's like me) but I can't wait until she's here, our little diva in the making.

My next blog post will be Betsy's nursery. What's going in there, what bargains we've come across and what products we are going to be using. Check back in a day or two for an update.

Loves xxxx