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wonder-worker · 5 months

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something I find especially entertaining about Edward IV's reign is how Scandalous™ it was lol

he married a woman “whose origins broke all established conventions for English queenship” in a secret ceremony without consulting any of his lords and then made it everyone else's problem. he committed regicide, he committed fratricide; he was accused of bastardry, he was accused of bigamy and a 19-year-long sham marriage, he was accused of using necromancy against his subjects, he was accused of being enchanted by witchcraft by both his wife and his mother-in-law (multiple times). his own mother was said to "rule the king as she pleased" in the early years of his reign. he knew he was hot and actively milked it for money. he was vain as fuck: “he was wont to show himself to those who wished to watch him, and he seized any opportunity that the occasion offered of revealing his fine stature to onlookers”. he knew everything about everyone. "he was more favourable than other princes to foreigners". he was “fond of boon companionship, vanities, debauchery, extravagance and sensual enjoyments”; he was "thought to have indulged in his passions and desires too intemperately”; "it was ever feared he was not chaste”. his subjects publicly gossiped about his sex life, his doctors thought he was insane. NOBODY understood how he was still competent despite all this.

honestly, who was doing it like him?

#(the quote is by J.L. Laynesmith)#Edward IV #my post #the original post was written as a drunken shitpost but it's still 100% true #henry viii could NEVER. Even Humphrey of Gloucester pales in comparison I'm sorry to say #(EW was also accused of controlling both Edward and the country but I don't want to get into the propaganda against her right now - however #true or false it may have been in reality - so I didn't include it. HOWEVER it's absolutely true that Edward gave her a great deal of #unconventional authority by appointing her in royal councils for the heir and spare in her own right during her tenure as queen. So there #was an existing basis for the accusations against her even though they were obviously ultimately extremely unfair and prejudiced #and meant to denigrate her)#Elizabeth Woodville #Cecily Neville #english history #its kinda funny how historians often emphasize his womanizing (which very obviously happened tho it's difficult to say to what extent) when #talking about his over-the-top lifestyle. But as we can see: Croyland - who was best-placed to know - emphasizes a wider variety of things #that worried/scandalized his contemporaries. Edward sleeping around was just one of many (and the last on Croyland's list)#I don't necessarily think it should be highlighted as much as it is #(also funnily enough 'sensual enjoyments' was also used to describe *Richard III* on his northern progress during his reign lol)

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astrozure · 7 days

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struggling as an artist when your whole identity is art and you see it as the only thing you know how to do, to then suddenly lose it is so fucking hard. like what am I supposed to do? how do I get it back? who am I if I don't have it? how am I supposed to grow if I don't have the only thing that is me? how do you find it again when you know the path so well yet it doesn't feel right and you're still feeling lost.....

#like its not an art block and is it really a burnout?#i dont think so #HOW DO I ART AGAIN DOT CL #its almost may and i feel like im just not an artist anymore #i try to make art but i feel so mediocre and i feel very little joy out of it.....and yes its probably because life these-#past few months have been so extremely hard and im so lost but ive been through difficult shit all my life and i STILL could make art #why can't i now?#LET ME OUT!! LET ME BE AN ARTIST AGAIN!!!#sorry to say this on main but i...need it...out....

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lurking-loaf · 3 months

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What started out as a page for practicing expressive biblically accurate faceplates turned into me just doodling stylized ones. I simply started scribbling while trying not to think too much and these happened. Up to this point I've only ever drawn accurate ones so this was a romp into unknown territory.

#loaf art #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf sun #sundrop #fnaf moon #moondrop #dca fandom #conclusion: I still like the structure of drawing the biblically accurate ones but this was a fun little diversion #I imagine actually trying to come up with stylized redesigns of the dca is extremely difficult #also! I colored this page of doodles like I've seen other folks do with their sketch pages as it's something I've been wanting to try #just realized it's been a month since I last drew a page of quick sketches/doodles... so much for this being a frequent thing :')

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opossauce · 10 months

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more of my wip hermit (+ joel) designs from a year? ago !!

you've seen the Doc on it's own, and i think?? instagram got all of these, but I can't remember if tumblr did so. here u are

there's a Martyn design along with these, but i don't have access to my files (this version happened to be saved to my phone) bc i. lost my old laptop when i moved, do not ask me how i did that, i ask myself that same question every day. um

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brittlebutch · 9 days

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finally found a place to read With the Light online and i'm thrilled; if you haven't read this manga i do Legitimately recommend it

#N posts stuff #like don't get it wrong it Is Not a series about being autistic it Is a series about raising an autistic kid #but also don't be put off by that because it's legitimately a series that I feel Loves autistic people with its whole being #it's kind of a teaching manga so it showcases a lot of different opinions/characters/conflicts/etc. but the Framing is very consistent #in that the manga is Extremely of the opinion that autistic people are People who deserve to be Valued and Accepted As They Are #the onus for change is never put on autistic individuals the framing is basically Universal in the 'the World needs to change #to be more accepting' -- it's a very Social Model depiction of autism that ALSO never veers too far into the #'autism isn't even Really a disability' fallacy; it's very much a 'A lot of autistic people will need constant support in a variety of ways #throughout their lives but that isn't the roadblock preventing them from having their own lives; ableism in society is the roadblock'#the first two chapters are the hardest to get through bc they take place before Sachiko has any real understanding of autism and #so she's isolated and stressed out and the ignorance makes it difficult for her to care for Hikaru properly (there's also a lot of #other characters Blaming her for what's going on which goes unchallenged at this point though that changes later); but after she #understands what autism is she's Firmly in Hikaru's corner for the rest of the series - you can skip right to ch 3 without a problem #if you're not interested in reading about that initial conflict #there's still a Lot of conflict ofc but by then the chapters have some of my favorite moments so i don't want to advocate skipping #them; like Hikaru's daycare teacher explaining how Hikaru's difficulty speaking is the same as other kids' troubles with #things like jump-roping/etc.; and then a mother who has An Issue with Hikaru's presence in her daughter's class realizing the #depth of the problematic opinion bc Her mother (who had a stroke) faces similar ableism from her peers #i'm cutting this post off b4 the tags get Too long but if you're curious but still hesitant man. send me an ask and i will Happily #write an insanely long essay about how much i love this series; i have all the books i'm not excited about the online availability #for Me i'm excited bc i've been wanting to rec this manga for like almost a full decade and i can finally give you a link instead of #saying 'well. you can find used copies sometimes' lol

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compacflt · 1 year

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wip wednesday: ???

#the bottom two are for the anon last night who asked if i had more domestic fluff.#anon i have about 50k of domestic fluff ive just been sitting on for the last 6 months.#i have a boat load of real life work recently im so so sorry again these are taking so long 😭😭😭#i want to post slider next Saturday/the wed after that if sat doesn’t work #i have about 10-15 extremely difficult paragraphs left to write #1. this is really the crux of the issue right here.#2. ice having post-marriage doubts???? he signed the papers but what now?#3. what now: oh nothings changed. we’re still the same people we’ve always been.#top gun #top gun maverick #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #top gun fanfiction #i just found out i got my dream summer job covering the aerospace & defense beat in DC this summer #did i put this fanfic on my resume? NO but maybe i should’ve tbh #i will literally be writing about airplanes for a living. the Dream.#the ??? is just bc i don’t have a witty caption queued up #and no he does not pass out

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 7 months

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I feel like I'm gonna fucking die

#my mom made me feel guilty about the music I listen to bc I got my sister into Paramore and our mom REALLY disapproves of Pmore #I accidentally dropped a small item down the toilet mid-flush and now I'm sick worrying what's gonna happen #i have to go to worship practice tonight and deal with an extremely difficult sound technician #youth group has been horribly stressful #i need to do a ton of work still tonight #I just found out I massively screwed up on a job app a couple weeks ago #and I just want to like. disappear for a while #just like. poof. no more Lu for a bit #I feel like Anything I do is gonna be Wrong somehow #I can't listen to music to chill bc i feel guilty ABOUT LISTENING TO MUSIC #I don't think I have the mental space to read rn bc I'm reading fricking house of leaves #if I tried to write I would probably hate what comes out #but idk that seems the most promising at this point that's the only thing I can honestly say I want to do #Lu rambles #sorry for the language I just needed to vent

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li-esonthefloor · 8 months

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come closer

i am a normal fan and can be trusted with jade curtiss and luke fon fabre

#i am ofc missing jade chibi pillow. it is $$ when it pops up #and im missing the matching glasses standee set cause i didnt have $80 to spare when they were available....#ive been looking at the slightly underwhelming normal figure set but they are a bit pricey for the quality as well #and the terribly ugly little chibi figures. maybe ill get them one day but that day is not today #i THINK this is everything i have #i might have two or three more charms squirreled away somewhere #i am Extremely unorganized so............. it is difficult to say #jadeluke #chatter tag #remember when the roll-on fragrances came out. i seriously almost dropped $150 on those things #and the jl ring.... man i still want it (SO BAD) but it doesnt exist anymore #ALSO I HAVE GOTOU-SAN'S SUMMER JL STANDEE ON THE WAY!!!!!!#i am so very sad i missed their doujin preorders but at least i got the charm #i wonder how much more my collection will grow #actually there are a number of things i still want but [averting eyes monkey] ive said enough i need to stop #anyway so like. yeah. totally normal right. im very cool and not weird about them

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brosif40 · 6 months

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the matriarch

#this thang has been in my head for AGES #still workin on their whole look but YEAG #beeg space creature #my art #oc #the matriarch #im thinking to make them almost pitch black- space colored- so the only thing you could see is their eyes sometimes #also king Ghidorah from Godzilla inspired the three heads hehe :3 #(caligos are extremely difficult to kill- so yeag.. scary)

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luigis-slut · 1 year

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So did any other autistic people have ABA therapists encourage your parents to have you participate in a "variety of activities" as a young kid to prevent you from developing special interests?

Did that prevent you from practicing an activity long-term, thus keeping you from being good at anything? And as an adult, did that inhibit your ability to develop hobbies and find interests that you're passionate about?

Because that’s sure what it did to me.

#autism #ableism #ableist nonsense #aba #anti aba #anti ableism #I mean its not like i didnt develop hobbies and find things that im skilled at #but i feel like the fact that my parents/ABA 'therapists' were trying to prevent 'autistic behavior' limited my potential #I'm glad that my parents encouraged my art skills to the point that it became my career path #and that Im at least skilled and talented in THAT #but i wish i could go back in time and trade all of those sports activities out for ONE sport and music #I did soccer. baseball. dance. karate. ice skating. etc. None of it stuck. I remember almost none of those skills now.#Because id only do it for a year or two before I was encouraged to try something else before it became a special interest #I feel like id be in a much better place now if i was simply allowed to have special interests #aba is abuse #aba is meant to eradicate autistic traits for the convenience of parents. not to produce healthy adults #Im trying to develop new hobbies now. But with the way i was raised its extremely difficult to learn and keep practicing #this certainly isnt the worst thing that ABA has done to me. But its one that i dont see many others talk about #i wish i had been allowed to have special interests. I wish i had been allowed to be autistic without ridicule #the fact that my family STILL looks back on my 'variety of interests' as a good thing is also depressing #the fact that they keep saying 'its a good thing we got early intervention' makes me upset #I know that they mean well. Theyre glad i can communicate verbally and could graduate college #But they treat my autism like its cancer. The constantly tell me that the abuse was justified. That i NEEDED it #this is why we need autism ACCEPTANCE. Not awareness. ACCEPTANCE.

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cinnamon-notes · 12 hours

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i have been ghosting my friends for idk a month??? and they have been doing the same??? except for when we meet in a workplace cuz somehow our jobs decided to cross over :)

#feeling so bad about it but like i cant bring myself to interact with people right now but i am also constantly sad because i dont interact #with anyone out of work :/ but working makes me socially exhausted & tbh all i wanna do is be depressed with my books & my movies &my tunes #but i also crave affection like i realize i have zero social life and i sometimes schedule some hangout with my friends but it's almost #become like idk a task? something i look at through work eyes. like- i arrange our hangouts the way i arrange work meetings. it's so sad.#i know it is. but still- i cant help it. through all my life ive been missing having a lifelong friend who knows me like the back of their #hands and i know like the back of mine. never had it. cant cry over that. it's passed. i cant invent lifelong friendships that never existed #and i gotta make peace with that. plus- what am i complaining about if im just incapable of keeping any friend for longer than a month???#after the first month- maybe the first couple of months- it all gets boring and dont get me wrong i really love my friends but somehow they #lose interest in me and i lose interest in them and we become just people who know each other and occasionally hang out but like- i've never #had a friend who's there for me when things happen in my life. i've always had friends to tell things to afterwards. like- i know i cant #really pick up the phone and say “hey. im having a bad time. can we take a walk? talk on the phone? can you tell me about your day? can you #just be here for me?“ and i cant even idk just randomly pop up with a ”oh my god i hate him i hate him i hate him it's a whole montague vs #capulet but if romeo and juliet never existed kind of hatred!!“ i just cant vent right away. ive always thought that that's my problem.#and maybe it is. but still- how's come they can vent to me? im always there right away. i do love my people and i show up for them.#sometimes my depression makes it soooo difficult to hang out constantly but if there's one thing that cannot be said about mw is that i dont #care. cuz i do. and maybe that's the problem #and maybe it's just easier for me to care than let others care? idk? but then again- i did try to open up. i did try to let them care. i did #try everything by the book & off the book but still- idk it's always just an “im sorry” never an “i care so much to say more than im sorry”#and yeah it's my problem cuz i am not a constant person im not that steady in what i do. i still dont know if it's because i havent found #yet the people worth doing it or if i am just traumatized (my ex is knocking on this door lol) but- idk it makes me extremely sad!!!#and ive rambled on way too much but i jusg needed to let some things out of my mind cuz i cant understand whats wrong with me and why i #crave true friendships although im hella scared of and bored of and unwilling to nurturing one :)#cinnamon diary

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shiroxix · 11 days

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More sketch requests! Send me a character and I will doodle them~ not putting a series cap on this one~ Though I will say I am hyperfixated on Curse of Strahd and Zelda right now...

#sketch requests #this is day 3 of my illness symptoms being so bad I can do little more than lay perfectly still on my couch #I am extremely bored #its difficult for me to watch or listen to anything becayse I have such bad headaches and keep falling asleep #....so I've just been scrolling tumblr on accessibility dimness for a week

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bellincurl · 1 month

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NO ONE TOLD ME WOLFERTINGER666 WAS PUPPYCHAN HELEPRRP?!?!?!??!÷&÷*&^#&$

#ive been reblogging him for months bc i liked his art and assumed he was also a kinda isolated person trying to recover and explore himself #not that he was puppychannnnnnnn #it upsets me too bc i always wanna have sympathy for ppl who like grew up online and were targetted in vile ways like this right #same deal with ppl like birdie or kittydog it feels so christine chan esque #like vulnerable ppl dont deserve to be pushed to extremes like that it makes me think what i would have been like if #i was in those positions. it doesn't feel right.#but then it's still the case that these ppl went on to be predatory or vile or racist or any number of things. did so much damage right #not just that they did damage but that these ppl all fled from it or the responsibility of it and even kept going #it upsets me. it's disappointing. it's difficult to think about.#i want ppl like this to grow and reflect and get into safer places but you can't do that if you won't say full chest #what you did and how to change so you don't go on to do it again.#hits some kinda moral ocd cptsd nerve in my head so hopefully you get what I'm saying ect.

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sockdooe · 1 month

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Does anyone wanna talk about Shance aus or headcanons with me ;-;

Please I’ve been dying