#its my Christmas present to myself

[brewed-pangolin]

Little bit of an update...

I will be finishing my fic for the COD Holiday Challenge this weekend (just in time for Christmas and SSS)

Then, I'll be taking a little bit of a break from writing to read a series that I have been chomping at the bit to get into since it started.

And following that up by indulging in some Captain MacTavish works that I have been drooling over for months.

I will restart my writing after the new year (got a few requests for 4Runner Wingman already, I'm so excited 😊) and a few fluffy fics and headcanons to add into the mix.

So get ready for a ton of my long ass reviews to come bursting into your feeds (I can't help myself with some of y'alls work. I have to gush my soul to show my creative appreciation)

Until then...

Stay Thirsty, Soap Squad 🧼

[e-mptyflowerfields]

Just spent $200 on Ethel Cain merch🤪 I’m excited!

[thespongebobsquarepantsmovie]

crazyyyy to me how some people can go to the mall and casually spend hundreds of dollars in one day when i bought a single $150 coat like a vintage coat that was custom-made for someone and i could never find another one of and i feel like im going to hell for that purchase

[anandasamsara]

SIMPLE COMMISSIONS OPEN

Ok, i cant find any other job nor other way to make some money rn. I still have to pay 450 for credit card, that we used to buy groceries, 450 for electricity and at least mom's phone. Ideally, 700 that we owe for the apartment payments, but we can keep pretending it doesnt matter as much.

So, opening sketch and whump comms bc i cant bring myself to do more than that rn. I can barely bring myself to draw at all. I could even toss some notion of nsfw for an extra 10 bucks.

Prices, how-to's and more info >>here<<

Im relatively desperate, bc even tho i managed to pay the internet bill, it doesnt matter if electricity is cut down, specially as we're having heat waves of about 40C for the last week with no end in sight.

(I listed the amount i need in brazilian real, so it would be around 250usd. 400usd if we count the apartment things that im ignoring.)

[angelgendered]

You know I was thinking. Since I was a ten year old and boys would ask me out as a joke, cos I was the fat autistic ginger nerd who no one wanted to be friends with, and they found that hilarious, up to being rejected recently by hookups in the past few months cos I'm not far enough in my transition or I'm too fat or too ugly or too much for some people, I've dealt with rejection and people laughing at me instead of loving me my whole pre teen-adult life.

Just thinking of damage done by a cis and heteronormative world, and how queer love is so healing and joyful and wonderful, and how I feel, at nearly 33, ready to commit to someone and be in it for the long haul because they like me DESPITE all my flaws. They love me for me and I love them for them and they're wonderful to me. They've never said an unkind word to me (and i believe them wholly that they never will and never have to anyoen else either). They've never asked anything of me that is unreasonable or I can't do. They've not laughed or run a mile when I talk about access needs like my chair, their only request being that they can still hold my hand while I show them off to the world.

It's been six months of 'getting to know you' and having fun together indulging in shared fandoms and writing together. For me, it's been about four-three months of pining and wanting. A little less time wishing and not daring to hope because I'm definitely punching above my weight lmao.

Idk. Something something queer love is being seen at your worst and not being judged. Queer love is joy, and happiness. Queer love is healing past trauma and being in it *together*. Queer love is everything.

And you know what for the first time in a long long time I'm gonna do some linocut guidelines and get them printed and transfer them to blocks and make some heartfelt art. Because they inspire me. They're my Muse, my love.

Bonus ramble in the tags about former unrequited and toxic 'love'.

[scolek]

watching a four hour video on the american girl doll samantha and all the media surrounding her. this is my roman empire

[talkfastcal]

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[cj-kenobi]

FINALLY got myself an ammonite fossil with the top bit that slots over it and makes a regular rock and I am the happiest little autism creature in the world. it's just sitting on my shelf. got a little stand and a sign with it's scientific name, age and location found on it like a museum. i cannot stop putting it together and taking it apart again like the worlds oldest fidget toy

[nerdie-faerie]

Just ordered a load of stuff for Christmas and then sent it to the wrong address I'm going to scream

[sparklyoats]

Also, i bought a new dining table plus chairs and a new sofa table 🤩 - cant wait to have it all put together and in place🙌🏻

[lil-cherubb]

I made 2 crochet snowflakes today as Christmas tree ornaments for my mom. Kinda sad I didn't work on the amigurumi stuff but I mean bro I'm getting fucked in the ass by school rn so ill just be a bit sad I'm not gonna be hard on myself

[woahajimes]

you know I don't really think i told you that?? im usually very picky about what to say about myself on the Internet. i remember ranting to you about high school?

also NO I WILL NOT show myself!!!! it is much much funnier this way!! at least for me :) anyway news: my hair is pink again, i got a septum piercing, asia is no longer the loml 🥺 (we're still v close friends tho), i moved from my small town to an Actual City (rome) and uhhhh nothing?? yeah that should be all. have a good day 👍🏻

(it's maki btw)

i would love to visit ROME

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[mossy-covered-bones]

I am going to crochet a cardigan that fucks so severely

[aromanticannibal]

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[ghostbustermelanieking]

simply having a miserable christmas time ✌️ 🎄