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will adderall make me a less selfish person
#so much of my not being there for others/not doing the right thing at all times stuff#ive been attributing to burnout and exec dysfunction and demand avoidance#but the thing about possibly fixing those eventually is that it might just turn out that im a bad person#inasmuch as bad people exist. and i just Feel so strongly like i Should be doing more even if ive got all those things#classic am i making excuses for not trying harder and then going easy on myself on the assumption it's burnout#when it doesn't like. actually seem to go away ever. and does that all make me a bastard or not#etc#anyway im feeling very unworthy tonight. what else is new#everybody who's ever trusted and liked me bought into a lie i still believe in and we're all waiting despite our suspicious etc#guilt is so stupid. brain i could fix this if you'd let me do fucking anything#whatever whatever whatever i so don't care#my kindness is not being cosmically punished but i am still kind despite not being that good at it#gritting my teeth it's not black and white it's not black and white it's#anyway#if being morally righteous/beneficial to the world requires certain actions from me then why can't i do them#i should be able to power through i should#and i know that like of attitude is unfair to all kinds of people including probably me but with myself it feels like#idk like i should be able to At Some Point. as if this is something i can wait out while doing nothing to fix it#ourghh one day i swear
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