#just hear me out on this for a little bit okayyy i swear im not crazy

[hurtfulromance]

HI. never let me edit again 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[sup3rstarr]

Bored af so here’s some mammon comfort

warnings- self deprecating thoughts

gn mc (referred as mc)

def not proof read, grammar issues lol

Life right now just seemed to be the same thing, over and over again. You’d wake up, get ready for school, zone out during classes, and go back to sleep all over again. Wasn’t being an exchange student supposed to be fun? If it was, why weren’t you motivated anymore? You felt bad, if anything. You didn’t want to be a burden to the others, or to Mammon who has been by your side lately.

Curling up into a ball, your mind starts to wander. A break is all you need. Some time to sort out your feelings, and try to regain your mental health. You wanted to be happy and motivated, you really did, but your mind just wouldn’t let you. Why? You thought to yourself. Why why why why why. Why do i feel like this? Am i not good enough? am i letting them down? do they hate me? they must think i’m annoying. i’m just a silly little human, after all. not of any importance to them. after all, they are forever, i am just for a year. nothing important. but, why do i want to be? why do i want them to like me? validation? i don’t know i don’t know i don’t- something wet fell down your check (hehehe). a tear it seemed. soon, more and more and more where falling.

you heard a buzz from your night stand. you assumed it was around dinner time, but you weren’t gonna go. they cant see me like this, they’ll only think less of me. holding your legs closer, you squeezed your eyes shut, almost as if you where trying to empty the tears. of course, it didn’t work, as more started to drop and soon enough, sobs wracked through you. at times like this, you just wanted to… disapear. you sobbed, more and more and more, and the buzzing from your phone became more and more and more and more. having enough of it, (it was getting on your nerves at this point and you didn’t wanna deal with it) you pick it up and check the messages.

Mammon

- where r u

-dinner is ready

-omg where r u ur late

-human, get down here rn

-okay i’m coming to get u

-okay?????

-ok i’m actually going now

-ok i’m here

-im bouta knock

with a bit of panic, you glance towards your door. surely enough, you start to hear harsh knocking coming.

“HUMAN IF YOUR IN THERE AND IGNORING ME I SWEAR TO GOD IM GONNA RIP YA HEAD OFF”

you ignored.

“MC? YA IN THERE?”

still, you ignored.

“OKAYYY IM COMING IN!”

hearing this, you sunk further under the covers. he couldn’t see you like this. no. no. no no no no no no no he’s gonna see me like this. a mess. he cant. i cant let him. your sobs became louder and louder and suddenly you feel a hand on your back. oh no. when did he come in. i didn’t hear him come in. why? why why why why why is this happening no no no no no- “are you okay” a small voice asked. no. no. no. i’m not. he cant know that. don’t respond. he’ll hear it in your voice. his hand moved and rubbed your back. his touch felt so- nice. comforting. you hadn’t felt that in a while. you leaned into it, craving more. he knelt down, slowly bringing his other hand to hold your face. he nudged you to sit up so there was room for him, so you did. it was the least you could do. he sat down. “what’s wrong?” he asked. oh no. no no no he’s going to think your weak. he’s gonna look down on you. he cant know. no no no no. you shook your head. no no no no no- you gripped your hair. this cant be happening- your breathing was picking up. no no no no- you where sobbing harder. no no no no- it was get it getting hard to breath. drowning. that’s what it felt like. a voice. subtle, like you where under water.

mc

mc

mc

it spoke.

louder

louder

louder

“Mc!!”

you gasped. Mammon. he was still there. you realized you where wrapped in his arms. he was holding you, so tight. it was a breath of fresh air. your shaking was dying down, and the tears became less frequent.

shhh, he whispered. hand in your hair. combing it. soothing you.

“it’s gonna be okay”, he said

“i’m here now”

“you can get through this”

can you?

“can you tell me what’s going on, please mc”

something in you broke.

words. words. words. you told him everything. anything. something was aching and every time you spoke the weight on your chest became lighter and lighter and lighter and suddenly it wasn’t there.

he looked shattered.

i’ve messed up, haven’t i, you thought

“mc, please. don’t- don’t think that please. please. your not a burden i swear. you may feel like that, and it’s taken some time getting used to a human, and the little side comments i know aren’t helping but please, please don’t feel like you’re worthless. your not. i promise you. i care. my brothers care. they may not act it, but please please belive me. it will get better. i’ll talk to them- i’ll make them stop. so please, don’t vet think your a burden. you will never be. i love you so so so much. please remember that. don’t keep these things from me, i want to help you, be there for you, care for you. that’s what i’m here for. promise me-“ he held back a sob “promise me you won’t keep these… thoughts from me from now on.” he held out his pinky.

cheesy, you thought. you chuckled and held yours out.

intertwining them.

he leaned across and kissed yours tears

light as a feather.

oml help i got carried away. a wee bit of a self indulgent drabble LMFAO IM SO SORRY THIS IS SO CHEESY PLSSS