I re-dyed my hair because I needed a confidence boost (my dull ash brown hair made me look ill) and I did this violet brown because I thought it was warmer, but it ended up being darker than I expected. The other day my sister told me I look 'possessed by a demon' because of the contrast between my hair/eyes and lmao I laughed because little does she know that a lot of characters with my eye color have been possessed in the fantasy books I have read
And nothing, it may be dark and it makes me look ghostly but who cares
My piece for @mcrswarmzine!
A mini comic about becoming who you were always meant to be.
Like many teenagers in the 00's, I had very little exposure to queer art and culture. I grew up in a small coastal town in New Zealand, surrounded by natural beauty. By contrast, I could not have felt uglier - inside and out.
I turned on the TV after school one day and caught the tail end of the music video for 'I'm Not Okay'. For the first time I heard and saw an expression of the angst and anguish already swirling about in my monstrous adolescent body. I knew then I wanted to be an artist and musician. I didn't yet know why I couldn't see myself in the mirror.
My Chemical Romance meant everything to me.
As I stood at the barrier for their first show in Auckland in a decade, I realised that it was coincidentally my ten-year anniversary of starting hormones.
Some things change a great deal, others never do. I was transported back to my parent's living room that night and hopefully got across that special feeling on my page!
I have been so excited about this project!! 3D printed a pair of iterator antennae headphone attachments :D
The size is measured to my Philips TAH4205 headphones so they clip on without any glue or tape, .STL files and .UFP files (formatted for Ultimaker S3 printers through Cura) are included here!
These are fresh off the 3D printer, I plan to paint them silver tonight to seem more metallic >:]
PART 2 is in reblogs! Fully painted/sealed + bonus WIP stages :]
His statements and actions concerning the subject are framed as him not being afraid. But he is. He is afraid of what he has become, afraid of confronting himself, afraid of confronting the world, and he is afraid of having to live.
He should not be brave enough to die. He should be brave enough to live.
idk why i imagined a shadow creature saying this. maybe bc it is 2 am, maybe bc it is halloween. either way i am flattered dear shadow creature. you make me nervous but i love you too
My Qi Rong headcannon of the day (incorporating my design for him) is that like Hua Cheng, he can change his appearance so that even after he loses his mask in the second book/season, people can’t exactly say he looks like Xie Lian. My design for him really turns him into a goblin so if we pretend he looks like that then he’s intentionally becoming something as far from Xie Lian as he can, but his true form would be much more beautiful and their similarity much more prominent. But in canon he doesn’t actually have enough power to do that I don’t think? Hua Cheng is powerful enough to have multiple forms so maybe Qi Rong can get by with having only one.
And ignoring my design for him, I think this is also why he wears a mask. Pretty boy don’t like being reminded he’s related to Xie Lian.
I also have a headcannon that he was executed by decapitation with the royal xianle family so in the afterlife he has a huge scar around his neck. He’d get pissed off to find it mirrors Xie Lian’s cursed shackle.
In other words he’s trying to be something as far from Xie Lian as possible, even if he has to make himself as ugly as he can to do so.
not to overshare but my ny resolution is to be more healthy and lose weight (genuinely bc my health and quality of life are negatively impacted by my weight not bc of aesthetics although that's a benefit) and dream's tweet made me tear up for real. as someone who is also several hundred pounds it is just so inspiring to see someone who DID it, committed, and made it to the point where his weight was stable enough to get that surgery. that takes so much fucking dedication and grit and belief in yourself and it's so so so inspiring for someone on their own journey of health and wellness. and he got that surgery and then toured like a month later??? jumping all over that gd stage?? probably felt so so freeing having that literal and mental weight off of him. king shit. sorry this is a rant but my cup is just overflowing with love for him rn
things i would like for s19 that i know is not going to happen:
nuanced sigma characterization
doc and omega scene
sargrey
donut written like he was post-chorus
face reveals (we can ignore the ones we don't like i just like how rvb does character animation)
everyone lives in the end