#kinda merry crisis related I guess

[allieebobo]

Hi Allie!! The update was really gooooodddddd! Anw, ive been stalking and reading through the asks & while I’m enjoying those, i don’t think anyone has asked u about urself yet. Or maybe i miss it but I’m interested to know more about the author who wrote 2 of my fave IFs. Just general questions like;

1. which part of SG were you from?

2. Fav food?

3. Fav place to lepak?

4. Pri/sec school (if you were educated in sg)

5. What made you migrated to USA?

6. Where are u currently based in?

7. Are u still a student or a full-fledged career womann

8. One place in sg that will always carry beautiful memories for you, now that u’ve moved abroad.

9. What sparked your interest in writing these IFs?

Hehehe. If some of the questions are abit personal, you don’t have to share ur answers. Have a good day ahead 🤍

Ooh!! Anon, these are great questions hehe!! Sure, we can do a get-to-know-me session!

I will answer a couple, and get back to the rest at some point, OK? If there's a question that I didn't answer that y'all are really curious about, you can send me an ask with the number and I'll get to it sooner rather than later.

(P.S. no, none of them are too personal, I just think it'd take me a gajillion years to reply if I tried to answer them all!)

Got long, so the answers are below the cut!

1. which part of SG were you from?

Redhill/Bukit Merah! There's a moment in Merry Crisis where MC talks about it, and that's directly from my life! West side, best side! If me and my partner were entitled to a subsidized public housing flat (we aren't, for so many reasons including we're queer and she's not Singaporean), I'd absolutely buy a flat in the exact same neighbourhood.

2. Fav food

Wow... I can't really choose one, but if I could cheat and pick a whole cuisine then Peranakan food, hands down. Petai (stinky bean) with ikan bilis is one of my fave dishes—and it reminds me of my grandma. Otherwise, ban mian is a big comfort food for me, and so are red chili oil dumplings. I also love kaya toast with eggs for breakfast. Herbal bak kut teh and teochew fish are things I love but wouldn't eat every day... All of these might show up (the fish already has I guess!) in the game at some point!

For non-Singaporean food, I could eat udon, all kinds of pasta, and som tum all day every day.

3. Fav place to lepak

<Lepak is Singaporean/Malaysian(? I think) slang for like, 'chill' or 'hang', btw.> As you can already tell I added a lot of my own experiences/things I love into Merry Crisis already, so I'm going to have to go with Labrador Park and Sentosa. As a kid my mom would bring me and my brother to the rocky coast in Labrador after school with a box of Sarpino's pizza and we'd play in the water and eat and get really sandy. Sentosa back in the day was less commercial/touristy, and we'd just park in the carpark for $2, and spend the entire Sunday just chilling on the beach (yes, I'm a huge beach person haha), and my dad (not a big beach person) would be napping under a big tree probably wishing his wife weren't such a big beach person because it's been inherited by his kids and now this is how he'll spend his weekends for the rest of his life.

6. Where are you based in? 7. Are u still a student or a full-fledged career woman

Have a full-time job, sadly. I've been working as an urban planner in Singapore for three years now. (Think that answers both questions at the same time.) So yeah, I plan the city. Mostly I make sure future generations have enough housing, even though I'm not entitled to one myself. 🤷‍♀️ I enjoy my work and I think it's fulfilling, but it's also tough and my hours are too long. One day I hope to write full-time but I really don't think it'll pay the bills. Maybe if I live somewhere cheaper than Singapore!

Quite excited to answer 8, 9 as well, but maybe those are for another day?

[sayakxmi]

[Magi reread] Night 38: Junkyard Street

Bro, my heart is not ready.

Alibaba just says that, yeah, Cassim's the real leader of the Fog Troupe, but it seems like he'd always wanted Alibaba to lead... Nah, he didn't. He wanted Alibaba to be bright & catch attention, and to control him from the shadows, probably.

Bro, I'm so sad. Look at him grinning.

Honestly, back to smart Alibaba, the whole tunnel thing. Thinking outside the box and all that.

I love them, but also shoutout to that kid on bottom-right stealing the flag while these two are busy fighting.

AGH

: (

Literally all of this is sad, and then there's Alibaba being jealous abt his mom being stolen, lmao. Also, man he's so casual about death here, just, yea, idk what happened, maybe he ran, maybe he killed himself, who knows.

Not that he desevred anything better, but still. Death must've been such a common occurrence in the slums.

Agh. Look at them. Alibaba's living his best life, Anise is always smiling, Mariam is so happy, and Cassim's so awkward it's all so precious. Also, I suddenly remembered that Cassim propsed to Anise like 3 times, lmao. But UGH they were a FAMILY

So, I guess Alibaba watched it happen?

But also, agh, look at Cassim's expression ;_;

Other than that, I'm thinking again abt Aibaba doing something similar for Aladdin in his introduction chapter, like, I wish we knew more about Anise. How much of Alibaba came from her?

Like, bro, what's there to say, I'm just sitting here, being sad. Also, do you guys think Alibaba might have some trauma related to illnesses? I usually hc that he does, I mean, the slums in general, but also literally his mom, his father, then as he finds out, Mariam... Everybody in his family died out of illness, except for Cassim, who'd killed himself. Jesus.

Everybody's moms are dead, except for that one who should be dead.

UGHHHH

Honestly, pretty cool that they were helped out.

Ugh, baby.

And that goddamn horn gets me.

: (

No, but seriously. He later gets mad at Alibaba for not doing all that stuff... Alibaba was willing to do, except Cassim told him no. Like, bro, you're sending him mixed signals.

Alibaba: Can I help steal?

Cassim: No

Cassim, some time later, angry: You live such a proper life, you never steal, you never-

Alibaba's hair looks so messy, Cassim's self-loathing hits pretty hard, but here I'll offer you something somewhat silly.

Like, it's better in the anime, cuz Cassim says "you should live a respectable life like your mother", which Alibaba very much could have taken as "have you considered becoming a prostitute?" And I just find it kinda funny.

Why must you hurt me that way

Also, Cassim looks like he hadn't slept well in days. Probably exactly what happened, tbh.

I wonder why.

Merry Crisis

And I've always liked that choice to have Rashid be just a faceless silhouette from Alibaba's perspective here. Father is for emotional distance, lmao.

He wanted Cassim to tell him to stay : ( But no one ever tells him to stay : (

Ugh, I am being destroyed by this chapter again.

1 - BRO YOU LITERALLY TOLD HIM NOT TO and 2 -

AGH

;_;

It's both sad and silly at the same time.

Also, it's now that I realize that he probably has a black eye, that's why he looks like that.

Man, this makes so sad. And also. FATHER IS FOR EMOTIONAL DISTANCE

Like, Rashid was a shit father. A pretty good king, a good mentor, but a shit father. He just kind of. Wasn't there. For any of his sons. According to SnB he left the first two for their mother to care for, then was disappointed they didn't turn out how he wanted them to. And you also get the impression that he started searching for Alibaba bc he gave up on these two. Which is shitty for them, and shitty for Alibaba. He had his life turned upside down, because Rashid was too busy playing around in other nations & teaching the one kid that wasn't his, than actually making sure his country has proper heirs.

Like, don't get me wrong, I actually like Rashid, all of these things make him interesting, but a good parent award is definitely not for him.

sordboy

Sth I keep on forgetting is that Alibaba never liked swordplay.

He didn't hate economy in practice, tho. And didn't hate reading, too, especially the stories about Dungeons.

Progress!

Weird fate shit.

[xoxo-sandiego]

I can't sleep

A very beautiful boy is trying to sing me to sleep on YouTube but baby it's not working 😭

Anyway, might as well share some thoughts

So what's going through my mind

Well I just received a text from someone I never thought would text me(it's 2:36am) and I tried to be witty but these days I never know what my peers think and my side it's gold banter . I know I'm overthinking but it's been a personality trait. So I've been thinking about my sexual orientation, I'm straight as hell but I do see myself falling in love with a girl cause girls are so cool 😭 but my body says different, so yeah I'm hetero I guess

Anyway, the economy's really bad yeah. My country will not be spared by Rona and I have a lot of anxiety about that

Quarantine, that's been cool, I feel like I've changed so much and I feel like finally after all this, is when I can see if I've changed truly changed and I'm unsure if old insecure sad me will wave a middle finger at me like bitch you thought

Reason 4 why I can't sleep, fantasizing about falling in love, my brain is on overdrive with this shit. I read somewhere to think happy thoughts before you sleep and I tried but like my brain do be trying to give me the full experience and I can't sleep

so that's some bullshit

Oh I'm about to start my finals soon and I'm not panicking I feel okay like I can handle but also shitting myself. I'll just pray and hope for the best.

Umm, ps5 *chef's kiss*

Oh my laptop failed on me so I'm trying to hustle a new one and my parents look super stressed and I don't want to add on that but it's also an emergency cause of finals and shit and I don't know what to do honestly

Being first born is so hard honestly, like cause if it was my younger brother he'd have gotten the laptop a week ago

But I can't cause I'm thinking about expenses and the economy and I feel like such a burden

I wanna be a chef though

I feel like I'd put my heart on the table

Do you ever feel fake like you trying to change you but that's not and you don't like now you but you don't have any reason to not like you and it's been you and it is you and I don't know if the one I'm changing to will actually be yk

Identity crisis, I've had those since I was maybe 8 and I'm 20 now wtffff I'm 20 I can't stomach that shit

I'm at crossroads with listening to soceity

Am I being fake deep

Oh soceity, so I don't want to listen but everything I know or want to be is from soceity and the people I listen to say don't listen to soceity but they're kind of part of it and like I don't want to listen cause look at soceity it's beyond fucked

I want to create my own shit

But I don't know how

Anyway, astrology I don't want to believe it but I am your typical cancer very very emotional little bean and so much about cancers resonates with me but I'm very skeptical cause maybe anyone could relate idk idk

Is any of this real

I do kinda believe in law of attraction, the idea that if you keep thinking about sth your brain will begin to pin point those things around to enforce your thoughts and that's honestly legit

I don't like anyone rn and I haven't for a long time which is very weird for me. I keep seeing everywhere people talking about how you don't need anyone to complete you love yourself but there's a part of me that just has so much love and I just wanna pour it over some lucky lad

Umm I love GIFs there honestly so groundbreaking, spectacular queue lady gaga meme

Lol couldn't find it but yeah

My sleep schedule is fucked

I'm fucked

I do like myself

See I would never say all this to anyone in real life mainly cause I prefer to listen and also cause I feel annoying and no one would want to hear this shit from the ones I've met so far

I really like my family I have a nice family s/o to you guys

I love Tumblr too honestly I've never been as me as I have here or I'm I just telling myself that cause I wanna be "cool and edgy and quirky"

I really don't know what to do with myself

I study engineering maybe all this critical engineering will come in handy

Hmm, 03:13 am not tired at all

Umm so what do you do for fun

I watch YouTube it's not that great okay it kind of us and my brain manufacturers a bajilion reasons why I love it but constantly staring into this screen is not great and it's probably messing with my melatonin I think that's what it's called

Do this have word limits?

They're lots of mosquitoes and I'm red rn

What do I do?

I don't know who I am I keep praying for a sign or a dream okay not really

Lemme pray

Okay done

Now we wait

I regret kissing some people and the flashbacks be hitting when I'm trying to get my 8 hours in

Umm some by Steve Lacy is such a dreamy song also folklore is beautiful

Three twenty

My head hurts and

What's my life?

What's happening

I feel like I'm hanging on a log just drifting on a river and along the way there orang tree branches and I pick some and off on my merry way just gliding that seems way more peaceful than its un-metaphorical side maybe it is peaceful but I have no idea where I'm going

Does anyone really

So... how was dinner

I do think I have good banter 😂 honestly

Mmh I wanna sing for some reason

But I don't wanna make noise

Three twenty five

Posted a new song and the economy of scale is it not being received the same thing as much time as I thought about that 😂🤣 I was just clicking

What the hell is economy of scale

I should be asleep

I don't know whether I should read this or just read tomorrow

Just do whatever you wanna

Okay kinda sleepy good night

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 229: The Real Me

Previously on BnHA: Dabi fought a dude who could control ice. For like three pages. Then we cut to my boy Twice, who had located an unconscious Toga (who as you recall had her blood blown up a couple chapters back, so yeah) and was understandably freaking out about how to get her some help. To make a long and somewhat confusing story short, you know that long-haired guy who hacked Giran’s phone? Turns out he has the power to create human puppets or some shit, and he created a bunch of Twice duplicates and sent them to capture the real Twice (who you might also recall has some traumatic history involving clones of himself). Seems they want to use Twice’s quirk to create a backup clone of Re-Destro, just in case history repeats himself and he ends up kicking the bucket like his great-great granddad. Wouldn’t that be sad. Re-Destro getting murdered. Wouldn’t that just be a darn shame. Anyways so let’s see where this leads.

Today on BnHA: The Villain Flashback Arc continues with today’s installment featuring, you guessed it, more villain flashbacks! We learn more about our little buddy Twice who was apparently orphaned as a young teen and subsequently found himself alone in a cold and uncaring world. Honestly you guys, after reading this I’m amazed that he’s still as nice of a guy as he is. Anyway, so he used his quirk to clone himself because he was lonely, and the clones and him engaged in a petty crime spree or two, and then somehow or other it all led to the whole murderfest that fucked up his head so badly. Back in the present, a struggling Jin tries to escape and help Toga, so Skeptic orders his puppets to break Jin’s arms. They do so, but this has a curious side-effect that Skeptic may not have been expecting. Namely, that having that much damage dealt to him makes Twice realize that he definitely is not one of his clones, and is in fact the real deal. This appears to at least temporarily cure his split personality woes, and the chapter ends with him creating about a dozen duplicates to go fuck up the Liberation Army’s day. Hell yes.

(All comments are my unspoiled reactions from my initial readthrough of the chapter. I did a quick edit for grammar and clarity immediately afterward, but aside from that there are no changes.)

hey guys, sorry I’ve been inactive all week; I’ve been sick and haven’t really had much energy. I still am sick, but I appear to have reached the stage of exhaustion where I’m all “eh, fuck it, yeah sure whatever” where it’s ironically easy to motivate myself to do stuff because I have no willpower to resist, lol

so anyway. we’re apparently not missing a beat, picking up right where we left off last week with Twice’s mask being pulled off by one of the gorilla puppets

wow and they’re just like. flinging him aside

DON’T FLING MY BOY NO!! AND GET AWAY FROM TOGA

AHHHH

shit, how creepy is that? are they cold because they’re just ~puppets~ and not actually real, living people? what a disturbing touch

now we’re cutting back to Skeptic, who’s giving the puppets orders and addressing them as various letters of the alphabet. how can he tell them the fuck apart

meanwhile Giran’s asking what they’re doing to his pal. ;_; Giran you continue to be the best

and Re-Destro’s forcibly directing his attention elsewhere, but he’s also answering his question, strangely enough

that’s a lot of detail to be giving the guy when you could have just smacked him and told him to shut up. these villains are so confusing

but I guess they’re just telling him all this to taunt him more, because now Skeptic is bragging that he learned about Jin’s psychological disorder from Giran’s client data

hey btw I don’t think I’ve said this yet, but fuck this guy so hard for taking advantage of Twice’s trauma and using it against him. what a shocker, the Meta Liberation Army of dickheads pulls another dickhead move. these guys are so classy

oh my fucking god you guys Giran is getting hotter with each fucking chapter though fffffffff

if you’d told me a month ago that this dude would be nipping at Aizawa and All Might’s heels for the title of BnHA’s most eligible bachelor I would have called you a liar and a thief, yet here we are. good lord

that said, I appreciate that he’s thinking about how hard it’ll be on poor Twice, but they also just said they’d kill Toga as well, so I imagine that part of it would be pretty hard on her too. just saying

SDLFKSDLFHK SPEAKING OF

FUCK ME YOU GUYS I ALMOST LEAPED TO MY FUCKING FEET, WHAT THE FUCK. DON’T TELL ME THEY’RE GOING TO SNAP HER NECK. HOLY SHIT

SOMEONE BETTER SAVE HER OR I’M GOING TO FLY OUT TO JAPAN AND GIVE HORIKOSHI MY STUPID COLD. THAT’LL SHOW THAT BASTARD. HAVE SOME BRONCHITIS YOU PIECE OF SHIT

AND TWICE IS WATCHING ALL PANICKED AND SCREAMING THAT HE’S GOING TO KILL HER

AT FIRST I WAS CONFUSED AND WAS LIKE, DOES HE BLAME HIMSELF FOR GETTING HER IN THIS SITUATION? BUT THEN I REMEMBERED THE CLONES AND THAT YEAH IT’S LITERALLY HIM KILLING HER THOUGH OMGGGGG

AHHH HE’S SO CONFUSED THIS IS SO CONFUSING

I’M TOO SICK TO DEAL WITH TWICE’S EXISTENTIAL CRISIS YOU GUYS, IT’S REALLY FREAKING ME OUT, HELP. THE FUCKING PANELS ARE ALL WOBBLY-LINED AND THEY KEEP ZOOMING IN ON HIS FACE AND SHOWING HIM ALL BUG-EYED SCREAMING “WHO AM I” OVER AND OVER AGAIN OH GOD

OH SHIT!?!?

ACTUAL TWICE FLASHBACKS OH SHIT?! I was not expecting this oh snap. I am so into this

anyway, so he’s thinking -- with surprising coherence -- that because of his rough appearance, people were always afraid of him growing up

but also, what was that part about him not having a family? so he was an orphan then?? Horikoshi you are aware that I already love Twice and am emotionally attached to him, yes? but like if you want to hit me with even more feels and fuck me up some more then be my guest I suppose?

anyway so whoever he’s talking to here says Jin, who is apparently sixteen here, evidently hit some dude with his motorcycle by accident. oh shit

and baby!Jin says the guy jumped out in front of him and he was obeying the speed limit and everything

and the man he’s talking to seems vaguely sympathetic but says that regardless, it’s usually the victim who ends up winning these cases, and that Jin may end up with a criminal record. “but don’t let it get to you.” oh, sure. yeah, let’s just look on the bright side here

he says that no matter how many times you stumble in life, you can always start over

well shit is it any wonder this kid ended up going the villain route and making a bunch of clones of himself to live his best life? I mean jeez, he had absolutely no one on his side and was slapped with a criminal record when he was only sixteen. that shit is rough

oh fuck me and it just keeps getting worse

well that’s nice. so make that homeless with a criminal record, then. jesus christ he was still just a kid

so apparently his parents died in a villain attack when he was in middle school, and he had no relatives. I guess the state didn’t give a fuck either, damn

I find it extraordinarily easy to empathize with, actually! that’s one of the things that makes you such a great character!

so I guess he originally ended up making a clone of himself just because he was lonely. okay wow. not only does Twice continue to be the most likable villain in the series, he’s working his way up there as one of the most likable and relatably human characters, period

look at this shit! he’s just a guy who had a run of bad luck and tried his best to cope with it in whatever ways he could. there’s nothing villainous about him, he was just someone whom nobody wanted. he had his entire future stolen out from under him in the blink of an eye and had nowhere else to turn. he just wanted some friends for fuck’s sake

and so then he and his merry band committed a bunch of petty crimes. but they just needed some cash so they could live! like, all he wanted to do was just chill out and be happy. I got your back Twice. it’s not your fault

and then the flashback just kind of cuts to him tied to the chair in the aftermath of the clone hunger games. so I guess that’s all the backstory we’re getting as far as that goes. ngl I would have really liked to see just a bit more of the lead-up to that specific event. he’s such a nice guy that it’s a bit hard to picture him just suddenly going “RAWR I’M GONNA MURDER ALL Y’ALL.” but what I’m thinking is that all of the tragedy in his past contributed to him forming his violent alter ego personality, and that one of the clones must have just snapped one day and the rest is history

anyway so now we’re cutting to his first meeting with my new boyfriend Giran

ah okay, so he’s scared because if he actually is one of the clones then just a tiny bit of damage would be enough to finally do him in

btw Giran, possibly the one good thing Re-Destro and his buds did was getting rid of that scarf and sunglasses though bud. if you decide to change up your look after all of this, I’m not going to complain. there’s a reason I thought you were just some douchebag this whole time. obviously I shouldn’t have been so quick to judge you, I realize that now of course

but seriously Giran who wears sunglasses at night indoors. I mean, idk, maybe you get migraines or something. but if not I’m just saying

regardless, questionable fashion choices aside, Giran is actually a super nice guy, a mensch if you will, and he is now casually changing Twice’s entire life in the span of a few sentences. awww

how the fuck were you planning on smoking that cigarette while wearing a paper bag over your face. ??

also, Giran on this page kinda reminds me of Sanji, if Sanji was, like, a beatnik about to throw down on open mic poetry night

anyway so that’s the end of our happy flashback, and now we’re back in the present with Twice resuming his freakout!

but in spite of his mental struggles, he’s shaking the puppet clones off and trying to dash toward Toga again omg!

up in his little tower Skeptic seems fairly surprised

in related news, fuck this guy so much. also he’s using one of his puppets as a chair, which is one of the creepiest touches Horikoshi has put in this manga to date. but also they mentioned last week that Skeptic makes the puppets out of any human-sized materials that happen to be lying around, so I kind of wonder if maybe this dude originally was a chair. the mysteries of BnHA

moving on though, yeah, Twice and Toga really do have a strong bond though, don’t they? their chemistry is as beautiful as it is strange

oh shit but they really did hit him though

FUCK YOU F AND G

FFFFF SON OF A BITCH

DLASFKJLKJ PLEASE DON’T YOU FUCKING PSYCHOPATH, I CAN’T WAIT FOR YOU TO FUCKING DIE YOU ASSHOLE!!!

motherfucker! and we just established that he’s afraid that a broken bone will be enough to kill him if it turns out he really is a clone!

-- holy shit, but. on the other hand, if it doesn’t kill him though, that just might be enough to cure him of that particular fear once and for all. oh shit, unexpected plot twist

though in this particular situation it probably won’t make much of a difference how sane he is if he’s still got two broken arms though fuuuuuuuck

anyway... gotta click to the next page... even though I really don’t want to, sob

aaaaaaaand they’ve broken them. well shit. at least it wasn’t graphic. he’s just hunching forward and screaming and his arms are facing the wrong way, fuck

and now Skeptic is all “your legs are next,” and uh, can Twice actually hear him, though?? like, what? did I miss something here? is he piping his voice in through the shed’s convenient sound system or something?

anyway he’s telling Twice not to struggle anymore, and Twice is muttering to himself all darkly about how much that hurt

and apparently Toga’s regained consciousness now!!

wow Skeptic, okay sure, go ahead and keep talking about how you’re about to kill Toga in front of his eyes. just keep on digging yourself deeper. it’s like he doesn’t realize there’s only one page left in the chapter and things are just about reaching a tipping point and our heroes (?! I mean they are, though, for this arc at any rate) have had just about enough of his bullshit

lol I can’t take the tension omg

please do something badass please do something badass please d --

oh snap

Twiiiiiiice ;_; so it’s like I thought. they unexpectedly cured you of your identity crisis angst

anyway I guess this chapter is a longer one than usual because it’s page 15 now and we’re still going! so I will now resume my “please do something badass” chant. c’mon Twice. kick some assssssss

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS

THIS TIME I REALLY DID LEAP OUT OF MY CHAIR OMG. BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

LMAO ARE ALL OF THEIR ARMS BROKEN TOO. FUCK IT, IT DOESN’T MATTER. DEKU HAS SPENT APPROXIMATELY HALF THE MANGA WITH BROKEN ARMS AND IT’S NEVER STOPPED HIM*

*forest angst aside. and anyways that all worked out in the end, so

“wounded heroes are the most dangerous.” well fuck. given that we’ve just seen an exhausted and delirious Shigaraki eradicate an entire wave of people, and a bloodied and wounded Toga straight up murder one of the Army’s leaders, I think it’s safe to say we can apply this statement to villains too. and I for one can’t wait how dangerous a wounded -- but now sane -- Twice can be. motherfucker how I am loving this glorious arc