#late night dissillusion

[peepingcreek]

Just watched the john Oliver show about solitary confinement and it was super triggering. Im so fucking angry at out world for creating something so monstrous and horrible and TOLERATING and SUSTAINING the practice. As someone who was put in a hospital against their will for a month, the frustration and anger of being incarcerated is blood boiling. The rage and panic I felt about keeping my behavior good so that I will be seen as compliant and that I can earn my freedom was soul crushing. Never knowing if something else was going to go wrong or they were going to put me on an other medication. This country this economy, the politics the deliberately fueled confusion that people in power stir up just to line their wallets. All of these atrocities that they have done with my tax money ( that I have to file myself no-matter) everyone is constantly paranoid that they are about to fall off a cliff financially, emotionally (or maybe literally shoutout to our failing infrastructure) and we just have to keep buying things on amazon, worrying about how fat we are, making mundane conversations with people we don’t really know.